Mexico weekly ledger., 1882-02-02

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give, and in return you gave him
nothing but cold looks and unk1nd
words; and so he has left to seek
love and sympathy from his mother" ="
This thought almost maddened me:
IN fancy | saw her sitting in nv place
by his side, loving and caressing him.
as L had the best right to love and
caress him; l pictured her receiving
ten ierly the little loving acts l had
received so coldly, and now l was
seized with jealous pang against
her. l mentally accused her of es-
transing my dear husband from me,
and trying to win his love from me,
as though his heart was not large
enough for both of us.
When Maud arrived in the after
noon, treated her to long TRADE
OF abuse against mother-in-laws in
general, and my own in particular,
and | vented all the anger | really
felt against myself, on the innocent
Mrs. Cartwright.
"Why, Nellie.' said Maud, 81
thought you liked Mrs. Cartwright
SO mitch, and thought her so nice,
that you even wanted her to live
with you, only your husband very
properly, as mamma says, objected"
$50 | did, | answered; "but |
did not know then she would ever
entice my husband away from me in
tins way, or, of course, never should
have liked her.
Greatly, Nell, you are very hard
on the poor woman; for, as | under
stand, Mr.. Cartwright went to her OF
his own free will, because she was
not we'll, and he thought his comrany
would do her good" said Mand
''Nonsense | am sure he would
never have left me alone, unless she
had put him up to it, l replied
GROSSLY.
The truth is, Nellie, you are so
much in love with your husband that
You are jealous even of his own moth
er, and you are making yourself mis-
erablc about nothing. Why, Mr..
/ Cartwright will be back in fortnight
and | dare say you will get letter
from him every day; so cheer up and
let us 60 for q drive" said Maud.
/ | agreed to this plan, and giving
! Maud the reins | lay back and
thought Of her words. Was she
right after all? Was | jealous
Was l really, as Maud said, IN love
with my husband: Had l only found
it out that | was deprived of his com
pany? Was this the reason that |
could do nothing but inwardly re-
proach myself for my conduct to
him: And the longer | thought the
more convinced | became that Maud
was right, that l was jealous, and
that | was in love, As she called it.
This knowledge did not make me
happier, for | no sooner knew thai
| loved him than Ionged to tell hin
SO. and make up, as far as | could.
for all my former cruelty ; for | coulG
} call my conduct by no miider word
| passed a sleepless night, and as
lay awake | composed various letters
) Of confession, which | resolved tt
, send the following day. But wher
morning came, my pride stepped in.
and | began to feel it would he i'm
) possible to write. and | decided tt
f wait till my husband came home, an,
| then tell him how his absence hat
5 altered me.
; | got up early and walked out te
meet tue pOstman. 50 anxious was
| first | had ever received from hin
, since our marriage, and no girl wa
eyer so anxious for or SOpleased will
her first love letter rs | was over thi
, one.
? 1t was long letter, full Of loving
: messages and terms Of cndearment
: all of which cut me to the heart, fol
: they sounded like 50 many rcproach
| es; in reality | think there was a ton,
Of gentle rcproach throughout tn,
; letter. He gave me an account o
| his journey and of his mother
j health, begged me to write to him
!, few lines every day, but he sad no
t a word about returning.
| spent the morning in answcrin.
: it, much to Maud amusement, who
of course, thought l was pouring ou
$ volumes of love and complaints o
= my temporary widowhood after tear
, ing up about a dozen sheets of paper
5 at last sent short note, cool ant
| with no illusions to my misery. Th
| more tried the more impossible
S found it to write any expression O
love or penitenee, though 1 was hun
! gering to do SO.
) For whole week / went on in TIL
, way, suffering more accutely ever
D day. and each day receiving long
t loving letters from Mr.. Cartwright
Y and writing short, cold answers.
0 l lost my appetite. 1 could no
sleep at night, and the torture | wa
D enduring made me look so i'll tina
l Maude became frightened and dc
i clared that she would write and sum
c mon my husband home, and tell hir
1 | was pinng away for him. l for
: badc her doing this SO sternly tha
5 she dared not disobey me, for l wa
;. determined he should never hear tro'
G any lips but mine that at least hi
4 hearts desire was attained, for
!, loved him.
a At last. when he had been ava
. ten DAYS. could bear it no longer
il for | felt | should have brain fever
e | went on this way, SO L determine
| to go to Melton, where Mrs. Cart
: wright lived, and see my husband.
came to this decision one night, an
O went to Maud's room early In til
q morning to tell her Of my intention
I | expected she would laugh at M
+ but l think she guessed somethln
was wrong, for she seemed glad
e hear it, and helped me to pack a fe
3 things and set Off in time to cate
d The morning train.
" 1t was three hours journey. The
d seemed three years to me, for tt
O nearer got to him the more lmp'
y ,ient | was to see hlm. AT last
N got to Melton, a largish town. I
,e course, as l was not expected, the1
Il was no one to meet me, so took