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CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28
EXPLANATION.

II need hardly be said that the wom-
IN by whom these letters were written
had no thought that they would be
read by any one but the person to
whom they were addressed. But 4 re-
quest conveyed under circumstances
which the writer herself would have
regarded Ms all commanding urges that
they should now be given to the world.
and 80 far as is possible. with a due re-
gard to the claims OF privacy, what is
here printed presents the letters as
they were first written in their com
plete form and sequence.
Very little has been omitted which In
any way bears upon the devotion OF
which they are record. A few names
OF persons and localities have been
changed. and several short notes, not
above 20 In all. together with some
passages bearing too intimately upon
events which might be recognized. have
been left out without indication OF their
omission.
II was q necessary condition to the
present publication that the authorship
OF these letteIs should remain unstated-
Those who know will keep silence:
those who do not will not ind here any
data likely &c guide them to the truth.
The story which darkens these pages
cannot be more fully indicated while
the fceiinGr Of some who are still liv-
ing have to be consulted. Nor will the
reader ind the root OF the tragedy ex-
planned in tn. letters themselves But
one thing At least may be said as re-
CARDS the principal actors-that to the
memory of neither OF them does any
blame belong. They were equally the
victims OF circumstances which came
whole out OF the hands Of fate and re-
mained. 80 far as one Of the two wns
concerned. . mystery to the day Of her
death
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

Beloved-I have been trusting to
fate. while keeping silence. that some
thing from you was to come today
and make me specially happy. And IL
has, bless you sbundantlyi You have
undone and got round all | said about
'jewelry." though this is nothing of
the sort. but shrine So my word re-
mains I have IL with me now. safe
hidden. only now and then II comes
out to have look al me, smiles and
goes back again Dearest you must
feel how thxnk you. for l cannot
say IL Body and soul. grow too much
blessed with all that you have given
me. both visibly and lnvisibly. and al
ways perfectly.
And as for the day, have been
thinking you the most uncurious of
men because you had not asked. and
supposed IL was too early days yet for
you to remember that had ever been
born. Today is my birthday. You said
nothing. so said nothing. and yet this
has come. | trusted my star to show
Its sweet influences in its own way.
Or. after all did you know and had you
asked any one but mes Yet had you
known you would have wished me the
happy returns" which among all your
dear words to me you do not So ].
take II that the motion comes straight
to you from heaven. and in the event
You will pardon me for having been
still secretive and shy In not telling
what you did not inquire after. Yours
| knew. dear, quite long ago. 50 had no
need TO ask you for IL. And il is six
months before you will be in the same
year with me again and give to - all
the companionable sweetness that n
has been having.
Many happy returns OF my birthday
to you. dearest That Is all that my
birthdays are for. Have You been hap
py today. ! wonder, and am wondering
also whether this evening we shall see
You walking quietly in and making ev
erythlng into perfection that has been
trembling just on the verge OF it all day
long.
one drawback OF my feast Is that
have to write short TO you. for there
are other correspondents who on this
occasion look for quick answers, and
not all of them TO be answered in an
ofrhand way. Except you. II is the
contest whom ! keep waiting, but eld-
ers have way with them. even kind
ones. and when they condescend to
write upon an anniversary we have to
skip 10 attention or be in their bad
books at once,
So with the sun still long way out
OF bed have to tuck up these sheets
for You, as IL the good OF the day had
already been sufficient unto itself and
Its full tale had been told Good night
1t Is 50 hard 10 take my hands or writ
ing TO Won aud worry on at the same
exercise In another direction. kiss
you more times than can count II Is
almost really You that Kiss now. My
very dearest, my own sweetheart
whom | SO worship. good night Good
afternoon" sounds too funny, Is outside
our vocabulary altogether, While live
I must love you more than know.
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28
ing 10 say anything at all. but just to

