Wichita daily eagle. [volume] (Wichita, Kan.) 1884-1886, 1884-08-10

| Time GI Bignt. but have been here since III.
waiting for Mr.. - calling the millionaire
by name. And he is not in YET my COM
panion replied. Come into tine library and
have a glass of wine with me- He will have
TO be here very soon now, you see,' he added,
as followed his lead, with my heart in NV
mouth. Il got interested in book, and for
got about the time. I am thankful that /
did, and now how are you, old boy- There
are some moments in mans life which no
words can ever describe. made Up my
mind If got out of this house with my real
character unsupported, that would kill my
self rs soon as reached home
My old friends delight at seeing me dis
tressed me. and for q few moments l forgot
the danger Of my position and everything
else save my own unworthiness to grasp a
good mans hand. He told me that he was
tutor IN the inillionaires family, ard was
perfectly happy in bis vocation He offered
me wine and drank it, He gave me cigar,
and | lit it, and did my best to keep it glow
ing, but the fire went out repeatedly.
Once had wild thought of telling him
the nature of my errand to this house
and throwing myself upon his mercy
and generosity, but l could not do it,
To watch this mans face as / sank lower
cess l could not bear. No. must get out of it
some other way. BY companion listened oc-
casionally as the sound OF wheels was heard.
showing that his employer was expected in a
carriage. | listened for wheels also. and if
you are possessed of imagination YOU can
form some idea Of my state of mind.
AT last the clatter of horses hoofs drew
very near There was a halt, the quick
fiff n f,.s
went to the window.
Mr.. - has come az last he said
Ny companions back was turned for mo-
ment, ard took quick advantage of this
fact and hurried ont of the room. Once out of
his presence fear and shame lent me wings
and ! reached the back window through
which had entered TO hear the voice of the |
millionaire whom had intended TO victimize !
close beside me-
GU had better give Kate some water, |
he told his coachman; and as he spoke / |
could nave reached out my hand and touched |
his sleeve. But kept in the shadow and as |
soon as the coast was clear I took myself out !
of the way
And you did not kill your-self.'
NO Once safe, the old love of life re-
turned, and the lleenness of my shame soon be-
came blunted. Ii it were not for this dulling
process, this world would consist of graves |
end lunatic asylums only"
And you were at last caught and SEN
fenced. You did not serve Your whole time.
l believer
Scarcely half. Good behavior and paraly-
SIS opened the prison doors for me.
was caught III the act of rob
hing a safe i'll bank 1t was my
first and last attempt at bank robbery.
never stepped upon so unhomelike scene
as this was The atmosphere Of the place
was entirely new to me. l had never had
bank-book, never been a president, or a de-
faulting CASHIER and | tried TO convince my
self that this was the cause of the strange
ness But it was the old warning, and il |
served me right that did not recognize il.
A night Waterman and policeman swooped
down upon he, and the result, as you know,
was sentence OF ten years hard labor in
state prison. | came ont in less than five Il
decrepit man; old before nv
tme with nothing pleasant in the past to
look back upon. and no chance OF content
nent or usefulness in the future"
~ you were in good health, what do you
THINK would dc the chances of Your ccntinu-
ing your old occupation
Il often ask thar question of myself. but |
have never answered it, The old Adam
might be strong within me if were as well
ss formerly. It docs not seem so. however:
though with my experience to refer to. it
would be very Illogical for me TO predicate .
anything OF a healthy condition, from a
diseased one. / feel at times perfectly con
rinced that my shame and remorse are genu-
ne emotions, and the old longing for"
For the unattainahle-"
THANK Youfor the unattainable is dead.
have found out that there is moral as well
IS physical scrofula, and if single prece-
lent had been established whereby l could
awe made known my sickness to some soul
physician wise enough TO deal with II, 1 ,
night bave been cured When q man ! I
afflicted with moral scrofua can consult a
physician for that disease with as much
IeedoIn and as little shame as n man suffer
ng from blood scrofula, then and not till then
iiil the ranks of evil be thinnetl. The rule of
ier6dity obtained in my case and | know the
ource Of my taint But TO speak of it was
o confess myself deiiled. and beyond the pale
n human sympathy and respect: The time I
must come when a moral disease win be no
more of a disgrace than physical sickness.
10th are entaiied and science should best;s
lerseif Il
Il haven't. perhaps, given you much that !, y
sensational, but you are quite welcome to q
{, and L wish you would Use your influence
nd your pen-if it has a good point--in be.
ali of those who are morally sick Come
gain"
There was food for thought in this strange
ermon, and as it was received it is given
gain