The midland journal. (Rising Sun, Md.) 1885-1947, 1894-08-10
OMAHA, NEB., May list, 1894


1 make the following statement, to be read
either at my funeral of for publication after my
death, feeling at this date that have but short
time to live, and wishing to disabuse the minds OF
some former friends whose good opinion / wish to
retain, and who have reason to believe are not
disposed to give me credit for honesty of purpose
in many of my transactions, altho' they have
known me the greater part of my life; but there
are some whose good opinion do not seek, nor
care for.
My life has been checkered one, and l have
met with misfortune at every turn, having no
practical business turn and hence entirely untitled
either for any kind Of business enterprise, or for
the possession of property of any kind, as it has
always subjected me to the annoyance and i'm
pOrtunity of people, who for the most part turned
out to be unworthy of assistance; yet they so
worked upon my sympathies by their piteous
appeals, as to induce me to aid them either in
money or by obtaining my endorsement, and
while 1 refused the majority of such applicants,
those who were the recipients of my favors
proved in most instances to be unworthy of help,
and when would rebuke them for their lack OF
good fai tn and common honesty, which 1 was
often impelled to do, they would consider that a
sufficient cause for ceasing to use any further
eHOrl 10 repdy anu " Jhotils "
show their ingrattude by abusing me when
opportunity offered.
lived the greater portion of my life in Rising
Sun, where with the best intentions in the world,
strove to live at peace with my neighbors, and
to obtain an honesl living, and had 1 been let
alone, would have been still living there to-day
in the enjoyment of means for so doing, COM
fortably as well as enjoying the confidence of my
friends and neighbors.
During my married life 1 have lived econom-
ically and as peaceably as most families, and my
misfortunes are certainly not due to extravagant
or improvident living. 1 never had any ambition
for notoriety or for making any undue display,
but owing to the embarrassments that have at
tended my business career, have, much to my
jected to notoriety that has caused me untold
misery, and which has been scarcely equalled in
the punishment have endured, by the tortures
of the damned and after all, if am to be finally
doomed for my sins in the world, my fate will be
hard indeed, and it would have been better had
| l never been born.
| realize that life has been complete failure
with me, as l seldom had the courage to resist
the appeals of unworthy people, and it is surpris-
| ing how many there are in the world. Many who
have victimized me ''have paid the debt OF
Il
nature" claim they could not avoid. But there
are many still living, whose consciences I trust
may yet be aroused and brought to a sense OF
justice before it is too late and made to feel it
| their duty to repay me.
My losses which at three score and ten have
reduced me to poverty are due
| LIST. To assistance as aforesaid TO unworthy
| people and ungrateful ones.
2nd To bad management in the transaction OF
business, always involving loss.
| SID To the possession of property which | was
untitled to manage
4th. To the elements in 1888 and "a, which
caused the loss of thousands.
9Th. To an unjust and infamous suit at law
which for rascality and lying was never equaled
in any court of justice.
| But now, on the verge of dissolution, l forgive
| them all, as l hope to be forgiven.
JOB HAINEs.