Alma record. (Alma, Mich.) 1878-1928, 1899-12-08

He had told Rachel Winslow of his
love for her and she had not given her
love in return.
1t would be difficult to know what
was most powerful in the impulse that
had moved him to speak TO her tonight.
He had yielded 10 his feelings without
any special thought of results TO HIM
self because he had felt So certain that
Rachel would respond TO his love for
her. He tried to recall now just the i'm
preston she made on him when he first
spoke TO her
Never had her beauty and her strength
influenced him as tonight. While she
was singing he saw and heard no one
else. The tent swarmed with confused
crowd of faces, and he knew he was
sitting there hemmed in by mob Of
people, but they had no meaning TO
him. He felt powerless TO avoid speak
ing TO her He knew he should speak
when they were once alone.
Now that he had spoken he felt that
be had misjudged either Rachel or the
opportunity. He knew, or thought he
lid, that she had begun to care for him.
Il was no secret between them that the
heroine of Jasper first novel had been
his own ide y of Rachel. and the hero
of the story was himself, and they had
loved each other in the book, and
Rachel had not objected No one else
knew. The names and characters had
been drawn with a subtle skill that re-
vealed TO Rachel. when she received a
copy of the book from Jasper the fact
Of his love for her, and she had not been
offended. That was nearly year ago.
Tonight Jasper Chase recalled the
scene between them, with every inf1ec-
ton and movement INCREASED from his
memory. He even recalled the fact that
he began TO speak just at that point on
the avenue where few days before he
had met Rachel walking with Rollin
Page. He had wondered at the time
what Rollin was saying.
Rachel, Jasper had said, and it
was the first time he had ever spoken
her first name, Il never knew until to-
night how much l love you. Why
should | try TO conceal any longer what
you have seen me lookY You know
love you as my life. l can no longer
hide it from you if | would. "
The first intimation he had Of a re-
fusal was the trembling of Rachel arm
in his own. She had allowed him to
speak and had neither turned her face
toward him nor away from him. She
h,.d Oh stfr IN Th hnr Zoo
was sad, but firm and quiet, when she
spoke.
why do you speak TO me now2
cannot bear it--after what we have
seen tonight.
"Why-wbat - he had stammered
and then was silent.
Rachel withdrew her arm from his
but still walked near him.
Then he cried out with the anguish
Of one who begins to see a great loss
facing him where he expected a great
JOY.
"Rachell Do you not love me2 Is
not my love for you as sacred as any
thing in all of life itself?"
She had walked on silent for few
steps after that. They had passed a
street lamp. Her face was pale and
beautiful. He had made a movement to
clutch her arm and she had moved a
little farther from him.
"No " she had replied. There was
a time-I cannot answer for that. You
should not have spoken to me tonight. "
He had seen in these words his an
swer He was extremely sensitive.
Nothing short Of joyous response to
his own love would have satisfied him.
He could not think Of pleading with
her.
"Some time, when l am more wor-
thy9" he had asked in a low voice, but
che did not seem TO hear, and they had
parted at her home, and he recalled
vividly the fact that no good night had
been said.
Now, as he went over the brief but
significant scene, he dashed himself fol
his foolish precipitancy. He had not
reckoned on Rachel's tense, passionate
absorption of all her feeling in the
scenes at the tent which were so new
in her mind. But he did not know heI
well enough even yet to understand the
meaning of her refusal. When the CLOCK
in the First church steeple struck 1. he
was still sitting at his desk, staring al
the last page of manuscript Of his I'M
finished novel.
Rachel Winslow went up to her room
and faced her evenings experience will
conflicting emotions. Had she evel
loved Jasper Chase? Yes-no. One mo
ment she felt that her lifes happiness
was at stake over the result Of her &C
ton; another, she had a strange feel
ing Of relief that she had spoken as sh
did. There was one great overmasterin.
feeling in her The response Of tn
wretched creatures in the tent to he
singing, the swift, awesome presence o
the Holy Spirit, had affected her a
never in all her life before The mo
ment Jasper had spoken her name an,
she realized that he was telling her o
his love she had felt a sudden revulsiol
for him, as if he should have respects
the supernatural events they had jus
xuitnessed She felt as If il were not tn