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The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
BIG FISHING GROUNDS.

BIG FISHING GROUNDS.
IN you are looking for good fishing
grounds for your summer vacation call
at THE NEWS office. In our Summer
Resort Bureau we have the most com
plete guides TO all OF the best lakes and
streams I'm Maine. New Hampshire and
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

TO INSURE YOUR HOUSEHOLD
furniture against loss by fre costs oni,
a. for years for each 5000. ISAAC
l.. GOFF CO.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
Nervous Diseases

Caused by indlscretions OF youth. ex-
hausted vitality, nervous and physical d.
bility, premature decline. weakness. i'm
cured in three or four days. CURE
GUARANTEED. no matter how long
standing.
ELECTRIC INvIooRATE
Cures all Nervous and Chronic Diseases.
Rheumatism Lumbago, Gout. Neuralgia.
Female Complaints and Nervous Head
aches. Electric spray given without dis
robing Two treatments free until fur.
ther notice 10 demonstrate the value OF
medical electricity. Consultation. examf-
nation and advice free. Write or call to-
day All business strictly confidential.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

CAPITAL is NOT NECESSARY TO
own a handsome home in fine locality
by our method. ISAAC l.. GOFF CO.,
III Westminster street
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

HAVE YOU SEEN oAKHURsT7 III
not do so at once. ISAAC l.. GOFF CO,
III Westminster street
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
RAILROADS
NEW YORK, NEW HAVEN AMI
HARTFORD RAILROAD.

A Time Table giving full information
as 10 local : ad through train service may
be obtained at Providence station and
stations below:
Train Service from Providence.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

YOU ONLY NEED 500 TO SECURE A
nice home Just outside the city limits
CITY and suburban advantages. ISAAC
L. GOFF CO.. III Westminster street.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

As SUBURBAN REAL ESTATE DE-
velopers we offer better bargains In lots
on the outskirts than are offered else
where. ISAAC L. GOFF CO.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR SALE-sMALL COTTAGE ON
Burnside st. improvements furnace: I:
price. 5000. G. l.. & III. j. GROSS. Man
ayers OF Estates. Union Trust Bldg.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

"A Drink In its place Is the place for
Drink" Proper use OF
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
FOUR DOCTORS FALL
!, Is months in a chair,
A Specialist also fails to even relieve
a bad case of Asthma.
The BRAZILIAN BALM instantly 70;
Geves and effects a Radical Cure.


Brazilian Balm
has done W O NJ
ders for me, aftse
suffering Q yes.-
with Asthms 4
received 40 help
from four of our
local physicians,
and a specialist
in Hartford, who
is at the head oe
the hospital and
receives all the
critical cases In
the adjoin ing
counties. For Is
months ] never
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

wANTED-LADIES OR GENTLEMEr'
who need temporary loan on personal
property to call on me. or write j. w.
Lander, 81 Westminster ST
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

REAL ESTATE FOR SALE.

FOR SALE - VERY FINE HOUSE
lots at Eden Park: call or address The
Swedish Publ. Co. tT westminstsr 81.
Providence r. T.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR SALE-SUMMER HOME AT
Edgewood: rooms; lot 1o0x122: harm;
price. $500. G.. L. e. IT. i. GROSS. Man
ayers OF Estates. Union Trust Bldg.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

WE DO OUR UTMOST To GIVE SAT,
IsfactIon and we generally succeed.
That's at the bottom OF our success
ISAAC l.. GOFF CO, Real Estate and
Insurance..
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
NEUTRALITY-SUSPICIOUS..

wANTED--CHAIRS TO CANE; LOW
prices; send postal; will call. III. Drake.
l57 Sutton street
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

WHY NOT ENJOY LIFE BY LIVING
in your own home? It's foolish to pa!
rent Let us talk II over with you
ISAAC l.. GOFF co.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR sALE-Two LCTs FOR SALE
In New York ia Westchester. Each lot v
% by 100 feet Begasse. ~ Judith. Provt-
dence. r. !.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

TO LET-UPPER TENEMENT. ESQ
Public street, near Elmwood avenue All
modern improvements. seperate entrance.
furnace heat. eight rooms. 500. Apply
Mrs II. E. Redding, ESQ Public street.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

