The Coalville times. [volume] (Coalville, Utah) 1894-1923, 1906-09-07

'"I'ut ne repeated, duly, opening
and closing the small drawers. one by
one. He was searching for photo.
graph that she had kept on her desk
"a likeness taken in her early girl.
hood. long before he had met her
As he felt clumsily about among
the papers q letter fell out lie start.
ed TO replace II. but caught sight Of
his own name In the familiar writing
and paused. lie opened II with trom.
bling fingers
u did the best could" he said
slowly 10 himself u couldn't help
not caring. ! thought could-at
FIRST thought II would come with
time. Cod how hard It has been.
how bitter hard'' He passed his thin
nervous hand woarily across his col.
orlcss face. At least she never
knew, never suspected. nor cared.
either way he said, bitterly She
was as Indifferent as-as I was"
u wonder II she knows now" he
breathed y wonder II she knows
and understands. She never seemed
to understand anything used to
wonder how anyone could feel so lit
tie and live ! tried once 10 tell hor
how ] felt and she laughed Said
] needed something TO tone me up.
Perhaps she was right Perhaps I
am a morbid chap.
III she had cared he began again.
y would have tried to be different.
! should have learned 10 got hold OF
her interest In some way. but that
dead calm Of hors' | used 10 think
II would drive me crazy She was
the right sort. too-or seemed 10 be-
With her possibilities she might have
developed into a wonderful woman
under Il. ;ht conditions She Ia
wondori 10 was" he corrected
himself. shuuderlng az the correction
u admired her more than any other
woman ! ever met Poor Hclen'"
he sighed as he pored over the letter
In the failing light
He sat up. startled. Hurried to
the window, reading eagerly with a
look Of Intense interest on his rather
apathctic facc-a look such as Helen
Anterior had never reused In all her
sadly inconsequent life with him
Dear" he read. Il couldn't hope
ever 10 make you understand how
love you. You have just left me
cold unloving, careless. as you always
arc-and | tpoor foolish. loving thing)
put my starved arms about your chair
and laid my lips passionately against
the spot where your dear head has
lain. | know II Is utterly unrecipro.
Gated. that I shall never be more 20
you than | am now. and though IL
breaks my heart with it's dcsolation,
It's utter despair. yet bow TO H..
Dearest, no man was ever loved more
deeply. more tenderly. than you are.
o. the sadness. the heartbreak OF Il
all
You thought NJ FIRST you cared. II
you had been sure. then-ah, II you
had only known then-and told me
Now II Is too late ! am wrapped in
a nevoronding regret that win be
my portion TO the end Of time. I
can't ease the hurt Of loving unloved
II want you 10 know II you are left
and you viii be-that / have always
cared. ! used TO hope for the day
when / should Sc your eyes food with
gladncss az my coming, have
learned TO welcome even the wean.
ness OF spirit they express n only I
may feel you near me.
Dear. I know how It Is with you.
| know that the bonds have become
80 irksome that they have worn into
your very soul, see the dlstaste.
the dlsllkc-almost loathlng-that pos.
sesses you At times. | see Il all, yet
am poworloss to release you. can
only hide II all securely away under
the slow smile. the smile that you
call my everyday face.
III YOU had cared John. We should
have been very happy. love your
work, your interests, but have not
dared voice II for fear-O that lookl
that cruelty Indifferent, hard. careless
look II burns into me as write
and | wrlthe under the torture OF H."
lie sat with his head on his arms
for hours. Once he cried out In
agony: My God, II had known!
IT htei hUWWut
At last he climbed -flrc heavy. dark
stairway TO the room above 10 face
his dead lie turned back the white
covcrlld With hands strangely steady
after his long vigil
Her face was oddly glrllsh as IL
was In the little photo lie felt vast
tenderness yelling up within him as
he looked A rush OF feeling that
flooded him with longing, longing for
hsC smile, for her clear.eyed look. for
the spirit Of her, brave and lndomita.
BILE as II had ever been. At last no
knew the truth. lie could see the
soul back OF the silence-back Of her
apathetic gentleness OF demeanor that
had shamed his churlish outbreaks OF
irritability oh. TO tell her! 10 Let
her know how he admired her self.
control her wonderful soldier heart
that could force her TO smile calmly.
though her life'B blood was oozing
away, drop by drop,
Oh, to tell her that he might have
cared; that she was his hearts own
after all. though he had not known
1.-THE had not known her
IF / could tell her lust once ana