The Tiffin tribune. (Tiffin, Ohio) 1868-1887, 1876-11-23

easy to know how To make a star
The world was all before ne, bU
where was 10 go?
recurred naturally TO the doctor
parting words. He had not laughe
at me he had huElOred M, whethe
! with any belief in the dream or mere
| ly 10 give me something TO Occup,
my mini, | could hardly tell at AM
rate his words had impressed me
DE had said, Try and realize the 10
cality Indicated in your dreams.
Even that was not easy. But at any
rate IL was some place by the sea. 81
| need not trouble myself about in.
land towns and villages. 1t had {
look too, / thought, OF foreign
watering place so decided TO make
for the Continent, and then wander
slowly through the principal places
on the French seaboard.
| / dreamed of the fee of which
was in search the night tefJre | left
England aud | don't know whether
| was feeling rather out of spirit my
self, but it was undeniable that, as far
as | could judge, it looked somewhat
sadly aud reproachiully at ms. But j
had become so full OF fancies regard
ing il, thst wEs afraid TO trust my
self to draw conclusions, and dis
missed the idea from my memory,
and CROSSED the Channel.
! had not been more than u few
days ia France when | bee Ime con-
sciOus OF a curious change. l had
been TO one little village on the coast,
and was going to another, when / re-
membered that during the whole
| time | had not one dream, that is to
say, not one in which 1 saw her face
It was strange for although tie visi-
tatiOns were by no means continuous,
still an unusually long tine hsd
passed-that too jast when | was
thinking more OF her than ever, and
scanning each face | met with pain
fui curiosity. The fact, therefore,
made the rather uneasy and | was
eager for the night 10 come u see
how | should fare. Again there WAS
no special dream, though my
thoughts were so full of her that I
don't know how | could have avoided
3 dream filed with her presence un.
der ordinary circumstance. an
aware that some people hold that you
DO not dream Of what you have
thought much of during the day, bat
rather of things only brought incid-
entally under your notice +; tut such
has never been my experience. 1 can
almost pass from waking to sleeping
and carry on the same train OF
thought, though of course it is most
fantsstically changed in my dream.
Night after night passed, and still
she never came. Full as my waking
thoughts were OF her, she seemed to
have Withdrawn herself from me
and uneasy as 1 had been at the first
recurrent appearances, now became
still more so when they ceased 10 ex-
ist. Was there ever any one 50 un-
reasonable? ? argued with myself
l had long wanted to cure myself OF
what most people would call q pure
delusiOn and yet now, when 1 found
- it-]-I 81 , - ! 0'as angry aud an
nOyea AZ IL, But, But stili IME99pId G3p
settled to stay four months in France
at any rate before 1 returned home
and announced my cure.
"My eure"-yes, that was what
they would call it, when in truth l
was far more worn and miserable
now than at any time previously. /
believe indeed that at this period l
was in danger of acute mental de-
rangement, for / caught mysel
wondering what there was On the
other side of this life, that men should
be loath to leave it. The blue sea
seemed tempting, and often thought
that If this mad passion for shadow
was to mar my life, it would be bet
ter to sleep in one of the little church.
yards on the coast where the voice of
the everlasting sea would sing my re-
duiem.
The whole of the time 1 was in
France 1 was miserable, and in no
single dream, though as usual l had
many, did my familiar visitant ap-
pear. My search grew listless, and l
felt myself becoming infinitely worse
as regards my nervous system than
was before 1 left England. From
what 1 have learned OF it since, L am
convinced 1 was settling down into
confirmed nleldnchOlid and can
not think OF that period even now
without shudder at the recollection.
At last, finding myself at Dieppe,
suddenly determined to return home
and took the steamer which was Just
starting for Newhaven, lest my will
to go should change. Never before
within my remembrance had 1 been
so glad to return to England. Never
did the white cliffs look fairer to me,
and the rolling downs of Sussex
seemed like old friends. Immediate
ly on arriving went up to London,
and on reaching the station l drove
straight off to Dr..
He was at home, and received me
with coTdiality.
"Well DOCTOR" / said 81 have come
to report myself cured"
'fCured !" he answered, looking at
me scrutinizingly, "You don't look
like it. OF what are you cured ?"
'T have had no dreams that Is TO
say, none of that particular dream
since left England"
"Ah, none in France ct ALL" he
said.
Exactly"
"Any since you returned ?"
''I only arrived to-day, and have
not vet slept in England"
"Just So" he said, nOdding thought
fully; and then he abruptly asked
some question regarding my general
nLONC L1C pACoIAADblBnT ohA
seeing that he was determined to say
no more, left him.
ASH drove away to a hotel, for my
people were out OF town, l thought
of my answer to the Doctors question
viz, that 1 had not slept in England
since I returned, and the way in
which be had received it. Was it
possible rlage drives up, father, it !
seems, geta out and hands out the Ia
dies-mother first and then the
daughter. The moment the younger |
lady steps out she looks up, then she
starts back, ard falls in a dead faint
on the carriage steps. She looked as
II she had seen ghost, they say; I
wonder what was up? Egsd, old |
man, she must have caught sight Of
your wo-begone face, and turned faint |
at the idea of dancing with such a
scRreeroW."
1 listened idly and said mo. 1
don't think she could have seen me )"
forgetting, be it observed, that the
moonlight shone fall on my face, and
that the glare Of the gsslight streamed
ont OF the room.
1 attached no importance to the in
cident, though the reader will pOssi-
bly, wonder at it. 1 felt nothing un-
usual, only perhaps little sadder and
more uneasy and the face OF my
looked sad, too, when she
came in my sleep, and paler, l
thought, than it WAS wont tO look Of
old.
But no revelation came to me and
q month afterwsrd, when 1 returned
to London, it would have required an
effort of memory to recall the fact
that at the Rockford ball a young
lady arriving had istArted as If she
had seen a ghost" and fallen fsinting
into her fathers arms. Had l then
given up the search that here in Eng
land the visitor would return i
thought the matter over carefully, as
far as one can think q subject out
which is purely surmise and having
settled in my own mind that being st
home would make no difference, /
dined with a friend at his club, and
spent q plesssnter evening that l had
known for some months past.
Night came; and before / went to
rest I thought as I always did Of my
dream-visitant but with the hopeless
feeling had lately had in France,
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