The Stark County Democrat. [volume] (Canton, Ohio) 1833-1912, 1885-01-08
DAYS
BY HUGH CONWAY,
Author Of "oaHed Bach"
CHAPTER H.
. VILLAINS BLOW,

change when Philippe showed no tho we'd
ding-ring on her finger No wonder II did,
Hope was eliminated from It. From that
moment ! was a changed man,
Life was no longer worth living, The
spur Of ambition wa, h%lnntedi the desire for
fame gone, the interest which ] had hith'
erto felt In my profession vanished All the
spring, the elasticity, seemed taken out OF
my being, For months and months did
my work In q p%erfunctory manner, 10 gave
me no satisfaction that my practice grew
larger. worked, but ! cared nothing for
my work, Success gave mo no pleasure An
Increase 10 tho number Of my patients was
positively unwelcome 10 me, 30 long az
made money enough 20 supply my daily
needs, what did II matterl or what Use
was wealth 10 mel 10 cOu'd not buy mo tho
ono thIng for which | crayed. OF what use
was liIel No wonder that such friends as !
had once possessed all but forsook ma, My
mood at that time was none Of the sweetest.
/ wanted no friends, | was alone In tho
world, I should DO always alone,
So things ont ON for more Than q year, !
grow worse instead Of better, My gloom
deepenoli my cynlciam grow moro con-
lm,di my life became moro aud moro
himleaa,
These aro not lovers' rhapsodles. would
spare you them II | could, butt II necessary
that you should know the exact state Of my
mind In order 10 understand my subsequent
conduct Eyon now II seems 10 me that |
am VT. Ing this description with my hearts
blood.
Not a word camo from Philippe. Imale
l-..I.I . .I,.t l.H TIL ...st..a a.. t...a
her, 1 dared not Not for one moment did |
forget her, and through all those weary
months tried 10 think Of her Ns happy and 10
DO enviedi yet In spite OF myself, shud'
dered as | pictured her lot as II might
really be,
But all tho while I know that tho day
would come when / should learn whether |
wa TO be- thankful that my prayer had boon
answered, or TO DO prepared 10 keep my
vow,
In my mlsanthroplcal state Of mind |
hoarl without tho slightest feeling Of Joy or
citation that u distant relative OF mine, u
man from whom | expected nothing, had
died aud loft mo tho bulk Of hls large prop.
erty, Icarcd nothing for this unexpected
wealth, except for tho fact that II enabled
mo t0 FREQ myself from u round Of toll In
which by now took not the sl'ghtoat inter,
cat. Had IL but come two or three years
before, Alosl all the things IN this lifoeomo
Zoo late,
Now that | was no longer forced 70 mln'
plo with men In order 10 gain tho means of
living. I absolutely Stunned my kind. The
wish Of my youth, to travel In far countries,
no longer existed with mo ! disposed Of
my pfacllcc-or rather | simply handed 10
over 10 the FIRST conner loft the town Of
my adoption aud bought q small houso-lt
wa littlo moro than q coti6go=anmo five
miles away from the tiny town " Riding,
Hero ! was utterly unknown, and could live
exactly ual chosoi onl for months II was
my cloico TO live almost like n hermit,
Ny needs were ministcrod 10 by q man
who had been for some years In my om-
ployment lc was q handy, faithful fcl.
low, honest ~ the day, stolld ~ the Sphinx,
mn, for some reason or other, NO much nt,
taehrd 10 M that ho wNa willing 90 perform
on my bohalf th' duties Of housekeeping
which arc usually RELOCATED 10 female aor'
wants,
Looking back upon that time Of encludon,
M n medical man, ! wonder what would
eventually have boon my fate II events had
not occurred which one, mora forced mo
into the world OF monl | firmly helioye that
broodmg In solitude over my grief would NJ
last have affected my brniu; that sooner or
later I must have developed symptoms Of
mclancholin, Professionally NJ. aklng, tho
probabilities are 1 should have committed
suicide,
Even In tho depth Of my degradation |
must have known tho dan ers Of the path
which / was trcadlngi for, aftor having
passed six droary months In my lonely cot
tRgc, | was trying TO brace myself 10 seek q
change OF scene, / ahrank from, leaving
my quiet abode, but oyery day formed
atrcah the resolve b. do 30,
Yet the days, each the SAINT az Ia foro.
runner, went by, and ! was stiil there |
had books, OF course, | road Tor days 10.
gothcr; thcn | would throw the volumes
aside, and, with n bittor emilc, nsk myself
20 what end was ] directing my studloa.
Tho accumulation Of knowlcdgrl Tush |
would give all tho learning | had acquired,
hll that a lifetime Of research could acquire,
u hold Philippe for one brief moment "a
my heart, mud hear her sOy sic loved mo-
II In thr Whirl Of men, In the midst Of hard
work, / found II impossible 10 conquer my
hopeless passion, how could | expect 10 dc
20 living As | nj present lived I
Therol my egotistical descriptions are al
most over, Now you know why ! said thai
you must w by the fire and think with me
must enter, IA II were, into my inner sell
before you can understand my mental ttatN
Whether YOU sympatliE, wW me or moi
depends entirely on your ~ organization,
II you aro 10 constructed that the love Of
one woman, and one only, can pnryadc youi
very being, MI your every thought, direct
your every action, make life 20 you u bloea
Ing or u curse-lt love comes 10 you In thiI
gulse, you will be able " understand me,
That night, when | first presented myself
10 you, my wounds seemed loss likely thar
ever 10 heal, forgetfulnesa eeemel further
and further away. Somehow ~ my th0ught'
took the woll-worn road 10 the past ever,
event Aeemed recent ~ yesterday, ever,
scene vivid Us II 1 had just left 10 lloul
after hour | sat gazing NJ the glowing em
bers, hut seeing only Philippn's believe,
face. How had life Jared with herl Whor
was she M this momenti The resolve u
quit my aeolusion waH made anew by mo
/ would 20 into The world and find hcf-no
for any selfish motive. | would learn iron
her own lips that she was happy, II unhappy
nhe should have from me such comfort n
Che love Of n true friend can give. Yes,
would leave this wretched life Tomorrow
My cheek nushel ~ ! oontrosted what | wa
with what | ought 10 be, No man has
right b. ruin hia life or hide his talents 70
The sale, OF n woman.
hal another inducoment which urge
me " make n change In my mode OF M,
am ashamed that I have not spoken OF u
That morning | had received q lutter froi
my mother had not seen her for 81
years, just Us ! entered mans estate sb
married Tor tho second time My stepfnlht
wal mn American, aud with many tears m
mother lelt ine for her new home, Son
months ugo her husband died ! shoul
have gone TO her, but she forbade me. NJ
had no children by her second husband, m
now that Ills affairs were practically woun
iii she proposed returning to highland, II,
letter told lno that sho would he in 10ndo
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