, 1909-07-08

,.at Won should have been as ociated
I'm auy way with my old life. AID yet
the We. fact that you were. first ere
ated the bond that has since drawn US
,ogether. You we're no longer a mere
sea a%dventurer. but an old-time friend
and equal. From that day all was
different. | could fight it back. bul
could never conquer what that discov-
cry meant. Oh, how mail this world
is, Did you ever hear of Doris Wins
low"
A moment the vague, clouded mem
DRY eluded me, tantallZed me. Then
in a flash the revela ion came.
My sisters chum at Wellesley"
The tears sprang glistening into her
eyes. her handclasp tightening.
Yes: does 1t seem possible? You
never knew me, except by that name.
My father died during the second year
of my attendance there; then mother
and | went abroad, and my education
was completed on the continent. | am
no finding fault. but-but it was all
most unfortunate: 1t brought me into
real life with a false understanding of
everything wrong ideals. wrong
standards. We were known TO be
wealthy. many considered me beauti-
flu; my mothers one ambition was
to achieve recognized social standing
in Europe, and from the first | was
destined to be a means to that end.
My education. surroundings, social 81
vironment. were all shaped with this
purpo in view. In spite of myself
tho raoulf uyac annOnnnlichah
II was merely a girl of II. desiring
little but a good time. n accustomed
all my life to the guidance of others.
Lord Darlington Joined our party in
Italy, and we journeyed together for a
week through the Italian Alps, finally
going on board his yacht as invited
guests Tor a cruise in the Mediter-
ranean. He vas most attentive to me,
yet | gave it scarcely a thought. /
hardly realized what was taking place
what 1t all meant. OUTPUT one Gay
we went ashore, and-and we were
married at the British legation in
Athens. That day | vas a careless
girl: the mex morning found me a
roman regretful. aroused from a
dieam. yet yielding to the inevitable
Whai ever | suffered was borne alone;
-~5T even my mother ever heard me
4 complain"
She sat looking forth over the cress
or the sea, the moonlight rejecting
back into her face. The sail swung
In and Swallowed her.
Within a month we went &c Eng
land. to Darlington hall, where every
thing was at my command. and later
to London, during the social season. ]
had all that the world seems to value al
my feet and at first | managed to be
saIpy after a fashion. The excitement
II exhilaration kept me alive and i'll
tere sted, but in time the glitter and
i~rtiiciality of it al; sveariei me; more
and more deeply | realized the sordid
manner in which | had been sold, and
| grew to hate those things which had
purchased me. 1t vas not Lord Oar
lington-he was more father han hus-
band. humoring me in every way. and
secretly regretful for his part in the
transaction. became i'll, begged for
the sea, and we went aboard in his
Yacht. He was not unwilling, but to
my mother it proved a constant hard
81 IN. Only her anxiety to prevent any
rupture between us caused her TO go
boar. Yet even when | had re-
covered health l would not go back;
h hat life would have killed me, Out
in the open | could breathe and live;
ii yielded me courage to continue as
was"
She bent forward. bringing her face
once again into the revealing moon
n.
light, her eyes fra ky open to mine.
IL only wish | could make you re-
"a alize how drearily lonely that life be
came. There was no knowledge OF
love to complicate the situation. and at
first l even felt a sense of gratitude
toward Lord Darlington for many acts
y of kindness and the consideration
shown me. This changed. however, as
began slowly to comprehend the self
ishness of his motives-that his ac-
ions arose merely from a certain
pride in my youthful appearance and
Z the advantages to be derived from my
We alth. NV mother 1901 alienated my
affections by always allying herseit
with him Finally | had no one to
( whom | could turn for comfort mr. ad-
vice. felt entirely alone. ain grew
Silent. suspicious. and adverse to all
social pleasures. The vows OF mar
rage rested lightly on Lord Darling
ION but for that | did not greatly care,
t>aant that the knowledge snapped
the iasr weak bond between us Al,
nest wild to ESCAPE from Europe and
its t%orturing memories finally
nianred an extensive yachting trip
around he world. | was impulsive'
headstrong. even hopeful that | might
be permitted to invite a few congeniai
iriands and sail alone. To my surprise
l.ord Darlington expressed pleasure
in he idea, and even persuaded my
mother to accompany u.s.