The Pascagoula democrat-star., 1902-02-14

Thou who wroughtest earth and sea,
Yet keepest from our'eyes : =
The shores Of an eternity
In claims Of paradise;
Blow back upon our foolish quest
With all the driving rain
OF binding tears of wild unrest,
And watt us home again.
| A W0MANS SWEET WAY.
ONE WOMAN WHO TAKES LIFE
AS SHE FINDS 1T.
I'm the drst place, I don't want
any body to waste any sympathy on
me. l don't deserve it, Id0n't need
it and don't want IT, ] have had
people tell me that have led life of
great self-sacriiice. l haven't done
any such thing. have simply tried
to do what was my plain duty-no
more than hundreds Of other people
would do and have done. l have
made mistakes enough, heaven knows,
but l have always tried to do what II
seemed to me ought to do. l have
lived up To my lights, except when l
was weak enough to yield To tempta-
ti0n.
IL was born on little farm out in
Western Kansas. though l can't see
why that should interest any one.
Yes. it was befnre the war-a long
time before. l had three brothers
a,han, Shadrach and Ebeneezer.
John was the Oldest and smartest. !
was the only sister and the youngest
Guild. Father and mother had deci
ded that John should he a preacher
We all went to the district school-a
little white school house that stood
out by itself 10 the cauDtry, on the
edge Of a hig walnut grove.
"When l was IA Jnhnswent 10 col.
lpgc The other boys were hig enougil
to help the farm. Two years after
that Shadrach got a chance u clerk
| In II store in town and tonk it. ! had
! tn help sometimes after that in the
work around the farm. but was very
strong and didn't mind It bit. l
remember one spring l did lot ol
the spring blowing, hut that only did
me good. l felt better after IT.. Be-
sides. father had given me lot OF
hens TO look after. l got all the mon
ey from the sale Of eggs and sprinp
chickens. That same spring l made
nearly $50 from them.
"Yes. l sent all the money to John
afterwards, but he never asked ME
for 1t. l sent 1t because wanted To-
Then John made up his mind that he
wanted 10 he doctor instead Of .
preacher. He had togo to medical
schonl Two years more--le would have
had to W To the divinity school thu
same length Of time. We were sorry
Of course: hut we turned In just thu
same to help him out. He's paid i
all back a hundred times over. He's
| the best brothcr \ body ever had.
\ "Then the war broke out. Shad
rach left the store at the first call 70
volunteers and started for the South
Ebenecxer followed In 1852. That lef
father, mother and m- to look ate
the farm. We did the best we could
but father was old and l didn't know
as much about running things as
might.
"Ebeneezer was killed at Gettys
burg and Shadrach came back In 1855
with only one arm. lie wasn't wort
much after that. BY this time job
|, had gone to New York to practices
IL was about this :itne or q little bs
8 fore, that William Ellsworth-he wa
the son Of the man who lived on tn
9 farm next T., us--had volunteered Il
. the war. He asked me to marry hin
Q But / couldn't just then. l cOuldn
t even make a promise. As IL turne
nut it was = good thing l didn't, to
It When the bhys turned up killed ar
= sfcrippled--all except John and he WI
'et working hard there in New York
couldn't have kept my promise al
I've always been glad l didn't NAL
= !, iL Oh, yea liked him we'll enouR
cs:tl'vc never liked any man as lnuc
" Hut II would have bHttIered me-
have broken my word, and IT caurs
. !. l should have had to de Il. -
. "Thc year after tie war meth
1. died, That left father so much alfa
What l couldn't leave him. Hlt''nul
II William Ellsworth came buck Qnce
ssltwlce and even Uttered nssproyide
.dLholne for us Ill u I w0uld marry hl'
alThat wxs g,H,d NJ HIM, but | cs'sllds
p:fthink Of lsstlnG NN,wxsy come
tween me Su1 III hsf. while he i've
N "A iatD6ilt ulsr John bouEh'
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