Montgomery County sentinel. [volume] (Rockville, Md.) 1855-1974, 1881-02-11
"You might as we'll, said the other

She knew that in my childhood | had
idolized her. But what chance had | I
What good would it do, if she was 60
ing to marry the infrm fellow wheeling
asthn atically by her side | went home
assured that my life had no value. The
more thought of it the less l cared for
it. The less | cared for it the greater
my anxiety to be rid of it, To be rid
of it meant to take it. Suicide is bor-
ribly vulgar, ordinarily. 1t is only
the Frcnchman who makes it sublime.
He"
"There here | must protest." ex-
claimed the parson, holding up his
hands in horror. Such talk is not
orthodox"
Pm not telling an orthodox story,
doctor. What | think now and thought
then are two different affairs. Enough
to say resolved on killing myself As
in my disappointment | felt no hunger,
starvation seemad very refined method
of characterization.
Economical to the last !" exclaimed
the Colonel, returning to the attack.
you'll never carry the practice of
your life to such an extreme, said Bar
ron II have the satisfaction of know
ing that. However, Colonel, your Bit
terness is natural. | forgive you, DIR.
Miller cannot fail to see that I'm treat
ing you like Christian is, as if
you were one. Well, l began the siege
myself. The supplies we're cut of. l
retired to my room and refused TO cat.
That meant good deal when it is con-
sidered that for four years | had lived at
college boardlng-house. 1t meant more
when one remembers that it was done for
love. Men talk Of killing themselves
for the objects of their affections, but
they seldom, if ever, try the starvation
plan. 1t takes true grit for that sort of
thing. Perhaps this story of mine hasn't
the sentimental fervor that animated me
then. 1t seems now to have been an
example of rather funny obstinacy. The
first day was lived through without much
discomfort the second found me hun
CRY; the third, ! was half crazy for
food, and the smell from the kitchen in
furated me. | hogan to wender if l
wasn't making fool of myself"
Eyes ! You were the only one who
had doubts about it p said the Colonel,
quite cheerfully, all things considered.
Meanwhile" continued the Judge,
every relative got wind of the matter
and came to hold an -mortem in
quest. The doctor was summoned, and
at last the newspaper Of the town came
out with highly-sea soned story, in
which Miss Dexter was, by innuendoes,
referred to as the cause of the trouble.
Of this, however, knew nothing. |
was too busy in scheming counter-act
plot Of my friends to force. food into my
stomach to care what was being said
outside of the house. The night Of
the third day was horrible one. 1t
was made up of succession of dreams
of banquets at which could not eat
enough to satisfy my hunger.
1.-The next morning | was out of my
head until noon"
"Out of your stomach Brains had
nothing to do with it," said the Colonel.
"0ut Of my head" repeated the
Judge 1T seemed as though | was
about to collapse and die. Everything
was whirling around and around, when
the door was open, and face came into
view. 1t had familiar look, but at
first could not tell whose it was.
looked and looked and looked, and then
dropped away in a fainting fit. 1t lasted
for minute. When came to, the
first thing that met my gaze was this
same face. The eyes had the same cleo
trical CLEAN as of old ; the lips were just
as seductive in their expression, and the
voice made the sweetest Of music. She
took nv thin face in her little hands and
looked sadly into my eyes"
Erred Fred p she whispered. Dear
old boy, tell me what this means 7"
] shook head YEARLY.
1--WE been away" she said, "and
there's a horrible story about US 10 the
paper-about me, | mean-that am
the cause Of this. Have you seen III
mo, Lou"
Are you going to kill yourself,
Fred 2" bringing that dear face Of hers
closer 70 miRo
II shall continue TO try"
why? What is the matter p
"You arc the matter, Lou, il you
must know" | said, getting desperate
with her lips 80 close TO mine, and the
questions coming thick and fast. "You
are the matter
Meg
You"
| could see that she wanted 10 make
me tell, and / believe that the only thing
that kept her from pskiag was that she
believed she know what had 10 toll.
resolved to settle my doubt, and, If |
was going to die, TO have her know just
the reason for my suicide
Lou" began, putting an arm
around her waist to steady myself Lou,