IF YOU HAVE BEEN FOOLISH PAY
ing rent in the past don't worry. but
start now in the right path. Own your
own home. ISAAC l.. GOFF co.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR RENT-HALF HOUSE. 42e PINE
street: nine rooms; modern SIS per
month Apply at G. Exchange place.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

WE INSURE AUTOMOBILES. HAVE
you got one. our rates are low lSAAC
/. GOFF CO, General Insurance Agents
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR RENT-sUMMER COTTAGE.
nine rooms. bath. colthes presses. cellar,
all large and complete. Massasoit Real
Estate Co. 62 Exchange place.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

HOMES FOR woRKINGMEN or
all descriptions. 7. 3. . and 10 rooms
small deposit required Balance I'm
monthly payments. ISAAC l.. GOFF co.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

DESIRABLE BUILDING LOTS Al
IJncoln, Jefferson and Cleveland Parks.
for a little down and a little each month
ISAAC l.. GOFF co.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR sALE-PARLoR POOL TABLES;
3, 4. feet. at 5000. Address F-s6. News
Office.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

wANTED-RooM WITHIN 5 MIN
ute's walk of News for a genuemhn'
about 600 per week w. b.. News Onice.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
HELP wANTEp.-MALE.

wANTED-BRIGHT INTELLIGENT
young man or lady stenographer. Quick
worker. VIII have opportunity to learn
business. Salary. first year. A.0O per
week. Address IL" News Office.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

IF YOU HAVE $500 AND STILL PAY
rent, you're doing yourself an Injustice
Let MS show you a way To double II In
a short time. ISAAC J.. GOFF CO.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
TO LET.

TO LET-TENEMENr ROOMS. 1o2
Ring street, five rooms on floor and
bath. Two in attic.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

INVEST AT ONCE IN HOUSE LOTS
at Oakhurst. Nice. dry, level land. Just
outside Of Providence for a cent a square
foot. ISAAC l.. GOFF co.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

THE FIRST STEP TO COMFORT.
able Independence is a nice home. A
newly finished. modern home, excellent
location. for $1,000. Term easy. ISAAC
L. GOFF co.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
ROOMS AND BOARD.

TO LET-FURNIsHED ROOM. ALI
convenlences. sl35. l0e Ring street.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

IT YOU DESIRE ANYTHING IN
the real estate line why Just call on us.
ISAAC l.. GOF co, Real Estate Agents.
III Westminster street.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

WANTED - CARRIAGE PAINTERS
that can stripe. Apply 1s7 Pine st.
WANTED-YOUNG MAN TO LEARN
mercantile business. Address K-fs. News
Office.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18
COAL AND WOOD

We now have in stock. In addition to
the usual varieties of domestic Goals
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR SALE-A MANDOLIN. COVER
and book included for $780, almost new.
cost sl200 Address X 2s News once.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR sALE-BAYSIDE, r. l., A FEW
Lots for summer residences. very low and
easy terms. j. l.. Kehoe. SIS Hops
street.
The Providence news. (Providence [R.I.]) 1891-1906, 1903-05-18

FOR sALE-NEw COTTAGE HOUSE
and 500 feet OF land in Pawtuxet; rooms.
all modern improvements. One minute
from electrlcs. Sold on easy terms The
Hustler. 279 weybosset ST.. Room I.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
Miners Guarded bv Troops,

Cripple Creek, Col.-General Chase
produced in the district court the four
military prisoners, members Of min
ers union, for whom writs of habeas
corpus were issued. A strong force OF
troops was stationed in and about the
court house.
Attorney Engley, who instituted the
habeas corpus proceedings, protested
against the presence Of 30 soldiers in
the court room, declaring 1t to be In
violation of the constitution, and, as
they were permitted to remain. he
withdrew from the case.
At the conclusion of the arguments
Judge Zeds announced that he prob
ably would deliver his decision on the
motion to quash the habeas corpus pro-
ceedings later. The prisoners, escort
ed by military, were taken back to the
guard house. No afidavits charging
any Of them with crimes have been
fled.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
Boston & Maine $500 Trip to New
York City-oet. 1st.

