The morning star and Catholic messenger., 1879-01-12

looked into heaven, how angry 1 felt at on,
poPes and our emperor, that they would not &c
knowledge him es their Father, the man or
! whose forehead the seal of his heavenly mis-
sion seemed stampedi'
~ had my hands and my bosom foil OF
| orange blossoms, and without thinking OF the
| consequences strewed the flowers before bin
| in his path, and then knet at his feet. oio
not know what / was abont 4; it seemed tc
me could not do otherwise than as did"
| Continue continue"
"He looked at me and smiled. What q
smile bot what an emotion for me, when ne
| fret raised his hand to bless me, and then for
Mary 1 stood up, stepped on one side, but
1t was like dream, as if had been In an
other world"
'Grandmanma said nothing; but amt Pei
agia, overpowered with rage, pulled me back
ward and forward, used coarse expressions
regarding my mother, scoided me for my bad
ways, my Polish sympath et. and know not
what. The Others were much discom posed,
aud the trip was spoiled for everybody.
Louisa Baron tad remained at home my
first act was, naturally, when saw her, to tell
her everything. .IShel lwi 8 frightened, and begged
me to be m ore prudent; bat was indignant at
the bad treatment had received. and, nerved
by ny meeting with the Pope, resolved to
become a Catholic at any hazard. On the fol-
lowing morning l went with Louisa to her
father confessor, and after q short probation he
received me into the Church."
90 Natalie! then you returned to the relt-
gion of your mother F.! Ny God. how shall
be able to thank Thee sufficiently! Aud what
nextf"
'Louisa Baron wos subjected to strict ex-
animation. She concealed the step had Sc.
cretiy taken, but it was enough that she had
infused such thoughts in my head. and she was
sent away. Taking leave of her increased my
sickness to such degree that was obliged
to spend the winter ut Nice, and the doctor
positively forbade my returning to Russia
again. Grardmamma and aunt went to st.
Petersburg, and 1 remained with Madame
Monsters and the EeryaDt3 1t l!S.'
"Aud your Conversionf" 7"
They had noticed nothing. Madame Mons
tiers let's 90 where like to church. |
don't know what confession abe belongs TO,
"D>nr Natalie rerose yourself a little ; you
are 1ite tired aOd hoaIs5."
Tomorrow l will tell yon the rest have
related the principal events
On the folio wing day Natalie's health was
much wrose, and il was some days before she
could coptinre her narrative which she did
as fol!o~s.:
~ told You that remained in Italy with
Madame Moustiecs; yoa may Imagine how
weary wa,: / was not really sick, but very
weak and melancholy. Had Inot found con-
ISOLATION in religion and in the letters of my
good Louisa L must have slnk. regularly
fulfilled my duties as a Catholic; and it so hop
peuGd that Russian family in the ueigSbor'
hood perceived it and let my father knoT.
l told you that papa was overladen with WORK,
paid 10 further attention to the lett5r, but
when grendmamma read it she fe'l into vic.
lent passion, and thought it worth the trouble
to travel all that long way from st. Peters
burg to Nice to question M about IT,"
Poor child -
No, not poor was strong through my
Faith; stood my ground against my grand
mamms, although her reproaohet were terri
BILE; but when she threatened me with my
father, who, she sid, knew nothing ef it as
yet, and who would punish me for my disobe
fhn, fAlI n.Nfo toni of 2 ha on
and lay several days without consciouspess.'
The cruel womsn!' and Louisa pressed her
daughter psssionately to her heart, ss If she
would protect her against everyone who cswe
uear her.
Bat your father did not iIl-treat yo7. did
he. N&talef He is not so degenerate as that
No. / have not seen my father since
took leave of him in st. Petersburg aud bis
letters. though they arc short, are milder and
more tender ever aince my sickueas brings me
NJ arer and neater t. myRrave. He is 'ming
to BEE me- soon as be eau get away, but
tremble before him"
Does he know nothing of the stsp you
have taken Z"
"Grandm ANNA says uot,-5utI found a part
of a letter that she received at Nice aud tore
asunder in passion. There. read it; al
weys keep it in my letter pocket"
Louisa took the fragment and read:
mo: is it not bad enough that my domestic
happiness has been sacrificed to your fanatical
ambition. / have fulfilled your will thrown
myself into politics. battered the Emperor,
only have refused to obey you in: that one
shall ever refose. NatAlie's act is the punish
ment receive for breaking my word. prom
ised Lodoiska, before marriage. that all our
children should be brought mp Catholics God
has avenged Himself, and. without tho assist:
apce of her mother, my daughter has turned
her back on tho orthodox creed. Do not set
any restraint os her oous ,ience Wheu SEQ
her again. t6en--"
'Ther--- , hat then, Maryf What then :"
"Compose yours IF, Natalie. God will oome
to your ussistance."
DO you understand now why 1 am so
willing to dio,-why am 30 attracted to Your
selfi saw you and your sister in the Catho.
lie Church, for had continued to go there.
Tuay took me away from Italy ana cent me
into Protestant land, 10 order to deprive me
If every chance of fclfllioE my C5r'st'Nn du-
ties; bat God is everywhere in all churches
and chepss Blt it must bs Sour care, hsrS:
sao .oTdd d. BY oGT aGfaGS Holy churoh c S
"B, cay" sobbed toos', Ma ~Na'ais, poor
lfe be 80 disturbed why may not caery 700
away to o country far from here where no one
knows us, aud where--'
INV mother dwells I"