The Minneapolis journal. [volume] (Minneapolis, Minn.) 1888-1939, 1903-07-16
BOOK III
The House of Doom.
4, CHAPTER xxv-contlnued.

CHAPTER xxv-contlnued.
"Who VIII Tell the Man Inside There?"
HE is avenged; but you! Who will
avenge you, and where will you ever find
happiness?
''To blot myself from your memory l
would go down deeper itno the vale of suf-
fering than ever have gone yet. But
no, no! do not quite forget me. Remem-
Der me as you saw me one night-the
night You took the flower out of my hair
and kissed it. saying that Washington held
many beautiful women, but that none OF
them save myself had ever had the power
to move your inmost heartstrings. An,
low as your voice and eloquent your eyes
that hour, and l Forgotten moment l
forgot everything but this pure love, and
the heartbeat it called up and the hope,
never to be realized-that l should live to
hear you repeat the same sweet words IN
our old age. in just such tone and with
Just such look. 1 was innocent at that
moment, innocent and good. l am willing
that YOU should remember me as l was
that night.
when I think Of him lying cold and
dead In the grave 1 myself dug for him,
my heart Is like stone, but when think
of you
II am afraid to die; but am more
afraid of failing in courage. shall have
the pistol tied to me; this will make 1t
seem inevitable to use it. Oh! that the
next twenty-four hours could be blotted
out of time! Such horror can not be.
was born for joy and gaiety; yet no dismal
depth Of misery and fear has been spared
me! But all on account Of my own act
do not accuse God; do not accuse man
/ only accuse myself. and my thouShtleSs
grasping after pleasure
II want Cora to read this as we'll as
you She must know me dead as she never
knew me living. But / can not tell hel
that have left confession behind me
She must come upon it unexpectedly, just
as mean you to do Only thus can il
reach either of you with any power. If
could but think of some excuse for send.
/. ing her to the book where l propose tt
. hide it, that would give her a chance o.
reading it before you do, and this would
be best. She may know how to prepare OF
comfort you'll hope so. Cora is noble
woman, but the secret which kept my
thoughts in such whirl has held us apart
You did what l asked. You found 6
place for Raucher's waiter in the
volunteer corps. Surprised as you
were at the interest l expressed II
him, you honored my first request and sale
nothing. Would you have shown the
same anxious eagerness if you had known
why I whispered those few words to hin
from the carriage door? Why l coult
neither rest nor sleep till he and the othe
boy were safely out of town?
IT must leave line for you to show t,
people If they should wonder why killes
myself SO soon after my seemingly happ.
marriage. You will find 1t in the sam
book with this letter. Some one will tel
you to look in the book-I cannot writ
: any more.
II cannot help writing. 1t is all tina
connects me now with life and with you
But have nothing more to say except
forgfye-forgiye-
DO you think that God looks at hi
wretched ones differently from what mel
do? That he will have tenderness for on
so sorry-that he will even find place
But my mother is there! my father! Oh
that makes 1t fearful to go-to meet-Bu
1t was my father who led me into this
only he did not know-There! I Wi
think only of God.
Good 7by-good- by-good-"
That was all. 1t ended, as 1t begar
without name and without date-the f1ns
rt-throbs of SOUL awakened to it
own act when it was quite too late. .
piteous memorial which daunted each on
of us as we read 1t. and when finished
drew us all together in the hall out of tn
sight and hearing Of the two persons mos
intimately concerned In it.
Possibly because all had one thought