The sun. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1833-1916, 1906-11-21

l cant help II.
You said YOU would come. and sometimes
I Just know you will: but then think about
other things, and I am just rs certain you
won't come. | want you to write me. dear.
lust as soon az You get this and tell me the
exact dav you can come. l will &C back
soon II YOU don't come. | can't stay here.
dear and please don't ask ms 20 any lonRer,
There Is not a girl in the world as miserable
As am tonight. and you have made me
Feel so. chester. | dom mean that. dear.
You have always been awfully good to me.
anu | know you will always be. You Just
won't he q coward, ! know.
And again. Chester. I do want you to have
a good time now and | wont he cross. |
think when l soc you. dear. | shall he 80 glad
I cant live. hope you will be- glad tosee me.
30 where You want Ia. dear. and don't be angry
with me, ] want YOU tonight, and / am 40
blue.
Papa was frightened to-day and insists on
having a doctor up in the morning, | pre-
sumo you won't think YOU can come for me
when | asked you TO. Chester. II | could only
lie. I know how you feel about the afiair.
and I wish for your sake you needn't be
troubled. II die I hope You can then be
happy. hope can die, The doctor says l
will. and then yon can do just as YOU like.
On June - she wrote again:
T am not the least bit offended with You.
only 7 am a little blue tonight and feel this
way. My brother has a gentleman friend
here from Sherhurne and a whole pa rty of them
went after strawberries tonight. When l
saw the party star; and knew ! couldn't go
1 cried and cried ever 80 long a time. Chester.
please dom think am unreasonable. |
can't bear to have you angry with me. l
wish ! could hear from you and | wish oh,
dear. please come and take me away. You
wont ever know how much wish ] was there.
think this Ia about As bad for me as II is
Tor you. don't your? The girls write me that
you are planning on another trip Tor the
Fourth Of July. They never wrote me how
they knew of it; perhaps YOU told them. Is
that tho reason YOU cannot come before the
seventh or eighth. Chester, | didn't mind
being rnubbcd and put aside Decoration Day
Tor the other girls, but | do mind II the Fourth.
4 have always had TO he put aside for other
girls on such occasions and presume 1t will
always be that way. This is the truth, isn't
il? You ought, not TO he angry with me for
that. | hope honestly-I hope you will have
the most pleasant day of your life. | pre-
sumo you think you are 40 soon coming TO the
unpleasant days. ought not to care for that
once. was III nearly all day and at night the
veins In my temples were frightfully swollen,
Mamma bathed them in cologne and they are
not as bad to-day. They we're swollen be-
cause ] cry so much.
Chester. I don't suppose you will ever know
how I regret being all this trouble to you. I
know you hate me and ] can't blame you one
hit. My whole life il ruined. and In n measure
yours is, too. OF course. IT'S worse for me
than for you. but the world and you. too. may
think am the one to blame, but you know ]
can't Just simply can't think | am, Chester.
! said no, no, MANY. many times, dear. OF
course. the world will not know that. but it's
- NJ AAr lltsIa SiaN. - zavaa ,Va
just a minute ago with her hands full Of
daisies and asked IL ] didn't want my fortune
told. I told her ] guessed It was pretty well
told.
The lett er- continue daily. each more
despondent than the last. On June 20
she wrote:
Mt DEAR CHESTER: wish you could have
known how pleased I was TO hear from you
to-day. should have had your letter yes
terday mornin z, but somehow II was late and.
dear, I have never received any letter from
you Friday. All the letters I have had from
YOU in the nearly two weeks l have been home
10 one. just one. and IL was written June II. l
can't imagine where the others are, and I have
written YOU every day except three. ] won
der II you have all of mine.
Where do you suppose your letter is? re-
member you told me over the phone Friday
morning you would write that night. and !
thought il strange I had not received IL. ]
vas so awfully glad to hear from you to-day.
chester. Ihave been about crazy all the week
and have scarcely been down for two days.
hut tonight after your letter 7 really went
down to supper. / have been so III that mamma
came last night. and my sister. Mrs. Hawley.
and another sister. younger. am 40 worried.
and your letter was so awfully dear.
hope you got my letter asking your for
r~iveness for that horrid letter wrote. ! was
ashamed after mama sent the letter. but |
couldn't help it. My brother is a brick, lie
10 90 nice to me and Tets me everything l
want. I think ] shall die of Joy when l see
YOU, dear. will tell you l am going to try
and do q whole lot better. dear. l will try
not to worry 70 much and ! won't believe
borrid things the girls write. presume
they do stretch things, dear. | am about
crazy or | could reason better than | do.
am awfully pleased you had such a Jolly
time Of the lake, dear. and l wish ! had been
there, too. I am very fond Of water. although
can't swim. ! an crying and can't half
write. Guess It's because my sister IL play
ing her mandolin and singing Loves Young
Dream" I am a little blue.
Chester. my silk dress is the ~prettiest dress
j ever had. or at least that II what every one
says. Mama don't think I have taken much
interest in IL. ! am frightened every time
IL Is fitted. Mama says she don't see why |
should cry every time they look at me. ! am
going 10 try 10 20 up 20 Hamilton the nth
OF July. Papa and mama can't take their
trip now on account OF my sisters illness
She lie very Ill yet. and mama is nearly tired
out trying 20 be down there and up here at
about the same time.
Chester. I wish ! could tell uncle and aunt
I had a friend coming I'D from Cortland.
You would have a better time while you