The Indiana State sentinel. [volume] (Indianapolis) 1868-1895, 1875-04-08
THE INDIANA STATE SENTINEL THURSDAY APRIL s 1875

that hurt me most. felt very acutely that
had done wrong. even in those respects,
towards Mrs. Tilton. On his assurance that
upon me a sense of wrong that was very hard TO
bear. III there was anything, told MIN, IN thls
earth that abhorTed, IL was scandal. and talk
myself clean from them, and that there Were
few persons In the word dare tell me such /
things; and TO find that 1 had been caught
in the slum myself was very hard ior my Prize
had believed that / was ashamed and mortified /
about il, and that IL was all the worse because ~
was towards a friend whom had known ana
whom had loved, and whose household was 10
me
LIKE MY OWN HOME,
and that it was not the way that Tilton
had treated me. When L was in
adversely he dropped everything and
went for the service OF me, because 1t was my
son, which was more than me. lie dropped
everything and went to Washington, and did
great office of kindness for me, but when he was
troubled l found that the first thing that had
done TO take sides against him and add 10
and that could not bear that, and that as IT
regarded his household, Ibid not know hafdly
what to say. 1 could not understand 1t how
Elizabeth should have called me TO a
meeting to counsel her about aseparanon
| interview that there had ever been discrep-
ancy in the household OF such kind as there hsu
been couldn't understand. Wa a, aoS e bt
If she had been led TO transfer her affections rom
her husband by reason OF my presenlee, coudu
not but feel that was blame wo' thy that she was
| a woman quiet and so simple her exterior he,
so far from that that had never suspected, put
me to feel that there had been; that the aliega-
ton was not untrue that had warped her snse-
tervlew of the 3Oth, and it seems to me she must
have been broken down In her moral nature
and that such charges and retracnons anu Win
drawal of retractions, 1t was pitiaOle tnlng'
and indicated that great
MISCHIEF HAD BEEN DONE
IN that household, aud that had been the occa-
sion of 1t was very plain and very evident,
though had not suspected ii, and that led 10
some conversation, in which L expressed my
, doubts of whether this was the first time that
had given vent to all my thoughts and feelings
; The otner interviews had been, as ~
SStop Diplomatic Ras ren but to bosh sde,
, and for the first time gave up to the pent-up
: feelings that had. walked about the room
, l said TO him that 1 couldn't conceive Of any
, thing for which man should blame himself
: and TO be the means of breaking it up; that my
, idea of friendship and love was that 1T gave
5 strength, and that had always supposed that
. my presence in their family was giving strength
2 to all of them; that it was blessing to chill
y dren; that it was help 10 his wife IN
her duties, and that it was not without ben:
eficial influence to Tflton in the long run, and
J., this came upon me Like thunder clap, ana
It was, perhaps, in that relation where was
O somewhat doubling whether 1t could possibly D; ,
be true that Moulton said TO me, sitting in his
u chair, there Beecher put his leg over the arm
l. the chair in illustration, with an in
d de1IlSfn' about that ANY, Mr.. n B. Eizabetf
7. 1Ilton loves your little finger more than she
\ had no means of contradiction. / said to my
). self it has been smouldering fire. burning con
= cealed, and know nothing of IL. felt ashamed
d to saw it is not my fault. / felt rather the i'm
= pulse, suppose, which every gentleman VII
re 0es was
that had had experience; she was child III she
~ did not know that the tendrils OF her affection
IL were creeping upon me, ought 10 have known
j. il, and expressed myself without measure OF
l. that subject, aud alluded in the conversation
y to the conflict which had, the sense OF the feel
IN ing that l had always had for her, as o
l. a saint-like person, and the conflict that nov
DR. was in my mind in respect 70 ner as one ina
4 had been broken down, and had brought theS
A. false charges against me and taken them back
Is and was acting in a manner almost like one tina
4 was bereft OF reason. could not understand II
) Much conversation passed backward ant
IS forward touching on this, that Tllton was sc
v, enemy and that had done him wrong, both il
s his business relations, and that had sought I
% was the harder because the Implication state
or ment that had made use OF my acquired repu
e fGG AND my dRso6
en- that all these, aside from my more pei
ct sOnal action, had EgCne TO overshadOw an
NJ injure him. / protested against any such ide
it that he had occasion tothfnK had done hin
% wrong in the matters OF Bowen.
d WAS ASHAMED
s as to be obliged to admit that 1 had don
IN him intentional wrong in his famil
II But that had wronged him there it was yer
X evident, it seemed to me, from the present con
ne dition and action of Mrs Tilton. Well, we wen
lg over the same ground goo
TO many times, running out a lin
IS, bringing us back again. and on the whole Nj
n Moulton was far less severe with me than l wa
at my own strong language against myself, an
ne said, as the interview drew toward clss,
an what Ssia he had heard, he was satisfied that
nd would remove from his mind animosity and til
s that sa he t had that was sealing h
II and hear, 1 have never opened my heart to yoI
he Said he, write, write these. statements, som
~ Would but was in a whirl, and could not.
er said declined 1t. Well, said he, let me write
on or something 10 that effect, aud said have Il
art objection 10 your writing it, AMI he sat down
~. the table. But the conversation did not stop.
10 amplifed and went on, and finally he said
" me- well will say to him, and the made som
adj remark, looked up and said, will tell Tilton
"a. Of F0 what I had been saying e''s'a sais
ey all right, and he made memorandum of il.
onS Sn o about so nd So and @
he go on talking profusely and long and he woul
on Jot down memorandum about it. and ths
We When he had gone through with IL 1t was abOU
IT; o'clock The bell rang for my supper. On Sur
nd days L take tea at o'clock, in OF
to der to have time TO prepare my note
ng for the evening, and the bell rang for O'Clock
'c- papers. They were separate sheets, and
or, sort of afterthought came TO him, and he saic
nd sign this; you better sign this. said, no, ca
in not sign letter that have not written. Well
On Int, said he it MONT have the inference wit
as said L, this is your memorandum. You tax
TO that and talk on these points
Tlton, and tell him what you hav
heard me say, and If he believes you, 20
a. are his friend. Well he says IL will be a gres
Az deal better If you just put your name to this i
he some way to let him know that 1t is true, an
ii so, on the
n. EDGE OF THE PAPER,
or and remote, nearly as could, from the text
AL signed my name to the statement that con
ID. mitted this. to Moulton, in confidence, and
no that stage L think he gathered the papers III
e. made some remark of qualification, and wer
m down stairs. 1t was about the time of ga