The Democratic advocate. [volume] (Westminster, Md.) 1865-1972, 1877-01-20

While my proposed plan was in the high.
est degree distasteful to my family and
friends, the commencement Of my search
was by no means satisfactory to myself
1t is all very well to make up your mind
to find out woman you have seen only in
dreams; while many of my readers may
think that such case demanded strait
waistcoat; but it is not so easy to know
how to make a start. The world was all
before me, but where was | to 60?
recurred naturally y to the doctors part
ing words. He had not laughed at me; he
had humored me, whether with any belief
in the dream or merely to give me some
thing to occupy my mind, l could hardly
tell; at any rate his words had impressed
me. He had said, "Try and realize the
locality indicated in your dreams" Even
that was not easy. But at any rate it was
some place by the sea. So | need not
trouble myself about inland towns and vii.
lagos. 1t had look too thought, of
foreign watering place; so l decided to
make for the Continent, and then, wander
slowly through the principal places on the
French seaboard
l dreamed of the face of which | was
in search the night before | left England;
and don't know whether | was feeling
rathersout of spirits myself, but it was uu-
deniable that, as far as | could Judge, it
looked somewhat sadly and reproachfully
at me- But had become so full Of fan
cies regarding it, that was afraid to trust
myself to draw conclusions, and dismissed
the idea from my memory, and crossed the
Channel.
| had not been more than a few DAYS in
France when l became conscious of
curious change. | had been to one little
village on the coast, and was going on to
another, when | remembered that during
the whole time had not had one dream,
that is to say, not one in which | saw her
face. 1t was strange; for although the
visitations were by no means continuous,
still an unusually long time had passed
that too just when l was thinking more of
her than ever, and scanning each face l
met with painful curiosity. The fact
therefore, made me rather uneasy, and |
was eager for the night to come to see how
l should fare. Again there was no special
dream, though my thoughts were so full of
her that | don't know how could have
avoided dream filed with her presence
under ordinary circumstance lam aware
that some people hold that you do not
dream of what you have thought much of
during the day, but rather of things only
brought incidentally under your notice
but such has never been my experiences.
| can almost pass from waking to sleeping
and carry on the same train of thought,
though of course it is most fantastically
changed in my dream.
Night after night passed, and still she
never came. Full as my waking thoughts
were Of her, she seemed 10 have Withdrawn
herself from me; and uneasy as l had been
at the first recurrent appearance, l now
became still more so when they ceased to
exist Was there ever any one so unrea.
sonable? argued with myself; | had
long wanted to cure myself Of what most
people would call pure'delusion; and yet
now, when found II disappearing, I was
angry and annoyed at il. But still |
would continue my search at intervals, and
| settled to stay four months in France at