, 1879-08-16

noOR o1 lilo ~ MD. as nearly ~ Gatt tn con-
illusions my experience has forced upon ms, and
ncrl,ap. thereby present ono phase of thia ut,ca-
t!on Ices common than some OF the other phases
OF thu aatne, + G.. whelc admiration and respect
arc separated from loSn aud found Inadequate
To talk OF myself, let mo saY this: am man
Ut middle ago, or less, mud liavo been married
and parted under tho following circumstances:
a. !t!e are Of q met young lady. aged 10
was by t,.ctn. apparently, selected as. a match
had heard much ot her beauty, vii, AMI araecs,
nnd waa prepared to find something rather ST.
inakc myselt agreeable @ when found ,he stories
OF hrr vel sustained BY facts. An attaclltncnt
tptlnE up between us, warm and hoNcst' an.l
we became littlo worl1 to oussctFrs lot
TING. The wnlks, talks, ridcF. 4fi rowtngs We
had enabled oblivion to scttle on tl,c whole
world. and VIC we're not lu It nor 81 u. I1sne
passed. on: formally asked an.s obtained me
consent OF her parents IL our unt,tl, AMI Wae
locked upon In something }ike The 'ignt o. son'
All things were understood and satisfactory,
and, although the wet..il,Igday had not been ap~
pointed, We agreed I~t It should sooll be;
t t1nsh trs eae ees sh@s II" b.st Il % 81 nons sTn
accident CHANGED to look 10 the lady's sleeping
apartment one Sunday ai about 1 o'clock 2. M,
and fotlnh 1t in The drcst confusion. Nv ro-
lnantc ilcas received little Shock but soon
reasoned tt away, coillurlnE up ufl sorts o9
cn,,sc4 thai might ,ayo made tic room thus
temporarily.
However did not entirely forget the picture,
but kept sharp lookout, afsd soon learned TINT
it wns common thing Tor her 10 allow tndo-
cnse to obtain the upper hand In that manner.
THE c,ued INF artior to aome extent; ihat Is,
wss compelled to acknowledge To myself that
perfection llni been altered, Nsltt hgre was a
law. begun to paint pictures OF homo Tor
tile future with The romance all gone, lore try
ng to live as tho companion OF disorder aud ua-
cleanliness, nml thy more | painted tho more
unnyittng tl!c result. }et It did nut secm o SUI
!fclent cause for oreact, OF my word (for be It
known that in my suit for tho lady's t1anl had
mt fnadcany stluulatfons respecting gIleantinosB}.
We'll. cloud No. csme. 4 ball was to bo
giycn-tan miles nway-and / dtd not present
lnyscf with horse and cutter to take her to u,
for the renson TINT nv duties made It hard for
tue to get away long enough, a,nl, ant-wclt,
perhaps more bccatse | had not the ready
money With which to dcfray Inc expense mud
would not 10 on "pro1n,se to pay.'' cx.
piatned all n lew days afterward In the frankest
manner, giytl.g "a q reason that It was m iul-
prudent thing 10 run In debt for pleasures. Il
was moor young tIlar, cast upon INV own re-
SOURCES at u years Of aze,. and had mY owl,
education to acquire.) she chi.!cd ma for mr.
negligence, mud accused nc of not caring for
her, since I would not do ''thnt n.uch" to
pcAse her: but rs It was then too late OF course
could uut mend tl,e matter. 1t was now her
turn to bo cutti, mud when {cloud No. ~ week
or two later an uld-t!mD beau returned shu begun
flirting with him, md seemcd to lind much
plelsura Ia lis company. l sought an expiana-
tion, and amid flood Of tears she told nie she
fcared sllc Vas mistaken when sho thought shs
loved me. l would not demand Of her the ful-
ilIlment vi l,er promises, so accepted the loss
as best l cou1d-in fact, quite readily at the
| tine. went away. continued IN nctlvc busI-
1sEss, buL BECAME very lonesome and miserable.
