Democratic Northwest. [volume] (Napoleon, Ohio) 1869-1894, 1884-12-25

Whether you sympathizs with me or not
depends entirely on your own organization.
IL pJu are so constructed that the love Of
one woman, and one only, can pervade your
very being, I'LL your every thought, direct
your every action, make life TO you bless
ing or curse-if love comes to you In this
guise, you will be able to understand me-
That night, when l first presented myself
to you, my wounds seemed less likely than
ever to heal; forgetfulness seemed further
and further away. Somehow as my thoughts
took the well-worn road TO the past, every
event seemed recent as yesterday, every
scene vivid as II had Just lett II. Hour
after J. ur sat gazing at tine glowing EN-
bers, ut seeing only Philppas beloved
face how had lie farea with herf where
was she at TINS moment' Inc resolve 70
quit my seclusion was made anew by me.
l would go into the world ana nnd her-not
for anv selfish motive i would learn from
her own lips that she was nappy. III unhappy,
she should nave from me such comfort as
the love OF true 1rlend can give Yes,
would leave TINS wretchea NE tomorrow
My cheek nushei as cohtrasteu "hat was
with what ought 70 oe. NO man mas
right t. rum his lie or hide MS talents lor
the sake OF woman.
mad another lnaucement Whlcn urged
mo 10 make change IN my mode OF ne
am ashamed thaI nave not SPOKEN Oh H.
lhat morning mad received letter from
my motner nau hoe seen her lor SIX
years: just US ehtereu lnans es'aVe sue
married ior tne second Time MY 'oepfather
was an american, anu WIN man, 'eais my
motner lel' me LOT ner new honie' Hon'e
mohtnS ago her huSoanu uieu; snouiu 1ur
nave gone 10 her, out sue lot rDaos NE. one
haa no chl!u'eh oy her secohu nusuahu' ui,
no" that MS anaifs were practicaiiJ "ou,io
up she proposed returning 10 ,-ns'ahq' ner
letter toid me cha1 she woulo De IN LonuoI
IN Vnree uays Tine anu suss"s'eu 'na'
snouid meet nsr tnere.
Aithough Oh a'e years we hau uril'eG
apart sue was uear, very uear 10 me-
haeeo tne tnouehe ot her seeing lhP, n'l
oniy chin, reuueeu 70 sucn "TecN ol my
iorihe, sei' yeS 'of nc, 'ane s"ii
ne"eu my re'oi'e VI lea'ih5 my Seoiu
sion. r,,
heU hhe" VnaU to'iiiorro" shouli ior
swear myself anu SIM oach i,i'o my apathy
anu alliiieSs eAis.ehco an Ane" no,
"IaV eNen's "ere W eLo"u in'o tne moilon' .,
pu' ho" Oacn W 'n1 his nu ~ was iAiu-
, "ih'el, ui' oie'oy ~ o". VI u nS
lamp was no' yeI iis Uuo sio" VI ny
IIe aioio oloNo 1no u''l hhess ol .ne ioIl Lii.
n"u nov even .ia"n 'n1 i g''.i' VI sAu.
Vno sHu.I'is. A' Tn Zines lINou " io,h uu'
anu see 'he s'arS' anoi-e so peo'elury'
80 calmly 81 coiuty t.eJ s1eiaiou ~ uniiAe
Ine worlu' WIN us sV''A' anu iieic' paSSioN'
anu ulSr rpPoin.,inu'
toSo ians uiu.y iloi my euaii anu vans. y.
W W ttsN aes.'. ~. y. = T. eIi1
"aH "a. app oIoI u. .ne .s'ssnU oou'u
oee 'na' .,e sNsoe n'o va, NoHeo, iio' 'eo'ot' J
no'leeu 'naU ieayny ., nan7 vi sho" "'i1
M aecuihuia's III one Goinel y. eaon plne
"eno eio'o W 'A' "N'" 'A1 p0o'eN 'o'
'"eo 'ns nlsn'
~ S''i.. H. '.n - e. =. me- @ saAs l .Se .l,Ie
my u.,s Nv -. e,- ioo.' nel iaoe s:ern anu pai.
as ue".n, Aei uaIA eses I nov ~ ,i'eeeu @ on my
1"", o'., was d "oliah anu 'na' "oinai "''s
Ilppa' my iove. u,
roi several n,,nu.es stoou' spelipouhu'
salns a' nel. inaG "a" iiiore Snaii
pnan'o,l Vi my mag ma 'ion uiu NOV as olce
eh'eI nv ny nsau' IN uieatils na' seen
ner io'eu ag"ih anu 8gain' out cniS was
che i,rs' 'iiie my "aalns 'n1ugn'S hau con
Jureu up sucn d VisIou' ElsIon' urealh
reaii.y l Sre,hn.eu as iooheu' lor 'he ioril
1t was seeing the hood which covered he,
head grow winter and winter with the fast
falling snow which aroused me to nv senses
and made every fiber thrill with the thought
that Philippa. in flesh and blood. stood be-
fore me. With a low cry of RAPTURE tor,
asunder the fastenings of the French case
ment threw the sashes apart. and without :
word nv love passed from the cold. bleal
NIGHT into nv room.
She was wrapped from head to foot in {
rich dark fur-trimmed cloak. As she swep
bv me I felt she was damp with partially
tbawed snow. 1 closed the window: then