Deseret evening news. [volume] (Great Salt Lake City [Utah]) 1867-1920, 1904-07-12

| ten anything IN auch an elevated frame
! OF mind as that book. Heine says that
ne heard the wings OF an eagle beat
over bis head while writing certain
verses | do believe that something
also beat above my head. while |
wrote that book. | worked at II ev-
cry day until / was completely ex-
haustedi my only relaxation In the eve
ming consisted In listening to Wagners
music, more especially TO 'Tanhauser,
which opera 1 went 10 hear az often as
II was performed, only on those eve
nlngs when there al the opera ! felt
doubts about the correctness OF my
thoughts.
AZ first l had conceived the idea
TO write my pamphlet concerning the
solution OF the Jewish question FOR pri-
waite circulation only among my friends,
The publication OF these Views did not
enter into my plan until later / ana
not intend to commence personal agl-
tatlon for the Jewish cause.
Most people VIII be surprised at
present when they hear OF this former
resolution. | considered the whole mat
ter ms only NJ TO be acted on, and not
to be talked about
Public agitation should only be-
come my ultima ratio II my private
advice was not listened 10 or not obey
ed. When ! had finished my book. |
asked one Of my oldest and best friends
to read the manuscript While reading
u he suddenly commenced TO cry. |
found this emotion quite natural, az 10
was jew. and / also cried several
times while writing the book But TO
my dismay | found that he gave quite
a different cause for his tears He
thought that I was gone mad, and be-
ing my friond, my misfortune made
him very sad He ran away without
saying another word.
After a sleepless night. he came
back 10 me the next morning and be-
sought me 10 leave the matter alone"
$ everybody would consider me crazy,
tie was excited 10 such a degree that
] promised him everything 10 calm his
feelings. lie then advised me 10 con-
suit Nordau as TO whether my plan
was the conception Of a responsible per-
son. 4 shall ask nobody was my re-
ply, N my IDEAS make that effect upon
cultivated and devoted friend Of
mine, | abandon my plan,'
't then passed through very serious
crlsis--I can only compare II to the
throwing OF red-hot body in cold wa
ter, or course, n that body happens
TO be iron, 1t becomes stesl by the pro-
cess.
My friend, Of whom spoke above.
had TO make up my accounts. for tele-
gram disbursements. When he gave
me the account, consisting OF an i'm
mense array Of figures, I saw at a
glance that he had cast up the sums
incorrectly 7 drew his attention TO
that fact, and he commenced to do IN
sums over again. Only after third or
fourth effort his sums agreed with
mine.
This fact gave me back my conf |
dence In myself II was able TO do |
sums more correctly than he. my rea- |
son could not have left me completely. |
ION that day my troubles with the |
'Judenstaat commenced. During the |
two years and more since that time, I |
had experienced many. many sad days.
and I am afraid many more sad days |
will stll follow.
Tn 1895, began TO keep a diary; Ave |
stout volumes have been filed already. |
Should / ever publish them, the world |
VIII be surprised to learn what | had |
to endure. who were the enemies of |
my plan, and on the other hand, who |
stood by me-"
Dr. Herzy never had any doubts as
to the lasting character Of his work. !
"zionism," he used to say, win never
die"