The Washington times., 1909-12-30

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purely professional bounds. Her reserve
is a barrier az first buf hor loneliness
dghts with his magnetism. and she finds
herself yielding. Her diary during This
time as a record or Fou'-struCEI0. with
-lntlnatious thu tho head viii. win over
rhos heart when this finally occurs she
sends the diary Co M- UDIhruuk and goes
sc0By. and his wife. lcfJ alone while hc
follows tho other woman has found
ana is reading h.
rfsr
4 T.Secmg horribly lonely. lying here
an dsv NY head aches too much
Ito write. except i'm this foolish
diary have one ucycr-faiIiug
source of amusement which may result
in a mild attack OF hydrophohia- The
Wall paper i'm this room has queer
squire in IL, that looks just like a funny
Httle. fox terrier with very laT-C head.
There are thousands OF him, am over
the wall. somehow it makes me feel
81 fines that the happy hunting
grounds are within easy walking dis
tsnce.
Pine doctor said today that ] was con-
valescinE fast. and looked more inteIli-
gent looked at myself I'm The mirror.
but-couldn't notice it. Jim sent me
huge box Of violets today must tell
him to stop 1t when I see him, he'll
ruin himself 7 nope ne saIvel his con-
science by sending a similar box home.
Perhaps, however, he figures that this
II merely polite attention to a sick
client Whatever he thought. I enjoyed
them Immensely. / suppose he couldn't
come himself.
thought today that the vocal teacher
on the floor below had lost his voice, and
7 intended to write him a little note of
oougratulatlon, but L learn from the
maid that he is only out of town. I am
sorry 10 hear this That man has mis-
taken his calling. It should have been
trains.
tried 10 write a little today hut 7
couldn't Every time I started out 20
say one thing It seemed somehow to-
turn into something else that didn't
want TO say at all I wonder when ]
shall ever finish that story for the
Home Magazine-it was promised for
the fifth.
I-dsrned some stockings instead. 7
wonder II she darns his.
Thursday.
BY patient procrastInatiou have
succeeded in getting through this day
without doing a single thing worth
record. I've felt horribly conscience
stricken about Jim Holbrook all day.
but tonight I've put all minor considera-
dark, and have been wishing hard all
the evening that he would come In.
He didn't. don't believe in mental
telepathy.
Doctor Comments
Upon LangUid Appearance.
Saturday
The doctor commented upon my Ian
E5id- appearance today. I felt like toll
fw-nT
actually had the nerve 20 try to Hirt
With me I wonder ar look like that
sort never thought SO, myself
I've had Il queer homesick feeling
todsy'-hopeIess enough. when one hasn't
any home except perhaps some i'm
agiped, ideal one, and I suppose II I
ever find that il viii not have a Ito
let sign I'm the window J am con-
WINGED that when n woman like myself
meets a man Ike Jim ITclbrook under
circumstance such as those which now
surround us. the chaaces are just about
ten TO one that tho -isest thing they
both could DO would , 20 ruin I'm oppo-
siD6 directions as ha-j as possible and
neVer-look back
Tuesday.
I've had a brain searching headache
all day. and ! haven't seen Jim. I'm
see him. Yesterday ne talked about
hef-a little. I have pictured her as e
large cold-looling person with a severe
exnression about the left eyebrow, but
JfTnHsays she is very pretty. SO 7 must
lie wrong II seems also that she is
horribly Jealous and refers to me as
shat woman" 4 don't care for that
pression-somehow it carries with It
q feelinE of Wickeducss that I don't
think I deserve. It also seems that she
objects 20 his thinking, or at least say
ing that he thinks, any other woman
bright or clever, or good-looknS, or
IN fact. anything at all. There must De
but-sone woman I'm the world heF
vrofTd and Jim's, and she is IT, what
foois -vvounen are as soon ds they marry,
n mast BY demanding The ImposaiHie
they cause the very disasters llt1 ~
fear He said hc took her 10 an eNil!p- De-
ton of pictures al the Alh'i le0i' ''"i-
leries the other daN. ana ahe g,,,'l.. ..
the nudes OVERRIDING, ana insisted on
leaving the place at once ih L,ll1-
Hauz- bunny, z don't wonder he looks
gsd At times. s.-r5a.
This morning ] went out Tor the hr5t
time. and took a. long Walk 4N '.'
mark strangely enough, met JtHi
he was walking along ana l9'h'N NJ
tfsrL I asked him what Tho trouble
va nut he wouldn'r tell me FOR O.
long time. When me did, Coulan neip
i.u9blnr. II seems ne had given her
one OF my stories IN q recent Hnaz5a5z y. =.
rs read and she had torn lt mp lh O.
an, ana locked herself ln her room.
In tears What a pity. 10 must have
spoiled hts day, and such neauJiu'
da,-. foo. we walked around the lake,
andufaIked very little 7 wonder if Jim
understands her-if mo really tries 10.
var hard. or is it that she does not
understand him2 IIo said that she bit
terlv resented mis- friendship for me.
and perhaps she is right. although if
has been so harmless and has meant
much 20 me, and 7 think. too. .u "a way.
10 him. Evidently she loves him. and
poesibIv women who love much have a
far-reschiuE prcseutimont NJ danger
which makes tICm fight. even il the
smallest tHIucS. against what they
fear or it may be only the property
idea. the primitive idCa or possession
that so many women have. and that
has. J think. so much 10 DO with tho
general unhaUpucs7 Of marriage
After all. it is not slavery. this thing
Of love. and ] cannot see why should