Litchfield enquirer., 1881-11-10


 day she waste come again; by that time he mind would be made up .sf .,l h9eso!
 ''We shall not operate just at present, ' saiC
 the surgeon. as he bade ter farewell. "1hs l c'Iid is weak and low, and will need hel
 strength gd up. Don't fret We. have had
 many case in 're h ,i,el-ss than this. ''
 She went away In thong mt I followed hel to her lonely ho,ne D mbtless it was poor and humble enough. but now there was no
 little tongue to Drattle of childish joys. ne ba l by lips to meet her own in sweet soft kisses ;
 no welcome, 10 greet her entrance as she re.
 turned. How she must miss. her child; how she must pray and hope for that one boon, that the well-l,elOved little life might lJe spar ed What anguish and fear unutierable must throb in her tender mothers heart, as she thought of ail her darling had, to bear. e s: l No wonder pitied her as ] thought of these things. G4 4.fs. zen. ...,4.'-,ss. ...t, - l9 Days passed on. Lolla was just the same s0 Still, sIs spaiient,1 SD uEconplaining.0 ! She never cried nr 1nnrmnred like other children 1 araund. Oaly her eyes grew wistful, as, now and then, soI.e little coivalescent patient, was allowed t0 get np, and run about tlleowarti once more. could read her owu anspeken l l"nging well enough, but she never said any thing "f it now .a ef.a eos. ..5Frz --sf5 :. l will irass aver the intervening time that lay between these probationary days and dhai 1 one which was to See tte result of the dreaded operation. Her mother had at last decided on t. and the dnctOrs agreed that the child might gO through it now. Her strength had increased perceptibly after course of g.,od |'plain food and 1nnnrisinnent regularly adlnir,- istered. She had gained flesh t0o. but still that waxen pailor never changed. and at nigilt she bore still the same resetnblanceto marble l have previDusiy remarked. She was gen fau. loved her re-whO. indeed, could help it !ljfT'he lady visitors, who often came. grew quite fond of ''Mhlier's Lnila." and many were tie pres. ents she received from their hands, She had grown accustomed to her nlbthers visits and abseiloesilow, and no longer grieved ib thai, nnekil.lisl. ll,ournfub fashion G!Jas- .e.GaC ' ,, V" 'ne "'shi after misrepresentation her mother na' pe,ln'ss'nn r-:inain. The time was fix this time grown sIeeled to suffering and h6r
 TOT, 1 thought but when saw the piepara
 tions for this ordeal, tiie basin, and knives, and handages, grew faint and sick. My hand 'shajk s0 that the surgeon noticed it, and made ;s,aiie haslyi sreinarx. n Nerves in asfi6spita
 nurse are not allow able. With a iy igorti,is effort l, mastered my agitation, l had, dettr- mined to be present, and any sign of weak ness would have caused my dismissal from
 the operatinr rooil,y But l think 1 newer ,ln derwenl such torture in n,yolife as ,whenl had a stand by and witness the manipulaii4n of that little waxen unconrin"s form. The 1tine was short fesinugh, dare say, biItnto me il seemed hours ldng.a .Then the limb was dress4 ed and the cbild restored to consci' usness. +
 l breathed freely once more as l laid her back in he: little Got. The effects of the chio- rnf,r,n were about her still -her eyes were val cant and .wanderipg, her lips and face mire colorless than usual-bu.. aftera tune, s)pth- ed and sung her to sleep. and then, with the long feeding or dread that had been upon ii,P removed at last. I, to,, went back to my oRa room to iest and sleep. for the coming night wa ch had fallentO my share 5hsg p5,3 4Hi f l It was eight n'cl 'ck when returned l0I the ward. All was quiet and peaceful. Some ot the children had fallen asleep. after being washed and dressed for the night. iI6fla had taken so,l.es snourislluent. Il was told, and then fallen asleep again. ..,e.,c, -sar, e,,.
