The sun., 1883-10-31

II was possible that Harrow school was dis
graced by so disreputably dirty little boy Ms
/? Oh. what | feit at that moment But
could not look my feelings. | do not doubt that
I was dirty but think TINT he was cruel" At
twelve Troliope was transferred to Winchester
in the hone. which proved dclusive that he
might obtain scholarship at New College. OK
ford. Here another and different horror
fell to my fate. my college bills were not paid.
and the school tradesmen. who administered
to tho wants Of tho boys. wero told not
to extend their credit to mo. Boots waist
coats. and pocket hundkcrchie's. which with
some slight supervoillnnee wcro Mt the COM
mand OF othor scholars were closed Injuries to
me. My school fellows OF course. knew that 1t
was So and became pariah. 1t is the nature
Of boys to be cruel. have sometimes doubted
whether among oach other they do usually suf-
fer much. one from the others cruelty; but /
suffered horribly | could make no stand
against It, had no friend to whom could
pour ont my sorrows. was big and awkward,
and ugly. and. have no doubt. skulked about
In most unattractve manner. or course. !
was III lrosnod and dirty. But. ah how we'll
remember all tho Ggonies ot my young bcart
how considered whether should always be
alone: whether l could not flnd my way UP to
the top of that college tower and from thence
fuN h' cuu W ''NbISiHiuS NJ tuc uke W ~
young Trollcpe's chance OF Now College was
supposed to have passed AWAY. and he was
taken back to Harrow. where he passed thrce
years more. the first eighteen months Of which
seemed to him. looking back OIL II. the worst
period ot his life. lie had now come to al age
at which lie could acutely feel the misery of
expulsion from all social Intercourse Ilo not
only had no friends. but was ,lnsrised by all his
companions. Il wus STAR" no writes. at u
fashionable school. IL condition rever premedi-
ta,sG. What right had n wretchcd farmers
boy. reeking from dung hill. to sit next to tho
sons of peers or much worse still.
next to tho sons of big tradesmen.
who hnL made their ten thousand a
year1 Tho indignties endured are not TO be
described; rs look back ii seems to me that
all hands were turned against me. those of
masters rs we'll Us boys. The only expense.
except that of books. to which house boarder
was then subject was tho fee to tutor.
amounting. think. to ten guinoas. My tutor
took me without the foo. but whom heard him
declare the fact in the pupil room before the
boys hardly felt grateful for the charity. I
was never coward. and cared for II thrashinE
as little rs any boy but one cannot make n
stand against the Rcerbites OF three hundred
tyrants without n moral cournge. Of which at
that time l possessed none. | know that
skulked and was odious TO tho eyes Of
those | admired and cnvied. l was allowed
to Join In no plays. OF the cricket ground
racket court was permitted to know moth
ing. And vet longed for these things with an
exceeding longing. coveted popularity with
q coyetousness that was almost mean. 1t
seemed to me that there would be an elysium
in the intimacy Of those very boys whom l was
bound to hate because they hated me. Some
thing OF the disgrace Of my school days has
clung to mo all through life. Not that / have
ever Stunned TO speak OF them openly as l
am writing now. but that when l have been
claimed rs school[elow by some OF those many
hundreds who vera with mo- either at Harrow
or at Winchester. have felt that had no
right TO talk of things from most of which ]
had been kept in estrangement"
Trollopes elder brother AGolphus went to
Oxford and Henry TO Cambridge. both having
managed to obtain from scholarships tn, fun nds
which could not have been provided for them
at home. But neither scholarship nor exhib-
ton. nor even sizarship could Anthony get. and
therefore the idea OF a university career had to
be given UP. All the instruction that he ever
had he got at Winchester and Harrow. which
latter school he loft ut nineteen having first
gone there at seven. " During tho whole OF
these twelve years no attempt had heen made
to teach me anything but Latin and Greek.
and very little attempt to teach me those lam
guages. 1t was chiefly by their ferules that
| knew my masters and they me | feel con vinced
in my mind that | have been logged oItcner
than any human being alive. 1t was
Just possible to obtain five scour9ngs
| in one day at Winchester and I have
often boa sed that obtained them all. I do
not remember any lessons even In writing
or arithmetic. French and German certainly
was not taught. Yet when / think how little |
knew OF Latin or Greek on leaving Harrow at
| 10. l am astonished at the possibility OF such
waste of timo There were twelve years OF
tuition. in which do not remember that l ever
knew n lesson. am now II fair Latin scholar
that is TO say. ! read and enjoy the Latin
classics. and could probably make myself un-
| derstood In Latin prose But the knowledge
which l have | have acquired since l lei,
school no doubt aided much by that ground
work OF tho language which would in the
process OF years make its way slowly even
through the skin"
Thus far there had been little promise In
| Trollopes life. and the next seven years were