The Minneapolis journal. [volume] (Minneapolis, Minn.) 1888-1939, 1902-10-09

he had withheld. So waiting until |
slept, he brought forth the pad |
locked book and laid it on the pillow be-
side my head; thus beseeching pardon,
and intimating that the subject was closed
between us. 'E#&2'Es..
got my key, and then a fit of SILVER
ing seized me. I put the candle stand
beside, the pillow and lay wrapped in bed
ding, clenching the small chilly paddock
ing the change which had come upon the
life recorded in it,, I hesitated. Remem-
bering how it. had eluded me before, I
opened it. ....yt l,--3 .-, i, -
The few entries were made without
date. The first pages were torn out,
crumpled, and smoothed and. pasted to
place again. Rose petals and violets and
some bright poppy ieaves, crushed. inside
it's lids, slid down upon the bedcover.
Chapter Viii.
+ The PadlOcked Book-In this book 7
am going to write you, Louis, a letter
which will never be delivered; because I
shall burn it when finished. Yet that will
not prevent my tantalizing you about it.
TO the padlocked book can say what
want to say. To you 1 must say what is
expedient. .g .... -.
That is a foolish woman who does vio-
lence to- love by inordinate loving. Yet
first I will tell you that sink to sleep
saying, He loves, me!,' and rise to the
surface saying, He loves mev' and sink
again saying, He loves mel" all night
long. -, ...
The days when 1 see you are real days,
finished and perfect, and this Is the best
of them all. God forever bless in paradise
your mother for bearing you. If you never
had come to the world should not have
walked to life myself. And why this is
limo r
taWny head and tawny eyes, though YOU
did not notice me-: 1 said;, whether he is
the King or not would make no differ
ence.' Because knew you were more
| than the king to me- -:
Sire, you told me once you could not
understand why people took kindly to you.
There is in you gentle dignity and man
mood, most royal. AS you come into a
room you cast your eyes about
unfearfng. Your head and shoulders are
erect. You are like a lion in suppleness
ana tawny color, which Influences me
against my will You, inspire confidence.
| Even girls like Annabel, who feel merely
at their finger ends, and are as we'll sa It's.
fed with one husband ais another, know
/ you to be solid man, not the mere image
of man. Besides these traits there is a
| power going out from you that takes hold
4 Of people invisibly My father told me
| there was man at the court of YOUR ia
] ~
waving of his hands, I am not compar-
ing you to this charlatan; yet when YOU
touch my hand strange current runs
through me. 4 i"'' t
When we were in Paris used to dress
myself every morning. like priestess go
! ing to serve in temple!' And what was
it for? TO worship one dear head for
half an hour perhaps.
You robbed me Of the sight of you for
| two months. -,H4 - -
Sophie Saint-Michel told me to beware
Of loving a man: TO day he says, II love
you? f'cfeed you, r. stan 'g6 de9Vtil
wiz ut ~; y9A12nIo7 4norn2 eNt1EnA e
" as a fool" Next year he says, WHO
was it that drove me wild for time last
year? What was her name?'
Is love game where men and women
try to outwit each other, and man boasts,
''She loves me'-not II love her.?
You are two persons. 'Lazarre belongs
to me. He follows, he thinks about me.
He used to slip past my windows at Lake
George, and cast his eyes up at the panes.
But Louis is my sovereign. He sees and
thinks and acts without me, and his lot
| is apart from mine.
We are in a ship going to the side of
the world where you are. Except that
we are going towards you, it is like be-
ing pushed off a cliff. All my faith in
the appearances Of things IS at an end, i
have been .juggled with. I have, mis-
judged. ,';'. 49,. ~.
I could have insisted that we hold Mont
Louis as tenants. The count is our friend.
It is not strong mans fault that weak
man is weak and unfortunate. Yet seeing
Cousin Philippe vince, I could not put
the daily humiliation upon him. He is
like my father come back, broken, help
less. And Paul and I, who are young,
must take care of him where he will be
least humbled. . ~
1 was over-pampered in Mont-Louis and
Paris. like easy living, carriages, long
tailed gowns, jewels, trained servants,
music. and spectacles on the stage; a park
and wide lands all my own; seclusion from
people who do not interest me; idleness
in enjoyment. "'.. e. + -
not half the points have. When the men
are around her I laugh to think I shall
be fine and firm as a statue when she is
a mass of wrinkles and a wisp of fuzz
| When she is mass Of wrinkles and a
wisp Of fuzz she will be ripper and tenderer
inside. But will the men see that? No
| They will be off after a fresher Annabel
So much for men. On the other hand,
had but a few months Of luxury, and may
count on the hardness that comes of en-
durance; for / was an exile from child
| hood. There is strength in doing the
right thing. q, If there were no GOD, II
Christ had never died on the cross,
should have to do the right thing be-
cause it is right.
(To be continued Tomorrow