New-York tribune. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1866-1924, 1883-11-25

all. His triumph was wonderful There was no
boiling, no scudding away he married the girl
irish hash of me. Jack. II the wedding guests didn't
consist of ali the people he had in moral sense
knocked on the head and over whose p9dles ne
fable f,,iJ tS.Geart : said he and moraize IT.
Nv conversation with him, however, had not left
me IN very moralizing mood. He fingered little
taIking and laughing-fn truth, he saw that he had
made me respondent, and wanted TO leave me IN
better spirits-and tried to persuade me to dlnee
with him that day. declined for was not at all
in the humor to enjoy his hospitality, but promised
70 sncnd the following afternoon and evening at his
house and this being settled ne went away nrgin9
me with his last words 10 quit those lodgings ana
never TO suffer any woman IN this wide world To
mako me unhappy while remained bachelor, as
it was time enough for man 10 oeg u Icci hliSci-
able when he was married
had counted so fully upon the good offices OF my
cousins upon their Willingness 70 convey ltttcl5
and messages, upon their Womahly Gapaclty Oh III
tcresting Florence in me by their talk OF my dcyo-
ton nv admiration of her and the like that upon
INV word mates. the thought that their help, was
lost 10 me affected me 10 Such degree lhat hahS
me if am moi ashamed to think of 1t. What was j
70 do pOpi No doubt had the sympathy OF my
relations but their neutrality was almost as b9d rs
active hostility: that practcally $1,000 alone
/ was without a friend. without any means OF com,
roupicatinq with my darling, unless, indeed !
boldly wrote to her at her papas house, when
might have been a resolution very easy 10 carry oui
Inf not for "A moment to be entertained II l valued
NV self-respect and hers; and was therefore &c
prived of all chance of keeping myself awe III lsr
memory Under such circumstances there Is prob
oblv not one man in hundred who would not nave
Withdrawn while his wounds were stl small. Bul
my nature an obstinate one, ana sahguine toI
"A compound not often met. Besides TINS, iOVed
The girl from the very bottom OF my heart, WIN
bovish intensity like to remember: also Vaneu
nv relatives opinion and Guessed If turned tail nj
fis iuncture they would ever after look upon me rs
a very inSincerc poor creature. These and a nun,
drcd such thoughts determined me to hold on all
MS we say at sea- to put my Ialth IN chance, 10 DC
n1ticnt in short TO play with Dame Fortune the
Old nursery game OF shutting my eyes ana opening
nv mouth and seeing what could get. II nlght
be n lOllipOp. or il might be u dose vi jump put
whatever ii was. | would swallow IT,
Yet for all that the worry, the DISAPPOINTMENT,
the real distress of mind was in coupled with tue
heat of the weather and the smallness of the room
about which kept lurChing for some tlhe aiter my
uncle had gone away, with my head full OF simmer
ing foncies threw me into a kind OttcVer; ana tnen
there came into me such desperate, crazy longing
10 see Florence Ilawke-tO catch even the merest
glimpse of herthat without any KIND OF pan III my
mind pulled my hat and set san III the direction
of Clifton did not however, know how tired my
ramblc about Portshead had made me until was
mounting the steep road when Wouid carry me ~
slowly, had plenty of leisure for reelection; What
did mean to do' To pull the bell and ask II Miss
through the barsi Was | anxious to give old
Hawke an opportunity of pronOuncing an opinion
on me through the medium of his iunkcysf
In truth. when ! began to ask myself where was
bound TO and what hoped to do when got there
found an irrcsolUtion creeping upon me When II
man is really beloved of his sweetheart there are
few things Ie can 40 WHICH Hit W mani i'''"
ridiculous in her eyes at least, that's my notion
aud of course may be wrong hut fancy that no
one will Doubt that until a fellow has won girls
heart he runs many risks of being laughed al by
her Should Miss Hawke catch me hanging about
the road in front of her house and pceping at the
windows like a burglar settling his little plans,
would she Le amused She might, II Is true. be
affected By this instance of my devotion, or hhe
might think was acting very ndicnIously. an
alternative of this kind Is a very serious thing
These were my thoughts ~ marched t0is"ncly Mp
that hill and these were the considerations which
caused me after awhile To stop and then march down
again.
No one who has been in love but viii sympathze
with the feelings which mastered me at this period,
and follow with emotion the various posturcs of
mind into which my passion forced me.