ing 10 say anything at all, but Just to
be! feel that l am living now only
because you love me and that my life
viii have run OFT. like this penful of
Ink, when that use in me is past. Not
yet, beloved, oh, not yet. Nothing is
finished that we have to do and be-
hardly begun, | will not call even this
midsummer" however much IT, seems
30. 1t is still only spring.
Every day your love binds me more
deeply than knew the day before, so
that no day is the same now, but each
one little happier than the last. My
own. you are my very own. And yet.
true as that is, 1t is not SO true as that
l am your own. 1t is less absolute,
mean. and must be So because | cannot
very well take possession Of anything
when l am given over heart and soul
out OF my own possession. There Isn't
enough Identity left in me. am yours.
so much, so much. All this is useless
to say. yet what can / say else II / have
TO begin saying anything?
Could / truly be your 'star and god
dess." as you call me. beloved. would
do you the service of Thetis at least.
who did it for greater than herself:
Bid heaven and earth combine their :harms,
And round you early, round you lEte.
Brisreus .old his hundred arms
To guide you from your single fate.
But haven't got power over an eight
armed octopus even. so am merely a
very helpless loving nonentity which
merges itself most happily in you and
begs 10 be lifted to no pedestal at all. at
all
II you love me in a manner that is
Mt all possible, you will see that god
dess" does not suit me Star would
I were now, with a wide eye TO carry
my looks to you over this horizon
which keeps you invisible. Choose
one. II you VIII, dearest, and call ii
mine. and to me It shall be yours. So
that when we are apart and the stars
come out. our eyes may meet up at the
same point in the heavens and be
keeping company for us among the
celestial bodies, with their permission.
For I have too lively a sense Of their
beauty not to be a little superstitious
about them. have you not felt for
yourself sort of physiognomy in the
consultations. most of them seeming
benevolent and full of kind regards
but not allf I am always glad when
the Great Bear goes away from my
window, fine beast though he is He
seems to growl at me. No doubt It is
largely q question of names. And
what's in a namef In yours. beloved.
when ] speak 1t, more love than l can
compass,
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

II was enough to make me wake happy
There are dreams that go out like
candlelight directly one opens the
shutters. They illumine the walls no
longer. The daylight is too strong for
them. So now l can hardly remember
anything of my dreams. Daylight,
with you In II. foods them out.
oh, how are your Awake? Up7
Have you breakfasted2 | ask you 4
thousand things. You are thinking Of
me. I know. but what are you think
ing? l am deyoured by curiosity about
myself. none at all about you, whom I
have all by heart. II | might only
know how happy l make you and just
which thing said yesterday Is making
you laugh today. / could cry with joy
over being the person am.
1t In you who make me think SO much
about myself, trying TO find myself out
i used TO be most self possessed and
regarded II as the crowning. virtue. and
now your ! I,ssession OF me sweeps It
away, and / stand crying TO be let into
. secret that is no longer mine. Shall
ever know why you love me7 II is my
religious difficulty. but Il never rises In
to a doubt. You do love me. I know.
Why. don't think ever can know.
Yet ask me the same question about
yourself and II becomes absurd. be-
cause altogether belong to you. II
hold my breath for n moment wick
ediy uor l can't do II breathingI and
try to look at the world with you out
OF II. ] seem to have fallen over a
precipIce. or. rather. the solid earth
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

