The sun. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1833-1916, 1899-05-28

shown himself my master. So. do not fret
my more Tor me, Tor you. least OF al, the men
! an9T; will my R Isys' S Sisin hat TY StiI nst Sio Hf
my heart to you. but that cannot; and know
ing that l cannot. feel il honest TO say 50 be-
fore any more Of your fine manhood Is wasted.
90 your way. then. Philemon. aud leave me to
the rougher paths my feet were made to tread.
der regard for your goodness. but II YOU per-
slst IN a courtship. which only my father is in
ellned to smile upon. you VII call mn az an.
the serpent that lies coiled ia my breast has
deadly fangs, and II Is to he feared. as YOU
should know. who have more than once seen
Do not blame John nor James label; nor
this, Il would. be the same il none Of, those
men existed. | was not made to, tr!umrh over
2 Kindly n3tnre. nnt To- snbiue the hanGhtIsst
hand Of my hearts master. DO YOU want TO
know who that master is2, | cannot tell you.
for have not yet named him 10 myself.
going to, leave Dorchester for several
did not tell You this last night for fear OF
weakening under your sntrenties. Or, should
WsaikenIns more than once nan asa, / | want to
know what Il means, Absence win teach me.
aSs g % RnG , ,HS sigh; nsn..s IF new b faces ysa PM, PG EOq
xiSss. James, n"es II L il SI not a H' simple ' min s%' and sfSi il
lNilllt IIlt Sl lIlNS lac Us lt klNt IL u
chance. II the glow mud glamour Of elegant
city lie can make mc FORGET certain s%nntrhcs
drew my hand through yonr arm and foftiyy
kissed my finger tins. then | am no mate for
You, whose love; however critical, has never
teit even in rehukc. as the strongest. sweetest
thing that has, entered M, TURBULENT Iife.
a separation, which will either be = Isrmanent
one or the last that VII ever take rlnce no.,
tween you and me-; John WI n NOT ro bear tnIs
possibly because to him / am simply = super
ior being. while to you an a living but i'm
can only do so under the highest guidance.
DEAR JONI: l feel that ! owe you n letter
YOU as an old and dear friend who will one day
i. am Twins" in a whirl OF enjoyment. am
seeing and tasting OF pleasures | HAYS only
dreamed ,.hns "a ohTqt Ill now; From r, a f@rmnnas .
s tie!y o SnS' iass 'f SFan iiaa'tiIy T inter !Sosi %r Win a Ia,
bearing i molly and have developed tastes I
did not know | possessed. And no one seems
o to th, nat | al, sr Gn, Of p n1Gsr nor 5r DO ,d | iSsl SO; Gn Iy
my heart n times which mike me shut my eyes
when the lights are briRhtest aud dream, IL
down gateway where | have so often leaned
when some one ly,ou know who i is now. John.
tioninG hlml. was saving good night and call.
ing down the blessings u heaven upon a head
not worthy To receive them.
hans. yet I do not know. There are fond
hearta here, also. and q life in This country's
forget the touch Of n certain restraining hand
which. has great power over me even as a mem
ory. For the sake Of that touch shall ! Giys
Answer, John. You know him and me well
enough now to say.
DEAR JAMES: Why must I write? WHY am
not, content with the memory OF last night?
Ia II because that when The cup Is quite full. q
cup that has leen SO long In filing. some few
dr"ps n ust escape. Just 20 SHOW that q great Joy
cent? | have suffered so long from nneertain-
". have tried you and tried myself with 40 teii-
olls an lndecision that now that know no other
{he ecstasy Of 1t makes me overdemonstrativc.
/ want to tell you that | love YOU: that / do
in fullest measure all tho devotion YOU have
heaped ppon mo in srlte OF my many faults
and tailinEs. You took me to your heart last
isfY me TINT ! Iust let YOU DO II without telling
YOU that am proud and;happy to.be the choseL
one Of your hcalt, and that Us ! saw Your smile
aud the proud passion which III UP your face |
felt how much Sweeter was the dear domestic
bliss you promised me than the NOR brilliant
but colder lie OF Il stntesman'S wife in Wash
inGton.
Though YOU said to me in going out: Your
father, Will explain It AL" ! DO not content
VI WIN ilIo AII.lIliN'OI ulu HtNtl IL It-
ieye what he said Of 80" except YOU confirm
1t by your own act.
Oh. James. wcrs we not happy, I believed
In you and felt that Won believed in me. When
we stood hear. to hear under the elm tree
was II only last night? and YOU ,wore that II
Il lay II, the mower Of earthly man to make me
happy. | should taste every sweet thar q wo-
mans hear. naturally crnvcL. | thought my
heaven had aIrehdy come and that now II
only. remained fog me to create yours, Yet ]
continue that trus', / will do so with all my
heart and never ask you % solve this or any
later mysteries FOR me. ! do not confde with
a half heart. ] give. Won all or ! give YOU
%nothinC. a fact which yiIl either insure my
hRrnines: or nv ruin. | DO not Know which;
words would satisfy me. or that / wouiI or
could believe them when they accused You Of
q base and dishonest act? James. YOU should
have, waited and not left mo to the misery Of
theft. and theft Of moncv. from one | could
not contradict. Much as l have always re:
yered and llved my father, | find myself
hoping thai he has said other words TO mo
than those you expected him to. That In his
wish 10 see me Philemon. wife he has re-
sorted to an unworthy subterfpgc 70 sepn-
rate us, and that there IN NJ truth In the story
he told me last night. or at least not the truth
he would tmprsss uuon me.
II his accoun: Of the interview between you
add 10. II in way ~ explanation. then the re-
turn Of this letter will DO token enough that
my father has been lust In his accusations and
that the bond bet Yeen III must be broken.
But if-Oh, James, L you are the true man I
consider you, and all thar | have heard Is q
fabrication or, mistake. thon como to me nj
once: do not delay. but come at once, and the
sight OF your face at tho gate will he enough
to establish your Innocence in my eyes.
r., d.. ,ony:n,oJ