The People's vindicator. [volume] (Natchitoches, La.) 1874-1883, 1879-12-06
MY OWN SUICIDE.
A Very French story.

! bad resolved to kill myself; there
was no longer any doubt that Amelia
was faithless to me.
Let me be sure about TVS it
Amelia her name was? 70 think
that she once held my life, as it were,
III her little hand, and can't recol.
iect, 70 save my soul, what her name
Was.
Anyhow, whoever she had proved
false to me, and. l was very young
at the time, had promptly come to
the resolution to destroy myself.
My first intention was to go and blow
out my brains all over her stair Ca
pct, but then / reflected that every
one would know that Henrietta
come to think OF it, her name was
Henrietta had infatuated me and
turned my head. NO." said l to
myself, mo scandal, no publicity
Let mo initiate the wounded stag,
which, seeking to hide its fatal hurt,
Oetakes itself to the most secret
,hickets there to perish far from all
human eyes"
II.
In this elegiac disposition I took
the 30 tram for Melun, which set
the down just at dusk within u few
steps Of the Golden Lion, u very
Well kept inn with clean beds aud d
capital table.
what will Monsieur have for sup.
PERI" said u charming iettle mis-.
tress.
"NOthiDg-supper would be a
mOckery. Show me to my tOmb-my
room. l mean."
/ retired to my couch, but not to
sleep In my fevered dream l BIZ
held Victoria-I am confident it was
Victoria after all-passing, leaning
upon the arm Of my hateu rival. /
clutched ma0ly at his throat and
seized-the iron railing Of the bed.
stead, or the marble slab OF the lit.
tie table by my bedstead. / rose IN.
refreshed, but what matters that
was about to die--ha! la! to die.
Having dressed myself / went In
search Of = rope, You may think
that when q person wants 10 hang
himself nothing Is easier than to tinI
q rope, but had to hunt the hotel
high and low before ! could tind one.
what on earth do you want OF u
rope, Monsieur ?" said the pretty
mistress when finally she found me
one.
With the precious bit OF hemp In
my pocket l took my way towards q
thicket not far from the hotel In q
little wood whose paths were faMil.
lar TO me. There was one lonely and
gloomy cOpse there where I we'll
knew my iifeiess body would swing
for weeks ere it was discovered.
Ill.
Upon the road I thought Of Bertha
Il WIS wrong before; come TO think
OF it, 1t was Bertha--and cursed her
with all the bitterness Of which nv
soul was capab bic. ! then tested nv
cord. 1t was not such an agent Of
selt.destruction as would have
chosen had ! had an assortment
from which to make q selection, It
seemed to me both short and not IN
to my weight. l WAS annoyed. You
cannot tell h0w'a trlfle like That will
affect = persons temper at such q
moment.
A further disappointment was 10
store for me. On arriving At the spot
I had selected ia advance I was ai.a.
greeably surprised to tind some QUE
else there. Au idiyidual, whose
back only l could see, was occupied
In fastening . rope TO the most eli.
pibIe branch OF my tree. H
''Hellol what are you doing there ~
I cited.
He turned round. "What busi.
ness IL 1t Of Yours. any way ?" be
said.
.Tah; don't you think I know
VIA, you intended d0ing2"
'sWsll, aud eupposing l wanted to
haux myself-it y my own iuneral-
suicide, I mesn."
".
Ireasrded him narrowly, He was
. handsome end manly young fellow