q world Of our own, and no place In my
thoughts, dearest-as it has now. 50
far as you are concerned. But I am
conscious shall be looked at as your
chosen. and I would choose my own
way of how TO look back most proudly.
And SO for the books more thanks
and more. That they are what !
would most wish and not anything
else. which. had they been. they would
still have given me pleasure. since
from you they could come only with a
good meaning. and-diamonds even
! could have put up with them.
Tomorrow you come tOr your ring
and bring me my owni Yours is here
waiting. | have 1t on my finger. very
loose, with another standing sentry
over it TO keep it from running away.
A mouse came out of my wainscot
last night and plunged me In horrible
dilemma. for am equally idiotic over
the idea OF the creature trapped or free,
and saw sleepless nights ahead OF me
till l had secured change OF locality
for him.
To startle him back into hiding would
have only deferred my getting truly rid
of him. so l was most tiptoe Snd dip
lomatic In my doings. FinaiS paper
bag put into likely nook. with some
sentimentally preserved wedding cake
crumbled into IL, cracked to me Of his
arrival. In a brave moment | noosed
the little beast. bag and all. and lower
ed him from the window by string till
the shrubs took from me the burden OF
responsibility.
I visited the bag this morning. he
had eaten his way out, crumbs and all.
and has, I suppose. become field
mouse. for the hay smells inviting.
and 1t is only n short run over the lawn
and a jump over the ha-ha to be in It
Poor morseis. | prefer them so much
undomesticated,
Now. this mouse is no allegory, and
the paper bag is not a diamond neck
lace In spite OF the wedding cake sprin-
kled over H. So don't say that this let
ter is too hard for your understanding.
or you VIII frighten me from telling
you anything foolish again. Brains are
like Jewels In this - difference of sur
face has nothing to do with the size
and value OF them Yours il a beauti-
full smooth round. like a pearl. and
mine all facets and flashes. like cut
glass And yours so much the bigger.
and love IL so much the best, The
trap which caught me was baited with
one great pearl SO the mouse comes
In with a meaning tied to its tail after
all!
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

NV Frlend--Do YOU think this q cold
way OF beginningg do not Is il NO!
thg, truc send or Of love- do not know
how men fall In love. hut could not
have hRd that come down in your Il
r,ction without being your friend first
q liuitiess friendship | have grown into,
have heard men run down the
friendships Of women as having little
true substance, Those who speak 40.
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

In all the world. dearest what is
more unequal than love between a man
and a womanf ! have been spending
an aGnorous morning and want to share
II with you. but To- the task of bringing
that bit of my life into your vision is
altogether beyond me.
What have I been doingf Dear man.
I have been dressmaking. And dress,
when one Is In the tolls. Is but a love
letter writ large. You will see and ad-
mire the finished thing. but you will
take no interest In the composition.
10 mine.
For think how rayished | would be
II you brourh, me coat and told me
IL was all your own makingl one day
you had thrown down mere tailor
made thing in the hall. and yet kiss
ed II as went by. And that was at a
time when we were only at the hand
shaking stage. the palsied beginnings
OF love. You. inqpnl
But oh. to get you Interested In the
dress was making TO you today, The
beautiful flowing opening-not too
nowtng-the elaborate central compo-
sition where the heart Of me has to
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CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

Beloved-This Is your tirst letter from
me. yet IL In not the first have written
10 you. There nr- letters to you lying
At loves dead letter Office In this same
writing-so many my memory has lost
count Of them!
This II my confession: I told you
had one TO make. and you laughed.
You did not know how serious II was
for To bc In love with you long before
you were In love with me-nothlng can
Be more serious than thafi
You deny that was. yet ! know
when you first really loved me All At
uncr. one day something about me
Guxnc upon you as surprise And
how. except on the road TO love. can
there be surprises7 And In the sur
prise came love. You did not know
me before. Before then II was only
the other nine entnnglemcnts which
take hold OF the male heart and occupy
II TIL the tenth is ready to make one
knot OF them all
In the Letter written that day I said
"You love me" I could never have
said II before; though had written
L. letters 20 my love for you. ! had
not once been able 10 write Of your
love for me. Was not that serious1
Now I have confosscdi ! thought
20 discover myself In blusbes but my
face IN cool: you have kissed all my
bushes away! Can | ever he ashamed
In your eyes now. or grow rosy because
OF anything you think or I think ~
you have robbed tue OF onc of my
charms; | nm brszcn. Can you love
me stils
You love me. you love me: you are
wonderful. We arr both wonderful.
you and /
Well. Il Is good for you TO know I
have waited and wished long before
the thing came true Hut 10 see ycu
waiting and wishing. when the thing
was true all the time-oh. that was the
trial. How not suddenly to throw my
arms around you and cry. Look. see,
o blind mouth. why are you famish-
cdr
And you never knewf Dearest !
love you for II. you never knew. be-
licvc a man. when be flnds he hns won
thinks he has taken the city by as
sault. He does not guess how to the
Insiders II has been u weary siege
with days of surrender Tutoring them
selves to rags from every wall and
window. No. In love II is the women
who are the strategisis. Aud they
have at last TO fail into the ambush
they know OF with good grace.
You must let me praise myself little
for the past. since can never praise
myself again. You must do that for me
now! There is not n battle left for me
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

