Santa Fe daily New Mexican. [volume] (Santa Fe, N.M.) 1885-1897, 1897-05-29
HER LAST DANCE.

HER LAST DANCE.
The bolt had fallen that morning, and
with numb, folded hands and dry, ter
ror filed eyes she sat in the darkest cor.
ner Of her gay little drawing room, be.
meath the CHASTITY chamber whence were
soon to be borne the earthly remains Of
her husband.
What was she to do? How was she to
procure not the luxuries without which
she scarce imagined her child could ex-
list, but the bare necessities Of lifep Ev-
cry piece Of furniture in the house was
mortgaged to its full value and her last
jewel had gone to pay the rent. Thank
Heaven, they could have this haven fol
some time to come! She was in debt to
butcher and baker, and she had not had
new pair Of gloves for months. Shil-
lings had become the basis Of expendi-
ture as guineas had been hitherto.
In the morning sympathizing friends
came to support and assist her through
the trying ordeal. All passed like a
dream. "Tout passe, tout passe," she
said over and over, "but my heart ID
strong"
When, month later, she sat with
Cousin Selma in the same room, in the
same chair, listening again to the gusty
rain as it beat against the windows, it
was to her as if no appreciable time had
interviewed. Dreamily she took up the
thread Of her thoughts where she had
dropped it that sad night, and the
strange conceit came back to her.
Women less brilliant, but stolid and
plodding, were ensconced in journals
where she had disdained even to allow
her verses to appear. With voices in no
way comparable to her, she saw others
succeed, while she, who sang like bird
but like bird, too, only when in
spired-could make no impression. And
so, lowered as she was, she was poorer
and more helpless than the humblest
woman who could conscientiously knit
pair Of stockings or embroider tea
cloth.
The pretty face seemed pinohed and
weary. Two deep lines began to inclose
the dropping mouth. 81 smile en- paren-
these" she said to Cousin Selma as she
turned from the mirror, where she was
trying to change the expression of those
quivering lips, that even at the moment
curved upward, Cupid's bow, at the
quaint conceit.
More surely than ever she knew she
could ask no favors, but must put her
own shoulder to the wheel. But what to
do when all else failed? To dance on the
stagel Why not2 She could dance. All
her life she had loved to dance In her
greatest joy she had ever found fullest
expression in dancing to her own refec-
tions before the long mirror in her bou !.
doir. A hundred times her darling had
been lulled to sleep, eased Of her pain
by the dancing Of her ''pretty mumsie. !"
Once, with her husband, she had seen .
famous actress-a woman chaste as her.
self-dance so gracefully, yet with an
abandon so perfect, as to captivate an au-
dience accustomed to exhibitions from
which she had turned in loathing-to
his annoyance, since his taste grew
yearly less refined. Even then, "the pity
Of 1t, (" she had sighed. And how much
even then was implied that she should
say, turning to him:
"That could do, am certain.
MAY you never need," he had an
swered fervently, for he loved her
and was proud Of her, though his paths
in life were devious, though he would
not follow her. It all came back
to her vividly-the gay scene, the
eager faces, the murmur of delight,
the applause that rose again and again
and could not be staid. Her heart beat
fast. Yes, she would dance. 1t might
cost her the few friends she still pos.
sessed, but as long as she helped herself
she could maintain her pride.
Next day became tiresome round Of
interviews with impatient. incredulous
or impertinent managers, with heart
growing daily heavier and brain sharp
ened almost to viciousness. At last an
impresario, touched by her grace and
the expression Of brave despair in her
hungry eyes, granted her trial, fixing
an hour at the theater on the following
day in the early forenoon. Amid con-
course Of women, some sympathetic,
some brazenly inquisitive, all SO differ
emit from herself that she scarce felt they
were her sisters, she made her first essay.
How unreal 1t seemed-a dream from
which she would waken in momentl
She has kept her glance straight b.
fore her, trying to shut out the crudity
Of her surroundings ~ the "sets" all
awry, the glimpses Of busy carpenters
and scene shifters, the fashily dressed
men and women waiting for rehearsal
and familiarizing in way that gave
her mental nausea. A row Of raw girls
in soiled dancing shoes and feshings,
their upper halves clothed in ordinary
bodices, went awkwardly through their
matutinal drill. The odor Of dust and
oil and paint began to overpower her,
and she was on the verge Of losing her
self possession when the kind voice Of
the manager. close behind her, said:
Your turn, madame. Will you tell
me what music you desirep'' The or.
chestra, composed Of one violin on the
stage, began the swinging accompani-
ment Of LA Paloma, " and at the end,
and while the blood beat and surged in
deafening throbs in her heavy head,
again abe heard the voice Of the mana.
ger, seemingly . great distance. on.