The evening times. [volume] (Washington, D.C.) 1895-1902, 1900-02-03
ALONE.

April. 1S93.-Yes, il is true that ! must
be classed with 'old maids" My mirror
has said TO me Resign yourself" and
shall do so. I, who would have loved so
wen, could have devoted my life to the
happiness Of one other. must close my
heart and remain in the solitude Of my
little room. isolated in the midst OF his
gay Paris. whose pleasure seeking throngs
are Cblivious OF an old maids lonely ears
October lS97.-During the last week
news has come to me which has changed
my whole life. Last year ] had saved up a
little money and bought some exposition
stock rs an investment. II has risen mar
velousIy and / have realized l00.0C0 frarcs.
Think Of il, ] am rich ]. who have had
barely enough TO live 90 all my life
After the good news came the RAJ. Sor-
row viii always follow close upon my hap
piness. Ny sister Antoinctte. widow
who lived in the country town where we
were born. has just died leaving two little
children, Pierre and Jeanne, without means
OF supporting themselves.
January. lS9S.--It is in Badonviller. my
native place that ! write these lines.
found my nephew and niece in pitiful sit
uation.
Jeanne IS a charming girl Of eighteen and
Pierre a zine lad OF siXteenI love them both
already and see that my mission in life is
TO care for them. 20 be as much a mother
as an aunt can be Aunt. hat is better
than "old maid
Kasper Dollfuls is still here When
saw him again after all these years my
/ heart beat as IL often used 10 when I was
I this fO0lshness had left me. but the mere
sight Of him set me trembling and ] felt
that ] blushed.
1 have bought little honse-simple but
| sweet and hOmelike We call il our little
nest in the trees.
February. lS9S.-I can hardly see 10
write, and my hand trembles with emo
! ton Kasper has just been here He found
me alone and told me what my heart has
ached 10 hear all these years.
He says be has always loved me, that he
has never forgotten me during all these
years Of absence and that my return has
made him happy He wants me 20 marry
him. Is he sincere2 ] have searched my
| heart for an answer and it is Yes"
! March 1851 return to my journal.
3 where the secrets Of my heart find eN-
preston. to write of this new sorrow that
/ has come TO me
/ Jeanne confessed TO me thar she was
J
deeply in love with 2 young officer here
/ and he is in love with her.
70 seems that the young man is poor too
1 poor TO marry unless his wife brings liJ-
/ tie money. Jeanne. he knows. has none.
! and ne has resolved to leave the service
. he loves and Try 20 make a fortune else
/ where to be anlC TO marry her. She is in
I despair. FOR she knows the full weight Of
/ his sacrifice.
When tried 20 console her she cried;
/ oh II YOU knew how ] love him
! made mp my mind then 90 give her %
600 francs as } had TO Pierre 10 is q large
l sum- but I thought ] would not need DO so
( much now that ! was 90 marry Kasper.
That night } told him end saw his face
suddenly chauge-becOme hard and cruel
/ When 7 had finished ne cried.
"It is absurd You have no right 10 give
. your money away in this manner"
I told him that ] had already given 10
/ Pierre a like sum. and he cried out again
. that 10 was folly After many words be
left The house m anger and saying at The
I door
when YOU come 10 your senses / viii
I rtUrn-unul then. good-by,'
! he has never loved me, II was my POOR
little fortune ne was after. Cod help me-
| I can know this and still love him.
april. 1881 made my decision, and.
[ though MY heart is broken, my conscience
[ is clear.
Jeanne is happy. 50 happy that ] Try 10
end my own comfort in feeling hat : am
! the cause Of her JOY
Yesterday I met Kasper on he street
and he did not look 40 me. Thee say thai
DE is 90 mary a rich widow. Older even
. than T.
JEANNE viii leave me soon % follow her
/ husband. Pierre rs COINS TO college uaEt
I year. and ] shah once more De clone
T Alone an old maid with bitter memories
and long. heavy hours OF anEUish.-Fr0m
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