Evening star., 1909-07-18
Evelyn ThaW Talks Unreserv-
edIy of Her History.
TELLS OF HER SACRIFICE
WHY She Humiliated Herself on the
Witness Stand.
SOUGHT To SAVE HER HUSBAND
Says That She Has q Code Of Ethics
and That She Lives Up
to Them.
pecial Dispatch to The Star.

NEW YORK, July 17-Evelyn Nesbit
Thaw in an interview today told the
first comprehensive story that has ever
come from her lips of the events con-
nected with the ragedy on the Madison
Square Garden roof ON that night In
June three years ago This takes into
account her other recital on the witness
stand of her relationship with the victim
of her husbands hatred. She said:
II have no desire to pose as an example
for young American women to follow.
I want no one to have illusions as 10
what | am. But l am just as anxious TO
end for all time the ridiculous nonsense
that Is being spread abroad as portray
ing me- / want two things thoroughly
understood.
THE first one is that 1 have never
committed any crime. / am young
woman whose unfortunate up-bringing
has ended in my being connected with
sordid murder in which / had no part
and which 1 tried for three years to
prevent.
During my married life with Thaw I
lived at home as quietly and with as
much regard for the conventions as any
woman ever did. / may marry again.
IL is all question In my mind as to the
advisability of giving up career | have
mapped out for myself or of settling down
to rear children in the fashion of good
housewife and mother.
Has Her Code of Ethics.
IF you will have the truth, l am dis
tinctly immoral, as the world today views
morals / have my own code of ethics
and l live up to them. But from present
day ideals l am immoral. There is no
question OF it."
And here Mrs. Thaw made 1t known for
the first time that there is man OF
whom she thinks more than of any one
else IN the world. She would not tell his
name.
But am not a bad woman" she went
on, lin the sense that l spoke OF bad
women in that first trial. If l make up
my mind to marry the man / love shall
do 1t. and the world will hunt in vain
for chance to accuse me of indlscre-
tion.
If, on the other hand, / reach the con-
clusion my art means more to me than
the raising of children: If l decide II ls
not right for me to become mother ana
stigmatize children with the curse that
has been brought upon my name l shali
tell the man / love, as ! have already
told him should do, that | cannot marry
him; that our marriage would be thing
to hurt US both later.
1T Is not strange then that when STAN
ford White singled me out and bought
me a pearl drop that cost thousand
dollars and let every one know he ap-
proved of melt Is not strange. thought
he was the most wonderful man in the
world. But mistake No. 1 comes right
here. and. by mistake, / mean the pop
ular impression that was gained from
my cross-examination on that first trial.
You will remember / swore on the
white that left me unconscious. also
said I recovered from the i'll effects of
that drug in less than three hours:
dressed and went home. At the time
one doubted the truth OF that statement
But 1t was true. And. what Is more, Dis.
trtct Attorney Jerome has told me since
he had discovered what he had believed
was impossible-that there Is not only one
drug, but three drugs that can do this.
1T isn't true that / hated Stanford
White then or at any time. He was SO
much finer and bigger-hearted and more
considerate OF all women than any men
one meets In the ordinary course of
events that his unhappy attitude toward
women and girls is a fault to be mini
mized in summing up his whole life
career.
Her Love for White.
"Thaw stole me away from White,
just the same as men in the stone age
stole women. if folklore says such
things happened. and 1 understand that
is the way the old tales go. For more
than a year before that Christmas night
in 1903 l had seen White only occa-
sionally. But he was my protector, my
patron, If you will, and l loved him
more than l ever had loved any man
or woman in my life. my mother AMI
father not excepted.
And right here, before we get the rest
of II. let me say it was not easy-what I
forced myself to do on that wi ness
stand. Do you think I followed my in
ciinations when ! sat there and looked
at that grinning Thaw down below me,
that miserable man whose life l was
swearing my heart away to save, and
told secrets / would have KEEP from the
world at the cost of my own life? It
wasn't easy. But 1t was following out a
determination ! had made with flash
of his revolver that night on the roof
garden. That's ALL