Smyrna times., 1889-01-09

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We snort time after my arrival there 7 sut
Ierea sunstrol0e which almost cost m
my life, and utterly dethroned nv rea
SON For six months was a great car
10 my sister, but at the end of that tim
W. was entirely restored both mentall
10 ana physically, and we determined to oI
", TO St. Petersburg. It had been our child
nood nome and shortly after our arriva
thefe we were In the fashionable world
meeting old friends and maIino new ac
qualntances. Among the latter was the
countess L., lovely girl Of 10 wears
one had soft dark eyes, full of passion. q
L' compleXlon like ripe peach, and a month
an! dare not recall her face. It makes
Il me mad even now, and am old and orav.
u and she is-dead. e''
J Enough. ] loved her, won her love
! Inc formalities of a betrothal were pone
Ihrough with, our friends had conpTatr-
9 iaJed us, and within few months we were
TO nave been married. I was wild with
happiness. Alasl why did not die +bonI
l had unbounded faith in her. NV Iadv
! love- but l became absurdly Jealous. l
, was haunted by all sorts of fears. It was
as II some evil spirit had taken possession
OF me, which neither my reason nor her
devoted affection could exercise. Iwould
, lie awake at night and imagine heard
her calling to me for help at another
time some tiend would whisper to me that
my love was untrue. So l doubted and
trusted her by turns and almost broke her
nearJ with my foolish fancies | knew
thai all my trouble was but the effect of n
slckly imagination, and would determine
again and again to fight off the weakness
only to become more and more a victim.
30 my nights were spent in torture and
my days in agony lest some one should
discover my condition.
One day l became possessed with the
idea that my fancee had need of me. 7
could hear her sigh and weep. hurried
to the house, gained admission, and when
she came to meet me fell at her feet and
lmplored her to tell mo the cause of her
trouble She coldly repelled me; told me
was Jealous Of phantoms; that had an.
noyeu her greatly and she would decline |
! 10 see me again unless l could behave ike |
sane man. "Like a sane man." Was 7 |
insane then? Whether l was or not. she |
mad aroused a demon in me. iumned to .
my Ieet, sprang at her like a tiger and |
clasped her in these arms so sava0eIv
that l crushed and frightened the 6oor
darling out of life. She uttered n do.
spairing cry and the next moment she Law
at my feet like frozen flower. Can Won
conceive OF my agony as I looked at her.
aead, quite dead, as l supposed. l had
Killed the woman l adOred, and l knew
was mad. Yes, lunatic. She had seen
II ana had half realized it myself for
some time, but had kept the secret from
my friends with all the cunning of In
natic. 9 -"
Well they bound me and took me to
my home. l was adjudged insane and
was sent to an asylum, where for ten
years lived upon the rack, conscious of
my surroundings, recalling daily the part
ing scenes with my fancee. the hurried
seizure OF my person, my bound arms and
the tnaI turning of the key of my prison.
All sorts of fancies kept nv brain in n
Whlrl. AT one time, thought that the
mes In my room were soldiers and yould
Try and marshal them in line, and because
Ihey would not obey would 90 into vio-
lent paroxysms of rage which would nj.
ways ehG IN a straight jacket. Then a
long blank would follow. and whom a.,
oUhef lucid moment would come 7 could
remember distinctly all that had oc-
Cured. The one illusion that was with
me ever, even in my sanest moments was
IhaC when l killed my beloved that her ,
spHlJ had entered dove which had found I
lIs way INTO my room and lowered above !
me always. When / lifted nv ewes 7 a
could see her ever with outstrefcbed {
wings, and my ears were filled with her ,
soft cooling. /
NY recovery was retarded because I '
couId not eat. Try as / would could NOT t
make myself swallow. I knew that food +
was placed upon the table for me to eat
ana would try again and again to lift it v
10 my Ilps, but my will was not stronn O
SHD SII ugh 10 compel obedience of my hands. e
W men my Keepers forced me to swallow It fl
seemed 10 me that could hear the dove t.
lTTerlnR R 1 no 10
ler Whlte breast would appear a drob of q
1lood, as If l had wounded her. There g
we're intervals when realized that these OF
iglts and sounds were only illusions. and tC
uaI II cdnId only control myself l could I'll
10 seG Ifee. dreaded the horrors Of tho DC
,,c[alghI jacket, and knew well that if 7
ud not Keep quiet should have to wear hi
u Alasl In another moment all nv tor. re
lentlng fancies would return and the old le
Experiences were lived through once moro di
TINS way almost ten years of nv life III
aSsed away. In all that time | had never th
oiuhtarlly swallowed a morsel of food. tr
AZ length my PHYSICAL condition was alb
lcn Inat my sister determined to brine fiji
l9 70 south Germany, where there was q
7I9DiaCeu insane expert. l remember
,stInc1Iy the hrst time he came into nv us
resence, only saw pair of enormous tn
91rrsuasive, compelling eyes. which were tn
blowing me about the room and enforo to
g ooedlence. was their captive tboir fiv
ave. cup Of bread and mill, 1Vos pu
aced upon the table. The eyes bade me
y y OI IL IL. tried to lift the cup but couId gal
~ Inc eyes came toward me- felt the kn
uch OF the spoon upon my Iips. the pri
sue OF 1000 In my mouth, and / syvaI to
Wed 1t. You cannot guess the low 7
H. NO strait jacket confined me fbo fra
we moaned no longer, l was free at last TIL
Ior Gays and weeks these watcbfnl han
eS' "hlch seemed to burn into nv very thI
~. -, '' calIe TO conquer me, and l grew bet
oOns anu FestIuI. could think could anC
ason' knew some mighty change was Aft
KING place in me. of
Ohe day the eyes came as usuaI ond
JpPeo just opposite me, where flood of wit
.uI IRON the window fell full unon tina
EN-. suddenly there appeared ronnd ute
OUT Uhem luminous mass. which ogT 23
zed' formed itself slowly into first n spe
rehead, then a chin and cbeeks on mil
aVensl 1t was mans facel was TOO I
TO move. Gradually I saw tbe are
guIuers forming, then the arms and owl
~! ana hnaIly the feet, which were adj. and
HCrlg ~ toward me. A voice said: Come neil
-, "AA Ou uOb nave some bpnalr | 10 Y
'tF was utterly submissive. and We idle
upon the edge Of the bed while he fed
the contents Of bowl he held in bis
1d' From that day knew onlv bis u
H. and as my health improved nv bav
son was gradually restored. / silent Leo Loo
ana iived like any other man. n
me day in June, ten years from tho "
ie was first locked up. was Invited not.
take tea with the doctors family Won FL TT
imagine my sensations when 7 Vyos to :
elVed by the doctors wife in the famiIy, Ra1
m. knew that had been insane a,l2 0''-
y was cured, and hereafter ,vos ~
Iree. resumed my relations with INV
MY before great while and was ner. B,
,teu 10 go home. l have lived wan. nota
ing life ever since, but. strangeiv lowi
ugh' never daring to stav away for from
I, length Of time from my dear doctor peri,
ne eyes. There have been times dnrina. dun
past ten years when a very devil woni5 max
~ ~ 70 enter my body, but a connie Of mon
'Ks under the doctors care would nj. ing
rs rid me of it. "O''iu al stso
am at this moment not entirely sane midC
20 You not seen it? NY abr1pt en-. The
nee INTO your parlor tonight and INV rems
'atenlng TO kill you should have Apri
med you. Why did Won ,,ot cotI -, yveig