New-York tribune. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1866-1924, 1882-06-04
NEW-YORK, Dee. 4, 1919.

NcU-l OTk, May -, Ico- ltNNDAl-l'
NEw-YORK, Dee. f. 1919.
My FRIEND You ask for an hour. | have now
but fifteen minutes, yet will endeayOr TO say some
thing.
The loss of my boy makes great change in my
feelings, plans and prospects. The JOY of my life
was comprehendcd IN hls, and | d. not now feel
that any personal OBJECT can strongly move me
hencefOrth. / had thought of buying country
place but it was lOf lin; had begun 10 love dow
er5 and beautiful objects because lie liked item.
now all that deeply concerns me Is the evidence
that snail live hereafter and especially that We
shall live with and know those We loved here. The
rest seems subordinate and trltiing. / mean to act
ny part while NE Is spared me- Dut l no longer
c0vct length of days. If felt sure on the point Of
identifying and being with oar loved ones III the
world 10 come, would prefer not 10 live long. As
it IS. am resigned 10 whatever may be diyincly
ordered.
lam not often sad. and suffer little. feel none
Of that eating away of the heart which aictS my
poor wife and makes me apprchend that she we'll
not live long. SIC has erred very lttlc, and laid
our darling IN ms colin, aiicr thoroughly washing
him, with dry eyes We had tut fey hours To pre-
pare for loss lie went to bed as hearty and
happy a. ever; at a. IA. he wanted to get MP,
but went directly back TO bed, complaining Of no
sickness little past 3 he called again, aud soon
the purging and vomiting commenced IN earnest,
but we stopped this At = and dld not lecl that he
was in danger till about p. H.. and at he died!
His mother had bought him hddic the day before,
which delighted hin b yOnd measure and lie was
only induced To lay It up AT night 10y hi, delight at
the idea of coming up IN the morning and surprising
me by playing II before ! got up In the morn
ing at daylight, was called to his bedside; the
next day followed INN To his grave. You cannot
guess how golden aud lovely his long hair never
cu;l looked III the collin.
We have lost four out OF five children. aud have
only an infant left. Cur last gir was only s1X
months old the other two were infants Pickle
was five years old last March. So much grace and
wit aud poetry were rarely or never blended in so
young chllt and TO us his form and features
the perfection of beauty We can never have
another child, and lie cannot be long enough to
cliace though 10 will temper this sorrow: 1t differs
III Kind as well as degree from that have here
tofOIe experienced.
For the present my prevailing sentiment is that
of some adventurous COIteZ or liZarTO, who has
burned his ships and most OF bs baggage Oh an in
hOspitabc shore. and feels he can hcncefortA adj
vance freely. do not feel that have heretofore
been dcgclict, but hereafter feel confident that no
fear Of personal consequences deter ne from
doing my duty. Til" road before me seems hIlly
and heavy, and have less strength than had but
! shall swing my PACK soon ana lace those meet
with as bithe "a cOuntenancc ever. Kind re-
CARDS to Mrs. Randall. Yours,
HORACE GREELEY.
I. Sd wrote a full account OF our disaster 10 a
friear, and viii lot you read IL sometime If You
wish.