, 1880-12-12

wretcbc4 conviction. / hate tho name-tt II
simply awful; and feel y Is part & OF M t,e inta ~
mans name should be Caleb. If over you have
doubt Of anything, Liz, no matter how wide .
It 5nk t fro asspar q
you tind yourself mistaken, 1t WILL be because
there wore invisible rounds below the range o'
yoar utmost dreaf. and atl you Eil M have @ to t u
II this mans name i5 not Caleb. 1t 1s something
worse Then 90 TO the L, but can mnkt
nothing OF it. It fsas lnscrntaoic as the SPHINX
to give it expression. Just two little sticks ane
small triangle. Are these symbols, and hnve
they some cabalistie meaning?
Conc to think about it, this is the first time
hnre written you inco came here to live.
am copylst in the el1icc of Lehang s. Morgan
and Mr.. Taft's ICONS arc Just across tho hal
and Mr.. Morgan would be- III love with me il
would let him. But who wants what they car
have. Give me ths pleasures Of the chase
give me something to overcome. lwnut to brenl
down barriers. want to climb into somebody
pen Il just elm" out of one, but don't mcn'
tlon TT. am like breachy ox,-it makes NJ
must jump It.
Lawyers are new revelation to me- From
the nHtura Of their profession, they are secre.
hunt for motives, and trust no one. At least
this is true Of Mr.. Taft. He can no moro com.
prehsnd my frantness than he can fly. I arm I
perfect enigma to him. He continually probes
not exist. He smells dead mems bones, a1lc
means to drag them to the light Of dny. Ou1
part, and answers, dodxes evasons, and all sorts
OF whimsical lies en- mine He Is unconscious
that tho etrongeS point in his social life Is an
!! The knowiesigc hB has OF men aud women has
been gathered from lawsuits. He fights shy OF
The 'softer" sex, and only knows then, in the
wttiess-bo He keeps kind of secret, detect
ivo watch ovor me- and does not suspect that
know every move in his game better than nc
does. Little he dreams that the concealmcntso oi
the wise are open procla1nndons to the foolish.
II look Mt the clock. and Afterward put on my
hat, be is sure have an appointment With some
one. and would bet On its being man. I can
READ alt this, and much more; he is rs open to
me as am shut to him. am glad to be au o,-
1ect of fntest to him on any tertns. and find no
fault with the situation.
have written enough to show that he has nc
ciateS somethIne, perhaps: / hardly AkknS Know
what But tell you. Liz, the cusseducss so APP
parent on the surface Of my kind of women fs
only an etlervesenee, that pprities the current
escape explosion, might pass for reasonably
good woman. However, it matters little what
lznows. And, as for me, have love aud pity:
hate selfishness and hypocrisy, and would like
the privilege OF speaking the ruth. The ncces-
sity Of concealment from the structures of social
enrichment makes me mud. What person, or
number OF persons, have tho right to extort n
ne from nh honest soul2 want to live out the
best there is in me, and the world won't let me
ME do it.
And Mr.. Taft's treatment OF me shows that he
Is Ignorant Of the existence OF such feelings;
and he regards their cnrclcss and whimsical OUT
cropping through my talk lis covering to some
thing l wish to conceal: This phase ct our do
ings pains me, and puts it in my head that am
Up the song tree 3 for ,sn
SHOULDN'T wonder If there were breakers ahead.
rn write again soon. As eTs1 your friead, 80
TAT the time received this letter hnd not
seen Kate Ellis for several years. had writ
ten to her on hearing Of her being In San Fran
cisco. and the foregoing Is THO reply. We Ind
charm OF her society. She was so strong, So
loving, so plying, SO hopeful SO original. and
unconventional. The irreprcssible qunlity OF
which was music and sunshine, with touch Of
pathos, would ring through my memory us often
as thought Of her. Her married life had been
Wretched. md She had lost her only child. This
quite crushed her for time; but the years had
brought healing, and Kate was herself again.
