Martinsburg herald. [volume] (Martinsburg, W. Va.) 1881-1920, 1899-12-16
STAGES OF STARVATION.
Diary of a Young Woman Who Re
Gently Died in New York.

These are extracts taken from the
diary kept by Evelyn Adams, reader
and vocalist, during her struggle TO
live in New York.
Come to the rescue or I shall soon
lose my reason. / cannot hold out much
longer. The last stage of despair is up
on me the creeping by
inches to the end Of all things.
0 God. Can the Christian world be 50
crue2 So cold and nercenary2
Bowed down with de-
spair and yet through
it all she raises her eyes to the beacon
light and smile comes to her lips s /
shall yet be an authorl / shall yet sue
ceed''
have sent them a telegram. They
will hardly send favorable answer
Yet what a grand story it is. Don't
want it, All. Welt l expected it.
There's a basket of fruit for you.
etc. Good God and not sou in my
pocket and they are worth a million
Why didn't they slip $40 bill into the
basket. LAS they help the least Of
these but in my anguish I have to
smile bitterly. But / shall yet succeed
Hungry faint--I would not object
to something nice to eat--long time
since I've tasted anything good. Now
tomorrow I'll have to go and bus The
paper. ] wonder ii I'd better eat or save
a penny for 1t.
The past forgot the future? Sweet
spirit Of prayer, lead me right, l pray
Keep me worthy
He doesn't like my writing: says
scrawl all over the paper But ! don't
suppose he knows all authors do that.
! don't know what they (the PUBLISH
ers1 are waiting for unless ii is to get
my STROUD to make into rag paper TO
print the book ON. They'll have it soon
if this keeps on.
1Ss7-Sept. 30--Arrived in Boston
Stopped at he Hotel Waterson, No. s
Buifinch place. Saw Gen. Il. II. Butler
and took his advice in regard to the
Adams case.
1SS7-Oct. 22.Returned to New York
and engaged in business at No. 233
East Fourteenth street $50 month.
1ssS-Sept. 5-Went to Boston De-
laycd in the Adams case.
lSSS--Sept. FL Marlborough. N H..
To prosecute my claim against Susan
p. Adams. Of Ossipee, n. III.
1SS9--Feb 2S--Finished the first
chapter of Ely and Lightning. the
American Explorers" by Evelyn
Adams
1ss9-July LEFT New York for Uti-
ca. Was i'll with bronchitis, Remained
in Utica FIVE weeks.
19So--April 11.--Finishcd XVI, chap
ter 'Ic.y and Lighting"
1S90-Mav 1--Sick for three weeks
and couldn't work much OF the time.
1s90-April Unfinished XVI. chap
Fly and Lightning XIII chapters,
$50 pages. about 100000 words.
July 12.-Made arrangements with
the Union News Company Asked as
slstanee and was refused. Suffered the
worst-suspense is a killing thing-not
knowing what to do. Sept 20, sold al
my clothes to raise a little money TO
help along.
Oct. 8. Commenced Us Marriage
I.ottery?" Have only 81 left. Am try
ing to keep M.
Nov, 24--Wrtins "a Cay Cmistmasn
to send to Philadelphia Transcript.
1S91-March 1.-Soid collection Of
minerals and stamps for $50 Have 20
cents in my pocket Received food from
Mrs, Alears for the last two weeks.
Hope to succeed yet. Calm within; fer
ment without
NAstheh -. 81" HNNbihS w VutttssS'
nil desperanduD. Have tried ten diff
ferent ways TO raise .themoney to pub
fish the book rs Marriage Lottery"
Failed each time; still hoping. BE of
good courage. We shall yet triumph.
Have resorted TO sewing TO keep the
wolf from the door Have gone to every
possible place from - to the Sacred
Heart Convent. by the kindness of
Mrs. Mears life has been sustained a
little longer They have deprived them
selves for my sake | fear. o. poverty
--death--slow torture
They will hold the plates OF my book.
shall yet win fortune. An authors
or an artists works always live long
after they have gone And this is my
determination, to make a success be-
fore I DO die