The Marshall republican., 1906-01-26

rs a doctor. she Rad recognized my
talents In her will. This she had. on
receipt OF my letter OF explanation, nj
once given instructions TO alter by the
commission Of my nance: she was not
going TO have her money s%quandered
on scientific researches. which always
ended In smoke. Science, indeed"
her letter ended. "why you might as
well have taken 10 looking for the
North Pole or ven i%iterature!"
= Finding my resolution unalterabie-
for q OF my few good points IL that
] do not turn baok-I was. however,
soon given up by the whole family M
an irreclaimable ne'er-do-wcli. and Il
was. ! believe. even limited among them
that ! was not altogether resp 'slbio
for my actions, AZ any rate. the rumor
did get round. and whether Il was ow-
Ing to this or to the fact that I could
no longer be looked upon as an In
dividual who was likely 20 make
money. ] o noticed a decide change
In tho manner OF my acquaintance.
professional and lay. toward me. Be-
fore. their attitude had at least been
respectful; now II was. N not con-
temp, 3, at least tlnged with SUI
perior pity.
Well. I put up with II all humb'y
enough, but now that my position In
such that these very people who have
treated me with contumely for so many
years. 20 about and boast OF their In
fimasv with ma aud ara .van "A Ll,a
a. to supply the papers with the sup
posed details Of my private life. I will
confess that the pill was n bitter one
for me to swallow. Not that I was al
together without comfort. family fore
seeing the hour OF trump that has
come.
Besides. even when we must perforco
do worship to Mammon and bow the
knee to Baal. there are yet consola-
lions. II Ia something 10 feel with
the keen instinct which knows no err
ror that the minds OF those contemptu-
Gus scoffers, who tilnk 80 well OF them
selves and 80 III OF you. are TO your
mind IN the ditch-mud 10 10 the mir
ror rejecting heavens W light; that
In O there dweils n spark OF the
glorious creative fre OF which they
know nothing, and cannot even UNDER
stand; and that they. the rich. the re-
spected. the prosperous and unctuously
happy. are AS far beneath you. whom
they despise as an unsuccessful dream
or. In all that really tends to make .
man divine. as their dogs and horses
are beneath them.
That was how I thought In those
days. and think 80 still, though now
that II Ia showered In upon mo. ! do
not care much for that worldwide
praise ! used TO oovet In my bltterer
and more lonely moments. when i'm
minent failure seemed to press me
round like the darkness closing In. II
10 too rank and too undiscerning. and
much OF II 10 merely tribute to suc-
cess and not to the brain and work that
won II.
In short. a. will be understood with
dimculty. being human, I felt all this
neglect Of which ] have striven to show
the color. pretty sharply. and though I
submitted. and was perfectly able to
anaiyse Its causes. It W. my mind o
misanthropic turn. from which Il has
never quite recovered. for the worlds
aduiAtion q never atone for tho
worlds contempt, or ven for the neg
lect Of those around - who make our
world. And thus ~ time went OF I
gradually acquired q greater and
greater dislike to mixing In society.
and began to attach psyseli more and
more 10 my studies and to Fanny. who
became BY degrees the only psraon
that ] thoroushly trusted and relied
on the world.
When my dear wife had been dead