, 1879-08-11

LIN, CHICAGO
mads me 40 long for tho drug WAS thnt It eascd
The excessive natpitatton OF my hc1rt, witch az
ter tho accident Developed alsEm!ngly, often
boating ns hioh as 200. Ambition, Loo, had yan
relations, father, mother, nif. Knew moi, md
csred nothing wtaE came. Eood hr VI. Even
doath WAS Viewed sato'cssly. This was when
tried h' Do ,1 Without ~ IT,, the drug Hpv listen:
told yon, an,, Two hours later, if.cr taking sav
two grnins Of mornhino hynsnicrtnicailr, /
would be bouyant And bright, Tres from oil main,
my muscles moving freely. my brain c1ear, To-
e'SGsG Gen. '1,o a V'Tae9ss ses u s dq 70 ss9 no..6s
pcreon. WhiIo in this condition /
wo1id diagnosc patients, perform oper-
a,ss,o,,s ,sn H.. ,nTil wrlto presentations. all IN
effect ot the drug fastct was actually i better
tnau ihan l had ever been before; but SLOWLY
aud surely the e1hilArAting influence would
ladc kind OF Weartnrss would come 0vor inc,
na, sS,ea!s Sre ae''1v1ss v1snSs nty ?5a 5 ad
become victim. to the habit, md onts found 4
out when too late. or course, suffering a. 1
did. sought the remedy nearest al hand, re-
sorted to It constantly. and became 80 far gone
TINT when at length ny friends found II out md
tried 10 aayu Ino NY ease Was hopeless.
YteldlnE To tho cntrcatics of nlY frtends, l
went 10 an Heytun, where they tried to cure ne.
The supply Of tnorphnr was cut oil. after which
could mt arcn get out Of bed. Cold awtats
were followed By roasting and frceziuE Ut inter
walls OF q minute. uni then black vomiting anl
iutease thirst. You won't belicre II, but ftaya
succession, 20 intcnsc tho thtrst, unly 10 throw
1t up aEaiu,-thc wator coming ur as clcur nut
cold as Il was swallowed. My suiEer!ngs wcre.so
great that | hays often wished l could
n ~ nj ftnt1 nj
dure tile sEony. In this condition I
lay for twenty. y.elrht daYs without tasting food
living solely on lhc trtaInE t'oscs Of morphine
twcnty:of them fad consultation At my bed.
side. mas Without apparcnt 1Ite waited ard
worn LII my bones were coln!nE ottt through my
skin. Seemingly unconscious heard every
thing. while my brain was illlctl by hldeuus
fantasies, dead men, graves, ionthsome aid re-
putssa reptiles REovettnE near 10 or aWnrlnfnE
around AtNi crawling all uyss you. The taste of
dead human flesa was IN my mouth, and. ns II
oil TINT was not enough, Ctmmerian datkl,eas
surrounding, covering, euthraifing me, that
turned even tho Light
or HEAVEN iTsELF TO TIE DAHKNEss or HEL1~
At length the DOCTORS concluded that tho on]y
thing 10 10 dono II WIS to live woula be 10
give me d sufllcacncy 0f Tic drug. This decided
MAS i very strong dose, and it, effects wero
similar to the startlng oE d sleatn engine, and
the consequent movement Of machinery con-
aeessd With y. HlthIa = few nlnutes I
Es' sbe to ' speax, ~ ata aA'l ltics a,,i H
gradually CAGE to myself 80 far that ere the
day Was passed had risen from my btd md
MAS moving about. Three days aftcrEar1 bad
well and hearty. OF course the reason OF this
wns tho morphine which was given mo three or
four times day In doses Of four or five grains
at time. Was incurab1e,. ut least the pnJsi.
t.Axt
sums three years ngo !! came to New York and
started in practice, From fifteen to twenty
grains Of Morphtue day seycn years ngo was
necessary to keep me up. Yearly have had to
now I do hot think | could take too much.
ninety. and sometimes Us high as 1uO grains.
"After came to Nav York, Ia desperation
agaIu went 10 the asytusn in Massachusetts,. but
Ills arms md showing. bis breast and ahdomcn(,
hardly a = portion q ny body tlat
l. -, not & 80 pur,stureaS: ,'.;.S These ,. scars
und dropped morphine iu In that way. THAT
was when wAs ns tie nsyium IN Massachusetts,
They had taken Awav my hypcrdcFm!e syrings.
but mauaged to Ect morphine and Injected 1t
ns tell you. know thu terrible, awful. hor-
rble hold II has rot upon me, but am l,elploss:
Sec me aa | am no1,-wretched, worn out, car.
lng for nothing, nn Unsuitable thirst consuming
me,-a1l for the want Of morphine. Nut tint
don't get Bomct but not enough. The craving
amounts Ia nil Insanity. ! wish weEu dcad,-
suythlng TO got away FROM niyeclf. Now I'll
power is 50 BtrouC over mo that hnva lad
several fits, caused BY tic cniotcad want. Tn.
fortunately, must confess, l do not think afu
accountable for my actions or know exactly
what am doing when nm under the inAuenct
Of morphine"
Ono Of the keepers at the Tombs, socaktng Of
DR.. Tyler, saitl: "Poor devil, IN. sorry fol
him; his suferinEs ato too awful to Wit
ness. Every now and then hu rill take
ct, tic most borribte I l1nvo eve'
seen. His body will be coilel up like
balj, perfectly rigid, nt,d ho Will sprog bodily
from the bcd or floor: nor IL 1t posstb(e to keep
him down. His face ut these times becomes
liyid and deathlfke, the Jaws 1rc set, llu mouth
firm md compressed, while through the ttOtf
trlckEea dfsagreeab!c.snclllns froth; tho hnndt
are drawn together in kuot. Thu outy way Ia
ret him ont Of 1t Is BIZ injecting morphine, when
|. be Mill gradually conc to, tho body Wlu lose II.
rictdtty, the itrc its death like pnllor III tl1c
ness, the blood will mount slowly IN waves K
the brain, and IN u short ttme ho will hayo re
covered sufficiently to l1o down and speak.
Dr, Hardy, una OF the visiting physica ns at tht
Totnbs, Informed tho writer that Tyl'sr was
confirmed morphine-taker Of an oiIetniaate dis
position. II consider him perfectly harmless
A. for cure, there might DO q chance for nll1
II i.c wcre sent to como asylum. and kept thct
uDtH the desire had been overcome ] sal
might, for when person gets 80 far Eone Il,
Tyler Is II Is hard to tell whcther tle s.asa cat
be successfully trcated or not"