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Recent discoveries have deueh7tra sed l4 ii ,I.ag organs of the body ar3 ana At i-ia con t.4I og the nerve ceHteYs located li ta- hem tlf base of the brain and tha5 when ttt. =ta IF; .tertnEt.# the or ruu3 which they sIPp NttA nerve iufdiir also derangea. Mh@1 IL F IL. .tttaiIer5d that u saaaus injury to te 55tz'i ts id Will caaSe paralysis Of the boIY ptf '.' tae Injured point, because he neffe tor''e l. prevented by tho injury from reaSA!hS III : 6ardivzed portion it will be understood hoy Ae tf5raugement Of the nerve centets Ht!I elt5e the derangement of the various organs 5saieh they supply with nerve force,
 TWO-thrds of chronic diseases are dttt u Eiie imperfect action of the nerve ceItteEa Ut che Dase Of fhe brain, not from 4 uefl4i=.iz meat primarily originating iii the organ ltz self. The great mistake or physiclans 1T treating these diseases Is that they treat lhe organ rather than the nerve eenters whiea are the cause of the trouble.
 DR FRANKLIN MILES the celebrated sp5- .tiati,t has profoundly studied this subject Tor over D years, and has made many Important discoveries in connection with IL, Chiet among
 lem being the facts contained Ill the a3of : sHatement and that the ordinary metho4s U treatment are wrong. All headache, ulzll- ness dullness, confusion, pressure, htUe ;, mania, melancholy, insanity, epilepsy St' Nitus dance etc, are nervous diseases h9 matter how caused. The wonderful sueceSe or Br Niles Restorative HerVinC is due to tile fact thatit is based on the foregoing puaeiPle
 DR NILES RESTORATIVE NERYfNE 1s sold by all druggists on q positive guarantee, or sent direct by DR. MILES MEDICAL Go, Elkhert Ind. on receipt of price, Sl per bottle sls bottles for S. express prepaid. IL contains neither opiates nor dangerous drugs.
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4-EO-U-AL-12.

fe. Foar weeks by oar method of teaehs ing book-keepjag is equal To twelve weeks by the old style. Positions guaranteed under certain conditions. Best pnlionized Blis- ness College m the South; 4d students in at tendance tine East year, Eleven teacheI.z Nashville is the educational center of the South. Cheap board No vacation Enter any lime. Home study. We have recently pre pared hooks on Book keeping, Shorthand all Penmauship especially adaptable 10 hoht study Nothing like them eyer issued before. Sent on G9 days trial Chr nee illustrated -6=page catal09He N Ill explain alt Send tt= it now. DRATGR0N's PRACTICAL BCsf&E>z COLLEGE AND SGH00L a@s SHaRI5ANp ANH IETEGRAPH1 Sash5 He. Tenn.
 \. B.-We pay 95 caSh For ali Vaeaneie> f= book keepers, stcuographefs. teachers, rts.# reported 10 us, proVide1 We fli the sane.
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FOR CONGRESS.

We are authorized to announce C. H. BRECKINRIDGE of Jefferson County, as q candidate for the Fifty-foufth Congress from the Second Arkansas Congressional District subject to the action af the Democratic Nom mating Convention.
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ARKANSAS Industrial University. For Both Sexes Next Session Begins March d. and Ends Dee. $. 1894.
Winter Vacation.

One of the leading Universities of the south west Graduates fill high positions in various States. Literary Scientificic Engineering, MeehanicaE Agricultural and Normal Depart ments in the three Colleges at Fay etteVille. Law and Medical Depart ments at Little Rock. Normal and Mechanical College for colored stu dents al Pine Bluff. Twenty-thrce courses of study. Equipped with modern apparatus and appliances.
 Large attendance. MatricnlatioH Fee, $5 Tuition free t0 Arkansas young meu and women. Students from other States pay only Sl0 a year for tuition Board for boYs in the p6rHitory at cost. S7.50t3 k 10 per month. Board in private fami lies, sNj9 tu Sl5 perm0Hth. Arkansas students should receive appointments from tleh County Judge
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Nor beng personally acquainted
Pine Bluff daily graphic., 1894-06-04

ally it Il U N L that the seal of life l. #Ha iesiin tht up perpart of ths spinal 70 | l near ti3e bf3-, ] Of the bra in and SD sr1sE tive iS { hi s pOrtiouCf IL nervous SN
 tem that tCS
 tBc pFi ,ff 2 needle 5 cause ElzA death.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

