The Washington times., 1909-12-29

II AlC0eNE III ' LIED mas
come back with a letter say
ING that just at present they
regret. etc. etc. It's funny
how managers love TO put plays off. !
wish 1 could find one some time who
would take an interest in putting one on.
Friday.
Some one telephoned me this after
noon while I was out. I wonder II II
could have been Mr.. Holbrook. Il must
have been-the few friends I have in
New York do not know that I am here.
I'm sorry I missed him.
Sunday
The waking time is surely the hardest
time OF all; the whole weight of the
worsd-uy world-seems 70 descend up
on my shoulders. 7 did, this morning.
with unusual suddenness. and ever since
have been doing nothing with none OF
the eShilaration 7 usually feel when so
engaged In desperation ! went for a
drive in the park-it was too slushy to
walk. The cab horse evidently thought
IL was too slushy TO drive as well. for
when we got bac., and drove Up in state
20 the studio door, he promptly went
down on his knees, and seemed to he
offering up fervent thanks upon his safe
return.
After all, writing all the evening
Is not the most ideal way Of spending
ones time. though it may lead 70
fame wonder II Mr.. Holbrook has
gone 20 Boston. think I shall go 10
bed.
Monday.
M HoIbrook I'D not go to Boston.
He stopped IN for a few moments on
his way up town. and I gave him
some tea. He told me some things
shout my case-the papers were
served on Duncan In Chicago. Then
we talked about books. I love to
hear him say thinEs-so many people
ony talk.
II seems 70 me that have never
set a man who was so entirely sym
p9thetio and congenial. Our ideas
about things seem TO agree perfectly.
When he is interested his face lights
up with the most delightfully."- boyish
smile-irresisubly charming He
likes George Meredith as much as 1,
which is saying a great deal Tn
glad I have met him. He tells me his
wife Is still out Of town. wonder
what she is like.
think he would have stayed
longer II I had asked him. but
didn't. wish I had nowhere
seems to be something peculiarly
lonely about this studio. I think II
needs more furnishings.
wednesdaT
II has been bitterly cold today,
with a sky like ashes. II spring
would only come. or II I could only
go and meet II half way, how glad 1
should be. walked down TO Thirty
fourth street. and unfortunately met
Isabel Brennan She grfnned like a
Cheshire cat and asked after Duncan.
she knows very well that we have
been separated for over a year and a
half. She simply loves TO tear at
your heart, under the protection of
that everlasting smile. I wish Il
might always know where she is and
= great many other people are going
70 be. In time TO arrange to be some
where else myself
This ink seems 60 be all fur and n
am tired and lonely. and 1 wish
however, that's absurd.
Visits Theater
With Mr.. Holbrook.
Saturday.
Efr- Holbrook and went 20 a matinee
today suppose shouldn't have gone,
but neither OF US had a thing 10 90,
and after all I can't see that It did any
one any harm-his wife is still in Bos-
ton 1t seems. and I was particularly
anxious to see Willie COLLIER. We laugh
ed and laughed, and I forgot-and per
haps ne did-if indeed there was any
thing he wanted 70 forget I'm sure
two people so given to laughter were
never meant for tears. After the natl
nee Mr.. Holbroo'S suggested dinner, and
I hadn't the heart TO refuse. We went
TO the old l.. Such delightful things
7 hadn't eaten since 1 was IN Paris. The
experience put quite a gilt frame upon
mr. mind. We listened 10 the music,
over our coffee. until after @ and them
came back TO the studio. 1t is now
AFTER u, and nave been thinking
many unwlshed-for thoughts that, Ike
Unbidden guests. come and make them
selves at home in my mind and drive
away all the happy thoughts. Some
how Il seems as though 1 had stolen
al the pleasure Of today from some one
else-sOme one who has more right 10
II than 7, and yet ] was but a cleaner
- her neglected fields. I wish-bUt then,
have no right even TO wish Oh, jim
Jim, / strongly advise you 10 have moth
Ing further 10 do with me- 7 am terribly
afraid that l am a very wicked person,
Sunday
Here It IS tonight. as II has a way
81 being about this time OF day. and
somehow 7 haven't been able to work ]
very well I am lonely-that l. a bare
and miserable fact. She Comeback to- !
day. wonder n Jim Is happier, now. II /
ne loves ner she iE a lucky woman, but
not many women know how 70 take |
care Of that priceless gift. I'm sure