Daily globe. [volume] (St. Paul, Minn.) 1878-1884, 1883-09-30

This three-fold Renaissance of past ro-
nance did not discomfort him in the least
He danced with the widow, congratulated
her new lord, and took the youngNadies out
to supper, looking with his fresh face float
ing as it were, between them, his legs being
hidded by their drapeIies, like a stout little
cherub in evening dress, somewhat fallen into
years. As Matte says, a man who has to IN
dergo chat sort of thing" every three
months needs to have q buoyant spirit
December 1S.-He comes very often, but
talks mostly to Cousin Adele he has four
children. He IS a Catholic. If he marries
his wife aust be Of his religion.
December 20.--He has fallen in love with
Mattel
December ga have left Cousin Adele's.
It was ridiculous to run away, but ( could
not remain. Ungratefu1 man! 60 pass over
one who had taken pains to study and ap-
preciate him, and bestow his regard upon one
who laughs at him. After all, she may
change her mind He is a. better match than
Joel, and she h,s waited for him already
nearly three years. can see that Adele is
eager for it. Of course my good sense tells
me that have no reason in the world to feel
myself aggrieved, but in every woman there
are two women, one practical and amenable
to reason, the other totally irrational, gov
ernedby feeling and fancy only. | try to ex-
hibit only the reasonable woman, but l can
not entirely suppress the other. Truly girl
who has lived in perpetual eclipse from two
handsome sisters ought to be accustomed to
her obscurity by this time
But Matte is not beautiful, only sweet and
aSant-looking. It is some satisfaction te
think she viii refuse him!
Fortunately, cousin Hern1ine had invited
| me for Christmas, and the moment disoov-
| cred the state of affairs, l wrote to say
would come, and followed my letter by the
next train.
Love is like bread; some have il - throw
away while others strive for cr7Est. 1t is
not fair. Why should ugly girls h. ~ hearts!
! tender hearts that feel the sting Of anothers
woel Many times have wept for the de
spairs Of my beautiful sisters rejected
lovers; yet they would have laughed, even
in their misery, at the suggestion that I too
had a heart worth winning. Alas! how
little valued are human souls that are not
wrapped in fair flesh.
! Dec. 27.-Matie is here She came down
/ this morning, Mr.. Scudder cid not come with
her, nor has she mentioned his name except
! in the most casual manner.
/ She brought me message from Adele to
| the effect that am to return Immediately.
! She viii send to the depot for me on Satur-
/ day. I shall not go.
! Dec. 30.-Idid come. Cousin Hernline Is
| the soul of hospitality, but both she ard Matte
| Saturday morning, that had no choice but
To t1If1 fboiT to!i T
myself literally turned out Of the house,
! though in the gentlest and most courteous
/ manner.
At the depot I found-Mr. Scudder-no
| less-driving his own horse in Cousin Adele's
| barouche. Her horse was lame so she had
| borrowed his, and the owner had thrown
! himself in as driver.
| For the first time, think, the man really
looked 0lme, and took something like an in
telligenJ cognizance Of my existence. I see
: through it all! It is a plot! am to be the
, successor of Matte aud the other eighteen.
t Matte has said: 81 cannot marry you; 1
am engaged. Besides, l do not care for you
But there is my poor, plain cousin Grace,
( who is really good girl; she has never had
/ an offer in her life; ask her; she is sure to &C.
/ cept, and you will get a good wife, besides
! performing meritorious action"
| Very well! too can say no. shall COM
! plete the score Of negations
i January at is indeed truel am really
! the object of gentlemans attentieasi
| Alasi but for Matte and the other eighteen,
how delightful it would be!
/ He was the first to call yesterday, Imaging
me as New Years gift case of cut-glass
toilets bottles, filled with perfumes. He
stayed all day in the sitting room, amusing
himself with the children, when Adele and I
were called away to the parlor To a girl
more sought after he would have been odious
! before night.
He showed me the photographs Of his
/ children and talked fondly of them. | can
imagine how the scornful lip Of the coldly
Miss Martin must have curled when he
showed them to her. I have often observed
that the majority Of men are very poor
judges Of women.
January 81 have been to drive with him.
He told me OF his home in Milwaukee, let now
to strangers, since he has no one to make it
home to MIN. How knowingly seductive that
would be, if one did not know it to be the
/ twentieth repetition. Heavensl it is terrible.
If could not be the first, which was clearly
impossible, why might not have come in a
! little earlier? Why need he have overlooked
me for Matie2 It is too humiliating. I shall
refuse him; that is certain.
] January 10-And yet, whya Would it not
! be as if Tantalus should, with his own hand,
beat back the rising water from his thirsty
lpsa The idea Of starving beggar throwing
away offered bread because another or
twenty others who are fulfilled have already
declined it! Then there are the children.
They would love me. Children always Go.
/ They are not so critical as to beauty. They
| love those who love them.
| should be a person Of some Importance in
society, too, for I can see he is man of influ-
ence. Some people are important in them,
selves, like the larger pieces on chess board
but the poor pawns must look to position if
| they would be of value.
! The life he leads is a1luring, too travelling
a month or SO of every year, not to fashion
able resorts, but to quiet, lovely places among
the mountains or the lakes. He has even
been to Europe. Am I tempting myself!
No, must not yield
jap. 27.-It is DONE Pride demanded it
and I complied. I have refused my first
oferi I look at myself in the glass, and
laugh and cry at the same moment. AlasI
am IS. l shall never have another.
How surprised he looked. He had not
counted upon that. did it very well, fat