The herald., 1897-10-08

part in my life, but don't think that
did, for I miss you SO very, very much,
my darling boy, and am sure the next
two or three weeks will be unusually
long ones. / expect to go down to Long
Beach tomorrow and may possible re-
main over Sunday. Since there is a
possibility OF Rury's shadowirg me
Will rot sleep at the farm house a night.
but will go to Mrs. Vanderburg's.
| have about concluded that Mr.. C.'s
change of lourgirg places and different
conversations are the result of Stella's
visit TO Mrs It's, for remember saying
TO her that Mr.. C.'s goings and comings
his conversations and actions were al
ways reported to me promptly. Well,
let come what may so my Joedy darling
does not forget to love me. The rest
makes but little difference. Heart hun
ger and heart sickness are worse than
DEATH my darling, and l pray that
neither may ever again come to you or
to your LOVEY.
ANOTHER LIKE 1T
The second letter is similar to the first
only a little more SO:
PICO HEIGHTS, Thursday Night,
September 13, 1894
Joedy Darling:-I telegraphed you
directly had time today. Judge Ross
directed me to be in court at 1890 this
morning. The other days 1 went to the
office. l waited there all morning. AT
half past twelve court adjourned for
lunch. went directly to Cass & Smurr's;
found nothing there; went to the Hol-
lenbeck cafe for lunch, from there to
Mr.. Broderson's office, where l found
yours of the Sth. / was then nearly due
at the court, but / took time to read IT,
Went there and as soon as they put me
on the witness stand and l could get
away l went directly to the telegraph
office and wired you. my darling. Doubt
less you have received it by this time.
| mailed you letter today, darling,
written after reading yours that told
me of your uncertainty as to what to
do. 1t is needless, Joe dearie, for me to
tell you I write it with many heart
pang. Sweetheart, 1 do not see how
would face the heart hunger and the
loneliness without you, my only darling,
but rather than stand for one moment
in your way, rather than be detrimental
10 your interests, I would never look on
your face again 1t is not because | de
not love you. Joedy dear, but because
7 do love you that say these things, and
because of my consuming love. 1t woulS
nearly kill me if in the future you should
say or feel that perhaps it would have
been better if all had been different. l
know you love me. Joe, and 1 am sure
love you, absolutely sure, sure. l
miss you more than I can tell. But my
4 ,,1i ,;,,ly a11
slider. I thought that the Harris and
Platt case looked pretty black yester-
day. Today Mr. Emil Harris told me
this evening when he brought me home
that he considered the case an extremely
desperate one at that time, but, my
darling. 1 believe that saved them this
afternoon. If they are as thankful as
they should be, they certainly ought to
do anything on the face of the earth for
me hereafter. However, that remains
to be seen. I only testified to what l
believe is the truth.
Now my own dear heart, I am tired
and have yet to hunt up paper wish
TO use tomorrow, so l will stop and will
add few lines tomorrow. 1-st put
your loving arms around me, dear love,
and let me lear against you ard kiss my
Joedy darling, for I am heart sore and
weary and lonely. My dearest Joedy.
good night.
AT the Federal court awaiting the ver-
dict in the United States marshals office.
The jury has been out over two hours.
Opinion varies as to what ii will be. l
think that if they do not acquit that they
will disagree. I shall mail this the last
thing before going home
Good bye, my darling. Hoping that
soon you Will be with me, I am your
LOWE