Orleans County monitor. [volume] (Barton, Vt.) 1872-1953, 1904-11-21

- +r the stall. an | remember l jest
..,r ~, if. face downward, an begun to
an, heg the Lord to save me.
civilians had heart like childs.
To stood thar an watched an listened
20 INV ravin's Of fear an regret till all
- once he begun tryin' to pacify me.
To told me I'd come clear; that it was
IN self defense; that he had seed it all
an, would 90 on the stand an testify
IN my behalf. | know nOw-in fact, l
,,r,o,,,ad when heard him on the stand
tbot be was lynn to save my neck,
brt wanted to escape the penalty an
couldn't "a stopped i'm. The fear o
meetin' my God was awful. | wasn't
oven iailed 1t was in unsettled times
lost after the war. Ny folks was prom
irLant an public sympathy fer me,
,-,,,,,y rs 7 was, was high. The hard
est thing of all to bear was the grief or
IIorbright's mother. 1t looked like it |
nj mighty nigh kill 'er. He was her |
vonnoest an pet Her other boys new |
or amounted to anything an had gone |
vrest an left 'er. Finally l come clear |
/ in the eyes O. the world, but, as God
I knows. not III my Wv H. 1Altlb SlAiAAS -
before me. wakin' or sleepin'. | often
dream that l never done it, an day
light gives that the lie. Seemed like
everything | went into turned out mon
ev an I prospered, though l did all |
could to alleviate suffering an help
the different churches. Mrs. Ham
bright lest had a little farm over in the
mountains that turned out bare liy-
in. an l sent friend to 'er to offer
her help, but she Indignantly refused
if. She'd come in town once in awhile,
but she'd never come nigh whar | was
at Then l heard she was tryin' to git
p pension through congress. Her hus-
band had claimed to be a Union man,
an that he was forced into the Con-
federate ranks, whar he fit an was
killed. an somebody told 'er she was
entitled to a pension. Old Trabue tuck
M the claim an writ on about it to
Washington, an one day he happened
TO tell me that he had had a final de-
cisfon an that she couldn't git it an
that he hated to have to tell 'er the
outcome Then | got him to pretend
to her that the pension was allowed
an paid the $15 month. I've been
dom it fer twenty year now, an II
has kept er from sufferin', but I'm II
mortal dread O. her findin' out whal
the money comes from an sellin' hel
| place to repay it. She's still in gooC
health over thar in the mountains.
] About once a year, generally in thu
fall. she comes in town, but she shlrk'
| meetin' me. Somehow l always breathe
| freer when she's gone out o town
| The sight of 'er fetches 1t all Dacl
| wuss than anything else. I've tried Il
| find out what she thinks about 1t now
| but she never mentions the subject II
| a soul I've suffered the tOrments O
the damned I made a public comics
le sion in meetin', as well as | could, t.
show nv cOntrition without implicatin
j, Hank Williams, but it didn't do specl
a O. good. All the members sWarme'
ne round me and patted me on the bac
er an said I was nigh the throne, Du
he Their pats jest seemed to beat my gul
et deeper in. | was afeard O. the sign
ny est sound at night or my shadow !
| DAYTIME an was always countn o
he bein' tuck off by disease. One mornn
Mt on my cheek an tuck it fer canoe
he | was shore then that the Lord 1nten
he ed to make me die slow, loathson
yer death, an all at once | felt weak at Il
did knees an couldn't hardly stand. N
i'm wife come an found me. l didn't te
red her about my cancer, an she thoug
use l was jest sick from somen Ia ef
one an when the doctor come was afea
uck to tell i'm about the sore place.
ned left some medicine, an l made out Ill
the tuck it, but th'owed it away. Aft
lied that I'd make a point to stop an ia
dn't to i'm every day to see ef he'd mott
YER my face an speak Of 1t, but he d1dr
Iuh! I've started up to his Office fifty tim
'ren an backed out, jest beca'se l could
got bear to be told that it was cane
hit Howsomever, one day, when it W
eller more inf1amed than ever, l went to
ears ofice-as weak as q sick kitten, feel
sides lest like a man goin' to the scaffC
was | went in an set down an waited
ther. i'm to git through with somebody el
was an when he turned to me l said, II
man I want YOU to take look at my "a
sion He put on his specks an examined
e fer then he laughed an said: III bet
| i'm. lar Won thought it was cancer. &c
when nowadays is more anxious to raise
DE, a GERS an they are good taters.'
town. amt if? I axed i'm. No said he
Hank hain't nothin' O the sort. Eff yc
an l quit rubbin' it every minute in the
1t an an stop thinkin' about it, it'll go a
what in a week | felt as light as fea
lge, when left him, but it wasn't tive
tie OF four hours fore 1 had some other
u out ment
come 81 was always lookin' fer the
l re- to show designs agin me. FER
me thing, no children come to me n
o his tina, an I interpreted that as mes
sorter, that, sence I'd put life out O the w
thing, I shouldn't fetch it in. Most ma
At, an folks worry when they haint got
went offspring. but it worried me po"t