The Topeka state journal. [volume] (Topeka, Kansas) 1892-1980, 1903-10-01
PUPPY LOVE.

1mpossibility in life When young peo-
pie are in Iove-desperately In love
their powers of belief are no less arnaz-
Ing than the shocks of disbelief which
come to them. and both the beliefs and
tne dlsbeltefs are to be classed among
the most mysterious of mental phe-
nonena.
They had had several little :"spats,''
Wnich had not lasted over five minutes
each before being forgotten in regrets
and embraces and mutual admissions
or being in the wrong so persistently
insisted upon that they nearly "spatted''
over them; but this time it was not
spat, II was downright, real quarrel
OF huge dimensions. being caused by
Jealousy-a disagreement which never,
they were both persuaded, could be
made up. and which forever shut out all
sunlight from their now suddenly but
completely weary and wrecked exist
ences What was left? Nothing, she
told herself, nothing but-suicide. He,
IN ignorance of the terrible resolution to
Which she had come. improved upon her
idea: he added to his decision to kill
himself. a decision to kill her first.
winch demonstrates that men are more
selfish than women.
With this double tragedy in his mind,
ne returned to her room just as she was
about to fling herself out of the window
and, without moments hesitation,
blinded by anger and passion, rushed
upon her. 1t was only through the ac-
cident of the window being down-in
her excitement. she had forgotten to
open it-and his hand striking her side
ways. that she was showed against the
casing instead of out through the glass
She turned upon him a pair of eyes
blazing with anger.
What do you mean?" she cried. How
dare your
He answered her. very calmly consid-
ering his words:
Life is worthless; came here to kill
you and then myself"
Horror took the Dlacp n anger in the
mirrors of her soul And then, with a
sudden GOODNESS which she could not
understand. and which seemed to trans
form her into another Woman-a woman
of ice-she sneered:
oh, how very nice of you was go
Ing to commit suicide by she
opened the window-'but since you
would kill me, I WON'T
Which tends to uphold the argument /
that woman's nature is essentially con-
Trajectory and illogical.
Very WELL" said he. sitting the tor |
rent of emotion surging in his breast |
and speaking with forced calmness, Il
shall kill myself. 1t is plain that your
love was all a pretense, that you never |
really loved meI' /
Il did not love you?'' she cried. "Oh, !
how can you say that when was about !
to Kill myself for you? But 1 am not |
mean and selfish like you'll would not |
kill you as you would have killed me!'h
Mo-" he shouted. because you do not |
love me as I love you! 1 love you to
death, and would have taken you with |
mel"
Now, if she had looked at the matter
from a logical standpoint, her mind |
would not have jumped to the conclu- |
sion it did which was that this was in |
deed love. Here is one of those myster- |
ious mental phenomena to which refer |
ence has been made However, she said |
nothing, and bitterly angered by her |
silence, he continued:
frl1 70, 1.-Two oh fxrn
live to repent and be misera BILE all the |
rest of your days, haunted by the mem |
DRY of one you drove to an early DOOM !
She felt a shiver run through her as
the terrible threat -fell-upon her ears. |
but outwardly she did not move mus /
Gle. He was in the wrong, altogether in |
the wrong, she told herself. and her |
pride refused to let her be bullied into |
the weakness of submission or betraying |
the pain he was causing her. Let him
kill himself" she thought, in her des-
perate agony, Il don't care!"
He crazed by his love of her, and in
experienced in the ways of a maid, mis- |
took her attitude and silence for cold |
Indifference. and decided to end his ex-
istence before her eyes-now! Then she |
would suffer-
He threw off his coat deliberately and |
stood by the open window with the cold |
air rushing in upon him, and it was
coldl If he had expected her to rush to |
him to draw him back. or to utter any /
DIOlGSAdIlOnS OF MAKE any tellcHIpI EOI
save him he was miSerably diSappo1nt-
ed And, yet. he really was entirely
serious in the belief that he was going
to kill himself and she believed he was
in earnest. Why she didn't protest, or
make any effort to dissuade him, was
what she was never able to understand.
But the fact remains.
He stood there for moment irreso-
Lutte. and then. as a particularly cold
gust of wind blew in upon him, he
and. taking up his coat, put
1t on him again. She smiled derisively,
and he saw it.
You think I 90 not mean to do as I
have said?" he exclaimed angrily. IT
tell you do?
why did you put on your coat?'' she
inquired, mockingly.
Because" he answered. at don't look
well for me to be without it,"
Il can't understand why man who is
going to kill himself in an minute" she
said. should care whether he looks well
or not!'
If 1 understood all the things you
don't understand" he retorted, I'D be
wiser than Socrates. or any of those old
Greeks were! You did not mean to kill
yourself at all-you only meant to
frightcn mel"
This attack upon her integrity of pur-
pose aroused her temper.
II did," she cried. Il did mean to kill
myself I would have done it if you
tried to kill mel''
It was his turn to sneer.
I don't see why that should make any
difference" he said quite the contrary, |
should think it would be very much nicer
and easier to have some one kill you than
to kill yourself
He closed the window
YOU are a coward!' she cried What
are you closing that window for?''
Because l don't want to catch cold!''
he replied, inconsequently.
She felt something inside of her giving
way.
Il never heard before" she stammered
''of a man-of a. man who was-was going
to kill him-himself in min-Hninute be-
ing afraid of-catching coldv'
Tragedy and comedy dog each others
footsteps. She looked straight at him.
and he looked at her; and then as the
extreme righteousness of the idea and the
situation burst upon them both they
broke into peal-followed by another and
another-of hysterical laughter and while