Passaic City record., 1893-03-04

Miss Winchester passed her hand
quickly across her forehead, as If to
brush away the little frown that had set
tied there.
ssOther people have sometimes told me
that they had found it," she went on
steadily. ssI may be unjust, but it has
seemed to me, that usually they were
very easily satisfied; and yet there have
been some of them l have envied from
the bottom of my heart. Is it my fault
that have not been able to be satisfied,
tooa You know l have been more or
ess admired, but so far it has always
happened that the admiration have re-
ceived has seemed to me too light a
thing to be serious with. Can you i'm
agine what it means to know-or think
you do--exactly what you want, aud to
really wish for it, and never to have 1t
come near you, but instead to have the
cheapest, tawdrlest limitations of 1t
thrust into your handsa Why, it seems
to me it is the life of Tantalus!"
Miss Winchester was breathing iather
hurriedly now, but she took courage
from the impassive, attentive'face of her
listener and went on bravely:
ssAfter few experiences stopped ex-
pecting anything different. But could
not change my ideals, you know, be-
cause life and love did not prove what l
had thought them.''
Amory's eyebrows went up line at
this statement, but he said nothing, and
the girl went on:
tThen, pretty soon, met you. You
struck me at first as such a Philistine OF
the Philistines, with your irreproachable
surroundings and your air of having seen
and experienced everything, and found
it all pretty good-yet of thinking all
the while there was really nothing worth
putting yourself out for but comfort
able life and your little joke-that |
never dreamed you were going to care
anything about anyone so different as |
am, nor that you could care in the way
you have"
'.In the way do" Amory corrected
her carefully.
~ thought you were too satisfied even
to be interesting. I admit that I was
mistaken and that you are several things
no one would ever dream you we're
good things, mean-and / admit that
I like you very much, but-don't you
see9-it is your very excellences that are
against you. You are worse than the
others, becausee you come so near, and
yet you do not attain. 1t is criminal in
q man to approach so near woman's
ideal and then fail of it'll"
The light that burned in Mr.. Amorv's
eyes was not wholly amiable, but his voice
was quiet as he saids
81 knew all this in general way be-
fore; that is, suspected it. We are not
getting on. Those objections of yours,
those deficiencies of mine-I beg you to
specify them"
eff you were used to arguing with
women,n observed Miss Winchester
maliciously, ''you would not expect to
get on"
"You are not like other women," he
said, simply, with a lovers conviction.
"You will not evade or put me off,"
The girl flushed. "Have not said
enough?" she demanded. "Did not
tell you in June it would be sacrifice
to marry you?"
"What then2" he urged. "Did you
not also tell me onoe that love could be
demonstrated only by sacrificed"
''Am pretending to love you2" she
retorted, hotly.
81 had forgotten that momentarily,
Amory, dejectedly. "But
the objectionsa Surely, have right
to those"
"Very well, if you insist. But if you
do not like what I say, remember I did
not say it willingly" she warned. SIN
the first place, / admire men who have
force, who can be powers in the world.
I do not mean that you are weak, but
that you are Indifferent. You are only
a power in the world of diners-out."
81 admire the beautiful self possession
with which you say horribly cruel
things"
81 knew you would take 1t badlyl
But I did not mean to be cruel; I am
only trying to be true"
81 wish" he said, fervently, show l
wish you would be untrue to that cold
soul of yours for five minutes. | wonder
if you have any idea how dear you can
be when you are not trying to be con-
scientious!"
s'As was saying, you care too much
for social success" resumed Miss Win
chester. striving to speak with the calm
ness of disinterested critic, and failing
slgnally."
ssAh, yes. What elsea"
"You care too much Tor the things Of
the world-the luxuries and pleasures of
it. You care about being comfortable, !"
she said, disdainfully.
"What elsel"
She hesitated. sWhat right have I to
say that yours is not a spiritual lifef And
yet-is 1T not!o
"In short-why don't you sum me up
by saying that it would not occur to me
that needed the consultations of religion
so long as the cooking was excellent at
my club2"
elbow furious YOU are! how I must