New-York tribune. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1866-1924, 1886-11-21


proved my safeguard, as egotism had proved my
defeat for on the latter qua ity a jealousy like
mine feeds hkc CHASTITY offs riny on poisonous
diet In my father 1t had been barbaric In me
II should have been civilized. No either my Of
fence was rank ana smelled to Heaven. or else all
progress AMI REFORM all evolution from beast to
man. all rise from savage to humanitarian all the
mighty lesson taught by science all the i'm erish-
able wisdom dug, out Of ienoance by dead and
living thnlters-all was futiity. sham, shadow
l'rovocaton? Yes, had ha 1t. So much the
greater for sobrety. Temptation? True.
| might have felt it, So much the greater reason
for tolerance. Whatever | may elsewhere have
recorded in these pages REGARDING my belief that
some limit is set TO our human means of escaping
a foreordained destiny, | seemed now to behold
the Genial of this theory scare with letters OF
lire IN my own conscience. The ampest means OF
escape had been placed within my control
could Ia shaped my destiny as | chose. An :
NAV these words, that teen with conviction
bought at so fatal price, be rca hereafter with
precious profit by fellow creature in peril OF
n downfall like m ne Not to all are given the
shield and spear when the foe threatens But 10
me they were given and how i'll ha used them :
Over so gigantic failure as that which had made
OF my life the teas of an els might well have
flowed an the laughter OF de lis have SCUM led
AS heard the step Of Casimir recross the thresh
old raised my head an looked at him. Just
then | became conscious OF gusty, beating noise
against the winlow-panes and a moment after
ward he said
"A severe storm has set in It is the equinox,
no doubt The rain is n shing down in torrents
No one will visit that spot to-day. The storm be
Gan a little while after | had reached it lie
was removing his drenrhcd coat as he spoke.
"1here were a few faint traces on the rocks
he continued where | hal dashed water. brim
ming my hat with it aTain an again last night.
But now this drcnching rain VIII wash away
every thing"
"Satan takes care Of his own. perhaps" | said.
with shudder.
lie came nearer to me "Oh. for Gods sake
Ohio" he an cacd, "do not look and speak like
that If you are reckless abort disco cry think
of MS You have called me your brother more
than You have often referred to my aunt
as your mother"
"Ycs" | said ga7ing UP at him from where
crouched and slowly shaking my head.
Then there is she whom you love-Ada lmnK
"Do not -eal1 of her, Casimir," faltercd' COW
cring my face.
lie drew siIl nearer to me. Presently he had
rut his am about my neck AMI drawn my head
forward till it rested on his breast ohio he
mIn1n,Ircd Everything is not lost You did 1t
in mad moment No one n zee ever K NOV yiE
suffer Put we will bear the suffer n! together
can upon me as if You were hurt am was
helping Won to walk somewhere toward shelte" an
,crief Think of me as strong whcne er YOU think
Of Yourself as weak Cling to me trust me- Bl
ami by clange will come love you. you better der
than brother listen AMI be conf 'rted hlte
comfort will come to you-nOt much as yet Ier.
hars but at least littlc-if only you VIII let u
come. You told me. ton'ht that you wanted iluS
Oh Ohio. is 10, e like mine. like your sec'n NON NON
er's like Ada's to be m carelessly away lou
Weld 10 anyone And You have us all-all three
| alone shall know. The two Others will sun love
YOU lust as before. We will guard our secret SO
well MESSIAH you know what l mean! but
il has not been discovered yet. There IS great
chance that it ne er will be discovered true
he NAV have been seen to leave the u1ln aI u'e
station And yet the hour was after dark ana no
doubt he went straight from the station 10 tne
bv-road which is but n step Cnce among tile
trees it is more tran rrobable that ne was not Cd
served And Ctho. think lhnk once JIc' ny
tl,ot lar,r III
not such a dreadful thing to have done al'er all
| mioht have done it myself, ,., oud
"You Casimir! !" broke in liftlnT my heal ann
locking at him. His cray es-tose beauth,uIl
dreamy gray eyes-were glistenlnE IN tis All
how he loved me Surely he was right tnIs man
SO delicate and yet gallant and ville OF nature
| was indeed more than brother YOU Oas-
mir Ti = | repeated Never g.,
"Do not be so sure of that" he went on; 'o his
inr NV head calcssn ly downward upon ms
breast as he SPOKE. knew that he was deceW'h
mo AMI vet his words. infinitely, ten or an
spur,ed 10y friendship richly un'elllsh. were nov
without their faint gentle announcement les
Ohio. might Rave done it. But whether !
