Blackfoot news. (Blackfoot, Idaho) 1891-1902, 1895-08-24

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usr your skirt, catching my satyr eye
upon them. This is only sIilv de-
lall, but / mean by it, had 10 atav
away those three days for which vo1,
Ieproach me. Send me some word /
are you angry with met win you
eE1r speak TO me againf Or are you
oniy disappointed with me, which
w1uia pe worse! Or do you'll can't
heip II, must write II, and for Gods
sake answer lido you love me?
Jack.
November %, 1S94.-Dear Jack. No
am not angry with you, and / win
speak TO you the next time Won rive
me a sane chance-and--I don't love
you. (Here there is something
ScEatehea out, which by holding to the
light one can read) l will confess
.hht II We're not--(there the sentence
was broken and the pen run across
several times; the letter continues)
thlhk now I've answered your
principal questions, and will tell
you JUST what happened when | re-
celVed your letter. First - Dick
Drought Il 70 me. young Dick, | mean,
TOUR years old to-day dldu't you Just
little forget him? oh" said. as |
TOOK the envelope, here's letter
from Uncle Dickg
Now wen know what's become of
him all this time" Bully Uncle
JACK" answered Dick. II think the
adjective was one Of your many pres
ents TO him. How about that
UncleF Do you want 10 throw away
an light 70 that adopted title: And
don't you want 10 keep the adjective.
too. TIL you're an old man, and
Dickie's your 'ge now! Well. | opened
the letter 10 read IL. but before / had
hnlshed some one came into the room.
and for the first time IL my life I had
q letter In my hands ] was ashamed
OF and wished 10 hide. AS soon as /
WAS alone ! read Ii over again. and
tried 70 laugh and think Il was a Joke.
and almost looked for a calendar TO
see u u wasn't somehow or other the
hrst OF April. Then l had n Gun Of
tea. sent word that was 10 be denied
70 everybody, and read your letter for
the third time. Then | did laugh hon
estiy, but cried, too. and having i'm
shed with a satisfactory fit Of hyster-
les felt better, and cleared out and
arranged my dressing table drawers.
lhen ! began 10 answer YOU. and this
= the sixth letter I've started 10 write.
don't know IL ! shall send this or
not which Is silly for me 10 say, for
u course II you don't get II you'll
know didn't
The trouble is, every one OF the I've
'thers was lie, and this begins with
lie. too, and now I'm going TO take
{ back. ! can't help what I've al
'eady written, I'm going to tell you
he truth now.
Jack, ] do love you. But don't stop
iere: be sure you finish this letter
fes,I do love you, God help met mot
Tod forgive me. I don't ask him 10
orgive me. He knows that haven't
.rown 10 love you Of my own accord,
hat It's been in spite OF myself. that
We tried with all my strength OF will
ot TO love you. How is Ii. ! wonder,
hat the only thing the mind can't
ontrol is the heart It's true; you see
vldences Of II all about you. Your
est friend turns around and marrles
he man that bored her TO death I'm
he beginning and. oh, dcar-may
gain In the endl
But 20 90 back, or rather 20 70 on
18th what ! have 10 write. When
ticks father so far forgot his boy
nd me as 10 start a second home he
illed my love FOR him. which had be.
ore this filed every nook and crevice
my heart Dead. how that love
nriVeled up into nothing and as time
assed on, making everything worse
lstead of better ! put the withered
lrpse out Of my heart and swept the
lace and closed II, and vowed would
crp II empty aud clean. Ii isn't
mpty any longer. but you must help 4
e keep II clean. Jack. dear Jack. do /
lu know what II Is FOR a wnman--a q
Junr woman who knows what love
who has had Il and lost il. and has Il
.cmed to be living only under mid $
ght sun ever since suddenly to find -
'rsclf warmed. inspired, gloritied I'M Il
r the rays of golden MONDAY; all, 4
it'll this knowledge that her ideal "
III exists. II she cant attain Il that
e can be loved. is loved. as she can n
vc, does love I'm rcturnY Al I can n
Y is, the JOY is SO great II IS worth
airing all the pain, the pain that c
ust follow. Think OF the loneliness g
unloyed wives Tor the love Of n
Isband and wife is the most precious q
Ing in life, II is the only thing that al
kes precedence of all others; Il II
the emperor. Children leave father -
d mother. when their little fingers ri
nw big enough for the golden circle;
Il so you see that while just now
ckie Is TO me the greatest comfort
d JOY, / cannot honestly say he fills
e empty space in my heart, made for
other love than his. In a few short 9,
AIRS he, too, win find tho same empty
Of in his own heart and I'LL IL with
ne good woman's love- hope. And
IN what a loneliness for me!
d yet somehow II is largely the boy m
II keeps me-that and myself. For =
spite OF all this loneliness (Which | -
lbt sometimes II many men could GU
aglne) which affects me. ! couldn't w
away with YOU know ma
tut not trusting wholly 10 my emo Tor
MS, | should always, all my life. be w
lamed &C
Tut not trusting wholly to my emo an
MS. I have reasoned Il out. have he
en- up an old visiting list. and I'M
re is Mrs. N. the first name CHI
sscd out. She did It. Four years I'M
}. She spends all her time travel he
a. a.. II