The Salt Lake herald. [volume] (Salt Lake City [Utah]) 1870-1909, 1898-03-06


/ Paris is very far
| Paris is far, and also the past of yes
terday, the cruel hours that l have
suffered, so cruel that. very true,
have wished to die, 1 asked God with
all my heart to take me to himself
could bear no more. And now it is
ended, all that, now that it is past
brightness, and the return to happiness
was so sudden that l hardly dare be
Heve-I scarcely dare to live again.
The last lines which | wrote in my
diary are very desperate-'I felt
was little consequence here below, !
offer myself offer my life rather than
| the infdelity OF my husband or the
wrote it il the middle of the day,
in baby's room. by the side of his little
bed Nurse was reading.
The doctor was to return about )
o'clock, and 1 was impatientIy watch
ing for his coming, tho l knew well
what his diagnosis would be. Nothing
new, we must wait" l could see there
tact, no eruption, and the cold moisture
continued. The child groaned in his
restless sleep. When anyone touched
him to arrange his sheets, he would
cry, he had a sort of nervous excita-
ton. Toward 4 o'clock, some one
knocked. 1t was Joseph, my husbands
valet de chambre Oh! 1 detest his
his mouth with the almost invisible
lips, this sullen hostile mask.
What is it you wish, Joseph?"
Monsieur sends to enquire of
Madame if Monsieur lie Vicomte is bet
ter" (Monsieur lie Vicomte, that is
Rene, my adored Vicomte).
Monsieur has not gone out then p"
NTn To-
in his room since luncheon. He prays
that madame will inform him when
the doctor comes to visit Monsieur lie
Vicomte"
Very well, Joseph! Nurse will go
and tell monsieur
So my husband had not gone out, he
was anxious about baby, too, he wished
to know the Doctors opinion. Could
one believe it? This solicitude irritated
me. So much rancor had filed my
soul, that l no longer wished any
tenderness from Raoul, for my son.
l wanted him TO leave me alone. with
the dear little invalid, and that he
would go to this creature who expected
him. a villainOus pride, was it not?
But 1 suffered so much.
The doctor came q little after
O'Clock; informed by nurse, the count
CO ne directly, also, and so evidently
anxious, yet so i'll at ease; so different
from the energetic, self-poised mana
little imperiOus, that he is ordinarily
so almost humble in his attitude that 1
felt pity mounting in me. Evidently
he was suffering, TOO, a combat had
commenced in him between the real
generosity which made everybody love
him, and the bad desire, the unworthy
solicitation OF his caprice
Nothing new. 1t is necessary to
wait"
These words that I had expected, the
doctor said as he placed back on the
pillow baby's pretty tousled head, who
murmu-ed:
Baby head-datter baby head"
And he rubbed his forehead with his
hand TO show where it hurt
It was necessary to wait, and to be
ready for anything. Something would
develop by evening, or at the latest in
the night The child was breeding
some kind of an illness, else the fever
would not so persist.
Have you a good physician near
by?" said the doctor
'.Why?"
For tonight; for the unexpected
There IS a physician at Beauvan
Place, DR.. Gull"
He IS a very intelligent fellow I
know him; 1 viii write him a word for
you to give him. Send for him at any
time, no matter What hour, if you see
any change for the worse
The doctor went away. We remained
some time alone, Raoul and I. tried
to ignore his presence ! came and
went IN The chamber without looking
at him, without speaking to him. He
said at last, in a tone that sounded
false 20 ne:
I viii dine at home this evening,
Genevere.'
And 1 read in his conscience as in an
open book. lie thought: 1T would be
unl<ind TO leave this poor Genevere
alone, so troubled as she is. 1 will give
her one OF our tete-a-tete dinners
which delight her so-afterward. having
done my duty, / will be at liberty to
80 to rue Vezelay."
Only the night before such a PROPOSE
ton. to dine at home with Raoul as
lovers" as we called. it, would have
made me mad with joy, and put me in
the power of my husband. But de-
cidedly my anxiety, my conviction had
changed me. 1 replied coldly:
Dine here. if you choose, mon ami.
For myself, l shall not go down. And.
moreover, l have no appetite
If he had been in doubt UP to this
time that I was aware of mis- treason.
his doubt ceased at this moment. He
grew pale, his mouth contracted. saw
that he was hesitating.
Shall / avoW-ask her forgiveness"
But the bad influence was still the
stronger. He contented himself to say:
Very well. as you WILL
Il had placed myself before baby's
bed; standing, | hid him with my gown.
RaoUl dared not come TO us, and after
another moments hesitation, ne went
out.
The wearisome hours began again; so
slow, so heavy with agony, by my baby
who moaned in his sleep. AT each mo-
ment I was on my feet, to bend over
him. I looked at his face, his little
body. More and more the skin became
pink and feverish, but still no eruption.
Toward s O'Clock baby awakened sud
denly and wanted his Dlaythings.
made him understand that he must not
touch them or handle them, because
he must not uncover his arms or chest.
lie consented to let me play
with them in his place, while he watch
ed me. With death in the soul. pulled
the string of Punchinello. 1 wound up
the locomotive; I was his playfellow.
About o'clock ne fell into heavy
sleep. And seeing him SO quiet, also
fell asleep.
A slight noise awakened me. I saw
the count, my husband. bending over
Bene's crib, and examining him closely
ny li-e 4izHL u q cdilult. ne WIS
dressed as for going out, patent leather
shoes. black trousers, low cut vest
only he had put on his neglige Jacket
over his white vest. ! glanced at the
clcc--. 1t was 90 minutes past ..
He is going" I thought. In half
hour he will be"
For a moment the project TO go and !
wait for him before the door of his mis-
tress crossed my thought, but it was
fer oaly moment.
mo M place is not there: il is !