Indian chieftain. [volume] (Vinita, Indian Territory [Okla.]) 1882-1902, 1887-11-17

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his unpleasant meditations nlono tho bir,h.
way. that is oasilv told
He was an American. yvell-born but NOR
His friends ma relatives from tho tirst- on.
rosed hia choice of a ,,rofcssior dccIo,;,,r,,
Tho latter ~ hc ,,nr,ari, orc.,,ati,,, n,d III
topethcr ,rnnrac,i,.atIo 10 ,tr,sais hoe,,,,
10 ioubt his own abnjtics I1is ,,,as a ,,l,s,,
imnressionahlc na.prc cosil,, IN fI,,,,,,i,,,1 h,
others not wholly from ,,calsncss. hnt also
because his natural Lack Of self-confidencc
hod bocn ae,gra,,a,od h,, n ,,istai,,,, ',|,,,s
Of carly discipline which taught him ALWAYS
10 Weld 10 the opinion of his elders. Tho
constant reitcration Of dismal prophecies.
mlstrust of his own talents. and. above ali
the unwilling. disappointed acauiescence Of
his parents in his choice ali this cansed
him 10 waver in the wish Of his youth. and.
at last, TO abandon II.
Dishoartepef and imbittered an the
thought Of foregoing the one rad uu = real
desire Of his life, he now becail @ o. dr.fting.
unhappy man; uncertain what 10 do; on.
parently incapable of selecting profession
soured as much as one of his happy disposl-
tiops could be: unfit for any immediate d,i-
tics aud, yet, Obliged. in some way or other.
To earn livelihood.
He was not one 10 give up in despair He
tried, first one thing, then ano;hcr-not
from choice, but necessity, because he
deemed il his dutv-alyvavs hatino ,,o4t
what he last was engaged in; and. although
now not far from thirty years OF age, he
was still unsettled and, Of course, unhappy
-wocfully 80, at times.
Finally, realizing the seeming helplcssne5s
OF his state, he lost the will and, az length,
even the wish 10 decide 50 he resolved
upon tho cowardly course Of allowing mat
ters TO shape themselves and force him TO
some decision.
Yet, although he professcd no longer 10
trouble himself as TO his future, like many
Of those in a similar prcdicamcnt, nc expert
enced moments when his wasted life, his
present aimlessness, his disappointments
and unrcalizcd hopes overwhelmed him In
all of their dismal aspects. When thus dis
turbed, of he would go on some long, lonely
walk lost IN gloomy reflection.
Some slight occurrence Of the previous
evening had brought back the old, old trou-
bie5 upon hin; and now, although the after
noon was far spent, he was still completely
under their influence, and the reader finds
him on the outskirts Of a small country vii.
iage, near Oman, in Britanny-for he had
nl'.nasoa 20 serapc together few dollara
and venture even upon trip to Europe
suffering from fit Of dependency, super
nuuccu py reflections OF the foregoing
enaracter'
Despite the fact that he could lay no
clam to good looks, Fairtax, when excited,
gained rather unusual color in his checks,
and his Dyes were wont 10 fash and sparltle
with unusual brilliancy, Had he not been
m such haste and 50 absorbed in his prop
arations Tor the ball, he mighs have
paused moment before the mirror 10 re-
mark the transformation in his appearance.
HIS high, full forehead, over which had
cropped an unrrly Napoleonic forclociS;
ms bronzed complexion, heightened by the
unusual color Of tho face; his long, droop-
ing muatache, and, more especially, those,
brnilant, flashing eyes that seemed TO Ourn
with lro in their sockets, made him, TO say
lne least, rather observable.
At last he put the finishing touches 10 hig
costume AMI, entering the carriage, prom
ised tho coachman extra money, II tho lat
ter would drive as RAPIDLY as posslble.
This had been a lucky dav "a The vons ,
American. Wbv should MOI Ipclr co,fi,rci
Might n no. bo nossihlo tbat hc sho,,id ra.o,
hor there this evcninel He folt aimost cor.
tain that be yyould.
ION. as fast as vou cam, called be IN tho
driver ~ " '''o
That ina,,,;d,o, a-o,soa h., a.. -. 81,
reward lashcd his hor.os mil H. -.
fhov were. fhcv ,oro alono =, f,o,a ,ra - -
Covered Win foo,. the, Sasi,1.a ,.st ~ ~
rorie,,s loJgc aIong ~ ...'l,',,,, - -, ~
chateau. and drew mn steaning hcforo ~ ,ho ny
entrance.
seoking out his friend. Dick Oxford. Fair
fay aslred thc later ~ tai,,' lin ar
Mnchiouess. his hostess ~ nor ~ ho ,nsSo sdo
his APOLOGIES '1''10
1Pray thnt shc may nresont ro, ,o ,ha
Princess. o yyhisncred picl, n IA rsr w
But the old lady SAW M n icave hin, -
the tender n,ercies of a rcmar-sI,,, ,,,s,,