The Indiana State sentinel. [volume] (Indianapolis) 1868-1895, 1875-04-15

that they should not be made a matter OF puo-
licity, and that they certainly should not De
dragged into my church, and be made the sub
ject OF a church inquiry. II was that parton tne
sion OF poignant suffering. The preceding con-
versatiou ssnd approximations with me turned
on hisground, that l had damaged Iiiton-
sources; that had give the weight Of my
or at Influence as IL pleased to be called, TO
those sioeIes W hich had tarnished him. 1t was
therefore, only a reasonable thing for me to re-
store to him, as far as my influence
Bes chit strikes me, your honor, that
this is argument instead OF testimony.
/ hope IL will be restricted as far as possible:
Evaris-Now, sir, the letter proceeds: "God
and earnest desire into my efforts to prepare a
hundred fold as to the outside pubic nave
never lost an opportunity 10 soften pre- uolces'
ines among all whom met. / am thrown among
clergymen, public men and generally the max
ers of public opinion and have used by every
rational enGeavor to repair the evils which have
been visited upon T., and with increasing sue
cess" Now, Mr.. Beeeher, what In your owl con- =
duct :or efforts does that clause refer TO?
A. 1t refers TO the prolonged endeavor when
had made everywhere to say of the stories that |
about and that had given currency to; that l
believed them TO be false; that / believed Til
ton to be an honest end thoroughly chaste and
be neither lecher nor a drunkard.
Every wheIe attempted to do that which un-
QertCOk 10 DO, 10 relnStaLc MIN rs ne was Wucu
he stood, brilliant man at the hesd
occurrence Of December A. A., BEFORE the
The letter proceeds "But the roots OF this preju-
dice are long. The catastrophy which precipi,
t iSsd eem nom that hS aS existed ions
Neither he nor You can De aware
OF the feelings Of All ,S classes IN society
ton this to explain why know with absolute
certainty that no mere statement, letter, testi-
fairs and reinstate them. Time and work will
But the chronic evil requires chronic remedies.
that shall not stand in the way. am
WILLING TO STEP DOWN AND OUT.
No one can offer more than that. That l do
offec Sacrifice me without hesitation, if you
can clearly see your way TO his safety and happi-
ness thereby. do not think that anything
would be gained by 1t. L should be destroyed,
but lie would not be saved. Elizabeth and the
children would have their future clouded."
regard to any statement or admission of your
own in this clause OF the letter? A. under
stood IL to clear him from every imputation that
affected his character, except those which be-
longed to his latter associations, with So
cialisiic ideas and the Woo0hulls 1t
Elizabeth and the domestic trouble
were to be shielded in silence. 1 could not un-
dertake TO do some things without bringing up
the whole matter in such way that IL would
be disclosed. couldn't undertake TO clear his
CHARACTER in regard 10 his sentiments upon
Bat in regard TO the other, If in regard
TO his household, Elizabeth and the children,
il he wished that on my part 10 be dragged out
and made q subject of investigation. my opin-
ION then was and was through all the years,
that that could never come into the church
without destroying that church, and / would
step down ard out before anything should ever
destroy Plymouth Church. had az exaggerated
of that kind would suffer. Anything but that
the church should stand. Then as for him an
his and the children-this is not exactly the
language of literary or logical statement, but
1t is the language of-(bursting into tearsl as
when Paul and I could wish myself aceurSed
as David said over Absoiom- would to God
that had died for thee. If my going out OF the
church and out of the ministry. and so the des-
tructiOn of my professional life would restore
things as they We're, had the feeling certainly
when wrote this letter, TO give them all up
satiOn). @ The letter proceeds: "In one point OF
view l could desire the sacrifice on my Fart.
OF great darkness, in which spend much of my
time. look upon death as sweeteT faced than
any friend have in the world. Lie would be
pleasant If could seen that rebuilt which is
shattered, but TO live or
THE SHARP AND RAGGED EDGE
of anxiety. remorse, fear, despair end yet TO put
on all the appearance of serenity and happiness
can not be endured much longer" Was that
clause an expression OF your views and your
feelings in view of the situation you have
narrated it? A. Yes. sir. Feeble words. II there
had been any stronger in the English language,
l should have put them in. Q; Now, here is an
expression: "Nothing can possibly be so bad as
the horror of great darkneSs? A. cont
know. Q. That you spent much OF your
only know that am subject TO very profound
darkness at times, and to reactions, Just as am
subject to very great exaltation l didn't do
right when in writing that said "a most OF my
time" | lived very near 10 God then and
most OF my time had peace, but there were
hour of darkness. O. At the time of writing
this letter, what was the condition Of your tenn
per in this regard of depression or exhaustion
A Oh, was in the depth of despair Here
Be- sher wiped away tears. @. Now, in these
clauses or any of them this letter as l read 1t &c
you, was there present TO your mind any
thought or idea of any criminal intercourse with
Mrs Tilton? A. No, none at all; none at all;
had no need OF that: there was enough TO my
Thought in hurting q friend, in destroying 8
hou sehOld, in beiDg uDfatthful to the highes
| houor Of obligation; there was enough in that
| TO torment me with the tormeniS of the damned
| know o. no more horrible thou2ht in THU
| world than 10 betray or hurt a friend. dom
say that other things are not worse but lay
| could suffer as much for tnis as anything,
1 have a capacity to suffer. Q. 81 an
wei nigh discouraged. If yOu,too, cease TO trus
| me to lOve me, am alone. have not another
| person in the world to whom can go" in refer
| ence to what relstions between yoI
and Mouton, with reference to what subjec
did Oh, Could get 5oo there were $1,000 ina
| wanl ed me to go to them; that was simply
1
j ces 10 my friends man who thought to be
man of wonderful fidelity and friendship. Q
| By what circumstances? A. By that policy o
silence by which all of US entered into pledg
TO maintain and which 1 did maintain
IN NAV be here it shall be there Wit
sincere afliction, even though you love me not
| am YOURS though unknown TO you. II. w. b
| Now in this expression, Though you love m
nor1 what was the reference? A. 1t was tn
sting of that Saturday in me when he turne
away from me as though | were unknown I
him 1 was not the man he thought was
Now. In the early part OF the letter you use thl
expression, "If had notgone through
THE GREAT FLOOD OF SORROW,
l could not believe that any one could be aliv
and we'll" @. What sorrow had oppressed yo
during that year? A. o, the everlasting resuI
rectiou of this trouble in one another form c
aerrayation. IL was stilled, but neve
INTO rest: In one shape or anothe
il was still there by the Intervention of outsid
| narties or bv the restlessneSS of parties within
brought again to the surface. thought IL wa