The star. (Cincinnati [Ohio]) 1874-1875, 1875-02-09

Mr.. EVarts, with d careful elocutih
that at once enlisted the tagging atten-
ton of the audience, read the following
letter written by Mr.. Tilton to Mrs. I'll
MY DEARY: Your kind and loving
note falls so pleasantly on my spirits
that l would Immediately go home rhis
afternoon were it not that have engag-
ed togo out this evening.
There is so much sunshine poured into
my little office at this moment that
think never knew a brighter day in my
life; and l hope that some OF the light
and warmth will steal into and remain
within my cold and cruel heart.
1t Is the greatest regret OF my life that
[ do not seem constituted so as to make
you as happy as you deserve to be; but l
have, the best of intentions-and the
worst of success.
The cause of so much trouble at home
is my general anxiety about everything.
Latlerly worry more or less concern
ing every matter which touch. L have
rupted freedom and care. This may
seem an exaggerated statement; but it is
the painful truth. L feel as il L were
growing old before my life. Lights that
Used to burn within me have been
quenched. Hopes are faded; ambition
Is killed; life seems failure.
AS j can not bear to see any express
sion of pain, or sorrow, or regret Oh your
face, / can not bring myself to speak to
YOU familiarly on any subject connected
with our sOrroWs-not even Paul, our
chief. l am literally tormented at hav.
| ing no grave Tor his crumbling clay.
Every ailusion to the subject has been a
pang through my heart.
FI,. nnli, lang ri a n.
difficulties have been, and are, and
| fear must be, shut within myself, be.
cause | cannot open my mouth to you
concerning them without giving you d
wound. You are the finest tbred SOU
that ever was put into body; you jal
at my touch, and am apt to touch Toe
rudely.
AS to my own character, saw at the
| time of PauPs death, what it was to be
| a man, and how far short OF 1t l am my.
self, and have ever since been utterly
overwhelmed with my own worthless
ness, selnsnness, degradation, and wick
edness. At some time l expect to re-
cover from this slough Of despond; but
not now. L must remain longer Ill sur
fering before / can emerge into peace
I have been overthrown, and, be. ore
rise, l must be made to feel, like An
teus, that strength comes from touching
the ground.
| Upon the following paragraph Mr.. Ev
arts put strong emphasis, especially
upon the words in italics:
But the chief of all miseries is this
that impart them to others. Let mt
say. with the utmost feryor of protesta
ltion. that neither you, nor the children
nor the house, nor the servant, nor any
thing that is within our gates-not on
talone, nor all lcombined--no, none of thes'
persons or things, has the slightest origin
oting share IN my troubles. Those trou
| b,es, such as they are, are of my oWl
making. Would to God they were ais
of my own enduring! But they have t
inflicted upon others-upon Yourself an
! the children. 1t is this fact that double
my afliction.
|, But YOUR kind and tender words, per
J ciied in the studio this morning, Wer
very precious To me--sWeeter than none
/ in the honeycomb. l write tins letter o
purpose to thank you for them. GO
bless you evermore. Lovingly yours,
I'll THEODORE.
, Before q dozen lines had been rea
= the shaking of "A paper which Mf. TITO
: held in his hand betrayed has emotion
: aud ut the close the tears ran down hi
e cheeks.
e "Have you the note to which this wa
an an apsWerW asked Mr.. ETarts.
Mr.. Tilton replied with an effort ;
n seli-control, but IN u trembling voice, :
I ,Hesume it is with the rest OF the p
: pers." The letter could not be ioun
however, and as it WAS time for adjourn
g Iment, the weeks work olosed.-N.
Ipun.