The Somerset herald. [volume] (Somerset, Pa.) 1870-1936, 1878-11-20
At last | went to bed. where. afte,

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breakfast with heavy heart, for
knew could not hear from him til
the next day.
| 1t seemed SO strange to breakfast
alone, and Nero seemed to think SO
too, for be was most unhappy, shifting
around Els masters chair in the mos
melanchely manner.
My plate for the first time since my
marriage, was empty, as | sat down
10 breakfast, for my husband, who
was an carly riser always had little
bouquet.to greet me With every NOR.
ming; frequently | forgot all about L.
ard left il to be Pot into water BY
the servant; this morning | would
have treasured it most carefully if be
bad gathered It,
After breakfast | determined to
rouse myself and go and visit some oi
the poor people in the village, so /
Glled my basket with some little
delicacies for the sick and then set
out.
Wherever | went it was the same
story, al held forth on my husbands
goodness and kindness, for all had
been helped by him in some way or
other, and all loved and respected
him.
As listened with burning cheeks
felt asif l was the only persons on
earth who had treated him with cruel
ingratitude, and / was the very per
son whom be most loved and cher
ished.
At last | went home. tired and sick
at heart, but there was DO one 70 no.
tice | was cold and worn cut, no one
to get me wine or soup to revive me,
no one to make me lie down and rsss
as he would have done had be been
there. On, how / missed him what
fool had been! Was there ever
woman loved and cared for as
had been /, Was there ever q friend
so grateful? OH why had | ever
left him leave me? / was sure be
would never come back, why had he
gone away?
And conscience answered, you
drove him; he gave you all be bad to
give, and in return you gave bin no.
thing bat cold looks, and uukiud
words; and SO he left you to seek
love and sympathy from his moth
err"
This thought almost maddened me-
In fancy | saw her sitting in my place
by bis side, loving and caressiDg hin,
as had the best right to love and
caress him.
pictnred her receiving tenderly
The little loving acts | had received
so coldly, and how l was seized with
jealous anger against her.
| mentally accused her of enstran-
ging nv husband from me, and trying
to win his love from me as though
bis heart was not large enough for
both Of us.
When Maud arrived In the AFTER
noon, l treated her to e long TRADE
of abuse against mother-in-laws in
general. and of my own in particular,
and vented all the anger | really felt
against myself on the innocent Mrs.
Cartwright.
"Why, Nelly" said Mand, 'I
thought you liked Mrs Cartwright so
much, apd thought her so nice, that
you even wanted her TO live with you,
only your husband very properly, as
mamma says, objected"
$50 did," | answered; "but did
not know then she would ever entice
my husband away from me in this
way, or, of course, l should never
have liked her"
Really, Nell, you are very hard
on the poor woman for, as under
stand, Mr. Cartwright went to her of
bis own free will, because she wasn't
well, and he thought his company
would, perhaps, do her good" said
Maud.
Nonsense, | an sure be would
Dever have left me alone, unless she
had put him up to it,' / replied reth-
er Grossly.
"The truth is, Nellie, you are SO
much in love with your husband that
you ere jealous even of his mother ),
and you are making yourself misera-
bic about nothing. Why, Mr.. Cart
wright will be back in a fortnight, and
/ dare say you viii get letter from
him every day; so cheer Up and let Us
go for drive, said Maud.
| agreed to this plan, and giving
Maud the reins. lay back and thought
Of her words
Was she right after all? Was
jealous! Was | really, as Mand said,
10 love with my husband? Had
only found it out now | was deprived
of his company
Vas this The reason that | could
do nothing bat inwardly reproach
myself for my conduct to him? And
the longer | thought the more con-
yineed | became that Maud was right
that | was jealous and that ! was in
love as she called it.
This knowledge did not make me
happier, fer | no sooner knew than
longsd to tell him, and make up 80
fast as could for all my former cru
eitv, tor could call my conduct by
no milder word
| passed e sleepless night, aud as
az awake | composed various letters
OF confession, which | resolved to
send the following, but vi ben morning
came. my pride stepped 10, and | be-
gan to feel it would be impossible to
write, and settled down and waited
until my husband came home and
then told bin how bis absence had
altered NE.
/ got up early and walked cut to
meet the postman, go anxious was l
TO get letter from him; it was the
first | had ever received from him
since our marriage aud no girl was so
anxious fer or so pleased with her
lirst love letter as / vas over this
letter.
1t was long letter. full Of loving
and terms Of endearment,
all Of which cut me 10 the heart, for
they sounded like so many reproach-
es; in reality, l think there was q
tone of gentle reproseh throughout
the letter.
II. ,,-e ra ec eooonnt IF ~.