Montgomery County sentinel. [volume] (Rockville, Md.) 1855-1974, 1877-03-16

--TcsotVeu 10 endure III ACKNOWLEDGMENT
to return to the old barren life of uu-
picturesque LONELINESS which was mine,
as a poor working girl, before | met
Gerard Russell, for unlike him, I had
no golden treasury of intellect to draw
upon.
ooh to lie down in some quiet spot
and sloep--not to wake again--but to
rest, rest"
Of course these gloomy feelings had
their effect upon Gerard he, too was
gloomy and morose which l construed
into regret--he too, had loved and lost,
therefore | pitied him.
His duties as physician called him
often from home, and now that there was
a reserve and GOODNESS between us, | saw
him but seldom. Occasionally, however,
he passed an hour roring over his books,
seldom speaking, but always kind and
polite.
At one time, suddenly looking up,
saw him regarding me with fixed and
anxious look. | redeemed under his gaze
"What is this shadow that troubles
you, Minnie p he inquired quickly.
I" 1t is nothing" replied coldly, but
remorsefully, for observed that the out
lines of his handsome face were thin and
worn Then | reflected that his heart
was not mine--neper had been mine !
and almost hated him.
After that evening we grew farther
and farther apart every day.
lie came in haste one afternoon to
tell me that he was called to Boston on
a very important case--a consultation,
and would return the next bidding
me farewell with an imploring, beseech-
ing look in his dark eyes; but | was
perverse, and turned mine away to con-
ceal the big tears gathering in them.
Then he dropped my hand and said
minnie, fear we have made mis-
take" and in moment he was gone.
How dreary was the remainder Of that
day-a supposition crossed my mind
that made me cold and hot by turns A
supposition based upon bis remark, "Wo
have made mistake"
"IIe has left me forever"
Three long weary days dragged by.
To pass away time took up the morn
ing paper and carelessly looked over it,
when my attention was Immediately at
tracted by these words:
Dreadful Accident to the Boston
Express"
experienced a shivering fear as
saw, heading long list of the killed, the
name of DR.. Gerard Russell.
Then in an instant it was revealed to
me how in spite of all, | loved my bus-
band.
Gazing with stony eyes, I still held
the paper, a faintness, like mist steal
ing over me, when a wcll-known voice
exclaimed
"Not quite killed yet-all safe and
sound, little wifcy"
With an electric thrill of JOY | threw
my arms around him, and abandoned my
self to uncomfortable emotion. | kissed
and caressed him, Historically sIreking
"You have not left me forever, my
darling"
l0H darling
He held me at arms length, and look e
ed searchingly into my pale face, and
then continued:
"You do not regret marrying me you
love me after all
But you love Fanny Morell,' l re-
piled impulsively.
He echoed my words in astonishmcnt
then, leaning upon his breast, ! told him
all.
He listened in silence. patiently, then
he said
There must be no more mistakes be-
tween u.s. Minnie, | would not ask a
woman | did not love to be my wife.
met Fannie Morell years before / saw
you. Her wonderful beauty attracted
me- | studied her character and dis
position as infinitely as was possible. J
found her calculating, selfish and cold
hearted. Outwardly, was she all smiles
and fascination when she wished to please.
But she bad rare gifts, being fine mu-
stefan, an elocutionist, and was possessed
of'considerable talent"
"And you did not love this beautiful,
talented woman p | asked incredulously.
"No can not call the feeling Of adj
which felt for her. love, now
that ! know what true love is. She evil
IDENTIFY thought was caught and so |
was afterwards. but not by Miss Morcll"
How then originated the report Of
your engagement to her? | inquired.
ut was nero gossip, Minnie, and had
not word of truth in it,"
"Oh, what silly woman | have been !"
/ imagined you regretted our mar
rage, and tortured myself with the
thought"
II also fancied the same thing of you,
Gerard"
pride prevented me from inviting
your confidence" he said
Precisely my feeling observed.
"Then, Minnie, darling, we have made
no mistake after all--you are my fate and
| am well content"
IL am the happicst little wife in the
world"
My husband smiled and answered me
without word.
They had tough subject in the in
luiry-room this week. Moody wrostled |
with him, aud Sankey sang with him,
but tho man seemed 20 despair Of for
riveness. Finally, Moody asked him