The daily gazette., 1878-08-08
A Genuine WidoWer.
BY e. W.

June y. III Is now month since dear
Lizzie left me. l begin to regain INV
eomposure, but am terribly oppressed
with sense of loneliness. A thousand
objects OF interest upon which she daily
looked, tend to keep her continually in
my thoughts. There is her writing desk:
the unfinished manuscripts lay upon the
table; note addressed to friend, but
owing to some circumstances never sent
TO her; an unfinished piece of fancy work
Kept for stray hours amusement her
bo ,ks, her pictures-indeed, everywhere
the mute objects which her eyes or fin
gers rested upon. And where is she now?
comes to me with appalling force. Shall
we meet again?
"July 0. 1t is recommended by nv
friends that shall surrender housekeep-
ing. Mrs. Agnew IS constantly troubled
with her servants, the children have
grown very restless under her manage
ment, and Arthur refuses to obey her at
all. 1t is thought had better send the
children to some good boarding school,
| and find some home for myself, where
l shall be subject to less perplexity
and sooner regain my former cheerful
| ness.
"July 20. The decision is made, and
have been gathering all the relics Of dear
Lizzie's hand work for her daughter
| Grace to preserve as precious legacy.
The dear children are at q well-recom-
mended school, and take lodging to-
| morrow in a public house. 1t is Thought
| 1 shall be more in society in such place,
and wear off the effects of my great loss.
But the idea of quitting home where
have enjoyed the most exquisite plea
sures, where holy charm seems to per-
wade even the apartments through which
she so often ghded and adorned, is, in
| deed, painful. But then, with such
| housekeeper, what is left for me but to
pursue this course? 1 cannot find one
half the nice materials upon which Liz
| zie expended so much time. Mrs. .Ag-
new says the servants must have carried
them away. What was in drawers is
| mostly distracted but as 1 never gave
| attention TO the minutiB of what was
| contained in trunks and receptacles, but
gave all the keys to my house keeper, 1
have no means of knowing what has
been purloined. But whoever is the ag-
gressor must suffer more by the gain
than can by the loss. rr - ~
"August8. 1 do not exactly enjoy this
bustling In which live. / sometimes
picture to myself a re-gathered family,
were we can again garner up our wasted
hopes, and sit by our cheerful fireside. If
who could supply the place of her who
has gOne-but what have SAID? 1t is
scarcely five months since she left me,
and have every week since watered her
grave with my tears.
''Sspt. 20. Have not visited my dear
wife's grave for three weeks. At first had
a misgiving, as If she were concious of
neglect; but IL is only the material form
which is entombed-her gentle spirit
xynIld m a N
grief. How much the children need a
home and mothers care! H.
Oct II. When L was first introduced
| to Amelia Blond, she at once reminded
| me of my dear wife. True, she is mere
girl compared with her-some fifteen
years younger-but still all the graces of
woumanhood are fully developed. If
heavens! i blush to enter it upon my
Journal How Mrs. Agnew, my old house,
keeper. would glory in the fulhment of
her prophecy made in my deepest be-
reavement. "Mr. Herbert" said she,
"your feelings will be materially chang
ed in a few months, and In less than a
year predict your marriage. Such vio-
lent grief never survives more than one
season." could have turned her from
my threshold for such anintimation; but,
i alas! how little we know ourselves! Liz
zie, your image is still enshrined in my
heart; but must go weeping through the
remainder of my journey because you
Swere taken from my side?
l met Dr. Frost yesterday; he first ven-
ltured to joke me upon being married
again. This led to a serious conversation
upon the subject-the doctor has been
through the depths of aff1iction three
successive times, and now is in the full
enjoyment of domestic bliss. He argued
no objection to Miss Blond only her age,
but some girls at twenty are as fit to rule
household as others at fifty. L do not
myself think her age an insuperable OBJ
lection; she will be more colnpanionable
Ito Grace. Bnt how do / know that she
would marry a man so much her senior
The doctor says: 'How will you know
unless you ask her?
November 4. Since my last entry in
my journal l have taken great step
The proposal to marry Amelia was ac-
cepted, and 1 find myself in a new world;
the old, restless, disconso'a'e feeling ]
have endured seems leaving me. My
weed is horribly rusty upon my hat, and
outward marks of mourning are super
fluous. / have thought Iwould not use
any more Grape surroundings. l must
express my feelings to my dear friend to
whom I SO recently communicated my
deep sorrow, well assured, however, that
she will reply, Henry, tremble for
you"
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