From the Hub to the Metropolis and
back again for $500, this is the triI
which the Boston & Maine Railroad
offers on Oct. /. And any person who
has ever taken the delightful sail down
the Hudson at just this time will not
guess why this date has been chosen
The first change in the foliage has
already been marked. Hardly notice
able it Is deepening day by day, and
when September goes out scenic Wis
ia of rare beauty will be observed. The
green foliage is now blending with q
charming brown and golden tone and
the breezes that now blow are refresh.
ing without being chilly.
The Hoosac country and Deerfield
valley is at its best on Oct. l, and al
though nature is lavish in her fall
decorations, she does not bestow them
for long. for a week sees many
changes. The deep fruited orchards
along the Hudson are a sight worth
while viewing and as early October
marks the fruit harvest, delay may
make a sacrifice of this famous sight
This trip is via the Boston & Maine
railroad to Albany with stopover OF
one night In Albany then steamer
down the Hudson river to New York
city and back Fall River line to Bos.
ton, all for $500.
Send to the General Passenger De-
partment, Boston & Maine Railroad
Boston, for the Illustrated, descriptive
booklet telling all about this trip. It
will be mailed free to any address.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
buL0ARiANs ARE URGENT.
Want the Government To Declare War
Without Delay.

Soha-A less hopeful feeling pre-
walls in government circles regarding
the general situation. although no ac-
tual change Is reported The events
Of the next two days are awaited with
great anxiety. and popular feeling Is
becoming more excited. A largely
attended meeting of Macedonian SYM
pathizers was held at Rustchuk, Bull
garia, Sept. 2, and adopted resolutions
appealing to the Bulgarian government
to declare war on Turkey Immediately.
In revolutionary circles war Is be-
lieved to be imminent, unless Turkey
stops massacreing the Christians, OF
which there are no signs at present.
Insurgent committees attach no i'm
portance to the reported negotiations
between Turkey and Bulgaria, because
similar propositions we're discussed in
1897 and in 1899 and 1900 The Porte
only entered into the conference, they
say, in order to gain time to finish tho
determination Of what it regards as the
dangerous elements In Macedonia, have
the troops now at Monastir free to
move again Bulgaria, and bring more
soldiers from Asia. While the sui
tan's government is discussing propo-
sitions for reform in Macedonia, the
troops continue to massacre the Chris
tians and devastate the country. There
is no guarantee even If the commits
sion is appointed that 1t will ever be
more than ornamental.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26

To-day Germany fairly rivals Ire
land with Its potato crop and out
does most other countries. Fully an
eighth Of the arabic land Of the EN-.
pire Is planted to this nutritious vege-
table. Half the large yield Is used
directly as human food; a considera BILE
other portion is given over to fatten.
Ing stock. There still remains an
enormous surplus after that, however
and 1t Is the success with which the
Germans have met in turning this
surplus into manufactured products
that Is most remarkable.
Among these manufactured PRODUCTS
are starch, glucose. potato -four. dex-
trim and starch sugar, each Of which
appears prominently on the list Of
German exports, all together contribut-
Ing large sums every year to the
profits of German manufacturers and
exporters. But the alcohol which the
Germans make from the potato is the
most valuable and wonderful product
Of all. This as a light producer fairly
rivals the electric current, It is said.
The apparatus for its practical use
includes lamps, chandeliers. street and
corner lights, in which alcoholic vapor
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
Brigham Young in 1880

put through, and was located near
the heel path side of the canal. The
Young house has long since been
moved. A part of the original struo-
ture now stands back of the New
kirk livery stables. and is unoccupied.
Brigham Young's family comprised
his wife and one son, Brigham. Jr.
who died recently at Salt Lake City.
Young at that time was q firm be-
lever in Mormonism. He left Pert
Byron, or Buckville, in 1850, and went
to Seneca Falls. From there he went
to Utah and subsequently became
famous as the leader Of the Mormons.
In after years, when he was famous.
one Of his old acquaintances wrote
to him and asked him II he was the
Brigham Young Of Port Byron. and
If he were could he pay Squire Pine
for large board bill. Squire Pine
was then an old man and In poor cir.
cumstances. In short time Squire
Pine received letter from Young,
and inclosed was the money in full
for his board, with interest. Young
was then rich man and said he
was very glad to pay up his old debts.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26

