The Saline County journal. [volume] (Salina, Kan.) 1871-1893, 1892-03-31

bitter nature, ana believing that she
owed him a debt Of gratitude. With
out daring 70 admit IT. he continued TO
hope that her kindness might develop
intos higher sentiment The best proofs
Of this that can be given are the follow
ing extracts from Julien's journal:
10th February, 1870.
She has been back a month, but I
have seen her only twice. She seemed to-
day more adorable than ever. Shall
ever see the day when / can cause her
ever-present sadness 70 vanish? She
pretends that everything in her is dead;
but this is an ironical falsehood, for her
| lips, in speaking. contradict her words.
Oh! why am not Prince?
18th February, 1876.
], q Prince! must have been mad
yesterday! l insult her by thinking .
noble would please her better than /.
For her there are two classes of beings
outside of all social rank-those who
suffer and those who need not consola-
ton.
And I? Do I not suffer? l need
her; | yearn for her consolation, but
she offers me none. When try TO hold
her At, how imperiously, or, rather,
pitilessly, does she Withdraw it!
18th February, 1876.
Zanette is one year old to-day. Shall
I ever forget the poignant emotions Of
that day-the little creature 'annOunc-
ing its arrival in the world, by uncon
scious murmurs causing the plaintive
cries Of her who had riven it birth TO
sink into silence? strange mystery!
Did desire you, oh! my baby! when
the happiness Of Rose and myself con-
sisted in our great love?
Now comes that new being. ARGUS
ing in me an incomprehensible and
violent emotion; an interest more
puissaut than any other. My power to
maintain IL seems to grow. but before
my child / am powerless! Alas! my
child, what have given you? A heart
to suffer, q brain to experience regrets,
and what more? You, at least when
you can know and understand, shall
not pass through the isolation of my
early years. My tenderness shall
soften your nature, and not that dis |
gust which surrounded my accursed |
youth.
The Princess cannot see things as |
do. One day was regretting to her |
that had consented TO chain myself to |
Rose. when she said:
Whatever bitterness duty brings, |
il always gives the satisfaction of |
having done it,
That is very well, but what is duty9
Whence dos 1t come? whittier does it
lead? When the hazard OF existance
decreases your Dir h, does it lay down |
a line Of duty? No. not one. Each SEN
timent sleeps within us until awakened
by the heart.
1t is then that the imagination pict- |
urss certain things better chan Others,
and q line of duly is laid down, She
told me il was a duty to marry Rose |
and legitimatize Zene te-b L why?
] do not love ny daughter from .
mere obligation to do so.
As for Rose, IL ever did love her, |
do so no longer, and am bound forever
to keep her, protect her and support
her. She has given herself with |
priestly sanction, that is all. What |
new satisfaction could that afford usf |
We are simply saddled with the duty
of supporting each other forever.
nth February, 1875.
Met my old comrade Alfred Y. Think /
he did not care to meet me. for he did |
manifest a sharp surprise when /
touched him on the shoulder to force
him to see me.
at is @ long time" said /, ''since i
saw you last, old man"
What You, Julien?" he replied
What are you doing nowP You look
we'll"
Better than in 1870. at all events!
that Is not strange: but not
much richer than then. Not like you.
though: for, 10 Judge by your dress,
you might be taken for a lord. You
must have been ashamed TO recognize
mer'
How can You say that, my good
Julien?''
Those soft accents change you much,
and the fiery Alfred has disappeared"
'was / really fiery? have forgotten.
At any rate, IL is q matter of little i'm
portar.ce, leading to nothing"
UNLESS TO victory" I answered.
you seem TO have forgotten the days
Of our struggles
whit song of evil augury are You
singing now?" he replied uneasily.
"Ycu seem to have forgotten also
Tour despair at the news of the ap-
,rosch Of the government troops"
persisted. amused at his embarrsss-