The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1897-11-28
CHAPTER I.


am not penitsnt? How can be peniteat?
j do not regret it? How can ! regret IL?
/ would dc IL again? How could l help
but do II again?
Yes. yes. know know Who knows
IL so we'll as r? n is written In the Ia
bles Of Gods law; Thou shalt do no muir
derY But was IL murder Was IL crinsg
HIoodg Yes, II was the spiliing OF blood.
Blood will have blood you say But is
there no difference Hear ms out. Let me
speak 1t Is hard TO remember all now
aid here--iyiHg here-but listen, only lis
ten. Then tell me IL | did wrong. No, tell
me IL God Himself win not Justify me.
Aye. Justify me though J outraged His
edict. Biasphemy? Aa, Father. do not
go. Father
1t = less than year es my health
broke down. but the soal LIES fast. and 1t
seems 90 me like lifetime. l had over
worked myself miseraniy Ny life
physician In London had been hard one.
but IL was not my practice that had
wrecked me. How to perform that opera
ton on The throat was the beginning Of
my trouble You know what happened.
] mastered my problem, and they called
the operation hy my name. IL has brought
me FAM. II has made me rich: IL mas
saved thousand lives. and will save ten
y
fe-one-iinder conditions
Father. bear with me. | will tell ALL
My nerves We're burnt out. Gloom. de-
preston. sieeplessness. prostration. some
times collapse. a consuming Are within.
a paralyzing frost without-you know
what II is-we call It.
I watched the progress of my disease
and gave myself the customary treat
nent Hygiene diet. drugs. electricity I
tried them all. But neither dumb-bells
nor Indian clubs. neither walking nor rid
ing. neither liberal food nor doses of egg
and brandy, neither musk nor ergot nor
anti-pyrln. neither faradlsation, nor gal
yanixstion. awaited 10 LIT the black shades
that hung over me day and night. and
made the eff of life mockery. I knew
not why. Ny work possessed me like fe
yer. could neither do II TO my content
nor leave il undone. ] was drawing water
In a sieve.
Ny wife sent for Gull Fun well
knew what he would advise. 1t was rest
must take six months absolute holiday.
and In order TO cut myself off entirely
from ali temptations 10 mental activity I
must leave London and go abroad. Change
Of scene. 90 life and OF habit new peoples.
rfw cnsiomS. new faiths, and a new eli
nate~+iiIsse separately and together, with
TOLL cessation of nay usual occupations.
y. - iiassah a long series of functional
arrangements which had for their basis
tho exhaustion Of the sympathetic nervous
system
wua 10th To go Looking back upon
my condition see that my reluctance
was justified To launch a creature who
WAS ali nerves into the perpetual II tri-
fling, vexations OF travel. was mistake
folly, a madness. But did not per-
eyive this. was thinking only of my
home, and The dear souls from whom
must be separated. During the seven
years of our married life my wife had
grown io be more. or other, than the oo-
tect Of my love That gentle soothing,
that soft healing which the mere presence
OF an anectionate woman who Ia all
strength and courage. may bring 10 A man
who TX wasted by work or worry my
wifo's preseHce had long brought TO me,
and | shrank from the thought of scenes
where she could no longer move about
me, meeting my wishes and anticipating
my wants.
This was weakness and knew II; hut I
had another weakness which | did not
know Ny hoy. little son years OF age
the day before I set sail. was all the
world 10 tno. patornai love may eat an
AL the other passions Il WAS so in my
case. The tyranny Of my affection for nv
only child was even more constant and
unrelenting than the tyranny of my work
stinct as father came my strength az
doctor. The boy had suffered a throat
trouble from his birth When he was =
hahe ! delivered him from n fierce attack
az II. and when he was brought him
back from the Jaws OF death Thus twice
i had saved h.s life. and each time that
life had become the iearer to me, Bat
too well | knew that the mischief was
beaten down. and not conquered Some
day II would return with awful viruienee.
To meet that terror | wrought by day and
night. No slave ever toiiei So hard.
denied myself rrsg. curtaled my sleep and
stole from tranquil reflection ana repaSe
half-hoors aud qaarter-hours spent in the
carriage gnsns ffCw patient 70 patient
The attack might come suddenly ami I
must be prepared. ] was working against
time.
Ton Know what happened The attack
ga not come. Nv boy continued well bat
my name became known aud nav discov-
ery established. The weakness OF my own
child had given thu bent 10 my studies.
II had mastered my subject Il was my
absorbing love at my little one that gave
me the impulse and direction.
But paid my penalty. NY health was
wreck. and must leave everything be-
nina me. IL II had been possible 10 take
my wife and boy slonS with me. hos ,.if-
ferent the end might have beer, Should
~ st1NE mere nowhere this he'd
with you. Father, you-----
We spent aur boys birthday with what
chess we could command. For nv wife
10 seemed Go he day Of quiet hanpgrseSz
haiiow.i by precious rremeries~;hs dear
est and most delicious that ever a mother
krev-Sf the hahyhood OF her hov-hfs
pretty lisp. his foolish pratsle. his funny
little ways ard sayinss-snd sxepseesa
Nv tbs anticipation az The health that
was 60 return 10 me- as the result Of RS,
ana change. The child himself VS.
bright and gagns$cnas. ana for nav rare
gave up 10 some reckless and solSv 4aI.
lity.
Thus tire hours passed unfR bedtime
and then SIS I saw the astle fellow yls., k,>3
TN In his crib. Il crossed my yalns far 4
fsonssnt that De looked less we'll than
nsssai. Such fsncfes we're common 70 me-.
ard knew from long experience thar II
was folly 90 give way 20 them To do ~
AZ that tine must have beer kn,.ss
ton fistfUl for nv manhood had al
ready gone far enough far nv oNu self
respect. To NV cid colleague aof fellow
student Granville weAman I has given
elaborate Instructions gor all p0ssib,. ea-1-
sfDge1stss.
X this happened ~ nas 10 IL that. T.
fA&s happened he ~Rs - do this IN
ease Of sesfgaEs need he Mas TO retYsfsias.,s-
cate With rse ny the swifsess means avail.
abe frr neither shs w94th Of the earth
MGR sAa wealth - the World. nor TIE less