The daily Cairo bulletin. (Cairo, Ill.) 1878-1???, 1883-07-08

merclIul man, JOnH fOru, let me tell
you-you shall hear my story, you shall
give me my sentence-I will leave it in
your hands. will tell you all.n
"You had better tell Lance, not me, -
| cried. ''What can dor" '''
mo; you listen, you Judge. 1t may
be that when you have heard all, yoll
will take pity on me; you may spare me
you may say to yourself thatI have
been more sinned against than SHINING
you may think that I have suffered
enough, and that | may live out the rest
of my life with Lance, Let me tell you,
and you shall Judge me.n
She fell over on her knees again, rock
ing backwards and forwards.
"Ah, why" she cried-"why is the
world so unfair2-why, when there is
sin and sorrow, why does the punish
ment fall all on the woman, and the
man go free? am here in disgrace and
humiliation, in shame and sorrow-in
fear of losing my home, my husband, it
may be even my life-while he, who
was a thousand times more guilty than
| was, is welcomed, flattered, courted!
1t is cruel and unjust.
II have told YOU" she said, show
hard my childhood was, how lonely and
desoate and miserable | was with my
girls heart full of love, and no one to
love.
when | was eighteen went to live
with a very wealthy family in London,
the name--I will not hide one detail
from y0u-the name was Cleveland;
they had one little girl, and | was her
| gOverneSS. | went with them to their
| place in the country, and there avisitor
came to them- handsome young no.
bleman, Lord Dacius by name.
ut was a beautiful Sunlit county. |
had little to do, plenty of leisure, and
he could do as he would with his time.
We had met and had fallen in love with
each ,.her. did not love him, idol
lied iim remember in your Judgment
that no one had ever loved me. No one
had ever kissed my face and said kind
words to me; and |, OH wretched, mis-
cradle me, l was in heaven. To be
loved for the first time, and by one so
handsome, so charming, SO fascinating.
4 few weeks passed like dream. |
met him in the early morning, | met
| him in the cleaning lie swore hum
| iltNl llllltS uul llldJ llC hOull liltAi
| me when he came of age. We must
wait until then. | never dreamed OF
harm or wrong, | believed in him i'm
picitly as | loved him, | believed
every word that came from his lips.
May Heaven spare mel need tell you
no more. A girl of eighteen madly,
passiOnately in love; a girl as ignorant
as any girl could be, and handsome,
experienced man of the world.
There was no hope, no chance. |
fell; yet almost without knowing how
| had fallen. You will spare me the
| rest | know.
when, III my sore anguish and dis
tresS, | went to him, | thought he
would marry me at once; | thought he
would be longing only to make me hap
| py again; to comfort me; to solace me;
to make amends for all had suffered.
| went to him in London with my heart
full of longing and love. had left my
situation, and my stern, cruel grand
mother believed that had found an
other. If lived to be a thousand years
old should never forget my horror and
surprise. He had worshipped me; he
had sworn a thousand times over that
he would marry me; he had loved me
with the tendereSt love.
Now, when after waiting some
hours, saw him at last, he frowned at
me; there was no kiss, no caress nc
welcome.
"'This is a nice piece of news he
said. This comes from country Wis
iting.'
"'But you love mey-you love me-?
| cried,
az did, my dear he said, but of
| course that died with Summer. One
does not speak of what is dead
DO you not mean to marry meE
asked,
mo, certainly not; and you know
that | never did 1t was a Summer
| amusement
"And what is it to me?' | asked
"Oh, You must make the best Of il
OF course, | will not see you want, but
you must not annoy me. And that Ole
| grandmother of yours, she must not be
let loose upon me. You must do the
best you can Twill give you a hun.
dred pounds if you will promise not tC
come near me again.
Il spoke no word to him; did not
reprOach him; did not utter his name
did not say good bye to him; 1walkeC
away. | leave his punishment tC
Heaven, Then | crushed the anguish
within me and tried to look my life il
the face, | would have killed myself
rather than have gone home. Ny
grandmother had forced me to be say
ing, and in the post-office bank | hat
nearly thirty pounds, | had watcl
and chain worth ten. | sold them, ant
| sold with them small diamond rint
that had been my mothers, and some
other jewery; altogether l realized
fifty pounds, went to the outskirts
OF London and took two small rooms
II remember that made no effort L
hide my disgrace; | did not pretend L
be married or to be a widow, and tn,
mistress of the house was not unkinC
to me, She liked me all the better TO
telling the truth. | say no word to yol
OF my mental anguish-n0 words car
describe it, but loved the little one
She was only three weeks old when 1
letter was forwarded to me ut the ad
dress | had given in London, saying
that my grandmother was Ill AM
wished me to 90 home at once. Wha
was to do with the babyY | can re
member how the great drops Of anguish
stood on my face, how my hands trem
bled, how my very heart went cold will
dread.
1.-The newspapers which took daily
10 read the advertisements for govern
esses, lay upon the table, and my eye
| were caught by an advert isnmant from