The Farmington times. [volume] (Farmington, Mo.) 1874-1902, 1901-07-25

TUESDAY, Feb. at Ia all over,
and have been found guilty and
sentenced 10 be hanged. The curious
thing shout IL Is that do not feel 40
very gloomy about II. The suspense be.
fore the verdict was a great deal more
narrowing than the eertnints Of the
sosfIold seems TO be. Perhaps 1t is be-
cause ] am stunned by the hopeIessaess
Of the situation and tired out by the
long weeks Of excitsmen, and worry.
Anyway. I know that tonight do not
fear the death that has been decrscd.
Most certainly do not regret the
act which has brought me "a this cell.
| glory in IL. and would do II again to-
morrow under the same circum-
stances. want 70 set that down here,
80 TINT all Of my friends and any 9th
srs who are cSfious enough to read
this diary may know after ! am gone
that did not consider myself Grim
inal.
My lawyer tells me that my friends
are making strong efforts TO have the
governor intercede, and that he has
promised 10 see me. Hut II viii do no
good ! killed Philip sherry--,hsre Is
no question about that. They proved
II plainly enough Al the trial. in spite
~ my lawyers most skillful efforts.
Even II thry hadn't. u would have been
none the less true But none Of them
know why did it--only one-and they
never will know. Torture could not
drag II from me. She knows. and ! am
content No. will tell nobody. I will
not eyen tell the governor.
Wednesday. Feb. 6-StranRe things
have happened to-day. saw ihs gov.
srBnr. broke my promise TO my
self that would not tell why killed
Philip sherry, AMI the governor has
pardonrd me. They told me that he
was cheap politician who could not
he reached except ny boodle. Hut I
know he is a most masterful man. who
knows all the fountsins and impulses
of human action and passion. and that
he has heart that understands and
beat in harmony with his fellow men.
He was not at sll the sort of a look.
ing man | expected 10 see. His face
impressed me as being n type of the
pioneers, the men who have felled the
forests and reclaimed the wilderness.
lie does not look the scholar nor the
orator, although he surely must be an
impressive speaker. Judging from his
logical habits of thought and his mas
teriul use Of The English language. I
think II was his eyes which made the
greatest impression on me. They
were the most peculiar eyes ever
saw. They seemed 70 turn inward and
be communinE with his inner con.
sciou mess most Of the time. But every
now and then he would give me a
glance m sharp and penetrating that
! felt hr vas looking into my very soul.
entered the room Sulky and un.
recouciled with my fate. The govern,
or. sitting sprawled out In his chair,
loose jointed. looking more the back.
woodsman than the Statesman. his
eyes dulled with that peculiar intro.
HEttAfbhs NNhFA ihtF q hhAitFN hA
commonplace questions, which | an,
swered with a mixture of contempt
and doggedneEs
Suddenly Strengthening himself ur
and fixing an me glance so sharp and
penetrating. and at the same time so
commanding "a to make me involnn.
tarily rise from my chair. he fired nj
me a yolley of questions so pointed, sc
comprehensive, 40 searching. that II
seemed 10 me he was scanning my In.
nermost consciousness.
Before I realized ~ ! was pouring
out the most sacred secrets of my SOU
TO this man who but moment before
had been an utter stranger to me. and
rshom ! had been taught TO regard
only In the light oi q coarse and self
ish politician. Something he said
stung my pride, and his personality
won my confidence 40 artfully and
so quickly that invoiuntsriiy re,
sponded.
"L,sien to me, air." I cried. my fist,
clerc'ing. while felt the veins stand
ont on my neck, even ak had felt then
stand ont on that day when ! killed
Philip Sherry. ~ am not a criminal,
am not bad man. 40 not believe M
tendencies are vicious. God knows
have an awful temper. But upon IN,
memory Of my mother. ! Relieve thai
temper has never been aroused. exrep,
upon just provoeatlcn or by some scl
of injustice or brutality.
II remember well the first time
ever realized had e temper. II wa,
the same time also that | realized
was an independent personality. 1 wai
peculiar hoy, sensitive, lonely ant
Observation-Disclosures the othe,
soya because their badg~rinR way,
played upon all my supersensiiiv'
nerves.
sMy mother. God blrss her, whs
would have gone 20 the rack or IN.
stake sn ~asf me 4 momeni'k pain. un
ronsricusly smphnsis<d the terrcrs d
my stluxtion b. keeping me In ions
eurIs md habyish attire long sitter III
other boyk Of my IN were habitet
Hike miniature Hsen. You can imagine
the AumiIIatieu to which was sub
| jected. even had NOT been cursed with
representative nerves.
-isut underneath an ms bashfal
nvs ! had The temper Of > demon
The hrut time ] discovered II ] WA
frlghtsned nenrly 10 death. II VA
sfili IN the peried of my jone oaFI
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