The Wheeling daily intelligencer. [volume] (Wheeling, W. Va.) 1865-1903, 1874-08-15

life, 70 q very solemn scene with his fathC
on the eve Of his leaving home, VIII
pointed out 10 him the nature Of amorou
temptation and the snares and evils 10 b
dreaded from unlawful practices. He d.
elared that he had always been kept spo
less by the memory of that scene. wa
glad to believe il true, and felt how hard
was that he was made to suffer by evil an
slanderous foes. could not explain som
OF the testimony which had been laid bC
fore me, but said, "There Is undoubtedl
some Misunderstanding, and If I kne,
tho whole, ! should find Theodore, wit
obvious faults, at heart sound aud good.
These views | often expressed 10 intimat
friends in spite Of their manifest incredu
lily and what in the light Of facts, I mus
now call their well-deserved ridicule.
Mr.. Moulton lost no occasion of pre-
sening 10 me the kindness Of Tilton'
character and conduct. On the othe
hand, he complained that Mrs. Tilton di,
not trust her husband or him, and did no
assist him in his efforts 10 help Theodore
knew she diStrlsted MOulton and felt Bit
terly hurt by the treatment of her hus
band, and was urged 10 use my influence
with her to inspire confidence in Moultol
and to lead her to take n kinder view o
Theodore. Accordingly, at the instanc,
Of Mr.. Moulton, three letters were writer
on the same day February II, 1871 OF
one common purpose, 10 be shown to Ms
Tilton nnd-tO reconcile her TO her hus
band, and my letter to her Of that dat,
was designed to effect n further or collate
raj purpose Of giving her confidence il
Moulton. This will be obvious from thu
reading Gf the letters.
I have no recollection Of seeing or hear
ing read the letter of Mr.. Tiltou Of the
same date. In my letter to Mrs. Tilton
alluded TO the fact that did not expec
when ] saw her last to be alive many days
That statement stands connected with 9
series Of symptoms which first expert.
enced in 1855, l went through the Ere,
mont campaign speaking IN the open all
for three hours at time three days in a
week. On renewing my literary labors
felt that must have given way. l very
seriously thought tina. was going to have
Hpoplexy or paralysis or something Of that
kind. On two or three occasions, while
preaching, should have fallen in the
pulpit if / hadn't held on to the table.
Very often l came near falling in the
streets. During the last fifteen years
have gone into the pulpit I suppose q
hundred times with very strange i'm
preston that should never come out Of
it alive. ! | have'preached more sermons
than any human being would believe when
l felt all the while that whatever I had
got 10 say TO my people I must say it then
or never would have another chance TO
use it. If l had consulted q physician
hisadvice would have been, You must stop
work." but was in such situation that
l could not stop work. read the best
medical books on symptoms OF nervous
prOstration and overwork and paralysis
and formed my own judgment of my case.
The three points l marked were that
must have good digestion, good sleep, and
l must go on working. Those three
things were to be reconciled, and in regard
to my diet and stimulants and medicines
made most thorough and searching trial.
and as result, managed my body 50 that
l managed TO get the most work out of it,
without essentially impairing it. If 1 had
said word about this to my family it
would have brought such distress and anx.
lety on the part Of my wife as I cannot
bear. l have for many years 50 steadily
taxed my mind to the utmost that there
have been periods when I could not afford
to have people express even sympathy
with me-to have my wife and friends
anxious and show it to me would be
just the drop loo much. In 1858 1 came
again into the same condition just before
going 10 England, and it was one of those
reasons why l was wishing to 60. The
war was at its height. l had the Inds.
pendent in charge and was working,
preaching and leCturing continually, and
knew 1 was likely to be Frustrated again.
In December, 1870, the sudden shock Of
these troubles brought on again these
symptoms in more violent form. was
very much depressed in mind, and all the
more because it was one of those things
that l could not say anything about. I
was silent to everybody. During the last
four years these symptoms had been re-
peatedly brought on by my intense work
carried forward on IN underlying basis OF
80 much sorrow and trouble. Ny friends
will bear witness that in the pulpit have
very frequently alluded to my expectation
of sudden death, Ifeel that l have more
than once already been near stroke that
would have killed or paralized me, and
l carry with me now, as I have 50 often
carried In years before, this trouble be.
gan, the daily thought of death as a
door which might open for me ut any
moment, and take me out of all cares into
welcome rest.
During the whole Of the year 1871 was
kept in q state Of suspense and doubt, not
only as TO the future Of the family, for the
reunion and happiness of which I had
striven so earnestly. but as to the degree
TO which might personally be subject, to
attack and miscOnstruction, and the trouble
that would be brought into the church and
magni6ed by publicity, the officers of the
church sought TO investigate Tilton's re-
ligious views and moral conduct, and on
the latter point have been deceived into
the belief that he was not in fault as to the
religious views. I still hoped for a change
for the better, as it was proposed to DROP
his name from the list Of members for non.
attendance, and, as he asserted 10 me, hi!
withdraWal.-This might have been done
but his wife still attended church aud
hoped for his restoration. l recolecl
having with him conversation, in which
he directly intimated to me that he thought
it not unlikely that he might go back int
his old position. He seemed to be- in Q
mood to regret tho past and SO when I wa
urged by the Examining Committee tc
take some step, l said I was not without
hopes that by patiences and kindness Til
ton would come back into his old church
work and be one of us again. / therefore
delayed decision upon this point for Q
long time. Many Of members were anxious
and impatient and there were many tokens
of trouble from this quarter. Meanwhile
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