The Iola register. [volume] (Iola, Allen County, Kansas) 1875-1902, 1883-04-27
CHAPTER XVIII.
HER WAY OF 1T.

Queen Of the Msddotr, Etc.
CHAPTER XVIII.
HER WAY OF 1T.
NEUTRALITY-SUSPICIOUS. She
had not Diet cted the faintest note of re
gret in his voice, and she felt sure that
her quickened senses wogld have felt it
had there been any in his heart. She
had been treated as perfect stranger;
he had accepted her angry words iter-
ally, and he could never have cared for
her or it would have been impossible
for him to behave so coolly in her pres
ence. Not the slightest sim in word or
manner that he wished to be forgiven.
or that he bel eyed she had anything to
forgive.
Proud and remorseless! She might
have asked him to forgive her if he had
only spoken one K nd word. But TO;
he forgot. or meyer thought of all she
had suffered. and remembered in his
pride only her one biunder. She knew
that she had blundered terribly in her
passion. and he would not forgive her.
For that one fault he cast everything
else aside and shook himself free from
her as composedly as he might have
put away an old garment From what
ever place she might have formerly held
in his thoughts he had comp etely
tn ust her out, and evidently it had cost
him no trouble.
What a fool she had been! How he
would triumph in her weakness! She had
actually gone TO his chambers. sought
him out herself and asked his help
She had done this-she who had threat
ened to insult him ii he ever dared to
speak to her. He would not give
thought to the peculiar circumstances
of the case which had induced her to
seek his aid. If he were reminded of
them-that he had known Teidy and
that Teddy's mother had been kind to
him-he would have looked upon them
rs nothing more than excuses Oh, what
4 fool she had been,
But she had not BETRAYED any weak
ness, either She, too, had behaved
with perfect calmness; and he could
not have seen in his indi erence how
eagerly she was watching for any sign
of tenderness, or even OF remembrance,
which would have justil cd her in en-
planning her motives for going to him
She would take care that he should
know. He should not think that
But was she actuated by no other
motive than the desire to obtain the
best available counsel when she took
Mrs. UBryan to Naurice's chambers?
Was il only Impotence TO learn what
fate was in stole for her foster brother
which took her up to his room when,
by waiting few minutes longer in the
carriage, she could have heard all with
out undergoing the ordeal of the inter-
view?
Size met the question bra7ely. and
miserable, mean as the answers made
her feel, she did not evade them.
Yes, although she had led to con-
ceal it from herself, she was obliged to
own that the longing to have d.
rect news of himseIf-how he looked
what his place was like-had Influenced
her; and then. being st his door. as it
were. the longing overcame pride and
prudence and she had gone to him.
There had been. too. the vague hope
that he would break down the bar
which separated them, and that she
would have the opportunity to speak
freely to him once again.
She was glad she had done it. for it
satisfied her that he was well and quite
settled in his resolution to think no
more about her; quite contented to for
get her.
And yet il was q pity to have gone:
for the visit had destroyed some visions.
which although vain mad yet their value
in occasional CLEANS of comfort. She
would not have remembered that he
had anything TO do with the law if it
had not been for what Teddy had told
her on the evening he luckily for him.
self. as it now turned QUIT came to the
house in kensington. Maurice had
written to her; Teddy had got the let
ter and burned it without knowing
what was in il; then he pretended that
Maurice had sent for his things and so
sent them of to Calthorpe.
Had she misjudged any one else as
she had misjudged Maurice, she would
have st once offered an apology. Why |
was il she hesitated to make one to him? |
She did wish him to know that she was
now aware of the wrong she had done |
him. and that she was sorry for it She |
did wish him to know that she was con- |
WINGED OF his fidelity before the fact was |
revealed to her: and still she shrank
from it.
She would hesitate no longer. She |
would tell him how cruelty they had |
both been made to suffer by Teddy's |
folly, and she would ask HIM to forgive |
her would that be right |
Would it not disturb him again for no |
good purpose. except to relieve her |
mind of a burden of remorse. since they
could never resume their former rela-
tionship so long as their positions re-
manned as they were at present.
And vet that could have made no diff
ference if he had cared for her as he
had declared he did. He had said that /
ne lived for her. Aye. but it was at that
moment she had turned upon him. tell
ing him that he was false and base.
1t was horrible But why did he not
tell her about that letter? Had he
done so, she believed that in her wild