Fort Worth gazette. [volume] (Fort Worth, Tex.) 1891-1898, 1891-07-16


All, how / remember the ecstatic bliss of
those delicious afternoons, when stretched
myself out On the brown rocks with Bran
by my side, looking out on the bright,
quickly moving sea, or along the sun
burned coast to where lay Newport, nysti-
cal and suggestive, shimmering in the
ha1y horizon! In spite of all Bran's at
fractions longed at times to sail over to
that magic harbor and see for myself if
there were really yachts and drugs and
magnificent heroes and gorgeous times, as
there were reported to be. AT Narrsgan-
sett ther, were two things to do-'rock"
Ia the afternoon with Mr.. Bouilter, ''pi-
azzs" in the evening with Bran. The
beach, the studio, the Lighthouse, the hops,
were as nothing in comparison. All. how
remember how we used to start out in
along the dusty road thought only OF the
envy caused in every feminine breast by
my easy possession of this tall and graceful
creature swinging along beside me, with
his bronzed complexion and golden curis,
his beautiful coats and careless carriage;
but when we had passed the black and
dusty pier and had Segun to tread the
crisp grasses and hucklebarries saw the
sweep of the horizon before me, and
thought only of Bran and romance!
At last his two weeks were up pre-
pared myself for the parting and made up
my mind to draw the curtain upon the last
bit of poetry in my Mfe-but, to my sur
pre-, he did not 60. At frat ! was in
clined to be little angry, and faIcied that
he would interfere with my designs On Mr.
Charter, but on second thoughts L was
very glad he was still on the ground. For,
l reflected, if 1 make a dead set at Mir.
Charter he will dodge me, but as he has
never taken the trouble to consider that
the real private attitude of most girls
toward him must be that of Indifference
he will be confused If I can make him
think that am reeeiling his advances. L.
then, first make him believe that he is
cutting out Mr.. Beullter and then am
cavalier with him he will be piqued. and it
will be easy enough for me to lead on. But
l must watch my chances carefuliy-in
vain Is the net spread in the sight of any
bird!
My reasoning was quite just, and the
only faw in my scheme was that Mr.. Boull-
ter might see through it; but l comforted
myself by thinkir z that he would not take
the trouble to ponder deeply over the rea-
sons which led nae to smilo on Mr.. Charter,
and that having had two weeks OF me he
himself was probably preparing to worship
some other divinity before my very eyes,
Before going any further must recount
an affair that made me somewhat dissetis-
fed with myself. In making choice
among the young men Of nay acquaintance
l had thought for a monsnt of Mr.. Hall,
but had decided that his character was too
lofty and severe Ter me TO be able to make
much of an impression on hirn- had
Come to regard him with . mixture Of awe,
liking and Impotence. His conversation
was at times NOR. profoundly interesting
to me than that of any other man I knew,
and other times 10 bored me horribly. He
was crave wisbaut being ct all gloomy,
and his manner and address always excited
my greatest respsct and admiratisn.
Possessed Of large fortune, be had de-
voted himself to study, and had already
written law book that had been highly
praised. I knew we'll thar st some future
day be would be very distinguished man,
and a faint aRsteR asisated my heart at the
thought of being Els wife: but did not
think myself at all up to his standard, and
possibly I may aaso have shuddered at tho
prospect Of being too gocS. At any rata
never attributed the deeorovs attentions
he paid me to anything but his feelings
concerning my father, about whom he
spoke to me several times; and though I
frequently got into very earnest discus
sions with him, and on more than one &C.
casion hopelessly lost myself in the endeav-
or to comprehend his explanations of
modern theories and the philosophy Of
history and such deep subjects renem-
Der that he talked TO noe one whole eyen-
ing about Hypatia, which had Just been
reading, snd though was desperate1y in
terested scarcely understood hall Of what
he sssd, and only got gsnefA inpsession
that people had begun to be wicked as
sson as they became Chzisttaus, and had
not grown better ~ time wore on, sell l
.hocounted fer his astansisns "a the score
of his general fondness fer discussion and
his Willingness 10 Instruct isaoraas little
geess q kc myself
AnA4Sr?poee had IN innate dislike for
IA nsieteac5. He wss eurtDuslY uHct1-
iolAnd aannsss irrational in his regard for
Sglenazs At condQsk He nessr spoke Of
u ideaa In alx WAY est hHXae tAiaking