The morning star and Catholic messenger., 1878-04-14
R N0Rnas sTAR CATHOLIC GEsSENGER

scionce---the high, inoorrrptible judge whose
praise, hard to BE won, sue would have gone
castles in the air ebout winning this approval,
as other maidens build castles about winning
tf1ends and lovers. In her thoughts she had
been everything and done everyt thing for her
mother that girl could do OF be. she had
saved her life over and over again she had
stood by her side when fortune and friends
had failed her; she had nursed her through
terrible slcknesses; and from these dreams
again and again she had been awakened to
meet well-merited reproof for little acts of
disobedience and forgetfulness that could not
passionate feeling. It is not caresses and
Protestation of love want from you. Ellen"
Mrs. Daily woold say, with that sad look in
Aa1 to n tss
it seemed to Ellen as if her shortcomings were
the result Of excessive thought. If abe had cared
less passionasely for her mother, and had fewer
schemes for pleasing her, she believed che
should have made fewer mistakes end remem.
bered the little things better. Yet surely
there must be some way OF Transmitting love
could not be the cold hearts that did their
work best, Now, to-day, 1t seemed as If
chance OF coming at the solution of the prob
lems she had 30 often meditated was coming
to her. This brother, whom her mother loved
entirely, who was just what she wished him to
be, he would be the interpreter whose perfec-
tions would make plain what it was that was
deficient in herself; he should be the model
on which she wonld earnestly endeRvor to
mould her thoughts and actions.
She strained her memory to recall sayings
and doings of his in former visits that could
be made to yield ground for her hopes. She
had been almost q child hen he Was last at
home, bnt-yes-certainly he had always been
kind to her. He had lifted her carefully on
and off her pony many times, and he had been
very angry with Connor for frightening her
with q gun one day when they were all ont in
Q boat together. But how sorry she had been
for having brought that anger on Connor! |!
She remembered how Pelham's eyes flashed
when he wrested the gun from Connor's obeti-
nate hands, and how he had sat quiet and
grave all the rest of the time they were in the
boat, with his arm round her, as if he were
still afraid of her being bnrt-turning deaf
ear to the jokes Connor perpetrated, with
view Of carrying off his defeat and his little
I'll of rebellion with q high hand. She mnst
never do such thing as that again never let
herself be made a cause of dssension between
the brothers. Now she recalled that look on
Pelham's face, she could fancy herself learning
to watch him when talk and laughter were
going on, to see if he were pleased or vexed,
as anxicnsly as she watched her mother.
She must learn to be wise enough to say
herself, and cause others TO say, the right
things, and ward off the little jsrs and sneers
that made everyone unhappy. Yet if there
were 80 many people to wstcb, would it ever
be possible to breathe freely againf Ellen
drew a deep breath, end lifted up her head
from her hands as she reached thia point in
her meditation and met her mothers eyes, who
on coming from her walk had paused at the
school-room door.
"My dear Ellen, have you really spent the
whole morning in looking out of the window
to fud useful occupation for yourself when
am busyf 1t will be great rest to me if it
ever does"
Ito be oontinuedJ