The National tribune., 1902-01-30
WHO GOES THERE?
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| ing for both of us
He rose and brought me water, and
drank.
Then he sat by me again and said. "Th'
fight which one must make with his vii
! against impulse is not easy, especially
with some natures; and single defea
makes the fight harder. To yield once il
TO become weaker, and to make it eas!
10 yield"
/ understood. He could read me. He
! knew my weakness. How he knew
could not know: nor did l care. He was
profound soul; he knew the mind If ever
yet mere man knew mind; he could read
what was going on in the mind by the
language of the features and the body.
Especially did he know me. But possibly
his knowledge was only general; he might
infer, from apparent symptoms, that some
mental trouble was now pressing hard
upon me, and, without knowing the spe
cul nature of the trouble, might be pre-
scribing the exercise of the will as a gen.
eral remedy. Yet it mattered nothing to
me, at the moment, / thought, how he
knew.
You will not yield?" said he.
i closed my eyes and thought of Lydia,
and of my father. and of Willis, and of
Jones, and of nothing connectedly.
"Do you remember" he asked. "the
first time you came with me to the little
cottage in Charleston?'
| nodded.
AT that time you were passing 4 crisis.
would not tell you to will. Do You re-
member it?'
Again j nodded assent.
''To will at anothcr's dictation is i'm
possible. The will is free. If ! should
tell you to will any certain thing, ii would
do no good. All that l can do is TO say
that the will is free"
His fingers We're yet on my lips. My
mind had taken in all that he said, al
though my thought was giddy. He was
clearly right. If I should surrender once,
it would be hard to recover my former
ground. Yet doubted my power to will.
The doubt brought terror. / wished that
he would speak again.
The power of habit is not lost in n
moment. 1t may be unobserved, or dor
mant even, but it is not destroyed. No
man accustomed to keep himself in sub
lection can fail to distinguish temptation
from surrender"
How well he could read me!
"The desire to will may mOmcntarily
fail through bodily weakness, or through
fear-which is the same thing. But he
who can will when he desires to will not,
conquers himself doubly."
i put his hand away and rose.
what time is it, Doctor?' / asked.
'Half-past TO-" said he, without look
ing at his watch.
Il must report to Gen Morcll at H."
said.
I'VE must not waste time. them he
said: "who accompanies you?'
81 go alone"
He looked Mt me scarchinGly, then
grasped my hand. He understood.
you have strengthened your will;
good. Now / will strengthen your body"
He went TO a small chest, from which
he took a flask. He poured a spoonful
of liquid into n glass. | drank.
ut will be slow and last long" said
he.
He brought me the gray clothing and
helped me to dress; he turned the pockets
of my blue clothes and selected such
things as | needed.
'Do you go armed?" he asked.
''Yes; apparently. 1 shall take the En-
feld-unloaded."
He brought the cartridge-box and the
csnteen; he brought the haversack, and
put food in it.
Said he, Il wish You would humor one
of my whims."
Anything you wish, Doctor
Put the palmetto buttons on your
coat"
1t was soon done. was passive; he
was doing the work
Now he said, "oIe other thing. Take
this pencil and this book. Turn to May
%. / viii dictate"
1t was small blank-bOok, little
sOiled, with the pages divided into sec
tions, which were headed with dates for
the year 1862.
Turn 10 May o. he had said.
81 have it," said !.
"Read the date" said he.
Friday, May %, 1862"
"Now write"
The Doctor dictated; wrote:
Arrived after furlough. Drilled a. m.
and p. m. Weather clear"
Saturday, May "a, 1862.
"On camp guard. Letters from home.
Showers Marched at night"
Sunday, May %, 1862.
"Niarchcd all day. Bivouacked in woods
- Monday, May 26, 1862.
''Marched but few miles. Day very
hot. Weather bad. Heavy rain Mt night"
TUESDAY, May 27, 1862.
Rain. Heard u battle ahead. Marched
what brigade was that You saw at
Hanover Court HOuse!' the Doctor asked.
"Branch's."
"Yes, Branch's; write, Marched past
Branch's Brigade, that had been fight
ing"
Then the Doctor said: "Now turn to
the fy-leaf Of the book and wTitc"-hc
pauseG Il mOment-"simply write Jones.
Here-tuIn the book lenrthwise and write
Jones'"
wrote Joncs-Iengthwse the book
Wait" said he; ''pnt a capital b.
Let me see," said he.
/ showed him the book.
NO" said he; "erase that B and put
another one before Jones -
Have you an eraser!"
''I'll get one"
The B after Jones was erased, leaving
a dark splotch. wrote B before Jones.
we must get that dark spot out,
said he.
He took the book and very carefully
tore ont part OF the leaf, so that there
only B. Jones and the part of
the fiy-leaf above the writing.
Now" said he, put that in your
pocket
What Is all this for, DoctOrE'
FOR purpose. Keep it in your pocket
it may serve to protect you"
What time is it, DOctorT"
"Ten minutes to H."
81 must 60"
He said no word; but he put up his
hands TO my face, and made me bend to
him, and kissed me.
Before midnight one of Gen. Morell's
Orderlics had passed me through our cav
airy pickets beyond MechanicSvillc.
The Doctors stimulant, or something
else, gave me strength. My mind was
clear and my will firm. True, | felt in
1ifTarant IA lifn. hut tho lpSSnn which tho