The weekly Thibodaux sentinel and journal of the 8th Senatorial District. [volume] (Thibodaux, Lna. [i.e. La.]) 1875-1898, 1895-07-20

to the playground. aharGcr SNOWFALL hit
me on the head. so that [ fell down IN
conscious. A few minutes after, when l
again came to nnysclf. Twas sitting upon
Il chair i'll the porter's room, and both
ladies, the mother and sister OF my
friend, stood near and regarded me any
'uusly.
The next morning she caused inquiry
to be made after my health through
Jacques, and Oh the following Sunday
I called upon her. I spoke no word. |
vcnturcd scarcely TO raise NY eyes. but
I would willingly have thrown myself a
thousand times into fire or water to
again draw upou ae the selieitous glance
Of the beautiful maiden.
"In the evening invented for myself
the most marvellous hCIole deeds Wilelt-
with l would fam have aroused her us
constituent aud compelled her admira-
tion. Anything else | neither desired
nor expected. The UNCONSCIOUS dawn of
love III the heart Of youth belongs with
its peculiarities only to pure childhood.
The young heart is toolishly happy i'll
sacrifice, quietly content and blildly
conceited ard vain. 1t cannot yet love,
it needs but to be loved and admired; to
bcstow happiness is not Its object, and
the only joy 1t knows is q blissful IN
rest; its only need. to receive love with
cut ~bcstoWin. it. III after years one
! gives without receiving and is very we'll
off with that. so everything III the
! world is arranged i'll tie best man"cr
where there are people who find their
JOY i'll giving, and others who are hap
picst i'll receiving.
But how short and sweet is the one
time when Il gives and receives, When
ono loves and is beloved. | have known
ii. bat she who then made ne SO mex
possibly harry has 100 left me-. How
beautiful was the world When l SAW il
with her; how blue the heaven; now
soft the air, We hastened, hand in hand.
from place to place, and wherever we
Went, ~laughingly joy stepped forth to
greet US, begging Us to linser. We Went
laughing, singing, rejoicing along, as
sured OF u good fortune everywhere.
Sometimes our riotous delight, over
stepping all bounds, startled sober peo-
! pie. But the stern glance softened when
it rested upon us: They are young.
Let them enjoy themselves. said the
old, and went along sorrawfully smil-
ing. She chung SO tightly to my arm,
she nestled so closely to my side, that
l thought l could ncver lose her. The
idea of a possible change never came to
me, never troubled me. Thus 1 lived d
long time. Weeks, months. years flew
by, and 1 needed them not.
Zone evening, after we had spent the
day yet more madly and merrily than
usual, she suddenly appeared to me dis
contented and cold. A terrible fear
which | am not able to describe fell
upon me. An icy GOODNESS crept over me.
J She will leave you,' said l to myself,
certainly, surely, she will leave you
1t occurred to me how little l had really
concerned myself about her, how I per-
haEs had expected too much of her truth
and conStancy. For the first time l felt
my trust in myself and i'll her waver,
and anNiously 1 gazed into her eyes.
But her glance turned YEARLY from me
and gave ne no answer.
My rest was gone, my life DC more
the same. 1t is true she still pressed me
i~mpetuously to her bosom again and
again, but the sweetness of her Kiss had
vanished. Often she pushed me coldly
away, and l saw TO my unutterable sor-
row that my love Wearied her. And
when l once at q later hour returned
home, tired and detected, I found the
room dark, cold and empty. She, my
JOY, my light, my all, had vanished.
"Now began a miserable existence for
me. The loss that l had suffered gnawed
at my heart. but my care was to conceal
this loss from the world. I en9eayored
to show a cheerful, happy eountenance.
| sought the society Of gay young pee-
pie, I bestowed great and hitherto un-
known and ridiculed care upon my per
son and toilet. Ny enemies said Of me
that l had for a long time rouged in or
der to hide the p~aleness OF my cheeks.
That is not true. but | MAJ as we'll con-
fess that ! bought a little flask Of newly
| invented tincture that was to restore tie
color Of yoath to my Whitening hair.
This hypocritical farce did not long
continue. | was soon tired of the strife,
and today the opinion Of the world t-ou-
bles lie 40 more. know that my aar-
ling has left me; that nothing viii
bring her back, and every Il who knows
me may perceive and recognize IN my ap-
pearance tie loss which | suffered. Eat
| ever lament the lost one. She is want
ing everywhere. Nothing, nothing can
take her place to me, and I would will
ingly give everything 1 possess and ey-