, 1874-06-21

I thought should never be surprised again in
the world, but Fate is fond OF turning strange
cards. The jode must have her sleeves full Of
them by the way she has swept my tricks OF late
To think that used to bo what people called
''pretsy Kate Craigie," with the 1ossy black hair
curling OF the waves about the face, md blue
eyes between the laugh and the droop, hidden by
leathery lashes-pale o the cheek but rose-red
in the 1ips-O Katie Craigie, where have you
gone
have not seen myself for many long day.
not the fringe OF curl, the tints OF the haw-
thorn bloom T used to have. Instoad for fve
years I've seen in my glass another woman,
with
THE YOUTH DYING OUT OF HER FACE,
too yellow-pale to suit rusty alpacas, the multi
plcation table in rows on her forehead. and diyi-
sion between her eyes. The sum that plaques
her believe is how to make three SO into one,
and leave something over. But my eyes trouble
me- most ny hair went long ago in tho fever,
and came in straight, but that is well enough,
for tho Craigies have low, wide brows that don't
noed shading. But the color was washed out Of
my face and eyes at the same time, aud
where they were like April bluc-bellB,
in tho light and the dew, now they are
faded out Like the dress 1 wore years ago
at my last party. Yheres nothing left Of my
old self but my hands and my feet, slim and
orderly Us ever. couldn't endure to walk as
some women do, throw ing my hounce about, and
showing the action as every step. But, y dear!
do wish could afford SO boots once more.
Tie luxury Of a boot as light as glove, and
that lifted as one! could forswear silk for
that indulgence And I would like the new
rings they are wearing, the crosses Of five dia-
mouds, the sapphire blocks with L brilliant each
side, aud those soft Spanish scarfs OF lace that
are no earthly use but to look pretty, and show
that a woman is a woman, and not merely
useful being, tit to sit in an Office with the big
books before her, keeping accounts.
Sydney Kerr came IN to-dny: and paid bill
acrosa tie counter yard from me,
WITHOUT KNOWING NE.
Seven years ago, either Of us knew whom the
other entered the house, just by tho magnetic
sympathy that made closer than Siamese twins
OF us, And he cume up to Tarrytown one night
on the II o'clock express, fer thu FaKe OF stay
ing Ten minutes on our balcony, aud going back
by the last trim to be all right at his uncle's
early breakfast next morning. He wearn the
same dark gray he used to delight in, with
little fiery rose at his bustonhole- All, that
rosebud used to be always cut from my garden,
aud placed there BY my hand! He has grown
little stout, and. is mirthful and ease-lorlng az
fond Of his boat, his opera-bo1, and his club
cook. didn't turn to see him, nor feel more
than pleased curiosity when he came or when
he went away.
Gi1ls will be such fools-1 had thai foyer for
his sake seven years ago. They Say every par
tclo Of ourselves changes once in seven years,
ard am glad lis true. There isnt one fibre of me
dead with love for Sydney Kerr any more. could
wish had loved and suffered for man one could
respect ones eelf for loving. 1t would be sweet
to regret him--but man who let his uncle talk
him out Of his engagement because the girls
family was not good enough is not the sort wish
to spend memory upon.
Kate Cralgle, you are poor indeed
A 1EM1nY
is allowed you.
As for the rest, there Is in this fffh-story
room my nlignonette plant, and photograph Of
A1urska, an outlook into q sunny old church
ward in tho heart of the city, for which I am
glad, and tho books Of tho MeBsrs. Appledore to
koep in room where the Light lies all day I
a,n glad there ia 80 much sunshine in my life.
It has Kept mo-not alive, for mn aot 80 TN
NAV ssy. There is Petroneila Davis. poor reed
OF 4 thing. standing over her books in the dark
all day III dark Murray street Wareroom, toll
ing upstairs with the big folios every afternoon
her but dying Of consumption. There ia no
death in me ret. am vital to the tips Of
nv fngers-which don't mako things any
easier to bear. Hush that said itself. My
trouble is pltiful one, ana YET sun sailer 60
they do once in q while, the four corners OF tho
house falling at once. If Jerome hadn't broken
his arm last year so that had to go home and
nuree him, losing my salary for three months,
that last instal1nent OF the mortgage would have
been paid and We shouldn't have renteCh the
homaetead to mdet It. And when sent for the
las. half years due to pay mothers board. Andy
Graves, the tenant, had run away, without leaving
= cent behind. And Mr.. Appledore was kind
enough to lend me the money. and direct it too,
to 1877 Somer street when my number is 336, and
the letter was sent back to the post-ofhce, and
the "Searcher" knows nothing OF it when I
writo him, and can't get down to the Nassau-
&f,n Go ot,atf2
closes at 8. And my head is getting wrong with
living awake, trying to see q way out OF these
troubles so that mother
MAT HAVE ROOF OVER Her
in her old age I went to Mary Ellis for little
consolation the other day. It seemed as il
could beaz the weight better 10 hoar word Of
heartfelt friondliuess and sympathy. 1t would
rest me- Bit and make my nefTt8 stronger ano
my head clearer. This was the way u she net me:
going to do now? OF course you can't take that
striped silk you were going to buy With me.
We'll. it's very hard. Some people orc always
unfortunate. II you only had yourself to thlnk
OF. how nicely you might be getting along 1har a.
parents have TO depend On children in old age.
tIy father wns not rich man, but ne
lad enough to live on without coming to nus
ehld1en and he gaze Us ~ tTs G9oo sn, aare Of
myself, there is so much expected OF lady 7, N
dress aud appearance nowadays. Isn't thus
scarf pretty? gave sig for it yesterday.
I've been saripg my odd dollars . "on'n
for it,"
ali yes, SO much is expected Of one nova
days in the way Of appearance. Ny way would
be easier il I could walk down street to-mofto"
with shilling dress on without compromising nt
my employers or my own 1esPeetaollitty IT, dno a.,
mnnds. great cluster ring and solitaire at each
ear, has her laces, aud will so to Europe ne1t
wear, on SALARY pnt little larger than
nine. And for the life of mo l can't
Afford those $40 boots on sl5 q week.
as1 Wsth has 70 % pa
varses this fau; but don't know that I'm better
given me- was going up Beekman street after
Her afternoon, @ % when always an dismissed at 5 +
isn't Of tho srset1 IN Ne" ,oae
nt.v;nc ike a cLi1d with the idea OF owning the
things IN tho windows. There is 1a1dnase 1r1saas
store which always has great shining furnaces
and stoves out on tho sidewalk. aud am MAKING
mn mr. mind whether that tiny lustrous larlor