Idaho semi-weekly world. [volume] (Idaho City, Idaho Territory) 1875-1908, 1889-08-27


or Two of the end that ii was the new
drug that was doing him 10 death. aud
then believe 1t would have been too
late could he by any possib iity /
have given 1t up. But he did not and |
could not. aud what Is still more sad, !
fear he took Zone last biggish dose.
as he said he wonli. .'toantic pate the |
inevitable. | had been for some
months ass slant TO "A railroad engineer |
IN Pcnnsyiya Tia. He was one of those |
men who work their assistants as |
they would tired horse, so | was kept |
at it very hard and close all day. only / |
had the nights to myself. ] sustained
about this time loss which caused me
"A good deal of grief, and this, combined
with the irksomeness OF my duties, be-
gan to tell upon me so far that suf-
fcrcd slecplessness, 80 that at times
could get no rest till far into the morn
ing hours, and being deprived of suf-
ficent sleep, l was naturally in poor
trim for the labors of the succeeding
day. II would have been well for me il
| had now at once thrown up my en-
ployment. But one fine morning. in
reading medical journal. came
across the letter of IA practitioner who
was loud in his praises of hydrate OF
choral. How we'll | remember the
words: Produces sleep almost instan-
taneously-the sleep is pleasant and
dreamless-p patient awakes in the morn
ing fresh and clear-brained, with no
headache, and mereIya little whitening
of the tongue: after effects.
"Eureka!' I cried; '.this very night !
shall be Tapped in Eivsium. was
Tapped accordingly. I took twent,
grains of choral and slept ike stone
till morning, Overjoyed with the sue
cess of my experiment, j repeated the
dose next night. and every night for a
week. after which / tried one night
| without, but found l was entirely I'M
| able to sleep. and so had recourse tc
my draught about three N the morning.
| Six weeks went past. and although -
| yet | had felt no illness from the
! choral. still had my mi>givings, and
| resolved that / would give it up Somt
| of these days. One thing. however.
i which | observed was, that on awaken
| ing in the morning felt a. if actually
no space of time had interviewed
| since | lay down, My life seemed
continuous, never-ending day
| | had no satisfaction from my
| sleep, and felt dispirited in conse-
| quence. II | had only taken warn
| ing then. But | did not. for this
| same peeyiShness Is the earliest symp-
tom of that coming irritability Of
| chronic congestion of the brain. which
| the continuous Use of choral never
fails to prtsluce. About two months
after / had begun taking choral ]
| first became sensible of strange heal
on the top of my head, together with
sense of fullness in the head My
| nerves, too. began to be shaken, | could
do things slowly. but any hurry or ex-
element at once confused me-
In justice to myself | ought to say
that had no suspicion it was the n.y.
drate of choral that was doing me
all the mischief. | was treating my
self for brain congestion. | noticed
now that | was losing flesh. Day aftet
day | observed this in the glass; crows
feet began to appear about my eyes,
: and wrinkles where never wrinkle
were before. My pulse. too. got more
and more thready Even at this early
stage | had very little hope of ever get
| ting well. and 50. day after day.
marked in the glass my thin.
worn face. and the gathering wrinkles
and waited and waited for death.
ing my illness. | should have died
with my finger on my pulse counting
even the last beat. My sufferings were
now increased by periodic attacks OF
tic doloureuN of "A very distressing
| character. and my remedy was more
choral. strange thing was that
could never bear any allusion to my
Illness Although | felt sure was dy.
ing. | kept the secret secure in my OWE
breast. and made every effort to seen
well in the street by walking quicker
than my strength would permit. anC
refusing even the aid of my cane.
had friends and relations who woule
| gladly have come to see me, but never
even told them that | was alive; | pre-
ferred death among strangers.
1t is the end of June-the air i beau
tiful but hot | crawl down to the sea
side and lie for hours sheltered from
the sun by bush This i, the ON,
time in the day | have the slighte>
freedom from pain and misery. EN
ceptng thi. solitary walk. ii i month
since | have been able to go out o
keep any company. | am CONSTANT
reading or thinking. trying. "a tn
Germans say. to solve the infinite.
NV constant PRAYERS had been that
night either get slowly We'll or speedll
die Hope deferred maketh sick tn
soul, Ill all faith in prayer has gone
and all belief in religion and reVelH
| ton Sometimes | even fubt the eN
istence of supreme Being II msel
Nv bodily sufferiugs are very great
and my III nd i mere chaos. My rae
i so thin and white Al worn that
start AT my own image in the glass. NJ
eyes arr constantly dilated. and III
least excitement runs my pulse frot
sixty to one hundred. Toward evenin
NV head feels a. if frozen. and sit i'll
benumbed stupor until bedtime. III
dressing | feel i one of the labors {
Hercules. and has be done by d'
grees. do nos TAX y chloral-tlre
drains. enough tn a. many men
until am in bed the house pc
ftctl, till. for the Ht.r-t noise woui
necesstate double dose. When ali il
Z quiet, drink and
Three months more have passed
away. After my friends death | made
strenuous efforts to reduce my dose o
, choral. and continued the same TO
/ more than month What nights o
| sleeple>S agony. what days of restless
pain! | am now taking three dram