Oxford Democrat. [volume] (Paris, Me.) 1833-1933, 1885-01-06
BY HUGH CONWAY.



ii.l All iefi uis the iu'k n hn large rrup.
srty icarc.l nothing O. Us unexpected
wealth. cxcoTt f,r tho fact that it runiiri
us O. fro myself from round ~ toil in
Which ~ nov took noi me .ehtol' inter.
81 Hai % tui come two or throo yoau
hcfous Ai1si ail th' things in ths no clrns
g. late
Naw that vat u1 longer forc,l o. min.
70 With men in order i1 gain iha means %
living. I absolutely summed my knl Tho
uiah of my vuuih. to travel in far rnunfrl.s.
~ lanrer fnlttai with mo- d.tp0sai q
my rrsl'ln.-or rather I Simply taniel lt
over to co. fr.t cnmrr iffi tho town q
my airri.nn ant bought o. small houae--it
~as liii' morr than r. Coiiarc s.fne lve
miles avay from fi' tiny town ~ Rolling
H.r. I va utterly unku'en. afl r 900 live
era-tv -s ohHse. nni or months 10 vas
ms o.....s ta iiro aim si Nln a lrrmi.
A. ua..lt vrre uInIiftr,i to bY a uian
wh1 laI bon Or s.me years in my em.
flaym,nf ii, uas a handy. faithful fri
i1s. lr,,s' al fhs iay. s'oili A. tho srhInr.
ant. far s.ue rraeHn or other. s1 murh at
tarh..i t1 n. fhaf if WIS willing e. r.rf rm
on uy bataf hs duties ~ h.usl..ras
which are lsuai.y re' .satrl o. femal' s.r.
wants
I..atInr hack uran that time q s,rllli IN
a. m.l.rsi man. I uunlof what uoul
eventually have bon my faio II events hsi
NJ acrurr.l shl.h rnrs mnro froei ms
into itr worli ~ mrni firmly icllsve that
trnri.ur lu uniituir nVrr my Erirf Wuuii ~
last have affected mF lraIn. that sooner or
iafsr must have DEVELOPED symptoms n
msianrha's rrnfrsl.utl.Y sp-ak.ne. ti,
proiabIiiss a. Z sl.a.l havo committed
suc.ia
Even in 60 l.rih - bay iegra iaiIan
mlsi have kl1eu Co. dangers Of the plfh
which vas tr,alne o.. after having
ras--i ~ irrary r0rfls In my lonely c.t-
iarr. I uai trying tH lraro mYs..f 'n a0cs a
rhanes nf s0rue I slrank irHm lrarns
ny qnft aiuio. hui ever Jag fru.el
afrrsh tte r.snife g. io ts
" the days each ih, ame as lfs f.fr.
funnlr. went iy. rni vas al u.rrt
hal tsnks ~ rnura. I roaI f0r dave o..
srther. then v.ali itrnv the v0Iauri
asli,. ani. with batter sulle. aik mTa.f
O. shat eni vas directing my studies
IIa accumulation 10 kroellierI Ilsh
voul give ai tho icamlns ! lai aolalrnl.
eli that lifetime n research Cauil aolu.rr.
u N.|NN HAH NIHN NNN NNH. NNNN NN."|I. I'D
ny heart. col bar her ay 10 Lowell niei
n la th. ehiri % men, in tto miiat 10 hard
work. founl DO .mrossillo O. o.nqlsr my
hoT.ics passion. hov oUui expect tH ln
- living ~ at pn-cni lived .
Thcrci my ego'isiicai descriptions ars A.