About the year 1880. Brigham
Young and family settled In Port
Byron. says the Rochester Post
Express. It was then known as
Bucksville and boasted Of 100 inhabi-
tants. There was no canal or rail-
road in those days, and the settlers
had to hew down trees IN order to
make a clearing In which to build a
house. During the first few years Of
Young's stay he made his home with
Squire Pine, who lived in the corner
Of Pine and South streets. The Pine
house is now about 100 years old. 1t
Is now owned and occupied by Mr..
and Mrs. James d. Dixon.
Brigham Young was a carpenter,
and old residents of Port Byron say
that he was an expert at his trade,
but work was scarce and he was
always hard up. 1t was long time
before he saved money enough to
buy lumber to build his own house.
Il was his intention to build himself
fine house, but it turned out to be
very ordinary frame structure. 1t was
built soon after the Erie canal was
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
THE DELINEAFOR
WITH THE AGE, One YEAR, $l.55
Fo r months trial subsoriptioa -
The Age
25 Cents.
We DO JOB PRINTING.
Many Uses for Potato

l.. burned like gas In hooded fame.
covered by Welsbach mantle. 30
used, potato alcohol is described ~
burning with an incandescent hAms
equallng the electric light In brilliancy.
Indeed, we are oflicially told now By
our consul general ut Berlin that po-
tato alcohol is competing with gas and
electricity with increasing success ev.
cry year.
In the problems Of heat and power
production, too. the lowly potato has
been brought into use, and the alcohol
from It has been applied to warming
and cooking stoves, to steam locomo-
biles, to thrashing. grinding. fuel cut.
ting and other agricultural and mo
chanical appliances. The advantages
said to be found in It's use are imms.
diate readiness for operation: dispens-
ing with coal, water and firemen; free
dom from odors and danger of nre and
greater economy Of maintenance Pos
sibly there Is some exaggeration In
these claims. But figures given plain.
ly show that the potato as cultivated
in Germany has produced real com.
petitor for at least benzine and petrol.
cum for motor purposes.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
Columbia Opens.

New York-The 150th academic year
Of Columbia university has been opened
features of the program being the ded-
ication Of the Goelet memorial statue
alma Mater" and the announcement
by President Butler of the endowment
of the Pulitzer school Of journalism
and the gift of 100000, or 100000 II
needed, for the erection Of univer-
sity chapel. DR.. Butler said steps will
be taken at once to erect building for
the school or JOurnalism, ana It Is
hoped to complete 1t in year. The
statue Alma Mater" presented to the
university by Mrs. Robert Goelet and
her son, Robert Goelet, in memory OF
the elder Robert Goelet Of the class of
1860, is the work of Daniel c. French,
and its design is an idealization Of the
university seal.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26

New York--According to the state
ment Of her lawyer, Daniel s. Decker
Mrs. Florence Maybrick. when she
comes out of prison in England next
year, will be heir to about $7,000,0O0.
While her mother, the Baroness de
RoQues, lives, Mrs. Maybrick will be
dependent on her bounty. as this es-
tate must be held together; but on her
death 1t will become the property, out
right, OF Mrs. Maybrick.
I'VE have already recovered good
part of the lands In Virginia." said
Mr.. Decker, because they were deed
ed away without proper authoriy. Da-
RUS Blake Holbrook. Mrs. Maybrick's
grandfather, owned immense tracts
there and in West Virginia. and we
have recently found that he also owned
valuable property in Fourteenth street,
near Broadway, this city"
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
WEDN ESDAY,
Sept. 23, 1908.


Boston firemen twice called out to
fight ugly fire; over dozen overcome
and many affected by smoke and am
monia gas; loss 100000.
Three men, suspected of being South
Hpdley pestoffice burglars, arrested at
Millers Falls. Mass.
Hon. Carroll D. Wright addresses
Unitarian conference on the growth of
religion; many Bostonians attend re-
ception at Atlantic City.
Schooner Rising Sun of Bangor, Me-,
which has weathered many a hard gale,
comes to grief in the quiet Charles.
Cardinal Gibbons arrives at New
York; says the friendly feeling of Pope
Plus for the Italian king will cause no
sudden change in papal policy, but will
probably bring about improved rela-
tions.
Grave of William Dimond. the drum
mer at the Concord fight, discovered at
Peterboro, N. H.
Ashael Dunton, who was assaulted at
East Sullivan, N. H., last Saturday.
dies in Keene hospital.
David M. Parry says he will fight the
trade union principle as long as he
lives.
Oliver T. Sherwood, defaulting cash.
Ter of the Southport, Conn, national
bank, given 10 years in prison.
Cleveland nurse commits suicide be-
cause disappointed in love.
Maj. Gen. Chaffee in report says
blanket roll should be replaced by
nack
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26

