The Salt Lake tribune. [volume] (Salt Lake City, Utah) 1890-current, 1906-03-18

by proving beyond doubt tho absolute
| truth of our Faith. the only righteous
faith existing on earth.
| Oh would that | could recall my letters
TO you of late. letters filled with jealousy
| and sclnshpcss two sins becoming the
Gentile woman, but wholly unworthy OF
| ana disgraccful 10 the Mormon. | blush
for shame when / think that l did even
1 Tor brief space. sink from .hat exalted
state, the holy inheritance OF all Mormon
women true to their Faith to tho degrad-
| Ing level OF women OF the outside world
women who. WHEN the Lord commands,
shall be destroyed for their inIouity.
CHARGED WITH GUILT,
When / think of the guilt with which /
am charged before the Throne of Heaven
| tremblo With fear, my soul rebels and
! burst forth in passion OF ters, OH
how could | be so wicked? Phan toms of
tho past haunt me not! Away Awayl l
ungratetul wretch, deserving of no re-
ward here or hercafter-but do not haunt
me- Oh! let me weep and in my tears
repent, and If such ls possible. obtain for
glveness, pardon for my sin, one OF the
greatest most helllsh sins IL Mormon wife
can possibly be guilty of-jealousy. That
word makes me Shudder! Oh, that / had
never known its meaning or felt Its un-
sacred presence in my bosom, ] feel that
shall go mad II am not soon relieved
of my grief and guilt, through pardon
from above
Almighty God. thy child n sinner.
kneels low before thee, beseechng for
BlNcncSS TOT inc nc8NS crime with wnlCn
she is so Justly charged. Forgive me, oh
Father, and let mo go forth a clean wo-
man. NowlnS never again TO transgress
thy sacred laws. And furthermore, oh
thy hohest ordinance, the divine ordl
nance or polygamy, as revealed TO our
Prophet, Forgive me this. oh Lord! 1 re-
pcnts | am n sinner,
MADE ACCOUNTABLE.
In q moment of jealousy becoming none
but the GODDESS. the IIpuvcn- -lpfNinR 4
robclled against this most sacred of laws
and made myself abominable In thy sight.
But now / SEQ my terrible mistake and
here upon my knees. In thought while
writing to the husband of my heart and
Souli nc whom you so pleased TO gtvo me
In holy marriage; here In black and white.
that he may also witness my supplica-
uons, | beg of you, oh good and omnpo-
tent Father, TO pardon by transgressions
and make me clean, make me worthy OF
my husbands love and 1T mother for
his child And, too, Almighty God, | be-
seech thee to remove from my soul all
dross; all iniqui,y, all passion, which stIn
remain with me; all that which was car
ried by me In your holy religion from the
goddess world OF the Gentiles. | ask this
In the name or Jesus Christ our Lord.
Amen.
And yet my beloved Orson. 7 feel that
] have asked too much of him the
Maker and Ruler of all things But II 1
only receive pardon for half my trans
gressions | shall feel myself relieved OF a
mighty burden, shall hold such as n god
ly sign, knowing that In time | shall be-
blessed by a ful pardon and thereby
saved from damnotion, the thoughts OF
which almost drive me mad
Write me soon Send me comforting
words. I thirst for truth. knowing my
store To be so small and shall die from
spiritual starvation unless I rise rapidly
from the degrading depths jealousy and
selfshness have hurled me.
Your unworthy, unhappy wife,
ALICE.
CONTINUED Next Sunday