The Monitor. [volume] (Woodstown, N.J.) 1884-1892, 1886-04-09
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trust that you viii bear with nae
through the reading Of these pages, but do
not undertake the task without you can do
SO without interfering with your duties.
Sometime last Summer ! wrote you
very long and singular letter, in which (in
a peculiar train) indited many things,
expressing myself in way that doubt
not led you to seriously question my san
ity. why | wrote you as did at the
/ time | viii not now undertake to fully cx-
plain, as to do 50, would. | fear, tend 10
! further mystify But do wish TO relate
some things to you personally, and then
leave you to think as You please with re-
gard to my mental prospects, &c.
During the first week in February, in the
year 1868, while in Savannah, underwent
the commencement Of an unusual and very
powerful mental revolution, which gained
permanent foothold and, IN a measure
changed the tendency Of my mind, both IN
matters Of fact and metaphysics. from the
ordinary course TO the revereneing the
Deity supreme in all things, whether Of
matter, mind, or whatsoever existent.
This revolution occurred while I was
conYalescing from severe though brief
sickness which had physically Frustrated
me. and was 50 very radical as to eanse
what appeared (to those who could not nm
derstand its nature) to be 4 serious mental
arrangement and. 10 certain extent, it
MOS n,,rit,. 80 ,,4 ;,,o ,,,..aas., f;,o,-,,li
eably) became partially clairvoyant ard
clairaudient, and as clearly heard and talk
ed with what. in every respect, seemed 10
be the voices Of liigencies-invisible to
incarnate eye OF Unacceptable of articulat-
ing in the verbal sounds of my native
tongue as ever | heard the voices of and
talked with incarnate beings of my kind.
These intelligence, among whom was
what purported to be the immortal entity Of
my sainted mother. communicated many
things astonishing to me. These Things,
especially the (apparent) fact Of my saint
ed mother communication, appealed most
foreibly to my interior senses. ! was earn
estly admonished to labor to purify myself
from sin-the elements prejudieing and
lettering my mind-and assured that as
would seek this purification liberty Of
mind-I would become good, useful and
prosperous man, eventually rising to an
honorable distinction among men. /
scarcely need to add that | became deeply
interested and endeavored to resolve faith
fully to abide these admontior S. And
in fact, did resolve, though at the time
doubling my ability to become and remain
true to myself, the corner stone Of all
faith, gedliness. &c.
My family, and a few others, were aware
that had had these revelations, but they
could have no idea Of the extent thereof,
especially as I could not find tongue ade-
quate to the expression Of what had been
shown to me; hence, they all agreed that
it was species of insanity, and therefore,
derided my notion of attaching any other
importance thereto. And in support Of
their opinion the churehs Interpretation
OF the Bible denied even the possibility Of
such revelations to, or through me, or any
one else Especially ont Of the church,
since the days Of the inearnate Nsls Of
Nazareth Bnt my reason, The best guide
my God has endowed me with, would not
accept any sueh Interpretation. On the
contrary, I believed then, and do still be-
Iieye. that if such visitations, revelations,
&c, were ever made, they could eccnr
again and now as well as at any time
previous And il God directly, or through
His Arelangels, or other instruments. ever
visited and revealed Himself and com
muued with Adam. Abraham, Isaac. Jacob,
Moses, and others, it is not impossible that
similar things could or would occur to me-
And that if all that has appeared to me
was but an idle deusion, it was, or is
probable proof to my mind, that all such
visitati0ns, revelations. &C., recorded in lie
Bible, or elsewhere. were and are eqnally
delusive and false But they answered
that Adam, Abraham. Isaac. Jacob, Moses,
and others. were men Of God, and such as
He could deign TO visit reveal Himself 10
and commune WITH while am bat poor.
erring sinner But this was and is void ol
argument If we may believe the Bible
these men We're also poor. erring mortals
And as for Moses (scc 1st and 2d Exodus
he was. at the time Of Gods visitation to
him, murderer and renegade from justice.
However nothing | could say or do
would change their minds. And as my
family pleaded So earnestly that it was all
dangerous hallucination. found 1t difli-
cult to rise above the lettering elements
OF society, notwithstanding every impulse
Of my conscience was to renounce all my
cornwall relations and commence life anew.
/ However, ! continued my efforts To rise
to moral independence. vet ali the while
doubling my ability to complete the rcyo
hutton and thereby become and remain
i true to myself, and thence true to my God,
aud to mankind In wavering | lost my
moral balance and fell back into my con-
/ vivai, or To some extent, reckless routine
Of life. Soon thereafter though yet ID bad
/ health, left Savannah, and proceeded, as
you are aware, to New York, and from
there came to Washington, where it has
been my destiny to continue my head
! quarters