The Springdale news., 1889-10-11

tnlJteu my lips lO LWllcu ana contract i spasmodically. 1 had not devoted my self, you see, to medical lore without conquering all the symptoms. The doctor regarded me attentively.
 Continue. he said to me.
 bowed my head sorrowfully and re- sumed.
 ''Yes, fri9h 9htful situation-a sudden desire that seizes me, when alone in the bosom of my family, to kill some- thing. A fearful combat goes on within mo, and feel-yes, absolutely feel it my hand invincibly drawn toward the knife on the table beside me.
 Whom do I wish to kill? My wife my children, my sister-in-law? l do not know. In that hideous nightmare seem to have no choice, and l remain in it-l know not how long-fearing every instant that they will read in my eyes the horrible secret that torments me. The first time or times physical movement, physical impressions, were sufficient to dissipate the possession A dash of cold water upon the brow brought back my caimness, the specter disappeared and 1 returned to my fam fly at ease again.
 Now, however, the trouble is be- coming moro frequent, and-I feel it. know it-the resistance of my will and reason weakeH5 with every attack. l begin to be afraid that l shall throw myself upon those 1 love and do them a fatal harm.
 Ny confession is made, doctor; fear myself Can you save me?o
 M. Laussedat had listened with the deepest attention, and now questioned me closely: What symptoms, If any. preceded these crisis2' etc.
 had studied them all. had them all at my tongue end, and ran them off with the glibness of a scholar not to be tripped in his lesson. "A weight in the head-at least it seemed so-as il the brain were too heavy and rolled in it's bony box; of late construction Of the breast, pressure npon the sides. and certain accidents -
 Thought cried M. Laussodat. .I know all about it; the case is eurable- entirely so. Simply pursue scrupuIously the treatment l direct and HI answer for the rest.
 And he wrote it out, long prescrip- tion, and accompanying regimen for me to follow, and l went away smiling hopefully; not however. for precisely the reason the doctor supposed.
 PunctiIiously and apparently, l fol- lowed the doctors instructions My cabinet was incumbered with boxes and vials till my wife became uneasy and questioned ne as closely as the doctor had done. responded always that was vel, else evaded the questions, hut bent upon her from time to time a hol- low regard, which l saw worried her more than ever. For three months thus played my role. then-I returned to the house Of the doctor
 1t is useless assured him. use less and all in vain, Doctor I am | victim Of fatality, and far from being cured, am worse than ever-a prey to this possession moro and more fre- quently. l am actually forced to fly the house. to take long rambles through the city and wear myself out with fa- tiguo to regain control oi myself, it is like wave that ever mounts and mounts. And, Nj. Ie Docteur' l cried at last, Il am come to demand favor of you-shut me up, now, immediately, in your maison de sante"
 Shut you up now?' said he, astound- ed "But-but to what end?'
 Because l know-I know it, 1 tell you-that l am on the verge of terri ble crisis, the symptoms have enum- erated to you are more violent than they have ever been; tomorrow it may be too late-I may have brought about some terrible misfortunel Shut me up beseech you, care for mo by your methods as a specialist. the douche, the dungeon, the strait-jacket, any thing. any thing on earth that will aid and save mel And sobbed aloud
 The doctor was moved and deeply interested by so novel a physiological subject pressed my advantage, stip- ulating but for one thing that my fam fly should not be disquietod.
 No l said, the truth must not be told them. l wish them to be ignorant of the horrible extremity to which now resign l shall pretext a voyage on business for one, two, three months, as necessity demands. l shall disap- pear. in short. for that period of time, and write to them only under your direction. Thon, when this morbid state of mind or body yields to treat ment, energetic as you choose. and l am cured-then can 1 return to my own iireside with the certainty of no bloody tragedy logging my heels"
 Stirred by such elegance, the doctor thumped, counted and listened to the play of my organs, and finally declared that l was right. though l had no lesion; that my case was simple, a nervous trouble, and absolutely cura-