Saint Mary's beacon. [volume] (Leonard Town, Md.) 1867-1983, 1879-07-17


intensity Ike pain IN the feeling, O. il
Q touch, bresih might send me from
such IN extreme down 90 misery. How
unrousciously came % shis loneaume
place, never guessing that here 4 was
10 6nd everything my own life and na-
ture loaged fog in Pnscilla Busns I I
eannot cell when Grst realised thai she
foFIne3 past Of my daily tboagha md
iisine, bit from ~ hssf glance 81 hsr
sha ne#er aeemsd lie anyoue eises ]
ear EN- -Sp Hlssines pictures o. hes
which have photographed themselves
forever on ny mamOsy; onee sitiiag by
she Ere embrOidesing purple sBd eolA
pamsgso c. scme dafk, sosnbes wo0sen
stu, 80 nush On her cheek, the soll
While ksnd aslaing back and forth with
the needle4~a Fieaws9sg n man 10 frame
On his owa hearshaauue. Reaeaspe -
her loom could no more clearly hare
tyPi6ed The perfect union Of lowiy @"
mestic cares end graees; then aeains 90
che comes In fTom school whske sad
tsred. every spark Of suirnstioa gone
from her face.
with seemingly naughty indiaer-
ence which really covers shyness, when
approached On ordinary topses, che
glove and tsrgsts herself in d Peaking Of
higher things. I have % last persuaded
her 10 read German before me, and
though her shyness would hardly silOw
her 20 do e, she was impelled, | am
sure, bya stoical anxiety 90 bs criticised
for Eer own good. Her accent % poor.
% it may veil BE. abe having been lor
the most part her own teacher, but her
enshuaasin and true appreciation Of ev.
cry beauty are enough 10 inspire any.
one.
fhsve givea up the solitary evenings
IN my own room that we're st 6rst 80
delighsfnl. Priscilla, who does not have
the luxury Of = Ere, up stairs. takes her
place every night in the sitting-r0om.
and with only good Mrs. Pickering for
On audience, who il half the time asleep,
We talk tin the butcher, the baker. The
eandIe-stick maker Genes IN from their
pespective haunts at nine o'clock.
She is kind and lrIeEdly 10 me simp.
ly because she u 90 unconscious. With
no society here, no friends who care
for The things she 10 ltted TO appreciate,
believe she 10 some What grateful for
the pleasant hours we have spent Co
gether; they have made . variety In her
moaotonous life. Is that all II must
not, shall not ba NIL. Every gFsia Of
will, every impulse within me are bent
on this one point, TO make her love me.
When with her I am calm and com
posed as she herself. 1 dare not lose
one degree Of eontrol for fear Of frigh-
ten,ng her by the intensity Of my pas
sion. Enough Of rhapsody! Imust do
ss I have begun 10 do toward Tom,
avosd mentioning her name, for il leads
me further than / care 20 60. Poor
Tom! he writes 70 ask why my letters
are 30 short and business-like and why
{ never speak 0f the school-teaehes
who occupied four pages q while ago.
I shall not tell him now. If am 10 be
happy he will know it thea, If ] am not
but cannot provide for that alterns-
tive. For the first time in my life am
hving altogether in the present, with no
thought Of the past that was like .
dream compased with tAis SUBSTANCE of
reality. "a s,-5- sea .r. ,..e.
One week! which had been long
enough 70 carry me through sufficient
Rradalions and revulsions Of ieeling
10 furnish o metaphysician With mate
rial for years Of speculation. Bot the
metsPhys;esi aspect 10 Of no importance
10 noe; can only think Of my real. hu-
man happiness. There has beea q
change 10 my watehful eyes, in Priscilla,
Q shyness in her manner toward me, 40
avoidance of my society. IL cut ne 10
the heart, Tor I was too stupid 20 dream
IL might be anything bot dislike. One
night ] met her On the shore when she
was returning from 0 call on some sick
scholar or indignant parent, and stung 10
the quick by her cool good evening
and evident desire 10 leave me, ] broke
bluntly, even rudeIy into The truth.
She was startled. almost frightened I
believe. TO my accusation that she had
wholly ignored me she had not q word
10 say and then-but even ID I could
recall what Isaid- next 1 would not
write il. I only care % remember that
she yieldedto mY impetuosity and low ned
ed thar she iovedme. Afterthatnod demur
nor obiectiou 70 our love could or can
ever move me. For she has obiections.
serious 0nes. she says, which ske names
with o gravity odly equaied BY the ease
end gayety with which overthrow.
tkem al. :Tn The krst place, said Pris-
ella, Il am not your equal in sosne
points. PeFhaps ! personally may Be,
but our positions In society are 90 ditSer-.
eat Won are rich knew and though
you age free from eng assumption oi
saperiority one eoald tell. IRON your
manner that you afe accustomed 10
what 10 more refined and luxurious in
lie: used Co esfims with siaveT sp0on,
IN faes. aYUef via must Be . woman
fitied to shine in socsety. and / could
Reser. neser I'll the place yea o5er sae.'
At the grave drUPPsag of hes tone here
I am % iubilant. . arrogant In my new
happiness that I laugh scornfuIly u her
weak little aFgumenEs. and sweep them
down with one assertion: Il0ve yOu.s
II iuelndes evefythsng else \ nighf say.
II tells hef. what she i 10 me in eon-
pasisoa With oil ihs rest ef the wOrld.
rhas was hut thsss days agos and !
have made % many opportunities for
seeing her, have . used my right Of
possession in aemanding ffetn her every
spare misuts shs hsss that 10 seems -
II we had belonged 70 one smother tbr
ages, or rather ss If the years when We