St. Paul daily globe., 1893-04-18
AN AUTOPSY.
Written for the Globe.

the back in a hearty manner, and at
once threw himself into a chair near
the open CRATE and told Jack Adams all
about it, She had accepted him, and he
was happy. She was the dearest Great
ure in the world and the sweetest. Her
face of sunshine would illuminate his
path, and her tender smile would Tighten
the burdens of life.
''Why don't you get married, my dear
boy? Why, you ought to win one of the
incest girls in the world. Look at
homely old me; l have won a prize. |
don't believe you take sufficient time
from your work to think OF falling in
your cynical moods and unpleasant
thoughts. Try and get over your ideas
in regard to women and be happy. l
know that your business has thrown
you in contact with such persons that
you are suspicious of all women. / was
the same way until l met the little
beauty who has enthralled me with the
most pleasant bonds man ever wore"
Mllard picked up his pipe, and after
lighting it sat IN deep meditation. On
his face was happy expression. and
his countenance. was without cloud.
After putting at his pipe for some time
lie turned 10 AualnS.
Tell me, old man, why you never fell
in lOve? he asked.
The bright fire burned cheerfully in
the crate and cast fitfnl shadows on the
walls of the pretty little room which the
two friends occupied. On the mantel
was collection of medals, badges, in
vitations and numberleSs other souvenirs
of assignments. Adams and Milliard
were both newspaper men and were en-
ployed on the same paper, the Evening
Herald. Both were young men, Mill
lard being apparently the older. He
was q dark cOmpleXioned man, with
black hair and rather sallow cheeks. His
eyes were deep set and handsome. with
look of super-intelligencein in them. Adams
was very light i'll complexion and had
blue eyes. He wore blonde NOUS
tache, and his hair had natural wave
in it, which looked we'll on his hand
some head. He was we'll built, what
would be called stocky, but not ex-
cessively so. His physique was evil
IDENTIFY strong one, and he had appar-
entity taken good care of the cOnStitu-
ton which had been willed him by the
Creator.
Adams looked thoughtfully into the
CRATE for some moments after the re-
quest of his friend. He gazed reflect
lively into space. and watched the blue
smoke curl up from his wipe without
seeing il.
"l'll tell you little story which will
astonish you," ne finally said. II am
| in love, and have been in love for four
years. Mine is an affection which has
| not grown up in single night, but
which has insldu0usly crept into my
whole system until L am completely
charged with it. The feeling is as
though were charged with electricity
| at times. l could lay down the life
] which have SO carelesSly preserved for
: twenty-fOur years without the slightest
compunction if would bring happiness
to the girl love-"
He spoke softly, and the words came
! from his lips like the speech OF a person
! under a strong Influence. lie seemed
! to be looking at some person in the dis
| tance to whom he was talking.
II met her four years ago." he con-
| tinued, "and when first saw her she
was a school girl. She is still at school,
! and her head should not be bothered
with thoughts of love at the present. l
| have never told her a word of my affec-
ton, and it may be that | never shall.
But at the same time l enjoy tine
! thought that love her. and l am bet
ter man for having this deep love and
affection. 1t has made man of me and
! made ME think of great many things l
was in the habit of doing and which
now consider before doing, as l know
she would not like to have me do them.
The first time | met her she was at
the house of a relative of mine. | saw
her for the first time as little girl, with
merry, laughing eyes, a pretty mouth,
with pearly teeth and cute little nose,
just inclined in the least degree to be
retrouSse. She had freckleS on her
| nose, and her hands were tanned from
contact with the suns rays. She was
fifteen years of age, and her body was
| replete with the health and strength of
| youth. thought she was lively little
creature, and | became friends with her
! from the start.
"Did you ever watch a painter create
a picture? He starts with his brushes
and paints on clean piece of canvas
and gradually makes the ideal. 1t
until the picture is complete and the
ting of beauty is ready for the critics to
tear to pieces. This little girl took the
blank canvas of my very soul, not over
clean am afraid, and Oh it she uncOn-
sciouSly painted the creation of love.
The work was done without my knOWl-
edge and without hers. Finally it was
completed. and when L looked into my
soul | saw it there. L had not known
the reason for my preference for her
over the society of other girls. l
never stopped to think about 1t. One
day 1t dawned upon me that L had no
particular reasons for living without the
chance of telling her some day-that |
loved her.
ut is not the common. ordinary affec-
ton which a man has for a woman. 1t
is complete absorption of my entire
intellect and nature. think of her all
the time, in my waking moments and as
| Law my head on the pillow at night.
Many things have | started to do when
the thought of her would prevent me.
Her spirit is with me all the time, and it
really seems that were my heart to be
opened to the light of day an image of
her would be found engraved there.
! can see it all of the time, and sometimes
| | have little talks with it. 1t will tell
me not to do this or that for her sake,
| and do as is requested. When any
thing goes wrong with me in business
way it consoles me, and with soft words
smOOthes over the rough affairs of life.
Il am not very religious, as you very
! well know. / believe in God aud i'll
| the golden rule, and try to keep the lat
| ter while l revere the former. do not
go to church frequently, as l despise
| the ostentatious display of religion and
consider that the louder man shouts
| his prayers the closer he will bear
watching. l have seen poor people,
! lily clad, refused admission to church
| because it was patronized by fashion
| able people and the ruShers did not care
| to subject the renters of the pews and
| the contributors to the cause of reclaim
| ing souls with actual contact with the
needy ones. But every night as | go to
| bed l ask the Father above TO make me
better man for her sake, and, If in His
| wisdom He considers it proper to have
her give me some of the affection