New-York tribune., 1903-07-06


hertted Joined mine II vas M. =. -
great deal at the beginning but OF eourze :,
0eNalhe smaller and smaller until when vor1-
lather died they found only enough to settle
thlS S-Ooo a year upon Us II was rather
surprise 70 the world but IL has been enough
LOT US and II will be enough for YOU tin YOU
are able TO earn more Your fathers iart -
success did not come from iadolence and
haven't any fear OF Incidence in you- One % n.
delusions which beset him vvas ,bs e. -
ne was coward. but that was not rrua af-ns-
Many times. II is true. ne shirked 4oirr ,-h,.
ne might have done. and many times ab q,
many times that toward the end Of his lse. h.
@S H3Ecly able 10 DO otherwise he did one
OF me most eowardly things in the world-ha
'O'o Nhat vas not the truth Yet IL was nor
co"ardly. exactly. as he did IT, Bur If v,zs 80.
KnoWledge that he was doing II which rs-~sss.f
nm ana nounded him. until ar last he fell rba-
ne could stand il no longer. and he went AVA
mere were two things that never let h4-,
iesC he always wondered what peoule v-a-.
'uiilAlns about him, and he always hoped they
we're prslslns him They are little things and
IN many people they may honestly do Eooa I'm.
10y we're 50 developed in your father that they
u,u nm great harm He could not do the sim
piest thing in any company. but espseiarlv :,
the company OF strangers. without being fuuv
conscious or their attitude toward him: ana IN
great things he was Just as conscious Tba,
ne asked me 20 marry him we were AZ a dana
We were sitting out and there was some p4-f
near Us whom neither OF US knew Your fsth.-
'O1d me long afterward, one day when he was In
one OF MS self-reproachful moods that at N.
H,He ne was asking me he was wondering
"As1nsr mat girl guessed what he was TALKING
o. rom the expression in his eyes and he sgIas
70 deceive her. though he wished az the san.
'irne that she could hear him The story nav
+ nave been true. or he nay Just have beea SEX
iIs some striking way OF expressing his detestA-
uon OF MS own instncerity. cannot tell B,,s
Ol course II was this insincerity which mad.
Us both unhappy. When one Is really iasinee-.
I what Is there left in life? do not mean thst
your father was either hypocritical or malicious
ne was always gentle natured. But he was
never real He did what seemed 70 him drs-,a4-
/ lcaly right to do. and his intuition was So tru.
ana me mat nearly every one approved OF
everything he did think that hA might hzv.
maze d great actor Some men, he used 70 tell
AII7' Sd" through the vel he hung ID bur m
woman ever did except myself and he said thzt
was because almost all women were arH,c+.5
win tne same fault It may BE- So but do ros
think so.
Well dear, in the end he tired Of svsrvth,n<
you see Or course. one tires OF everything. %
every emotion. unless It is real II it ts nor a
part or him, II he can stand on one side ans
look at IL and estimate II. he must tire ~ -
some time. And nothing was ever real u5-b
your father Nothing ever came so close N hin,
thae ne could not watch II and balance tha
meaning Of it Once. little while arter Won
were born. I was very Ill Your father was varv
Sorry for me. but saw that he was thfnktng
700. now he ought 70 act and what he ought -
90 he did the right things always but nor be-
cause ne could not help 1t. only because hs saw
they were the right things 10 do I began ,,
han z
That ever guessed II could have bean ksn-
from seeing We might have turned our If,-as w.,
olnerently- Yet not sure The vors+ -
am not sure OF anything about him am not
sure tnat he loved me. I am not even sure that
Win all his careful planning he wanted n a.
ne must nave been really IN earnast-he must
nave Oeen' ne must have been, He couldn't
nave thought OF anything then. except thar We
were estranged, and life meant nothing mora N
him Yet II he did not care for a,,+bt- l,.
death. Why did he write me at the Ias-7 VIZ
old ne not leave me- 70 think IL vas accident O..
should not have thought So but should have
oe-H aOle 20 nope So II Is terrible 20 write a.
10 II Only mat you may see how much care
ABOUT what L am going 70 tell you now
1OA- my dear. my dear. be honest with vour-
ser Don't speak or act. or think for any effect
upon any one else. II you sacrifice your rspu-
taton' II you sacrifice friendship. stiu keep
- N ~
you this, 7 know that IL is needless. Z know,
that you VIII be genuine and sincere This 3.
only my hears cry 20 let you know What nv
sorrow would be if you were not. for 7 love YOU
dear-Ainnee Curtis Bradford
He shutHed the sheets together mechanically
and replaced them in the envelope To nv
son To b. opened on the evening before IA
enters upon the practice of his profession" The
handwriting. with its firm. fine delcacy. was
very ike the little mother. whose eyes espe-
ctally he remenbered-eyes which looked 81
clearly out upon the world This. then. Vas
why she had been so uucomproraising with tbs
people about -them-and with him This vas
the source OF her reputation for severity and
hardness She insisted upon exact Justice a.
any cost She had shut herself away from him
. for three days once when he told her q little lie
He had repeated an experience OF his in school
and clever thing he had said There had
really been foundation for MS story. only hs
had misstated a little 70 make IL sound better.
He WINGED still at the scorn in her eyes whsu
she found him out Tt takes courage 70 liz
boldly" she said. but any coward can twist the
truth a little" How often he had thought %
that since then And this was her reason His
I eyes dewsd over as he remembered her. and IA
dashed his hand across them At least one
thing about me was gsnuine-rny love for her
1 he thought proudly ANY one could see that"
AS he looked at his watch Il was I've minutes
to 1. and he rose. meaning 10 think the Isttsr
over in his berth There was sudden upbsnd-
ing OF the seat On which he sat. Something
wrong flashed through mis- mind. so quickly
that IL preceded the grinding roar. the smash
ing. tossing Iurches. the rapid dislocating series
OF jolts. which told him what the trouble was
He was shaken to the floor. and dug his nails