The Topeka state journal. [volume] (Topeka, Kansas) 1892-1980, 1905-04-08

yes" said Cynthia, and she sighed
a little, hes going to be married.
He isl" exclaimed the Other Girl
Aren't you jealOus2"
Cynthia started a prompt reply, hest
tated, considered, thought better of it
and decided for frankness: Yes, a lit
tie Bit she answered. But when the
Other Girl laughed she went on hastily.
But only a little bit, really, and not
at all in the way you imagine, because
don't want him myself. Most girls in
my situation would disclaim Jealousy
because it isn't envy. wouldn't be IN
her place for anything didn't want
him-yOu know very well could have
had him-and yet she isn't altogether
welcome to him. Not that I'm a dog
in the manger, I didn't want to keep
him dangling, but still there's a sort of
-pang isn't the word, either. I sup
pose it's just a case Of hurt vanity.
There was such a. long time he protest
ed L was the only one, that, although It
bored me, now it's over [ have a sort
of regret In other words, I am, as
confessed at the start, just little
teeny-Weeny bit Jealous.
And I tell you this jealousy lump IS
all the money as Billy Baxter said.
Did you ever have that Jealousy lump?
But of course you have, although per-
hans YOU won't admit it. OF course this
isn't the real thing-I have had it and
I knoW-it's just little sting. But
really when he first told me, it was So
so unexpected you know, that could
scarcely keep from showing how I felt
and you know I rarely lose my nerve.
OF course I wished him happiness and
hoped she was the dearest girl in the
world and all that sort of thing and
after a while my voice lost that Iar
away sound and I began to ee-things
more clearly and was able TO ACT as
though 7 really meant (which 1 did,
you know, but for a minute L was al
most dazed by the suddenness of it. And
I'm honestly just as interested in his
wedding as I can be, and truly glad he
going to marry and want them to be
awfully happy but for the life of me
can't help feeling queer about it all.
suppose it's because he's the first OF
my old flames to marry, and that III
get used to ii this time and won lATnllO
the others.
You know I thought I knew all
about jealousy but this is a new sensa-
tior-to be jealous of a man you really
don't care anything about and haven't
seer, much Of for years-to feel queer
about his marriage although yOJ
/ wouldn't have him under any circum-
/ stances. It's quite unworthy a woman
much more like q man.
For jealousy they really have u
! faded A man confessed to me ono
that men are perfectly capable of be
/ ing Jealous of a woman that they hat
/ and I've often seen a man jealous o
/ a woman he'd never seen before Il
I his l1e-JeaIouS OF her huSpand or ne
! lover. just because she was pretty an
fascinating, or in the case of an act
ress jealous Of her stage lover.
man is as Jealous of a Woman's oil
lovers as he is Of her present one:
and no matter how many assurance
he has of her devotion he hates tn
thought that she ever cared for an
one else.
Another thing about man, h
doesn't hesitate to show his jeal
ousy-it doesn't seem to be regard
ed as weakness in him as
is in a woman. A jealous wife ever
one laughs at-whether she has occa
sion or not. But a husband who ism
. Jealous with any proYocation Whai