The Hill Republican Club OF the First
ward held an interesting meeting last
night in the club rooms al the corner az
Main ani South Twelfth streets and
speeches were made hv Byron Pheins
Frank L. Lewis, MAJ Schrack, William
+ Hum phFey and 2. II. Rswson. When
NJ. Phelps entered the hall be was en-.
thussas;ic ally cheered and the club showed
Itself a uoii Tor the Republican ticket
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

The First Precinct Republican Club Of
the FIRST ward viii ho,d is meeting on
South Ihir. street.. between Main and
Washington, Saturday, March 3. isst. 3.
so g. III. short addresses will he malta
~ the iol.os'ne speakers: Franz z.
lewis Col !. n. MeCutcheon. T. c.
MaFuia, Mr.. ne BrGler, r Q. Eoba ms.
x. MKsRgrr. Pres.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

A statement IN yesterdays Press Times
rejecting on =. Weinhagen. owner OF the
Seattle Demokrat, is denounced by that gen.
iIeman as false throughout. The Press
Times quotes somebody at Democratic
headquarters as saying that Wenhagen
had offered his columns TO Dnrie, but
could not arrange terms. and that Durie
has letters from Weinhasen in which he
offers for 8 consideration TO turn over q
big portion Of the German vote The
committee also said that Weinhacen
claimed 20 have an offer oil $I25 10 support
the Republican ticket, blt offered to sup
mort Durie for the same sum, that, this
offer being refused, he returned to the
Posr-iSrELLrGEscER Office where a letter
addressed 10 the Germans was prepared,
taken by Weinhagea 10 his office. trans
lated into German and published in his
paper. This is what Mr.. Weinhagen says
OF this tissue of fsisehoods:
II never received any offer from the Re-
publicans. nor did l make any offer 20
Dnrie. Before the convention | Vas in
ciiued TO support the Democratic ticket.
but after the insulting treatment the Ger.
mans received there, could not think @,
it. / think well of Dure myself. but i
cannot support HIM " hen he has the co..
4has crown Ncfh&uE iog httb. itufie has 20
letters from me and never offered to sell
the German vote Any man would be
fool who tried to sell 1t. Tor he canno. sell
II. | made no representations to uurIe
and therefore no offer from me could have
been refused by him. did not return to
the fosr-lSTELIIGESCEg office, for this is
the irSt time ] have bean in the Posr-IS-
TELLIGEscgg oftice. the address to the
German people published in nay paper Was
not taken nv me from there 70 nv office
and there translated into German, for IL
vas originally written ia German BY an
other man. The whole story is mass OF
lies
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

People appvec ate the bargains offered
them =; the Popular shoe House. ,0lo
Front street., b~INren Madison and Snrinv
and tue sfore IS crowded With purchases
To-Day special Inducements silI De riye.
in ihe various l.ars Of shoes. ana ,e,,.i.
are invited 10 cal Shether they buy or
not ihe s'ere - ovsrsiocked With large
s'@S1 haeo Shoes, especially xes N and
"a a''S these "st ee Sold Al half price.
so'1 oas~sFala working shoe, teil.w.
tongue, @a5ernroet. viii be offered today
s~g -. IN Sases 20 and "a. Ihis Is A chance
ior lafEe-s'xei tueR's fees o. for nea VIA
large understanding.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

A vote for Mr.. Durie IS vote for me. -
). VI. VOTES speech at the pemoeratl,
city convention.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

