The daily Cairo bulletin. (Cairo, Ill.) 1878-1???, 1884-09-26

iHcu IL was nc WrOIc you ludt icltcT'
think 1t was the next morning that he
again compelled me to 90 to the parlor,
and sat by me on the sofa. He talked to
me there about his feelings toward me;
said 1t was pure heart love; that it was
not passion. tried to release myself,
and besought him to let me go. strug-
gled to free myself, but all at once he
seemed changed; passion came into his
lace, and he
FORCED Me DOWN on THE SOFA,
and l escaped to my room, and after that
did not meet him in the parlor, except
with others, except accidentally several
times. After that felt he had me in his
power. Still l did try to resist his fur
Their encroachment. l refused to sit on
the porch with him, except when you or
Others were there, and then he COM
menced TO come to my room. besought
him again and again, to keep away. He
would promise to do. SO, but would re-
turn. Oh, Eddie,
you do not know how hard this is.
| could have told you; but to write
1t out is torture. Now, you will remem-
Der your promise; that it Is to you
alone the confession Is made 1t is
worse than death. | have tried to an
swer your letter fully. If could see you
l would tel you every little thing. | re-
ceiyed your telegram yesterday. Do ysu
think you should have sent that! | told
you before that | would tell you. Oh,
Eddie, have pity on me- have suffered
the tortures of hell. don't believe they
could be worse. never could have been
guilty Of my own free will. My God!
why did you forsake me?' has been my
am not vicious. Think of the past.
On, don't cast me off! am
vIRrUoUS IN HEART.
II had been situated differently it
could not have happened. As soon as |
was free could not be Induced to return
to him, | never could receive anything
from him in any way. OH save
me, my dear husband! save me, and help
the save my soul. =. Was
there ever such life as mine has been
the past few months, particularly since
my return home; indeed, since I.left
g. | have been living two separate
liyes-one quiet, full OF homely duties;
the other full of misery, excitement,
torture, despair, with hardly CLEAN in
the darkness. 1t is only Gods mercy
that has sustained me at all. Oh, papa,
what Is it all for-how and why is it?
could never have dreamed of such a fate
don't say you are dead to me; you are
my only hope. You seem to think that
have feeling that may bind me to him.
have told you | would never see him
voluntarily, aud he could never influence
me now know
HIS HOLD IS LOST,
and could not be recovered. 1t never
could have been if had known my dan
ger. | am waiting in an agony of sus-
pense TO hear from you, and understand
your motives and intentions. | have
done as you quested-given up every
thing into your hands. | trust you with
every defense have. | send you all the
letters you have written, all the
promises you have made. | leave my
self nothing, not even the few kind
words that We're to me so precious in
them. Yes, have brought on you a
hard fate, but what is miner While you
will have sympathy l will have con-
demnation, for who ever heard of SYM
patty with Il woman under such circum-
Stances, no matter what her plea. Her
only defense is proved innocence, and
that is doubted. If you can only feel
that | am with you in every effort to
save all possib for our boys sake, and
that | VIII not spare myself, or be de-
tered by any other consideration.
You can now feel | am with you,
aud trust me little. wish you would
tell NE how you are. | have suffered so
much thinking of you at night, and in the
morning when L awake. My greatest
comfort has been IN my dreams. They
have been of you, so constantly cheer
ing. 1t may be without any reason, but
l could not but hope, and sometimes |
find that am with you in spirit, so / al
most feel have seen you, and have
never been able to consent to prospect
OF the future without you. 1t seems I'M
possible. Good night, my poor love,
good night.