Middletown transcript., 1897-03-20

"Full of manuscript Lovels ani
other things?"
Zone novel and several stories"
81 cannot understand why you -wanI
to go when"
81 want to-well-to live large
life.0
''You mean youswant to live in q
bigger placer"
swell, not exactly. l don't think
you quite understand"
81 quite understand that there is not
enough scope for you here, and that /
am selfish brute for trying to keep
you from your ambition. Look here,
Eva, can you honestly say that you do
not love me little bitp"
Allan had risen and was standing
over her. Eva looked up at him. She
could see him standing there now-big
comely, with something lin his eyes
that thrilled her, half with fear and
half with pleasure. She rose and faced
him.
81 shall be sorry to leave you-very
sorry.''
Then why"
"Can't you see, AIlanG | know
have it in me to do good work
and l must be where good work is
wanted; Here l am bampered; in Lon
DON"
"You may fall" said Allan with a
note of hope in his voice. Then Eva
spoke:
II shall succeed know shall"
Twill you write to me?'
Eva hesitated. She was half in
clined to give in to that extent. Allan
had mistaken her hesitation.
No." he said. "1here shall be no
selfShness in my love for you. 1 will
wait year from tonight, and, then,
if London is no go. you know there
will always be me. You can't expect
me to pray for your success. can your"
Eva. placed on her mettle, looked
him in the face.
II am bound to succeed, she said,
and turned to 60. Tie waltz had ceased |
in the room below. and rustic of
skirts and ripple of tongues had taken
It's place.
"Eva-oDce-th the last time perhars."
She turned again laughing.
"Qlick," she said, ''some one will
,ome."
A woman may forget many things,
1ut no woman ever foTgets the first
lime lovers arm was round her waist
md lovers lips upon her own. And
IS Eva sat in the corner of third.
lass carriage in the London train
lext morning, looking forward to the
;areer before her, the remembrance of
he support of Allan's arm persisted in
btruding itself. Having got what she
wanted she already began to doubt if
he wanted what she had got. For a
areer, after all, is rather a lonesome
Ort Of thing.
Such small success as may come to
he inexperienced girl upon her first in
ursion into literature came to Eva.
She lived sparingly. worked hard,
nd never made the mistake of refus-
lg invitations Oh the ground of work.
be stayed up a little latter or get
p a little earlier instead. {
. weekly column on Health and
eauty" placed at her disposal by the |
outhful editor Of a new woman's pa 1
Or, who had met her at the Writer'S '
lub and thought Ler pretty, paid her
eekly bill at the boarding house. Her .
;ories found frequent acceptance, and '
,casional welcome in the minor peri
ideals, and happy meeting with an
litor at dinner party paved the way t
} her appearance in widely read v
agazine. BY the end Of the year Eva |,
'orrington had got so far towards the /
aIization of her ambition that when t
,ople heard her name mentioned, |
ley wrinkled their brows and tried TO +
where they had heard it be- o
re. At home, of course, her fame q
as great. The papers in which she il
rote circulated freely in the town, n
II stories were discussed at afternoon n
as, and townsfolk were glad to think n
at they parl icipated to some extent t,
the literary work of the century. t,
All this timeEva was horribly lonely. 81
10 knew plenty of people and liked
en-; they were kind to her, some of 81
em because they liked her for herself, =
hers because they saw she was i
arked for ultimate success. Having "
vanced certain distance along the RI
ad she had longed to travel, she 81
uld judge better whittier it would vi
id her. 1t would lead her to place III
the newspaper paragraphs, to place IN
the photographers windows, and to Dt
place at Bayswa er OF South Kensing- &C
D. This, then, must be the end of the al
uggle and the turmoil of the fight. in
ID how she hated the flghtl A fight Ii
lerein victory would bring her no al
arer to the actualities of life; for she th
d come to learn in the years strug- in
that our social system by no means III
ces women on an equality with Een, OF
! that whereasMen can buy the GOV In
dfruit of the tree of knowledge of W
I'd and evil by the pottle, women m
st buy the tree outright, and OF
! cash. 1t was terribly unfair. IN
d the most unfair thing N
'ut the whole business vas that, IN
lie success was. almost within her
sp, success was not what tshe wanted.
ere is no fun In living your own. life