In the report of the meeting of
the Coiored Mems League in YES
terday's observation-disclosures the first
paragraph Of tbe preamble 10 the
resolutions should not have been included
Is having been adopted. The resolutions
were introduced by DR.. :. ]. Burdette
without The clause in the preamble in
question. ana the last resolution moved by
pr. +. f. Markell vas added 10 them and
the whole adopted as amended.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

The latest move on the part of Wolfe
and Heifner IN the Ninth ward is an offer
on their part to trade of Mr.. Murphy, the
Democratic candidate for delegate TO the
city council. with the Ponulis,s for their
vote in support of Stocks for alderman.
they agreeing 10 support Liyesley, the
Populist candidate for delegate, but il
seems that neither Mr.. Murphy nor his
friends. nor the Populists took kindly to
this offer. The Porulists viii stand by
their own candidates.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

To restore gray hair 10 It's natural color
as n youth, cause IL 10 grow abundant
and strong. there is nc better preparation
than Halls Hair Reneser
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

Keys fitted and guu repairing; all work
guaranteed. Hardy & Hal. Pioneer BLOCK.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03

II tie Old Ean uses tatacro tbs. drives you
rnaa, stop IL Try cooIes Laws d 4 Queen
at - cents a poau3.
The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1894-03-03
Exsaperiutenden, Water Department.

That's very Transparent. trick that
Collins gang IS trying 20 work on the
italiaR-AmeriCans 81 Seattle. aaId Peter
,hsosto. the ssll known representative
Italian IN this otty last evening. pointing
10 an alleged card published IN yesterdays
gelcfrapA and signed By Franz RoT7oue.
secretary" and r. BsiOcchlo, vice presi-
dent" lie continued
That card was written in the offSce If
the SpeT. Tor eoa'i believe either one Of
ta0se Hen can ever read or eFite. TIE
tisn a false from first To last and rlsre.y
rAeitshsG Yesterday 20 tsv apA Offset the
cAA nsssie Tor a meeting 81 the Republican
Italian American elUh which has always
sSis'sa And q hlch haS Aissys embraced al
tae Italians. aeFe, IL sau't woxk. aoa-
ever. i'f the ltAlsAas Ia Seattle have al.
says heeu Republicans and. Considering
ts8S sasosy treatment metei oQt 20 Ihem
of R@s ftrseat sotSsB administration, ~ -
BOZ ia x sa9EsAset taAi thew aill aos tgrG
ana isSe TIRE hana shas refused 30 reccg-
hife tbS'n q esn tbey Anted sork
~ = ue{s- kaS~a tact tfaNs the rrevf-
Gus "sP@i-tcaG standardization aiways
Fseosa's~i sae ,.ecds ~ shs Italian fshs,rer
ta Seattle, sna az tae Nay s5osn saxtv "a
sSaiY acre employed ~ &1s c.tv. Nntie
- IS S4caLty notorious iacs that .hr
ffuseat saas OF hssss4icrs hare reused To
give sogs 10 al .saalag~. sns calv re-
The evening world. [volume] (New York, N.Y.) 1887-1931, 1894-08-29
OFF WITH FULL sTEERAGEs.
To-Day's Liners Garry Cheap
Passengers for Europe.
c. Emory Smith and Rev. J. w.
Scuddcr In the New YorIs's Cabin.

