Sacramento daily record-union. [volume] (Sacramento [Calif.]) 1875-1891, 1880-05-08

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followed me in my dreams, whose eyes,
touched by an angels hand, would see
that l was man to be pitied, and not
unworthy to be loved / must have been
mad to hope it but we are not masters of
the springs which control the inner life.
&c Before me stretched the meadows,
enameled with flowers within each little
cup lay Natures kiss, the diamond drop
of life; beyond the meadows doomed the
profound depths of the forest. My road
was in that direction, and l plunged into
the leafy wood, and drank from favorite
stream, and fingered a little, believing I
should never see these familiar friends
again.
GO Farewell, 1 said, as 1 gazed around
with a feeling of pleasant melancholy,
never more shall the echo of my voice be
heard within this forest.
$50 / went forth into the world to dis
tant countries where l was not known,
meeting-as l might have guessed had l
not been credulous fool-with no better
fate than had hitherto attended me. In
whatever place l showed my form | was
jeered and laughed at; my hump was an
inspiration to mockery children ran after
me, laughing and shouting, and when |
turned upon them, more frequently in pity
than in anger, they fed in alright. Ii 1
presented myself at village fete, mirth
was checked, the music ceased, and the
dancers gave me ample elbow room. l
could not win the favor of man, woman or
child itwas impressed upon me in every
possible way that l was an embodiment of
evil. THE wine tastes like vinegar,
have heard said as | was stand
ing near. Never did l commit a
wrong, but I was often dragged before
authority on suspicion. In those straits
my wits did me good service, for it was not
possible to trace any direct evil to my
door. But was always directed to leave
the place quickly. / may truly say that
the setting of every sun added to the Bit
terness of knowledge. Sometimes at the
end of weary day would enter an inn,
choosing always the commonest and hum
blest; and although l never asked for
charity, it was invariably indicated to me
that my presence was an intrusion. had
then to insist upon my risasts; but the I'M
welcomed guest is not to be envied. 1
was not always amiably inclined, Leontine,
and l took savage and just delight in
paying men in their own coin, snarl for
snarl, and blow for blow. As some sort of
compensation, Nature had given me
strength such as no man | ever encountered
could cope with successfully.
81 had some curious lessons, the most
irreconcilable being those in which crime
looked with contempt upon misfortune. l
was benighted, and there was no chance of
my sleeping under roof. Another man
in the wood was in the same plight. He
had gathered some branches, and had made
fire, by the side of which he was sitting
when I came up to him in the dark night.
I asked permission to warm myself by his
fire. He lifted blazing branch and ex-
amined me. Bp the light of the branch we
were enabled to see each other clearly. He
had an evil face, ripe for the gallows.
With foul words, reviling my deformity
and ugliness, he babe me begone, crying
out in a tone of brutal scorn how dared
presume to thrust myself upon his COM
pany, and that he thanked-well, he said
God (meaning it as much as most men who
use the term) that he was in the habit of
associating with better men than 1. 1t
made me wonder to hear this man, who
seemed fit only to associate with jail-birds,
speak to me with so much arrogant assump-
ton. I could have driven him from the
spot, and taken possession of the fire, but
it was his, and l did not care to commit an
injustice.
"Three months afterwards l saw this
man hanged Tor murder. And yet he
deemed me unfit company.
"Now and then it happened that an
artist, struck by my figure, would stop
and invite me to his studio. / allowed
myself to be used in that way-having
served my apprenticeship in Mauvain's
service-for it became my principal means
of gaining livelihood. l found myself
sometimes side by side with naked beauty
i, with my hairy skin exposed, in con-
tact with beauty's fairer presentment. A
rare contrast, and beauty regarded me
with inward aversion, being compelled,
Wien we posed for nymph and satyr, to
look into my ugly face with eyes of love.
Not seldom l shared my gains with these
fair molds, for beauty was easy to pick
up, and its price was low; the world is
full of flowers. 1 was not so common a
creature, and 1 exacted high terms. A
day in studio has often provided me with
food for month.
was sitting by myself in the public room
of house of accommodation, man en-
tered and beckoned me out.
"'You came into the town this evening,
he said.
al did, 1 replied.
by the eastern road!
"'You are right.
You are the man. l cannot be mis-
taken.
SO Not easily. There is only one of me.
"He looked at me with peculiar smile
My master wishes to see you.
"' Who is your masterf'
"' A rich man.
"sDoes he know me
"' He caught glimpse of you thi:
evening as he rode past in his carriage
"'I have some of its mud upon me-
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