The Red Cloud chief., 1884-10-24

vi course j upuSEss5ou DOtaiDE Oh tns
charms of speculation A guset Life
with my book il all that I care for
with just one other thing. oihe,
thing. You begrudge me that"
Mr.. Whit;lestaf. il does poi signify
4 stra~ what I bcgrudge you" Dir.
Whii;les;a5 had now come Close 10 him.
and was listening 10 him "Ncr. as !
take IL. what YOU begrudge me Before
/ left England she and | had learned 10
love each other. Ii is SO still. Fox the
sake Of her happiness, do YOU meaa 10
let me have herr"
IL do
.You do?"
.1O course lido. You have known i,
all along. OF corrse | do Do YOU
think ! would make her miserable?
WoulL it b- in nv bosom TO make her
come and live with \ stupid. silly old
man. 10 potter ON from day 10 cay
without any excitement Would !
force her into = groove in which her
DAYS would he wretched to her? Had
she come to me and wanted bread. and
have seen before her all the misery OF
poverty. the stonc-coldness Of a gov
erness' life; had she been left 10 carr
her bread withou, any one To love her.
il might then have been different She
would Lave looked out into another
world. and have seen another prospect
a comfortable home. with kindness.
and her needs supplied, would have
sulliccd. See would then have thought
herself happy in becoming my wife.
There would then have been no cruelty.
But she mad seen YOU. and though II
was but q dream, she thought that she
conld endure ~ wait Better that than
surrender al the delight OF loving 20
She told me that she would think OF
YOU. Poor dear, | can understand
o the struggle which she intended 10
make. Then in the very MEX OF time,
in the absolute moment of h day so
that YOU might have everything aud
nothing -yon came. You came. and
were allowed 10 see her. and told her all
your story. You filed her heart full
with iOv. but only IL lie crushed when
she thou hi that the fatal promise had
been given 10 me. | saw il all, / knew
il. thought Ia myself for a few hours
that it might be so. But it can not be
so"
.'Oh. Mr.. Whittlestaf-"
1T can not be So" he said. with .
firm. determined yoire. rs though as-
serting a fact which admitted M doubt.
MIR. WhittlestaFt, what am | TO say
You, What are you to say9 Moth
ing. What should YOU say? Why
should YOU speak? |: is not for love OF
YOU that | would do this thing; nor yet
altogether from love OF her. Not that
! would not do much for her sake.
almost think that | would do il entirely
for her sake. if there were no other
reason. But 10 shame myself by taking
that which belongs 10 another, rs
though it were my OWN property. To
live L coward in mine own esteem.
Though l may be the laughing-stOck
and the butt of all those around me.
would still be a man to myself.
ou~ht TO have felt that il was sufficient
when she told me that some OF her
thoughts must still be given to you.
She is YOURS. Mr.. Gordon but ! doubt
much whether YOU care for the posses.
sion"
Not care for her. Up to the mo.
ment when / received your note / vas
about TO start again for South Africa.
South Africa is no place for her, MOI
for ire either. with such a wife. Mr..
Whittlestaff. will you not allow me &c
say n word to yOa in friendship"
Not a word"
How am / to come and take her out
of your house??'
"She must manage it as best she can.
But no; / would not urn her from my
door Ior all the world could do for me.
This. too. will be part of the punish.
ment that | must bear. You can settle
the day between you, l suppose. and
then you cal come down, and, after
the accustomed fashion, YOU can meet
her n the church-door. Then YOU car
come there and eat your breakfast
there. if YOU will. You VII see fine
things prepared for you-such as s
oma wants On those occa ,ions-anC
then YOU can carry her oil wherever
you please. | need know nothing O.
voUr Whereabouts. Good-morninG now.
Do not say anything further, but let me
so my way