Ottumwa tri-weekly courier. [volume] (Ottumwa, Iowa) 1903-1916, 1908-06-18


Having taken the notes to his old
bank, he drove on to ST. Martin s
street and rang the bell An old WON
an answered it, and informed Fabian
that the gent arI his daughter had
left the night. before, and she did not
know where they had gone to. His
failure to buy their address for SOY.
sseign, afterwards raised to five, con-
vmced him that the old woman's re-
grets at being unable to furnish the
information were genuine.
He only discovered that they had
taken very little baggage, and that
the room containing the glass case
was cessible-sealed up. 1t was an
awful blow to the young man. He felt
the shadow of an unknown terror
creeping on him, the torture of intan-
gible fear, which has more power to
rend the nerves, to make hell seem a
possibility, than any other earthly
sensation. And he must live alone with
sit-he dared tell no one!
/ He walked very fast, trying to dis
ltancesthe gathering shadows, to es-
tcspes from his thoughts. He had no
idea where he was walking till he
Efound himself among converging
tstream OF cabs heaped up with lug
}gage; and recognized Euston Sta
ton. Then he knew where he was be-
ling guided to-Oxford! Yes, he would
fgo back to the happy routine of uni
lversity life, get ordained, and, clad in
the aTmor of holy, ascetic life, defy
1.-THE powers to whom he had momen-
tarfU yielded himself
Oxford, with its many spires and
4churchly buildings, had calming eff
feet on Fabians nerves. He felt that
in the cdoisSer Of his old college he
had found sanctuary from which he
could regard all the events which had
happened since he had left it as a
had dream. The Dean, with whom he
had always been favorite, smoothed
all diff cultfes in the way of his taking
up his life where he had left off, and
getting ready for his ordination
He went to sleep in Oxford that
night feeling that the future would be
faced, that he would soon get used to
the strangeness Of his personality, and
that the dark chasm which had open
ed up between his past and his pres
emit would close up.
But next morning, as soon as he got
OuL VI UCu, uC W1Olo III LIS uldly
Now, at last, l know the meaning
of the statement, We are all miser-
able Sinners for Evil and l walked
hand in hand last night. And it was
more than dream. In some way
have given powers of evil-frightful
material denominations to me.
We are born in iniquity, and in sin
did our mothers conceive u.s. All
true, for l know now that l can sin
without shining, feel soiled by CRIME
which never touched me. And yet, a
dream so vivid as that is reality, and
i was one of that crew, revealing, grow
cling, and wallowing with the worst
of them. Shall I ever know again
what it means to have peaceful con.
science? Shall ever again be free
from remorse? If Christ, Who took
upon Himself the sins of all the world,
feel what feel, that must have been
the real crucifixion.''
Fabian Dare laid down his pen and
looked across the table at a mirror
hanging on the wall Something he
saw in it made him look more closely
at himself. He passed his hand across
his face and looked again Then, in a
sudden frenzy, he picked up boot and
hurled it at the reflection of his face.
1t disappeared with the shattered