The Salt Lake tribune. [volume] (Salt Lake City, Utah) 1890-current, 1906-04-08

quested Emma to defer her wedding until
his return as he wished TO be present
AS full member OF the church. this will
be right, therefore his request VIM be
complied with
Mrs. Bell says she is in something of
dream, and that she win awake some
morning TO find that she. too, Is Nor
mon, The household is busy preparing the
trosseau, and so religious discussions are
Tor the present left in the background,
ALICE IN GOOD HANDS.
Tho working-oN of details have kept
me here In Chihuahua, and as yet ] have
not been able TO mako the trip To Colonia
Juarez. In the morning | shall leave for
the headquarters OF our people. Here
SHALL remain n day two and then make
a a Tying trip to the lands of the coloniza-
hua In weeks time, when hope to hear
from you.
Alice. darling. do not know what to
leave you In Gods hands. | cannot help
but think that all VIII be well All l can
do Is to tell You again that | love you.
and that, too. darling. with the best love
Il mans heart can give.
Your loving husband.
ORSON.
Salt Lake City Utah. March 80 1901.
NV Dear Orson'-Sou write of being
In doubt as to the sincerity Of my pres
ent position and the positions / have
maintained heretofore in behalf OF the
departure | am about TO make from the
single marriage state, Permit me once
from the time first learned OF your love
Tor Emma Bell until the hour OF this
writing have been desperately In
earnest In all 7 have said or written to
YOU. But read carefully my letters and
II will be seen that sincerity is strongly
anchored in every word. Despair never
Tho constant change In conditona
and shifting OF thought have worked
their effect upon nv mind and so when
my letters display quick and frequent re-
movalS OF sentiment from one extreme
to another such Is not To be wondered at
But rational being. feel suffer
10 II To do SO would be to disgrace my
intelligence, which demands OF me
nohler grief. To her who Yields when
suffering nature lies bleeding. the world
extends its pity. but to her who
In passing through every degree OF
row, nature heaps upon her. emerRes
nobly into victory. the world bows its
head. in tears OF profoCnd respect.
SUFFERS. BUT NOT TO DEATH
Mine IL is to suffer. but not mine
to die. Thought alone Is my salvation;
with it l must fight Hence. when IT
changes. |. too. must change
The spiritual woman" say YOU, has
but overcome mere sense, and stands
in doubt as TO her future course In her
true, the second partially so. The ques-
tion is not, what course | shall pur~
sue but In what manner 1 shall con
duct myself In the only course left
for me To spend my days in weep.
ing, with the expectation of obtaining
thereby relief from suffering, Is beneath
the dignity OF womanhood. To corrupt
my soul and deaden my heart I'm an Mt
.empt to elude the pangs Of sorrow by
plunging headlong into the ways Of the
low and worldly. is the forfeiture oil
womanhood. But. while living n life OF
truth and virtue. to rise triumphant over
every pang my poor; emaclated ma
and sublimest achievement of woman
hood. Hence, in the only course left for
me, | shall cndeavor to triumph; and II
success Is mine | viii have done honor
to my sex. and not weakened ii in the
eyes OF the world by sinking beneath
the burden the more fortunate sex has
placed upon me to glorify itself and sub
ject It's opposite,
DOES NOT SHOW DOUBT.
You write That sentence shows
! once for all that you doubt my love for
You The sentence in question, "A love
that was strong but not strong enough
prehend show that I doubt | felt
then that You loved me, and | now feel
that you love me as a friend; but not as
wife; not like, you used to love me.
Lovc-Is-love. the affinity OF two be-
ln2s OF opposite sex II Is neither
nGturaI nat Amor nor divine for n-na man to love
attempted one receives his cold caress
Hof duty the other his long and passionate
embrace; One lives widow in all but
name. the other a queen happy in the
| possession of love and protection.
is TRUE OF ALL.
Contrary TO your view, what Is true OF
n Gentle is true Of Mormon, over all
the world. in every religion. the hu
| can elevate man from a state OF savagery
to that plane "a little lower than the
angels, but It cannot change the laws
Of nature, that first lay claim on him
| Education, or In this particular / had
better say religion. can force nature for
brief periods into subjcction. but like the
| rot ~ Ing Oh 49,
| all the fury OF injured maJcsty to
claim her own and cast out the usurper
To prove this have but TO consult
my own heart; Therein abidcs n greater
power than that which turks assassin
| like behind the throne of reason
whispering threats OF destruction TO my
sacrifice. My poor heart 1t is crushed
and bleeding now Ike my native State
at the close Of Its great war, but like II,
1t shall rise again TO bloom and to
| prosper.
IS BUT THEORY
Tho theory OF which you write and
which is taught our people both by word
mans love for his wives to n woman's 3
love for her children. ends whore 1t be-
gins-in theory 1t is without foundation,
! contrary to Nature and ridiculous in the
eyes OF Reason. | do not believe IT, 1T is
false doctrine, False. because 1t has never
! been proven
Maternal instinct prompts the woman
to love her children. one and all. with
| equal tenderness: but man possesses no
| instinct akin to II and is therefore un-
| fitted to love his wives in like manner.
| What a woman bears and nurses she VIII
| love forever. for such Is Of her flesh and
| blood. but what man. fired by passion
! either common or divine, receives In mar
| riage will cease to be loved as soon as
! another passion appears unto him for
| such s foreign, becoming part of him
| only by pledge of law or church. or both.
| The love OF the sexes Is of the heart and
| Is limited TO two beings, mother-lovc is
OF the soul and Is without end
WILL RELY on HERSELF.
i You write, in behalf of my morbid
! feelings, as you term them. not To try 10
! fight this battle alone. but to seek the
| assistance of some mother In Israel who
has been through the night and who has
! left all such feelings behind her No
Orson. this / will not dc. Already ] have
! relied too much on the counsel OF others
| ON yours. the teachers those OF the
| priesthood and those of the books Here
| after what | cannot decide for myself
! shall remain undecided; what | cannot
! overcome shall continue to torment me.
But my individuality. which has long
| been buried beneath the rubbish OF gen
| tie obedience to the viii OF others" has
risen to defend and guide me In all ways.
| 1t Is strong-stronger than counsel.
| al than faith. therefore | need