Barbour County index. [volume] (Medicine Lodge, Kan.) 1880-current, 1892-07-20

Advice to Restless and YearninR Nature.
Two women sat at two windows, one
with book, the other looking, musing,
out at the beds of pansies which edged
the graveled walk of the garden.
Waking up from her brief at of alb
Straction, the younger woman ex.
claimed, disconsolately: 81 don't know
anything that makes me feel more dis
couraged, as well as disconnected. than
to mediate upon the foolish things /
did yesterday
But II yesterdays folly makes to-
days wisdom2" suggested the woman at
the other window.
Il don't believe i'll" rushed on the
first speaker. "Whcn 1 remember how
stupid was yesterday, 1t seems hope
less to try to be wiser to-day. When
reflect upon the absurd blunders made
In past years, feel sure / will continu-
ally fall in the same pit. When / re-
call how weakly acted at various
times, / despair ever acting with
strength. Sometimes imagine shall
grow worse instead of better. Before,
when acted foolishly, felt confident
/ was wise. To-day, no matter how
wise ! try to be, am sure am fool
ish!"
my dear" said the older woman,
with smile, half protesting, half hest
tating," don't you know"
'Oh, yes; known the other cried.
you are going to tell me it is good to
know ones self But think the more
learn of myself, the more dissatisfied
I become with my study and its results.
This striving and longing to see our
selves as others see us tends only to
promote self-deception. 1t fosters self
sufiiciency and creates selflshness, pure
and simple. 1t makes self the center,
the pivot around which all the rest of
the world revolves. became con-
WINGED of that long ago. And if it is so
Improbable to study ones outward
man, or woman, how much worse a
creature must be developed from the
heart which is forever studying it's own
motives, scrutinizing its own feelings,
using microscope to pick to pieces its
own emotions! Such self-analysis be-
comes degradingl 1 believe it destroys
every spontaneous, honest feeling one
can have!"
The older woman laid down her book,
and looked, still smiling, at the speaker.
The younger sat with her hands fold
ed idly in her lap. She looked far across
the pansy beds. She looked across the
hedge which divided the garden from
the road, across the birches which lined
the road and bordered the river, across
the river itself, to where the low hills
reached the sky upon the other side.
Sometimes l think" she said, low
and passionatSly, that Il is al a will
derness and 81 dark. We fall 30 cruelty,
and never can fully right ourselves. We
make such pitiful, such terrible
mistakes, and, with our hardest
efforts, we never can altogether
rectify them. We spend our best
years on such childish TOYS, and
when we see the true worth of the
things we have despised, behold! the
time to obtain them has gone by What
Is the meaning of it ALP. What is the
meaning?" She caught her breath, and
there was a moments silence.
Dear" said the older woman. and
her voice shook little, "You have not
gone all the way yet. Wait. You can
not see why the road given you was the
safest until you have travelled to its end
You can not read the word until you
have got all its parts. It is not so long,
dear. Wait. Wait a little longer"
And the advice, of its kind, was good.
But then, who takes advice? Not
youth, which is the season of tempest,
OF strain, OF great extremes, To learn
OF experience ista acquire knowledge
by discipline, anu to conquer in the
struggle with ourselves, We must
await and trust.-Harper's Bazaar.