Clarksville weekly chronicle. (Clarksville, Tenn.) 1873-1890, 1883-10-13
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was forever before me, CHASTITY and
murdered. More than once the
agitation into which these ref1ec-
tions threw me made my friends
dread a dangerous relapse. Alas !!
why did they preserve so miserable
and detested "A life? liz was surely
that / might fulfill my destiny,
which is now drawing to a close.
Soon oh {! very soon, will death ex-
tinguish these throbbings, and re-
live me from the mighty weight Of
anguish that bears me to the dust !:
and in executing the award of JUS
tiee, shall sink into rest. Then
the appearance OF death was distant,
although the wish was ever present
to my thoughts, and often sat for
hours motionless and speechless,
wishing tor some mighty revolution
that might bury me. and my de-
stroyer i'm its ruins.
The season of the assiZes Approach-
ed. ] had alreaded been three
months in prison, and, although /
was still weak, and in continual
danger of a relapse, | was obliged
to travel nearly "A hundred miles to
the county town where the court
was held. Mr.. Kirwin charged
himself with every care of collect
ing witnesses, and arranging my
defense. i was spared the disgrace
of appearing publicly as criminal,
as the case was not brought before
the court that decides on life and
death. The grand jury rejected the
bill, on its being proved that was
on the Orkney Islands at the hour
the body OF my friend was found,
and fortnight after my removal
was liberated from prison. -
My father was enraptured on
finding me freed from the vexatIons
of a criminal charge, that / was
again allowed to breathe the fresh
atmosphere, and allowed to return
to my native country. I did not
participate in these feelings, for to
me the walls of a dungeon or a
palace we're alike hateful. The cup
of life Was poisoned forever; and
although the sun shOne upon me, as
upon the happy and gay OF heart, /
saw around me nothing but dense
and frightful darkness, penetrated
by no light bat the glimnIer OF two
eyes that glared upon me. Some
time they were the expressive eyes
of Henry, languishing in death, The
dark Orbs nearly covered by the
lids, and the long black lashes that
fringed them; sometimes it was
the watery clouded eyes OF the
monster, as first saw them in my
chamber of IngOlstadt.
My father tried TO awaken in me
the feelings OF affection. He talked
of GeneVa-Which i should sOOn
Visit-of Elizabeth and Ernest; but
these words only drew deep groans
from me. Sometimes, indeed 4 felt
a wish for happiness, and thought,
with melancholy delight, of my
beloved cousin, or lOnged, with "A
devOuring nslIlGdie dD pays, 10 see
once more the blue lake and rapid
RhOne, that had been so dear to me
in early childhood; bat mIy general
state Of feeling WAS a topper, in
which a prison was as welcome a
residence as the divinest scene in
nature, and these fits were seldom
interrupted, but by parOxysms of
anguish and despair. AT lnOraents
] often endeayored To nut AN end to
the existence / lOathed, and it re-
quired unceasing attendance and
vigilance 10 restrain me from com.
uniting some dreadful act of ViO-
lenee. .f .gsa
remember, as quilted the
prison, heard one OF the men say,
"He may be innocent of the muir
der, but he has certainly a bad con-
science" These words struck me.
a bad conscience! yes, surely had
one. William, Justine and Clerval
had died through my internal mach
nations; sand whose DEATH"
cried 1, t'is to finish the tragedy :?
All! my father, do not remain in
this wretched country, take me
where / may forget myself, my ex-
istence, and all the world"
My father easily acceded to my
desire, and after having taken leave
of Mr.. Kirwin, we fastened to Dub
lin. / felt as ii l was relieved from
a heavy weight, when the packet
sailed with fair wind from Ireland,
and had quilted forever the coun-
try which had been to me the
scene of so much misery.
1t was midnight. My father slept
in the cabin, and lay on the deck
to the dashing of the waves l
hailed the darkness that shut Ire
land from my sight, and my pulse
beat with feverish joy, when |
reflected should soon see Geneva.
The past appeared to me in the
light of a frightful dream
yet the vessel in which | was, the
wind that blew me from the de-
tested shore of Ireland, and the sea
which surrounded me, told me too
forcibly that was deceived by no
vision, and that CIerval, my friend
and dearest companion, had fallen
victim to me and the monster Of
my creation. l repassed, in my
memory, my whole life; my quiet
happiness while residing with my
family in Geneva, the death of my
mother, and my departure for In
gOlStadt. | remembered shuddering
ut the mad enthusiasm that hurried
me on to the creation of my hide
Gus enemy, and called to my mind
the night during which he first
lived. L was unable to pursue the
train Of thought II thousand feel
ings pressed upon me, and i wept
bitterly.
Ever since my recovery from the
fever, | had been in the custom of
taking every night a small quantity
of laudanum Tor il was by means
of this drug only that l was enabled
to gain the rest necessary for the
preservation OF life. Oppressed by
the recollection of my various mis-
fortunes, / now took a double dose,
and soon slept profoundly. But
sleep did not afford me respite nom
thought and misery my dreams
presented thousand objects that
scared me. Towards morning i
was possessed by kind of night
mare; / felt the tiend's grasp on
my neck, and could not free myself
from it; gr0ans and cries rung in
my ears. My father, who was
watching over me, perceiving my
reStlessness, awOke me, and pointed
to the port of HOlyhead, which we
were now entering.
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