The blow That Mt .brst seemed 80 casy tn bear
| gathered strength as cach recol!ceteh scrap Of
past tofy descended md bec"'"e indeed heavy
| Weli. right at this time. while was. as "Pets
Jones y would say, considerably sElueit up
lllir,' BECAME ast inmate of q private boa.{l-
tng-housc, over which q .Tcrttablc gentus Of
housekeeping, presided. Tl'c hosts daughter
ever known, a.nl withal Us Ecutlc, swctt-tcn-
| rGrea, nnu joyous "a mortal we'll could be-
Everything she dill aud said seemed superior.
ndi1llrrtt her from tho FIRST. and, III ttr mental
snon learned ts'at SHE was situated nearly like
,nynelF, having II short time bpiurc dtscarticsi a
young doetur tto whom ahe ilad been engaged
about two 3ycars) because Of drunkenacss, 1t
frankncss, urd tympathT lctweeu US became
still greater through M accident to my
right fnnt, whereby ] was contlnud to the house
for few weeks. During the time OF NV
her thouclltfnlnc.s mud care. Size would nriao
| III tue night to bring me- such things na sho
thought would prng relief or comfart. We'll,
slilfIcB It to hay that. when Taa myself o.aln.
Iuf AtHl TIAtkllk5C MeEE uflU0ufl{JGu,
reasoned with 1nyse!f that hcro was 4 girl
worth gatning,-one who would make home
| what it should be and slicd sunshine eYcrS-
where. l sought llcr hand, anl. three months
from our first meeting, VIC were married. We
commenced housekccpng. Hild for a tlne were
ns happy as We could well he, but In the course
Of fcw months things begun to change. ami,
although the fa1nc care wHs cxercfaed to mako
the home plcasnnt and inviting, the cortliaisY Of
nur daily intercourse beeatne less ant! ess. until,
IN the course Of time. 1t WAS replaced nv sort
| OF reserve. 'ltno v0rc on, md We became aware
tint bnmcthlng must be WRONG.
We tried to discover tltc cause Of 1lle NUT ual
feeling, hut could mt reach aay dcnDfto restIts
Our meetings aild pnrt!nEs were those Of a
brother and sister. Or Of two warm mnIo friends.
Duty seemed to be all TINT bound ua tors'hcr
as man ai'l vile, aud, IN spite OF study or desire
to ho mutually agreeable, tho soul was being
| chilled by the quiet tnouatoi,Y. At last we be.
ran to runfeF 0bout the situation and the ulcans
for corrccttltg It. We brguu TO ask ourselves
| mud cueb other what to do thAt would promise
to tlispel tic endless !0ncness, and agreed 70
purt: but when VIC catne to put our ideas intn
execution wc changed our ulfntlB and condemned
~ folly the noltai tint VIC could not bo happy
tslnco we very seldom disagreed, never serious,
iy}. We took 4 new resolve, tttcsl to cheer our.
selves with the thoughts that VIC could over
come all difficulties, mud commenced aneW, but
only to lind the sanlo blight on our hopes.
| We'll. to 8hnsscn tho story, lori, ven years
We lived the satlc life, md during That tltno es.
sarel to part three Or four times, but cacl, time
gayc It uj,, until Mt last VIC bctamc positively
morbid III our Tendencies, nnd gc!t TINT 8uuc.
ihIns innst bu done. We rcsolvctl slscn to part
temporarily l,ld thereby learn our needs better.
We did 50, md stipulated tu time rs one year.
| Tic year Inns passcd aEu s!x mouths at,.lea tC
It, MID, although nsn living tte life OF home
less bachelor, Gettln!! onlv such comforts a.
GRO paid for, I'M infinitely moro happy that
while | was under .l.e cars Of .one OF tho best
women | ever know. Snu Is also contented Il
remain as SHE !s aid In Aer letters to lna {whtct