Ellsworth American. [volume] (Ellsworth, Me.) 1855-current, 1879-06-26

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we're open. could see everything around
me. I could hear as well rs ever. my mind
was clear and perfectly tranquil. was
neither frightened nor agitated. nor aux
ious, nor. / must confess. wa, impressed
with any peculiar solemnity attaching TO
the occasion. Perhaps this was owing TO
my habitual matier-of-fact disposition. !
seemed to my self just AS complete without
any arms and legs as when had them.
Little by little lost my body, aud with
equal Indifference. Whether my heart
ceased TO beat and my lungs to breath as
this time cannot tell you. for had no
means OF knowing, but IL they had did not
seem TO miss them. Soon was gone up TO
my neck. Then. and not till then. my sen
ses began to grow din. First. my sight,
no, as by the closing OF my eyes. bot OBJ
jccts disappeared, leaving only the impress
sion OF light upon the eye; then that. too.
faded. and finally no consciousness OF the
organ remained. Ny bearing WAS still with
me, or | with IL. whichever you prefer 10
say. Soon II. too. lett me. Head. face,
body. senses. all seemed goue-every thing
except a feeling Of weight In my tongue.
and a round spot In the back OF my head
where l had previously felt the blow. Then
my tongue went. and the round spot was
all thai was left, yet this seemed just as ab-
solutely and completely me as ever my
whole body had been
This state continued apparently long
while, dnriug which remember wondering
what DR.. ). would say when he saw me.
hoping he would not meet with any annoy
snce abou, his share of the transaction.
A. to anxiety about worldly or any other
Affairs. fear for the future, memory instan-
taneously fiasbing before me the events OF
nv whole life down TO the minutcst psr,ic
nlars-as We are told II sometimes does
had no such experience, and admit
cannot now contemplate the state ! was
then 10 with anything like the composuse
felt at the time. though distinctly thought
TO myself: This certainly u the last,
vet II WAS with something OF relief st It,
being so well over
Even that consciousness OF existence
went. and there was nolhing In place OF /;
Tor know not ho~ long The whole affair
from the frst injection OF the morphine 30
the complete loss OF senslbiity. seemed u
me to last some five or six hours; but. OF
course. cannot b. sure that AN right. as
had nothing TO measure time by except
my own sensations.
The next thing have any idea IL was
the feeling OF external warmth Applled {"
my cold body. This | felt all over me a,
once. Then came a terrible struggle with
IN me. bot IN which seemed 10 have o.
~iil-lt was probably the frst a,tenp o.
the involuntary organs To commence thrif
work again. IL was very distressing, snd
II bad known how to get away from tt
would have done -. At iasi ! became
aware OF people moving about mc aud o!
warm sunshine around me. Win a tCruar
efor, ! opened my eyes and saw where
was-oni on the verandah, upon which INV
own room opened. With the warm morning
snn aud fresh breeze pouring their bench
cient influences upon me.
Poor dear Ellie. was by my side. no,
making the "horri6te iuss" had supposed
she would. but. whit. and silent, .igorou,-
iy rubbing me a. u her own life depended
on Il. while the tall. cornstaiA Gsure of ID.
s was lowering over the. pertormitg
som. most extraordinary anticS, which
Was afterward Informed were the most at
proved artificial methods OF restoring re
spiration. drew feeble. gasplng Sigh
Water. Doctor. water" cried Eihc,
"he Is alive. Dash it over his head aud
neck" She ralsed me la her arms a. she
spoke. turning my face To the breeze.
think | should have choked but Tor that
cool wind blowing ovct me. dash Of
cold water made me draw long, deep
breath, and set heart and lungs At tLelr reg
ular work again. SO came 10, rs peo-
pie call IL. and a very disagreeahlc process
IL is-much more so than going OF. ri
may judge by my own experience Of the
two.
was very III all that day; as weak as a
little child. and for days | conld not walk
across the room without staggering Ike
drunken man. BY degrees l got quite over
it. but think shall carry with me TO my
grave the horrible Impression of what
suffered in coming back to hie.
Ii seems Effie come to my room In the
morning To see why did not come 10
breakfast and found me lying on the bed
cold. and apparently quite lifeless. sup
pose, In fact. must have looked very ter
ribly, and really dead, for can never ge,
her TO talk abou, Ii. The poor little ~om-
an. when l force the subject upon her,
cries: Don't, dont. | never thought 10
have seen that sight and lived 10 talk With
you abopt It," and she grows so white sm
forced 20 give II up.
DIR. =. says when lie irst saw me he Ger
tainly thought that | was dead. 1 believe
he has never since prescribed the hy poder-
mic use Of morphine.