The star and Newark advertiser., 1908-03-28
HUGE DOSES OF
COCAINE DRIVE HIM
TO INSANE FRENZY
Former Minister Uses DiaboIicaI
Ingenuity to Indulge
in Habit.
TORE LIKE FIEND AT
DOOR TO GAIN FREEDOM
Face of Girl He Loved and
Church Where He Ministered
Haunt Him.

Tracing his downfall with a mastery
pen, the former Essex County minister
today continues his confession of a co.
caine fiend.
In publishing this confession THE
EVENING STAR has desired to por-
tray to its readers the depths of degra-
dation to which the victim of the drug
habit can fall
Sheriff Sommer, to whom the confess
sion was sent by the minister, said to-
day that 1t should point moral to all
who have been tempted to yield to the
insidious narcotic &
Part VII. here follows:
PART III.
"Ah! days of unspeakable horror
days when the whole world turned
| against me and a nightmare of perse-
cution pursued me with internal ter
rors. No longer was I visited by serene
lavings of thought No more came
these white nights of dreamful pleasure.
The rooms began 10 fiji themselves
with ghostIy prcsenccs and to ring
with uneRrthly sounds. Remember. 1
nm simply telling exactly what 1 ex-
pericnced.
Memory, instead of filing me with
images of the gladness of other days,
searched among the hidden convolu
tions of my brain and brought forth
every recollection of anguish and fear
The face of the girl l had loved fow
years ago often appeared before me,
surrounded by hideous phosphores-
cence, and the little church of stone
where | spent three years of life dotted
itself all over the floor in miniature
images an inch high, until was afraid
to walk for fear of stepping on them
IDiects syringefuIs.
1.-THE first intimation my family re-
ceiyed of my growing insanity was
scene which took place one night in
Our parlor. My brother had become
sick at heart from his anxious watch
ing OF me, and, disnayed at my devel-
ish tricks to secure cocaine, the whols
family were at their wits end. While
they were taking counsel as to the best
thing to do with me, their vigilance
was for the time being somewhat re-
laxed.
"AccOrdingly, 1 used the drug to
frightful excess. This night had been
injecting cocaine In great syringefuIs
of a Strong solution into nay breast,
directly over the heart. MY excite
ment Increased untiI II became n frenzy.
ssAt last. becoming frightened. [
Thoughts L would descend to the parlor
where It wars cooler, and try to COM
pose myself by lying on the sofa in the
darkness. With tottering steps Wen
down the two flights of stairs and en-
tered the unlighted room.
"With n shudder of horror 1 found
that IL was filled with hideous old men
with blazing eyes and long white
boards. They crOuched behind the table,
lay at full length on the floor, sat on
the chafrs-were everywhere-images
of cruelty, gnashing their yellow fangs
and pointing at me with Iknotty fingers.
"At the same time a steady metallic
song of a far-off bell came to my ears,
and the laundering rumble of what
was sure was an ambulance grew ever
louder Maddened with terror, in my
stockinged feet as I was, 1 sprang to
the door leading to the street and tried
to get out of the house.
Begged to BE Saved.
eT uttered a yell TINT was like the
wall of n soul In torment, and ragged
and tore mt the locked door. digging my
nails into 1t with the despair of "a Gagged
animal.
my brother ran downstairs, and TAX
ing nne in his strong arms laid me upon
the sofa. My mother sat near me and
held my hand l was simply maniac.
/ called upon God with pitiful cries. l
implored my brother to save me from
being dragged away, knew not where.
In vain they tried to soothe me and to
assure me that they would not allow
me to be taken away from the house"