The Kenosha telegraph. [volume] (Kenosha, Wis.) 1860-1888, 1881-10-28
EfTwere a rnIlroad condnrtor.
NEVER DESPAIR,

the character of culprit. The face O
the merchant betokened the possessio,
OF a character in which what the worlt
calls logged resolution was the prevail
ing clement
tell you again." said he, 81 can
aot-will not overlook your ofense."
Believe me, sir, " appealed the youth
had no criminal intention the faul
was entirely unpremeditated-i was al
act of folly, which I shall never-oh
sir, never repeat."
One of those cold and horrible smile!
which so forcibly express incredibly
swept across the merchants face, and hi
waved his hand as if no wished the in.
teryiew to lee terminated.
Inc young man, whose countenance
up TO this moment had been burning
with shame, now became deadly pale
lac saw his employers determination was
not to be shaken, and that disgrace
stared him hideously in the face. He
made a vain effort at another appeal, but
the words died on his lips, and feeling
of despair utterly extinguished the faint
hopes he had entertained of being mer
cifully dealt with.
My poor mother p gasped he, hid
ing his face in his hands and sobbino
bitterly,
The merchants hard features slightly
relaxed-perhaps he loved his mother
dearly; bat The feeling, whatever ii
might have been, was only transient
one.
T." Walter Jackson" said he, in hard,
ringing tones, which instantly reused
the young man from his grief, 81 tell
you once again, my mind is made up,
and the sooner you leave my office the
better. never prosecute in small cases
like yours. Begone, and never let me
see or hear from you again."
The delinquent, awed by that iron
viii, mechanically turned upon his heel
and left the office. Stunned and Devil
dered by the catastrophe which had. in
one moment, crushed all his YOUNG
hearts hopes, he moved along the
streets like man drunk. or bending
beneath burden which exposed him to
the mercy of the pssser-by. Pressed
and weighed down by a heavy fear, he
went from that noisome place to ramble
like fallen spirit until the hour at
winch he usually returned from his Ia
oors TO the home where he was welcomed
by mothers smile and fond attentions
Hardening himself to play a deceptive
part IN her presence, he approached the
door with confidence which his con
science too surely told him was but au-
dacious assurance. And when he took
t'is accustomed seat at the tea-table and
responded to her gentle inquiries, he
did so outwardly unabashed; but with
IN, far from human eye, he felt the glow
OF shame's blush and the torture which
the contrast between vice and virtue
renders more acute.
Ills alpsttspecting parent noticed no
change in him during the whole of that
trying evening, and when he retired to
ms chamber he received her BLESSING
with stoicism which almost amounted
to cold indifference. But, when he had
only himself to deal with, the actor for
got his part, and once more became the
conscience-stricken man of guilt.
Despair, with its narrowing convictions.
Frustrated the whole of his faculties,
and he moaned i'll the helplessness OF
bis condition. He threw himself I'm.
dressed on the bed, and yielded to the
horrors by which he saw himself on all
sides surrounded.
He moaned and he cried, and then he
clenched his fists and beat the eir-exe-
Grated himself, then others-and finally
sprang from the bed like Il savage darling
upon his prey. His eyes sparkled, his chest
heaved, and his whole attitude was that
Of menace and defian7 e,
Since [ cannot 30 back" thought
he, setting his teeth firmly together, al
will go forward and wo be it to"
At this critical moment his glance fell
on picture hanging against the wall
Ut was the head of our Savior, and the
gift OF his mother, A long, long look dld
he take at the mild face which smiled s,
sweetly from its CSavas, and then he
burst INTO tears. They WERE the best he
had ever shed, for they opened no to
hum the fountains of new life, and ex-
tlnguished those unholy sparks which
despair had kindled in his bosom. After
his powerful emotion had in some degree
subsidized, he knelt down by the bedside.
and prayed as only those can who need
divine assistance. He rose calm and re
freshed. and seated himself at a little
table to deliberate on the course he
should pursue. Many and various were
his thoughts, but they all partook of til
tone OF one grand, all-commanding scnti-
ment and by that he was resolved ia
be guided. The coinage of his brain
was distilled in that best of all alembics,
the heart and gradually there was &C.
cumulatcd within him gently-howine
river of thought, beside which Hope
stood waving her green branch. and
bidding him in honeyed accents, "Neyel
despair"
In the morning he rose, after dream.
less night, vigorous and determined
and FASTENED to carry out one of the most
difficult of the three resolutions he had
formed; that was to part, perhaps fol
ever, with the girl he loved.
MARY" said he, gazing mo
INTO her fearful face, 81 love you as
well, indeed better, at this moment than
ever l dld-but we must part. Cmcum-
stances have occurred which render This
painful step necessary"
Cannot You explain, Walters" de,
manded she, clinging to him.
Dear Mary, don task mel cannot. y
replied he, painfully. 81 cannot, in
deed-only to my Godl Listen, - con.
tinued he solemnly; tomorrow I shall
be far away from you; and the probabil.
ity is that it would be very long time
at present, I think, many years-before
we should meet again; so that continuing
our engagement is a mere mockery, be.
cause the chances are that I shall be I'm.
able to keep it.
90 OH" exclaimed the girl, wounded to
the quick by sentiment she misunder-
stood.
Do not mistake me" said he, taking
her by the hand, and struggling to sub
due his own strong emotion; 'Tlove YOU
dearly, and that is The reason 1 do not
wish you to remain bound to what NAV
never be fulfilled on my part. You. /
know, would be faithful and true: but
why should you waste the bloom of your
youth, and neglect the many opportuni-
ties you will have of making yourself
fO1. H.