The Richmond palladium. (Richmond, Ind.) 1906-1907, 1907-01-22

/ am bearing 1t nobly and have devel-
oped tastes / did not know l possessed.
And no one seems to think 1 am out of
place, nor do feel so, only-do not tell
James-there are movements In my
heart at times which make me shut my
eyes when the lights are brightest and
dream. IL but for an instant, of home
and the tumble down gateway where l
have SO often leaned when some one
you know who ii is now, John, and
shall not hurt you too deeply by men,
tioning him-was saying good night
and calling down the blessings of heav-
en- upon head not worthy to receive
them.
Does this argue my speedy return?
Perhaps, yet do not know. There are
fond hearts here also. and a life in this
country's center would be great life
for me If only / could forget the touch
of a certain restraining hand which
has great power over me even as
memory. For the sake of that touch
shall l give up the grandeur and charm
of this broad life? Answer. John. You
know him and me well enough now to
say.
DEAR JAMES Why must | write?
Why am l not content with the mem
DRY of last night? Is it because that
when the cup is quite full, cup that
has been so long in filling. some few
drops must escape just to show that
great joy like mine is not satisfied to
be simply quiescent? 1 have suffered
so long from uncertainty. have tried
you and tried myself with so tedious
fv,Io ;-s~
other man can ever move my heart as
you have done the ecstasy of it makes
me overdemonstrative. / want to tell
you that love you; that do not sim
ply accept your love. but give you back
in fullest measure all the devotion you
have heaped upon me in spite of my
many faults and failings. You took
me to your heart last night and seemed
satisfied. but it does not satisfy me
that just let you do it without telling
you that l am proud and happy to be
the chosen one of your heart and that
as l saw your smile and the proud pas
sion which lit up your face l felt how
much sweeter was the dear, domestic
bliss you promised me than the more
brilliant but colder life of a states
mans wife in Washington.
DEAR james, do not, / cannot, be-
lieve it. Though you said to me in
going out, Your father wiz explain it
ALL l do not content myself with his
explanation and never will believe
what he said of you except you con-
firm 1T by your own act.
Oh, James, were we not happy? l be-
lSlV md fol flat
in me. When we stood heart to heart
under the elm tree twas ii only last
nightD and you swore that if it lay in
the power of earthly man to make me
happy l should taste every sweet that
a woman's heart naturally craved, l
thought my heaven had already come
and that now it only remained for me
TO create yours. Yet / trust in you |
yet, James. and if you bid me to con-
tinue that trust l will do so with all |
my heart and never ask you to solve |
this or any later mysteries for me. 1 |
do not confide with half heart. give |
you all or 1 give you nothing, a fact |
which will either insure my happiness
or my ruin. l do not know which. I |
am as l am. Do you think my fathers |
words would satisfy me or that / i
would or could believe them when they /
accused you of base and dishonest /
act? James. you should have waited
and not left me to the misery of hear
ing such an accusation. an accusation
Of theft, and theft of money, from one
could not contradict-that is, IL you
knew what he was going to say. But /
perhaps you did not. Much as l have
always revered and loved my father,
ind myself hoping that he has said
other words to me than those you ex-
,ected him to. That in his wish to see
ne Philemon's wife he has resorted to
IN unworthy subterfuge TO separate us
Ind that there is no truth in the story
ne told me last night or at least not the
ruth he would impress upon me.
IT his account Of the interview be-
ween you is correct one aud you
ave nothing to add to ii in war Of Ak