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the traffic. Joyce and Alan were
laughing at some foolish joke, and
waiting for their hanson to be allowed
to move on. A slight woman with a
child In her arms attracted his atten-
tion.
The child was about three. and
Alan could see that his head was COW
cred with rich brown curls. He could
not see the woman, but the pose OF
her head seemed familiar to him. In
an instant the color forsook his face,
and everything seemed to turn black
before his eyes. When he had re-
gained control over himself the wom-
an was gone. Joyce turned quickly
and saw the pallor on his face.
Alan" she cried, in alarm. my
darling, what is it? Are you not
well?"
"A passing faintness," he said He
could not tell her that this strange
woman carrying a child. and whom of
course he had never seen before, re-
minded him of Veronica, and 1t gave
him a shock.
Are you often like this?" she
asked, anxiously. "Oh. Alan. there is
only fortnight more. and then
shall be able to come and take care of
you always! l am sure you do too
much" she added, tenderly.
He gripped her hand hard. 1t would
be exquisite to have her with him al
ways: but he was truthful above all
things. Il have never been faint be-
FORE" he said.
Then 1t is. the prospect Of spending
life with me that alarms you" she
said, gaily. Alan had regained his
usual color and his usual manner
The cab stopped at the door OF the
shop, and he sprang out to help her
down. They were both very much in
earnest over their purchase Joyce
had exquisite taste. and Alan was
deeply interested in getting all that
she wanted: but he was conscious all
the time of a feeling of strain Do
what he would he could not get the
woman's figure out of his head. 1t
was an utter absurdity that this
strange woman with her child should
have SO upset him. and he hated him
self for the thought that he must al
ways keep something from Joyce
Although she knew all about it, yet
he felt that he should not have liked
to tell her why he turned faint when
the hanson stopped. He did so yearn
to be entirely one with the girl who
had promised herself to him, and how
could he with the shadow of the past
over him? And all the time that he
criticized Joyce's hangings. and the
colors and tints that would do we'll
with her fair skin and light hair, he
felt an undercurrent of restlessness.
Its only because my happiness has
made me nervous. feel like the old
Greeks, who made libations to their
gods when some great good fortune
happened to them. II could only give
something thank offering what
have got."
Joyce was too much In sympathy
with him not to know that something
was worrying him. They went to
lunch at some quiet place. and when
she had got her gloves off she put her
hand in his and said: Now. what is
worrying you? l must know"
He looked at her. and. to her sur
prise. his eyes were full OF tears.
Joyce" he said. Il cannot quite tell
you because 1t is difficult to make you
understand. When our cab stopped in
Oxford street. and | turned faint. l
saw a woman with child who re-
minded me of poor dead Veronica.
Mind you. did not see her face. but
something in her walk was like.
and"
Joyce was as pale as Alan had been.
1T has made you sad. Alan. You
loved her more than you thought"
NO. no." he said. lit is not that
at all. Joyce. but the sight of that
strange woman made me realize how
necessary you are to me. Darling. IL
is because | love you so that | cannot
bear to think of losing you. If had
to wait another two months instead of
two weeks l think | should go mad!"
He pushed his hair from his brow
and leant his head on his hand. Joyce
saw that he was overdone and nerv-
Gus, and that she must brace him up
little. She recognized, with gush
of thankfulness to God. that here was
a man who loved her as few men love
women. and that the poor dead girl
could never have had his heart. 1t
was only pity, as he had said. She saw
this in flash even as she looked at
him.
Alan" she said softly, put away
these fears, sweetheart. See, here
am; look at me. l am yours till death
and after. Death itself has no terrors
of separation for people who love as
we. What do you think-that flesh
| and blood could contain our love?
No; we belong to each other for al
ways, and Here comes our lunch,
and you will have 20 eat it"
And he did eat it. cheered by the
sunshine of her ayes and the music
Of her voice. And after lunch they
sat up in one of the balconies and
watched the boats go down the grimy
but sunlit bosom Of Mother Thames
for the hotel looked out upon the river.
And Alan smoked. and they made
plans for the future. Where they
| would on and what they would do