The New York herald., 1874-08-14

with regard 70 that. merely refer to my prevtous
add that on this day iclt symptoms upon me-
re %an pUns 70 snss wss worried out wS s the %
escape BY death OF which long had little dread.
conld see no END but oestn to the accumulation
no more time In making matters worse. / ielt
that MT Moulton had better stop, too. and let the
full and true statement which now MAKE, ana
10 leave the result with God
NOT TO BRTRAY THE WOMAN.
Mr.. Tlton had repeatedly urged me, az stated in
my letter, not to belray his wlIe and felt bound
BY every sense OF honor in case should be pressed
by inquiries rom my church or family as to the
foundations OF rumors which might reach them TO
keep this promise. BY THIS promise meant only
that would 0etray the excessive affection which
mis- wife, rs had been told had conceived for me
and had confessed to him. It certainly did nat
~ it's wonS SsS hsSs
self would BEEN to Be menopeG
calm and reserved, rather than gloomy MIR. MouI-
ton wrote. that same day, o letter OF three and
nsli sneets OF copy paper. he began as follows:-
Mr.. koULToNs LETTER.
MI DsAR FRlRnD-YOn know I have never been In
sympathy with the mood out Of which you lsys often
ms, Ss sDS.sa i. 4 Ss Know You ssn stand q shs
1t shows selfish tsith in Goo.
Having proceeded thus far Mr.. Moulton seems to
have perceived that the tone OF this letter was
rather likely to determine me In my determina-
ton to publish the whole case than otherwise,
and as this was opposed to the whole line OF his
the whole OF TINS and commenced anew, writing
the following letter.
FRANK 10 BssoHzs.
Of summer dark and cold, ike vault You have never
yoH siOss % my hands would have % aropped helpless
Sa s So T. ss S re il sc
SSs 4 IN as M S.sn and s
patny with; but that absolutely sohor the unmany
HS0 This mood oe % reservoir Sf mdsw You cam stand
s % e %
a y od Ssp 5 snS s dS
as sa s a nd % ;na
hs a a% sssi5 Ss o a n ~SS
in some Of the papers made i 50 appear
May God bless yOu. know He win protect a. Yours
In the haste OF writing Mr.. Moulton apparently
failed to perceive what he had written, In the
first instance. one side OF half sheet or paper,
and used the clean side of that half sheet for the
purpose OF the letter. which he sent IN the shape
be mad gwen. But II Will be seen that he de-
main statement that there was nothing In the
whole case on which could not safely stand.
such morbid despair as he had often reprosched
me for, and urged me strongly to maintain my
faith IN him. nIton yielded to his persuasion and
graciOusly allowed himself to be sOOthed by the
the authorship Of the base lies TO which the trip
artite covenant referred. So once more, and
this time against my calmer judgment, patched
up hollow peace With him.
TILTON'e BLACKMAIILNa.
The full truth OF this history requires that one
more TACT should be told especially as Mr.. Triton
has invited It. Money has been obtained from me
in che course OF these affairs In considerable sums,
but did not at first look upon the suggestions
that should contribute to Mr.. Tilton's pecuniary
occur to me until had paid perhaps g. 900 After
ward contributed at one time, $4,000 After tho
money naa been PAID over IN & nve s., 600 nis.to
very much dissatisfied with myself about 1t.
Fnally a square demand and threat were made
to me by my confidential friend that II $4,000
more were not paid Tilton's charges would be laid
before the puDlc. This saw at once was black.
1t, but challen qed and requested the fullest ex-
posure But after the summer Of 1873 ! became
inevitably, ruined man. | No longer trusted
either his word or his honor. l came to feel that
hs'kindness was but snare and his professions
well by me nor BY hts own household; but i sur
Tered all the more on this account. AS he had
Could never lree myself from a certain degree Of
responsibility for his misdoings such as visits
amounted almost to mania. Among the last
desperate enorts to restrain hm from overwhelm-
mood Of scandal which he mad BY this
Ws the Mr. and ss
proceedings Of the. Examining Committee Of the
to prevent In any iorm would strive to prevent
the Delcnng i0rtn Of scandal. but In that form 1t
was peculiarly distastefu. IL presented no square
issues upon whicn my guilt or innocence could be
tried. IL was roundabout issue, on which Mr.
Tlton could have escaped possibly by showing that
he had not "circulatedn shem or by the mere fail
ure on the other side TO prove that he had done
sns ne ne ANY was suc
hallway decision would leave me In the attitude
OF overthrow and YET no party 70 the case. More.
my church against him, and was bound he should
not think that; tor II 1t had not been for me he
non attendance and Tor mis- distinct notice 10 me
that ne was out OF the church. had got the Ex-
aiming Committee to postpone M s. the @ usual sSa9n
church. and thought tnat would gradually inhu-
ence him for good. Indeed he mad deluded me
with hopes that he would give up bis bad women
associates and reform hs life.
BEECHER READY TO RESIGN.
felt that we had no right to claim him as q
member under the circumstances for the sole pur-
pose OF his public trial. Mr.. MOulton insisted that
everything must be done to prevent that trial as
the Examining Committee was likely to be equally
divided whether the facts sustained Mr.. nlton's
plea, whether he was out Of the church or not.
70 Mr.. MouItOn for him and do all
IN human power to- save him even
resen esR snss would Stop the Scandal wrote
. letter OF resignation, not referring to charges
against me, but declaring that mad striven Tor
dai Affecting family In the church, and that as
had failed herewith resigned. This letter was
never sent. little caner thought showed me
how futie 1t would be to stOp the IrOuble-a mere
useless self-sacrce; but showed 1t TO Nj. M0utOni
possibly he copied 1t have found the original OF
II In my house II could at the moment remem-
ber any OF the other letters which ! have written
to Mr.. M0ulton, l would do SO. II ne has pre-
served all my efusions OF feeling. he must have
large collection. ! wished him to bring them all
before the committee. should have been glad to
get such hints as they may contain TO re-
fresh recollection of faCtQ and
quences. have no fear OF their full
and fair publication, for though they would doubt
less make o sad exposure OF my weakness, grief
and despondency, they 40 not contain line con-
Tossing such guilt as has been charged upon me or
word inconsistent with my innocence nor any
other spirit than that Of generous remOrse over
great and more ana more rreparable evil. But
however intense and numerous may be these ex-
pressions OF grief they cannot possibly over
state the anxiety which l constantly felt
for the future (the perils OF which 1t Is now clear