The Panola weekly star. (Sardis, Miss.) 1882-18??, 1884-11-29

VIOLA ;
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Thrice Lost n Struggle Tor a Name
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CHAPTER NvI-Cnsusrrp
Ralph caught the paper neryously md
strobe 10 the window. read ng Il rs he
went with d%eyourng haste And thi.
was what he read
"DEAh fArntH Am NouTH, Asb DrAn
RALrn-Lot me call you this lust once. uH
worthy ~ am cannot ~ AVA from yuH
forever, without iellluE you how I love you
how have loved yuu al these long \ rs
Year,, and now. NJ this last moment more than
ALL Hut cannot come iutp your homo, 1bf
Wight " my own uuWgrthinrss and Nm would
be more tnnn ! could bear In that pufr ntmpf
phore. ! have been Att NJ m Judgment mi
myself to-day, since No1's hand cHinr between
me and my wicked ambition mud nor q prldp
q, why did Tie not take nv NE Instead NJ hhsi
have asked myself this question u hundred
times this long. terrible afternoon. dare not
ask your iotg vonnss- dare not nsk Heaven =
u can only pfay for the pity ~ both. In ms
ncrce pride I determined 10 vrest from iata
what II 10 cruelty withheid-my name Au1 for.
tune, To this one thought ! have devoted my
ME- for ~ furthorance have sacrificed home
your homc-loye, honor, snlf-rcspeci and
only for the %lnterposltion Of Heaven, soul and
BODY a. vol I stand tonight ns one stands
on the edge Of dark abyss, by whose side hi
has willfully and wickrdly l1iirrfd. 10 not
seek to excuse my CONDUCT cnnnot. Ihopr.
some lime, 10 dare ask God 10 pardon my folly
and orime-l cannot yet.
81 shall come 80 near that IL you know YOU
could hear my he irt'a nnrce beating IL BEATS
40 wildly shall touch nv lips b. the casrmc
where some time your hands may hll, rai
"ooodbyo, forever nnd eyer
II broke Of abruptly, the last few
words ending in a scrawl. ~ II heart
and strength had alike failed.
Father, mother, Ralph said. grave.
ly, 81 shall find her Il she = anywhere
on the face Of Gods earth. il It takes
me till ! am 4 gray old manl'' he cried,
with sudden sharp pathos.
Not dare to ask II forgiveness.
poor childF' Mrs. Anderson said.
brokenly; as Il we ever held any other
feeling towards her but love. o. Ralph.
you mus find her."
II will find her II she Is in the world.
mother" the handsome face white and
grave and rcsoluto. ''And father. mother
If she will. | shall bring her 10 you as
my wife. She shall have the shelter OF
my heart and my name against the
world, II only she will
God bless you. Ralph. In your
search. and b. SURF Of the welcome that
waits a%nSiously and longingly for her.
even as for yol.. my son. Ben Ander.
son said. solemnly. n he babe his boy
goodbye IN hour afterward at the depot
At Rockford.
The staiion.master to whom they
had applied had given them this mior.
nation;
When be came 10 open his Office a
slight young girl was standing by the
door. She came and bought a ticket
for Chicago Immediately the Office was
open. lie noticed her particularly be
cause her dress was wet and dabbled
about the bottom. and h. thought she
must have come some distance through
the mud. and wondered a little. Tor
she was looking III enoagh to be in bed.
with her heavy eyes and pallid fare
The tran had been gone two hours or
more. and another did not leave in
after noon. Well. there was nothing 10
do but walt. wait Weadest and bitter.
est Of oil work under the sun is this to
wait To wait when heart and brain
are running wild to wait when the soul
and blood on fire: TO wait when the
pulses every throb is a pang Of fierce.
impatient pain.