Dearost-Your name woke me this
morning. found my lips piping their
song before | wns well back into my
body out OF dreams. wonder II the
rogues babble when my spirit IL nest.
ing. Last night you We're high tree.
and | was In it. the wind blowing us
both. but forget the rest. Whatever,
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

II is estimated that a permanent
channel fourteen feet deep can be con-
structed from St Louis to Lake Miehi-
gan. by way of the Illinois river. for
ss5. .o00. 900.
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

Inquiries made in Polynesian tslsads
in New Guinea and West Africa ,nd%
cate that typhoid fever does not ooous
In those regions. but seems to b .
by-product OF civilization.
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

Most Beioved-i have been thinking
staring at this blank piece OF paper,
and wondering how there am ever tu
say what have in me here. not wish
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28
SCOTCH REMEDy COMPANY
western Agency SAN FskNcrsc
Allowance. in Europeaa .-..,..

Nine ounces % sugar 1. the extra
allowed In the British ARM; Russian
soldiers set two ,rslions OF beer: Ger
man. seven ounces Of butter. and Span
ish three pounds OF salt hsh.
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

Gifts to educational institutions
churches. libraries. art museums and
charities in the United States the past
year reach the total of s6o..si.oSo.
CanÌƒon City record. [volume] (CanÌƒon City, Colo.) 1883-192?, 1901-02-28

CONTINUED nexf week
Twice-a-week plain dealer. (Cresco, Howard County, Iowa) 1895-1913, 1901-02-12
Recoyeries from Grin.

Mrs. e. I. Masters at her home in
Monitor, Ind. used DR.. Miles Nervine
and Pills to cure after effects of grip.
Mrs. A. E. Lopeer, in the little
town of Modelia, Mimi. used DR..
Miles Pain Pills and Nerve and Liver
Pills and was we'll in few days.
President Mckinley is slowly recov-
ering from grip and its after effects.
Speaker Henderson is again in his
chair in the House of Representative
after severe attack of the grip.
j. @. Helfrey, foreman at the West
inghouse factory in East Pittsburg,
had severe attack Of grip, but he
used DR.. Miles Nervine and Pain Pills
and was soon back in his place.
George j. Flannery was relieved Of
the awful pains in his head in fifteen
minutes, by the use of DR.. Miles Pain
Pills. Now he is rapidly recovering
at his home n.Butfalo, N. Y.
Rev. G. Body was in serious con-
dition at his home in ST. Paris, O. but
DR.. Miles Nervine and Nerve and
Liver Pills pulled him through all
right.
Twice-a-week plain dealer. (Cresco, Howard County, Iowa) 1895-1913, 1901-02-12
A LONG TOUR AHEAD.
Months Inspecting Asiatic Mis-
ATOMS of Presbyterian Church.

New York, Feb. 11.-Rev. DR.. Arthur
j. Brown, one of the secretaries of the
Presbyterian board of foreign mis-
sions, is about to start on Is months
inspection tour of the boards Asiatic
missions.
The doctorss work of inspection will
begin on the Pacific coast of the Unit
ed States, where the board has num-
Der of Asiatic missions, among both
Japanese and Chinese. He will spend
a month there, and will then go to
Japan for stop of a fortnight. A
month in Corea will follow. and then
four months in China. DR.. Brown will
devote especial attention to the con-
dition of the missionary cause in the
sections where there has been the
most trouble during the past year, and
he will consequently spend a good deal
of time in Shantung province, where
the Boxer troubles began. He will then
go to the Philippines for month, and
then to Siam for the same period, but
in upper Siam. or Laos, as that re-
gion is known, he expects to pass three
months. He will make quick dash
through India, crossing that great
Twice-a-week plain dealer. (Cresco, Howard County, Iowa) 1895-1913, 1901-02-12
FOOD VERSUS ENERGY
Experiment by w. O. Atwater at
Wesleyan University.
College Athlete Placed in Respiration
CalOrimeter to Determine the
Relation of Food to Mug
cular Energy.

