The Cecil Whig. [volume] (Elkton, Md.) 1841-current, 1875-02-06

The last one was Jean Paul Richter's
Titan" saw very little of Philip that
Summer; he was young lawyer living in
our village; but he had gone out West to
attend to some business, and l scarcely
gave him thought during that time.
The family. and all my friends, joked me
greatly about Rudolph, and every one
seemed to consider it sure thing, that we
either were engaged or would be so.
don't know whether l was in love with
him or cot, certainly took great pleasure
in his socie'y; felt happy when he was
present. and missed him when absent;
thought he read aloud and recited better
than any one l had ever heard, and if he
had asked me to marry him, doubt not l
should have accepted him and thought my
joy complete. Yes, l think must have
been in love with him-after fashion, as
we girls used to say. But it was not a very
strong or deep feeling.
And the first of October Kitty came
home. She had had "glorious " visit
Such lots of fun! Such a lovely time at
Cape May! So much attention as she had
received from Minnie's friends, especially
from Mr.. Arthur Lawton, her friends
brother. Little Kit always blushed when
she named him, at which Liz and gener-
ally looked at each other and winked
Rudolph had of course been mentioned
many times in our letters to our little sis
| ter, SO she was wild to see him, and on the
Saturday afternoon after her return, she
made her appearance in the drawing room,
arrayed, knew for conquest. She was a
born coquette, was our Kitty. AS Rudolph
had never actually proposed to me-she
inquired particularly about that think
she thought he was fair game. She looked
very pretty. and I saw with a pang that
Rudolph was struck with admiration for
her. She saw it too, and brought all her
artillery of fascination to bear upon him,
and he gradually yielded to it. Little BY
little his attentions were withdrawn from
me, and bestowed upon her, until l was
fain to confess to myself that my sister
was fast supplanting me, and in my heart
of hearts felt that she was selfish and
unkind.
One evening-Harry and Rudolph had
been spending several days with US, and
the latter had been almost entirely devoted
to Kitty. and merely polite to mo during
that time, this was the last evening of their
stay, and they were to leave on the nine
clock train the next morning-we young
people were all assembled before a warm
fire in the drawing room, dear Mamma
having retired at an early hour. as was
usual with her. Harry and Lizzie were
seated 81 8. sofa, reading from the same
volume, and the other two were looking
over some drawings and photographs at
table. sat where I could see them, and
occasionally join in their conversation. I
did not say much, for I had book in which
| feigned great interest; though scarcely
saw letter on the page, and should not
have understood it if had, for it was that
incomprehensible Titan" After while
their remarks subsidized into whispers, and
l must have been more than mortal if
could have sat the,e unnnoved, under the
circumstances. ! was not unmoved, trem-
BILE even now to remember the bitter feel
ings with which my heart was stirred.
think, if could have annihilated them
| both, would have gladly done it. But
my anger and disgust reached their climax
when Rudolph turned to me and said
miss Susy. l think this sweet little sister
of yours would make a dear little wife,
don't you3'' My heart stood still for an
instant, then pride came to my aid, and
replied with all the nonchalance could
assume, Yes, she would be dear in more
ways than one; she has expensive tastes,
and Anpa sne viii marry rich man;
know she will not be happy else" Rudolph
| knew was poor. In few minutes said.
"Well, good people, am sleepy, SO will
bid you fair gool night, aud retire to
rest"
| | did not dare to shy my prayers tina,
night. | knew that the state of mind
must be offensive to Him "unto whom all
hearts are open, all desires known" l
laid awake for long time, envy, hatred,
malice, and all observation-disclosures had taken
possession of me. did not so much blame
Rudolph as Kitty. | fear was in a mood
to do some desperate deed to her if she had
come in my way then. Suddenly there
was change, whether it was that my rage
had spent itself Oh not. cannot say; bu,
| seemed to hear 4 voice crying, "Susan
Osborne, stop! Where will all this lead
you? Have you so little profited by your
teachings as not to know that "he that
hateth is a murderer?'' What sinful
thoughts are these that you are cherishing
| towards your own sister, the child of you,
mother? Was it all her her faulta Was
it not rather his p? And as for him, Is the
worth one thoughts Would you sacrifice
your love for your sister, for a man so de-
void of honor, as h. has shown himself to
he's And moreover, do you not fear that
God is dspleased with You? No prayers
Why, Susan, you have given yourself over
to the dominion of the evil one. Up, up
and pray for forgiveness ASS iar guild
ance" ~ ;.iG 80. up, / did fail on my
knees in humility, and pray for pardon,
grace, and peace. And that prayer was
answered. On rising. felt that the spell
which had lately bound me was broken.
cared No langer for Rudolph, | felt that l
was free, free, and oh, how l rejoiced in
that freedom. resolved upon a course of
action which put in execution the mex,
day. l soon fell asleep and when woke
the next morning, felt like another girl.
No longer the unhappy neglected one,
wretchedly gnawiGg hes heart out with
jealousy; but a strong, firm, self-reliant
Young woman, independent Of Rudolph
Aymar and his caprices.
When descended to the dining room,
found no one there bat the dear little mother
who was busy as was her wont with some
piece of homely work. AS | gave her 4
ringing kiss, she looked at me inquirirgly
over her glasses-nose nippers they were.