The interior journal. [volume] (Stanford, Ky.) 1905-1910, 1910-08-05

/ NE mnemUofc ebfffy vas prodi1loo9s
FOR al the years Of his life he had not
been storing up the insignificant, the
imnsscriAl. the unnecessary. IN hts
brain cells. He remembered all that
she taught him with unvarying aocp
rscy. His was . powerful. vigorous
mentality which had known nothing
and upon which she wrote what she
pleased. To the Judgment of . man
he added the receptivity and ductility
OF q child. '. -. .-.---'
She had taught him first OF all to
speak and then TO read then rudi-
mentary mathematics such as be could
do In his head. There was nothing
that she could devise that was prac-
ticable for writing. There was no
slate on the island, the rock was not
suitable. Therefore he had never
learned to write. although he knew
what writing was, for she had ex.
planned II to him. and had made SHIFT
to teach him the Arabic letters. She
also taught him geography, astronomy,
natural sciences. and above all. his
tory. She unfolded the kingdoms OF
this world and the glory OF them be-
fore his vision. touching lightly, a. has
been the fashion OF such unfolders.
upoa the misery and the shams. His
VS. singular knovledee indeed.
There we're soms things about which
she vas reticsnt. being Q woman, and
some thinss she could not tell him ~
~: sbuf, being . nan with ,imegina-
tsoa euicksnsd. be thought a these
thiAss tAs nors-for these we're some
a TIE tsspsr things 81 hfs and ne
tussi ., a. r.l .e'3. I.oa. D. "
But ne change IN the relations be-
tween the tvo we're not greater than
ths change IN the woman herself She
YES no longer . philosopher. That
which she had disdainsd. she admired:
that which she lad abhorred. she loved;
that which she had refused, she so
oepted. She was q Christian IN belief
- last Alone. or practically so. face
10 face With God in his world, God in
His Book, God IN humanity, her spe-
cious IDEAS Of life and her relationship
to Il had broken down. She had
learned to kneel beside that man and
pray. She had learned TO seek else
where than In herself for power to
enable her TO live her life and fuinli
her tasks.
She had not wished TO be q Cnris-
tan. She had fought against II, stYue-
Eled with n. agonised over II, but o
compelling necessity was upon her
The convictions OF her conversion tore
the veil from before her face. dispeilsd
the mist that hung about her. She
saw herself a. she was, . woman who
under the influence Of wrong ideas.
false conceptions. had branded herseif
forever. No. not IN the eyes OF that
God whom she had learned to fear.
not In the eyes that Christ whom
she had learned 70 love. but In the
eyes of men; yet she was a woman
who was pure in heart Perhaps these
thoughts and this consciousness had
more to DO with keeping her content
even that her intense pre-occupation
In the man and her vorh. for she req
lined what she would have to face N
she went back to the world which had
Knocked her while II applauded her.
That world. therefore, she now BEGAN
to fear. The one being upon earth
with whom she could be associated.
who knew nothing about II, who could
cast no stone at her. she realized was
the man whom she had made. and
this man looked to her almost as men
look to the Divine. Yet she felt that
some day he would have to know.
Some day she would have to tell him.
What then? That feeling was ever
with her. She constantly asked her
self that question and found no an
swer
Indeed, II was he who had taught
her the truth Of Christ She had not
been able. she had felt a strange I'M
willingness, II indeed II were possible, |
to break down the lingering remains
Of faith in that man. That babble OF
childish prayer had. in some strange
way. caught her heart strings. II was
the one memory Of intelligence that
had remained to him. Now that he
was capable Of expression. again and
again he had told her of the dim recol. |
boat with a woman and some animal
which she knew must be the dog. He |
could remember nothing of the inter |
course between him and that woman |
except that she had been good to
him-sometimes that is as much as
the wisest recall OF a mother-and |
that she had taught him and made him |
say always that prayer whose co
herency and meaning to her intense
surprise she found herself imparting |
to him. And she could not make up |
her mind to take from him the reality |
OF the only recollection that remained
10 him.
Her new belief an has been said. |
was both Joy and sorrow to her. Save |
for her experience In the ship she had
been happier In her philosophy She
had suffered grievously through her
trust In IL and In man. but her con
sciousnsss that she was fundamentally |