The Jersey City news. (Jersey City [N.J.]) 1889-1906, 1897-12-11

to me, Not TO drink and be good SO |
will try 10 do as you ask me, although
l feel as though / do not care what pc
comes of me now. l nave very rev
make them miserable like myself II l
Il have lost my dear EN-, and I have
| nothing more to look forward to. 1t IS
! useless thinking that L shall forget all
about it after a while. 1 can never forget
my En-, L could never picture another as
| do her; this will only make me have a
! tendency to hate others Gas | do myself
at times1. Just consider my feelings II L
was to meet En- with another or even
hear of it. 1t will about drive me crazy.
/ can't bear the thought of it, Nom. l
was thinking yesterday when | met the
different couples, supposing one OF them
had been my EN-, what should l do? l
don't know what | shall do without her.
/ do not feel like doing any work today,
although I am way behind with my work.
L don't know what shall do in the fu-
ture; [ may go back to England, if I
stay in the same mind I am in low.
Nom, 1 thank you for all you have done
for me. l can never repay you Tor all your
kindness to me. / shall always think of
one of your boys; call me 't~he-Wayward
boy although we may meyer see each
other again. Ask my En- to send me a
copy of my sisters letter, also a copy of
her reply, when she hears from her, so
that I may know what to say when I
write. home; also, Nom, / should like to
have my pin. You will let me have it,
won't you? l want to keep it for my
Ems sake. Kiss En- for me at night be-
fore she goes to sleep. | know she loves
me, and know she will miss her usual
| 'koodly from her sold sauce / wish /
had been different, but God alone knows
that l do not have any badness in my
wrongdoing. I did wrong innocently, and
used to have (you and ], Mom) some hot
i quarrels, but they did not amount to
much, did they? And l hope you will al
ways nave a kind feeling towards me. I
do not deserve it, but you will forgive me,
won't you? Well, l will say goodbye,
Nom. Hope my En- is not worrying. Tell
her I will love her until death. l will al
ways call her mine. 1t is awful to think
we should have to part when we love
each other so much. Goodbye once more.
Don't forget to kiss my EN- for me.
From you broken-hearted and miser-
able Fred"
Two days later Emmerson wrote a let
ter to Miss Schmitt, as follows:-
Dearest Em- must write to you;
won't you forgive me and try to trust
me again? l am thoroughly convinced
that [ can be better and more truth
full to you. Icannot express to you what
/ have been through since last Saturday;
my life has simply been a torture to me.
1t is no use saying that | will soon for
you will die away; 1t is just the re-
verse: it got worse; | am simply miser-
able without you, darling. I did not sleep
more than one and one-half hours last
hight: / cannot work and / am in ar
rears with my work. l shall throw up
my position unless there is a change
comes over me soon. as l cannot bear
the torture much longer. You are half
my life and if / am to lose you, | don't
care il live or not. / never had my
thing cut me SO much before, not even
when 1 heard the news of my dear ia
TIERS death.
"You are all the world to me-, my EN-,
and il makes me feel almost crazy when
/ think you are lost to me. I would love
to have a talk 10 me again? Won't you
grant me this, my dear? Can l not live
in hopes of having you some day.? Can't
we get married this autumn, say in No
vember. l know / can be better. / can
not bear to think otherwise. My pet, ]
love you dearer than my own life and
am broken hearted at the thoughts of
losing you. Emily. do try to trust me
again. Will you grant me to nave a talk
with you. Write to me soon. I ex-
pected to hear from you this A. M. ]
save tried to think it best for us to part,
but l cannot, my EN-. ] must see you. ]
cannot let you go. I love you, and it is
no use my trying to break off now. Let
me see you soon, won't you? i am mis-
cradle, and will be until l see you. Good
bye. my darling pet. With all my love
am,
Your ever loving, but broken hearted,
FIRED
The couple became reconciled while Mrs.
Schmitf WAS on n visit IN the West