Shenandoah herald. [volume] (Woodstock, Va.) 1865-1974, 1879-05-07

too. for he was almost unhappy. shifting
around his masters chair in the most
melancholy manner.
Nv plate. for the first time since my
marriage. was empty. "a sat down to
breakfast. tor my husband. who was an
earl, riser. always had little bouquet
to greet me with every morning; fre-
quen,ly l forgot all about 1t. and lefi it
to be put mo water by the servant !;
this morning would have treasured II
most carefully if he had gathered it.
After breakfast determined TO rouse
myselt and 90 and visit some OF the
poor people in the village, so l filled
nv basket with some little delicacies
for the sick and set out.
Wherever / wenIit was the same sto'
ry. All held forth my husbands good
ness and kindness. for all had been
helped by him in some way or Other
and all loved and respected him. AS /
listened with burning cheeks felt as IT
was the only person on earth who had
treated him with cruel inyratitude, ana
| was the very person whom he hao
most loved and cherished.
At last I went home, tired and SICK
at heart but there vas no one 10 no :
tce | was pale and WON out no one
to get me wine or soup 10 revive me-
M one TO make me lie down and rest.
90 he would have done had he been
there. Oh. how | missed him! was
there ever a oman loved and cared Tor
"a had been? Was there ever irlend
20 grateful? was sure he would never
come back. Why had he gone awa'
And conscience answered, you drove
him; he gave you all he had TO give
and in return you gave him nothing bun
cold looks and unkind word and 80
he left you TO seek love and sympathy
from his mother.'
This thought almost maddened me.
In fancy saw her sitting i'll my place
hv his SIDE. LOVING and caressing him as
7 had The best right to love and caresS
him. I pictured ber receiving tenderi>
the little loving acts had received so
codly, aud how l was seized WIN a
icalous.anoer agams her. mentally
accused her Of estranging my husband
from, me and of trying to win his love
from me, as though his heart was not
large enough for both of us.
When Maud arrived in the afternoon
T treated her with a long TRADE oil abuse
AGAINST mothers-in law in general ana
nv own in particular. | vented all the
anger really felt against myself on the
innocent Mrs. Cartwright.
WHY. Ntll,.' said Maud, i thought
YOU liked Mrs. Cartwright so much, and
thought her so nice, tlat you even want
ed her TO live with you. only YOUR hus-
band. very properly as mamma says
objected
so did l answered; hut did not
know then that she would ever eniice
my husband away from ms IN this way
or Of course. | should meyer have liked
her.
Really. Nell. you are very hard on
the moor woman; for. as l understand
Mr.. Cartwright went 10 her Of his own
,ree will b cause she was not well aud
he thought his company would do her
good said Maud.
Nonsense l am sure he would have
never have left me alone. unless she had
nut him up to it, I replied rather cross
| ly.
The truth is. Nelly. you are so mucn
in love with your husband that you are
even Jealous of his mother; and you are
making Yourself miserable about noth'
inc. WHY. Mr. Cartwright will be back
in n fortnight. and dare say you VIII
GET a letter from him every day /; &c
cheer up. and let us 60 for a drive said
Maud.
I agreed 10 this plan. and giving Maud
the reius. lay back and thought OF hel
words. Was she right after all Was
I ;ealouss Was really, as Maud says
in love with my husbands Had 1 only
found it out now wheu | was deprived
I Of his company! Was this the reason
that I could do nothing but inwsrdly
rcproach m,self for my conduct to him
And the longer l thought the more con
yiuced | became that Maud was right
that l was Jealous and that l was ii
love, as she called it.
This knowledge did not make me hap
pier. for no sooner knew it than
lonred TO tell him. and make up. so las
as could for all of my former cruelty
for could call my conduct BY no mild
er word. l passed sleepless night
and as lay awake | composed variou
letters of confession, which L resoive'
} to send the following day ; but whcl
morning came my pride stepped in an
[ began 10 feel it would be impossible
TO write, and settled down to wait unit
/ nv husband came home and then tel
him how his absence had altered me.
l got up early and walked out to NEE
The postman, 81 oanxious was to get
letter from him it was the first 1 ha'
ever received from him since our mar
riaye and no girl was ever 80 anxiou
for or so pleased with her first loye'lette
, as was over this. 71 "a ft
! IL was long letter. iuil Of loyin
. messages and terms Of endearInent. al
q 1t 80, nan "a fha henri for the