Washington standard. [volume] (Olympia, Wash. Territory) 1860-1921, 1883-08-10

but L va .'''''Hs7 'fi4A ulil'4'''"'r'
and ! must win name and fame. |
sent ny darling away, and never but
! will not anticipntr
tried to put his image from my
heart. but | could not. | would vow
a thousand times q day not to think
of him, and a thousand times DAY
l would find myself recalling some
look or act Of his, insignificant in
itself. but SO sweet 10 mo for its ten
derness,
But | was getting famous What
need had | of love? Was | not the
peoples darling? Did not the best
in tho land care71 and ilattcr me? II
[ was not happy. tried to think my
self So If | sometimes longed for
the sound Of that voice, for the clasp
of that hand. with a craving which
was actual agony. l hUehed my heart
and reached still higher for fame's
laurels.
At last my highest desire had been
attained; | had crossed the ocean |
was to read one night before the
nobility. l came forward on the stage
flushed with triumphant expectation.
l opencd my mouth, but no sound
came; only Il husky whisper sounded
from my throat.
/ left the stage and slImmOrnd my
physician. who was always in attend
ance My pride had received its
proper reward. He told me that !
would not in all probability regain my
voice for months. perhaps for years
and that | would never again be able
to read in public | rav"d. wept.
but to no avail conld not speak
above a hoarse whisper.
l grew tired of England. and | ro
solved to go homo could not find
comfort abroad. SO | wont back to
my own land.
Oh, how long and weary the days
were. | was forbidden by my ply
sician to read. work oi write, for
they said that my nervous system
was completely broken down.
One day l sat alone in my lonely
room, when the servant handed me a
card. / glanced Mt the name and
went down Once again l saw him,
my hero, my king. He visited me
daily for month. and each day was
an eternity of bliss. But he again
asked me to be his wife. and again
| refused him. | would not give
myself to him when / was in the
full! tide of my prosperity. when /
was tlattered and sought after by all
and now | would not insult him hy
giving him what others had cast
aside like broken but once valued
toy. No! in spite of his tender, an
guished pleading, | would not yield
l loved him - how well no one
could know but become his wife !
would not. SO again he left me
Another year dragged itself by. Tc
others it may have been short. but to
me it was an age OF longing and sor
row. One day | received note di
rected in the hand which | loved SC
well. I tore it open eagerly to iind
only these words:
Come to me. / ain dying"
/ gave thought to nothing but tho
fact that my loved one was suffering
| and that he wanted me. l notet
down the address, and drove TO hi:
house as fast as 1 could. When
was shown into the sick room, IN,
darling turned toward me and helt
out his hand As | took it, coulC
have wept to see how pale and thin i
had grown. l thought him dying
and when he implored me to he hi
wife, 1 consented.
| When morning came he was s,
much better that urged him to wal
n while When thought him to b.
dying / was willing to become hi
wife; but when / saw him gettin;
stronger, and knew that he woult
some day think that, as / refused hin
when we were both well and prosper
Gus, married him then either out o
pity for him or on account Of m,
own lonely condition. So l put hin
off from day to day, on one plea an,
another, till he was again well, whel
told him that / could never be hi
wife. And l again took up wear
existence without him.
My voice was gradually gaining
in strength, but not as fast as coul
desire.
One evening l went to an enter
tainment at which friend of min
was to read l was thinking OF IN
own many triumphs on that yer
stage. when a boy came to me an
asked me to step into the dressing
room, as my friend was very i'll.
found her, as stated, very ill-to
i'll to dream of attempting to rea
that night. She asked me to tax
her place, and the manager joine
his entreaties with hers.
I hesitated; my voice was appa
emily as strong as ever, but my ph.
sician had repeatedly warned n
, against straining it. But | was an,
ious to help my friend, and ] longe
to again stand before a large aud
ence. SO l consented, and | was +
r ceived with warm applause by hos
. Of friends.
From that day onward l followt
I tie old fascinating life. Tread evel
d night for weeks and months in su
cession. But among thousands
g faces / looked in vain for the ol
face l longed to see. Among all n
b flowers l looked in vain for sing
white rosebud and a bunch of su
:, lax. But at last my patient waitll
1 and watching were rewarded.
I last the long looked-for token lay
b my feet.
e After the evening was over he p
IS Inc in my carriage and followed l
" without word. For an instant I
1 heart was too full to speak; but aft
d a few minutes of silence turned
it him, and, putting both hands in b
l sal L.
Is My own love, am again rich a
s, prosperous; but | am poor witho
10 your love. Take me, and l shall
t. content"
He answered me not a word, b
l as he bent and kissed my lips. T
Te that he had suffered even as had
" Fame and name are still ahead
1 me. but ambition sleeps. l have