Cañon City record., 1901-05-02
LETTER LNIII.

No. no: cannot read it, What have
1 done that you win not come TO meT
They are mad here, telling me to be
calm. that | am not to go to you 1,
too. am out Of my miDd-except that l
love you know nothing except that.
Beloved. only on my lips viii | take
my dismissal from yours. Not God
himself can claim you from me till you
have done me that Justice. Kiss me
once more. and then, II you can. say
we must part You cannot All. come
here where my heart is. and you can
mott
Have l never told you enough how
love you: Dearest have no words
for all my love. | have no pride In me.
Does not this alone tell you: You are
sending me away. and | cry to you to
spare me. Can | love you more than
that What will you have of me that
have not given? oh. you. the sun in
my dear heavens. II ! lose you what is
left of meg Could you break SO to
pieces even a woman YOU did not lover
And me you do loye-yon do. Between
all this denial of me and all this silence
Of words that you have put your name
to I see clearly that you are still my
lover. Your writing breaks with trying
not to say II You say again and again
that there Is no fault in me. | swear to
you. dearest. there is none unless IL be
loving you, and how can you mean
thatg For what are you and l made
for unless for each otherl With all
our difference, people tell us We are
alike. We We're shaped for each other
f,s,g ETr.k II r4~.a mt
proved IL In a hundred ways OF happi-
ness which have lifted us up to the
blue of heaven higher than any birds
ever sangf And now you say, taking
on you the blame for the very lifehlood
In us both. that the fault is yours and
that your fault is to have allowed me
to love you and yourself to love me.
Who has suddenly turned our love
into n crime: Beloved. is IL a sin that
here on earth have been seeing God
through you: Go away from me. and
he is gone also. All. sweetheart let
me see you before all my world turns
into a wilderness, Let me know better
why II my senses are to be empied OF
you. NY heart can never let you 60.
DO you wish that II should?
Beloved. I will be patient. believe me.
to any words you can say. but cannot
be patient away from you. II | have
seemed to reproach you. do not think
that now. For you are TO give me
greater Joy than ever had before
when you ta'e me in your arms again
after week that has spelled dreadful
separation. And I shall bless you for
it-for this present pain even-because
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Only come. l do not live TIL you
have kissed me again. Oh. my beloved,
how cruel love may seem II we do not
trust II enough! My trust In you has
come back in great rush of warmth,
like a spring day after frost. almost
laugh as l let this go. II brings you
perhaps before | wake. l shall be SO
tired tonight. Call under my window,
make me hear in my sleep. l will wake
up TO you, and 1t shall be all over be-
fore the rest OF the world wakes. There
is no dream 50 deep that | shall not
hear You out OF the midst of IL. Come
and be my morning glory tomorrow
without fail will rewritc nothing that
have written--let Il go! See me out of
deep waters again, because have
thought so much OF you! l have come
through clouds and thick darkness.
press your name to my lips a thousand
times. As sure as sunrise | say to my
self that you will come. the sun is not
truer to his rising than you to me.
Love will so flying after this till l
sleep. God bless you-and me also, 1t
Is all one and the same wish. Your
most true, loving and dear faithful one.
Continued next week