The pioneer express. [volume] (Pembina, Dakota [N.D.]) 1883-1928, 1894-01-05
CHAPTER NJ.

CHAPTER NJ.
We have all experienced the on
traOrlinary transformation which our
yesterdays actions occasionally undergo
when viewed by the light OF next
morning." The color Is I'LL different
and even the outlines seem changed!
Now. 10 such transformations Mrs.
Jacks actions-being usually performed
under the influence of quick emotions
were peculiarly subject.
The letter which she had dispatched
to Mrs. Boddington did not appear
nearly So wise II document when con-
SiderM by the cool light of morning
as she had thought il in the full tide of
her angry feeling OH the preceding
night P"pSy's ioy-cXprcssed with So
briefly. for Iopsy had IL great deal Of
solid Srlf-posSrssiom-wlcn she found
mamma was not going out to teach that
day. hut would stay with her own. own
little girl. as Mrs. Jack assured her with
hug, scarcely raised an answering
smile on her mothers face. Popsy
needed other things even more than
mammals society and assistance in the
adornmcnt of an oil battered wooden
doll. which underwent Il great deal of
boots and Observation-Disclosures consider
able quantity of the lattcr-;lntl Il new
hat. and Il warmer little cloak for the
autumn weather. And Mrs. Jack began
to reflect with dismay that She had
rerk"nel upon getting many of these
things with that quarters salary.
She looked sadly ut the receipt for
the. price of her advertisement in the
Codlington Chronicle. Mrs. Botldiny-
tons was the only application she had
ever had i'll consequence of it. No one
else had taken any notice of it. and at
length. oil Barncy's advice, she had
withdrawn 1t in despair 1t was clear
that Collington people We're determined
not to employ her. Painfully she went
over the accounts for the third or
fourth time since sending the note to
Mrs. Boddingpn; toiling up and down
the weary columns Of figures until she
felt tired from head TO foot, as If she
had been literally walking on a dreary
road. She dreaded getting into debt
again. And vet it became apparent
that she would not have the where.
withal TO live OH to the end of the
year. paying ready money for every.
thing.
Il suppose that they are right at
l'ercival House. and that l am an idiot
who does not understand how to man.
age my INCOME" she said, leaning both
her elbows Oh the table and pressing
her soft round checks OH the knuckles
OF her clencllrd hands. She wondered
What this mysterious art of managing
really was. and wished that she could
learn it. And then the self-accusinr
thought came dimiy into her mind that
managing probably meant simply doing
without many things ono would like Ia
have, either for ones self or for 9th.
ers. For herself. Mrs. Jack continually
made the sacrifice Of pleasures and pref.
tlness which she was thoroughly Gllali.
fled to enjoy. But. for Popsy. she was
conscious of being guilty OF culpable
weakness. There was one sacrifice
which she had been advised to make.
and which she had hitherto refused
OH her child's account. But now she
began seriously to contemplate it. She
feared she must get rid of Bi,ldy. Now
that she had no occupation to take her
abrOal--:.n,l. alas! thee was no chance
OF her having such occupation any more
there was no real reason why she
should not wash and dress her OWL
child. and take her out to walk in the
fields. us Bildy had done. Well-Biddy
must go. She would easily find a better
place. II not kinder mistress. And
the tears dropped fast from Mrs. Jacks
eyes. AMI ti.icklal down over the knuck.
les with which she was mdcnting her
soft face.
hut it must not be supposed that the
tears were all for Biddy. b.,..y was
Il faithful, kind-hearted girl, and Mrs
Jack WAS grirved ut the thought OF
parting with her: yet the tears were
not all for Bitl(y. neither were they
all shed Oh account Of her money
troubles. These oppressed her, hut she
had Il blOyant temperament. and that
kind of hnpcfulness which belongs t.
youth, AMI which springs from inabil
ity to realize the fact that imisfOrtunps
which crush down others will truly and
absolutely crush us with lealen I'M
partiality. Just as in childhood it Il
difficult to believe that we also
must surely die. No; the tears swelled
up from 81 deeper spring of feeling than
either of these.
Il suppose shall never see him any
more" murmurtql Mrs. Jack to herself
and who knows what stories may bt
told him about me: should have liked
to see him once more. Just to say good
by and to thank him for all his Kind
hess. He WAS very kind and good t.
poor. silly. inexperienced me- And
the open palms covered the pretty
chiltl-likc face. and Mrs. Jack sobbct
outright.
Miss BarllascOni was greatly surprised
OH returning home In the middle Of til.
day 10 hear from her landlltly tina,
Mrs Jack had not been out to give llcl
lesson that day. AMI that, moreover, II
was the opinion of Mrs. Petherick, Il
~, that Mrs. Jack had lost her slider
watiOn.''
Lard, love 'ce." wheezed out tho
kind-helrted creature. II was afearet
1t wouldn't answer. her going gov'ness
ing. You know what thinks, Miss
Barnyscony-a good husband to take
care of her and Il nice house and hel
own pony carriage; that's the silerwa
tion for Mrs. Jack to hold; and wei
She would become it,"
Miss BarnascOni pOndcred over THU
news as she sat drinking her cup OF
tea In the little parlor. II hope til,
poor child hasn't lost the situation
thought she; unless. indeed. Blu
goodness me! ! hope she hasn't quarrel
ell with him in her hOt-heatled way
However, she il sure to come and tel