The Ordway new era., 1910-08-05

come to my home. Very well. theh,
thought. there are other ways OF ac'
complishing the sacrifice that ! felt
bound to make. | would take my
dying husband elsewhere. and there
send for the woman whose presence
he craved.
Il did SO. l removed him to Allan.
tic City. and then ! sent for her, ana
she came. l brought her myself into
his dying bedchamber and ! saw them
clasping hands. 1t did not make mo
unhappy-that is. any unhappier than
already was. In fact, 1t rathcr
cheered me to think that l had done
something which. while 1t hurt my
pride little. perhaps. was making
others less miserable.
MIR. Homans died In Atlantic City.
She was with him at the time ana
she was very. very unhappy. think
that her presence In his last hours
made 1t easier for him. but at the
same time know that when he passed
away 1t was with a last look toward
me. and not to her-there was love
and there was gratitude to repay me
for everything in that look!
And then. but not until then. did !
feel that l had earned the right to
think of that other love which was
awaiting me and which ! craved SO. l
had no false sentiments about the
length OF time l should wait before
allowing myself to become happy In
the possession OF this love. ] had
been mourning. you must remember.
and l had been practically widow
for many. many years. There was no
reason why ! should prolong 1t more.
Entering Into Joy.
my actual widowhood after Mr..
Homanss death lasted for only
month. My marriage to Doctor Par.
ker was hastened by his belief. which
l shared. that tradition and conven-
tion amount to little when the heart
dictates that one should 60 against
their tenets; and when he insisted
on an immediate marriage yielded.
Besides, his vacation was about to
begin. and he wished to spend 1t. as
he had arranged. In the British Isles.
So we were married on June 20 by
Rev. George Clarke Houghton In the
Little Church Around the Corner. with
my dearest friend. Mrs. Mabel Barnes.
as matron Of honor. and only few
intimate associates In attendance. We
sail soon for England. and to me now
life is one glow OF bright sunshine!
Some Of my friends and. am
afraid, many who do not know me.
will not see my actions in the same
light that I do. know that l shall
be criticized for my kindness toward
Mr.. Homans. l have been told that
showed a lack Of spirit. that ! acted
foolishly. Lack OF spirit! II those
who have never undergone the agony
of those last days. with the attendant
humiliation entailed by bringing that
other woman into the presence OF the
man who should have been satisfied
with my love-if that does not show
spirit and plenty of 1t l am not able
to analyze the sentiment! only hope
that never again shall have to go
through such an experience Of self
sacrifice and self.eracement!
my meeting with Doctor Parker
was, OF course, unconventional. My
wooing by him was equally uncon-
ventional. Everything has been un'
conventional, perhaps. Why. then.
have been asked, did l so walt on con-
vention as to refuse to obtain a d.
vorce and marry my present husband
when I might have done SO months
and months ago? I reply, because II
did not seem right. am governed
in everything by that sense Of right.
and It never fails to make me happy
in the long run.
T believe that there is great hap
piness in store for me and my hus-
band. believe SO firmly in his fu-
ture He will never be very rich. per-
haps, because he is above all things
a student but shall have reason to
be proud of his work. He has done
some admirable literary work and is
will challenge attention. And. after
all, faith and love will bring the hap
piness which money has never been
known to purchase"
Mrs. Parker is still under forty,
possessing more than ordinary beauty
and rare gifts, including delightful
voice which has brought her many Of
fers for opera. She is not interested
in career for herself. though she is
planning one for her daughter, who.
inheriting her mothers vocal gifts.
will make her debut this coming fall.
And there Is the story of woman
who had the courage to wait. And
you see the same thing might happen
to any woman or any man. Only
how many would have the courage to
wait until fate opened the door to
happiness?