Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1910-07-16

They are of the same order as the d,
Pile of India who believe that the WI
should die on the funeral pyre OF !.
husband.
may be weaker than some wons
or | may be stronger. Possibly m,
have less depth OF feeling. though Ii,
will not admit. saw only In nunil
my grief a dreadful life before me.
recognized the principle that no ID
absorbing Ideas can occupy the bn1
at one time. | did all that. could
interest myself In what was about n
True, did not at first succeed. u
when | did only partially so. ! dresl
ed the word forget, and yet realhl
that to avoid suffering ] must tenn
rarily forget. forced myself to n
that after time l would be reunhl
with my loved ones and that med
while | must, except occasionally, d
them out of my mind.
made my home abroad. TIN
years after my bereavement marl
again. did so partly because VI
lonely, partly because I wished 70,
man to rely upon. as Is natural to d
woman, partly because the man md
ried assured me that I could give N
an interest In life and lastly becaus|
became attached to him. He was
American. like myself. and, bed
wealthy. gave himself up to stud
He lived abroad that he might Wi
books which required his presep
among the subjects of which he wrl
For FIVE years after our marriage
continued our residence abroad. ID
ing this period children were born
us. There was tacit mutual aGi
ment between us that should not n
about the world in which l had llyd
l saw that he would rather leave M
to me, considering himself as having
part In 1t. and had no desire to m,l
him part of 1t. He was absorb
in his literary work, and. IL ever N
him even where had lived he sd
forgot 1t.
Then he was called to America
the matter of some property that ne
ed his attention. 1t was agreed Y
tween us that he should leave me q
our children In Lucerne. where I
were then living. He expected to
absent not more than two months,
soon after his arrival In America
was induced to write for a publish
work necessitating his presence
| America. He suggested my comb
home with the children. but left \
to consult my own feelings In II
matter.
had never intended to return to 4
United States, dreadlng lest 1t wO
reawaken me to my lost world. n
with a husband and children ID
world had receded further and furt
from me till the consciousness Of
had grown very dim. I wrote my h
band that would go back to l
western hemisphere and remain The
was tired of moving about from
| place to another and the children VI
coming to that age when they shOS
have steady instruction at school,
boys l preferred to bring up in Am
lea. i therefore suggested to my u
band that he buy place in which 4
might settle. He replied that he agrS
| with me and would carry out my 81
gestions. Later he wrote me that
had bought place in the suburbs \
the city wherein 1t would be necess
for him to do his work.
We arrived after dark. was
lighted at our reunion. as were
father and the children. did not
where our home was to be. inte>
ed to be satisfied with 1t, pleased VI
1t. wherever 1t was. We took I'd
and in less than an hour alighted
station, where carriage was walt
for us. 1t was very dark when 4
reached our home and saw moth
of 1t till 1 stood in the hall. The
caught at a banister to prevent
falling.
was In the house l had left m
than ten years before with blighN
heart.
my dearv exclaimed my husba
starting toward me.
But In a twinkling had recoveH
myself. And what had enabled me
do so? The sudden appearance Of
object. All, those objects that CONE
us! How much more valuable oh1
times than realization. I must at
for the present spare my good
| the inexpressible pain of know
what he had brought upon me.
| Nothing" l replied. "a little Cd
ness at having been SO long rolling
sea-"
Nothing you don't like, is thei
he asked anxiously.
ION the contrary, am very \
| pleased. Let us see the rest of 1t"
He took me into every room In
house. a house that had been
twice since i had parted with 1t
both times with the furniture incl
ed. Not for the world would l
betrayed that these rooms. closets
ners, with every bed. table. bure
had been familiar to me from chi
hood. But when it was over pas
the night alone in room opening
one occupied by the children.
| No tongue or pen can describe
that night was to me.
When morning came found thi
/ could endure the first shock q
endure more. l deferred from dal
day telling what had happened.
husband was delighted with bis
chase. and before had gained
to tell him my secret he had beco1
fixture in it. Months passed
| years. My husband Is now an
man and my children are grq