The Saint Paul globe. (St. Paul, Minn.) 1896-1905, 1902-08-24

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ceed1ngs resulted in the police letting
Lota go free. butlshe positively refused
TO make an exhibition of herself on the
stage She was dndignant at the sug-
session. She declared that she had
never been more deeply insulted In her
life. Then she went to a saloon and
had two or three drinks of whisky
Notwithstanding the fact that much
had been printed about her, and her
pictures had been scattered broadcast,
Lota Sawyer stiH in masculine attire,
Went freely about Baltimore. She Sc
cured boarding place, where the
landlady asked for references, through
the intercession of the landlady's
daughter, who was plainly impressed
by the good looks and gentiemanly
bearing of the applicant. She talked
Tor nouns with the people about her
own case, and they never suspected
that they We're harboring a woman.
Lota was without money and de-
pendent upon the newspaper men who
had written about her. She was dis
turbed over the condition of Mrs.
/ Rauck,, then in a state of collapse,
and drank heavily. Several times she
threatened to kill herself. Then she
decided that she wanted to come to
New York, and a ticket was provid-
ed Tor her. She was to take the mid
night train at the Camden street sta
tlon, In Baltimore. 1t was an hour
late. She moved about, talking to the
tra1nmen, police and others, and not
one suspected that the wearer of the
blue serge suit and derby hat was
Herman Wood" and a woman. To
the man who, had befriended her she
talked of herself, saying:
It's all SO strange, this life of mine
AT first 1t was very hard and 1 suffer-
ed. When I first began to drink and
smoke it made me SICK but / thought
Il a ms n Ir11o
Things, and after a time I got so
liked tobacco and whisky. But
could not learn to chew tobacco. Lie
or1ce made an effective substitute. I
used to buy plugs of tobacco when
men were about, and pretend to chew
1T, but never did.
A Glimpse at Her Diary.
after time 1 came to- believe I
was Herman Wood The deception
fort to carry it out. I cannot explain
why married Mr.. Rauck. I cannot
remember anything distinctly from the
time triedscto commit suicide until I
awoke at the station house. And yet
l knew that 1t meant exposure. I just
didn't care"
Lota Sawyer departed cheerfully
from Baltimore and arrived in New
York the following morning. She
decided upon taking a new name, for
she still chung to masculine attire. Her
life in New York is best told from her
diary, written in this city:
New York. June 30.-I arrived safe
ly this morning. After getting some
thing to eat walked up to Broadway,
and, after taking my bearings, from
there walked fnsevery direction, look
Ing for boarding house. At 4:30 I
succeeded IN getting a coy room in
Eighth street.
81 answered several ads in the
World. l feel SO easy here! All too
busy to notice another. / talked with
four different cops and not one sus-
pected me.
There is no danger of my falling in
love with my present boarding mis-
tress, as she is dwarf in height-not
bigger than a ten-year- old child-but.
If she is a widow shall give her
wide berth.
II am growing stronger every day
with a strong force that surprises me.
fear nothing and no one"
July Had it not been for the
remembrance of the kindness of a
friend in Baltimore I should have end
ed all my troubles this morning. I
stood on the deck where the ferry boat
lands, with the determination to suf-
fer a few seconds rather than endure
lifetime of misery, but something
| held me back. I turned and walked to-
| ward the city. God forgive me if
am driven to it. / shall be in good
| position to view the city tonight, fors
I shall walk all night. MY money is all
gone. but guess can stand it so
long as my appetite does not assert
| itself"
July 5.-Walked all night. Came
| up to the house this morning and
| found a letter waiting for me from my
| friend with some money. 1 will pay
two more days lodging, and as soon
| as I rest / will start out again and
look for work.
could not secure any employment
| today. Am feeling very SICK
July IL received a letter from
Mrs. Rauck today and it raised some
of the gloom that is fast eyerpowering
| me.
II am still very sick, but am afraid
to let the people in the house know
| for fear they will send for DOCTOR"
July 9.-Another trouble. I am
being watched by some man. I do not
know If he lis a Baltimorean or not. I
did not notice his actions before today,
but now they are quite plain.
ct am sick from nervousness, and
food has not passed my lips for two
days.
my God! why do they not leave me
| alone?"
The record ends at this point, and
with it ends the masquerading of Lota
| Austine Sawyer. She found a friend
| good and true, who came to her res
cue, who has given her home, and
who will care for her until she can
care for herself.
The young woman has discarded
masculine attire forever she declares,
and is now CARRIED in the proper habil-
| fments of her sex. The unaccustomed
garments she had not worn an
article of woman's apparel for six
/ years-gives her a strange and becom-
| ing bashfulness. The native femin-
! Inc traits and instincts have returned
to her with the skirts, and it is scarce
| believable that any one could mistake
i ha1, q nd nrarx air.c