The Arkansaw traveler., 1883-01-13
"Do not be angry with me. want to
sit and look at him. won't cry. Soon
| shall lose him foreyern

"Do not be angry with me. want to
sit and look at him. I won't cry. Soon
shall lose him forever"
She took her station by him; she
begged me TO 60 away somewhere and
get rest. pretended TO yield !: but found
myself too anxious TO 20 beyond the an
te-room. She was not in state to be
left alone.
The dawn brought the horrible and
narrowing business OF putting away, out
OF sight, out of reach. the mortality that
had been so dear. that we have ciutched
50 close, and never could keep too near
10 my mind.
talked to her as little as could, and
as gently. Gently. lfwords could have
/ foated on the air like cider down, or
touched her with gossamer-light touches,
they would still have seemed to me too
rough 10 be cast at her then. Still ! was
forced to Try and assert her wishes.
| "You know what is best-you will do
what is right she answered me, gently :;
but don't ask me TO leave the house
while he is in it Think OF the long years
that"
There she paused-burst into violent
weeping. She had not cried before.
.'Oh. feel as if my heart was break
ing" she said, pressing her hands over
| II.
clasped her to me; oomfoued her
as we'll as | knew how, of how we'll things
must be with her beloved brother
spoke, TOO, of the place where we would
| lay him to rest, of the country quiet
| among the roses the ylolets
She lay quiet in my arms, and by-and-
/ by lifted up her face TO listen.
To see that sweet, sad face resting
against my breast, to look down upon il,
and meet its trusttul eyes, filled me with
ovcrmastering emotions.
"lfyou can love me-" said then. you
need never feel alone or unsheltered.
never more while live. This is no unit
place or time TO tell you this. for he knew
loved you, and was glad in knowing it !;
but do not ask, or expect. or desire any
answer not now"
| hardly know tina, she took in the
sense OF my words; SORROW and exhaus-
ton had drained her life. No i,nge Of
color came to her check she JUS, listened.
HOW good you arc-hew good YOU
are she said. What could have
! done but for you.
arranged everything for the bes, as
j far as knew; ! tempted her from the
room 10 20 with me 10 the graveyard be-
You'd the walls, 10 choose where he should
4 lie. She seloom spoke; She said after
ward Ii was ali like 4 dream. from which
She expected al any moment TO awake.
The next day VIC buried hin.
] \th,,, all NC dnu,. No bYr.-a,i - :,
] the place. The place was very soothing
and peaceful, lowered over by the great
monumental tomb of some forgotten great
one. That Was day to be remembered.
| promised her that the grave should
be cared for better than any other in the
! place.
When we went away took her 10 the
care OF the motherly. kind, Cuakerlsh
I lady of the stage whom had prepared
to receive her.
| did not see her again for some days
she was too exhausted. when the reaciion
from long oveT-tension set in, 10 leave
her bed
| called every day, and always found
some sentlc-worded,- grateful mcssa, e
ready for me; but day after day DID not
+ see her
\, last bright day came when did.
She was more altered. more broken
down looking than had anticipated.
! The meeting me agitatcd her very greatly.
! Her black dress, too. increased the deli
cacy of her look.
Mrs. Emmett steod-by her, smoethin..
her hair and petting her with loving deeds
and words till she was calmer then
good woman she left US together.
had no idea what lay before me.
Our interview was long one. More
than once left her side, and paced the
room in despair; stood at one or other
OF the windows that looked down upon
the city, and pondered how could con-
vince her of my love-that is to say. OF
the selfish and interested nature OF il.
She met my definite offer of hand and
heart with the most meckiy, humbiy-tirm
refusal.
Her gratitude was so full and so lowly
her agitation so great, that | could not
be angry with her; blu, was greatly ir-
ritated, and turned my irritation agains,
myself-cursed myself that could find
no words strong enough to convince her
1t was just like me, she told me-lus,
like what she had always heard of me-
She would always love me with the most
grateful. revcrent love, always remember
me in her prayers but be my wife-no
1t was long before could get reason
why; but at last tor,uredit from her
She believed that was sacrificing my
self-thar loved her because she was
friendless and alone. But she was not fit
for me, she told me she had not the &C
complishments, the education. the beauty,
the anything that my wife should have.
As for her future. need not be anxious.
she assured me. Mrs. Emmett had told
her that here, in Bangor. she could pro-
cure her a suitable situation.
AT last, when had exhausted even,
argument, or thought had, and de-
SPARED, at all events. OF present success.