The Washington herald., 1910-12-03
by Jovs." I cried. Z hadn't thought

by Jovs!" cried, 4 hadn't thought
Of that?'
I've thought OF nothing else. That's
why I've stayed up and kept awake while
am so exhausted. II Leah comes back,
she must find me here. and not the
other one I must see her and find
out what has happened-we must ar
range for everything and decide what
plan TO adopt TO circumvent her. Oh,
must keep awake" Even as she spoke
her head dropped heavily.
You can't tell. then. when the change
is likely 10 Gomez"
Sometimes I have a feeling-a premo-
nition-like that night, don't you remem-
Der. when I was so blue? I knew that I
was going 10 change But usually I can't
tell. She has come lately, about two
days IN the seven, but irreguiarly- II
almost always after a deep, heavy sleep.
You remember how late she used 10 lie
abed? That's what worries me now. I'm
absolutely exhausted. and II I do fall
asleep. III go down deep. SO deep, I'm
afraid. that I'll change. Can you think
what a horror that is to me? / must
stay up till Leah comes. You must prom
in your power. But even then. what are
we going 10 do? How can we arrange
way for Leah 10 get along with here
That's whore / come into the game"
i said. Il think 1 can solve that prob
lem"
How did you get on with herr" JOY
asked timidly. II was gate as Il she
We're asking about another woman. and
feared to commit an impertinence. do
you like herr" she added.
Shes not TO be compared TO you. OF
course. But there's much that's llkable
abut her, and az least, We get on beautl-
fully. And so We shall this time. IL she'll
only let me stay. That's the difficulty"
"Oh. she'll let you stay. she'll be only
too glad. She likes you. Leah says" Her
brOws drew together. and / wondered
how much she knew.
We'll. then. I'll undertake to make her
keep Leah
"Oh. IL you can do that-on any terms
we can stand II. both of US. Leah will
suffer anything. I'm sure. rather than
leave me-"
zone thing more, then-since I must
have all the information II l am to do
anything-what does she know"
About me? Nothing. l think. At least
she has never been told. ] mean-Weve
always kept II from her She thinks
she's the only one
7 don't see how that can be pOsslbler'
ut does seem strange: but then. you
know she's mentally undeveloped In
some ways she's mere child And then,
too, she has never known II TO be any
different-why should she suspect tivat
there is another personality-that she
isn't the real Joy Fielding? SHE'S con
scious that she loses time, so to speak.
and she thinks II is only the fault of
her memory"
l thought Il over while Then l
said: she wouldn't say much about il
to me. and so I didn't quite get her point
of view. II battles me. She must know
that she does things in the lapses, even
II she doesn't recall them"
Il don't know that she's even aware of
that. She may think that she's uncon-
scious, during these lapses, but most
likely IL is just like dreams Even If
We vaguely remember them, for mo-
ment. we forget them, and they don't
seem to have been real-or. perhaps,
they're like delirium. or insane intervals,
or which she has no memory Why, a
man may even be simply drunk, and not
recall what he has done. and that self is,
really, a different personality"
But" I pursued. do yol. forget. too?"
Yes. That is, almost always. At times
have had vague formless memories, as
one has OF dreams-that's about as much
as this second life ever is associated with
my normal one-if what I now have is the
normal-how do | know even that? But
l have known about the duality almost
4rcs ri -
me Informed OF everything that happens
You see. sometimes I'm not even aware
that there has been lapse-I don't real
lie that il isn't just the next day. Leah
tells her as little as possible about me-
shes easily managed and put of. usually.
but somehow of late she seems to have
grown stronger. She seems to be develop
ing mentally. 1t frightens me little"
You don't think that anybody has told
her. possibly" / suggested.
There's nobody 10 tell her. or course,
Leah never would"
Uncle Jerdon?"
ION, he thinks I'm crazy, and he never
talks anyway. I'm sure. He doesn't
realize what's happening. for. after all.
We're not obviously different; she might
be taken Nor me in some queer mood.
1 mean she added
"King?"
Il believe he thinks that I'm possessed
Of devil. Which think I am" She
paused 10 smile family Anyway. he
minds his own business I have an idea
that he haSa reason for wanting to keep
quiet"
cor. lastly. then. the doctor?' ] put
II hesitatingly. yet I wanted to know
what she would say. Her answer was
prompt.
He wouldn't tell. I'm sure. Way he