The Sedalia weekly bazoo. [volume] (Sedalia, Mo.) 187?-1904, 1881-07-05

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waitisg for ousy be ~ down BY her
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81. too. am sd tonight, hut my
,sdusss has . deeper meaning than
yous. At my heart are tugging love.
remorse. regret aud . wretrhed quar-
relIing With fate. l wish dare lay
hare my heart to you. for my sui is
minimizing for human sympathy"
you ,nay."
"And you will not thiuI lee. OF me
because I have sinned and suffered p
IL will not"
Five years ago-nay, must begiu
further back. Ten years ago. l knew
and loved . young girl. She va q
loving child. tssdsr-hearted and
winning. She won ny heart ere
knew it, and / asked her Ia be my
wife. She consented, and when Ne
parted, hung round my nes:k and
wept 70 bitterly that l found il very
hard 10 leave her. / west back "a
Germany. and afterward carried With
me all over the continent the memory
Of that beautiful face, and more than
it. this memory Of the gentle. loving
heart. l returned Eve years later u
end . cold.hearted. naughty woman,
who repealed my tenderness and threw
hack uPon my aching heart the love
I would have felt for her IL she had
but been tender and patient. But
must he just found the lady o.
changed in her personal appearance
that did not know her at 6rst and
doubtless my manners seemed cold "a
her, for | VAS mourning for my beau
tiiul little Et.y. and conld not believe
this cold, pale woman was she. W.
were married within the hour of nv
arrival. and though At FIRST my SOU
sickened. | did strive. before God, Il
give her my love. but I verify believe
she hated me, for she grew more and
more cold and di.dainful every dsv
till. mad With sorrOv and regret,
left my bone to wander. disconsolat,
and sad. all over the earth. Twice
remembering she was my vile,
wrote, begging her to join me. for
could not bear to return to the grane.
where al knew my s.d history: bu,
she haughtily refused. saying in he,
last letter that she fapcied our path,
would be happiest far apart. You
too. have known sorrow. Mrs. Willis
but it is better to mourn for the dead
than the living"
Lionel Peyton loved Mn. Willis
and it required oil bis honor and man
hood. all his self-conirol, to keep frou
taking her in his arms and telling be-
-. He did not. but continued
Later. / met with one Who, befor,
I was aware Of it. crept into ny hear
"A beautiful. regal woman, with {
passionate, tropical nature, entirely
suited to mine. Iloved that woman
but l dared not tell her so; my honor
sorhade it. and yet I love her Oh
my God /! thou knowest il ALL"
As the white lips grew calmer. b,
said. ITO night, for ali my battling
this wild love IL cIamoring to BE- heard
all the anguish and regret, all tn,
harder to bear because unspoken.
thought must speak or die. but wher
the storm wss At ito height . greaI
calm came over my spirit. and some
thing like Gods great pity fell upon
my tempted soul. and once more il
Vas able to overcome. ] have cum,
to cay goodbye. Este. There 10 only
one course for me to pursue. l must
| must rejoip my poor wife. and. il Sd.
is willing to receive the prodigal, try
to make her happy"
Ibid you love her 20 mueh-thi,
beautiful woman of whom you SPOKE
better than any beauty Of Italy OF
wanderings! :"
His fsce flushed and then paled.
"Retter than any woman on earth
better than anything but my honor
and my God" and he held with On
iron grasp the small white hand.
be had taken in bic. "Love BY be,
side; to watch the flash and CLEAN ol
those proud eyes. and the sweet tren.
ling Of the red lips, and the shining
dark hair, and the proud throat, wtite
10 snow"
1T must have been very hard to
give her up?"
ut was hard. What would you
have done % circumstasced :"
81 would have been true to my
honor and my God. q you we're 3"
GOD bless you, Este; now We
muet part"
Essie had been msrciless, but Der
heart craved Ill she could
hear of the love he bore her. But
the strain had been too great /: and
when she rosa to 20, she fsltered, and
would have fallen had he not caught
her in hn arms. He seated her
again and brought . goblet Of water.
"You know Who the woman il, E.
ne, that is 20 dear to me-"
81 have known It from the first !"
"And yos still advise me to return
to my wiie!"
Il do"
"And If she will not receive NET"
"Then return to Europe and work
Tor the good Of Others aud for Gods
Elorv."
"He drew her Close 70 his heart.
This once let me hold you here !;
md nov fareWell!"
A momeat more and she was alone,
nod Lionel Peyton was wildly pacing
,is chamber door With broken words