The Ottawa free trader. [volume] (Ottawa, Ill.) 1843-1916, 1886-03-20

tellect was concentrated. The thought cam
TO me as a flash ilumines the darkness.
commenced, with a zeal a desperate man onl
can know, the study of insanity lis causes
it's pathology. digested Virchow, Pinel am
Esauirol DR.. Heinrich Schule's Handbucl
der Observation-Disclosures devoured, and Vol
Zeimssens works were my daily pabulun
With Bucknill and luke entered the psy
Geological depths, and Mandsley made m,
way clear read in Pritchard that one o
the first symptoms OF this disease was an il,
difference to social considerations, apathy ant
neglect OF the personal and other duties, dis
| like and suspicion Of friends, This was my
starting point.
~ will not now weary you with scientific
description of my course. knew insanity
was a good defense in law and ! set myself
studiously about il To become insane that
might cheat the law. wanted 10 leave nc
room for any doubt. wanted hundreds OF
witnesses who would he willing 10 come for
ward to testify, when might commit the
deed, that my reason was and had been gone
for some time
Do not turn away from me like that The
demon jealousy it was that led me on IL
did not regret it would not now he talking
here to you-understanT
II commenced cautiously, changed my hab.
its Of life, gave up my club, took apartments
in a hotel the better 10 be observed, became
abSent-minded, talked 10 myself. soon saw
that my friends observed the change and |
chuckled. left my Office for days mystcr-
ously, and as mysteriousy, without eXplana
ton, | walked the streets alone late al night
temper. disturbed an audience AT the thea
tire by loudly interrupting the actors, and was
elected My friends began 10 talk | smiled
at them when alone. What stupid IDIOTS
They recommended medical advice and that
gentle old DR.. Harvey visited me. Poor old
man, he was a child in my hands His ques-
tons | answered evaSlvely, and gave him
evidence TO set his poor head shak
ing ominously He felt my pulse He did
not know had accelerated its speed by vio-
lent exercise a moment before his visit He
said my system was out Of order, my brain
needed rest. But | tire you For four months
| pursued my systematic course, growing
slowly and slowly more violent over
heard conversation between some old
in which it was suggested that il
would soon become their duty 10 Contne me
in some asylum. That satisfied me. had
reached the proper point. Then armed my
self and waited In the open street, at noon
day, was the time. Madmen do not Seeh 10
conceal their deeds, So | took the open, bold
course. Understand"
His eyes were flashing now, AMI his fingers
worked conyul,iNely, 81 met him at the
With loud laugh ! pointed TO
ward him, call him my brother from
ilindostan The crowd looked surprised. and
laughed told them he was a wild animal
% keep away He looked astonlshcd dun
founded. Icxpresscd great fear u nm, and
hen
He had risen, and was gazing out into the
moonlight The water washed and FLASHED.
rickled and dripped on the timber> below
The guitar was still Thrilling inshore Then
fred fired. Understand!
my God, in all my months II rehearsal.
al my course Of cruel study, had not once
.hought Of it, When | saw his body on the
sidewalk it came tn me like stroke Of light
lng. Al this did not give her 10 me, This
lad never entered my brain. He was gone,
md so was my love She would never look
lpon me again Ny brain recied, and
,woke in the old jail, and they were holding
thc inquest in the yard below
"The trial you know Of Everybody sid
was insane the doctors the papers, every
body ! was acquitted, and my friends cs-
'ortcd me 10 an asy lum. ! had cheated the
aw, but not my conscience. Understands
In few months ! was discharged aS a cured
nan So the physician said Rest, they SAID,
vas what was needed, and thai restored my
cason Poor fools
"You are the first 10 whom have told this,
he very first What can | do-what can
Io-to win back the love--her love-I So
ruelly dashed to the earth, That is what |
wanted to ask you, only that He paced to
md fro nervously, cla,ping his hands TO his
read, rs if in pam.
turned from him with shudder He
ormcd in that moonlight Ia bee a visitor from
he neither regions. His yellow face, glazing
yes, his long, slender fingers and sepulchral
Dice | told him that he need hope fer
owe again He would never see it, That
was too holy, too divine for such
ouls. Repentance and religion alone were
eft TO him.
He turned his great eyes upon me and,
baking his head, sadly muttcred, YES; |
NOW it, Love viii never brighten my DAYS
gain. Weak, weak fool that | was" He
Ool capsule from his vest pocket and sWal /
owed it rareles,sly. If am going to travel |
aid he, "and want 10 carry with me pleas |
mt rccollcctions only. You will always re-
member me kindly Think Of me as poor |
10Y that loved too we'll, won't You. | think |
need change Of scene, and wish" He |
brew his arms up wildly and fell backward /
N the wharf. The capsule was not his cough |
Medicine, but pr,lSsic acid, the most deadly of /
'OlSOnS
This is why, as sit here alone in the moon
ght looking out over the waters Of Lake |
'ontchartrun ahd listening 10 that guitar in
hore like an unpleasant dream, his face |
gain returns - Charles f.. Whitney III New !
orleans Times Democrat
FITTING One Against the other.