Newark evening star and Newark advertiser. [volume] (Newark, N.J.) 1909-1916, 1911-10-23

volved in that New York disturbance
the other night. Think of all we did
to keep you from even s~uspecting some
thing far less exciting. And he's a
reporter after all, and in n 10 way one
of us. Of course he's honorable, but
he's working up the Carucci side of 1t,
I'm afraid of what he may bring out.
perfectly removed from us in itself,
but that might suggest Oh, you see
what | mean"
IT wish I could hear from him.
said. II want to know what's hap
pening. But honestly. / think / o
the safe way with him, whatever hap
pens. It's much better to have him
know what he mustn't say than to
have him guessing all sorts of things
with no reason for not airing them"
Yes; but 1 wish nobody knew my
thing. We took a terrible risk"
81 did, you mean. If 1 spoke beyond
my authority, the fault is certainly
min Still, I'm not sure that I'm
sorry, and l won't plead that I meant
we'll"
She searched carefully through the
heap of flowers. mo, you're one of us
now-in a way. What you did was
Jul ~ iOl 4Ohl oNhOAy IL - - -
all right anyway, and you acted wisely.
Only I'm nervous about 1t, 1 suppose"
She leaned back YEARLY. st do get SO
tired of all this unnaturalness. Why
can't God let us live like other peo-
ple?p
1t was the first time I had ever
heard her complain; the first open con-
fession of the weary weight thai had
10 1, 81 Ian~ ,,na- hay. voc a0d IL ohOnIr
me so that for a little l did not trust
myself to speak, for fear I should not
speak quietly enough. She sat silent,
the light gone out of her as / had seen
it go on that first day, her hand twist
ing listlessly at her chain.
81 only wish I could be USE" I
said at last. a
She turned half toward me: "Sqme-
times I wish you could know" she said,
and her eyes of a sudden glimmered
and grew wet.
That was more than I could bear.
Lady" I cried, why can't I known
What difference does 1t make? Oh,
I'm not questioning you; I don't want
to satisfy my mere mind with your
mystery. I don't care what the expla-
nation is; I'm not after answers to
qu6StlOHS. But II ANT IndllSI 10 U.s.
whatever it is. Nothing can. When I
thought you we're married, that didn't
change anything really. 1t meant that
1 must go way, that 1 must never come
back to you. perhaps-but even that
was a little thing. And nothing else IN
the world could be as bad as that
even"
Don't. Please don't make it any
~worse-oh, stop telling me-listen"
She caught herself suddenly, holding
up her hand. The canary poured out a
long thrill that sounded like tiny
laughter.
"Sheila," I said. She's been walking
about up there all the morning. You've
got so that this nightmare doesn't give
you an hours eace. l don't care what
it is. You know that. You know that
7 couldn't be troubled by anything beS
hind you or about you. l never shall
want to know. But l want the whole
right to stand in front of you and fight
it, to take o away from this place
and make you forget and be alive. And
you know that no reason"
1 do not know what stopped me. The
canary was silent, and the clock licked
twice across the hush. Then from the
floor above a horrible scream cut
through me like a frozen knife; then
another, mixed with a heavy clatter of
feet. -
Ito BE Continued T~onorrOw.)