Perrysburg journal. (Perrysburg, Wood Co., O. [Ohio]) 186?-1965, 1881-01-07

taking ramble, came upon her unexpcct-
edly; she was walking slowly along, with her
eyes cast down, looking more grave than had
ever seen her before. when she saw me,
her face suddenly became transtigured with
radiance, but she quickly tripped by. The
glowing OF her face and the respondent
throbs OF my heart revealed TO me what we
were to each other.
eve have been 40 happy together hero ~
VERY happyW she whispered, quivcring.
! 1 held both of her hands tightly; she
avoided looking at me, but did not turn away
her darling little face. continued;
!" BctwiSt you and me there Is a consider
able disparity in age, and l am by nature
much more seriously constituted than you.
Excepting you, l have never loved n woman,
| while you have conquered-Hcayen knows
how many hearts. You are not what the
world says of you; You have a heart that can
me frankly and faithfully whether you can
| love mc-or do love me. | am not accus-
toned to addressing such questions, and do
not know, perhaps how to express myself
conformably to the requirements OF an occa-
sion like this; but believe mo when l say
that You have won my heart, and that do
not think could be happy without you."
IL believe you."
But will you trust me, too, and love
moW
az love YOU and trust you," she answered,
| a
never marry. you. / am capricious and pre-.
Stunning, and would soon make you weary OF
| life with my constant demand for attention.
| | was born to bc treated like q spoiled lap
dog; You are, although capable of loving,
nevertheless not an cffec.ionate man. We
should not have passed two months in we'd
| lock before you'd wish me In Cayenne, or
some other torrid locality. But as that would
not be practicable, therefor you would break
my ,heart--not rudely and harshlv, oh, no
undemonstratively and calmly. That Is just
! as clear to me as III had IL all before my eyes
| at this momcntW
| She looked at me, and her whole soul was
in the glance; il spoke love, passion and
yearning tenderness. Oh, what strange
feelings, never hitherto experienced, this
glance awakened within me The next mo-
| ment held her In my arms, and exclaimed :
"Pauline, II ever man loved woman, with
all his heart and soul, unreasonably, madly,
and yet truly and honestly, II is l."
But will that last, Georgep
l bent down, and our kisses breathed all
the delicious fervor OF first and true love.
"You must be my wife, Pauline J" l cried.
Her head dropped upon my shoulder, and
her hand sought and clasped mine.
"Is this your answer? May l call this
hand mineW
at you wish, Georgiew
Oh this "Georgie," which fell for the
first time from her lips, how infinitely blessed
it made me! From that time she always
called me so But when she ceased to love
me this sound also died, and since then she
again called me George.
Shortly afterward we were married. Our
honeymoon lasted six months, and, / be-
| live, would have lasted forever had / not
acted so foolishly. Now sigh in vain for q
| return of that time.
Pauline had been called tickle, fighty.
How fallacious this idea! A truer heart
could not have existed.
1 81 ,lsr IAI AT nnN In al.
used to say to me when talked and laughed
over this matter. ''During my maidenhood
/ was constantly on the lookout for him
could not find him, however, and came to the
conclusion finally that should never meet
him. But when heard your voice for the
first time, and gazed into your eyes, then
knew that had found this master at last
and how gladly carry the chains of my
| master!"
She said this in full seriousness. Best oi
all, she was pleased when | coaXed and
played with her us child. She was not an
| angel she was a passionate, high-souled
woman. She rebelled hundred times day
and yet she loved my dominion. She became
attractive whenever, with eyes flashing, she
rushed to the door, threatening to leave the
room, yet instantly stood still, with heat
lowered, when 1 called to her: "Stop
Shut the door; have something to say Il
you.' But this was rather dangerous, fol
1t made apparent the power l had over her
L, who had never been loved before, coult
hardly help becoming tyrant when saw
such noble head bend to me.
She loved me. Every chord of her hear
vibrated at my merest touch; but was no
| satisfied. undertook to modify the tones
her doting homage itself was the instrument
| True-now | see all clearly-this instrument
| was n sword, with which | cruelty wounded
her. A very sage idea entered my head, ant
whispered to me that was making chile
of Pauline with my indulgence, and tina
with so much warm sunlight In her, ful
womanly power would never be developed
i acted according to this idea, altogether
| overlooking the fact that her mental ant
moral force had already been entirely un
folded and matured, and that, too, at tim,
when Others just begin to be aware that ther,
are rocks and storms, shoals and quicksand
in the ocean OF life. ! also forgot that, II
spite of her youthful gayety and exuberanc,
of spirits, the lessons of n long, bitter
gloomy past would never be lost upon her
their impress was merely hidden from m,
eyes beneath blithe exterior.
She had for while completely exercise,
my legal solemnity; now determined to re
turn to my whilom state, and not to be coz
ened away again so easily. delved into IN
papers for hours, without speaking word
She did not complain. So long as she wa
assured of my love she was content, an
likewise worked on more diligently. He
times paused to observe her indefatigabl
dancing pen; but then she was sure to loo
up, while happy smile played around he
lips. One day, as she raised her eyes I
mine, happened to be In very unreasona
BILE frame of mind; her rallying lOve-loo
almost irritated me, and said shortly:
"YOu annoy me when you look ut me 1
that nanner.o
Glad to get an opportunity to chat wit
me, she dropped her pen, came to my side
"Why, my dearg The glance was for hir
love-"
That was apoor beginning for the pre-
cepts wanted to enforce. i collected my
self and began to study my papers pro
fonndly.
least bit sensitively. rrfE.
"N0t exactly" i..LsilUl I
Her soft hand toyed with my locks and he
warm breath caressed my cheek. 1 felt this
my wisdom was rapidly expiring. Again
collected myself and assumed an air Of cold
ness.
"one kiss, only one, and will go" sh
begged.
"NoEsense, Pauline! have no time fo
kissing"
She gazed into my face and asked: "Do
vex your"
Exceedingly"
A sigh scarcely audible escaped her lips
l
For this morning at least had destroye
her cheerfulness. 1t was the first cloud
our matrimonial skv.
Years have passed, and / became cor
stantly less capable of comprehending no
, could have so persistentiy undermined II
! foundation OF my peace and happiness, ir
stead of building thereon a life's content
ment The next six months were perio
OF misery to me, and without doubt also Il
Pauline; for she became pale and thin an
, lost all her spirits. My plan had succeede
excellently well; she had learned to doul
my affection for her. That was revealed
me occasionally by her stealthy, VISIT
, glances and the manner In which she bega
, 20 occupy herself with Fido--as II she no
relied alone upon his love and faithfulnes
: But was too proud to admit my wron
even to myself, and daily widened n
breach.
Then the dog began to grow sickly; he hi
grown old and feeble. She abandoned h
: work and devoted the time taken from h,
labor to the dumb brute. When life WI
extinct, she bent over him, burst into tear
kissed the white spot on his forehead, al
I then closed eyes which, even In deaf