Baltimore-More than 10000 peo-
pie cheered the 5000 Odd Fellows and
Patriarchs Militant alcng the route Of
the parade. The procession, reception,
drill and ball of the patriarchs and the
illumination by half million electric
lights were the crowning features Of
the reunion.
The parade was not up to expecta-
uon in numbers. 1t was fine display,
but Comander-in-C Chief Raney Of the
patriarchs and other leaders Of the Or
der said it did not compare to the pa
rade in Boston several years ago.
when more than 10000 men were in
line. The expectation OF going to st..
Louis next year cut down the attend
ance in Baltimore from The west and
southwest.
There were some 2600 members Of
the uniformed rank In line. including
about 600 from New England. The
rest of the procession was made up Of
lodges Of this and other states. mem
bers Of the sovereign grand lodge and
the grand lodge Of Maryland.
The Massachusetts, and New Eng
land patriarchs, comprising delega-
tions from 20 cantons., were fifth In
line, under command of Brig. Gen.
Welch, commander of the department
of Massachusetts, with Brig. Gen.
Weeks, commander of the department
of Maine, as aid.
Nha vfo no oto
of the Oldest in the country. was well
represented. and Capt. Poor. the pa
triarch Of the order. was proud of the
showing of his brothers from Maine.
Other cantons represented from Maine
in line were Halifax Of Waterville,
Ridgeley of Portland, Bangor, Lafay-
ette of Rockland and Columbian of
North Berwick.
In military bearing, evolutions in
marching and general appearance the
New England cantons surpassed some
of those from the west and south, and
measured up to all. Members Of near
ly all the lodges wore white duck
trousers, black coats and gray felt
hats. and carried canes tipped with
tiny American flags.
Members of Baltimore City lodge
rode in carriages. They core a small
badge to which was attached small
silk stocking.
The large drill hall Of the 5th regi-
ment arnnry WAS masniaoAntip doc
GRATED and Illuminated for the recep-
tion and ball, and many state and city
officials attended. The attendance
was about 5000.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
Park Won Hands Down.

Kansas City-Sam Parks and his
New York delegation won out in the
convention of the structural iron
works, hands down. after long con
tinuous session. Only three votes
were registered against the seating Of
Parks and his delegation. These were
the ballots Of President Buchanan, the
Kansas City delegate and one other.
The result was decided victory for
Parks, as 1t reinstates him and local 2
Of New York. of which he Is the bust
ness agent, and directly repudiates the
action Of President Buchanan In sus
pending 1t.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
Youno Soldier MISSING.

Boston-The whereabouts or John
D. McInnes. who escaped from the
Westboro insane asylum, and who was
last heard from at Hot Springs, Ark,
Is still shrouded in mystery. His
mother, who lives in East Boston,
stated that she received letter from
her son. dated at Westboro. Sept. 3,
which was eight days after he had es-
capped from the hospital. and she
thinks it strange that her son should
bo wandering about for that length Of
time in the place without being seen
and returned to the hospital. The
young man served as private in
Company c. 7th United States regu-
lars, during the Spanish war. and has
not been we'll since his discharge from
the service.
Spirit of the age. [volume] (Woodstock, Vt.) 1845-1913, 1903-09-26
ONE woMAN's CLEVER IDEA.
Put tho Burden Of Flbblng on Inqu'si'
tive Friends.


tive Friends.
81 think 1t Is a foolish fashion that
40 many women indulge, that OF tell
Ing their age wrongly" said woman
with prematurely gray hair. Il can
honestly say that I never practice 1t
myself"
"No?" said her friend, with many
meanings in the monosyllable,
WELL" said the first speaker, with
! smile-she was a woman with a
sense of humor; "the fact is, don't
have to. have way Of making my
self out younger than l am, II | wish
to, without telling a fib at all"
Really" inquired the other, curl.
ously; Sin what way?"
II put the burden Of the fib all upon
the questioner. You see, when one
Of my dear women friends-it is
always women who are curious on
this point-asks me how old l am, ]
say, oh, I'm year or two older than
you, you know, my dear-at least a
year older. Let me see, now, how old
are your And then she always
knocks more off my age than should
ever have the nerve to do myself"