The Savannah morning news., 1901-06-23

how it must hurt you, and they realize
how sincere and frank you are. Ugh!
catsr
The widow was ordinarily a calm and
self-possessed young woman. but, for
once in a way, she was getting things off
her mind and doing it thoroughly The
wrath of years was in her red checks
and flashing eyes, and her fists were
doubled up suggestively.
MY husbands rela tiye@forty-seco
cousin-came to me and advised me, and
cautioned me, and criticised me.
They had heard such tales,
and they feared 1 hadn't been prudent.
1 wanted to go aboard but 1 muslin t
travel alone. That wouldn't do at all.
I didn't know any woman who was free
to go with me and whom l would enjoy
as a travelling companion Ny friends
shook their heads and said 1t was a pity
hadn't children TO givs responsibility
to my nenage. got desperate and rent
ed a child. At least 1 took the small
daughter of a distant relative for a
year. l didn't like the youngster, but
thought perhaps she would remove
the curse. dragged her and her nurse
and my maid around pith me wherever
l went, and was painfully domestic. No
good at all. So clever of nei
II loved reading and study and went
off into quiet corners with book instead
Of foolng around with the crowd. So
clever of me! Why did 1 always pre-
tend to be rea ding? There must be some
sly! I had had headaches. So interest
ing! That sort of thing always appealed
to men.
THE summer resorts were the worst
o,aces. l could bury myself, more or
ass. in town, but unluckily I WASH t
strong and well, and / was ordered about
from one climate to another. l loathed
the very idea of hotel. l used to go
to my room often and cry. just for sheer
rage, and I'm not crying woman eth
err l didn't see any place for me. I
couldn't get off the EARTH and yet peo-
PIE wouldn't let me alone. l grew hyper
sensitive and morbid, and felt shut out
from a normal happy life.
Finally l made up my mind to break
loose altogether to pay absolutely no at
tention to comment. to live my life as l
pleased, to consider nothing but my own
inclination and conscience. After that
l got along better. 1t isn't easy. L know
/ am utterly misunderstood. but l was
that before, and now, at least, haven't
the strain of. trying to escape the inevi-
table. l go where 1 please and do as
please, and. though 1 don't please to do
anything off color, you couldn't make my
world believe that. have men friends
and I don't have the slightest feeling
save friendship for any of them, and
am disgusted and bored If they fall in
love with me. The women believe I sit
up nights contriving schemes to fascinate
and entangie the creatures.
Even the young girls are horrid. They
say they have no chance against a pretty
widow. And the. men are as bad as the
women, only in another way. They don't
realize that they aren't worth an effort
fatuous cyclists that they are! If get
married it will be merely in order to STOP
being a widow and get out OF the comic
supplement joke, society novel siren posi-
ton.
"There I'VE relieved my mind once.
You show CLEANS Of intelligence and you
may realize that I'm honest. The other
women would say. so clever of her.
Just let me be an awful warning This
young widow business isn't all your fan
cy pictures 1t. You'd better be a bach
elor maid