The Salt Lake tribune. [volume] (Salt Lake City, Utah) 1890-current, 1906-04-08

thought uppermost in our minds. that I
Hin M AFRAID We did at best but skim over"
.arins snons many detaiis untouched and con-
seauently, undecided You had no sooner
lelt me for the South than l thought Of
@ l@nnumerable subjects quite forgot to dis
o1 o@sS ; with you These, 1t is true, are not
~ .hc greatest Importance but neverthe-
iess' would feel better had they been
isfaction.
FACING THE EXECUTIONER
Like the condemned about To face his
eNecutioner l stand on the brink OF tor
ment. hoping against hope. grasping at
.he last remaining straw of dclivernnce,
e,Mpectine n reprieve' but longing with In
tense anxiety for the time TO arrive when
HE Is TO take its departure from the body
When the hour OF execution is past and
death has claimed It's own the battle IL
over. The building-up In the beyond is
not so difficult n task as the tearing down
In the present
With me the destruction OF my earthly
temple has been one long task OF mex
prcssiblc agony. duty and resignation. l
cannot narrate it. nor can any woman
save hrst-wife, OF eight years happi-
ness, who Is about to enter polyeamy,
tent OF It's bitter fullncss Bitter" falls
short of expression. Bitteri Who would
care II 1t were bitter. IL ...at was all. but
Sncn is only n feeling born OF the senses
mat which gnawS away every atom OF
the Woman's heart. leaving her unseXed
and unnatural, is more than feeling; II Is
the murderous result of rebellion against
thnt passion born In every woman, be she
Mormon or Gentle, learned or unicnrned
married or unmarried. which guides her
and acts for her In all things Maternal
instinct the very life of woman. admins
ters greater suffering to her at war
against herself than does any mere feel
Ing OF sense. Let woman overcome. or
even dcaden, her maternal instinct and
she VIII not only have suffered every pain
and grief this side the grave. but will
have passed through every conceivable
torture OF hell. Maternal instinct is the
totality of woman and 40 when she strug-
clce free from 1t she Is no LONGER n wo-
man, but q creature without sex or ambi-
ton.
And at this state / have arrived. To
affirm that I still maintain my woman
hood would be to voice lie What 1
gained by overcoming self can never out
weigh that which I have lost, Religion
has replaced my womannood and as
consequence ! must hereafter seek in re-
lgion my every desire and pleasure. There
Is nothing left OF or to me that can give
Joy of its own accord. Alone, In the fu~
turc must | look to God In all ways OF Ire,
Nothing here below remains to cheer me:
all things are denied me which once were
mine. None OF the Treasures Of the world
beautiful are mine now. NO love Is mine
to cherish here. for II, too. las passed 10
Heaven wnere alone must | seek II, there
to find 1t so changed 10 spirit that can
not see It, kiss il or fopdle IT. can only
imagine ltS DrcSt0Cc uilu tHN'' NO's - -
flected through the eyes of younger and
more beautiful woman.
PASSED BEYOND JEALOUSY.
| have passed beyond the state OF leal
ousy. my love is mine only In spirit; the
spiritual can know no Jealousy. which
alone Is OF the flesh Yet would that l
could Just for a brief space experience
that feeling again, that | might know l
was human. The suffering that jealousy
brings would be TO me as draught OF
cool water 10 the dying eoldicr. oh! how
7 would sip II drop by drop, so sweet so
sweet, But. alas, that privilege Is dehieu
me by Heaven l am spiritual who woulo
he human. / am an angel who would be
n woman | have passed above vet | live
below / see you kiss Er1ma yet am un-
moved You embrace her ana Dul
breathe one breath Of human KIND YOU
lead her forth q bride and but weep
LEAVES HIM WITH BRIDE.
Through her l rejoice, for fancy takes
me back nine years. Wien experienced 20
what she experiences now, the sweets OF
passion which shed their perfume every
where whittier she may go; which cast an
enchanting spell over every thought ano
make II turn to love: which breathe Sucn
beautiful romance In the car; "hlch creel
at night into the bosom. TO lul the hear'
/ Ia rrst with music soft of him. -.rougr
hsr love I love Her kiss Is my kiss. Her
close embrace my embrace. her nuptihlS
my nuptlals Through her live again m.
former life of felicity and love. love
that was strong but not strong enough tc
hold, . ,s.o
With YOUR bride I leave YOU to oestoW
on her that which once l recelN' p1l
shall receive no more: which 10 tast,
sgejn I would with ecstacy surrender az
IenenoI n'vsICiy ALICE.