The morning Astorian. [volume] (Astoria, Oregon) 1899-1930, 1905-04-05
FROM A GIRLS DIARY.

Charles is the man that at present
love don't know whether shall
marry him or not 1t depends largely
upon him. He at present does not
think that shall I, however, believe
that 1 VIII Reading Bernard shaws
account Of the man and woman qlIes-
ton has greatly reassured me. From
Bernard Shaw l gather that the mans
attitude has very little TO do with the
matter, which corrorborates previous
observations Of my own. would
avoid some friction though, I feel sure.
70 gain his consent first. So / shall
endeavor not TO marry him without II.
have practically had his consent two
Or three times but he has reconsidered.
The trouble is that Charles In a Re-
mfrs. and geniuses are 30 changeable.
They are also difficult 10 live with.
! gather this from rna:.ng the ..yss
Mary, wife OF Shelby an; CT Jane
Welsh Carlyle. whose tesyn ony also
iS corrorbordeed by my own obserya-
tons
Charles does not Look like n genius.
lie 10 heavy-set ana haa close q, ured
grizzly hair aud prizcfghter law.
tie alho looks prosperous, 10 OF feLrsc.
no one would take him fo- cot.
The reason for t.iis Ia that he h.s a
good position besidsn AMI Is so,t
Just by inclination. He has a very
bad case OF artistic temperament.
though, and anyboly could easily rel
ny his actions that re Ia a genius even
" they couldn't by his looks-he gets
mad 10 easily and his feelings are 80
easily hurt when no one would expect
them TO be.
One Of his standing grievances
against mo is that he thinks have no
appreciation OF his poetic ACHIEVEMENTS
which 10 not true: because I have n
great deal. His impression arose from
The fact that when he asked for my
advice had TO tell him that / thought
u would be foolish for him to give up
$4,000 year position and devote all
his time to what he calls "a life OF
rehecuon and repose." ! meant ., tell
MIN that he could contemplate and
reflect on Sundays and holidays but
he flew into rage and would not give
me a chance. He said had a sordId
soul and was product OF this age OF
greed. and things like that. They
were not altogether true. for though
financial considerations entered some
what into my statement. they were
no, my only reasons for making II.
Observation has shown me tha,
when Charles contemplates ana re-
meets and writes poetry more than ore
uay eonsecutlvely he becomes so Iras-
cioie That he Is quite unbearabla ,o
n'H'self and to everybody elge. Go,rg
down town where he can fight WITH
"'' business associates is the quickest
way to restore him TO a better ,ra,
:" mind Charles has dual nature
ana next to writing poetry he enjoys
most getting into a "scrap"
Charles brought the manuserlpt q,
MS ne" book OF poetry over to o,-
mouse The other day and his artistic
Sensi''Veness almost resulted in n se-
rious Misunderstanding. He produces
the manuscript and retired To n corrar
win IT, where he began looking II over
ana annotating with sort OF grow,v
uos with a bone air. I wanted very
much to see It. but was afraid 70 ash
Tor ne looked 80 forblddlng. Thought
that perhaps he did not consider ma
worthy to read It because OF my sord,d
ana unappreciate soul. But It subse-
quentiy transpired that he was onlv
waiting Tor me to ask. for he present
ly slammed the manuscript back into
It's box and marched out of the room,
growing at me that when he cared
again to find sympathy and apprecia-
tion he would look in dictionary for
them.
IL TOOK me some time to appease him
and to explain that had wanted -
see his poems all along. I finally did
however and everything for the pres-
ent Is quite amlable,