The Salt Lake herald. [volume] (Salt Lake City [Utah]) 1870-1909, 1898-02-27

] dic AdctS OF winch one can very SIN
/ cerely accuse destiny. However, I vii
remedy them as far as possible. I vii
give the order for Kate to CAREFUL,
close the windows, lower the shades
ana curtains in my room every morn
/ ing, While they are exposed to the sun
and 1 will attend vespers, which vii
help TO occupy the afternoon.
oecond-Tne pimple, the indisposi
/ ton of baby. DR. Arnaud. our regu
lar physician. came this morning, anC
/ he says there is nothing to fear; thai
all children are apt to have more ol
! less fever at this season. Nevertheless
I there is an epidemic of children's small
/ pox in some quarters of Paris. [ have
written to DR.. Robin. in whom l have
great confidence. and entreated him tC
come and examine baby tomorrow al
the latest.
Thirdly ruined costume. 1 will
take ii back. to Whitefern and tell him
very decidedly that / do not wish il
touched; that l will not wear it, but
that l am ready to order another
Madame Aurezac did so without diff
1lculuy. Whitetern is very reasonable
but it is necessary to talk to him, and
not TO his employees-tries ones
nerves, though. In five days the new
costume can be finished My departure
Tor "a al Is Mil not be delayed very
much, if any.
The last, but most serious, my hus-
band, my wicked RaOul. Good Mother
Relne-deS-AugeS; you, who are today
singing cantlcies in Paradise. Inspire
me. Give me the reflections of a rea-
sonable Christian wifei You certainly
understand that 1 cannot willingly be
forSaken for a Mademoiselle de GiVer-
ny or a Madame Delaveaux, I have
nothing to reproach myself with. 1 as
sure you, good Mother Remedies
Auges- 1 love Raoul, with all my heart
| think only of him. l belong to him
so utterly that-how can express it
that l have, sometimes, regretted THAI
l belong to him so blindlyl am not
ugly, Mother Refine, and 1 assure you
That more than once since my entrance
into society l have repealed admirers.
Is II just because Raoul feels me so
much his property, his thing, that he
no longer takes any care TO protect
me! Is 1t necessary to cease showing
him my tenderneSs2 Is ii necessary
Tor me to fiirt on my side-to use the
familiar processes of romances and
comedies? Oh. how repugnant that is
to mel
No, 1 will not do that; 1 will not give
myself the appearance of a dishonest
woman, in order to bring back my hus-
band Only 1 believe that it will be
wise to watch my heart, to restrain
my loving impulses. [ ought to make
Raoul comprehend my unhappiness,
and that not by tears q have already
Wept before him, and 1 felt as if it did
more harm than good), but by silence
by abstaining from caresses-it will
cost me much; nevertheless, it is nee
essary. l will take the firm resolve to
treat my husband henceforth with
GOODNESS and submission, without more.
Now, in regard to my two enemies,
Madame DelaVeauX anr Mademois lie
de Glverny, what to do? l do not wish
any scene in public assuredly; and,
moreover, While Raoul flirts outrage
ously with these creatures. he is per
Iect IN his conduct toward me- He
never furnishes me the occasion for a
scene Then must | resign myself? |
cannot. l am not sufficiently heroic.
enough of a saint, to accept being de-
ceived. l do not believe God exacts
that of me. l have a right to the
ndellty of my husband; if it is not to
be mine, l had rather live alone, with
my dear baby, who will console me.
SO l am quite decided 1 will know
the truth, and if it is too cruel for me.
l VIII pray mamma to go back with
paby and me to our estate of the Loir-
et-Cher- But how to know?
Ihe other day a plosDectest came
IN my name, Countess de BoisteIle. and
+! opened 1t before my husband, very
ignorant of what l was going to find
in it. 1t was the circular of an agency
winch charged itself to watch hus-
bands, on account of their wives. and
wives on account of their husbands. 7
handed the paper to Raoul. who. as
soon as his eye caught the words.
crumpled 1t up with a gesture of i'm
patience. He had no reason to be an
noyed. l shall never use such means.
III
polnaSe of the public l will watch
MN myself as one watches a soldier
whom one suspicious of meditating de-
serton- He need not fear that / viii
open his letters: that l will search
ABOUT IN the drawers of his secretary.
but, since wives ought to follow their
HUSBANDS, since the husband ought to
go Were mis- wife cannot follow him,
ne must be on his guard Perhans
one day. Fastening to some rendezvous
Joyous with this wicked joy, that 1 sur
Prise IN certain moments in his ewes
N MS voice, in his gestures-it viii he
mis- wife that he will find.
80 am at the end of my reflections.
-hey have not cOnsoled me. but they
nave Gained me a little. 1t was a
'narp pam, that has little by little set
led into duh neuralgia
l leave my writing table. and on RI
ne window, the middle one. which looks
ilrectiy on the terrace; the air is grow |
ng cool and refreshing; it is past 6
clock; l have meditated n long timar |
A. present the sun is behind the grear
eucalyptus trees that wall the end of 1
,ur garden, giving me the illusion that (
here are no houses, no Paris. on thai 1
tide. va 'ii"'
In the garden. without the sun. there /
elgns delicious atmosphere. In snite |
i Inc excessive heat of this unusually !
-dVanced springtime, the fundo de1
ria. as they say in Florence. .keeps ire
reshness How good it isl How charm
ng and desirable-how enviable and
are this garden. this hotel. in the sub-
Irbs of SaintHonore
How much apparent reason I have to
nJoy hfe-to be happy, Most excel
ent parents. charming husband-too
harming-a perfect love of a baby. all
ny caprices satisfied. Ali I sbould
dore to live, if two blue eyes and two
lack eyes did not exist, ] am not
'lcked. but if I could put out those
yes, the blue and the black. very
oftly. without making them suffer
.ithout giving too much sorrow to
hose who love them-I mean to those
tho have right to love them That
wrong, All, dame, I love my hus-
and. and l wish him all to myself
ola!
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