The Salt Lake herald. [volume] (Salt Lake City [Utah]) 1870-1909, 1889-05-29


days after, like an honorable woman-yol
were always that to me-you confessed
your love for me in return for the deeI
! love l had for you. l called often from tha
time; yes, daily was at your house, or a.
least, daily did 1 write you, and you always
! sent love messages in return. had been {
celibate for years, and when / loved you, il
was my first true love, and SACRIFICED my
correspondence, my duties, my church, my
everything for you. You did say you loved
me truly. wholly, sincerely. Ever since
have been the most devoted and self-sacri
feed man that could be. / begged you tC
| let me announce our engagement You re
| fused but YOU did make private engage
ment with me. In three days from then
for reasons that only God and you and
shall ever know, l called and made you
promise, and registered a vow in heaven
about private and sacred matter, and you
then made anew that private engagement.
When l called Monday evening, you said
you and Miss Betty were going to the
Academy of Music to hear Gilmore'S concert
You said you afterward went to the theatre
alone without an escort. thought it pecu-
liar, and that the concert was next week.
You said | was wrong, and you got the
Euening NGCs and proved it to you. You
came back and apologized for telling your
tiance falsehOOd. That you told a false
hood is as evident as any proof can make
it. l was indignant and told you so, but be
cause loved you so l forgave and excused
you. The next day you deliberately wrote
me / am as free as ever, and that we would
better wait and see if we suited each other
MY love, my life, my Office as priest
had given to you, and you had plighted me
your love, and yet were not sure we suited
each other when by accident l realized
that you had not told me the truth the day
before. You pledged me that love and
continued to call, not caring nor fearing
what might be said, because loved you,
and sacrificed everything for you and your
love, and even now in all my pain and
broken heart woes"
Then he begs her to marry hin in spite
of family objections.
'''You let my heart run away with my
better judgment, but it was sweet at times
to be so loved by YOU They are your
blame, can any man or woman blame me,
when l am led to believe that 1 have been
fooled! We were engaged when you wrote
this. You contradict yourself. Let God
and man judge your love and mine. You
said you loved me, and when you, because
/ caught you in downright act of falsify
ing, which you tried to hide under the cover
of a caress, l demanded an explanation. The
next day you tried to break our engage
ment."
This letter closes with a hopeless review
of the interview and speaks pitifully of
SCharr'S illness.
Then comes a letter from Mrs. Smith, not
is unsigned and written on
linen paper bearing the monogram NJ. F. S.
in purple 1t reads: Il will see you if you
will be as kind to me as you possibly can.
Do not say things that either of US would
be sorry for
Mrs. Smith tells the effect of the long
letter read by Scharr had upon her: Dear
Mr.. Scharr: l am still so wounded at the
manner in which You wrote to me yeSter-
day. l do not feel that can see you Just
now, for | have some very bitter feelings
about the way you have spoken. You
could have very little love 10 have written
me as you have, and used such strong eX-
presSiOns | never had such an experience
Or such cruel words said to me. have al
ways been treated in a gentle, kind manner
0y those around me, and am perhaps lit
lie over-sensitive. God grant l may never
nave like experience. Your letters still
)urn my brain. Besides, Betty is here |
With me. We are alone and l do not want |
Ter to know how have been treated. How |
insulting your words seem. l would much |
ather bear them all alone. Sincerely,
MINIS
The same afternoon this letter was de-
written alphabetically and patched up the
reach:
DEAR HARRY: ! can see you at half past |
hree, if you can come then. l am shaking
Ike an aspen leaf from nervousness. Since
saw YOU last night feel like changed |
reature. What is it you threaten me with?
Remember l have no one to advise me. l
% not think you would do me harm for the
Ove you once bore l wish never had
70 70 80 IL,
yOu frighten me so much, l am afraid to
ee you, but still | am very fond of you,
nd will try to bear patiently everything
GU bring upon me. | am almost crazy to
ear from you to-day, but thought DR.
robinson was with you, and 1 was afraid
GU were i'll. Yours.
MARGARET"
Then came letter from Scharr kindlyin
one. In reply, Mrs. Smith says she is glad
e is himself again and begs him to go to
ne seashOre and get strong. Il could see
GU at 1890 or at II, or at any time this
fternOon after3 o'clock. You are brave
IAN now, Harry dear. Ever your true
MARGARET"
Then Dr. Hodges returned from Wash
lgton. He had been unsuccessful in his
lection and informed Scharr that his
ervices as assistant pastor would not be
equired after May /. This was commui-
lted to Mrs. Smith and brought a reply
riday last.
DEAR HARRY: am exceedingly panied
lat DR.. Hodges has behaved as he has to-
ard you. But he is no doubt smarting
nder the effects of the late convention yet, !
i'd when he is in better frame of mind :,
2 will retract what he said to-day. am :;
,rry you did not tell him what you said )
1u would and what | asked YOU to tell :
m. \
81 am sorry, Harry, you brought my :
anne in again, as now | feel / must see DR.. :
edges to tell him, as he thinks l am very :
UGH to blame, and condemns me, and {
Innot 90 TO church or take holy com :
union until l see him.
81 can see you at o'clock, but really I !;
ust retire early tonight, as l feel worn !,
IT, All me, | wish we both had perfect
st of mind. Yours faithfully, Margaret.
S. Do not come in carriage tonight"
His hopeless love and the certainty that =
, would lose his assistant pastorship
eyed on Scharr's mind, vet he finished
S work. Then he calmly set about max {
9 preparations to kill himself. Saturday 1t
Ornlng came this note from Mrs. Smith:
Dear Harry: Please let me know by the :
assenger boy how you are. Doctor I
edges, has he agreed! l am anxious to n
low. Yours, Margaret" L
In the afternoon, these letters followed.
stead of seeing the young minister Sun d
y night, Mrs. Smith got word of his d,
ath. They were the last letters he re- =!
wed from the woman he loved. q
Saturday 80. Dear Harry: l am so o
rry you still speak of me to Doctor p
,dges every time. AS you told him once a
our troubles, that was sufficient. Please Ii
not mention this again to him, especially y,
he told them. AS he said: TT was a II
siness matter with him. and you know
AZ give you more than ever was given 20
Y other assistant; and besides, they miss y
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