The Arkansaw traveler., 1889-11-23


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 Every particle of color faded from the face of the banterer and his jocuar air dissolved itself imme- dately. His countenance was even graver than that of the distressed features and imploring eyes of Knowlton.
 "I beg your pardon Edgar, I-I thought you had forgotten"
 "I wish could."
 Edgar Knowlton relapsed into his reverie in which Everette allowed him to remain undisturbed for some time.
 Finally, Everette exclaimed, as if he had solved some problem with which he had been struggling : "Don't you think 1t would be good idea for us to take another trip abroad?"
 Receiving no answer from Knowlton, he con- tinued "I didn't half the places we visited last time, and didn't visit one- half the places intended to. Pve thought of asking you about going several times lately, and would really like to go myself There is no need of your wearing away your life in the unnatural excitement of daily gambling with the animals in the stock board menagerie. Any one would think you were depend ent your winnings for your existence, instead of being & sef-made millionaire-three times over, at that. Better leave your affairs in your brokers hands and cross the pond with me. Change of scene and change of climate will be greatly benef- cial to you, dear boy revive your spirits and keep your mind occupied with pleasant thoughts while if you remain here you will relapse into your peculiar type of melancholia and make mistakes in business that may cost you your fortune Recol- lE. and a double sfiliction of that organ is probably more of a strain than it stand. Every hour on the exchange floor is dangerous to your life. You are the best judge of how much more intense is the excitement attending the vain pursuit of hand some face. l judged from the exuberant spirits you have manifested thus far this season that your interest in the heroine of your last summers adven ture had become merely 6 memory, & pleasant vision among your day dreams of the past. If not, she should become SO. It is surely myth after oh and tha gratifed or not, will draw you faster toward your life's end. man troubled with palpitation of the heart, man who cannot go down town to business attend an opera or & reception, without the per- mission of his medical adviser, should, my dear boy, never allow himself to become entangled in the meshes of Eros net. See the Doc to- night and if he says go, we'll take the next steamer. speak for your own good. Pll meet you here to- morrow st eleven. agreed to drive my mother and sister out this afternoon, and must leave you now so, good bye, until to- o-morrow."
 While Everette had been talking, Knowlton sat gazing into space, with the ackadaisica expression of man in deep trouble. He shook his friends hand and murmured a reply in 6 husky, unintelli- gible whisper. The unbidden moisture that brimmed his eye as he gazed in Everette's frank earnest face, gave token of the deep, unspoken affection underlying the external show of friend ship existing between them. For some time after Everette left tho club, Knowlton continued In deep study without changing his position.
 He was trying to analyze his own feelings. But who understands him or herself2 Who can account for his fckle moods and fancies? and can tell why he acted as he did or why he acts ss he does? We are all more or less hypocritical toward ourselves and 6 result often deceive ourselves far worse than we do others.
 Knowlton deceived himself in two ways.
 First, he had allowed an unbounded admiration for beautiful lady, whom he had rescued from possible death, to take such & strong hold on his imagination that he guled himself with & pleasant hallucination. The hallucination had magnifed his ardent admiration till it was apparently "le grand passion." He imagined his future would be blank unless he secured the privilege of worship ping at his idols shrine for life
 His existence was blighted by terrible disease 1; although he bore his afiiction with all the hero. fern