The Arkansaw traveler., 1885-04-25

= she received the impression, how she did not know.
 opened the way for Miss Toxel to de- tail her past life, and to speak of former lovers, if there had been such in her ex- peTience, but she declined the opportu- nity, and did not feel at liberty to ask the question directly. Ishsll inform my self on this'point. Were Miss Toxel a woman of merely ordinary intellect 1 should be less interested; her conversa- tions reveal to me mind of the analytic order, and an extensive course of reading upon biologic topics. Her attention has been strongly directed in this channel think she has had a previous lover.
 January 27, lip m.-l met Ayiie on the street to-day at 6 p. m. and dined with him at his residence, $40 W. goth street. He is fancier of old furniture and old books, especially of the early English poets. He showed me his li- brary while we smoked after dinner Our conversation covered broad field, and my host showed very wide knowl. edge of art and literature. His house and library are among the most delight fal have ever seen. He has only few pictures and none are very valuable, but they are all charming. He writes great deal, solely for his own amusement and permitted me to read selections from a book of manuscript sonnets those which l saw were admirable his thought and diction are both remarkable for depth, intensity, simplicity and clearness of ex- pression, and purity of emotion. He is calm. selfreliant, self-contained and reti- | Aylie was disinclined to talk of her; he evidently demands thorough acqvain- tance before he gives confidence. Ire ceived the impression that he desired my acquaintance and counsel. told him of my student life, my romantic marriage, the early and irrepArable loss sustained in the death of my wife, the abandon ment ofall my precious objects, and my aimless pilgrimage to the new world and my accidental location in New York, and finally the conversation dyifted to a fu- ture life, and expressed my earnest con- viction that should there meet her who had boon so dear, and renew our life of love. Aylie was deeply interested and sympathetic. l was strongly impressed in his favor, and like him better than any man have previously met in Amer. ica.
 lnuary 30, I2 p. m.-Miss roxel called to- day at 4 p. m. But few patients were in waiting, and was soon able to receive her. She was calmer, and had seemingly arrived at some conclusion, which at least relieved her of uncertainty. She showed no inclination to speak of Mir Aylie. I followed every topic which she introduced until she dropped it, as did not wish to lead her conversation at all. was well aware that she had called upon me for purpose, and wished her to disclose 1t freely and without bias from mo. She finally asked me if heard In- gersoll, who had just given several lee. lures, and upon my reply in the negative Miss Toxel said, !" l suppose, of course, Dr. Arndt, that you, an educated German, cannot be else than thorough material ist2
 con the contrary, Miss Toxel," said 1, "I believe have passed that stage of be- liet forever. fully expect a conscious identity in the future state, and believe that we shall there complete these broken aud divided lives of ours, and make ex- istence perfect"
 "You surprise me-" said Miss Toxel, with a fervor which she had not pre- viously exhibited. "I suppose that a thorough knowledge of the human body led invariably to a denial of life to come and that ignorance was necessary to faith, and l have thought it possible that be. lief in heaven would very soon become solely feminine attribute, held as result of our incapacity to acquire knowledge" Miss Toxel smiled faintly, and seemed much more in earnest than the lightness of her words would indicate.
 "lt is true," said 1, "that the first ef. feet of knowledge is to make man appear small and valueless; but there is a fol- To 'iDg conviction, that comes to some minds and has come to my own, Miss Toxel-that, since all of our exact knowl- edge is so limited and fragmentary, and leaves us wholly in the dark as to the pur- pose and scope of things, it is fully as reasonable to believe the best may hap. pen us finally, as the worst. Our defec- tive wisdom supplies us with no decisive evidence for or against future. The most rigid scrutiny of the field Of science at least leaves us free to choose. For my self, l cannot believe in Creator without intelligence and desire for the happi- ness of the created"
 "Then you really and fully believe in a Creator who regards the happiness ofus unhappy mortals"
 "I do, most assuredly. It is only fair to Say that my own life has been such that my existence suffered such a mutila- tion when l was yet a young man, that life, to me, would not have been worth living without conviction that in future existence we should meet those whom we have lost here."
 But you have -ot come to the con- clusion without full examination in the light of all you have learned in life and of life"
 Certainly not. Nor have sought to be convinced in compliance with my de- sires. have a hrm conviction of the continuance, not perhaps of any creed or revelation, but of the mercy and love of the Creator for all of his creatures"
 "lt is such relief and support to me-" said Miss Toxel, "to have you say this.