The state rights democrat. [volume] (Albany, Linn County, Oregon) 1865-1900, 1878-12-20

Mary and Ada Rw1itina q reply, 6til
what to DO ] didn't know. 80 I Went &
bed and studied and p0hdofed over ght
matter but Without arriving ~ any
dehhite result "a week fsin 6h IN tlil
way. FpdSSed the comparative iHeFlti
Of the three girls in review time and
again. IAN were 'alikeo good, alike az
birable--but little, If any difersnce
Ny love i~as purely Plntonic nothiht
moro. I'D c0uld1easiIy have married
eitheril n tho ethOfi Adll been out OIL
way. What sh0dld JIi2what could
dol .eeba1s ,banhalI eosiaa4ld nss
| At.lsnsthI 1. .wr6ta "a sfary and Ada,
telling them IJwonld be back soon, but
otherwise my letter was Ambiguous and
hon comnittal. CirSuhaaIancos prevent
bd my returning to5akha States for q
year, but these ! iilyie4plained.
At length l started, apd in due time
reached Syracuse, hen I was compelled
10 decide betwesn Adaeands Mary, as
pne lived about 200 miles in one direc.
tion, and the other about so aaiies by
hnother route. decided in6asor Of
Ada. She was Presbyterian-LAso waA
1. Mary was q Methodist. thought
L would be pleasanter il We both were
bf one faith, and that turnod the seals.
After was married returned Marys
letters and souvenirs, she rethruRd
mine, and that ended the matter with
her. l have never seen or heard from
her since. 49,
Tho evening before was married 20
Ada, Iasksd her IL she loved mo. She
said she did not know. asked her IL
hhe would have taken the matter very
seriously II had not. como, Tor her.
She replied that che hardly Thought she
Shoald. She liked me very we'll had
every confidence in me, and gs.essed we
would be happy together. Her love
was ~ Piatohic a. my own. She was
wiling - marry ma, ,sor I csula leave Il
cheese. Another suitor was ready 70
take her. for whom nhe cared no n,orc
than for me. / WINGED . little under
her eoolness, especially as I bad AGAtJ
and Nellie 10 fall back on. But We
finally decided tS-1aEEyaoI. .liSeAs with
her about twenss 5eillrs, and We were
happy .toasther. she was a good :
wife as any man, ever had II nsVer
saw the dAy that 7 would swap her fof
another wernan, even II suck a thing
were possible. We loved aaah otksr 10
\ quiet, easy sostlof WY ,nsser quar-
relied, and each had perfect trust III the
other. Perhaps ! should say We were
perfectly contented and satisfied, rather
than rapturOaaly happy. And this, /
think, proves from my own experience
that strong, passionate love i not abso.
lutely necessary ~ an essential element
10 happiness in tho married life.
"But such love is no detriment," ]
remarked. is
Perhaps not, }" replied 8fr. p,
~ hope you do not deny che. exiat.
enee Of sncAsa feeling, uaid /.
He gAssi 'sseadily into tie grate for
several moments, and then said, s. grave
ly, "No, know there is suciil i fseiina.
and ! will tell you another little story
that have never yet breatAed iusEn0S-
tai cara" "f1' .ilsi1tf"N 1so'l
Long, long ago, loved q lady Ia the
way noveliats, writa Of, Ny love, was
perfect idolatry. believe ! would
even have sacrificed principle for koF.
sbo il the only woman ever, 6d love
with anything like passion. And my
love came over me all at onee4not the
first time l saw her, but Afterwards. !
don't understand it never did. (. ]
only know the fact, that is all. I1havS
seen women more Beautiful, more high
ly educated, but for all tkat,i in my
eyes, shs was absolute perfection. She
possessed every desirable attribute in a
woman, and l have not Language to de-
scribe how deeplg, hON snaAiy, .iiovH pas
sionately loved her. 81 Every throb,
every pulsatioh pf my heart, was for
her, and for her only. belisx6iI
would have married her, had Il posi-.
lively known that I would have gone
straight from the, marriage altar TO my
coffin I would almost have periiad
my souls salvatiO& to ihakether mind.
I'm the midst Of my woping, when, as 1
fondly dreamed, everything vas reason
ably favorable, she refused me, and
afterwards'ndSrrisd anStheE;o / did not
expect this, Heri Guspect The d marriage
until I saw its announcement in, the |
public prints several days aStet, It's 6e-
currence. No words can describe the
shock It gave me, for ] had intended
trying again. I he'd gone AL day with |
put eating since ibteak6nt, butI could |
not eat bite Of sppp9E FDod WIS
loathsome to, ,me.utI i nsyer aIept q wink
that night nor the next, hut Just day
md moaned. Oh, that dr9RHifpl, dtSad-
ful heartache ! ,1nwepk to The drug |
store for poison, and longed for dtathl |
But I believe God put it into my -hs6tt |
that IL was cowGfdly to ttiy from the ills |
pf life, and desermine "a face The |
Trial Ike amans and afghk tIiS 4 con dict |
70 the bitter end. But the ilhubnizing |
heart-ashe is still there, and !. pre- Hthe |
Y always will be,.z Daring the day 1 |
hidH it BY ipke and edipAge, or bust
AeSs, 'bHt in the stiffness a She night IL |
FstakAH an4sSh, lfoHaig Hurts iela siJaiIlE
y ia hsAy and
peared to be under deep emoti0n, N III /
Iubsided after little, and be resuinoae |
"I have understood she il living
|omewhere in Oregon. IT sutpsss DO IS |
happy; at least pray God she may hs.p
She may be widow" said T. He
hook his head. ~ JhS ~
She may be much changed ], p said T. |
Taking this into c0naideratio would |
Eou marry her if she were 1uarfihg4a-
lbIeT ,anaYg ald1ik |