mi Inf or no remember row he prov ol<cd YOU " hal
he said to you there in my studio IN TIE i We If
YOU had not punished him then | would have
lone So AMI with Ms much right as you io I, size
is of my blood. and the ispeiSion was we; inen
here on the shoe he threatened tn tell AGA uIaln
ercey the whole truth about your birth that
was tie hascst kim of mcanness lie taun'eo you
rs cruelty one man ever taun'ei ulioO"cT' ,o,-od
Nv hand lad stolen into CasimlrS looked
m wy Nv owes directly met his for the first time
;incc | ha1 confessed my guilt to nm lie ma.
icrced somethn. sluggish an raiaNIeu III I hS
shirt: he had given me a sort or reason 10 oe
e that | sill bone the right Of calln5 my SCI
man | do not claim that | was JUstlheu III onos |
believing These Conf sSicns OF nine are ncoc,
n be taken as an extenuati of crime: they are |
mmcasilr r,bly the opposite they are II allyChlh-
|, self ahasemcnt humiliation. an etiort 10 eN-
the possibility Of hHman tegene a'i1n nut
,ercditary con itons. That | failed momchtousS
S no reason why others far less nhcN g buP'0u
or success should not con luer am uluhi II ~
Still new set OF emotions now ass eu me- me
beoan To breathe ms it were. with a lleer Diea'h |
'erhars Casimir was ri hit 1t shot through my |
min that in the life Of this atom which we can
mr. world men had existed who were held honor |
be vet had slain a fellow man for Tar less IMAM |
what had goaded and infamed me; iii |
"TIe did taunt me horribly Cas!mr; sii9
All be careful | went on with toucn OF WIG
,ess in my tones and the struggle OF SOD IN my
hroat "You may make me hold tins crime NOR
iehtN than hold now ana ,, Kmvw e e nH If
me- Iay cain the courare of wanting to live-of
r iiS to e ade TIE doom that deserve
at is that feeling otho ne ba nur'edE et n me
ssoIVe voIrr torpor, ami shall be ccntent You
allied yourself to night vulgar mul1leiGarmSoTI
allied yourself your own father: WHOSE ueeu not
now YOU execrate-again and again You a. not
Ike him You have been OUTRAGED. SPIT upon
rampIed upon. by Il cowud suppose yoa mai n%d
ought duel with him an kiei nm ,, It, "1 R"t
been AR. we flcWD N'ih'H
o was beneath fighting YOU he dld not dare mc me-;
GU. You recall how we waited III PaFS lor MN
o give us sion 80. ,1.. |
And so ne continued. this Casimir this reeresS
rienl who reminded me with fI1ghttul sarcasm
( the love hal been able to awaken IN my OWL
ind and of what untold benefit a nan IN lowed
,ith This power mi ht have wrought n eMth
But he gained his point. rose nue. aver;
nth kinlling hopes. with sense that ] 81 ni'u
,iro ara nst discovery arrest an death. WIN "a
n iny tn have my eut buried rs was the body
{ him whom | had SLAIN YES almost WIN an
crous palc ~, .s "a |
9th nv hands The rain Was heating furious W
"You will act with me - said Casimir.
~ io, III his owes "You will not let your
,i''.i ~ y r,,,sb Won Ohio Thank God :"
lie bmst INTO passionate tears moment after
ord But the paroxysm did not last lonE saw
20, ollo Great effort To master it, and he soon