New-York tribune. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1866-1924, 1893-04-30

thought from him with an angry oath. 'i 'n"'
basencss at least he wCnd not have TO accuse HIM
self lie would never, by the in"r"'t su@s STUN,
suffer himself 10 think one nnhind thought VI
Maddalrna deli Arm
But the great question rcmiin"i uh>oi'''' ""'
what was now left really Low" III any sehs' y,
net, and if not must he keep his promise an" "'
her the truth or would il BIZ moro hohora"r'
live for ncr sake by a rule of devotion AMI iait"-
fulness which his strong Will could iii'N' ran "
itself and in the letter, if not III 'h' 'pr'
knew that she was in earnest III Wh'' S''c -"
said. II she knew that h" had c"lS'i ~ NV
her. she would feel utterly alone III IN" wor' ','
might we'll be driven t. almost any rhS'h' III u
desperate search for distraction Hn' Ia" ~,
,,,1 II I'm, ne knew that in her heart she WON
Law all the sins of her life at hi- door, ana '"'' tel
This n least she would not br wholly UNJUST.
With such a character a. Gh-lcri's il Is not easy
"a fore,ce what direction impulse VIII YAK" ",'"
il comes at last lie was quit" cal'api' Oh I'm"
ND the whole attempt to understand hi''H'' '
Of leaving the whole matter - clIahc" VIII" 'o0'
nos. which voulJ have seemed cruel and cyni'ai
if it had not been the result OF som''"'"' nm
Jcsnar. He was capable, If h" failed u r'''' "
conclusion by logical means, OF tossing up WV"
90 decide whether hr should tell poor aidalena
bpI Arm That ne ull Hot INV '''' W
~, bor in spit, Of every obstacle ana devote Ms
whole life to the elaborate fraction OF an u"''"'
attachment. Strangely enough. Laura Ar"e"
,,o,.,d q mart and an important one, in bringing
obout his ultimate decision. He as,ured!y iao no
.hor,,,+ of lov,nr her nor of the possibility W
,ovino her at that time. lie would even h','
.''',,. :, an cxoqorra,ion 70 say that he was de-
..o.oI,v o,t,chcd TO her in the way OF iti'hi>EiP
And vct he felt that she exercised domlna'i"-
!, e,oncc over his mind He found himself iaNlh!
cha matter before her in ina gination, ~ ne S'''i
mayor hc likely to do in fact, ana snp'hi''i"S
"a hcr INDICTMENT "a to that OF person suP'r"i'''
copable of distinguishing right hom wioh5 an
false from tr;ic II was singular. too' '"t ~
should make no comparison between her ""' ''
daIena. though possibly no such comparison ''"'
have been made But he compared HIDES" Wv"
hcr-thc depth of his moral deerada'ioh !" III,
own eyes with TIE lofty purl'y oil 'hnu'" 81"
pnrpos. which liz attributed t. Ter '"'
ourncr could hardly fail to b" certain "'P'
vapuc and almost sentimental I" "'co"'' '''
man as might not seem To her WHOM u""'''"'
Of trust This did not help INN mu'"' INV
and when nj last he went to bed, hiN'h-
70 90 out and dine. and weary OF 'h' mar" "
a., was mt much further advanced than WHEN IL
had sat down to think of il last III the "l.''"''
