Fort Worth gazette. [volume] (Fort Worth, Tex.) 1891-1898, 1891-07-05

to myseaf, Suppose I do not go to wildly
| gay euppess after the opera, or on racket
| ing sasighins parties with a sham matron.
| Suppose I Am forced to curb myself in
every why. ! ought not to complain, and
| I am positively ungrateful for so doing.
| Learn, Ethel, to be coutsnted with what
you have achisved To1t Went qui salt
attendre."
With this maxim, and with the little
caschword Of which Mr.. Temple was SO
| fond-'Patience, gentlemen, and shuttle"
Il comforted myself I shufed. 1 ad-
dressed myself once more TO the routine of
| gaining fsvors, and tried to like what
had as had not what liked, and think
my spirits really rose to considerable ex-
tent.
But the occasion when really felt So
perior to the world were those hours when
into the delighted ears of Lofty and Olive
/ poured my condolences, and for them
satirized my acquaintance. Not that I
was III natured: but ny nerves were 50
soothed and my temper so improved by the
process that it was double pleasure to me.
1t was 80 satisfying to be able to mimic the
little foolish ways of the men, to hit off the
Alterations Of the girls-and 1 could do it
in the best natured way in the world. OF
ten, while some fussy dowaSer was draw
ing on my discretion or my patience, have
said to myself, you shall pay for this
my dear lady! Shall not remember your
bonnet strings, and your ridiculous waist,
and that egregious false front? Be careful
about the pronunciation of your French, I
beg, or shall be tempted at some fut IRE
time to imitate you.'' And oh, the men
who patrouized me! 1t was such fun to
see them bowling to Lofty or Olive on the
evenings of the days on which we had been
laughing at them. 1t was so delightful to
pretend innocence, TO lead them on in their
folly! protest, believe girl can make
man say or think anything. Well, [
may have been i'll natured; but consider
the provocation.
Toward the end Of Lent 1 decided on a
little offensive strategy, and got up q
couple of small Saturday afternoon teas
Of course Lofty and Olive came to my as
sistance | decked up our comparatively
bare walls with hundred or so of japanese
fans which l got for a few cents apiece,
and, in a moment of inspiration, conceived
the happy thought Of covering our dresses
also with the airy adornments.
| was enormously successful, and the
men who Struggled in to my first tea were
so much amused by the tout ensemble that
they beat up all the afternoon louugers,
and for the last hour on our first afternoon
and all through the second the little parlor
was perfectly damned. This success gave
me an idea OF a new outlet for my energies,
and at the end OF my first winter longed
more than ever to play 2 different role in
society.
Finally, one day when I was thinking
over my prospects for the next season, L
hit OF the simple solution Of all my diff
cuities-Marriagei can honestly say that
1t had never occurred to me before in ex-
actly that light, and when first thought
of it It gave me little chill even when
exuited in the idea Of being my own mis-
tress and a matron in Israel Now saw
why my mother wished me to be discun-
tented with the present state of affairs.
Now saw how could obtain such a foot
hold rs would give mo the right to defy
criticism. Yet / gave the subject every
consideration. At one time l neatly put
the idea quite away from me and decided,
IN accordance with some romantic notions
had in my head, to wait until really fell
in love, no matter what might happen in
the meantime. But was it at all sure that
I should fall in love? While remained in
my RiCCSilS SkGb~G VI lALliO, 81 L u, L
should all the time be wishing for NOR,
liberty. Il know men too well already"
thought I, land / have only two more win
tiers in which to find the man of my heart.
For the matter of that am ] not too cal
culating in my disposition for it to be prob
able that / ever should fall in love in any
desperate fashion? On the other hand,
what do gain by deciding to have ali the
fun can before settling down.
l counted up the girls knew who had
made good matches, and found that most
of them had taken their opportunities ut
best and gone Oft at least early in their
second winters; and this was especially
true OF girls VINO, like myself, had had 10
money. On the whole decided that mat
rrnony was my racket, as Bran Bouiiter
would lave expressed it, and having made
up my mind I Immediately proceeded to
select husband. For [ had to mary
somebody, and to wait until 4 marriage de
raison presented itself would have been,
under the circumstances, quite as foolish
as to wait for marriage & 'amour. Oh, men.
menl - but, dear me, if l apostrophize
them, and warn them that they do not
know what Is going on IL the minds of de-
mure beings whom they patronize ana pro
tect they can perfectly well reply that we
do not always comprehend the creatures
whom we consider so coarse and stupid
Alas, am afraid the human race is deceit
Jul as class!
1t was ouly natural that when once I
began to think over my male acquaintance
should first breathe with twin born
sigh" the name of my adored Bran l
mused over his charms for a while, but
soon put the thought from me aud pro-
ceeded to business, for was not sure that
| cared for him more than most girls did,
ror WAS at RIl sure of my ability to over
come him. Moreover, he was poor; but
must frankly confess that just as this
thought crossed my mind caught myself
humning 1.-THE desert were a paradise-If
thou vert there! II thou vert there!''
Dear Bran! But proceeded to business,
and after disposing OF one or two other men
MACY Temple, for instance, for whom I
felt much friendship but no particular af-
lection, and who was quite as poor as Mr.
Bouuter-I soon decided, with reserva-
ton in favor Of any body more eligible who
might turn up in the meantime, upon Mr.
Charter
My reasons were convincing Penn |
Charter was young, healthy to degree, |
very rich, OF simply indispensable position
and quite good natured. knew that If l !
once succeeded in charming him his nat
urSl ohsSnacy would make him marry me |
in spite Of his mother, who was a sc-asgy, |