The Louisiana Democrat. [volume] (Alexandria, La.) 1845-1918, 1879-03-26
ALEXANDRIA, La WEDNESDAY, MARCH 26, 1879.

that I should guard myself against.
my own family? In my better sen
ses I would not touch Ito harm one
hair Of their sweet heads. l have
my senses tonight and am looking
eternity in the face. cannot think
I shall be punished. God gave me
life; l go back to him, If not pure, at
least not altogether dedled. | am
sitting in my room pondering upon
the awful deed, awaiting the tragic
instant. Mine is wretched soul
that has been wounded In the strug-.
gle. Thoughts Of home and Of the
loved ones there come over me as
white. capped breakers over a barren.
coast. 4
I cannot endure the torture. ]
saw the sun 60 down last night, and
its declining rays seemed TO reach ,
out tome pleading, asifto draw.sme
hack TO the hrWest, where those
that love ms live. But "my soul
from out the shadow that lies float
Iiug.on the floor, shall be. lifted nev
termore.iY' This malady l,asvno cure.
iIt bas become a part ofmy very be-.
ing, and would lead me into murder
in less than 9 week. Are you 4
father, and have you children2a Do
you 'whatitris to feel the presence of
|loyep Pity me! Once more to
caSsh the childish pra.tle Of ny dar..
ling litsle boy; TO- hear him call NE
',papa,' aIto pfessihis chubby face to
mite and gaze. into his luminous
eyes and see and feel his love. You,
who, are stronger, who have, never
Is a
had an injury, who are champions Of
life's great battlefield, Iclaim your
commiseration. .ssia5S U sialae
! am writing this not to elicit
public sympathy pr to crafty the
idleoand curious.TaI write, for my
children, and Task. the press to be
as generous as possible difusine
This intelligence. Is IS s1's
IWant,them to know, when they
| grow up, that their poor father, new
er got thislmalaly through inherit
lance. ! do not tllipk il could 3.
trans transmitted, Ny, father, IS liyips
near Rochester, New York. where. !
have two sisters with families. III
1856 Twas raised to the sublime iile
gree 81 4 Master NJ ason, in Dawsoal
Ledge Lodge, No. l6, Washington, D. 2
fahaye always had great Idye,for5 thu
Forder, but, like everything elseaI el
or loved, it TOP has 50 aered' in conse
EqDence Of my nalady.. .lf'' -
|y1 do, not know that I have mad
myself intelligible in this but H..
shall have shielded my little chill
|arsn-those sweet buds Of promis'
trfrom The blight Of hereditar,
taint,s the. writing will, not have beer
finsvainga.is i.;s.3T o3 tslai4 l,aldeait
F T illiavcF been married four years
land these have been the most pre-
eious years, Of my life they hav'
fbeen fulliofall othatis, good. !, Goo
bless her my sweettwife. She vii
! not survive me long. Z II she has no
already passed beyond the pale d
time, this intelligence viii Unite u,
LIN Che lie to Come 5i # there be sucl
a condition. T hope there Is. !
This be tie end Of all here, then v,
live, 70 regret 4 hope ID the life i,
come. ~ 8 81. .5"'s' -"
4 We all hasy,ss, this hope. These i,
not a soul that hath life that doe!
not live forr something better. d
YOU You believe In ii extinction? ~ Asl
your senses il they be Wiling to g,
out and know Z no more Of that indni
tude that surrounds an nature. Cal
we w, look up 3 to the stars above, cal
| we 60 down into the depths and ia.
we are only earthly, we have n
:fhigher destinyp We belong to Al
order that hinges on eternity. W
are treading upon chords that Vi
lbtate throughout the realms Of space
1 This i, NY belief. We go on to Ii
greater problems. The same = han
THAT fashioned US WIN shape 81,
/ destiny. In going out I WISH VI
Hast rays j Of my lamp 70 fall upo
those who believe not, Your frient
j !. '@ HOOP AIsroN.
], 2. s.-This will be published
the city papers, and some hin
j friend will see that copies reach th