 At nine Pcl'ck her mother arrived pale and anxious. gave Hefth surgeons report. and begged her not to disturb the child. Then, after going my rounds. Ican'e back tb Lolla's | cot and sat down beside, her.. She was still sleeping -7a deep. tranquil sleep that was, a l good sign. watched her for n long time, al 1 last Hurried to her mother:
 I s'.I liave often meant ta ask you now the ac- icitient lappened2''iI said ss'Would you nnInd 'elll1nng :l1ng me me r ga dal a;5lodg4 po is3euj -' tzlna.s1aso f'a@u PART U.s'a 22eot i'a'} " A strange hard look came over the delicate l young face. ''~a "'
 | .'It was through her faiher,'' she said, in the same low voice that had used. .My l story Is not by any means uncommon. l had 1 been, nursery governess. was very un- l.. matters worse, the son of my employer fell in love with mes would not listen to him. I left my situation he followed me. I,.tad heard that he was wild and unsteady, but he 1 was the only one who had ever had kind word or lOOks for me ainofrg them all. and had grown to hove him yeey dearly. Itrwas l hard to shut my ears aud heartt0 his prayers when he found me out, and begged me to marry him. consented at last, and for twelve happy months lenvied no man 0r wsi- man ip all the wide eartt.e A year-it is moi much to be happy ill mot much in & whole life that was all trouble and weariness b fore. 1 all bitterness and despair after. But it is Ali I have had or ever shall have suppose. AL ter Lella was born he changed He grew sill- len and disc,nlented, took to staying away from home. and came back only too ofteE in a state of helpless iutoxicafion. Ii nearly broke my heart to see hiin 80 chshged, but 1 did l what l Conld for the child's sake. However. | things grew worse aud worse. He tR,k .tn ilI-treating ,iie systematically. His associaies were now low and cOmaibn nien. and he seemed gradually sinking into deeper and deeper ,degrataiion. We were miserably poor. We had but one wretchedy furnished room, and what little money 1 could make barely kept life ia my t,ahy and me. .t wt,,- der often low lived thr u T, two years of sucl
 d time. but my child kept life and hope within, me. and for her sake bore all There cane Il night. however, when endurance was strain. l ed tev0nd what it could tear He canlt home mad with drink The child was asleep in 3ed-the one bed we pOssessed; he swore I at me for putting her there, and then -ai the terror of That moment !-he raised his heavy fOt and kicked her ont on to the stone floor. That act reused all the passion 3and
 wrath of my whole nature. For myself l had I bnrne blows and kicks and ill-lsag+ without teanplaint. hut for The child God ff,rgfve me I MhA I said and did in my agony as l raised the little terrified creature, in my arrIs,, and | tried ta, hush Der wailing cries. I told hip i that I had borne with hin long enough, that | for the future he silnnid never see me iiinre
 and took my child in my arms, aDsl9 wen, out into the cold winter streets a creature sl
 broken. so 'terly .desoate, that the tempting ol
 the black river rushing under it's gas-it bridge. visa tempting eanh scarce resist. What
 had 10 live for ? The child at my breast wall.
 ed in it's pain that could not ease. and hel
 moan strtick tn nIv heart like q knife. ard filled me with fresh bathing and horror for the man who had dealt us this fresh nisery.n Ali that night roaned the, streets. I think ]
 was scarcely in my right senses. Al daybreak Y Fhf"und q friend "a woman compassionate enough tn give me shelter. to believe my story,
 and to help me in my sore neede She, was
 very poor-sle kept little shop in Chelsea-
 but sine was good christian, if ever there vai sI one. and to her I owe my safety-my life fmy present occupation. I vetflera with her now. She procured me neetilework from inc
 shops. andss litle as earn. it just s1ffices tt support usa3 I was fairly happy. and at rest I until-tntil,s day hy day, I saw tl.ere was ifsGilethings wrong with Ls'lla she eoHld n, longer walk and run about as she had done she was always tired ana langditi, and com. nainino S,f f,ai n in shar hin .T fnk h or f.,