Evening star. [volume] (Washington, D.C.) 1854-1972, 1903-10-17
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In the Palace Solitude. Spring.

We came unwillingly. but--we car e.
had intended to send Jud:cl to the AL
pine farm for a short time, thinking 1t
would satisfy her secret Inconsistencies. But
my child wished to remain with me. She
implored me so fervently not 10 send her
away that it startled me. Why does Jul
dica not wish to see Miss Fritz again? Does
she fear the wise, clear eyes? Why do
not wish to accompany her there! Do /
fear those eyes?
My brother appears to be more lonely,
more unhappy and more weary than ever,
my siSter-in-law more SorroWful, my
mother more unapproachable, the spiritus
familiaris more spectral and--.nore neces-
sary than ever.
The majeStieS are extremely friendly to
me- The queen would like to know Judica,
but may not on account of possible conse-
quences." The king spoke again of visiting
us, but has not come. 1t Is almost as If
he felt shy. Certainly he wishes me well
with all his heart and envieS me with his
whole soul as before. For the queen mother
there is no such person as Countess of
Sarns. With the gift of the little golden
cross that parsonage was abolished finally
for my mother. And that is well.
Then there is another person at court.
She does not interest me. but she exists and
I cannot ignore her. Gebhardts sister!
To show her that 1 do not fear her
strength 1 said to her today:
Madame once did the favor to Solitude
to wander there at times"
"Once, your royal highness."
She put a slight infection on the first
word. With all my politeness l continued:
THE king had the graciousness to close
the palace park to the public from thought
fulness for US. AS you may know, l am
married. 1t goes without saying that the
park is at your service at all times 1t is
so large that you will hardly be in danger
of meeting my wife"
Your royal highness is extraordinarily
kind"
Il trust that you will take advantage Of
II shall permit myself to use the privi-
lege occasionally"
THAT will please me-"
The most polite Of obeisances on my part,
the most correct of bows on hers, and we
parted in the most polite and correct man
ner. Yet am dissa tisfied with myself once
more.
The tickle mob!
The young kings popularity has paled as
quickly as 1T grew. My brother is begin
ming TO become as unpopular as king he
was as crown prince. And since the sweet
mob misses no opportunity to let the king
feel its exalted dissatisfaction. he knows it
well. The king knows and the king suf-
fers He suffers increasingly. heavily.
And this rabble begins once more to fiirt
and coduet with me! 1 observe it, do not
notice it. despise it. For since I know
what kind of thing this people is I am
nauseated by It, 1 think that a monarch
could die from this nausea OF the people"
as consumptive dies from his sick lungs
God preserve ruler from this worst of
all rulers maladies.
am hurrying the building on the Sea-Alp
with all my might. / first doubled and then
trebled the number of workmen, offer re-
wards for quick work, suffer from the de-
lays and am In perfect fever of restlessness
and Impotence. In my new house desire
all possible splendor and pomp, flaming
colors, gold and radiance. 1t must be like
a fairy palace. In the midst of rocks and
wilderness wish to live in a fairy palace.
My dream of Grail Burg could be full
filled only If / were king. But even with
out 1t propose to transform my life more
and more into fairy tale.
Sometimes seem to notice that my tails
man is losing its strength, that the presence
OF my child Is not SO powerful al It vas