The Louisiana Democrat. [volume] (Alexandria, La.) 1845-1918, 1879-03-26

any act tnat would Detfay the syMp
toms. / then married a woman ewor-
thy to be placed upon the very ped
astai Of human excellence. She was
all I desired. She, filed the whole
measure of my soul. She is my
young mother-wife-to-day, and is
looking through tears for the return
of him whose caresses sue has en-
joyed, but who can never, never ems
brace her again. God forbid. I feel
that l am about to take a leap into.
the Beyond that awaits US all, into.
the great mystery ofmysteries, etcr-
nifty. Do sou think 1 fear it2 Last
November the malady assumed ,an5i
other form. I became possessed of
an. impulse to kill my ,friends.l,iI
could hardly resist an Opportunity.
The desire would last but fora mo-
ment and pass away. When i this,
new form Of the disease appeared I
was farming taadlteaching sin lSolado.
County, Cal.,r where my family resi-,
ded. An infant was born to. us tive
months ago. Iiloyed it, was proud
Of IT, Wheniit frst locked upon me
the desire seized, me TO prey apon
it's young life Ny friends seemed
to have been ignorant sof my mental
condition I impaired 1t to- no one,
noteven to myIdarling Wife This
was my fatal error. Had + told! her
contided all to her, things might have
been better, j at least for her and my
sweetchildrens Idle that others
may live.o Do ! fear to die?.s No.
Feeling as / do that i'll lived others
may die by my hand ] lay down my
life with the fortisudea OF a christian
martyr. Ihaye, struggled for months
to keep my hands, of my best friends.
God knows that !, do mot wish y
| have the blood of any fellow creature
upon my hands, Iywould .ratherin'
flict self:pnnishmep than injnre any
felow creature it'd .aali3 30 sar
l. Ihaye not an enemy on. the broad
earth. ] am widely knewn,anl ] de
not think that man is.liying.Yho car
say Ill Of me trulhfully. \ have re
solved upon self destruction. Ions
before this reaches The, Pacific scoas
1 shall have forded the stream o
Time and been resolved into the ele
ments. ! 60, back to nature-to III
great God whose hands gave me- +
the universe 1 80 noteas 2 slave + +
the dungeon, but rather as one Wit
is wiling tos lay bis. life down. 70
another. ale giyeth; his i loyet
sleep."aeI court that Sleep Ais my
thought day and night to sink int
that !slnmber that shall know no MA
king. Would you doaas muchp+
Who would not take bfso own fife "a
ther than that of'hisa wife and child
Those. enc nearest to ne archie ones
(seeka TO destroy under II tAAe ssstrang'
malady. .s9laelGa
+; Ny, history is brief. IhaHe pass
led through more than most men o
Emy age and yet there is Noteworthy
TOT record Was born ii Brownsville
'tMY., in ls44; hadI = colIsgiate, edu
Ecation;i entered the One Hundred
and Eleventh New York Volunteer,
1ine 1862; was taken prisoner at Har
pers Ferry ID the same year, Ate Ate
! being exchangedIwas il the battles
i Gettysburg, where,I ireceiyed the.in
Hurry Stbathas followed meever since
Was transferred to the staff Of Gen
1 Maftindalea while he was Militar,
] Governor. Of the District Of Colum
bia; thence to the War Department
under Samuel Brock, A.~A. g., ant
] finally brought npiin the interior
Department under Harlan. iHsaeq
j ! have written for the press
Been on the editorial corps Of th,
] St. Louie Republican under Mr.
Hyde, whose personal kindness dt'
me lias not been forgotten. Fiv'
years ago I,vaIas, editor Of the Merce'
Tribunes California Have also con
1sributed to The: literary part Of TIL
San Francisco Chronicle oil and ao1
1for. Eve years. Have always don
Ewell By ny contributions TO q,
] press andoieltl that I was fully remu
nerated. 10 am author Ola tyolum
lof. poems 70 be published after N.
DEATH. : @,@ ., s. a.s'.ts 's.'.'