The sun., 1892-10-23

Hopes that seem TO be Realized While tho
spell OF the Dru. Lasts.

From tie Colorado Sun.
| When l get UP in the morning my face Is
| bloat-d. swollen. and my acQuaintances some
of them. say that it is the effect OF liquor. but
the more obs, rvant those better versed in the
ways of the world. say that it is morphine. or
the fluid extract from the poppy. and they are
right. Do they blame me3 Yes. they do. I
| am called a fool. am told that am throwing
my lie away. l am demoralizing my brain
am told that should lei It alone. ami to add
mos, irightful nalady: Those. who tell
60 by observation have had noth observa-
tlon and exrerience. Is there any reason why
1r.,a,. .m1mld ih no, Sn1r and why should not ap.
opiates' All that my well-lneaninC advisers
tel me is true, yet when retlre from my
teen hours out OF the twenty-four. | got to my
dngy little room and lind relief only In my
1t is Very odd. it is unreasonable some will
say. that q man with brains enough and per-
hh hhaps trls 9ooye ~ the ayesge sapaety w@u
DOVE, But this is an old story,
eo sabH peSshe Ss with anTs1y s1d
the very last drees from the E.sss feeling Of
my dear mother would say If she knew. and I
sometimes think yes. believe. that she is look
n on s san ss hs ss full q
love that only mother can entertain for i son.
! see at such times the mistakes have made
noithns incrimnatinc. have not been ali am
gel. Tbs poison has leon tnken. AMI tne sIrce
not Of thn most agreeable. The word renorso
Is not strong enough. l am too am, itious.
sna aSS aIs % sasrs Srs
ai9n: las! enough. and my salary is too miser-
ably md insulting small
AS tnlnk THESE Things over with all the bit
terness there is in them. the opiate takes effect
ana dlstracts my attention from what please
creeps over n me e. and seems to take nnssession
OF my whole system: Th" sensation. is not
pleasant nor is it disagreeable. for l know
oblivion creeps over me. and the hall Of this
world. II It can Ge termed SO lightly. is gone.
'een in my earlier worldly experience and I'm
il lmy own h"rnisphere
ga lily. 80. there is no extravagance. no dis.
,!;x ton in my imaginary life; all is as COM
ora Gle ana reSpsst1ble as tn" ost eXactinG
hat haye no chance to indulge in social
,i,nsu,, ';ior ut the time for rec options and
Mort t" 'ultivate sl.vating female society.
,ecause kn2w ,sn. | . rann"t follow it up. One
sna i0pw S1ud i ur and more r.
9ifis'y In MY dream, TGS life hay. my only oy When
satss 4. sSs"ss t. Ha1. use bs.s sss
e.ted y lair w,,A zen at tanles laden With the
asnrGf nt III. .. badau s ct tas and hc%sh
nke leading In Sry e ffh in The sVen tsnar
i my way. At OF, S,l times ! will he at my
,ome n little n ace J have pictured out In u
luiet part OF the ci W snjoying the comforts
hat are be found o. Ny IN tra. hoaest iittie
ottage. My home. m, mylnhcaI hnnnn nome as not
lssed N that quiet tsr' can shoW nSs 0n Quits
cp T.,s hna we 81 uer ss er1 IN Ges 4es
letp. and the ever-thoughtfa n.thcr VIII 70 |
NJ bend over the craIlr on'ning words. |
sith looks from her eyes 1eamt y %ltm mater;
al love luiet the little thing II ~ nn vare am
nat s Svt araW do nto
no channels of my daily occupst 'oa. and |
trnEgle IN, as do in actual life Z " tho re;
ants are reversed and l meet W.T. y reward
nd am happy. 1t may ho that at 81 y ~ 7 IN. a
am s!ngls, as | r-a!l am. and ". " ina
All oi these most happy events and 81 un-
lslpseIyes most vivily upon the mind
when consciousness returns awake win ~
cavy. duli sensation in NV brain. and l an
naole to determine whsther what has j. n ;
on is upon me. The blood courses hot
trough my body, feeling as though hot irons !
ere nnpli9d 7" tho pulse. Thoughts cannot |
, foilertcn: me memory is impaired. und the
tiiy siina y ielore mo. Mental and physical
tlinu.tio! follow, aud then tho worst-pay
~. Is thsrc nny relief to he secured ~ I
Then No" then ''Yrs." and my hand ! i
'uuhes again Tor the fruit OF the poppy | !!