El Paso daily herald. (El Paso, Tex.) 1881-1901, 1900-01-06
eyes. Let me state my reasons

Eyes. Let me state my reasons.
Probably they are the same as yours
In fact, 1 am sure they are. The
bishop paused a moment, then went on
with increasing feeling:
"Calvin, you know how many years
I have been doing the work OF my posi-
ton, and you know something OF the
responsibility and the care of 1T. do
not mean to say that my life has been
free from burden bearing or sorrow,
but have certainly led what the poor
and desperate of this sinful city would
call very comforta ble-yes, very
luxurious-life. 1 have a beautiful
house to live in, the most expensive
food, clothing and physical pleasures.
have been able to go abroad at least a
dozen times and have enjoyed for years
the beautiful companiouship of art and
letters and music and all the rest of the
very best. have never known what 1T
meant to be without money or its
equivalent, and I have been unable to
silence the question of late, What have
I suffered for the sake of Christi Paul
was told what great things he must
suffer for the sake of his Lord. Max
wells position at Raymond is well tax
en- when he insists that to walk in the
steps of Christ means to suffer. Where
has my suffering come inn The petty
trials and annoyances of my clerical life
are not worth mentioning as sorrows or
suffering Compared with Paul or any
of the Christian martyrs or early disci-
pies, 1 have lived a luxurious, sinful
life, full of ease and pleasure. l cannot
endure this any longer. 1 have that
within me which of late rises in over
whelming condemnation of such fol-
lowing of Jesus. 1 have not been walk
ing in his steps. Under the present sys-
tenn of church and social life 1 see no
escape from this condemnation except
to give the rest of my life personally to
the actual physical and soul needs of
the wretched people in the worst part
of this city
The bishop had risen now and walked
over to the window. The street in front
of the house was as light as day, and
he looked out at the crowds passing,
then turned, and, with passionate ut
terance that showed how deep the vol
canic fire in him burned, he exclaimed:
calvin, this is terrible city in
which we live. Its misery, its sin, its
selfishness, appan my heart, and have
dread of the time when I should be
forced to leave the pleasant luxury of
my official position to put my life into
contact with the modern paganism of
this century. The awful condition of
the girls in the great department. stores,
the brutal selfishness of the insolent so
ciety, fashion and wealth that ignores
all the sorrows of the city, the fearful
curse of the drink ana gambling hell,
the wall of the unemployed, the hatred
of the church by countless men who see
in the church only great piles of costly
stone and upholstered furniture and the
minister as a luxurious idler, all the
vast tumult of this vast torrent of hu-
manity with its false and its true ideas,
its eXaggeration of evils in the church
and its bitterness and shame that are
the result of many complex causes-all
this as total fact, in its contrast with
the easy, comforta BILE life have lived,
fills me more and more with a sense of
mingled terror and self accusation. /
have heard the words of Jesus many
times lately, Inasmuch as We did it not
unto one of these least, my brethren,
We did it not to me-. And when have !
personally visited the prisoner or the
desperate or the sinful in any way that
has actually caused me sufferingf
Rather 1 have followed the conven-
tional, soft habits of my position and
have lived in the society of the rich.
refined, aristocratic members of my con-
gregations. Where has the suffering
come in? What have 1 suffered for
Jesus sake2 Do you know, Calvin
the bishop turned abruptly toward his
friend-'I have been tempted of late
to lash myself with scourge- If had
lived in Martin Luther's time, I would
have barred my back to a self inflicted
torture
DR.. Bruce was very pale. Never had
he seen the bishop or heard him when
under the influence of such a passion.
There was a sudden silence in the room.
The bishop had sat down again and
bowed his head. DIR. Bruce spoke at last
Edward, I do not need to say that
you have expressed my feelings also. /
have been in similar position for
years. My life has been one of compar
alive luxury. I do not, of course, mean
to say that I have not hard trials and
discouragements and burdens in my
church ministry, but cannot say that
have suffered any for Jesus That
verse in Peter haunts me. Christ also
suffered for you. leaving you an exam
pie that We should follow his steps !
have lived in luxury. do not know
what it means to want I also have had
my leisure for travel and beautiful COM
partnership. I have been surrounded by
soft, easy comforts of civilization. The
sin and misery of This great city have
beat like waves against the stone walls
of my church and of this house in
which live. and have hardly needed
them, the walls have been SO thick
have reached a point where I cannot