Evening star. [volume] (Washington, D.C.) 1854-1972, 1903-09-26

them But 1t is horrible to consider how a
few senseless ones can drive a man
out of his senses.
In that fearful moment I had the strength
to comfort my weeping mother. l had never
seen her cry before. for queens. as everyone
knows. do not weep. even when they are
queens of misery like my mother. Even
looked on with dull amaZement at the
stream of real tears! Surely they were
scalding drops that burned my mother S
heart.
We remained together a long while-for
the first time! For the first time we were
mother and son. Things had to go far with
the state of Denmark before we got to that.
And further than that have the strength
to remain silent. 1 long to speak, cry,
scream. But hold my mouth shut tightly.
l long to call in our spiritus familiaris. But
l conquer myself. l long to throw myself
on the breast of my one friend and sob on
his bosom. But / do not permit myself to
| shed tear, even in my chamber.
Today the king arose from his tomb, and
the most imprudent sparrow dare not chat
ter about what happened in the cell; 1
have not yet seen my reSurrected DrotneT.
l have not seen my mother, either, since
the hour In which she wept over me. How
shall l look into their eyes? My brother,
too will know that l have learned how 1T
is with me even now" | mean how 1t is
said to be with me. for it is not true not
ture not true! They lie. The day will come
when l can prove the lie to them. And
then
However l need not fear as to how l
shall look at my mother and brother. So
long as we celebrate we are less family
than ever. And now we are representatives
from head to sole in the highest OF we'd
ding and coronation style.
MY adjutant has handed me long list.
Everything is in 1t, named with painful
system. Every article of clothing. from the
cravat to each ribbon of each order. is
scheduled and just how often each must be
changed. Tonight l shall have to lock my
self In my room and learn the whole thing
by heart If it will only go into my sick
head! Gebhardt will have to rehearse NE
early tomorrow. IF l get stuck l shall de-
clare myself unable to permit the changes
of cravats. But l will not get stuck. L
will have the strength to stamp it into my
brain and play my roles. l am nothing but
a statist, anyway.
. station to help receive new guests. The
| faithful subjects cheer and shout.
| l notice that their JOY is not SO exuberant
when 1 appear as 1t used to be. Why not
| Even nowi What have l done to then?
| Only little time ago they showed me their
| trust. their affection. their love. And sud
denly they are still. What have l done to
! them? For their sake 1 became Cain in
| my thoughts For the sake of that mob,
| And now-I have sharp ea.rs-it Is still
| around me- quite still. Can 1t be that they
have heard the Grass lie about me. that they
| know
| would make them cheer and shout If
! Oh. would!
| To write these things Gains my nerves
| more than the bromide with which the fam
| lily spirit is feeding me these days. He is
absolutely stuffins me with 1t.
| Last night the happy bride arrived. To-
| morrow there will be the wedding, corona
ton. homage. gala dinner. gala theater.
| Illumination, parades, and then at last they
| will leave king and queen alone The I'M
| happy ones!
| l was with those who helped the BRIDE
| groom to meet his bride. The king wore the
generals uniform OF the regiment that was
| given to him by the BRIDES government.
| The bride wore light green toilet and a
| cloak of old rose velvet. embroidered with
| silver and the same embroideries on a hat
| of rose gauZe,
! The faithful subjects went mad with 10y
| at the sight Of the beautiful royal bride.
| but she was so embarrassed. so shy, SO
| frightened that she could not even bow her
| head. The king bowed constantly, to all
| sides. without even faint simmer OF
pleasure on his pale. care-worn face.
| With such q countenance he is to be mar
| ried and crowned! A man with such a
| face should let himself be laid away in the
| grave; in his wedding day in the month 81
May, and king!
A royal lord marshal has covered himself
| days will be immortal in the annals Of the
| court. Everything was correct. Every one
| received what belonged to him. Even that
| tremendous problem. the order Of prece.
dence at all the ceremonies. was solved
| triumphantly, an intellectual labor OF Her.
cules splendidly performed.
I stared at the young queen during The
wedding ceremony and at the young KIM