Freeland tribune. (Freeland, Pa.) 1888-1921, 1900-03-19
STAGES OF STARVATION,
Diary Of Young Woman Who Re-
Gently Died In New York.


These are extracts taken from the
diary kept by Evelyn Adams, reader
and vocalist, during her struggle to
live in New York.
Come to the rescue or / shall soon
lose my reason. I cannot hold out much
longer. The last stage Of despair is up
on me the creeping by
inches to the end of all things.
God! Can the Christian world be so
cruel? So cold and mercenary7
Bowed down with de-
spair and yet through
light and a smile comes to her lips. Il
shall yet be an author! l shall yet sue
ceed."
1 have sent them telegram. They
will hardly send a favorable answer.
Yet what a grand story 1t is. Don't
want it." All, we'll! l expected 1t.
There's basket of fruit for YOU"
etc. Good God, and not a Sou in my
pocket and they are worth a million.
Why didn't they slip $40 bill into the
basket. LAS they help the least Of
these"-but In my anguish I have to
smile bitterly. But I shall yet succeed.
Hungry-so faint-I would not object
since I've tasted anything good. Now.
tomorrow I'll have to go and buy the
paper. I wonder if I'd better eat or save
a penny for it.
The past forgot the future? Sweet
spirit of prayer, lead me right, l pray.
Keep me worthy.
Ile doesn't like my writing; says
scrawl all over the paper. But l don't
hn p,,f1, a hot
l don't know what they (the publish
ers) are waiting for unless it is to get
my shroud to make into rag paper to
print the book on. They'll have it soon
if this keeps on.
1SS7-Sept. S0.-Arrived in Boston
Stopped at he Hotel Waterson, No. s
Bulfinch place. Saw Gen. B. F. Butler
and took his advice in regard to the
Adams case.
1Ss7-Oct. 22.-Returned to New York
and engaged in business at No. 239
East Fourteenth street $50 month.
1SSS-Sept. 5.-Went to Boston. De-
laycd in the Adams case.
lSSS-Sept. 21.-Wolfborough, N. H.
to prosecute my claim against Susan
P. Adams, of Ossipee, N. II.
1SS9-Feb. 2S.-Finished the first
chapter of Fly and Lightning, the
American Explorers" by Evelyn
Adams.
1SS9-July LEFT New York for Uti-
ca. Was i'll with bronchitis. Remained
in Utica five weeks.
19so-April n.-Finished XVI, chap
ter Fly and Lighting"
1S9O-May 1.-Sick for three weeks
and couldn't work much of the time.
1Sso--April Unfinished XVI, chap
Fly and Lightning" XIII chapters,
573 pages, about 100000 words.
July 12.-Made arrangements with
the Union News Company. Asked as
sistance and was refused. Suffered the
worst-suspense Is a killing thing-not
knowing what to do. Sept. 20, sold all
my clothes to raise a little money to
help along.
Oct. g. Commenced "Is Marriage a
I.ottery?" Have only 81 left. Am try
ing to keep up.
Nov. 24-Writing "a Gay Christmas"
to send to Philadelphia Transcript.
1S91-March 1.-Sold collection of
minerals and stamps for $40. Have 20
cents in my pocket. Received food from
Mrs. Mears for the last two weeks.
Hope to succeed yet. Calm within; fer
ment without.
March 22.-Still keeping up courage.
nil desperandum. Have tried ten diff
ferent ways to raise the money to pub
lish the book rs Marriage a Lottery"
Failed each time; still hoping. "Be of
good courage, ye shall yet triumph"
Have resorted to sewing to keep the
wolf from the door. Have gone to every
possible place from - to the Sacred
Heart Convent. BY the kindness of
Mrs. Mears life has been sustained a
little longer. They have deprived them
selves for my sake, I fear. o! poverty
-death--slow torture!
They will hold the plates of my book.
I shall yet win fortune. An author s
or an artists works always live long
after they have gone. And this Is my
| determination, to make a success be-
| fore ] do die.