The New Orleans Democrat. (New Orleans, La.) 1875-1876, 1876-01-16

| could help tt2 BleSH The ctJtl0, Hne
INV ina al precious baby il the world
have her ANYTHING elso for several years
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/" mt air. II demonstrated. \" Carter
IA nosriv sevnnteef, and / I'm uoina
nwav Tar tvvo wears |. aureiy I may tel
/ her before / ~. may / flotf''
"At yotir ffsril." sir. said my impul.
sive old father. turning upon ME
MAKE woman or my child nlready
No indeed. IL will come soon enough
moor p,issi 90 70 Europe, study hard
ret your diploma. and come bnck d
will see what We cnp do for yo,, but not
" "m, word S9u h" lei '' w 10 ~ 49,
"And leave her with aJi these boys
around and crnxcd about her nowl' /
exclaimed In despalr III the prospect.
I Wounds / boy. Y said my father, "whai
would YOU have? Garter doesn't know
she has a heart. II It Is for you, she
will find Il out when these young fellows
come Whispering around as much when
you are away as when you are here. II
don't do TO force young plants; let them
take their time, and they will root MI
the stronger.
was forced TO be satisfied with this,
or nj least to seem 80. rs / knew there
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cision. ESPECIALLY as my mother agreed
| with him. and Us I said In my bitter in
dignation, Joined with him III shielding
Carter fror, me exactly as II I wanted
| 70 do her harm. and didn't love her ten
times better than nny OF them did.
"Thnt may be, WILL" said my mother,
passing her soft hand tendtcrly over my
head. abut Young men are not SO wise
as their elders about these things. 1t
In not for YOU we fear In this matter
and am glad you have the restraining
influence d your love for Carter 70 90
with you; but the child was intrusted
father: and joyful az the Thought OF q
marriage between you ii. we cnnnot. III
fnithflIness to our trust, allow our son
to bind her young life by n promise
which may shadow IL. RI She ID ever to
love YOU. the seeds OF that love arc in
her heart now. though she does not
know IL but she must DO left untram-
melled until your return. We will take
caro- Of her for you, my son." she added,
M sho STONED and kissed INV brow.
II was In no enviable mood then that
shy after our Quarrel: and although
there were tears in her ewes. thny lid
not fall rs sl,e submitted to rather than
returned my parting embrace. Her
letters were regular, full of home Incl
dents. aud everything any one else
could have asked. except rDyself. but
missed her In them there were none Of
hcr old expressions or affections. even
her professions Of desire for my return
were formal aud studied. IL Is not In
tho nature, however, Of u young man Of
tho age / then was 10 devote himself to
grief; l gnawed my irNler lip, pulled
my growing moustache and uttered
explosives over her letters as was
and very uneasy; but for all tInt
think had pleasant time IN Paris
everybody has. In writing TO Carter,
although I strictly kept my promise, 1
did not consider 10 n violation Of It
when / wrote terv tcnderly, rerv Low.
ingly--telling her with perhaps pardon
able exaggeration that my every
thought was OF home tmcaning Carter;
that / but lived ID the hope or return
ing from my exile that instead OF mix
Ing In tho gay world as my companions
did, ] sat at home alone with my books
before me and my thoughts upon the
past and the future in the present !
did not live. Then I would close my
letter, dress myself with elaborate
care, and go out TO seek consolation for
my woes In the very society / had been
protesting 10 abjure. / think must
have enjoyed my travels also through
Switzerland, Italy, Greece and Ger
many, though my letters to Carter rep
resented mo mourning exile flying
from one place to another to rid myself
from thoughts OF home fmeaning Car
ter again.
Her answers to these cpistlcs were
rather dampening TO my ardor. She
would say simply, II cannot help being
glad you want To come back home, mo
alIusion TO tho hidden meaning), but do
not make yourself miserable about IL.
can, and enjoy all you can; don't leave
any food for regrets after you return"
Ny mother wrote that Carter was much
admired, but she did not seem to favor
any one particularly. NV father hOped
| remembered nv promise TINT the
child never would show my letters. and
blushed n gopd deal over them, She
seemed, too, less of a childi nowadays,
and had put on, or Il had come to her
some way to be. d stately. dignilled
woman, though she never refused u
ronp with him.
Altogether / felt hopeful, but not en-
tiroly easy, us turned my face home
wards. Notwithstanding my little de-
ceits, / had boon perfectly true to Car
ter, for the solo retlson that had never
seen one In my degree to compare with
her.
/ remember well tho evening OF my
nj r{ua1 M hntnr hntu thu 0tn RI tpnI