Saint Mary's beacon. [volume] (Leonard Town, Md.) 1867-1983, 1897-01-14

my Judge.
Nothing but leaves
The Masters voice falls upon my
heart, and moaning | grope my way
into the darkness.
From that time my pilgrimage
began. | went ut once to the city
Of Philadelphia, feeling that Mural
must be there. / inserted adyer-
tisements in the papers and searched
diligently, but as months passed
without success / moved from place
to place. In New York City I be-
came acquainted with clergyman,
and while continuing nv search de-
voted a great portion Of my time in
working among the poor of his par.
ish, and the only CLEAN of sunshine
which shone through the cloud over
my life came TO me while on these
errands of mercy.
Ii was just at this time that /
met Gen. Outhbert Linsey, who had
shortly before arrived from India
on tonr Of inspection of the Uni
tied States.
| 4 thought that the sorrow Of the
past two years had changed me so
that ! could never again care for
the admiration OF any man, but
from the frat moment looked into
his face life was in some way changed.
He was q man Of about three and
thirty years, tall, rather dark, with
q certain nobility of expression
lighted up what would otherwise
have been rather plain face. His
eyes were large and grey, while the
purity of his soul seemed to shine
from their depths.
What was it in his face that at
tracted me so strangely? What
was it that filled my heart with a
sudden restless longing and stirred
my soul as no other face ever had !?
While my whole being seemed to
rise and cry for love.
The curse is come upon me-
cried the Lady Of Shallott.
All l knew it now, knew as l
stood face to face battling with this
new intoxicating feeling. Iwho had
laughed at love, Knocked it in my
heartlessness, ruined so many lives,
now yielded up my heart to 1t, cry
ing that it was my life. What
right had / with the memory OF my
sin before me to think of love !?
And in the darkness of the night
struggled with it, prayed and
fought against it until l grew weary
with the strife and bowed to its gen.
tie influence, while my whole heart
arose and proclaimed Cuthbert Lin
sey its king.
| / don't know how long it was af
ter, for it seemed as if l was walk
ing in maze and took no note of
time, but as long as life lasts / will
never forget the day he came to me
and asked me TO be his wife.
He loved me; oh the blessed as
surance !! Nothing, ali, nothing,
could ever take it away, and with
this great gift could struggle on
through life.
Marjorie, / want your answer. ,
| l had heard his avowal, and the
sunshine of his love had dazzled
me. / was standing on the thresh-
old of new life, dreaming of the
flower strewn world beyond, but
knew it was only FOOLS paradise
in which was gazing, a1d that soon
the gate would close, and / would
be alone in the darkness. I'm
worthy, oh too unworthy, l cried,
as ! suddenly knelt before him.
He tried to raise me, but l pleaded
to remain.
No, no, let me stay he-e,' I
whispered hoarsely, and l hardly
knew my own voice. Il could not
tell You anywhere else, and you
must know the blackness of my
past
He does not oppose me further,
but places one arm around me and
clasps my hand, which is growing
cold.
In this way / tell him the story Of
my life. All : the ashes of the
dead past. how the smoke from the
dying embers rise to blur the bright
ness of our love.
do not withhold anything from him:
so with me he goes back through the
past, and as finish my recital bow my
head as il awaiting my sentence at the
bar of justice. A moment later he has
raised and pressed me to his heart.
NV poor child. how Won have suffer-