Oxford Democrat. [volume] (Paris, Me.) 1833-1933, 1890-06-17

cripple In the play ground whom j had
kicked In . moment ~ rage. the re-
Ixoachful. gentle blue eyes of dying
dove. that ! had wantonly shot In q
grove one glorious June afternoon. mean.
ncs-cs that had b., guilty of. even TO
the most minute det .: neglected oppor.
tunities. miSlirstcd action-ail these on
such occasions gathered about me and
broke the solemn stiffness 81 the night
with clanorvus upbraidings.
After time tile most terrible phan.
tom. the most Jsrtinacious monster 81
them all. made it, appearance. and how
cred lecring at me In the somber night
Il was the suggestion ~ death "lou
must die!- u saii and few away.
swell. what u iti Tens ~ billions
have died. and everyday living must
also die. Therrs Young Blank. with all
his youth anj wealth. he l. SURF Ia die
some day. anj ~ la. the beautiful Miss
Heur,tic anil the nesiy married cOuplc.
the Jcunesss---all ~ them. not one ~
thcn will H. sparc,ll suppo-e ! mustl
They u all follow along sooner or later" Z"
And yet ihe-c reflections that every
son AMI daughter ~ man must undergo
the same fate gave me NO con-olatIon. i
wa. not willing to sl.ar- the common lot.
I wanted Ia livc-just to live. ouly tn
liyci IL NAV - that ! was not nor -
. coward than the majority 81 human
beings when they ilrSi b-gin a. conism.
plate the approach ~ the grea, buIchs'.
For months and month. fought his aT'.
pcarancc: felt Zoe myself a great com.
mi.eniion. an acute soruv that vas
obliged o. III. itwasonly when found
him clo-e enough to fr,l the brrath -
his nostrils that coa-.,l to fear him.
Early. ofthodos. religious training
made itself felt potentially. and there
we're moments when tile child taught
idea 81 an angry Col frO,hing With
rage. and M occan ~ fame rolling "a
forever it, sulphurOus billows. with its
shIieking and damned souls. fll-I ns
with inle-cTilablc terror anJ appfvhrn.
sion. Again. tie suggestion ~ annihila-
tion would I-'-.v. me With IT. awful
menace. To l.. oblitrrai'Si. a. d. spar
ai-j forever from friend. whom ! loved.
vas even more terrifying than the an.
ticipation ~ eternal torture.
In time tie inspection ~ thee 'arious
horrors duilr,l their hideous intensity.
a. the victim on th. wheel !, said To bs-
come ins-nsible to pain after the hrt
few blows A sI-cis- ~ numhncss, .
lsthargy I-ermeatsd m.. Tie subJcct
grew weari-ome ! said
III am hut an indc-crilably minute
.p.ck Ia the universal collection ~ hu-
man atoms am 10 no possible oOn-s-
quence COMPARED sith the siuIendous
mas. n there H. future Ia which
there is q judgment ~ human actions it
1. no morr than just that pay the I'm.
atty ~ my odsnscs All the trillions of
sT.cks that have lived AMI died. and sho
will live and die. will have a. meet the
same fate Why should distress myself
In regard Ia future life any more than
ob. % the animaloul@ which inhabit q
drop ~ water IN the mid.faciiicl ] am of
no more consequence IN the mighty az.
grcgaie of the illimitable uni,crSs than
this tiny and invisible CREATION viii
~orr, no longer
In tim. all the-- Chantasms. visions.
doubt. and appr-hcnsions disappeared.
Then profound pace took po--sssion
~ my soul Il was not the taciflc re-
po~. ~ hop. hat the relief which came
from the disapparanc. II the black
bruods that inc--~anily threatened dire
rc-ults II ~as subsistence ~ the thun-
dering waves and the casiisating winds.
The turbulcid -ea melted into gentle
swell. which bor, mc on With = -ooth.
ing. cradle ike motion. The ingoing
tide drifiei me along shore from which
q delicious T-rfums. lalsamic and lethai.
filed the atmosphere. Twilight came.
as. tranquilliEcl 10y the heavy ciors. !
doaied languidly and rainlcssly on and
on. I'LL the twilight de~I-ned into eternal
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