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have less depth OF feeling, though that
I will not admit saw only IN nursing
my grief a dreadful life before me,
recognized the principle that no two
absorbing ideas can occupy the brain
at one time | did all that could Il
interest myself IN what was about me.
True. did not az FIRST succeed, and
when did only partially 40, ] dread
ed the word forget, and yet ! realized
that 10 avoid suffering ! must tempo.
rarily forget | forced myself 10 feel
that after time would be reunited
with my loved ones and that mean.
while | must. except occasionally, put
them out OF my mind,
made my home abroad Three
years after my bereavement ! married
again ! did so partly because ! was
lonely partly because wished for n
man to rely upon. as is natural TO any
woman. partly because the man ! mar.
ried assured me that ! could give him
an interest In life and lastly because !
became attached To him He was an
American, like myself and being
wealthy, gave himself up to study
He lived abroad that he might write
books which required his presence
among the subjects OF which he wrote
For Eve years after our marriage we
continued our residence abroad Dur
Ing this period children were born TO
us There was tacit mutual agree.
mcnt between us that | should not talk
about the world in which | had lived
saw that he would rather leave that
to me, considering himself as having no
part in Il, and | had no desire TO mako
him a part Of 1t, He was absorbed
In his literary work, and II ever told
him even where | had lived he soon
forgot H.
Then he was called 20 America on
the matter OF some property that need
cd his attention II was agreed be-
tween us that he should leave me aud
our children In Lucerne. where we
were then living. He expected TO be
absent not more than two months. but
soon after his arrival IN America he
was induced TO write for "A publisher
work necesstnting his presence In
America. He suggested my coming
home with the children, but left me
to consult my own feelings In the
matter
had never Intended TO return 10 the
United States. dreadng lest II would
reawaken me 10 my lost world But
with husband and children that
world had receded further and further
from me til the consciousness Of II
had grown very dim ! wrote my hns'
band that | would go back TO the
western hemisphere and remain there,
was tired Of moving about from one
place to another and the children were
coming 10 that age when they should
have steady instruction at school. Our
boys preferred TO bring up In Amer
lea. therefore suggested TO my hus'
band that he buy place in which we
might settle He replied that he agreed
with me and would carry out my sug.
gestlons. Later he wrote me that he
had bought a place In the suburbs OF
the city wherein It would be necessary
for him 10 do bis work.
We arrived after dark. ! was de-
lighted at our reunion, ns were tho
father and the children. did not ask
where our home was 70 be. ] intend.
ed TO be satisfied With II. pleased with
Il, wherever II was. We took train
and in less than an hour allghted al
station. where n carriage was waiting
for us. 1t was very dark when we
reached our home and ! saw nothing
Of II TIL stood In the hall. Then
caught al banister 20 prevent my
falling.
! was In the house | had left more
than ten years before with a bllghteh
heart
"My deart' exclaimed my husband.
starting toward me.
But IN twinkling had recovered
myself. Aud what had enabled me TO
do so? The sudden appearance OF an
object All. those objects that come TO
u.s. How much more valuable often
times than realizationl | must at least
for the present spare my good man
the indispensable pain Of knowing
what he had brought upon me.
Nothing" | replied "a little gaddi-
ness vt having been 80 long rolling at
sea"
Nothing you don't like. IL therer
he asked an1lously
"On the contrary. ! am very well
pleased. Let W see the rest Of II"
He took me into every room In tho
house. house that had been sold
twier since / had parted with II and
both times with the furniture includ'
ed Not for the world would ! have
betrayed that these rooms. closets, cor
uers. with every bed table. bureau,
had been familiar 10 me from child
hood But when Il was over passed
the night alone IN q room opening Into
one occupied By the children.
No tongue or pen can describe what
that night was % me
when morning came ] found that IL
could endure the first shock ! could
endure more. deferred from day 20
dag telling Whist had happened My
husband was delighted with his pur'
chase. s1d before ! had gained heart
10 tell bin ny secret be he'd become a
future ln H. Months passed then
years Ny husband Is new 40 old
man and my children are grown.
None II them know that their mother
has been Irving 10 ber second earthly
world
And yet. after aii. this coiDcnence
bas not brought me nnhappiness I
have heen living two eristences. both
IL which afe dear 70 ms the one seai
By. the other ID the far past and fu'
mre. the one N nesh aud blood the
other u spiritual form iD nfse Il
will be- 3 spiritual tDingling o. The two.