The newspaper., 1908-03-20

are getting well, and like what you doing.
Yes have been ILL., but rather lucky to escape the
cold weather being tucked away comfortably in bed.
Later-Yes of course will be friends exhortation.
admonishment, encouragement, you shall have them
all by letter like In these days OF leisure. have
had time to think and so have learned to think OF
things differently. Life is short there IL hardly time
for anything except as St Paul says,-wasnt It st.
Paul?-to be kind to one another.
May 20th.-You l think most weak person
Why you doefu? Does nothing satisfy you
for more than day or two? know you are clever,
intellectually all that he desired, but what's the
good OF that when the rest Of you Is so weak. Doyou
want to be pitied? | can not really pity you. You
healthy, young. fortunate for that and
persons who are everlastingy claiming pity and sym
pathy. are very wearing.
In her next letter written July 81 she writes-Your
letters written since the illness and death Of my step
mother. have been kindness itself Thanks for them.
July 18th she gives him her address, since they
are obliged To cut down expenses, and reduce exist
to the crudest eleneuts,-You shall not come
Jena Why you should want to me- IL altogether
beyond my comprehension. II eyer you do come you
to bring your wife.
GALGENBIsnG. Dec. 18th.
oh, can do nothing with you. You are bent. I'm
afraid. losing your friend. Don't write such
letters-dont. don't, don't My heart sinks when
you deliberately setting about stranging
friendship. Am TO lose IL, then. that too? Yourlast
letters are like bad dreams. strange and unreason
able. without the least order selfcontrol Tread
them with my fingers I'm my instructive fool
ish mo 'ement OF protection against words do not
want to hear. Dear friend do take your friend
ship from Pull your-eli together. give yourself
shake come out from those imaginings soul has
gone To dwell among. what shall ! talk To you
about. this bright Winters morning. Yes. I win
write you longer letters you need not beg hard.
but do try To be happy.
Well. there il help. then. You VIII do IT, You
Will put end You have written me a love
letter the thing have been trying hard for long
to stop your doing. and there Is nothing to lie done
but to drop into silence
what there possible except silenceg will not
marry you. / cannot, after this keep you my
friend.
Jan. 18th
oh. have tried. have hoped to keep youl IL has
been sweet to II has made everything, dir
ferent. For the second time you have wiped the
brightness out Of my life.
Leave alone. Don't torment me with Wild let
ters. do not love you | VIII marry you. I
cared for you sincerely n friend, but what a gulf
there is between that and the Abandonment OF wor-
ship last year I'm Jenai Only just that, Just that
breatbless passion, would make marry. and 1
would never feel 1t for man am forced to pity IL
not worship lookup n rapture of faith? cannot
look up 20 you. | have no faith In you. Leave me
alone. ! am very sorry for YOU know the horrors
Of loving somebody who doesn't love you. And II ia
terrible for us both that you should not understand
me to the point. as you OF not being able
leve me. have not always understood myself but
here everything seems 80 plain. Love IL not "A thing
you can pick up and throw into the gutter and pick
up again as the fancy taxes you ] am n person.
unfortunately for you, with quite peculiar dread of
thrustng myself or my affections any one of in
any way outstaying my welcome. The would
love would be the man could me for ever
do not trust you. did outstay my welcome once
! did get thrown into the gutter and came near
drowning In that sordid place. Oh call me hard
wickedy revengefu unbelievaby cruel II II makes you
feel less miserabe-but will you listen a last pro-
phecy? You will get this = surely as Won have
got over your other similar vexations and you win
live to say, "Thank God that German girl-what was
her name? wasn't II Schmidt? Good heavens veal
thank God, she was SO foolish not to take adyant
ness" ~
And am bitter forgive me.
Jan. 27th.-No, II would be useless.
Jan. 29tb-I would not See you
JAN 81st--I do not love you
Feb, 3D. will ever m