It was only a short time until I received her
DEAR L1zzIE: How good you are to write 1ne
90 SOON aud how you tl2 write. II know any
fhins about r yon Wy make Your ark in
talk Of obstacles? What is an obstacle but
To climb over? One goes to sleep on
81, smooth Goth , road So much foE that nonsense.
know that q failure fs just door shut In your
face; sotne other persons door ut thnt. When
You ~ reach yonr own door, it will be open to you.
things. Read Emerson; como up into tho over
life, and discard both hope and fear.
SO much fos ,ta bard sense: ,+ And @ n1W, Presto
vnnitics, and, prominent III that train, myself.
anvo been getting paler every day since tame
If ten cents IN 1ooge-how Do You spell it?-
r-u-g-c r-u-s-h-o2-r-o-g-u-e? Well, tuke
rour choice Of these spells, and If you don't get
he right one it is your bad spelling, mt minc-
ff14 114A and 1u1t
ny looking-glass greater attraction than ever.
OH, HAVE THOUGHT! Quicksilver is d lit
lo world by itself, and rcvolves on its own axis.
quicksilver mauo into mirrors dcr4aEds moro
quicksilver made into yermilion: and vermifon
demands more mirrors. Here is perpetual 1no-
ion ut last, turning on the pivot of woman's
7anity, and promising to endure forever.
But, to so back before this last world was dis
covered, II am half US handsome as I think
IN, don't see how Mr.. Taft can resist me.
Now, listen to this description: bly hair is Il
ovely auburn. ! assisted 1t in Its trnllsmogri-
icndon from its original mud color by little
preparation known to the Initiated. It Is cut OF
m my "alabaster brow. My lovely eyes, SO
oft and yet so bright. so liquid in their light,
IKE stars TINT gem the night, look out from be-
rs of a poodle dog. My features, though
somewhat Irregular, har,nonizc as u Whole, and
ne result stands before you,-a perfect crca-
ion, nu unexccptiouAble piece Of lOvc1iness, n
nrneo struck whole from the great divine source
# beauty So much for me.
NOW, II people Cuunut see now OeaQIlrui al1
Is their loss, not mine- Beauty is In the eye
4 the bcholder"; and IL the bcholder is blind.
Focs that nanr tho fuct? Therefore, 1 warn you
Nth which you greet this description. madam,
est you fix upon yourself the lmputauon,- :!
euoid of taste.
stopped this letter here yesterday, for an |
ccident happened to my darling. No.-a dar- !
Ing, though not mine. He slipped On the steps |
nd spraiued his ankle. It Is HI awful sprnin,- !
fmosr frncture. heard his quick step past |
~ door: then heard him fall and ran to him. |
1e was holding on to the banfsters, trying to !
ct up stairs when / saw him. ! maelc swoop |
ownward, like hawk on June bug, and tllt''
lose by him. He smiled when be saw me, and ]
$ caught him about the waist he laid his arm
Tut it was no use; he could not bear any weight !
q the injured limb, and had to coli help and !
ave him carried up to his room. His pain WAS |
ntolcrable. In spite Of his evident self. Control
he Rroans trcmblcd through his white lips. My |
cart was torn at the sight I sent for doctor, |
nd then l took oil his shoe and stocking, and !
rcsscd and chnfed his delicate white foot and
rakle,-how lovingly and tcnderly he may never
nov. Dut It did him good: his face relaxed
nd his breath came easier.
Say, Liz, don't believe he wears more than
o. shoes. wear No. myself, though never |
wned it before. The two things have lied !
erversity nre ~iny age and the Size OF my feet, |
nd don't believe It is in tho power Of the
ospel to save me on these points. There is no
oubt but the first thing shall 10 when en-
r the next world will be to order pair OF
loes too small for me. and exchange them
ith the under-clerk surrcptitiousiy. Now, /
ways hated small feet IN men. until I saw