San Antonio daily light. [volume] (San Antonio, Tex.) 1886-1907, 1897-10-10

beryIs, sne went on, speaking in low
tones and with frequent pauses:
II will not try TO make my faults
less than they are. Do you remember q
story which that man told few nights
ago at the dinner table here? Well. the
husband and wife In that story were
Pierre Turrian and myself. You have
asked me often whether there was any
thing in the past that had not told
you. There was--that was Pierre
Turrian's wife. Now you can guess
what l have suffered, and you know the
reason why / fed. +"
pierre Turrian's wifeP' exclaimed
Sir Jaffray, repeating the words over
and over again as though he could not
understand them. pierre Turrian's
wifel His wifep' Then after long
pause he asked, "Did you know this
when"- He did not finish, but she I'M
derstood.
"You heard the story as he told it,
she answered.
"He said you tried to kill him then. l"
"That is true, as true as light" cried
hola vehemently, and Beryl felt her
start and her muscles harden with tenn
per. at was an impulse, coming either
from heaven to free myself from a
devil, or from hell to bind myself closer
than ever to him, know not which,
but acted on it, and never from that
moment till now, when see you shrink
and culver at the thought of it, have
regretted it. will not palliate my act
or belittle 1t, but this may say do
not know that he could possibly have
saved himself had not stamped ON his
fingers, but l did not think of that then.
He had made my life hell, and when
the chance seemed to come in my way
l tried to free myself, and / would do
the same again.
She stopped and looked eagerly across
at Sir Jaffray, hoping to read ON his
face an expression less hard than that
which by her words she seemed to ex-
pect and not to fear.
But he made no sign of any kind, and
she went on:
1.-THE rest you know nowor can guess
nearly, except one thing. will tell
the truth now, the whole of it, and
you shall know the worst of me that
can be known. / thought he was dead,
and when my father died l dropped the
name Of Turrian like hated thing and
came here to England merely as Miss
Crawshay. Then her voice grew harder,
and the note of defiance again was per
ceptible. 81 meant to marry and to mar
ry we'll, and had no wish to be known
as the widow of such a cheat and vii
lain as Pierre Turrian. Then / met you
and resolved that you should marry
me. and married you without loving
you"
The last words came slowly, and when
she had finished she hid her face again,
as though now afraid to meet his look.
"That is the hardest thing you have
said, Lola" said Sir Jaffray. Then TO,
the third time long silence came upon
them all
81 have been woefully punished, T"
said Lola in low, half moaning voice
of infinite sadness. "Out of both my
faults have come the means to punish
them. The man who was dead lived to
stamp out the light of my life. The love
had never felt woke to make my pun
ishment greater than / could bear II
had never loved you, Jaffray, could
have faced without finching all that
that man could do or threaten, but when
he had the power to put out the lighted
love which had thought would never
be kindled / was desolate. He came and
forced himself upon me, and dared not
defy him utterly. dared not tell you,
because it meant-I must lose you, Jaf-
fray. In a moment of madness and
thinking I could play desperate game
with safety tried to hold him at bay
and yet to keep your love for myself,
| but it was useless Some one else had
learned the truth-Beryl here, and ii
came near costing her her life, for that
evil, reckless man sought to take it even
in this house. But, like woman feel
ing for woman's grief. Beryl tried to
make the trouble as light for me as ii
could be. Heaven knows how have
thanked you for that and for all, BerylP
cried Lola, breaking off moment to
kiss the girl at her side
"But there was no hope Of escape, "
she resumed. Failing in his attempt
to kill Beryl, the mailman came to me
with plan to kill you, Jaffray, and
but you remember the scene that morn
ing which you interrupted. / knew then
that every door of hope was shut against
me, and when he had gone went up to
my room and tried to think out the best
course. Do you know what determined
me? Can you guess2"
She paused just an instant and looked
at him as If hoping that he could read
her thoughts, but before he had time to
| answer she continued:
"No, you will not guess after what l
have said and what has happened. i
wanted to find some way out of the
| trouble which would have left some OF
your love for me remaining. / thought
to kill myself, but knew that then the