San Antonio daily light. [volume] (San Antonio, Tex.) 1886-1907, 1890-11-15

Sne ala ali tnat she coulu 10 throw us TO-
gether, and, though L have always known
that it was in by far the largest degree the
fault of my own foOlishneSs and vanity, yet
seeing how young | wAs-l think 1t was
in some degree her fault too, that at the
end of few months / should have become
so far entangled with him that she had it in
her power to tell me, when / got frightened
at last, and wanted to draw back, that l
could not do il.
When he asked me to marry him she per-
suaded me- that it was impossible for me to
refuse him,-and it ended In the way you
know. / returned home at the end of six
months,-and two months afterward we
were married.
LAS you know, too, lived with him for
SIX years. We spent some of that time
abroad, and some of it in the south of Eng
land, for he was fond of moving from place
to place, and sometimes we lived at his own
house near Dumfries. He had a good prop
erty there.
None of his own family, as was natural
enough, had liked his marriage, and his
mother, and every near relation that he had
on his fathers side, though they visited us,
do now, blame them for this, merely tell
1t to you to account for the fact that they
afterward all took part against me.
Il did not love my husband, as you know,
and was never happy during the six years
that was his wife. L never denied this,
though it damaged my own case, when it
was questioned at the last. did not love
him, nor, after very short time, did he
seem to love me.
Il think he had only cared for me at first
because he had thought me pretty, and of
course he got tired of my face when he had
it with him always. Much of the fault 1
know, was mine. had been flattered by
10 -hn., II ho Il.,,, tIo,N
child, but after we were married, when L
grew older land grew Older very FAST saw
him with other eyes than had seen him
with at first.
He is dead, and l want to say nothing
hard of him, but his was selfish and shall
low nature. He was man to like best
when you knew him least. had not been
married to him for six months when
would have given all that had in the world
not to be his wife.
"As you go on reading this do you recog-
niZe any story that you have ever heard be-
fore! If you do, it is useless for me to keep
up any further disguise, or to go on telling
you facts as il they were new to you that
all the country was ringing with little more
than year ago.
''If ysu do not But even then, what
Is the use of even trying to keep you in
ignorance any longer! What does it mat
ter now! will tell you my name, and
make an end of it, for when you know my
name you know my secret tno.
| was called Esther. after my mother
but that was only my second name-my
home name. never used it after / was
married. My first name was Mary, l am
Mary Carruthers."
Ut was when he came to this line
that Mr.. Dunstan, with that exclama-
ton of dismay, flung the letter down. J
Do you, wonder nOw," she went on,
that could not tell this to you?-that it
seemed easier to die than to do it? Do you
remember how you asked me to tell you my
secret when you were holding me for the
you are shuddering now at the thought that
you ever held me so, or thought you loved
me.
Here is the bitterness of it tooAthat
can say so little for myself. You know that
at the trial almost the whole that / could
band was poisoned l cannot tell who poi
soned him.
II know what all the world knows, but
know no more than that. l cannot clear
myself have no hope Of clearing myself
in this world.
HE was ill before his death for FIVE days.
l nursed him, you know, and they said
cine that he took, at that or any other time,
passed through my hands.
"No doubt there were other people also
who lad admission TO his room. but no one
amongst them had any interest In his death,
i still say an, as said from the first Tfhe
died from noiS0n I do NOT believe that II
was given to him Intentionally by any per-
~ had meyer been in the habit of poino
much To that room Of his in which he snenf
50 much of his time, and that he called his
laboratory, where all his chemicals were
kept.
q "In the first year of our marriage used
to be with him there sometimes, but never
after that, except for few minutes now
and then, If he happened to call me for
something that he wanted done, or il went