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face That was indeed q study. Al first
blush, her features seemed to be small, too
small, but in fact were not so, the erroneous
impression being caused soley by their ex.
quiste chiseling, proportion and variable.
ness OF expression. | have never studied O
human countenance with features more mo-
bile, or which, when animated, was more
responsive to the thought, feeling or senti.
ment Of the moment. 1t is now impossible
to recall any one Of her features as more in
dividualized than,the rest. know that her
eyes were blue.gny, clear and bright, still
the face-the whole face has left only gen.
eral and no special feature in my memory.
Ia he varying turns OF our talk, shadows
aud sunshine alternately chased each
other in snch quick succession that my mem.
DRY is more Kaleidoscope than distinct. Was
she beautiful? Really, cannot say, not
once did | think OF that. There was some.
thing not only in her career but In the
whole spirit of her being which carried me
far, far away from any thought Of the mere
physical comeliness OF woman, for this
young girl seemed as il her little body was
possessed of soul SO intelligent, 90 active,
energetic aud powerful that ii might have
lifted her up and carried her whithersoever
at pleasure in fact she seemed to be the EN-.
bodiment OF intellect, passion, will, courage
and enthusiasm. | finally ventured 10 en-.
quire how II happened that she turned sol.
der There was shadow, a pause, and
then quick searching glance at my face.
treasured, and, as II thinking aloud, she
said, "Well Colonel, yes, can talk to you"
and began. "You must not ask my own or
my fathers name, to my family am dead,
and that name will never pass my lips. He
is prominent man, being at the very head
of one of the learned professions, and has
been exceedingly prosperous, My mother Is
very dignifed proper sort of person, but
am sure is happier by far in my fathers
success than in his affections. There were
but two of us, myself and sister s years
younger. She was little doll-baby sort Of
beauty, simple, soft and amiable, with only
negative traits of character, and in this as Il
woman perhaps she may be fortunate. Ny
parents however never understood me, nor
seemed even to wish to do so. My feelings
were quick and deep, my intellect ready
and clear, and my will incapable of being
subdued by mere force. Confidence, trust
and affection could lead ME as lamb, but
against tyranny in any of its multform
shapes | was born rebel. My parents
were proud of me but never loved or com.
pretended me; therefore grew up under
that upas of the household, practical or.
phanage at the family hearthstone. There
was one, however, who did know me in all
the depths and shadows Of my heart, and no
loved me with tenderness and fervor only
equaled by my own. II ever human love
was pure enough and strong enough to raise
two beings entirely above and beyond the
reach of our selfish thoughts ours was that
love, for each lived only for the other. But
he was poor and his suit incurred my pa.
rents frowns. He volunteered, told me his
country needed him, to be Of cheer, that for
my sake he would win his way to glory, come
back with titled name and my proud pa.
rents would crown our marriage with their
blessing. He did rise, going up to full
colonelcy, and in his last letter told me he
was already in command Of n brigade, and
that an urgent request from head quarters
! b,l g.. tk,, e.. III,
mission as brigadier general. Oh how
glOried in his glory. Then came news Of q
battle, Of his falling wounded at the head
of his troops and Of his capture. / told my
parents was going to him; they drove me
from their presence with reproaches; that
night fed, arriving only in time to receive
his dying kiss. He carried with him TO the
grave my all Of earthly love and at that sa.
cred spot resolved to become n soldier In
his stead. You know joined Forrest.
longed for active service, went to his stand
ard because with him rdr meant fighting.
For time managed to keep my secret,
but my last wounds were so severe chat my
sex was betrayed, and under stringent or.
ders was from that time kept from the
ranks" Lifting her finger and pointing To-
wards the hospital she continued, "Most Of
the sick and wounded Of Forests com,
mand are sent here, All those poor boys
are my brothers now, and live only u
nurse them"
Events moved on; Lee and johnson hat
surrendered; the Confederacy was over.
thrown. These words Of woe can never b.
understood by others In all their heart crush
ing sadness as they were by the soldier
mourners at the grave Of our Lost cause,
For that cause we had made heroic strug
gle, but now all was lost. Our paroles werl
given and we started in groups for our dis
tant homes. Ny course was through Jack
son, Miss, and circumstances detained nj
= there for more than week. The Afternoon
: before left that city, wandered down +
the pARtsQn bridge at Pearl nyer to see tn
:, comm which came by the cars. Tn
bank was Nigh and deep cut road raj
u through it TO the river. sat on one sid
It on the green sward looking over at the Ion
Y line coming, those soldiers Of the South
}. with no banner now, and no arms, bu. Q
O frankly true in their pledged submission /
. the new order of things as they ever ha
been 10 our cause on their prOudest battl'
t field, there they came in their rags and sAl
Q ness and humiliation, but grand in th
:, truthfulness and heroism Of their war.the
= souls. CHANGING to turn my head l saw o
d, the other side Of the deep ont road woma
D. sitting alone silently gazing on the seem
7 and one by one the tear.drOps falling frol
her eyes. 1t was Jimmy Wilson, oh, viii
ID an iliad OF unuttered woe was in that youn
ut heart Such sorrow was too sacred for Il
lie trusion. erose with my handkerchief
., my own eyes, walked away in the opp,
site direction, and have never zen heyiy2
'e That last scene, however was photosc
as for life upon the tablets Of my memoir
w Great heart Of the North Will yo