Little Falls transcript. [volume] (Little Falls, Morrison County, Minn.) 1876-1894, 1886-02-05

heart throbbed with pride and Joy as
I looked upon him. .
Surely every good gift in his life was
mine. .s1ssi ..5s 81
Sinclair remained at home o year.
We We're OF course thrown constantly
together, and he was the same frank
comrade as OF old, yet he spoke no
word OF love. Igrew FESTIVE and inn
patient for matters to be settled. I
was at the age when every girl longs
for q lover. I wanted to be loved-I
wanted to be betrothed. I had
thoughtit all out many times, how
after the bethrothal my mother would
give a large ball, and how Respondent
! would shine in beautiful Jewels and
rich robes. For always in my thoughts
OF love worldly considerations were
mingled.
1should never have loved Sinclair
Monroe if he had been poor and OF
low birth. My pride was lnborn, and
constant cultivation rendered it one
OF the strongest elements of my na-
ture.
After a year spent at home, Sinclair
went abroad. He went without
speaking his love, or asking any prom
Use OF me.
Twas bitterly disappointed, and SO
was my mother.
"But let him SOW his wild OATS" she
said; che will come home all the more
inclined to settle down."
lie was gone two years. During
those years went much into otietY
and became quite belle, and received
one offer Of marriage. I declined it
proudly. The man was in no way the
equal of Sinclair; and beside / felt my
self to belong to Sinclair. I as much
intimated this to my sutton, when he
would have persisted in his atten-
tions.
When Sinclair returned he seemed
older and more serious in manner, and
he went at work at once to lay out
the grounds on his estate and beautify
them. My heart swelled full OF hope.
We're my early dreams to be realized?
Then suddenly my mother died.
Plunged into deep mourning, I did
not think it strange that no words of
love should pass his lips during the
next half year. At the end of that
time he again absented himselffor sew
eral months.
When he returned, he called me aside
one day, saying he had something to
tell me.
':Perhaps ought not to say it with.
IN year after yo rgreat loss" he be-
gan, land yet J. believe what have to
say will result in greater happiness to
us all. have long had it in my mind"
/ felt my heart trembling in nv
breast like q frightened bird. At last,
at last! Was he about to say the
words l had waited SO long to hear?
Then he continued: Il am going
to be married next month, Agnes.
l met my bride while l was travelling
abroad. She is an American. She was
also travelling abroad. She is alovely
girl, and she will brighten up the house
for us all. I thought Of building before
1 married, but father wants me to re-
main here, at least for a year or two.
And would like to have my bride plan
her own home when | do build. Hope
you will love her, Agnes. am sure
you cannot help it"
How ever managed to control my
awtnl modification, my surprise and
my anger, do not know. It was all
so sudden, SO unexpected, like q blow
IN the dark. I brought all my pride
to bear upon my emotions, and Icon
graduated him with seeming warmth,
but felt as if a new being took pos
session Of my body from that hour. I
had always been a selfish girl, inclined
to be mercenary and exacting Now
within my breast awoke q demon Of
jealousy nnd spite that made my lie
wretched. 1t seemed to me that HAD
opened the door to a flock of evil
spirits in my heart when love and hope
flew out.
About two months later Sinclair
brought home his bride. Ifelt a mali
cious qualification as I looked at her
and saw that she was not as hand
some as l. Yet she was what people
generally call "sweet looking" or
''lovely,'' and have noticed that
these women really win more hearts
in this world than beauties do.
She was very atfectionate by nature.
and cuddled up to me like a winsomlI
child at first; but think she felt the
hatred in my heart, hard as tried to
mask It, for after time she ceased to
NAL Ike her affectionate overtures to
me, and became more quiet and re-
served.
Colonel Monroe Was completely car
ried away with her sweet, kittenish
manners, and | could see every day.
al
closely about his heart. He praised
her constantly when he and I were
alone, and fused to SIT more and more
by myself-it was such torture to hear
his praises. AS for Sinclair, he idol
lied her. had never in my most ro-
mantle dreams imagined such q love
as he gave to her.
Everything she did or said, every
garment she wore, was perfect in his
eyes; and he could not refrain from
talking OF her wonderful virtues to
me.
1had to listen and endureit, although
it Was slow torture.
I felt perfect hellin my breast often
as l listened.
And yet in my own heart had to
CoIliesS tudt MililcenC-~LHaC was nef
name-deserved the praise she re-
ceived.
She was constantly thoughtful for
every one about her, and seemed to
live only to make others happy. l
never saw so unseltish anature as hers.
At FIRST she used to make me her con-
fidante, and tell me OF her happiness
in sinclair's love, and dwell upon his
virtues and goodness. But after
time she ceased that, too. ! think she
intuitively felt that I did not enjoy her
confidence, and she drew more within
herself.
AS for myself fused to hope and
pray for some unhaDDiness to come