New-York tribune. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1866-1924, 1875-02-20
Mr. BEEcuER HOPELESS AND DESPERATE

O Whom did he address when he said thatg A.
He addressed Mr. Moulton; and they conversed for short
time together and Mr. Mouon left the house and went to the
Office Mr. Beecher lay down the lounge and gave him
cover and he sad This probably my last conversation with
YOU feel that Mr.. Ton publishes my letter Of apology
is longer TO live this down. have never
felt that had much hope for from Theodore he has been
fthess be Is fahles man. he seems TO lose sight OF the
fact that in striking me- in stating the truth concerning
me- he sacrifices his wife, and If that letter OF
apology is published / might as well go out OF
life: Is useless trying TO live 1t down
And sad: mr. Beecher there is something better Tor you
10 do than that think that would be very cowhdy thh
for you TO do Go down to your church and confess your
crime; they will forgive you" lie said "No, cannot do
that for the the who has given me her love- Tor
her children for my family for my church. for my influence
throughout the whole world that never do Will die
before will confess it," And said "SOOner or later the
truth in this will out 1t is much better that you
should take your in your hands and state TO your
cbucheiye 10 them confession such as you could make TO
them and am they would forgive yoa' lie said NO;
that cannot DO should benny children would despse me-
could 20 hack 10 my home and my Church "ould not
forgive me- they would not deal with as you have done
There would be nothing left for me 10 do MY Work would De
finished 1t would that should out OF life than
20 remain any longer IT," And said You could write for
your PAPER You could 20 your farm and WRITE lie said
mo; il they would not listen TO hear me preach they Ger
tany would read anything that should write Besides,
nv position in life that Of spiritual and moral teacher II
can longer hold that POSITION theh hefe ho1hg nit
for me and ON resolved TO take my life l have
q povder at home ON my library table which
have prepared, which / shall take, and shall
,iuk quietly of as going TO sleep, without struggle
haven't any desire to live have nothing to live for IN
fact I pray for death q happy release from all my
,nsl. and trouble and l feel that II publish now
card in The Eagle II will only be temporary relief (;
thai Mr. Tlton is likely break out again at any other
time and feel physically and mentally am unable
snv LONGER To bear this strain and probably shall never
come TO see You again And felt very much greed at
and begged him 20 down to the Church SAID Mr. Aoa
tou will st stand by you; and matter what comes TO
Won | will always be your fricnd and am convinced
that the only way this trouble, for you, Is by
telling the truth" He said that he would come To Gee me
on the day following that he had some gii;- that
he wished to dispose of-sOme little memen'os for different
peope something which he wanted to bear TO Elizabeth
aud something for different friends with messages which
he wanted me 20 bear him. and he would come the
day following 20 see me. 1t a long interview Mr.
Beecher was very much excited he told me- with tears
streaming down bis face, what he Lad suffered;