The Bridgeport evening farmer., 1910-10-07

if you don't come and let me know what they aref
 She waited. Five days later there answer to indecision # Mas addressed o the sweetest dearest
 o n do nf Tno9 1hat aa 1t to a % and don't know how I am going to do ti absolutely refuse to tie myself with 5Soe mS2ef think tft here 1 aSs to to begin I'm oyer eighteen now and absolutely haYent done thing I've made fifteen dozen false starts. little d9b, a wfimpering little ineaseiy DUB ;. =. . nS a fo1 oage woF't yoa ars S dsa old ia @ a yfo oo are ys wsK off as o9eT st Eh & can't see But
 I'm awfull sorry you've gone and spent money @ @ have s ng R to give e 5a $ sc4t9n 0 o or o4F n @ % h to go get job somewhere as teamster or baggage
 You see, yos do'1t sndsyst0nS me- old honey. No body understands me Confou4d it all, d0nt pnder77 I'm going to get away somewhere by myself and work out the answer, you bet your bottom dollar.
 "Oh, rats soy that but don't believe 1t The thing ipoGssiPIg How gan miserable little ignQFamps only Yoa are b the 5 oGy RsFi0a @ ns earth @ 3 ss @ ,y wouldn't let you if you eoqd oOuldleout of mother: I must stand fall my own worth. to Alaska might go to South Sou 4 Africs might go fo you What good would it do7 am failure before Then anyway you'd have pack off the road just about the time that got there that's of the beau leave high and dry in the hardest city in this whole
 'No, sir-ee I've got to hike for new country some where. Maybe change and just blow around wouldn't it, for the fellow that can run hs transit eater this in calculus tending bar in Nome. can't yOu7
 Honest mamma hate to write this way to you But ME Please trv to forgive me You asked me to iet you into secrets you know aud so I've tried to do tomorrow. But I'm kind of nervesck and drrnpy
 "Td like to put my head in your and cry myself to sleep. Good night, dearest, sweetest old honey
 She finched and gasped What had they done to her boy out there those people? Wfere had 5e obtained how accept this letter She felt only one deny sd ognetel This G was o tbe I sb had known and io7ed His mind had been poisoned Parts with af1 offhand sentence-"tiat noble business of { sense of ss nhes n the mouth eae o h h helpless, dazed Her heart seemed bursting with sud- misfortune in the roons stiff air Her lip tFembled i violent !contro and with moan she sank down on ths and gently stricken and broken and utterly A ndone S down to think it all out She read his letter through .ndd tines sshia the haesPdabs sPd s & fSFsy 6 h b she got into it she realized that three ysr nP9rtan away from her conceTtrated academic minds bad been pushing him s had gotten R bold of j.; ideas so and Ra tragedy. then. Perhaps just little, everydaEs of blind force in revolt Thank Heaven, though, she said to her seH that was forcs If he was her hnd 1nervesck" He probably had been working too hard
 At this her love breathed back again. swept oyer her
  had made ready for him. and broke out crying again Her poor, poor boyl
 How couda great big child of eighteen know his own way against the confusion of scattered wordl Hov could boy that her boy help Jumping at everyk he had sunk back now, temporarily beNvndered and melancholy.
 Almost with domestic of putting her house rights she down now and told him all this in long sweet letter. which thrilled in every line witA silent comfort and softened 1ove letter which he was where it did him the good of all For the veT morning she posted it she got onepage scrawl wrap ped around two twenty-dollar bills; "fHoorayI Am off to Mexico with that Kansas Cfy3 could send you the $35 plus $s My job is to stand pit dry-nines have been flooded you see-hes going to teach me spanishz I'll pick t up quicker aye quiaro, Estado de Durango Mexico Did get ala fhatP
 1I love you-I love you-I love you.
 'We leave K c 56ag sS5znght I'll write eOs'y -6q5
 He had cut his kno4.
 Miss Belle La vue sat sicay in her little brc-abrac shrine Bebe wf1ined in neglect. Her eyes traveledl sppers I the bath robe the pictures the shaving set the geraniuns She felt that her sorrow was the comPlet had home; that noble business of hers had left hes no such illusions. But all she had asked for two stared solernnly his letter and the bills With her other hand she picked her annual contract siged that day-Merr1 Randall Company-on the road-hftyE dollars week
 He had thrown his doubts and hesitations over ha shoulder She knew him She knew he would live break his heart for having written the words thau uob1e business of yours" She knew that day he would work with all his love to build for himself and her shrine again such shrine would make her poor offering of chintz curtains and pen-and-in sketches seem miserable and childish She knew he would she 1new he would repay her all he could repay she knew he would love her always he had said hs would.
 But the pathos of motherhood fen on her sdumby there in the room She kissed the dog and held him tight her heart.
 "oh Beber' she nr~rnured. "In so lonely So lone