Prof. w. o. Atwater has just COM
pleted an important experiment in
the respiration calorimeter at Wes-
leyan to determine the relation of
food to muscular energy. The sub
ject was one of the college athletes,
who was in the experimental cham
Der for nine days and ten nights.
Prof. Atwater, who conducts ex-
periments for the government in con-
nection with work at Wesleyan, has
not completed his analysis and cal
culations of his latest experiment,
and will not for several weeks. He
authorizes the following general
statement of the result obtained,
withholding the name of the student
who submitted to the test:
"He was in the respiration cham
Der nine days and ten nights, after a
preliminary test. During eight days
he was engaged in active exercises,
riding bicycle which was attached
to dynamo for measuring the
amount of muscular work performed
One object of the experiment was to
find the relation between muscular
activity and the consumption of food
and body material and the transform.
alton of energy in the body.
cit was the idea to compare the
efficiency of fats and carbohydrates
for supplying the needs of the body
in time of hard, muscular work. To
this end the diet during four days
contained large quantities of carlo.
hydrates, sugar and starch, which in
the last four days We're replaced by
fats in the form of fat meat. butter
and the like. The experiment was
very successful and promises results
of decided interest. Several weeks
will be required for completing the
analysis and calculations.'
In addition to these experiments
at Wesleyan similar ones are being
carried on at other colleges. The re
suits of studies of the diet of the
Harvard crew at New London last
summer are about ready for publica
ton.
Prof. Atwater has long conducted
scientific experiments on the rela.
ton of food to muscular energy. He
aroused a storm of criticism about g
year ago, when he announced that
2Ks ounces of alcohol could be con
sumed daily without injury to the
human system, if taken in small
doses.
Twice-a-week plain dealer. (Cresco, Howard County, Iowa) 1895-1913, 1901-02-12
A PLUcKY POSTMASTER.
Illustrates Attempt of Four Men
to Rob at Emma, N. C.

Asheville, N. c., Feb. 1.-Four
masked men attempted to rob the
post office and store at Emma, the
first station ont from Asheville on
the Southern railway. Two of the
robbers were badly wounded, one
possibly fatally, and Samuel AleXan
der, the assistant postmaster and
clerk, has an ugly wound in his side
to the abdomen and back. The po-
lice We're notified and all of the rob-
bers are in Jail. Two of the robbers
We're white and two negroes. The
white men are Russ Gates and Dud-
ley johnson. The latter is supposed
to be man wanted in Florida for
murder. The negroes are Ben Boster
and Henry Miller, eX-convicts and
well=known to the local police.
Twice-a-week plain dealer. (Cresco, Howard County, Iowa) 1895-1913, 1901-02-12
The Lowther Creamery.

Perhaps it may seem singular that
co5fsrfttred creamery n iowa, sfotfd
be located in the little hamlet of
Lowther, yet such is the fact. It is
in the midst of a district thatabounds
in fine dairy herds and their owners
are stock holders in the creamery out
tit located in their midst. For some
months past this creamery has not
been in operation but arrangements
have now been made by which it will
be opened to its full capacity, or per-
haps to the capacity of the dairy herds
tributary and which will become its
patrons. 1t was a misfortune to the
owners of dairy herds that it should
not have been continuously operated,
a trouble that happily will not longer
exist. 1t is now to be operated by
w. R. Owen, of this city, and will be
in charge of thoroughly competent
and skillful butter maker, who will
turn out the best product that can be
produced.