Among Che prominent persons on the
steamship New York, which sailed to-
day, was Charles Emory Smith, OF
Philadelphia. Mr.. Smith was Minister
to st. Petersburg under the Harrison
Administration. He goes over to Eu-
rope on pleasure, and not on any Do
litical mission.
Another passenger ON the American
liner Is MIR. II. Stump, Chief Commits
sioner of the immigration Bureau at
Washington. Mr.. stump said that he
was going on vacation OF four weeks.
and not on business for the Govern
ment
The New York carries $50 steerage pas
sengers. The Britannia of the White
Star and the Noordland of the Red Star
lines also sailed to-day with their steer
ages fll.ed to the utmost capacity. On
the New York cabin list there was also
as passengers Samuel Il. Morse, United
James Smith. Of New Jersey; Andrew ].
Onderdonk, of Chicago; Rev. !. NJ. Scud-
der. OF Jersey City; A. =. Sturgis, Mrs.
G. j. Wheelock, the Rev. +. b. Meyer,
DR.. George Frothingham, w. A. Duns--
DR.. Wilmington Lowe.
In the cabin Of the Britannia, among
others, were c. II. Benedict, Thomas
Chester, DR.. A. w. Holmes, J. v. lie
Moyne, G. f.. Lanford William Hall,
ers and DR.. J. Stewart Doubleday.
The Noordland's passengers included
Cecil Burleigh. DR.. Julius Ullman, w. @.
Fisher, G. J. Osborn, Rev. W. w. Bel
linger, G. NJ and Mrs. Stratton, W. r.
Spalding, f, Rosenbaum and c. H..
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as Furman CROSSED the gangplank, the
Major stretched his hand cordially. He
was man who had long since feted
msn eyes Of he those ee
In which apathy Is screen to keenest
vigilance. and his chin had the tenacity
Of rock. In stature he was short and
slim. and his complexion below the eye
brows was burned to a swarthy copper
ish yellow.
His greeting to the young man was
cordial, and, guided by his, host, Fur
them; then after a brisk drive along
sandy road bordered by ricefields, now
by orchards and fields of waving cane,
at last, in a grove Of giant cottonwood,
dwelling. quaint and roomy. with wide
sides. In the lower gallery. fac
ing the front of the mansion,
rugs dotted the iioor and many dainfily
shaped willow chairs stood about. II
seemed an ideal place, in which TO
lounge away the heated hours of the
Summer morning, and many traces of
feminine occupancy lay about. A gay
colored sun hat hung by it's strings to
the back OF one chair, and ribbon-be-
decked banjo shared the hammock with
mense size. But Furman caught no
glimpse OF the feminine occupants OF
the Majors pleasant home until an hour
later, when, with his host, he awaited
dinner on the piazza.
Presently down the broad, shallow
staircase came the tinkle OF light feet
and the light frou-frou of silken drapery,
The Major rose from his chair. my
future wife" he announced In an aside.
Mrs. Page" he continued, this is Mr.
Everard Furman."
She was woman such as only the
South and such conditions as exist there
could produce-one whom II would be
proper to describe as queenly We're II
moi that queens are mostly dowdy. She
lust lacked being tall and her hair wes
Of that hue of Citron which Is noticeable
in very young children; II Tas ARA nrrahg iea
in fashion we have copied rom NE
American. features that the years would
remould with a coarser thumb, but when
as vet preserved the suavity OF u pastel.
one OWNED that her limbs We're sIen-
der, yet strong and supple She held her-
self with a grace OF her own, hair gra-
ciaus half languid; on her cheeks was
a fiush; her mouth seemed 70 promise
more than mortal mouth eouia giVs'
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think of the ladies of the bursa,., =,
THE Victoria Cruss?'' sa'e" u


The living pictures displayed at Ijbrlo.s
startling for or the hou ps,rS %sre little TO
lishment. SO Melville and stetson' sbs
eiever singing team. sang a song on Tho
ssuiplect to the air of Gould Do with n
verse: NIT i'eres
On ahf iit Pistp sf: will you please put on
Now. II YOU don't, why, in the house we
The pictures they are nice, but we will
T.. not see them twice,
They could DO. could do. could do. could
DO. could do with a bit.
Lace c + sneap; t II don't cost much to pur-
So the managers thereupon put some
And they did with a little very WE'LL"
bury q policeman" remarks the bumor.
GUS Sloan In the new 1892" Here's
yen DOLLARS replies Walter Jones. bury
ten OF them" And the audience roars
Inc rumor Is current that Henry Il.
Abbey Will next season manage Miss
julia Marlowe. and give her a London
season, as he did for Mary Anderson.
don success, don't you know" said a
theatrical luminary yesterday. would
give her chance in the American
Isn't that awfully cutting?
De Wolf Hopper's idea OF trying his
Dr. Syntax' on the Montreal people
before opening with 1t in New York is
= good one. but neither Della Fox nor
trancis Wilson will emulate It. They
are relying upon dress rehearsals to
slve the necessary smoothness to the
initial performances.
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NEW RICYCIES NEW.
%h" SHOULD USE THE WORLD TOMORROW "HSE AND HOME DAY

