Watertown republican. [volume] (Watertown, Wis.) 1860-1906, 1878-10-09

| the n6XG Gay, 1t seemed so strange TO
breakfast alone. and Nero appeared to
think so too, for he was most unhappy.
shifting around his masters chair in the
most melancholy manner.
My plate for the first time since my
marriage was empty, as | sat down to
breakfast for my husband, who was an
early rises, always had q little bouquet
to greet me with every morning; fire.
quenty | forgot all about it, and left it
to be put into water by the servant;
this morning | would have treasured it
most carefully if he had gathered it.
! After breakfast | determined to
rouse myself and 90 and visit some of
the poor people IN the village, SO /
cacies for the sick and set out.
Wherever [ went it was the same
story, all held forth on my husbands
goodness and kindness, for all had been
helped by him in some way or other,
and all loved and respected him. AS [
listened with burning cheeks [ felt as if
[ was the only person on earth who
treated him with cruel ingratitude, and
Twas the very person whom he most
loved and cherished.
| At last [ went home, tired and sick at
heart; but there was no one to notice
was pale and worn out, no one to get
me wine or soup to revive me, no one
to make me lie down and rest, as he
would have done had he been there
Oh, how missed himl What a fool |
had been! Was there ever woman
loved and cared for as had been? Was
there ever friend so ungrateiul? Oh!
why had [ ever let him leave me? [
was sure he would never come back.
Why had he gone away? M. #r#
And conscience answered, "You
drove him; he gave you all he had to
give, and in return you gave him moth
ing but cold looks and unkind words
and SO he left you to seek love and sym
pathy from his mother. H0TT~I
This thought almost maddened me.
In fancy | saw her sitting in my place
by bis side, loving and caressing him,
l pictured her receiving tenderly the
little loving acts [ had received so cold
", and now Twas seized with. a jealous
anger against her I mentally accused
her of estranging my husband from me,
as though his heart was not large
enough for both of us. - n
Efg When Maud arrived in the afternoon
[ treated her to a long TRADE of abuse
against mothers-in-law in general, and
my own in particular, and | vented all
the anger [ really felt against myself
on the innocent Mrs. Cartwright.
"Why, Nelly" cried Maud, Il
thought you liked Mrs. Cartwright so
much, and thought her SO nice, that
you even wanted her to live with you,
only your husband, very properly, as
mamma says, objected" sa 8 81 a
$50 l did," I answered: 81 did not
know then she would ever entice my
husband away from me in this way, Or.
of course, | should never have liked
Really, Nell, you are very hard on
the poor woman; for, as [ understand
Mr.. Cartwright went to her of his own
free will, because she was not well, and
he thought his company would do. her
good,' said Maud. .... (. d..
d" Nonsense; [ am sure he would
never have left me alone, unless she had
put him up to it." replied, rather
Grossly. ... ....I h.- .avaaa'au
The truth is Nelly, you are so much
in love with your husband that you are
jealous even of his mother; and you are
making yourself miserable about moth
ing. Why, Mr.. Cartwright viii be back
in a fortnight, and [ dare say you will
get letter from him every day: so
cheer up and let us go for drive" said
Maud. 10 Ds.a- s45y.. ua5 ,19-4s- l5t 4
l agreed to this plan, and giving
Maud the reins [ lay back and thought
OF her words. Was she right afterall
Was [ jealous WASH really, as Maud
said, in love with my husband? Had [
only found it out now Twas deprived of
his company? Was this the reason that
[ could do nothing but inwardly re
proach myself for my conduct to him ?
And the longer [ thought the more con
WINGED l became that Maud was right,
that [ was Jealous, and that was in love
as she called it. aa-E. ~ 10 "..E 50
This knowle1 ge did not make me
happier, for [ no sooner knew I loved
him than | longed to tell him so, and
make up as far as [ could, for all my
former cruelty, for / could call my con-
duct no milder word. I passed sleep
less night, and as lay awake [ COM
posed various letters of confession,
which I resolved to send the following
day; but when morning came my pride
stepped in, and [ began to feel it would
be impossible to write, and settled I
must wait till my husband came home
and then tel him how his absence had
altered me. IE
got up early and walked out to meet
the postman, SO anxious was [ to get a
letter, from him twas the first [ had
ever received from him since our mar
riage, and no girl was ever SO anxious
for or so pleased with her first love
letter as | was over this.
1t was long letter, full of loving mes
sages and endearment, all Of which cut
me to the heart, for they sounded like
SO many reproaches: in reality, think
there was tone of gentle reproach
throughout the letter. He gave me &C
count of his journey, and of his mothers
health, begged me to write him a few
lines every day, but he said not word