Sacramento daily record-union. [volume] (Sacramento [Calif.]) 1875-1891, 1886-02-13

the neat waiting maid came in with teie
gram. had never had one in my life.
set my heart beating violently ] felt
contained some dreadful news My finger
trembled 80 that ] could not open il. Som
instinct made me pu. il down and wal
until the woman had left the room then
tore it open and read =" Your husband i
spending his wedding evening with me
He always promised that he would"
read it over half dozen times did no
seem to grasp the sense or meaning OF il
Then looked at the top to see from whom
it came" Minna Vane, Chapel street
London, to Lady Chalford, Rose Inn, R.
Minna Vane Minna Vane A woman
There had been no accident He had gon'
voluntarily of his own free will to spent
this day of all others with another woman
! remembered his face in the train. ! re
membered it when he babe me good by.
This is why he had proposed coming to (
place where we were not known.
A sensation came across me as though
had been struck a violent blow on til.
head, and for a time-I know not how
long--I felt nothing but strange deadness
and apathy. Then slowly there came
quickness in my heart, growing and grow
ing until it reached terrible agony, an(
smote me with a sense of overwhelmin,
burning disgrace. Where should | go
Where hide my misery, my shame?
must return home-to the home which
left in triumphal state seven hours ago
stink back disgraced, to be shaft for pity
wonder, scorn. | have never been any
where alone in my life cannot facc
orr ahnva oil fI,aoa III
circumstances but oh, let me lv from hin
who has treated me so cruelty let m,
never, never set eyes on him again Why
O my God, has he rsed ne ihas2 VIVA
have done to him? If man wanted
terrible revenge on woman, he Nigh
think of some devilish way Of wreaking ii
but what have ! ever been but loving and
humble, and glad to do all he wished o.
babe?
Ny maid has Just been in under pretenst
of asking if wanted anything. She looked
curiously at me, as if she longed to cues
ton me- | dare say every one in the hous.
knows or surmises that there is something
wrong and strange / hardly dare to NEE
their eyes. Oh, if could but hide myself
| was never used to be revengeful. IcoulC
always forgive any one who vexed or of
Tended me; but now my sense of injury
seems to suffocate me. | could almost
pray God to avenge me. What shall do
What shall / do? Tonight it is too late
but tomorrow morning early | will go
lie returns at II. He shall not find his
wretched victim. Oh, new book new
book in which thought to chronicle SC
much happiness, what CHASTITY tale fol
your first pages And what VIII be The
end?
1t is month since | wrote those las
words, and | have hesitated and changed
my mind hundred times before finally de
Gliding to 90 on with my story. Ny mem
DRY serves me well enough | remember
every hour of that terrible time. I can re
call almost every pang that helped tt
change me in so short time from a child
to q woman.
When ! closed my book | went to the
window and stood there looking cut for a
long long time. There was a glorious
moon-so bright it brought out every tree
and shrub wildly. You could even see
the color of the flowers. What a night to
gaze at with ones lover, his arm about one,
ones head upon his breast And my lover
IS looking at it, perchance, with another
woman's head pillowed on his heart. his
arm about another woman And, at the
intOlerable agony OF the thought, Iclenchetl
my hands until my nails pressed into my
palms, and tears forced themselves between
my closed eyelids. go, God, punish him
let him not be happy l muttered between
my tight-shut teeth. Unable TO bear my
misery longer, turned away and rang Tor
my maid.
Will go to bed now, I said TO her,
forcing myself with q superhuman effort 10
.f-,1l~ J
tanned my composure while she undressed
me, tortured my hair and performed yari-
Gus offices for me which I could well have
with. l had never in my life
been waited upon by maid, and hated il
felt that her manner was in
tended to convey sympathy. She was dying
for me to make some little confidence or
explanation to her. / almost wondered
that she did not ask me a point blank
question-such q child as was; but, merci-
fully, she was too well educated in her pro-
fession to forget so far what was due to her
self. The effort At compOsure was nearly
too much for me, and the moment she left
me / flew to the door, bolted it, and flung
myself on the aoor By my bedside in a
paroxysm Of weeping.
Midnight chimed from my clock, and
still | sat with my head pressed hard
against my hanls; still sqbbed and cried
over my lost illusions. Half-paat Ri !
I rose and threw open the window, and
stared into the night. The moon was more
resplendent tliau ever; the hush of the
night was perfect I alone Of all creatures
seemed alive and awake II with my intol-
cradle woe. Then lay down on my bed,
but not to sleep. A dozen plans for the
morrow chased each other through my
excited brain but through all OF Them
ran the horror Of that home going. 10 be
q jest and hy-word. Again ] rose aud
Went 10 the window. Faint s;rcaks of
crimson lay athwart the horizon ! stayed
there until they changed To grange and to
yellow gold then. worn ont and shivering
with c0ld-summer night though il was-I
returned u bed, and fell into heavy sleep.
Some hours later aw0kc with Tacking
pain in nay head and q general feeling OF
illness and utter prostratiOn. For some
moments | lay trying to recall what lad
happened; then the past day ana night
rushed upon me like flood, and I remefu-
bered that to-day l must 60 home But.
even with the thought, paroxysm of pain
overcame me, laid nay head back on my
pillow moaning
Hall an hour later, when my maid came
was PROSTATE, speeches.. Her words OF
coInmlSeratlOn Tell ike stone upon my
ear. l was Indifferent to everything but
the maddening pain in my head-my
wrongs even were forgotten-there was nc
thought of rising or going away. ] could
only lie and moan. The woman did her
bestfor me. She bathed my head with eau
de cologne, fetched me tea. begged to be
allowed to send for a doctor but all ]
crayed was TO be alone. She shut out the
light and left me saying she would be in
the next room; and lay there and moaneC
and tossed my fevered bead from side tc
side. Pride and grief were all gone; l wa:
absolutely Indifferent to everything. George
might have had dozen wives. ] might
have been disgraced ten times over
should not have cared. Hours went by
and then l heard his eager voice outside
the door talking to the maid PRESENTS
she came in softly.
Sir George has come, my lady He i;
dreadfully grieved that you are ill., He
says may he come in?"
No" / moaned. Oh, my head my
head p She went out I heard the ring o
disappointment in his voice, then more
talking / did not care everything bu