Fort Worth gazette. [volume] (Fort Worth, Tex.) 1891-1898, 1891-04-19

had retained all, and there was not the
sllghtest break in the continuity OF her rec
objections. But there was little comfort to
DE derived from the certainty that she had
not been dreaming ane that everything had
| really taken place precisely rs she remem-
pered H. She would have given all she pos
Sessed which was much, 10 return to the
hour OF noon on that same day
In so far as very unruly nature can nm
| derstand Itself, CnOrna understood the
| springs or the actions she regretted and
| confessed that in all likelihood she would
| 10 again as she had done at each successive
! stage. Indeed, since the last great ont
| break OF her heart she realized more than
| ever the great proportions which her love
| had OF late assumed and she saw that She
was indeed ready, as she had said, 10 dare
everything and risk everything for the sake
| OF obtaining the very least show OF passion
IN return II was quite clear to her. since
She mad failed so totally. that she should
nave mad patience, tha: She ought to have
accepted gratefully the mans offer of
orotherly devotion and trusted to time 10
pflng about further and less plat0nic de-
Nelopheut. But she was equally sure that
she could never have found that patience
ana tlaJ II she mad restrained herself 10
Gay she would have given way tomorrow.
She possessed 81 the blind Indifference In
Tic OF the Siav nature when dominated by
passion. She hdd shown il in her rash
readiness to face Israel kafka at the mo-
ment OF leaving her own house. If she
could not have what she Ionged for. she
cared as little what became OF her is she
cared Tor hafk2'S own fate She had
Pul one OBJECT, one passion. one
desire, and 10 all else her indiffcr
ehce was supreme. Life and death in this
world or the next Were less weighty than
feathers IL I scale that measures hundreds
OF tons. The very idea of balance was for
the moment beyond her imagination. For
Il while, indeed, the pride OF 4 woman n
once young, beautiful and accustomed to
authority. had kept her firm in the deter
lLlnatlon TO be loved for herself as she be-
ueVed that she deserved 70 be loved and |
Just so long Is that remained. she had held |
nsf mead hlgh, confidently expecting that |
the mask of ind;fcnue would soon he sbiv |
cred, that the eyes she aGorei would soften |
with warm light. that the hand she wor- |
Shlpped would tremOe suddenly. us though |
waking TO life within her own But Thar |
pride was gone, ami from its disappearance |
there had peen but one step to the most
utter depreciation of soul TO which z woman |
can descend AMI from that again but one
step more to i resolution almost stupid in
us hardened ooStinacy. But as though to
snow now comp ,etelY she was dominated |
by the man whom she could not WIN. even |
her last determination had yielded under
lhe slightest pressure from his will She
had left her house beside him with the mad
resolve never again to be parted from him
cost what it might. reputation. fortune life
.tSeN And yet ten minutes had not elapsed
before she found herself alone. trusting
TO mere word Of his for the
nope OF ever seeing MIN again.
She seemed to have no Individuality left.
He had spoken, and she had obeyed He |
4 pT Tn1t ,fGatTr 4 h.. l., !
ing. she was even more ashamed of this
nan OF having wept, and sob0ed, and |
ragged herself IT his feet In The first |
moment she had submitted. de!udiug her
ELI with the idea she had expressed that |
lie was consigning her to prison, and that
Ter freedom was dependent on his will
ne foolish deluSion vanished She saw
hat she was free, when she chose. TO de- I
cend the steps she had just mounted 10
o out through the gate she had lately en-
cred. and 10 90 whitherSoever she I
you'd, al the mere risk of meeting Israel !
-dika. And that risk she heartily de /
pissed, being thoroughly brave bv c
allure, and utterly Indifferent to death by /
Orce of circumstances +
She comtorted herself with the thought h
nat the Nanderer would come TO hey once
least, when she was pleased to send Tor c
in. She had that loyal belief in his sin f
erlty which even in the worst characters c
iiSCPdtdoIS from true love until Violently
verthrown by nrefutable evidence. and | d
Inch sometimes has such power as TO re Il
I'm even then, ove"throwing the evidence | VI
the senses themselves. Are there not | =
en- VINO trust women and women who | ii
ust men in spite of the vilest betrayals, 7
owe is indeed ofteHer the inspirer of sub d
ctlve visions, creating in the beloved OBJ -
ct the qualities il admres and the virtues
adoreS, powerleSs to accept what it is not =
lining to see, dwelling in Il fortress Z,
larded by intangible, and therefore indie r.
ructible, fiction, and proof against the ar {:
lery OF facts. Cnorna's confidence was, b
'wever, not misplaced. The man whose Is
omise she had received had told the truth b
hen ne had said that he had never broken h
) promise whatsoever e.
TO BE CONTINUED IS