Fort Worth daily gazette. (Fort Worth, Tex.) 1882-1891, 1890-04-06

unassailable, can make herself, with her
paltry exceptions to other people IS con-
duct, her Judgment in extremes, her
deliberate preference of the trivial COM
monplace to anything higher when the
two clash, character which lower in so
ciety would be sordid as most women are
sordid and vindictive beyond belief.
1 have tried to make friends with
women, but they go about picking up
needles and pins off the carpets when
they are not busy sticking them into
people. The good ones are so taken up
with conventions and the Pundita Rama
bal or the Indian schools, they have no
time or thought for the solitary woman
in the next block eating her heart out
with loneliness in want of human smile
or word of affection. Have you ever
known this famine of human nature SO
that you were glad eff the veriest stray
crubs of geniality, grateful when the
grocer gave cherry coed morning, or
when the cosy ohambermaid chatted in a
kindly way as she filed the
pitchers at night, or the bell boy
put on some unconscious touch
of courtesy as he took your message?
I've lived on these crumbs for weeks and
months, when it seemed as if my heart
was dying within me for want of some
gentle good will but never found one of
my own sex who could understand this.
They all thought it was love sickness, for
want of lover. Good heavens! ism It
there any kindness on earth outside of
the love that ends in matrimony? 1 call
that the most selfish thing III the world
The tepid thing people know as friend
ship is too Laodicean to endure, too weak
cambria tea for slipping. A gown more
becoming than your friends is enough to
disturb good feeling, and if hard
work for dozen years has brought
You where you gain few dollars more
than others you are made to suffer for
it. How often l have been told after q
days work which exhausted soul and
body, "You earn your money a great
deal too easily, - because 1 did not get it
by sewing or working in a hot kitchen.
The kitchen would not be hot or vulgar
If had to work there, and 1 would set
nv brains to work to gain as much re-
ward for my labor as 1 have now. If a
man comes into the atmosphere woman IS
friendship flies like the crystals, which
seek the farthest point from each other.
I have tried giving up all the gentlemen
to them, but that didn't seem to work,
either. One was baited for superiority.
Or, if found a really bril-
liant, interesting woman, whom one
could meet with pleasure three
times, and the fourth one was not
mp to the mark, it was all over. Be-
cause you were not bright one evening,
therefore you had come to the end of
your resources and were not worth eulti-
waiting. 1 tried then TO make friends OF
men, spite of the sage dictum of lady
writers that the less men and women
have to do with each other, except in
the way of marrying, the better, which
puts intercourse on very low footing.
At least the experiment was not insipid,
for had trouble enough to keep frog
pond healthy. My friends, half of them
held my indifference to matrimony nm
moral, eloaking some vicious bent of
mind, or gave me credit for pretence.
The frankest treatment could not
keep any man, whose presence
gave half an evenings pleasure,
from counting me as one OF his
conquests, and he was surest to feel so
when his defects of opinion or manners
were hardest to tolerate. Lads of twenty
whom | liked because forsooth no ap-
pearance Of lovemaking would hold in
their case. fancied that 'tthe old maid
was after them. way of putting the
matter which laid the ghost Of prefer
ence. in their bright wild spirits. Did I
admire the music OF one, the sketches
of another, the poems of third, or the
conversation of fourth, frankly enough
in ali conscience, l was sure TO hear
some reference to Miss Blank s devotion,
her. susceptibility which would drive any
modest woman out OF her senses wi tn ds-
paragement. Or if a nice mau did not.