The Wichita daily eagle. [volume] (Wichita, Kan.) 1890-1906, 1892-06-28
WAIT AND TRUST.


Advice to Restless and Yearning Nature.
Two women sat at two windows, one
with book, the other looking, musing,
out at the beds of pansies which edged
the graveled walk of the garden
Waking up from her brief fit of alb
straction, the younger woman ex-
claimed, disconsolately: 81 don't know
anything that makes me feel more dis
couraged, as well as discontented, than
to mediate upon the foolish things l
did yesterday
But if yesterdays folly makes to-
days wisdom?" suggested the woman at
the other window.
81 don't believe it, rushed on the
first speaker. "Whcn remember how
stupid l was yesterday, it seems hope
less to try to be wi User to-day. When l
reflect upon the absurd blunders made
in past years, feel sure / will continu-
ally fall in the same pit. When re-
call how weakly l acted at various
times, I despair ever acting with
strength Sometimes l imagine / shall
grow worse instead of better. Before,
when l acted foolishly, L felt confident
l was wise To-day, no matter how
wise l try to be, am sure am fool
ish!"
''My dear" said the older woman,
with smile, half protesting, half hesi-
tating," don't you know"
"Oh, yes; | know" the other cried
''You are going to tell me it is good To
know ones self But think the more
/ learn of myself, the more dissatisfied
I become with my study and its results
This striving and longing 10 see our
selves as others see us tends only TO
promote self-deception. 1t fosters self
suficiency and creates selfishness, pure
and simple. 1t makes self the center,
the pivot around which all the rest of
the world revolves. l became con-
WINGED of that long ago. And If it is so
Improbable to study ones outward
man, or woman, how much worse
creature must be developed from the
heart which is forever studying its Own
motives, scrutinizing its own feelings.
using microscope to pick TO pieces its
own emotions! Such self-analysis be-
comes degrading! ! believe it destroys
every spontaneous, honest feeling one
can have!"
The older woman laid down her book,
and looked, still smiling. at the speaker.
The younger sat with her hands fold
ed idly in her lap. She looked far across
the pansy beds. She looked across the
hedge which divided the garden from
the road, across the birches which lined
the river itself, to where the low hills
reached the sky upon the other side.
Sometimes / think" she said, low
and passionately, that it is al a will
derness and al dark. We fall so cruelty,
and never can fully right ourselves We
make such pitiful, such terrible
mistakes, and, with our hardest
efforts, we never can altogether
rectify them. We spend our best
years on such childish toys, and
when we see the true worth OF the
things we have despised, behold the
time to obtain them has gone by. What
is the meaning OF it alp. What is the
meaning" She caught her breath, and
there was a moments silence
Dear" said the older woman. and
her voice shook a little. You have not
gone all the way yet. Wait You can
not see why the road given you was the
safest until you have Travelled 10 It's end.
You can not read the word until you
have got ali it's parts. II is not so long.
dear Wait Wait little longer"
And the advice. of its kind. was good.
But then, who takes adwice7 Not
youth. which is the season Of tempest.
Of strain. Of great extremes. To learn
Of experience is 20 acquire knowledge
By discipline, and TO conquer in the
struggle with ourselves. We must
await and :rust-Harper's Bazaar.