The Saint Paul globe. (St. Paul, Minn.) 1896-1905, 1897-05-02

ecl1sness within me. In a Word ac-
cepted the honor done me with such
exa ggerated and high-fown expressions
as should have aroused in him sus-
picion as to their genuineness, and a
| foreboding of my possession OF nlstfl-
| onic gifts.
We were married some three months
later. during which interval my l,husl-
asm, kept alive by the f1atteli4.g fegaro
and interest bestowed upon me by the
Sheraton folk, and fed by the unusual
excitement consequent upon the modest
| preparations for my wedding, COZ tlnuSo
| to burn Scarcely a month had passed.
| after the marriage ceremony was per-
| formed when it was a handlul ol ashes
| in my grasp.
| have no intention of giving to the
drearv interval which dragged itself
out between my capture an enIrancHise-
ment. It makes my heart sick with
pity, not for myself, gay butterfly
of an enchanted realm, am surely noun
| ing akin to that poor grub-but for
| that wretched. miserable, desolate little
| orthodox housewife, eating her heart
ont for want of palatable food; striking,
| in impotent effort, the wings OF her
| moor iil-comprehendsd artistic longings
against the blank walls of her environ
ment.
and when my baby came it was no
| better She was a sickly, puny IN
| FAINT. whose birth awakened no mater
nal instinct within me. Perhaps, had
| she been beautiful and attractive, thus
making appeal to those sensibiities
which so strongly lead my nature, l
| might have held her in different es-
TEEN. Nature forbade the first, and
my husband, who had grown dlstrust,
! full Of me in all ways since L had
I ,,,oar;ad in snirit,lal well-dOing pro-
hibited the last.
The child fretted if I took her, and
| her cries were like physical pain to
| me. She was ever aihng, and l, en-
| dowed with the vitality of strong
| and healthy woman, and no personal
knowledge of suffering to AWAKEN my
| sympathy for her pangs. And Sc
| things went on, drearily, monotonous-
| ly. hopelessly for me, until had been
| thirteen months wife and three
! months a mother.
Then Fate turned over a new leaf in
| my book of life. 33l
The Women's Relief Corps Of Sher-
atom did me the honor of requesting
me to go to New York; to select a new
piano for their organization. l had
| some local fame as a musician, and
occupied the post of organist IN my
| husbands church, and SO they chose
| me to represent them. Shall 1 ever
| forget uQ6 leuSCu VI Ildt twenty -loAA
| hours which Mr.. Mavis required to con-
slider the question Of my going? l
went nearly mad between hope and
| fear. It seemed to me too improbable
for realization, the prospect of actual
| Nv beholding that Ell Dorado of my
! dreams.
And the hour when learnt that my
husband had yielded-that, in consid-
GRAFTON of the fact that I was to be es-
corted by Deacon Rogers, who was
| iourneying to the metropolis on some
business of his own, was to be allow
| ed to accomplish my dearest wish
shall 1 ever forget the joy, the elation
Of that moment? Until the instant Of
departure came was in a condition
of constant apprehension. Something
would occur, I felt sure, to prevent the
Journey. 1t would occupy about twelve
hours. Leaving Sheraton at in the
| morning, we should reach New York at
! about IL Returning, we should ar
rive in Sheraton a little after in the
| evening.
1t was arranged the day before that
! I was to meet the deacon at the sta
| ton a few minutes before the hour Of
| starting, and it was my husbands in
| tention to accompany me thither. and
| place me in charge of my guide and
| protector AS it happened, howevr, Mr..
/ Mayis was sent for at daybreak to at
4 tend a dying parishoner, and, with
many final injunctions and adjura-
! lions to me, he left the parsonage as
/ surfing me that he should make every
! effort to return in timefto see me off.
Here was the first gratuity offered
/ me by fate that lucky day. For I
still, and always shall, maintain that
1.-THE day turned my back forever on