Fort Worth gazette. [volume] (Fort Worth, Tex.) 1891-1898, 1893-03-05
A LATER BASHKlRTSEFF.
JULIA FORCES iNNER LIFE TOLD
BY HER DIARY.
"Whal Exile from Himself Can Flee. 10 Scenes
Though More and More
Romole.y

/ The written statement which Misc
| Iuih Force of Atlnntn, en- who killed.
| her Two sisters, lefi with friend while
ON her way 10 give herself up 90 The OH
| GERS parallels In some respects the noted
| diary Of Maria 3nshkTtsrN A strange
thing about this remarkable stntoment
| ~ that much of 10 was written long be-
| fore the killing, but the last paragraph
WAS added just prior TO the commission
of the crime.
The book Ia which This fearful diary Us
| written b. nu ordinary account book
about six by twelve Inches, containing
| li1 pages. many of which nrc blank
On the lly leaf "a wrtton in strong
| hand; ~ H. Force, lSS3."
Tho first two pages contain nm index,
making reference 20 the virtues uuutu-
| lions from the Bible, n list of medicines,
! most of which are poi8ons. nnd such sub
lccts as murer Justice, revenge
RIDICULED by HER MOTHER
Hor first complaint n against her
| mother in connection with an inlnmmn.
| ton Of her cyeR while yot d child. MY
! eyes became fnghnully innamod aud
! from that time have never censed 30 he
q source Of modification, deirlment mud
pain 70 me, and this ! owe to my moth
en- Often IN after years she would gibo
me with H. The inflammation Of tho
lids prevented the lashes from growing.
One day she said 10 me. laughing healfi-
| ~, as II she thought She was very witty
exactly Ike house without blinds, aud
again: You ugly thing, should think
your face would hurt YOU
There was never any consideration
from her Of my hurt feelings j was h
sensitive child and could hive been Il
loving one had ! been encouraged, but
nanny having died aud futber az WAS
fffURel t1 e..
home there was no one tO attach my-
self 10, 30 ! grew On boz reserved clild.
il was q wonder that ! was not mOrose
and morbid.
when ! was 10 ! Of course kept
diary II WAS as sacred 10 noe ns tli0t Of
any grown wOmun'a NJ To her I WAS
naturally the heroine of nll ihnt WIS in
h. ana no rs tagnin due 30 my mothers
Cnrclrsgncss aud iuattontiOul ] WAS
more advanced iu' the worlds ways than
o girl ought 90 have been nt 20 ! never
trusted my mother Uny experiences with
her had taught mo bcttcr. go had bid
my diary Niie found " one dny. md
taking il 90 an assembly OF Young ladies
nnd gentlemen, read the contents 40
them. f0u c8n imagine tle cOnse-
quences 90 me and my impOtent wrath.
THE FAMILY TROUBLES.
OF her father she writes with great az
fectiOn and also Of her brothers with
whom aa she grew older and after hcr
fathers death she bore the burden of
keeping np their homo, She, however,
did not agree with her sister Florence.
The story 81 her troubles for several
years grows tiresOne ip detail until at
last She reaches cIisir. which ia thus
tod: II appealed 10 my brothers Tor The
iir8f time They said thry could not turn
Florence out Of doors. but they were in-
dignant with her for what she had done.
until mother fearing Too Florence. used
her influence a. a mother 20 stay their
indignation and mode them doubt me. Nj
was a cruel iniuaiice, % vile use Of her
motherhood. Then ] said 1 would 90
when told mother tiaf She had sue
reeded in driving me nWay from home
her reply was. What N you d0t lieO-
ple win Bny you went away once before.
You wil bn blamed, no one flsri She
knew the world i have been blamed
But trusted in God Where waH Ilef
bad never been trained for sell snp-
port Years before, when ! had begged
10 ~ tanght bookkeeping. ] was Op-
posed. saying I should never have 10
gorl ~ long as my bruibefs lived. ~
Tor seven years ] dld what ! could fnd
10 DO. having no choice iu tho nntfer
uuc0neeniai work, all pi it-Dnt ] was
paid rather wen Tor N It was not tho
work / minded, for was at least iA-
dependent but me nii SORTS aud condi
lions u mem fhaf was necessarily
thrown with. ihf clgse contact with tlie
aealay side 81 ne. I who had been so
fof aud ildAged during my dear fathers