The San Angelo press. (San Angelo, Tex.) 1897-1907, 1905-05-04

atter those moments OF franEied action
and silence-that was the hard part
that was what tried my nerve and first
robbed me of calmness. But dared
not leave that fearful thing dangling
there; l had to wind. The machinery
squenked and its noise seemed to Ali
the house, but no one came nor did the
door below open. Sometimes I have
have been lured on, and you would not
have become involved in my ruin.
II AIN afraid to die. but am more
afraid of falling in courage. Ishall have
the pistol tied to me- this will make It
seem inevitable TO use IT, oh, that the
next twenty.four hours could be blot
ted out of time! Such horror cannot
be. wns born for JOY and gayety, yet
no dismal depth Of misery and fea~ has
been spared me! But all on account of
my own act. I do not accuse God; do
not accuse man; | only accuse myself
and my thoughtless grasping after
pleasure.
IL want Cora to read this as we'll as
you. She must know me dead as she
never knew me living. But I cannot
tell her that have left confession
behind me. She must come upon 1t
Unexpectedly, Just as I mean you to do.
Only thus can II reach either of you
with any power. II | could but think
OF some excuse for sending her to the
book where propose to ~. -. That
would give her chance of reading 1t
before you do, and this would be best.
She may w how to prepare or COM
fort you'll hope SO. Cora Is a noble
woman, but the secret which kept my
thoughts IN such a whirl has held us
apart.
you did what asked. You found
place for Rauchers waiter in the vol.
unteer corps. Surprised as you were at
the interest ! expressed in him, you
honored my first request and said moth
ing. Would you have shown the same
anxious eagerness If you had known
why / whispered those few words TO
him from the carriage door, why
could neither rest nor sleep till he and
the other boy were safely out of town?
IL must leave line for you to show
to people If they wonder why I killed
myself so soon after my seemingly
happy marriage. You will find 1t In
the same book with this letter. Some
one will tell you to look in the book
cannot write any more.
81 cannot help writing. 1t is all that
connects me now with life and with
you. But I have nothing more to say
except forgive-forgive-
'Do you think that God looks at his
wretched ones differently from what
men do? That he will have tenderness
for one so sorry-that he will even
find place But my mother is there,
my father oh, that makes 1t fearful
% go-to meet-but 1t was my father
- no led me into this-only he did not
know There! l will think only OF
God
-goodby-good"-
That was all. 1t ended, as 1t began,
without name and without date-the
final heart throbs of a soul awakened
to its OWL act en 1t was quite too
late, piteous memorial which daunt'
ed each one Of us as we read 1t, and
when finished drew us oil together In
the hall out of the sight and hearing OF
the two persons most intimately con
cerned In II.
Possibly because all had one thought
"a thrilling one which the major was
the first to give utterance to:
"The man she killed was buried un
der the name Of Wallace. How's that
IL he was her husband. William"
An officer we had not before noted
was standing near the front door. He
came forward at this and placed a
second telegram in the superintendent
hand. 1t was from the same source
as the one previously received and ap
peared to settle this very question.
II have Just learned that the mar
married was not the one who KEEP
store in Owosso, but his brother VII
nam, who afterward died in Klondike
I is Wallace whose death you are in
.,stigating."
~ What snarl is hereW asked thu
"A. ,or.
think | understand" l ventureC
ATT in. Her husband was the on,
IN the road by the brother whit
,;Ted into camp for aid, He wa
said-and probably died, Will
illace after seemingly collapsing, re
eered. L his last she did not know
aving failed to read the whole of tn
newspaper slip which told about II
and so when she saw some one wit
the Pfeiffer air and figure and wa
told later that Nc, Pfelffer was wait
ing to see her shc INK Il for granite
that IT was h@@qte' oeIiey Tn
! positively th Formerly ,I,ciau u
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