The daily morning journal and courier., 1905-01-14
FROM A GIRLS DIARY.

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 Charles is the man I ct present love, don't know whether I shall marry him or not. It depends largely upon him. He at present does not think that l shall. I, however, believe that II will. Reading Bernard Shaw's ac- count of the man and woman question has greatly treasured me. From Der nsrd Shaw gather that the mans at- titude has very little to do with the matter, which corroborates previous observations Of my own. It would avoid some friction though. feel sure, to gain his consent first. So I shall endeavor not to marry him without it. have practically had his consent two or three times, but he has reconsiGered. The trouble is that Charles is gem jus and genuises are sos changeable. They are also difficult to live with. | gatier this from reading the letters Of Mary, wife Of Shelley, and of Jane Welsh Carlyle, whose testimony also is corroborated by my own observa- tions. Charles does not look like a genius. He is heavy set and has close-cropped grizzly haid and prize-fghter jaw. He also looks prosperous. so, of course, no no one would take him for a poet. The reason for this is that he has a good position besides and is poet just by inclination. He has a very bad case of artistic temperament, though, and
 anybody could easily tell by his actions ! that he is genius even if they couldn't l.rl tr 1-n,,Iy |, ad Gn and | hi5 feelings are always being hurt when nobody would expect them to be, One of his standing grievances against me is that he thinks have no | appreciation of his poetic achievements which is not true; because I have a great deal. His impression arose from \ the fact that when he asked my ad- vice I had to tell him that thought it would be foolish for him to give up his | $12,OOO-a-year position and devote all his time to what he calls ia life of con- 1 temptation and reflection" 1 meant to tell him that he could contemplate and reflect on Sundays and holidays, but i flew into a rage and would not give me a chance. He said I had a sordid soul and was product of this age of greed, and things like that. They were not altogether true for though | financial considerations entered some- what into my statement they were not my only reasons for making it. ';-S.-
 F Observation has shown me that when ! Charles contemplates and reflects and writes poetry more than one day con- secutively he becomes so irascible that | he is quite unbearable 10 himself ana l to everybody else. Going downtown | where he can fight with his business
 associates is the quickest way to re
 store him to better frame of mind
 Charles has dual nature and next tc
 writing poetry he enjoys most getting into a '.scrap.,.jss h. ...,.s.. ...,.5
 Charles brought the manuscript oi
 his new book oe poetry over to oul
 house the other day and his artistic
 sensitiveness almost resulted in 2 serious misunderstanding He pro. duced the manuscript and retired to 2
 corner with it, where he began looking it over and annotating, with a sort ol growly, dog-with-a-bone air. l wanted
 very much to see it. but was afraid to ask, for he looked so forbidding. thought that perhaps he did not con-
 sider me worthy to read 1t because oi
 my sordid and unappreciative soul
 But 1t subsequently, transpired that Ii
 was only waiting for me to ask, for ht | presently slammed the manuscript int,
 it's box and marched out of the room growing at me as he went pasi
 that when he cared again to find sym
 pathy and appreciation he would looi
 in dictionary for them.
 It took me Some time to appease hin
 and to explain that I had wanted te
 see his poems all long. 1 finally diC