long ago. With a gesture he forced 1t
back and remembered that there would
be no boat for several days. But he
could drive to the nearest station and
take southwark train. Yes, he could
do that.
Meditatively he continued to disrobe,
and in spite or the light OF the stars and
lighted his lamp. talking to himself the
while. And as his monologue continued
he was aware OF that lettering, over
mastering force which visits youth but
once-the abnegation of self before that
And now. as he flung himself on the
bed, he sighed. He hoped for nothing,
chained. The contest WAS done. During
the coming week his captor would move
before him o living melody, then he
MOULD MOULD CO. leaving the melody undis-
For a moment that might have out
lasted an hour he dreamed that he was
a goat-herd OF the fabulous days who
had fallen in love with a goddess, and
tinkling feet, and as the measures sank
him into deeper sleep monstrous beetle
shot through the window and extin..
guished his light. The persistent hum of
wings disturbed him ever SO little.
For a moment he was bending over Mrs.
Pages wrist, then all was blank.
sbssn the the s M5J0r
explained. He works harder than the
oyerseers In his employ. II Is very fool
ish OF him to exhaust himself as he so
often does" and she shook her peerless
head disapprovingiy. During the morn
ing Furman idled on the white sandy
high road and explored the grounds.
He had lost himself in the ferny depths
OF IA sparkling wood and IA green bank
beneath dense cedars had invited him to
rest, and then, languidly tired, he had
found his way Oa"n to the house for
luncheon.
In the pauses of his stroll he had half
promised himself that during the after
noon he would find AN opportunity to
say something OF that which was on his
Page excused herself Immediately after
lunch and he was left alone with Miss
Leith OIL the gallery.
you are from New York, are YOU
notr' asked the young lady. She pro-
nounced the first syllable OF the name In
"a manner that sounded curious To Fur
mans unaccustomed ears, 1t was not
though the word were spelled Meow"
All her gowns, she told him, came from
that enchanted city, but she herself bad
never been there. she had seen New
Orleans, =" and again he noted the peculiar
expression. And was New York grander
than the Crescent City? When she mar
ried most likely she would visit II on
served and less languid sitting in the
soft-scented shade of the gallery and
rid of the restraint OF her future step
mothers presence. II had occurred II
Furman that the relations between the
majors daughter and his bride-elect
were trihe strained; yet his admiration
wavered between the charm OF the one
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for your homage What you have said
would please any woman, and were
younger-well. then, were ! free. since
pleasant indeed. But there are many
pleasant things that may not be. To-
morrow or next day you viii go and
week later you Will be signing at the
feet Of some creole beauty. and " you
think of me at all then It viii be but
with a smile"
She was smiling. too. and as he looked
seen any woman fnlrer, more debonnair.
nor yet more sensibly Just than she.
III ! vex YOU" he said. looking in
subordinate and cross, II will not speak,
but at Least you might stay. j Will
Whatever he was about to promise
Mrs. Page never knew, for In the wide
d 0Sgssiyv gelnd Ia white-robed figure
'1t is getting late. is it not2" Mrs.
Page inquired Tor countenance sake.
Belinda's expressive shoulder moved In
lance chimed family, Indeed" she
continued. we had better go in"
She moved from the piazza, and all
was unlighted: a flicker from an open
door lighted the further end. Passing
from the starlight OF the gallery the
gloom of the hallway seemed intense.
Furman reached forth his hand. and I'm
the dark encountered that OF some one
else. What impulse moved him he could
not say, but putting his face forward
he pressed his lips softly to the cheek
OF the owner of the hand.