ulsi over Nowyou knos VIZ ! sail that
yog must 90 ~ ne ffo aui think ulih nos
must enter. a. it VEN. into my lnnlr II
tsfole you can understand nay mental state
MhftEfr Ynu FYmfafLlGH Nlth mr or nj
i.f.nis entirely Ga y.ur osn orrauitatiosl
N ,ou ars .. r.nstructai that tl1 love q
ons woman. AMI enc only. can Trrraia y lur
very isins. fu yo1r oFcry thougli, direct
your oFcry action. make Afo o. yoa hirs-
in. GA clrso-f love c1mei D. you la ta.s
euIss. you viii o. atis o. unior1tand ma
That night vhon fr.i Ir,sentsi myself
o. ynu. my wounds scomei lCss lk iy Than
ever O. heal. forscifuincss Fremel further
ani further asay. S.uehoe as my thoughts
tooktha vcii-soru rad t1 the p1sf. every
event ,ocmcd rcconf a. yesterday, every
soone yivii a. n I hai Just lefi lt Hour
after tour sat casing at IN glowing cfn-
bsrs. iui SEEING only lhliTpas beloved
face Hos tal hfs farci with hefi Nhcr-
was she 10 thn momfuu lh' resolve %
Quit my fociusion vas male anew ~ ma
lu.ui gn into tho vofll aui hui lrf-nlt
for aur --.fsh motive eUull learn from
her orn iIfs that ste ras hapry n unhappy.
shs shIull lave from mn furl comfort a.
tho love of a true frieni can give -.
vouli leave this wreichoi lifo t0-morruF.
nv cheek fushoi a. couirlsfci what was
With what ought D a. ~ man has
nxhttl ruin Lis iiis 90 hils h.s tai n. for
~ saks of woman.
l haI another iniucomsnt which urssl
M q makes change In my mole of life
am ashamed that have nj spoken of it
That morning hai received litter from
my mother | had noi zen hlr fur "a
years Just a. ! entered mans estate shs
married Or the second time Ny siep'aihcr
was an American. and sith many tear my
mothcr icft me Or her new home Some
months a.1 her hushanl died ! should
have gono o. hcr, hat sho fortalc mc She
hai ~ Children by her seonni husband, AMI
nos that hls Affairs were practically wound
up sho proposei returning o. England. Her
letter to'd me that sho would D. In loniou
In thrco days time. AMI suggested that
should meet her there
Although q ata years W. hal driftei
apart sho was dear, vefy dear % M
hatci the thought of her seeing M, her
only child. rciuo,i % such a wreck q my
former III. yet for her sake I again ~
novel ny resolve q having my scclu-
sion.
We, knew that tomorroW I shoull for
swear myself. ani sink back into ny apathy
AMI aimicss existence An I know not
-.
But nov tack o. the night II was mil
winter. ant bitterly cold out - doors .iy
lamp vas not Yet iightei. ths glow u ny
flre alone broke the darkness u the room
hai not even drawn ths curtains or shut
the shutters AZ times liked T. l0ok ga:
and 80 the stars They shone - peacefully.
- calmly, - colily; they seemei - unlike
tho world. with H. strife ami ferce Iassions
ami dlsappontmenis
rose languiily from my chair AMI walkct
b the window. 10 soc what sort of a night u
waA As approachei the easement could
- that the skics hai darkeucd moreover. ]
noticed that feathcry fakes u snos wcre
accommodating In tbs corner of each pane-
went close 20 toe window AMI Tccred out
into the night
Standing within a yard q me, gazing into
my ulmlY llt room Der iaco stern hhi I~tla
as death. her dark eycs now rivetsd on my
own, was a woman and that woman Was
Philippa. my lovei
For several minutes stood, sIsllbound,
gazing al her. That I aw more than a
phantom of my Imagination did not AZ once
enter into my head In dreams hal seen
her loved again and again, bat this Was
the first time my waking thoughts had con
jarcd up such a vision. Vision, dream.
reality | trcmbied A. l lookc,l' for The form
was that % rhllippa in dire distrcss
IL WAS seeing tho hood which covered her
head grow winter ami whittier with the fast
falling snow which arousssl me b my senses.
and made every hber thrill with The thought
that Philippa, In hssh and blood, stool b.
foe me With low cry Of rapture i tore
asunier tho fastenings Of the French Gaze
mcnt. threw the sashes apart, AMI without
word my love passei from The cold, bleak
night into my room.
She was wrapped from head 10 FOO, In a
rich dark fur-trimmsi cloak. A she swept
BY me felt she vas damp with partially
thawei snow. I ci0sei tho window then.
with a thrObbing heart. turnei 70 greet my
visitor She stood In the centre OF the room.
Her mantle hal fallen 10 the ground, and
through the dusk could - her white face.
A. n.l. AMI nack I took Iar hands In mine.