The Daily bulletin. [volume] (Honolulu [Hawaii]) 1882-1895, 1893-09-21

itself significant, and yet the whole
to a nicely the voluminous
distress of one in high fever and
his annoyance at and recoil from the
attentions of his nurses, 1t was
probably the same part land for a
guess the other .feNoW) who bid me
compare it with the nonsense words
of Lewis Carroll as the invention OF
a lunatic with those Of sane man.
But surely it was myself land myself
in perfectly clear r-headed state)
that kept me trying all night to get
the word by heart, on the ground /
that it would afterwards be useful !
in literature if wanted to deal with /
mad folk. 1t must have been my
self, | say, because the other fellow be- 4
lieved (or pretended to believe) he
was reading the passage in a book
where it could always be found
again when wanted.
Experience G. Tho next night the
other .teliow had an explanation ready
for my suiferings, of which l can
only say that it had something to do
with the navy, that it was sheer, un-
diluted nonsense, had neither end
nor beginning, and was insuscepti-
BILE Of being expressed in words.
Myself knew this, yet gave way,
and my watcher was favored with
some references to the navy. Nor
only that: the other fellow was an
noyed--or was annoyed-on two
inconsistent accounts; first, because
he had failed to make his meaning
comprehensive, and second because
the nurse displayed no interest.
The other .fellow would have liked to
explain further; but myself was
much hurt at having been got into
this false position, and would be led
no further
In cases A and G the illusion was
amorphous. knew it to be so and
yet succumbed to the temptation Of
| trying to communicate it. In case
b the idea was coherent, and l man
aged to hold my peace. Both con-
sciousnesses, in other words, we're less
affected in case B, and both more
affected in cases A aud G. 1t is per-
haps not always SO; the illusion
might be coherent, even practical,
and the rational authority of the
mind quite in abeyance. Would not
that be lunacy2
In case A 1 had an absolute know
ledge that was out of my mind,
and that there was no meaning in
my words; these were the very facts
that ] was anxious to conceal; and
yet when | succumbed to the tempt
alton of speaking my face was con-
vulsed with anger, and l wrung my
watchers wrist with cruelty. Here
is action, unnatural and uncharacter-
istic action, flowing from an idea in
which | had no belief and which l
had been concealing for hours as a
plain mark of alteration. Is it not
so with lunatics?
have called the one person myself,
and the other the other trllow. 1t was
myself who spoke and acted; the
other fellow seemed to have no con.
troll Of the body or the tongue; he
could only act through myself, OF
whom he brought to bear heav!
strain, resisted in one case, tri
= umphant in the two others. Yet
; am tempted to think l know th'
other fellow; | am tempted to thin]
he is the dreamer described in m,
r Chapter on Dreams to which yol
refer. Here at least is dream be
: longing to tho same period, but thi
time n pure dream, an illusion,
mean, that disappeared with the re
turn OF the sense of sight, not on
/ that persevered during waking mo
ments and while | was able to speal
and take my medicine. 1t occurred
) the day after case B and before cas-
r G..
Case D. In the afternoon ther
? sprang up storm of wind wit
2 monstrous clouds of dust; my roor
= looked on steep hill Of trees who's
= boughs were all blowing in the sam
;. direction; the world seemed to pas
: by my windows like mill-race. B
n this turmoil and movement l wa
g confused, but not distressed, an
d surprised not to be distressed; fo
o even in good health a high wind ha
J often a painful influence on NJ
). nerves. In the midst of this doze
! off asleep. l had just been readin
l SCOTS Life of Dryden, had bee
n struck with the fact that Dryde
y had translated some of the Lati
q hymns, and had wondered that l ha
Il never remarked them in his work
= AS soon as | was asleep l dreamed
O reason why the sound of the win
o and the sight of the flying dust ha
il not distressed me. There was Il
d wind, it seemed, no dust; it was onl
Il Dryden singing his translated hymn
l. in one direction, and all those wh
n had blamed and attacked him aftt
y the Revolution singing them in a
4; other. This point of the two dire
d tions is very singular and insane. ]
II part, it meant that Dryden was col
'e tinuously flying past yet never pas
re ing my window in the direction
j. the wind and dust, and all his d
" tractors similarly flying past yet n,
le passing towards the other side. B,
Il it applied, besides this, both to IL
1t words and to the music in mann
At wholly insusceptible of expression.
That was dream; and yet no
in exactly it reproduces the method
" my other .JellOw while l was awak
f. Here is an explanation for a state
j. mind or body sought-and found
N in tissue of rabid, complicate
n aud inexpressible folly.-Y We,