In his own room Furman dropped on
seat and loosened his neCktic with "A
thrust OF his thumb, Through the open
window came moist heayiness, subtle
as the atmosphere of Serallgo.
II must go Tomorrow" he told him
self, and tried To map out his de-
parture In his mind. From across the
hall faint footsteps reached his ear.
He heard a whispering voice; door
closed, and from somewhere in the
great house the subdued striking Of a
knew Slowly he united the latchet of
Il shoe ana sat gazing through the open
window. In his unhearing ears the
hum of myrads OF insects sounded
and To his unheeding eyes the stars still
danced their saraband. The river
seemed TO call and the night to wait.
Cutting his meditatiops suddenly
short, he produced match and lighted
his lamp; He could not 20 to bed, and
what he would say to this matter-of-
fact divinity he did not know. After he
had produced pen ana paper he sat for
a long time wondering how he should
address her. Dear Mrs Page that
would not do for such an epistle as he
intended his To be, and he did not even
know her Christian name, Finally lie
let the subject of the name rest and be-
gan the body Of the letter.
Last night-it seems year ago.
There are people whom we meet, people
who disturb us with suggestions that
have gone before. When / saw you
and heard your voice last evening.
| there came 10 me reminiscences OF
earlier and forgotten days. IL Was moi
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and the daring beauty Of the other
They were sheerly dissimilar, but It was
in the eyes they differed most; those Of
flower plucked at dawn: The dew
seemed still upon them. Those of the
young girl were sidereal. not white, not
cobalt, but something that combined
the two. To the Imaginative they would
That evening the Major. was still abb
sent and the three dined alone. Fur
man and the bride-elect were in very
fine spirits, but Miss Leith seemed more
absorbed than usual. In the middle Of a
gay story servant Offered Furman
pass, but Mrs. Page interposed.
TRY some" she insisted. Belinda
prepared them; she, will be offended II
yoH"Ishe glanced at the GIRL who
Furman took a small portion of the
candied fruit and ate It slowly. .,, 4,
IT is excellent" he said. May
Belinda left the room. excusing herself
on the pretext Of some household duty;
She & eSanisits% Gopided The guest '.dx
assented. sBut you are"@He hesitated
Let US go to the piazza; it is cooler
Mrs. Page led the way, and Furman.
hesitating still, followed. She found a
But you" he added at last you are
She shut a.d unfurled her fan with a
nervous click, but presently her hand
fell to her side. He caught 1t up and
kissed the finger tips. She drew 1t from
HIM hastily.
ut is the climate that affects you, and
you fancy 1t is l." she said. smiling
iii Is you! 1t is your he murmured.
Wei. IL Is I-let II rest So"
but | cannot rest" he insisted. II
love you" He started, shocked at his
own temerity, and US her eyelids dropped
he would have caught her hand.
III YOU do love me say nothing She
looked in his face with wide-open eyes
and Strengthened herself in the chair.
III the Major should even imagine"--
An expressive gesture completed the SEN
tence.
Furman nodded, confident and as
sured. The thought OF the Major had
no fears for him.
Mrs Page looked cautiously around.
"Belinda's mother" she said, "he drove
to suicide. He suspected she was dirt
ing with the handsome son OF a near
neighbor. lie had him out and shot
him. And yet IL Is not for that reason !
j fear. for | have no intention OF flirting
with you You know that, because'---
Don't hunt for a reason"
Mrs. Page laughed, but 1t sounded thin,
Ak forced laughter always does, and
! she agitated her fan with sudden Nigor,
at may not be-" she murmured. and as
she turned to him II seemed that her
| eyes were compassionate. sympathetic
even, awake TO possibilities, yet careless
"My poor boy" she said with a little
/ sigh, don't you know that you are alb
surdf Yet. believe me, j am grateful