The gold leaf. [volume] (Henderson, N.C.) 1881-1911, 1893-09-07

THE HENDEf
young man was converted, he told me
! that he had said to Mr.. Gale several
times, when he had admonished him
about associating SO much with me,
that my conversations had often af
fected him more, religiously, than his
preaching. l had, indeed, let out my
feelings a good deal to this young
man.
But just at the time when was
giving an account of my feelings to
this elder of the church, and to the
other member who was with him, this
young man came into the Office. l
was sitting with my back toward the
door, and barely observed that he
came in. He listened with astonish-
ment to what 1 was saying, and the
first knew he partly fell upon the
floor and cried out in the greatest
agony of mind, EDO pray for me-"
The elder of the church and the other
member knelt down and began to
pray for him and when they had
prayed 1 prayed for him myself Soon
after this they all retired and left me
alone.
The question then arose in my
mind, "Why did Elder B. laugh so
Did he not think that was under a
delusion or crazy?" This suggestion
brought kind of darkness over my
mind, and l began to query with
myself whether it was proper for such
a sinner as l had been to pray for that
young man. A cloud seemed to shut
in over me l had no hold upon any,
thing in which | could rest and after
little while l retired to bed, but still
at loss to know what to make of my
present state. Notwithstanding the
baptism had received this temptation
SO obscured my view that l went to
bed without feeling sure that my peace
was made with God.
x X X X
l soon fell asleep, but almost as
soon awoke again on account of the
| great flow Of the love of God that was
in my heart 1 was so filled with
love that I could not sleep. Soon 1
fell asleep again and awoke in the
same manner. When | awoke this
temptation would return upon me,
and the love that seemed to be in my
heart would abate; as soon as l was
asleep, it was so warm with me that l
would Immediately awake. Thus l
continued till late at night l obtained
some sound repose.
When | awoke in the morning the
sun had risen and was pouring a clear
light into my room. Words can not
express the impression that this sun
light made upon me. Instantly the
baptism that l had received the night
before returned upon me in the same
manner. l arose upon my knees in
bed and wept aloud with joy and re-
NAMED for some time too much over
whelmed with the baptism of the
Spirit to do anything but pour out my
soul to God. 1t seemed as if this
mornings baptism was accompanied
with gentle reproof, and the Spirit
seemed to say to me, "Will you
doubt? Will you doubt p 1 cried,
"No, l will not doubt; 1 can not
doubt He then cleared the subject
up so much to my mind that it was
in fact impossible for me to doubt that
the Spirit Of God had taken possession
of my soul
In this state was taught the doc.
trine of justification by faith, as pres.
ent experience. That doctrine had
never taken any such possession of my
mind, that l had ever viewed it dis
tinctly as a fundamental doctrine O.
the Gospel. Indeed, did not know
at all what it meant in the proper
sense. But l could now see and un-
derstand what was meant by the pas.
sage, Being justified by faith we have
peace with God through our Lore
Jesus Christi
l could see that the moment 1 be-
lieved, while up in the woods all sense
of condemnation had entirely dropped
out of my mind and that from tina
particular moment I could not feel {
sense of guilt or condemnation by an,
effort that could make. My senst
Of guilt was gone my sins were gone
and l do not think 1 felt any more
sense of guilt than if l had neve
sinned.
This was just the revelation that
needed. | felt myself justified b,
faith and, so far as 1 could see, 1 wa
in state in which did not sin. In
stead of feeling that l was SHINING al
the time my heart was so full of low
that it overflowed. My cup ran ovel
with blessing and with love; and
could not feel that 1 was SHINING
against God. Nor could l recover tn,
least sense of guilt for my past sins
OF this experience l said nothing thai
| recollect at that time to anybody
that is, of this experience of justi6ca
ton.
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