The Salt Lake tribune. [volume] (Salt Lake City, Utah) 1890-current, 1906-03-11
THE WIFE YIELDS.

My Beloved Husband-Forgiye me for
what / said In my last letter, that which
sprung, az | ncw clearly see from an un-
warranted fit of Jealousy. l know 1 am
sinful and unworthy creature to have
entertained such sentiments knowing the
high integrity and moral courage or my
dearest friend, The loVeliest and best huS-
band In the world.
How nobly you conduct yourself In this
molly mission! Would that l could be with
.ou, that l might listen again. as in the
old days In Tennessee, TO your sweet
nclodous voice eXpounding the Way or
Life" Then woulo my bosom rise with
ptide. oh, how proud 1 em of you! How
faithfully you have served the Father
~ hat L glorious reward awaits you And
| Gs ponder over YOUR past and present
work for the Cause, under many trials
have fulfilled the words of St John;
Greater love hath no man than this. that
man lay down his life for his friend
You have always been so kind and true
10 me: and your every letter makes me
love you still more. Your present absence
makes me once again your little sweet
Eeart OF eight years ago. l feel we have
not been married all THESE years; that /
am now writing. with all the fcrvor of
first love, TO the lover of my heart who
VIII soon lead me forth q happy bride
But yet how much dearcr is II TO think
that we nave been constant lover and
sweetheart for more han eight years,
proving that We were divncly mated. and
That our love shall endure forever and
cEternity How sweet such truths arc to
my soul.
After reading in your letter of my not
yet having oScl come the training of my
hrlhood. 1 was cnyClopcd in tears to
think | had really been so utterly ungrOte-
full for, the superior teachings, through
you and the words OF our inspired proph-
cts of the true Faith OF the Latter-du
Saints How miserable l am when L
think of this, and OF how weak my faith
In Truth must be TO let my selfish pro-
pcnsities entertain even for . moment,
the worldly and unsacrlicing creed of my
earthly parents When l compare our
beautiful religion with that of the harsh
and selfish Methodists l blush for shame,
TO think that l Gicc believed In such man
made doct-ine Is more than l now can
comprehend.
How / am trying so hard. Orson, TO be
a better SAINT ana a better woman. /
study the Books daily ana offer up prayer
both morning and night Yet | have
longing for a higher understanding, and
with view to obtaining such blessing
l beg you, dear, TO map out In your next
a channel OF thought. study or prayer
which win lead me TO a realization OF this,
my holy ambition
! do hope, contrary To what you write
me. that. to receive a higher understand
Ing. / shall never have to undergo
greater trial than that occasioucd by our
present temporary separation, Yet l real
iZc that woman can never receive her
highest glory in the Kingdom until she
has been proven. and should the good
Father Will 1t, If l have not been proven
sufficiently, have not been thoroughly
Iquity. ] willing TO suffer and shall
submit to my punishment TIL my soul Is
clean and my heart refined
That portion OF your letter treating Of
jealousy and the woman's duty / have
read over no less than dozen times OH
that l could tell what is in my thoughts.
but | dare not for fear OF offending you
md again betraying my want OF faith 1
am not Jealous; truly. Orson. | not
How could l be when as / write this the
holy Books OF Joseph, the Prophet, lie
hnf mo
that come in upon me! In such glorious
Truth as his and ours a woman cannot
be Jealous. | know II; feel in my heart
that she cannot.
ours is not the religion OF the selfish,
uncharitable, unsacrincinS Gentle woman,
who, l feel positive. Is incapable of tho
higher lovo eNpounded by our prophets
and lived by our people
But Orson, it hurts me TO have YOU
write so often OF Emma Bell and that.
too, In such afrectionote terms. In your
missionary work In her behalf il seems
10 me YOU should put out OF your mind
all material Propcnsities and entertain
nCne but the spiritual. You know that
your work lies wholly with her soul This
YOU are nobly striving 10 save. and pray
God you will succeed But the girls heart
Is not in your mission, IL is for her
destined husband to win. you. therefore,
should not play upon that which Is for
another, that upon which you could never
singlc-love feeling OF her whom YOU
promised, ere you led her forth a bride,
always TO love as your one, inseparable
wife Knowing this. dear, / fail to com
Drehcnd how you can write the letters
You do. to say nothing o---e actual at
tention you have given, and a-----lnG,
Miss Bell: attention which goes far be-
yond that which the church requires Of
I have but little news for you. In fact,
the subject just closed has occupied my
thoughts both day and night since you
hrst made rlentlon of Emma Bell. I have
prayed. prayed faithfully for relief from
Ill 1faEa
fear that this mission would rend
change in our domestic affairs, In q homo
which has heretofore been heaven OF
pcace and love. | have prayed, but so far
God has thought best not to relieve my
tortured heart of Its heavy burden. Would
that / could become once again the happy
wifo and mother Of but n few days ago.
But with all my prayers and reading of
the Books l have failed TO bring upon
me that sweet and peaceful condition.
which every mother loves in possessing
and Graves when she has 1t not, which
every faithful woman values more than
lifc itself when her husband Is absent
from her and she knows him to be true.
Mary started 10 school this morning. !
dressed her In the little blue frock you
purchased Mt tho Il. c. NJ; l. the after
noon OF the day you left home on your
mission to New York. And she wore
also her Tam O'Shanter cap and patent
leather undressed kid shoes. She looked
TOO sweet for lnything. She took with
her n note for her teacher. II kindly re-
ouested the teacher TO be patient with.
md charitable To. our Ittlc GIRL should
she not be so bright and active as her
companions. FOR (the note concludcd)
Nary has but recently been restored to US
from n fever that almost proved fatal"
before she left the house / kissed her
twice once Eor you and once for me At
the gate she turned around, her face
n%Ioyy with smiles and dimples and cried
30 me I'm that clear. sweet voice, Mamma,
Won must write papa today. Tell him am
well now and gone back to school And
tolI him, mamma, he must come homo
soon end play with me"
Hoping your next letter VII bring com
fort 10 my troubled heart. ] am your low
Ing wife, ,, ALICE.
CONTINUED next Sunday)