St. Johnsbury Caledonian. [volume] (St. Johnsbury, Vt.) 1867-1919, 1875-04-16

eXpostulationS with me turned on thi
grOund-that | had damaged Mr. Til
tons name, fame, POSITION and pecunlar'
3 resources that had given the weigh
of my great influence. lis it was please,
to be called. to Mr.. Bowen, and there
fore to the propagation of those stolie
which had tarnishcd him it was there
fore "nl Il reasonable thing for me t.
restore him, ds far as my intlucuc,
went, the good name that he had.
Mr.. Evarts-The letter proceeds: III
one point of view could desire tn,
sacrifice on my part. Nothing can pos
sihll be so bad as the horror of grca
darkness III which spend much of my
time. look upon death as swcete
faced than any friend have in tn,
world Life wonld he pleasant if
could SEE that rebuilt which is shattrr-
ed. But to live on the sharp and rag.
Ged edge of anxiety, remorse, fear
despair, and yet to put on all the APP
pearance of serenity ard happiness
cannot he endured much longer Wa,
that clause an expression of your views
and your feelings, in view of the situa
tion as You have narrated it
Mr.. Beechtr sir, feeble words
If there had been any stronger in tn,
English language, should have put
'heih III.
Mr.. Evarts Now. here is IN expires
sion, Nothing can possibly be 80 bad
as the horror of great darkness" in
which You ''sprnt much of Your time p
MI. Beecher-l cant define ur de
scribe it; | only know that am sub
! lect to very ~ lofound darkness at times
dh" redci l"l' Jus' a>. al the other eA-
IRENE 'ni >"ml''' |" very great tN-
ai,a'lon. VII: ENarlS' dldn t do night
"nfii III "'ltil% !n"i. Nileh si'ld.
"i">' vi NY '''i' lI\ta very htdl
I" '"u 'ieh' ah" the most "l my time
l had peace.
MI ENar'S Mucii "t nay time. 1t
Is
Mr. Beecher-Yrs. sir: most of my
time | WAS above it. hut there were
days that the midnight came III midday.
and horror of darkness
Mr.. Evarts Now. at the time of
writing this letter. what WAS the con-
diti"m of Your temper il this regard of
depression or cxultLtiun
Mr.. Bccchrr Oh. | WAS in the very
depths ot depths MONDAYS letter after
such SATURDAY. Here Mr.. I;r,cbel
wiped away trar>.D
MIR. Evart>-Now. siI. in these clauses
OF any of them. of this letter. a> | have
read it 20 Won. WIS there pl,S,.It 10
Your mind any thought. idr., nl memory
of any criminal intercourse with Mrs.
Tilton
Mr.. Rr.rb.r-N M sin. u,,,, -, ,u
| had mo- need of tblt Th,r,. ,,.,.
enough To m, inouuht in Lur.ium .,
friend. in de>tr"yiug hnu>rhnld. in
being unfaithtu to the highest honor of
ohIigation>-thrre WAS enough i'm that
to torment me with rhe tnrmeuiS of ,hr
damned. | know of no NOR. horrible
thought in this world than to h-tr:lv or
hart Il friend: don't say that other
things are not worse. Int | say could
suffer aS much tnE tt@3-antr:' .''''-'"''..-
Mr.. Evart>-''I am wcll-nigh dis
couragcd. If you. too. cease Ia trust
me-to love mr--l am alone; have
not another person in the world to whom
| can go" ln reference to what r"la-
tions between YOU and Mr.. Muulton
with reference L" what subject did Won
u-c iht>t. expressions!
WI 'e''ii'l VI '""l" &c ''"'
''''' were '"'''''' 'i''t' M'h'''h M /"
:" - th''u .i'' WIS SIMPLY i f''"GHl-
non thht was >ll' mp II me "iIr"ui-
stances 10 NM my hl"nh i ma" whom
h'IitNrd I" l' u man "i The m">t ""u-
hcii"l i!dei''N ana II lir""H"'i'-
NJ EH'i' -h\ "hi' 'i'"ill-' 'h''.> :
~ '"'' f''"H
-.
,,ai,',,i,
WI T. "l' N''l' 10 you com !, !,
I'I' nH''H'' II n,HH W. "'i'' u >'''I''
ne wen '"'''' II" N,h'c' S'i'" ''c
i"i your H'i"I' iI!cuu>hii'' |"u NhH
>lh'trr ai1r'1'"II' eve" th"ugh You rose
me not. am N"ur~ ifh"Hgi unkr""ll
I" N"u.) II. W Il. Now, Ill. IL ih'-
expression. Though y"n love N" moi
. NiIi Ma thr Ictrlrn'"
VII. 'ercliri 1t was me SING al ihAi
saturday IN nee. When he turned away
from me lis hc did and. though 'li-
known I" him, a!I ilItimIti"n that my
/ inward lite he had II" idea of; that he
should ueat me so and change me rs he
did. was not the man he thought !
! was.
/ Mr.. Evarts Now. IA The earlier part
of this letter vou Use This EXPRESSION
If had not gone through thi, great
near of sorrOW. | would not have be
| lirved that anv one could pasS THROUGH
nv experience and he 0!jrp or sane. .
/ What sorrow had oppr. ,Ssea y,,u duriuy
| that year.
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,,,,a.t;rr ~ tl,;. ,rnrIJ, :, ,,,..
| W " ~ " Wv '' az
~ rnst " + IN " m'. .h,na .,W ~, .,,nth.r i ~ was
SIN ni,har hy tIa intervention Of nmt-
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