The new Northwest. [volume] (Portland, Or.) 1871-1887, 1878-07-05
VOLUME VIZ.

u IT .A|Aaa NNNNH NJ NNNAAA n ANNHHa A'f .aa a
kiusman, and whom ] detested because
Of bis arrogant and weIl-remembered
declaration that his relatives were not
Of piebeian blood.
/ met my husband with o smile and a
kiss, but my heart ached with appre-
hension. Aud yet be was sober, bis eye
was clear, and bis step steady. Why
did So dread his presence, while 7 was
I also glad 20 see him?
leave this question 10 be answered
+ by the thousands of wives who read this
DER true tale, and who live, as I did,
under q constant uameless aud yet over
+ powering dread. II ia the great here
after the past lives % subjugated women
shall be made transparent 90 The eye of
each beholder. an agony FAR greater and
more enduring than that of Gethsemene
Cand say 81 revereuuy) will be written
/ in scars all over theirsoreiy tried spirits.
All, mel
The crying sin Of the era, Che crown
ing shame of the nation, the everlasting
disgrace OF humanity, is tie conjuga'
=uhjugation which makes a wife, de-
spite her own inclination and enueaty,
aud in the face of common sense aud
human honor, the complete subject Of
the husbands viii. 7 know The hue
and cry that many OF my readers win
raise when they behold this declaration.
T I am watching Che progress of this mar
rative as DO goes, from week to week, bee
fore the multitude, and / know scores of
women who believe aud know that
speak truly, who would die rather than
themselves admit 90; yet am publish
ing my LIES history as a guide and 81
warning 20 those who are coming after,
. aud ] care not who may blame noe, so
they bui heed my lesson.
Vow, DO not Jet any one who VIII
read what fellows imagine that 7 would
quarrel with nature OF ber laws I be-
lieve in the high and holy Office Of
motherhood, and though JOS crown may
oiteutmes be filed with thorus, know
30 is blessing that, properly directed
aud controlled, brings with it joy uu-
speakable aud full Of glory. Butt also
know, and SO DO you, reader, especially
If you are "a wife and mother, that MAJ
ternity 30 its highest sense must be the
product of Judgment, anticipation, and
nope.
Ail these thoughts, and many more
that viii not here enumerate, flashed
through my brain as Gerald, my hus-
band, stood before me. Then ] turned
and bowed % Malcolm Graeme with
formal ccIdrea- Tibet rert'.men of
fered one bis hand.
"I feel that owe you an apology for
the abrupt manner Of my taking of
when ] saw you in the Sierras,n % De said,
gailautiy. 81 recently found your hus-
band in Portland, and hoping TO rein-
state myself iu your favor, / accepted
his invitation 90 make you a visit"
"Where are the children s' asked
Gerald, impatiently.
"I let them go 90 the houseof q neigh.
Dor a mile away, and they will not be af
home tili evening". Butt had 10 idea
you were coming, eIseI should not hav,
permitted them 90 go" said, fearing
bis dispieasure, aud dreading anothe
drunken itif 7 should fail 60 anticipate
his slightest wish.
"How's Geralds infrmitye" be asked
; abruptly.
In spite OF myself 7 burst into tears
Amy allusion TO the childs crippled con
. dition brought back so forcibly the cir
cumstauce that caused il that I coul
+ never control my feelings under it, au
, my husband knew &c.
"IIe isu'tany better,5' I said, sobJinl
8 could see that he was angry. Th
. persons who are most easily oGende
! are always they whose conscience
+ trouble them.
'If you'd 90 your duty by your chi
d dren, as mother should, you'd kee
b them at homer' DE exclaimed, looSin
D. at me with a manner Of severe rebuk
B even more potent than bis words.
"I-I-'et them go 70 visit some littl
3 folks because they y-wers-louesome," "
j altered, feeling myself culpabie,
! hardly knew why.
(Which means that their moth.
s hardly dad her duty, else her compal
iousbip would have satisfied them, e1
=. claimed my judge.
D stood mute aud self-condemnej, 90
e Is cast down. You Will laugh aeail
D reader, but cannot helpit Couscieu,
q is the result of education, aud I w.
% trained in The school Of self depreciation
s (which is the road leading TO q
r house Of your neighbor whose society
e delights your children that they gro
o tired OF the companlonship Of the
e mother?' be asked, still more reproacl
r fully.
o pointed 70 the path without a wor
e For my life I could not have spoken.
t "Good-day, 1Ir. Gaeme," said Ge
aid, as he LEFT the cabin, which had co
b me infinite labor, aud which he bad n
y deigned to notice. "lIake yourself
" nome -.,, til I return with my little one
- -r.s g, Things properly a-goiug after
y. was So stubeaed with mortifcati,
=, .,t1 -,. ~ .,.., -,na dread aud shame that
n' ala no- think Of being angry.
.m All, mel
ite One Of the very worst and most
plorabie consequence OF the .,t.s..-
rs ton Of wifehood is the self-depreei.,,