New-York tribune., 1885-02-08

And then. how easily healthy person can sin
No temptation to SIN approaches me Mnen our
pastor Father Alexis gave me the Communion lew
DAYS ago. hs said You need not confess hrst whas
sins could you have committed in your conait'on
But answered: Can not have snnea n;d and m s ny
even laughed. they are probably no very grave
Ones.' ,.., mn
great sins in my thoughts Luker1a c0ntinue9'
I. for have accustomed myself not to thinK anu,
above all not to recall tho past. So the time goes
must own that was greatly astonished.,
sand yet you are always alone. Lukerla. how 1oW
do yOu manage to prevent any thougnes n,,nl ntU,l
coming into your hoadf Or do you sleep con''"'
a0h! no. sir can't sleep continually. Though
don't suffer much. often feel sharp internal pains,
and INV bones ache, too so can't sleep as much as
I really onght No. / always lie in this way. but
without thinking. 1 feel that am living breath;
ing And see and hear tine bees DuZlin9 ana
hummny about their hives; the doves percning ana
cooing ON the roof the hen clucking 10 can her
chickens to pick up the crumbs OF Dreau ,ne, g NV
pleasant it is for me when sparrow or outierny
comes hiiting by. Last year par OF swaliows
even built nest IN the corner yonder :Ad rotIeu
their brood one would come dying in, cling To
the nest feed the young-then be Oh again. Before
| had looked away moment the other was AT tne
post sometimes they Qua not ny sn n "uI the vono@
ones Instantly opened their tiny beaks. ieNrec.en
them this year. too. but was told that hunter
whole swallow isn't much bigger than beetle
What wicked people you hnltsmen are
al don't shoot swallows" FASTENED to reply.
"And another time" Lukcrja began again" on.
how laughed! hare came running III. yes u
really did The hounds were pressing 1t closely anu
it eaped right in at the door sat down Close % ore
continually and stroking its wmsksrs WIN us pave
exactly like an officer! And how it looKel at me
OF course il had Mt once that couidht harih
II AZ last it rose sprang to the door at one bound
looked back once more from the threshold ana
was off. oh, how ridiculous 1t was! .oo
Iukeria looked me as II to ask wnetheri; J.; ,o''
sonnS tie incident amusing. TO please her. began
to laugh She herself bit her withered ips ,
am sm-Tan"'cd IN bv darkness light would be of
very little use. and whv shonid J. nave oho
Thouch learned to read and write and was always
no books here and even if there were, now couid
hold a voumef Father Alexis once brought an
ulmanac TO amuse me. But when he saw that
conld do nothing with it he took IT away aSaih;
Yet, even when It is perfectly dark around me;
can always hear something; orlcke. k, nee * - ="
"is sTben Then j pray, too" Lukerja continued. after
stonnjnp to take breath. "Only don't know many
"rayers Inv heart Besides. why should he contin.
naIly troubling Ciodi For what should ask HIN
lie knows what need far better than do: iie iie
has laid cross upon me- doesn't hat show that he
loves me 1t Is IN this way we must understand H.
/ saw Oar Father and the prayer Tor an SICK per
sons then | lie still again and think OF hothihs'
Sevrrai minutes passed did not like to break
the silence and sat motonless on the tuo. Inc
horrible stony immoblty o. the hapess living
cTaatnre lyinu before ne bad impaired itself to me-
seI' aIiiten' LnkeriarI began at last al have
nro1oSal 10 make If Won wish. will have yon
taken to n hospital. a good city hospital W no
knows. perhaps you may yet be cured AT any r"'o'
Won won't be so lonely there
Lukerja almost scowled 49,.
q On. no SIR" she whispered anxionsly, "dont
take TO hospital don't move me i, snail ,y only
be cured One day doctor drove out here who
wanted 10 examine me | begged him for Gods
saEe not 10 torture me- Oh! how lie tw isted aud
tnrnen me abont He almost broke my hands amt
let. Hut he said I'm only doing this for
scientific reasons because am scholar paia py
the Government. And you mustn't resst, he
added Il shall receive an order for my ironb'e.
and for whose benefit am | working except you
stupid FOOLS After he had tormeatea me ron5
name anl went away again. But my Imbs achod
for a week. You say ain alone here alwaysaone
No. I'm not always alone. lclteh nave vis'lofS
The peaSant girls sometimes come ana chat win
me. or a pilgrim talks to me and tells me about
Jerusalem kieil and other hos oo o,ieS Wbv DI' mYen
prefer it, Don't take me away. sir, don't carry Eie
TO q hospital / am grateful 10 you' you mean
kindly. only don't jar me-"
swell lust as you please. Lukcria. just as you
please. | thoughi it would be best for you
q know what is best for me. SIR. VINO can help
another person Who can look into his heart
Zach individual must aid himself. Perhaps you
won't believe it. but sometimes when am lying
here alone it seems rs If were the only creature
in the whole world-the only living creature! Then
so strange feeling comes over ine-ilke that one
has in church when the bcnedictlon Is given and
aOf what do you think then, Lukerjaw
That can neither be told nor explained. sir
md yyrn II is over forget II again. IL comes ana
goes like a cloud when II is here everything seems
real to nv mind. when II is gone tnInk Oh hothlhg
slei Only il seems to me that If there were people
aronnd me none of these things would baDpen, and
/ should he conscious only OF my misfortune" H..
Iukeria tried to draw long breath But her
chest ike the other parts of her body, no longer
see von nty me. sir" she began again. ~But
f., ,yl,t 1nftO tO eel
hi tell Won mething: in old times, yes. and even
nosHvSu remember what wild. merry girl was
do you know: can can still sing"
ayes hvmns, Christmas carols holiday songs, all
sorts of things. knew % great many ana haven't
any more. They are not suitable to my situation
BN how do you sinai Softly, to yourselfp
GNot merely softly TO myself, but distinctly. Or
c,urse not very loud but it is perfectly ntellgible
tod you just that little orphan girl some
times to see se hs y ana s6e
has learned four already. suppose you can hardly
believe it. Wait, I'll show you at once"
Inkeria stopped to take breath The idea that
ti half feess creature going 20 sing inspired
me with involuntary horror. But ere could say
a word long-drawn faint ont pure ana trne n9'e
fell upon my ears-a second. third one folloWed-
Jnkeria was singing In the Meadow There
was not the slightest change of EXPRESSION on the
stony face even the eyes looked fixed Yet the
noor feeble little voice, dying away like breath
sounded infinitely touching: lt seemed as II she
would fain have poured forth her soul l no longer
felt horror. but pity-yes. unutteraoie pity hiied
Oh. can't GO on" she said suddenly. Ny
strength no longer hodsIout. And enjoyed 1T 30
muchr
She closed her eyes.'
/ IaId INV hand on her cold, tiny fingers She
,oot ed at Iye-then her dark lids. bordered with
Golden lashes like those In the ancient pictures.
closed again A moment after saw them glitter
in the darkness A tear had mostened them. |
again sat motionless.
q That's the way with me p Lukerja said suddenly
with unexpected strength. and "pening her eyes
She tried to wink the tears away. Isn't II a
shamei IL hasn't happened for long time-nOt
since the day vassil Pojakoff came here last spring