Springfield globe-republic. (Springfield, Ohio) 1884-1887, 1885-12-20

of Poverty, troi by ~ many weary fetst that
almost every flower that tries To spring up
therein Is trampled down in its dust took
il n, one starved may take any gift, thinking
it was the last ever 10 lr- received ! hecam.
cove.ous Ihoarried away thesr gifts. While
| would not h,g for more dire tly, did 80 IN
directly I-inf,arei mv Cramp d means and
situation. instead Of stating them openly
Though having then money enough to sup
ply the needs Of the hour more IN accordance
with my tastes AMI desires. ! did not ="
plainly and live Pnorly | dIi ~ l@rau~e |
could not bear to part with my treasure ]
sent half my soul in certain bank vault and
left it there amid package Of ~"liet bank
hills-mine, mine, mine Of which | wouid
not touch one Z" make my life and surround
ingS more pleasant. traded on nv versa
talitv and vivacity to make and keep FRIENDS
| was willing To 90 among them with my
mouth ever wide open I" receive whatever
was dropped in it, and {" attract their gittN
TO NV powers of pleasing
found when had sufficient means that |
tfN ~ Nih-i'l 'ii'-iA' l'A Ni't''
| had ~ earnestly wanted The saving, cal
culating, cost tu-a penny habit of years cln.
- me
Anything hrvond my old plane q eNpeus
frightened mo was CURSED with mania
for cheapnes~ II purchased good articl
Of any sort. and paid Tor it a good prlc"
would b- painad tor days al the t.'ought oI
parting wi h - much money. Ss money
brought me no rrlief-u-ly the moi" di- res,
The reason was. | had trained mys,'lf :,
miserlineSS and could not escape. My mind
on that point was diseased. Had million
be-. placed in my possession should hav.
felt the same. In thought should have beer
no richer.
Besides. I'd had that villainouS maxim
Save when you're Young that You may
spend when YOUR, Old and too worn out e
get any plea-,rr. out Of yrur Spending drilled
and drummed INTO my ears from INV earli'-
cnildhnoi. until hal cone /" think ever,
cent expended over and above what wa
necessary 10 keep life in ones holy SEM
sin, if not whole one
Isabel and | planned trip to Englan'
together. | wished for "A course of study
at one of the great London hospitals w
arranged the trip and st a time for our de,
parture
But when came % think the matter ovrr
by myself it presented itself in a very differ
snt Ii ,ht | felt that for this gIrl TO accom-
pany me would h. for both of Us misfortune
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through my whims and humors, and thai
her gentle and sensitive nature was not ah!t
10 endure the strain that would lie put upo'
il through my possible is | feared, also
knowing then better my own erratic tenn
permanent and love Of change that the tim
might come when ! should tug at any chain
however dear 80 firmly did | believe tina
such would lie the case. and ~ averSe was
tn the stating of this opinion To lsahei. tina
Off went to England alone and without Civ
ing her any explanation whatever. 1t COS
me a succession of crying spells, and | pc
Sume i. did her also.
studied in grea. London hospital for 6
vear-rather a hard experience for "A woman
aS a woman in such IA situation i regarde
l by the English medical student EngliShme.
I make ample am niS for having one woma,
| rule them-nominallv-fo they seem TO rulC
| all the rest with a barbaric rot
returned to America qualified physi
| clan had gained my end ami paid dearly
for it The strain hai been too much
was, al tn start. Splendidiy equipped rs L
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the contest Of years Ny health broke down
was ready to commence life, hut now life
corner stone and foundation to build upon
health-wa> wantin- | had extended al
NV reserve strength in forcing myself 70 ac
cept food dress and Surroun lnSs which did
violence TO my nature; in grievlng my higher
, self by STOPPING to obtain means i'll the way
( l have stated; in forcing the reckless side OF
my nature to the front as a sort of protec
tive armor. for as ! began to r,'aIile that i
WAS a part of my nature | made II do double
duty | would work mySelf. force myself
into that. mood when really felt far NOR,
like CRYING, when | 50 longed for friend OF
who's. bosom could throw mv-elf and tel
her all about mvS.lf-tel her what | hav,
tried to tell hereif ! had dared But thes,
truths then | Jared not own 10 myself
The few friends had in Buston-some o
whom had given me mraus-nav remember
how suddenly disappeared: how left then
without a word or line uf thanks or remem
brance That they should deem me migrate
Gul do not wonder But | left them in tht
way did because dared not reveal myself
10 them | could not as | have done here
Nor could thank them for their kindn,Ss il
anv assumed mechanical fashion. | felt thai
had played part for "A sordid motive
loathed myself for - doing. 81 between III,
two went of in silence.
This is my Christmas meSsage-the one
Christmas token can offer. What | wan il
TO impress upon it, readers is that Sordidne,
never results in good Giving. not boarding.
brings back rich return. Think of this, as
Christmas dawnS and the New Year opens
BE generous TO others and 10 yourself.
And this There is no ultimate gain il
starvation, starved and repreSsed appetite
or starved and repres>.-i taste no mattel
what be the eni attained through sucE
starvation; 1t Is only another robblng OF
Peter to pay Paul, only damming up injurl
ously what's in human nature to roll over
the barrier at last and sweep all before it
only starving of body, mind and spirit,
whose result u To make one through
starved eyes and by a starved Judgment
Close the Old year and open The new with
h.. that
ing Remember that ali YOU can carry into
the life hereafter will lie what YOU have
given, not what you have saved
PRENTICE MILFORD
Boston, Dec. III.