The sun., 1890-01-26

been written 10 me the last yenRA and oompre.
bend less and less what am and what ought TO be-
stay with me- dear Lotte, thou art my anchor be.
tween thses rssfA
anodyne Of my porrowL
Nov 2a-i Wish to Be only where thou art for where
thou art there Il my heaven.
Dec 2a-Adisu. my inmost beloved. 10 whom turn
All my thouRhtA to whom refer everything.
Dec 30 dear Jotte am indebted 10 thee for my
happiness At homo and my pleasure abroad The peace
the eQuanimity with which accept aud give rests on
the foundation Of thy love.
April q I7sa-FarewolL thou sweet ioy Of my life,
thou only desire of my whole being
April Ia-How think Of thee how present thou art
To me how thy love guides like a familiar star.
Wlunottellthe Ny longing could not increase while
write to thea The skies brighten and hope for some
good dAyL lam busy and employ myself with earthly
things on earthly Ny inner life 10 with thee
ana my kingdom not OF this world Adsu best one.
Here are some musical illustrations from the
letters OF the period.
July ~ i7s2-Thou art heartily good and dear and
etthou oanst not do too much For only breath only
q sound from thee not in accord from thee to mo
changes the whole atmosphere around mo.
AZ music iS nothing without the human voice, 90
would my life be nothing without thy love.
Aug. 2S-As q sweet melody lifts us on hrh. and
builds under and sorrow soft cloud 10 ia thy
being and thy love to me.
Oct io-The very sight OF the Imhof Tcharlotte q
Sisterl gave me pain She IA like tho seventh which
makes the ear long for the chord.
The latter half Of 1889 seems to havo been
troubled by q lovers quarrel. at the nature OF
which we cannot guess. The references to IL
In the letters are these
July 10 i7sa-Te me- dear Lotto how were you
when you got up. Tell me Ia II physical or hast thou
something on thy soul which makes thee ny Thou dost
not believe how thy condition yesterday pain ed me- Tho
only interest OF my life is that you should bo open with
me. cannot endure reserve.
July 22.-I will not be troublesome but only say this
much. that have not deserved It. That feel and
keep silence
July 23-so. thank God. 1t was a misunderstanding
that led thee to write thy stl stunned by IL
II was like death There is only word and no idea
for such thing
July PA hope It will So YET Sit and look before
me II 10 like n void In my whole being thousand
thanks for thy love Icannot collect myself Do not
worry Thou canst do nything oh. beloved, I will
come as Boon ~ can.
July al slept long and well; thy carly message has
beon received and in the nrst greeting OF the day
am deal better yet feel lame, like one struck by
lightning but this will pass on IL the one medicine
ID employed When think Of 1t ehudder again and
shall never rest until am safe for the future.
About the beginning of May. 1888, the serenity
OF the poets mind seems to have been again
deeply troubled BY some occurrence, which
owing to the loss Of Frau Won STEMS letters
cannot be now explained. May ne writes:
The way in which thou saidst to mo yesterday even
Ing that thou hadst story tell me- tortured me n
moment feared 1t was something referring to our
love and know not why have been for somo TINA
In anxiety. How wonderful that tho entire weight OF
ones happpinesS should hang such single thread
Peace seems to have soon after been restored
10 him and he writes:
July s-The memory Of thy love 10 ever with me- and
ny INCLINATION 70 thea as the fear Of God 10 the beRn.
ming Of wisdom.
Sept s-I wish you could bo with all day
md In the evening when alone step forth out OF
he wall Thou wouldBt feel what feel with 90 mpch
10y. that am and can be thine alone. How hone to
ee thee again moment Thou hast bound me to thee
With every bond.
This tranquility continued to the end of 1888
and through the first half OF 1884. as the follow.
ng extracts show:
Jan. "A 17sL-Yesterday evening Il sat up late and
estraned my longing to bs with thee. I thank thee
hat thou dost possess much love for me- II is my
'eSt fortune
March a-surely thou must have thought Of me on
waking as did thee, for such . love cannot be
mo sided
June 5-snce am awav from thee have no object
n life know not what to make OF day when
10 not sec thee. 1t pains most when enjoy some
hing good without sharing 1t with thee.
June IA would like to talk thee always only Of
ny love How lonely am words cannot express IRee
Iobody. and when see anybody sec only one form
efore me in the company
June Ill continually feel my nearness TO thee thy
resence never leaves me. In thee have standard
or all women. yea, for all human beings and in thy
ove standard for every lot Not that 1t makes the
est of the world seem dark 1t rather brghtens it. Isee
light plainly what people are, what they wish to think
To- aud enjoy grant them what Is theirs and delight |
myself secretly in comparing my possession OF so In.
estructible treasure. |
June 2a-YeA dear Lotte now Ii 1t FIRST plain how |
hou hast become and remAinest my own half ar no |
ldivduRl Independent being All my weaknesses have
hung upon hee have protected my vulnerable points
y thee have supplied by thee all my detectG When
m far from thee my condition IL 4 strange one On |
ne side am Armored aud wSAponed. on the other like
egG. for have neglected to harness myself where
hou shield and shelter delight in belon Eng on.
rely TO thee. and in soon seeing thee again love
verythiug about thee and everything makes me lovo
hee moro.
In August. 1884. Goethe accompanied the
irand Duke on visit to Brunswick. and as
'rench was the language used at that court his
eloved imposed on him the task Of writing to
er In that language. He obeyed reluctantly.
aging that he could not bring himself to ex-
ress his true sentiments In foreign tongue.
Nevertheless," he says. II will persevere. for
I ever learn that language which every ore
links he knows. 1t will be by thee. and shall
AXE pleasure In owing to thee this talent. as
We 80 many things worth much more"
ozen long letters in French were the result,
nd In the course OF them he says:
Aug 81, l7s+-Ah. my only friend dear conndant of all
thoughts how feel the need of talking to thee and
all my reflections. Thou hast Isolated
% in tho world have nothing to say to anybody. /
III not to bs silent and that 10 all
Aug So-Eoi Ny love for thee 10 no longer passion;
10 diSeAse-a disease dearer to me than tho most
,rfect health, and OF which wish not to be cured.
BY the way. this Characterization OF love as a
lsease has been adopted by Stendhal In his
BAmour." and he Is generally reputed to
ave origina ated IL.