El Paso herald. (El Paso, Tex.) 1901-1931, 1911-05-15

- FAR WARREN-It is not quite
zen but the whole house is quiet
- They all go to bed here so early.
But I cannot sleep. And somehow l
want to write TO you
Dear, # only I could have taken tins
visit feeling that everything was
right between us, would have en-
5oved II But as If is, while I have
been here only day, already am
nervous and restless and thinking con-
stantlv of you. I am wondering IL
things will be any better when 1 re-
turn.
Oh. warreL. WHY can't we get
along7 When I love you so much;
when ] am willing to do almost any
thing TO make you happy, why do you
make II SO hard?
At times it seems that 1 can do
nothing to please you, that everything
I say or do only irritates YOU
Do you realize that for months my
attitude has been a strained effort to
conciliate you, to avoid your displeas-
ure 10 keep you in a good humor!
Surely that is not the province OF
wife.
Had She Been Assertive.
Sometimes feel it would have been
much better II I had been more assert
i've and not tried so hard TO please you'
If 1 had made you understand in the
very beginning that my happiness must
be considered as we'll as yours
I think my very servility. my very
eagerness TO apeease you, has, in itself,
become TO you a source OF irritation
And yet. how cen 1 change now2 IN the
few times 1 have tried, you have only
crushed me down and I have not had
the courage or the strength, 10 stand
out against you.
Oh. Warren-Warren- am AFRAID
of the future-afraid of what it holds
for US I did not tell you that mother
said II we did not have this temporary
separatfon now, we would have much
longer one later on
Done You realize what that means?
II mother even in her short visit with
us. felt we could not go on much longer,
that we were fast approaching a time
when . Oh, cannot put 1t into
words.
And yet I believe that, in your heart,
You love NE At least know you love
no one else. Whetever else I have had
to bear in these two years OF married
life. It has not been that
Somehow, now that 1 am away from
you. I realize il all even more clearly
than L did. and that IS what 1 am hoping
my absence will do for you
The Meeting With VIII.
And warren, something happened on
the trip out here that brought to me an
even stronger realization Of what your
attitude TO me has become-it was the
meeting Of VIII Farrell on the train
In the hurried note 1 wrote on our
arrival last night did not tell you that
he was on the train with us all the way
20 Indianapolis We met him in the
dining car end he insisted on mother
and I having dinner with him. And,
untH he left US at Indianapolis, he was
so kind. so thoughtful, and did so many
little things TO contribute to our COM
fort 1 hardly know how to tell you
how TO explain what effect all this had
upon me-. 1t has been so long since 1
have received any attentions Of that
kind.
with the exception OF the few months
before Winifred's birth, you know how
little consideration I have had from
you? Oh, Warren, you can't imagine
how I must feel when just the ordinary
courtesy of a friend should mean so
much to me
1 am writing this because there are
some things easier to write than to say.
When we are together our thoughts are
usually on the point Of dissension that
is uppernost at the time But now that
we are separated. 1 see things more as
whole And I am hoping that you
CUnffnished and not sent.)
(The letter she sentD.
Wednesday, May 8.
Dear Warren-It is not quite 10, but
the whole house is quiet. They all go to
bed here so early. suppose you viii
have received by this time the hurried
note 1 wrote on our arrival yesterday.
Today has been full Of interest The
morning 1 spent going over the house
and renewing old acquaintance, as it
were, with the things that surrounded
all my girlhood- In the afternoon Aunt
Laura and Cousin Irene and several
others called.
All In Love With the Baby.
They have all fallen in love with
winifred. And Z must tell you how
good she was on the trip She was
hardly any trouble
And who do you think was on the
train and was with US all the way tc
Indianapolis VIII Farrell We met
him in the dining car and he insisted
on mother and 1 having dinner with
him He was very kind and thought