T., Ola. mn,niuc everything seemed simpler an
III. necessity for Immediate decision "l'"PP III
IT,. lad ma, We, Ly any means reached the poihl
81 mot lo>iur Maddalcna AZ all, and uh'll II" III
,hc,e was 10 reason why he shou!h ior"' any P'""
If action. IL would in any ease he very h''" ~
act upou such plan, ior the dreaded moment W"''''
in ALI likelihood br stormy one, an" i' '"'' nv
forrscc in the least what Middalrha "''S'' "''''
do ,
After that he felt for long time h"'n "''' -
,h. oil sympathy with her than II" ma N"o" W
late. and lac tormrntcl himself l"sS often WI" NV
,Ii,,c,;o, cf Li, own motives aud thoughts Ill"
..w much of Laura. too. III tho-' days am syn
lam, hours he .d, her - she lay upon her sofa
He always left her with SENSATION ~ ""''"7
,,., .oo.,cJ and rested, though hc could not s'y
q, her thai, she was much nclh"d to td'A' -
showcd an, great satisfaction AZ his coming
Probably Ia. thought, >h" WAS wiilns To see M"
~ often bccaus. he had been Mdcn- iri'h"' ne
did M, understand that she did not qn''" IKE
him and that hi, pic.cnc" WAS often hA>o'h' -
,r for sb. wa, far too kind by natui" 70 let i'I"
su.n,c, il liz. only thoueht that II" was III h'r
ewes a perfectly Indifferent person. an" h' -"
mn reason for deriving himself OF her s"'i'N :"
Ian, ~ she consented t. receive him. lI'> l'''H
talked Of subjects at all relating 10 Themselves
either. and their conversation turned chiefly upon
hooks and general topics. Ghi>l"Ii i"a' S'"'
deal in "A dcsul,ory way, AMI MS hr'"I"iN WIS
Good II interested him, too. 10 prolonnh Pp"-
lens for her judgment aud 10 -" ho" h"ailN '"'
would solve, them in the way II" "Ap''"" h'' ="
choose. He was rarely ml,tak II III his 'Nl"''"-
tions. :.;,I ,I
;u,, IN ,.,.,I IN um did not change p"r"'piblA,
.h, became Interested III his nature, '"sihnihs TO
perceive that there were depths III IL winch sic
mad not suspected. IT.;
rather abruptly, ana watching tie expression oil
his face. ..,,.,...,,.d ,ool
inc away from her ~ though to hinder her from
,radino hi, thoughts WHY TO YOU ak that
"Torgivc ne >hould not put NncI Pu'>-
ton, | suppose. But You interest me. .o,..
"bo I,rU If. glanced quickly at her ~ he spok"
and She saw that h. was pleased. " am very
clad that You should talk" any interest III h'-"l
any kind whatever. Would you Ink" to know
why am unhappy?
Il can on'y tell you in Il general way ] make
40 prctcncc TO any sort of sood"'7~' on m"tni i'1
ttudr beyond what we men commonly ihclld'
i'm what we call the code OF honor Int alh
pcrpctually tormcntcd about my own motiNrs.
KNOWING my sell to he what ! am di-tru.t
every uord impulsc I have merely bccaiisr II l.
not a lad one, bccaus" my natural impulses ar"
bad. and because will not allow myself - act
any sort Of come iy, even III my own feelings
iLat sort of honesty, desire for honesty. L. AL
| haze lcft--pn it HANGS tie last shred Of my tat
tered s.lfrcsp"ct.
How drcadinl'7 Iaura's deep eyes rested on
him for th, first time with expression.
There wae both pity and wonder in their look -
pity for the man and wonder II Il state OF mind
of which she had never dreamed.
Does il seem dreadful to yonP' he asked
"If Won really fee, ~ You say NOu do. an
swcred Laura, can understand that yon should
he very unhappy
WHY do You doubt that ] feel what ! hay"
iod You - Ghi>.r wondered, a. h" asked the
question, whether he was ever TO he believed
again hy any woman. " Do You think am I'M
trutEfnlP'
NO." said Laura, quickly. Indeed do NOT.
Oa tl,.. contrary, | think Won very scrupulouslv
exact when You speak Of things you know about.
But any one ma In mistaken in Judging # him
self"
That is precisely the point. am afraid Of
finding myself mistaken, and 30 | do not trust
my own motives.
Yes, l sec But then. il Won do what is rieht
yon need not let your motives troubl" You That
seems simple"
TO you. Do yon rcmcmlcr' ! once told you
that YOU were horribly COED
II am not" said Laura, "bnt if ! were should
not se, anything horrible in it,