Lewiston evening teller. [volume] (Lewiston, Idaho) 1903-1911, 1903-10-28

ter So far as | could remember her at
all, it seemed to me that as a child she
had exhibited a remarkable strength
and evenness of purpose. My father
would be the last man in the world to
break the will or eradicate the iudiviu-
uality of any child in his care. He
was one who would read natures plan
and accept it for the best, striving only
to see that it should be perfectly car
ried out. So Sibyl would be girl with
a mind of her own.
She must remember me, of course,
far better than | remembered her.
had changed somewhat to the eye, but
the alteration was a vast Improvement.
She had been keen child by all that
nv father used to tell me about her.
No doubt she knew me very well. 1t
was fair to assume that l must in some
way have impressed her favorably, so
that she could think of me with no
very great rebellion when my father
talked Of me to her. Really it was hard
for me to take that view, but there was
no other. Perhaps the child remember
ed how l. used to sing to her one sum-
d
two. She must have been 10 years old
then, and she was very fond Of music
must have been, indeed, to stand my
singing for two or three hours at a
stretch in the dark drawing room Of
an evening. 1t was always dark, for
the child said that light spoiled mu-
sic for her. In reality she was bash
full and afraid that 1 would look at
| her, afraid that / would see the tears
she shed at sentimental songs. l was
singing heart breakers that summer,
having suffered some slight damage In
the matter of a young lady who mar
ried another fellow.
All of which is merely to say that
Sibyl must have reconciled herself to
me as a manifest destiny and that 1t
would be utterly impossible for me to
reconcile myself to her while my heart
was raging for Anna LamOine. l should
inevitably dislike her, especi.Py as she
| could have no strong personal attrac-
| ton, no charm to catch the eye. II she
had possessed physical beauty, meeting
her might we'll have set me right, for
beauty counts at the start, and quail
| ties are so slow.
| had no doubt that she was splen-
did woman in all that makes soul
more luminous than the dull average.
nv father was sure of it, and really in
all this Internal struggle l was greatly
Influenced by his opinion. If he be-
lieved that Sibyl was the ideal woman
for me, she probably was. That's the
fact about it, and l never quite let go
Of that conviction. But that was In my
head; my heart had a conviction Of its
own, which was that l stood upon the
verge of an awful mistake; my heart
was afraid 1t said to me: What are
you doing here? Go find Anna La
moine You have a chance now. Why
sid she run away from New York as
soon as you had told her, In effect that
you were engaged to another girl!
What was it that your friend Gushing
thought was too badT Don't be SO
modest; the girl had begun to love you,
but while you're spending all this sum-
mer trying to love somebody else what
will she be doing?"
The result of it all was that I fell
into a sort of panic. l lost my wits
IN the face of this problem for the solu-
| ton of which l had no adequate data
Upon the one hand really knew moth
, H ing about Sibyl; upon the other knew
/ | next to nothing about Anna. l knew
} not my own state. I was not in love
D was merely entranced by the mystery
{ Of a woman's eyes, by the sweet un
/ ceasing echo Of her voice, by the
, witchery of a beautiful puzzle. banning
: as the words one hears in dream and
3 waking, vainly struggles to remember.
| So far as attained to any plan o.
/ action, 1t seemed best to be honest, Il
j tell my father the exact facts and then
. with his consent. start of upon ques
:. that should resolve my doubts. A re
I lnewai OF my acquaintance with Mis-
? Lamoine might free me from her spell
D It would require some time to find her
!. | for / doubted whether Gushing woui'
' give me her address IL should tele
|, graph him for It, and had no othe
{ clew. BY the time had found her sh
might be engaged to a multimilllonair
ell with two steam yachts, and could n
Q turn to Sibyi with that ease Of min
I which the wise preserve In the mids
y Of their desire for the unattainable.
d1 I rode upon a slow train. due at
b o'clock In the morning. My fathf
,e met me with a carriage. He was In
). cheerful mood. such as rarely attai
e at that hour In the day. and chez
n fulness 10 great advantage. Nor
D. over, my courage Is always weakei
v before breakfast. I dreaded our int
1t view.
e. We shook hands, and I inquired r
p garding his health. which knew to
g. perfect by the look Of him. Then
Is said. How Is Sibylr because the que
1t ton would please him. He reptile
y that she was very well at the last r
" port.
Id Last reporty' echoed. pausing. wit
IT one foot on the step Of the carriag
I.eVNz -, roaau that ahe hasn't c0TI