Evening star. [volume] (Washington, D.C.) 1854-1972, 1879-09-27
B1LEE'S DIARY.
The Highly Seasoned Reflections Of
q Very Sentimental Young Lady.

June i, uoA oUOh q
ring preacher to-day-a home missionary. He
set the whole business before US In new light;
he urged upon us the necessity OF action. II
tithes OF our income, he said. Mr.. Andover
added q few remarks to emphasize the mission
arys, and then the box was passed. OF course 1
ting In the ring Aunt Holyoke left me, but
didn't dare. Afterward Mr.. Andover said II any
one had come to church unprepared, she could
leave her mite in his hands at any time, 10 oe
forwarded for the good cause. told Philip, who
overlook me on the way from church, how
much was interested and how much Wlsned
laughed and pooh hoohed, and called me re-
ngious enthusiast. Mother says she wishes
Philip wouldn't haunt me so much; that since
too poor to marry, and no likelihood Of growing
richer, as his father had Just failed, he ought
not to act as IL belonged TO him still. sup
don't want any more chances" don't pc
neve / shall ever marry now; neither will
Philip; and why should we not be friends? Old
Mrs. Abernethy told me, directly after the en-
gagement was of, that she always knew Philip
Devereaux was selfish and mercenary. l should
have given her piece of my mind II she hadn't
hadn't meant It kindly. How unhappy was
when Nell Williams got angry with me, and said
she didn't believe that Philip ever meant to
marry me, and would never marry any girl with
out fortune! That ended our friendship.
Thursday .-Philip Is going away! 1t is like a
thunder bolt. He Is going into business In New
1OTK. feTUdlS ITO Will Ulth6 d fortune, VINO
knows? Not that care for money. Mr. Ando-
yer brought me book to read to mother and a
bunch OF scarlet columblnes How wish she
could see d me rlcn color d ana grace; told MIN
missions, and wished there was something l
could do for the poor people the Rev. Mr. Ger
marked out for you," he said. .'You are eyes to
the blind, and sunshine to those who sit in
shadow" | always think Mr.. Andover is a
plain man till he smiles.
q had mo rnol
by at the gate last night, under the stars. He Is
going to write often. 1t Is horribly lonesome
to-day; and what would lifetime be without
him! I've beguiied myself thinking over plan
for raising money for the home missions. I've
sold Aunt Holyokes ring. 1t was a pretty ri ~,
but the jeweler only gave me two dollars for It,
with which have bought a lottery ticket. 1t
doesn't draw till the 1st OF July, and thea how
proud should be to take thousand dollars
over to the parsonage for the cause, and how
surprised Mr.. Andover would be,
Wednesday.-very dull. Read paradise
Lost to mother.
Thursday, 2o.-Mr. Andover called; asked If
] had heard from Mr.. DevereauX. I'm afraid
something has happened to him.
June 30.-A short but delightful letter from
Philip. He Is too busy to write much or often.
Mr.. Andover is going to give me German les
sons.
July 5.-The lottery ticket drew nothing. l
could have cried. i built so many castles. The
very next number to mine drew five hundred
dollars. l painted little horseshoe-German
forget me-nots on gold ground-and Mr.. Ash
ley, the stattoner, sold 1t for me for five dollars.
was thunder-struck. Who could have thought
1t worth so much? l mean to buy ticket in
the Royal Havana Lottery this time. Perhaps
this is the beginning of luck.
July 11.-Wrote to Philip. Mr.. Andover came
to give me a German lesson, and afterWard read
to mother and me from the German authors. |
told him, just as he was leaving, that had
heard from Philip because he asked before
perhaps he thinks I'm wanting in proper spirit,
to correspond with Philip since our eng agement
is broken.
August.-Philip is so busy that he can't find
time TO write often. I've had only three letters
since he left, but he says that mine make sun
shine In shady place for him. Squire Cuts
who Is visiting at Coney Island met Philip there
at hop. "Im glad the poor fellow has some
diversions" ! said, but was very sorry she
mentioned it before MIR. Andover and mother.
August 11.-Such weather is too splendid to
enjoy alone. Mr.. Andover rowed me up to the
boughs of the trees leaning across from shore to
shore, and the moonlight and stars Sitting
through, and painting weird shadows upon the
stu Wated Restng Upon mis- oars ne sang to
seemed Just part OF the moonlight, the smooth
river and the summer. What they were to the
eye his song was TO the ear. wish Philip could
sing.
August 12.-The most astonishing thing has
happened. l can hardly believe it. l have
been IN a state Of supreme excitement ever
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have never been so happy since the day he
told ME he had made up his mind that he was
self1shly standing In my light, and that our en-
gagement must be broken till he should see
his way clear to a fortune. Nothing sed
could change his noble resolve. But now there
Is no longer any need OF separation. His way is
Royal Havana Lottery! Good luck under
horseshoe.
August ls-Mr. Andover came to give me my
lesson. He said / looked as If had heard good
news. l wrote Philip all about it, and how
happy am to know that our days OF separation
are ended-that he must feel it as much his
to slave himself to death, and that though we
will not be very, very rich-not nearly as rich
as Squire Cutts-yet We can live In comfort and
How surprised, how happy he VIII be!
August 14;-Philip has received my good news
I6.1No letter from Philip. Perhaps it is too
early to look for one.
2O-I shall never have the happiness Of ex-
pecting letter from Philip again. Perhaps
am only punished for my selfshness. 1 bought
the lottery ticket, to be sure, in order to benefit
the home missions, but the temptation to bene-
fit Philip and myself was too great. When
drew the prize doubted at the time whether
did not owe 1t all to the home mission but as
had only hoped to draw a thousand dollars at
most for that cause, my ScrupleS were overruled
by selfishness. My religious enthusiasm, as
Philip once called 1t, died out when 1t came into
competition with my own happiness. am pun
iShed, indeed. / was so happy, too, when l
started under Mr.. Andover's convoy for the
church picnic. / had no doubt but Philip was
on his way to meet me and make arrangements
for our marriage, because he had not written.
Perhaps he would be at home waiting for me
when / returned, talking 1t over with mother.
i was SO sure of his love. By and by got tired
strolling In the woods and hunting for maiden
hair fern with Mr.. Andover, and sat down by
some trees a little apart from the others, to
think and enjoy. And presently heard Miss
Anna Cults reading letter aloud to Mrs.
Blair. and her droning voice was hushing me
OF to sleep:
our wedding is fixed for october. wanted to
wait till Christmas, but my lord and master OBJ
jected. Mygown is already ordered Of Worth.
! shall be married in church by Mr.. Andoyer.
Your affectionate niece, ANNETTE CUTS
Was Miss Anne Cults still reading aloud, or
had dreamed this about the wedding and Mr..
Andover? | opened my eyes and saw a little
bird fitting on spray, and Immediately Mrs.
Blair broke the spell by saying: "BleS5 me,
Anne. it's good match for Philip DevereauX,
now isn't 1t? a lucky day for him when he
broke Off with Belle Ford" And l heard no
more; the trees and the bird seemed to swim be-
fore me in a cloud OF mist. | stood up and
steaded myself against bowlder, and Mr.. An
dover came and put my arm In his and took me
home. And this is the end
Philip untrue; Philip the lover OF another! 1t
is unreal. cannot seem to Sraspit.
August PA letter from Philip Devereaux.
After all, ! thought maybe 1t was gossip and