New-York tribune., 1904-09-23
1be Confessions of an Ambitious
Career.
BY A BACHELORS WIFE.

among the best known O, Europe ". wer. also
fortunate IN nnalns q poverty stricken young
in French. and who was glad to stay as long as
l wogsd rol clgarsttes for him 20 smoke. for the
iS Is nesGless 70 say that with small crcls
estins work and the diversions OF Paris the sntsr
In May THE man received an offer az a no~,
fon N one o. She universities OF the extreme West.
sncsS W. r,s . sSI S, tPen$ Iof young and lnexper-
ing MIN before an appointment finally made
50 could nor isavsy Ta T Iy Ssse1sTs 6 Until July
friends who had Joined US in the mean time. so !
arrived in NeW-York late IN july and as NV
for me. sang in various parts q the EasferS
states durlns the summer and early fail
Ihe press had evsryw here been favorable: "a tact.
- ~ NJ - oeel SNnalS1e1
largely responsible for this / arranged with with
% make tour. giving perhaps dozen concerts
stay with him month in his abiding place.
AZ. A. tnIs MS, seemed simple % enough: -,
In small town. We soon found a comfortable
suite Of rooms but wandered from one boarding
constant cOmPanIonship Of students were to Us
IN the faculty but no music and little taste Tor I'll
Inc IDEA or being away most Of the time and
boarding house did not Strike our new aeq1ai Ss
anseS 1avorahly. We soon saw. and must say Il
ns Tas s ss 80 sSGR st sas for to e and aogE
life, the old glimpse OF the man I had lett once
before at the German station Tecurred to me and
! IeLt a tWlnge Of compunctiol- found nv artist
friend, who was thorough man OF the world
soon learned tIat more {5oryan{ thing man
singing well was to ca1ole the newspaper people
was wEitiPg . dietsting press nodes and and
had heard Of this Sort Of tbins bears 5nf ~,
actual experience was more or less uaussating and
methods we're absolutely necessary for success
For example. my friend explained the success ot
| woman whom had admired very much. who had
returned from Europe just a few years earlier
fb co1nTT % @ y ans - E q Ega SIsSl,g4 ao9.
i his chief interest to look after the press IN
snis way: Fns bottom seemed suddenly TO have
i I % went & back to the man an to fsd him more
simple wife and lovely ehildEen. and soon as
/ and that he could not be happy Without ne IN
spite Of his interesting work. in THIS little town
very far away stayed with him until ai the % foIloS Ss
ing spring. but we were really not happy. There
most unsatisfactory existence. Each felt that hts
panionshiD Of the other and that the work OF ons
each felt the mental and spiritual fermentation oe
the other.
In the spring there were new experiences to
relieve me Of still more Of my ambitious ballast
A friend. venerable IN the profession and
director because he refused to Sc isvisd spes s
stiIi appears in every musical Journal h t5 cS n1ne
/ try. Next. on being introduced to one OF ths
having sung for him. among various serious thinss
one gay little song he declared with great entnu-
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certain I could command 500 week. need nor
and could really be more indsrsr5art trs R7oPrS @
other line OF work; greater artists had gone into
II were being urged 70 psrticf1ats IN ~ g-ss a.
mental and spiritual debauch.
s T[ - aTa{ ts On yaeaSon and offered g Us the
i the maid and man Servant lust vfv n n, ,cF
know but was willing to eaioIs that cook r1ors
know no mistress had ever got s' as mHeh u 'asT work
S0sr3in ~ r ana & Iu'n Is. SIser al. these years Of
sort OF tntoxication-n a house BY ourselves
new dishes to eat and we invited every5oy BOD i y
| whom We could think, simply TO furnish an excuse
] hrst appalling, but ] soon took pleasure IN nv
mothers old doctrine Of seeing how much could
The man became himself again. and we rarely
/ above everything else to establish a home OF our
! Our parents were consulted for we had not
/ troubled to save much Of our own earnings. and
We selected beautiful spot on a bISfr 51st ont
Of the town, and by the following November We
keeping house like real oId-fashioned r1arris fSS
the trips became less freaTent and T srs oS ~
secure engagements were very much less active
children and TAD always felt this was one d1tT
awful s6rinEips 1,cE ~ o Go9Tss there vas that
ttE[uthIHny, described as the experience OF every
certain that my talents were not great eno1,xf fo
exempt me from this duty. Besides. even IN nv
that the rearing Of children would permanently
i interfere Win WORK. Had fasr
women IN literature. art and history been rlrriet1
and mothers. and why should not Il?
In thirteen months there came a little dayprsa-
| OF course the prettiest had ever seen NV On.
| overwhelming desire to nurss this dalicafs
little creature and make her thrive: but a. soor,
as my excellent nurse had left me she began n,
grow puny and felt my absolute ienorsncs a ~
helpleSSness to give her intelligent care VENT
over all the long years OF teaching and frstructon
received Whlcn could give light. In nv de-
spatr. as the child grew feeble, could not
help FEELING something dreadfuily wrong with
my education: In the mean time my nurse sent m.
some or the BEST works on the care. nursing and
reedtng or children, and raised my first baby, aS
my brother has always insisted. "on schstuls
After three months OF the regular habits had
given her / found her great delight and very
little care, and thriving much better than when
7 had tgnorantly worked with her tho greater
part OF each day.
A few years later there came to my husband a
call 70 an Eastern university: little later thsrs
came to also a SON.
In the meantime we have been back 60 Europa
hauntS.
give some OF my time TO teaching. assist nv
husband with some OF his writing have publfshed
several articles myself. also some knaergarten
songs had written for my children. Nv arsf F1-
terest. however is always IN my home and far1llSr
but in spite or this have never ceased 70 30 =
student OF all my experiences there have been
none helpful and happy as the rearing OF nv
children: helpful because they have taught ma
patience and genteness, which never knew and
happy because they have opened up a well OF Iovs
which only a mother can Understand.-(The Inds-
pendent