The Seattle post-intelligencer. [volume] (Seattle, Wash. Terr. [Wash.]) 1888-1914, 1890-06-01

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! nsve never dreausd Of her once. thouxh
- = - much h my thoughts as I'll times
tespeesaiiy when am sueceasfnI and haye
proepered IN anythjng1 that the recrllsction
g e nef - ~ eeeential part Of nsy besne. ana
= = inssPsfahls from my sxissencs q the
beating q my hesFt h. =
Nossithstanding his fears thas these
is4s which he Was disposed 10 leok upon
= : vision In N indistinc; risce. which
Vas quite sublime in its Northumberland
l Vas Waited By spirit could uos make
ous the lace nor do I fecosleet
that ! desired TO do so. IL vore
blue drapery as The Madonna
nIeni 70 picture BY Raphael. and bore 10
ceps IN staturs. I think tbnt ans not
snfe1 that recognized the voice Any
way. knew il was poor Mars srirst.
was not 81 AL afraid. bat in . great ssel,rhf.
90 tnat wept very much. ADD stretching
out mr. arms 70 IL called IL Dear At this
.houEns = rscolled. and felt immediately
~. ~, Dol BEING o. my gross nasars ought
Forgive me. said We poor living cres-
lures are only able 70 express ourselves by
looks and words. / have si.ed the word
most natural 10 our affections, and you
Know my heart II xas so full az
compassion and sorrow for ms-which I
knew spiritually. for. AL have said. /
aidnf perceive is emotions by its
iace-that II cut ne TO the heart, and 1
sasd. sobSing: o give me some token
thss you have really visited nue. Form a
wish. Is said | thought. reasoning with
myself III ] form selfish wish il will
vanish. 20 hastily discarded such hotes
anti anxietses OF my own ~ came into my
miiid. aud said: Mrs Hogarth is sur-
rounded with great disfres~es tobserve, /
~ NJ - T.
~ to mortal creatureg Will you extrl-
cate herr les. And her sxfricaticn is
20 De certainty 10 me that this has really
harpened?' Yes But answer me one
other question, said in an agony Of en-
treaty lest IL should leave n~, What il
the true resigion7'
As Il paused moment before replying
said. Good God in such an agony Of
haste lest !; should go away-.You think
As do. that the form OF religion does not
20 greatly matter II We try 20 do good
VI. said. observing that IL still hesitated.
AMI Was moved with the greatest CON-
passion for me. perhaps the Roman
catholic Is the bestg Perhaps lt
makes one think OF God oftener. and be.
said the spirit, fun OF such he veniy ten
derness for me fhAt ! felt as II my heart
would break; for you il is the best Then
! awoke. with the tears running dawn my
face. and myself in exactly the condition
OF the dream.
This dream. his biogrspher tells US. re-
manned with him all his life. Never from
pis waking thoughts was the recollection
altogether absent IL was the feeling OF
his life that always had a asteYy over
him. In the year before he died the ia
nuence was potenty upon him. Through
later troubled years" writes Mr.. Forster.
whatever was worthiesi in him found in
this an ark Of safety, and Ii was fhe nobler
part Of his being which had thus become
also the essential. It gave 10 success what
success hy itself had no power TO give; and
nothing could consist with IL for any length
OF time that was not OF good report and
pure"
IL is hard to give reason for his conduct
toward his wife Catherine. when he de-
cided to live apart from her in 1857.
III.
why Is 10 that as with poor David. he
wrote in that year. "a sense comes always
crushing on nae row when fall into low
spirits. as Of one happiness have missed
in life, and one friend and companion |
have never made 90
And again. ut is much better to 60 on
and fret than to stop anu fret. As for re-
pose-for some men there's no such thing
in this life. This has the appearance of
small sermon. but IL is SO often in my head
in these days that II cannot help coming
out. The old daysr-tne old days. shall l
ever. wonder. get the frame OF mind back
- II used to be them Something OF ~.
perhaps. but never quite as II used To be.
ind that the skeleton I'm my domestic
closet is becoming pretty biz one p
Expressions like these in letters written
while he VAS abroad prepared his friends
for the announcement after his return. He
wrote 10 John Forster, in whom he placed
the fullest confidence, Poor Catherine and
ere not made for each other. and there IL
no help for IT, II is not only that she
makes me uneasy and unhappy. but that
make her 70 too, and much more SO. She
is exactly what you know In the way of
being aniiable and complying: but We are
strangely ill-assorted for the bond that IS
between us God knows that she would
have been thousand times happier IL she
had married another kind of man. and
that her avoidance of this destiny would
have been q, least equally good for Us both.
am often cut to the heart by thinking
what 4 piiy IL is for her own sake that
| ever fell In her way. and II l
were alex or disabled tomorrow /
knew how sorry she would be. and how
deeply gYieved myself To think how We
had lost each other. But exactly the same
incompaiibiiiiy wonid arise the moment
make her understand me or suit rs to each
other. Her temperament viii not 60 with
mine Ii mattored not 50 mitch when We
hsd only Ourselves 20 consider, bat reasons
have been growing since which make u al
nut hopeless that we should even try TO
siruggle on What is now Detailing me
have seen steadily coming ever since the
aays YOU remember when Mary Mary
Dickensl was born; and know too we'll
that YOU cannot and no one can help tne
Why have written | hardly know, bat 10
is a miserable sort of comfort that you
should be clearly aware how matters
stand.
Ills reloinder 20 Forsisr's reply was in
the same strain
You are not so tolerant As perhaps you
might be of waywari aud unsettled feel
ing which Is part. SUPPOSE. of the Tenure
ON which one holds an imaginative me-
and which have. as you ought To know
well. often only kept down by riding over
il like dragon. Bat let that 60 by.
make no maadlin complaint agree WITH
YOU As 10 the very possible incidents, even
moi less possible than mines that might
and must often occur to the married con-
sli,ion when IL is entered into very young
I am always dseply sensible az the wonder
fuI exercise have OF life and its highest
sensations and have said To myself Tor
years, and have honestly and truly felt
'rhis is the drawback Ia such "a.
reer ana Is not 10 lie complained
~ i saw i, and feel ID gow a.
strongly A. ever | did; AMI | do no,
vita that view put all this forward. But
the wears have not msie il easier 10 eear
Tar either OF Us and for her sake as well as
mine the wish will force itself aYon nae
that something might Re done. | know
foo we'll IL Is Impossible There Is the TACT,
ana that IL all one can say. Ner are YOU
IN suppose that Disguise tFoa myself what
n.trht be nrred on tire other side. claim
no Immunity from blame. There Is plenty