The Cecil Whig., 1883-02-03

phia.
Fully convinced of that fact attempt
ed to endure the increasing pain, but he
fore night was standing on my shoul-
ders with legs above my head beating
my heels against the wall. That night |
slept some from simple exhaustion. but
the next day | thought the pain was un-
endurabe. If my arms and legs had
been sawed of and wedges driven into
the marrow, if molted lead had been
poured down my throat and fermeuted
through my intesthes, if each delicate,
qnivcring nerve had been pierced with a
rod hot needle, could not have suffered
more intense agony.
| sent for the doctor and asked for
morphia. I told him, as I believed at the
time, that | was suffering from cramp
collie, but he thought not, ard with a
firmnes9, for which now commend him,
but then vehemently and violently abused
him, he said I should not have a particle
of morphia.
Then the contest deepened with every
limb, nerve and muscle quiveYing with
agony. | gathered my billiard cue, that
had been imprudently left in my ROOM
and fought desperate battle for liberty
and morphia, but was soon enclosed in
| gentle and strong arms and reduced to
! submission. This Wild intense agony
continued for week, but after the first
dsy day or two | submitted to control,
suffering. however, none the less. There
were no dreams or visions about this suf-
fering, it was all real and intense, such
as only the Imagination can picture of
! the suiferings of material he'll.
The last night of this kind Of suffer-
ing. fortunately, part Of the time, | was
unconscious My family had visited me in
the afternoon with an intention of taking
HE away, on the supposition that | could
not endure the suffering longer and live,
but l suppose something was given ME to
| quiet me, for did not believe | would
be able to endure it day longer, and
was determined to take morphia and 90
home; but, fortunately, what was given
me restored the full powers of reelection
and DIR. Gundry appealed to my courage
and manhood. lie said if left | would
die III month; that | had manifested
wonderful powers of endurance and Vi
tailty. He appealed to my vanity and
love of my family; he said | could he
useful to the world and TO those who
loved me and depended upon me, and he
told me he thought it would be the last
night | would have to suffer much Tn
der these influences | agreed to remain
and persuaded my wife to leave me.
That was 4 terrible night. As was
apparently so quiet, only one man was
left in the room to watch me. I remem-
Der in the early part Of the night OF see
ing beautiful woman about the length
Of a mans hand waltzing across the wall
and for some time | lay quiet looking at
her dance the racquette. Afterwards
the only thing / remember was that
was confined in a wire cage and attempt
ed TO kick it open, All the time though
| was conscious of the most intense men,
tai and physical agony. The next morn
ing | was told that my dream or idea of
being in wire cage was verified by the |
fact that | sprang out of bed and with |
my naked foot kicked with all my power
an iron register, skinning my foot and |
leg up to the knee.
| have no recollection of it, but an at
tendant informed me hat DR.. Gundry
sat up with me that night and several
times was on the point of giving me NOR.
phia to revive me when he thought | |
would otherwise die; but he told me |
afterwards that he trusted in the crisis to |
my wonderful vitality, and successfully !
relied upon it. The next morning when |
walked up was free of pain and never
had it SO severely thereafter that l lost |
control OF myself OF could have been |
induced to take morphia to relieve it,
This fearful suffering reduced me to |
mere skeleton, like man who had been |
through three month siege of typhoid |
fever. Ever after this Suffered quite as |
much, but in 4 different way, | was COM
pleteiy prostrated, too weak to have the |
energy to move out OF the cushion chair |
that the ever ready watchfulness Of the |
matron of the asylum provided for me |
aud for two weeks | suffered from insom- |
MIA. l could not sleep more than five |
minutes at a time and in all not more than |
an hour IL the twenty four of the day |
and night. would toss all night upon !
my bed praying God as the greatest |
blessing lie could confer upon me to |
give me iu His mercy only live minutes
sleep.
Only those with a Frustrated frame, |
debiltate1 in all mental and physical |
powers, can appreciate this suffering of |
endurance, bnt the relief came most |
sinsnariy and, FOX the sake of suffering |
humanity, from the same cause, let it he |
borne il mind In Narch one day the |
sun wheeled up to its grand diurnal |
course, bright ana radiant. | had not for |
we.ks been out of the house. That Gay
the doctor sent for me to take ride. |
With two suits of red flannel, heavy and |
thick clothes and overcoat and mui1led |
to the chin in furs, drove about ten
miles. That night ate hearty supper
and slept five hours.
From that time l gradually strength
encd. The day after walked quarter |
of a mile; the day after, half a mile; the
day after, mile, until gradually l got |
up to walking twelve or fifteen miles a
day. In the meantime, on the first of
April, left Spring Glove, and with the
exception at first, for several weeks
periodically, of a violent neuralgic head
ache, and occasionally pains in my knees
and ankles, | have not suffered, but feel |
in every way restored physical man
hood. The pains in my limbs were
relieved not alone by exercise, but by
cold baths every morning.
My mind was never injured by the use
of morphia. except i'll one respect, and
that was my memory for names and
dates. In all other respects the action Of
morphia on my mental faculties was
beneficial to quiclness of apprehension
and rapid accomplishment Of any literary
work
The cure must be regarded as extra
ordinary when il is considered that I |