Evening star., 1909-04-11

to sting him to reply TO violence but he ,ust stooo
there. with one hand on the mantel and looked at
with such terrible eyes and his face drawn
and pale. And when | had finished he turned and
left the without word. Silence! All he gave
me back was silence and silence think is the most
awful thing in this world During that moments
silence, when had ceased speaking and he stood
still regarding me, the little clock kept clatter
ing on kick kick kick kick -bat -bat bat bat-
foolha ha- ha glug gug glug giggle
it taunted me. | wanted to smash II
He II never come back one. know he never will
He's too proud. | know those Sherwoods. They
all SO naughty! He never will come back to me-
For it was SO coarse and vulgar of me. 1t showed
him. suppose, all in a flash how utterly unworthy
/ was of him, and what cheap, petty nature have
How envy him! He could run away from me; but
l cannot ever escape from myself!
There stood if frozen stiff there by the hearth
stone and heard him close the door and call the
man to bring his horse. And then heard that hid
eous of the beast down the drive
and out on the pike. can hear it now,-I have
heard 1t and again in the long white nights
when the square clock goes chock chock-chck-ch
tlop-tock- -tockety- -klock, and my lover rides away
and all my JOY goes with him.
Father came down stairs about midnight and
found me collapsed on the floor. After that | kept
getting worse. l had struck my head against
chair as fell, and it did something to my brain
Father and mother questioned me closely; but l
never told them anything about our quarrel, just
said it a fainting spell.
Then followed long days and intermnable nights,
and it is hard to say which were the worse And
then they brought me up here to this hospital.
I
Griswod has been in to see me, and she was
sweet and svmpatheti that before knew it had
told her all about quarrel l made her solemnly
promise never to tell a living soul.
Yesterday Auntv said she had seen Henry. He
is in New York. Think of it! l suppose he will
marry Julie McGruder. She is SO rich and hand
him to be happy and marry some one worthy of him.
All last night kept waking up, though lately
I've been sleeping better. And whenever | awoke
| could hear my. heart beating; it raced with the
French cock-bump bump bump -bump-dub-dub
dubd bdub-bop-op- bop-op-bub- bub-dup-dup-so fast
and fierce.
l wish l could see him again! If he would only
pass along under this window!
And then heard the great clock in the hall, as
if it shook its head and sadly said, Nono-no-no
-no-nevermore- -oh-ho!'' l pushed my head
away down in the pillow and cried Oh, love him
so, and he IS SO grand and good, and would be SO
humble and sweet to him. and never, never give way
my dreadful temper. if it could all be undone!
But what's done's done,-go-go-go -go-on- -no-never
nevermore-walk- -on-forever and ever alone alone
And then started up with a scream that brought
the running to
What is - she asked
The clock-the hall clock!' l cried, and then
She was alarmed. What about to she said
1t has stopped! l cried.
And sure enough it had down.
SINCE l wrote yesterday things have happened
- l must chatter about it to somebody; SO it will
be to this friendly bit of paper.
Toward noon the nurse brought in great box of
roses. And Henrys card there. l made the
go out, and just took those in my
But YOU blame me? 1t sweet of him!
He did remember little! On the back of his
card he had written . For Auld Lang Syne"
The little French clock very gay. 1t kept chuck
ling,-hay hay y-hay-hay pat pat pat pat happy
happy-happy happy kckkick -klickety kick jig jig
snicker-srck. When looked up at it could have
sworn that one of its kevhoes winked at me.
Everything all right So long he
thought of me little tendery could go and live
Tock-tock-kro -krok-tick-tock, went the square
clock And then heard footstep the stair
top slip top tock-tock Some one was cominp