The Ordway new era., 1910-10-21
By James Mcdowell.

By James Mcdowell.
7 AM a broken man. When killed
my wife. my interest In life ceased.
do not reproach myself now for
ending my wife's sufferings in the way
did took the hardest part. for the
memory of her passing away is always
with me. Now that am barring my
soul to the world. may perhaps find
peace. have tried everything else.
and have yet to md It.
Fanny was my child.wife. She was
the daughter Of my best friend. and
had watched her and loved her from
her cradle days. and when I married
her I combined the love for q child
with the love for a wife.
At the time Of our tragedy we were
about 100 miles from Calgary. the
nearest inhabited place. and were ap'
preaching the widest section of our
journey. We had been riding for four
hours without break. because l want
ed to complete our trip as soon as
possible. Fanny was q few feet ahead
of me. and the pack.mule brought up
tho rear.
We were both browsing In the saddle.
more or less overcome with fatigue
and the intense heat from which the
heavy woods afforded US little protec-
ton. whom suddenly was aroused by
a cry and. looking up. saw Fanny's
mule rearing on his hind legs.
thought that he had ben stung by
hornet, and hurried toward him. Be-
fore had advanced . yard. the brute
toppled over the edge Of the precipice
which yawned. and disappeared.
came upon the dead mule first.
few feet away found the shapeless
form Of my wife-every bone In her
body broken. Her head and face were
not badly injured. She had fallen
1000 feet pressed my canteen to
her lips. and the brandy and water 1t
contained brought her back to con.
sciousness.
"Jim." she moaned. "if you love me.
end my agony!"
I put my head in my hands and
groaned. knew that It would take
me ten days to bring help from Cal.
gary. and believed that poor Fanny
could not survive az many hours.
heard the bowling Of the wolves. and
the horrible truth that II left her to
summon help the beasts would make
short work of her came to me 30 clear
ly that l at once banished the idea
I stood by and watched the woman I
loved better than anything else In the
world suffering the tortures Of the
damned with not a single chance OF
recovery.
Every now and again. Fanny would
lapse into inconsistencies. and dur
ing these periods I would walk up and
down, wondering what course to pur-
sue. Should I kill my wife! felt
that to accede to her request would
be murder In the eyes Of men. But
that did not worry me. was willing
to commit murder to end her terrible
sufferings. But was there the faint.
est chance Of saving her? That was
the great point upon which the whole
thing hinged.
Again she opened her eyes. You
are a coward. Jim." she said. "or you
would kill me. You know I haven't
a chance to live and may suffer this
torture for many hours"
But. Fanny" groaned. Il can't
kill you. Some one may come along
and we could get you to help"
ITS ten days to Calgary. What
chance have for living that ten
days?" she asked. II can't live. any
way. am all broken inside Of me.
You are a coward"
For five hours this went on. Alter.
nately there were spells Of conscious.
ness in which my wife moaned and
shrieked with pain and reviled me as
a coward. and then came unconscious
ness. during which I saw that pain
still persisted.
At the sixth hour I could endure It
no longer. kissed her good.by. I
took my pistol and pressed the mug.
Gle Of It against her head. She closed
her eyes and said fire." but had not
strength enough to press the trigger.
and my arm dropped to my side.
"Oh. you coward. you coward" she
cried.
walked away that might think It
out all over again. The same prob
lens presented themselves to me. and
I could see only the one answer. Death
alone could end my wife's tortures.
Natural death might be delayed for
hours. perhaps even days. There was
nothing at hand to relieve the pain.
II I fell asleep. as I was bound to
sooner or later. we would fall ready
victims to the wild beasts. The wolves
we're already closing in on US.
For three hours debated the cues.
ton, and again decided to kill my
wife. And again faltered at the last
moment. And SO It went on until the
tenth hour.
MY wife's agony seemed to Increase,