Cheyenne transporter. [volume] (Darlington, Indian Terr.) 1879-1886, 1884-10-10


day and night-how he found himself
influenced in almost everything he did
by hopes and fears in which She was
mixed up. Let him remember how in
comparably superior he deemed her to
other women. Not that he would at
any time have given any Ineligible
reason why he SO thought 1t was de-
lusion; even at the time he had sort
OF misty notion that he was crazed,
but, like as q man that was getting
drunk with gin and water, having a
wretched feeling that he ought not to
drink another drop, even while mixing
fifth tumbler, SO the infatuated VIC
tim, while conscious that his repeated
draughts of love had already rendered
him nearly imbecile, nevertheless
found a certain deplorable consolation
in becoming reckless and effecting a
ghastly consummation. Let the mar
ried man call this to his recollection,
and even assuming the state of things
now to be tolerably comfortable, even
taking the bright view, and supposing
Lucy or Mary or Nellie to have PLAYED
her part as wife in manner beyond
reproach, yet the husband can not for
bear a smile at thought of the strange
spell by which he was enthralled, at
the (now) utterly inexplicable delu-
sion which coiled around and ensaved
him.
But now it is only fair to admit that
something may be said on the other
side. A bachelor, confessedly, is in
some sense looked down upon. After
all. man who represents himself, his
wife, and sundry children has a certain
degree or weight and importance
about him which can never attach to a
bachelor. When look upon Brown l
always fancy am looking at six hui
man beings. l not only see the man
himself, but / see his wife and four
children. If turn to Smith | behold
solitary creature. He represents no
one but himself, and he dwindles in
consequence. Then 1t must be admit
ted that with all their failings, though
they are very far, indeed. from being
angles, the Esthers, the Agneses, the
Lucys, the Marys, the CarOlines, and
all the party or sweet-named and ugly
named entrappers of men can and do,
for the most part help the summer sun
to shine more brightly, and can and do
tighten and alleviate the winter gloom.
White knows full well that during that
long day of trouble which visited him
there was sustaining influence which
never dropped or failed. When the
blow followed he knows the heart
which never sank. the face that never
grew clouded, the voice which never
waXed faint. When the sligtest yes
tige of passion had disappeared and
years of married life had produced
some degree of indifference, so long as
the sky was clear, he knows who, when
the storm arose and threatened to over
throw the dwelling, became animated
with fresh vigor, threw aside the apa-
thy which quietude might have engen-
dered, and displayed in all it's broad
and noble proportion a wife's fidelity.
The bachelor is ignorant of all this.
He fights the battle of life alone. No
heart beats madly at his triumphs, no
tear falls when failure is his lot No
eye, fading with his own, turns to God
in humble hope that it may close upon
this world first. His is the solitary
course. In life he is alone; in death
alone.
Then .thc bachelor has his petty
worries and annoyances. Assuming
him to be in by no means an elevated
position in life, yet being bachelor he
will probably save money. And as
there is no one to whom, almost as a
matter of course, he will leave his
money at his death, it will. come to
pass that every one of his relatives and
friends Will have an eye to the posi-
Ill IL
billty OF the share. The bachelor, being
perfectly well aware of this, questions
the sincerity of the whole body. 1t
may be very unjust, but he can