The new Northwest. [volume] (Portland, Or.) 1871-1887, 1878-05-10

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hard earned gold from my hard-earned
and poorly-payiug hushand-ior surely
be had proved worse than dead invest
ment-that woman, who "toiled not
neither did she spin," yet solomon, iu
sll his glory, was arrayed % compare
her; that woman, Tor whose baseness !
/ have no adequate words, took my earn
ings without apereeptible shudder' and
/ fastening her great black eyes upon the
arbiter Of my destiny, made him ten
F fold more her slave than before.
+ You will wonder that, seeing on this,
through the intuiiive knowledge That
God gives 20 ali women, did not then
aud there rush TO my husbands rescue,
aud break the awful spell that bound
him.
did not because 7 could not. I was
stupefed with horror, shame mortifica-
tion, aud the fear that'the general dis
covery aud acknowledgement OF my
husband guilt would bring ngirretrievable
. disgrace upon my children and dishouor
upon myself Then, / have told you
that ! feared my husband; aud God
knows the revereutial love 1 brought
him as a holy sacrament when in my
childish experience I became his wife,
was not dead, and scarcely even slum-
bered.
Though, during his long absence from
Melbourne, bad well nigh wrecked my
ideal selfrespect by a passing fancy for
Rev. Cyrus Suydeuham, and though I
felt as badly self-condemned over this
one brief mental lapse from the strictest
and straightest lire Of rectitude as the
pure 10 heart must ever feel when they
= have met and successfully resisted
temptation, I could not forget that Ger
ald was my husband, the father of my
children, aud the one man Of all Others
for whom I was iu honor bound 90 keep
myself so long as we both should live.
ann not uew-fashioned woman. To
this day ! deprecate. detest, aud utterly
repudiate the "aniuity" doctrines Of GER
tain latter-day reformers, who attempt
10 pallIate and excuse their own dere-
lictions by accusations, no matter how
truthful, against their erriug lords.
Two grr0ngs never did make one right,
and, in my humble Judgment, never
viii. did not, as have said, confront
aud deuuuuce my husband and his evil
genius simply because I could not; and
could not DO it simply because De wa-
my husband, and felt that any such
accusation against him would doubly
react upon my e,faud his children.
F SO, as they arose from the table and
prepared 20 leave the building, ] bowed
my head and stole silently away, with
"a feeling that Gerald's Guilt was my
condemnation also, aud I must conceal
all or perish.
You may ask, good reader, why J see
proper 10 disclose these humiliatina
facts at this time, since I was so anx.
Ious 90 conceal them then.
The adventurous mariner who ha,
guided his vessel through a long-cou.
tinued storm, past rocks aud shoals an,
breakers, striving vigilauily the Will,
20 keep his travelling companions 10
bii-sful ignorance Of the common dan
. ger, does not forget, when The peril i
past, 90 place beacons in the great high
way Of the ocean, as a warming 20 thos
. who may come after him, that happil,
they may steer clear of the dinicultie
that once beset his way. So 7, by th
experience light OF my three-score year
Of trial, hope 10 make life's roadwa.
palmer for those who are 10 come afte
me, even if, in so doing, am compelle
to reveal the suuken crags that wrecke
my happiness.
Iturued a corner and sought uarro'
alley, where I took refuge, like a guilt
creature that seeks to hide from obser
+ walton, behind some biackened adob
, walls, from which The wooden frame
work bad been burned boy the reeeu
coudagation.
. watched my husband and the siren
aud saw them enter nameless TSace q
resort. Once only, on the door-ster
? she paused 90 look up in bis down
turned face. 70 was a look Of triumph
sudden, decisive, and full Of meaning
Q And ] knew that Captain Gerald Grey
{ without money, would heuceforth be Q
g her very different person ffom Captai
s Gerald Grey, with abundance OF cash.
T. Bot, Oh, those cyesg They were Oh
= same had seen in my dreams! The
y were the sameI bad sometimes eucouI
- tered when my own were shutl
: Ab. mei
= 10 was night when I again crossed tl
o bay aud sought the humble abode Of m
Spanish friends, where my ehildre
- were. I was like a wrecked ship wit
rudder and mainmast gone. But VI
/ conscious Of only one impulse. ] ma
d Zee. Ny husband must not find me.
1f How I was TO get away from b
De- vicinity was not yet clear, but decide
T. mat would do it. so, with this res'
be 'u'i"n FIRMLY taken, ! crept into III
I'd temporary pallet, and with my lit
n ones held closely in my arms, I fell inr
D. a deep, refreshing sleep.
ns The sun was shining brightly when
awoke' and pack train, composed Of
long line OF freighted mules, was halt,
a at the door. was accustomed 10 load
re mule trains in the city, for this syste
p Of transportation was about the on
a one the miners had yet adopted; so q
ID presence Of This one awakened no 81