The Arkansaw traveler., 1882-10-01
Confession of a Sc hsh Man

Confession of Sc hsh Man.
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 To-day am sc,enty-tvr wears Q, age m l have been reA le~1ag uiS li'e. of all men in The world ~e think SeitSh man ls to ne the mos, despssed li ts the sci. hsh man Wha airns to sratifY his o~r ple.,sare> and deSrcs. regardless oi the oonseQuenccs which iaaN bctalt oihcr~ Al lhc age oi nineteen manned and can dor Compcls me ,n saN ;h-, mN partner for Life was one ci ihe loNel,c>i of ,sod's creatures Though previous to our mar rage she had many offcrS oi marriage from men oi wealth and high position m the world. s;;li ,his lyge. noblchcaTted woman preferred ine above all oihers though fully cognlzant that she ~as mar Hing a poor man. Three wears alter our marriage a lcsacy of sIo,c.o wa> be gueaihcd "a my wiir. In those days ! man was locked up.u a> wealthy who could command Sie.tSsa. In a >hof, ,lme pun based a fourth lntefes, m the nrm ~iih winch had been engaSea iot i number eiyears. The profits wete tm- mcnse. and al Inc asc ot ,~enty->IN l ~a,. indeed. d wealths man. .tt the age ef twenty -eish, sn shildren had been added ;e the tamils. and rishi here ss where rrry >rifIShurs~- began -sv- show. Though aur business MAS stil ia a iounsh,ng condition, began ,o lmpress upon eNerN nacrnbef oi the tamilN the nc eessity al belng eeouomlcal he hil- dren were denied cNciN pleasure when ] peounan expenditure ~a> necessary to contribute m any ~av to ihcn enioSmcn;. My tdnnly dreaded io aCquaint nc with thelr >hshtes; wants. knowing that tho reply would be. You must prA5tse eSon- omy. Hos many tunes have l insisted on my wife wearing the same bonnc, and dress lu>, one more season. and have seen her wearing the same cloak four oI i've winter bu, must have nea over ooa; each >pring and winter. and new beaver as often as the styles. must also have the finrs; patent leather beats and shoes. but my wife almost feared ,n men ,lon tha, she needed new pai, of gai,ers. l have seen her e,onamiIe m Nafsoas way, to enable her ,o pufo hase some af,ielc she tanelcd. and. m truth actually needed. My children grew up in ignorance. be- cause could not spare - the means to propeil. educate them. l, a.s my own useles> expenditure that prevented me from doins full lu>,iee ,o my family My children are all of a good old age My wife k ~t3nkled and gfat and ac afc both
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