The democrat. [volume] (Weston, W. Va.) 1868-1874, 1874-02-23

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Leasing was almost unknown IN Eng
land, and that my labor accordinelyhsd
been wasted. Z. s77c. ssi- fr.g IN 7
~ had been proud and hopeful Of my
picture, though I can admit now that K
was a crnde and clumsy performance.
Ny friends criticised II very freely.L
they grew derisiye over II. j, thought
this hard, because the work had really
cost me.mueh. Ihayenot q ready hand.
Icouldp never design my adroitness.
For one stroke that 10 correct I execute
six that arc all wrong !; 80 my canyas
comes TO have admuddledfb dfblundehng
look. lam myself shocked Iat ia ugli.
ness. Yet I Iispally9with obstinSte
toll and severe persist q eneJy575get things
right at last. M sa,.t Nj " sSiSIl,
My friends had quick eyes and 9desl
terous hands4theylsketched with snr.
prisihg facility and vivid effect, Al
phonse, as I will call him, was inhi way
especially gifted. He could design as
deftly ashe could twist up a cigarette,
or twist the end of. his 'mustachet tibt5
pin.points. A, few movements ofhis
pencil and the thing was done. Much
more than this I think he copld not nc.
complish. He was true 70 his origin 1
he was Of anation Of sketehers.- great
at beginning, leaving completeness and
achievement TO thersAthe Germans
Let MS say. ,fttplaa
He grihned wickedly, scofingly atny
picture. nQlss, 10 liiipF dHlt
q Mypoor Hans, said an English.
man, kindlyr7he has grown famous
since, I am CLAY TO say, for he was
true artist-Hthis will not do. Turn
Minna Won Barnhelm to the wall. That's
myadyice. Paint something smaller,
simpler, or you will stand no chance
with the dealers. :" =
When we were alone, he profered me
help from his purse-thoughEi II was bat
poorly furnished, and he was, I knew,
in debt. I would not,borrow Of him !;
but / thanked him till my, voice failed
me, and I could not see for my tears.
l had by this time quite q pack Of
pawn tickets. 1rwas subaisting, like o
moth. on myclothes. Acoat lastedme
aweek, a nwaistcoat three days, and so
on. But soon I should have nothing
more 70 pledge, and them? 20 y:
= i was very miserable. i could see
suspicion and mistrust on the face of
my landlndy, printed in deeper and
palmer lines every day. She was afraid
Of losing her rent. She told me must
give up my garret, and find another
home. Wherep In the street-or tie
Thames2, ,.,.-., .+..,..tf
I tried To live or, as little as possible.
Invent out every day for an hour or 60,
that nv landlady might think I was
dining I-walked hitRer and thithCr,
in retired streets, furtiyely deyouring
| a penny Loaf Of bread-itwss all / could
afford. Then I returned, effecting a
| lieht step, singing or whistling, with
/ t6e All: 81 ono refreshed md In good
spirits. BntI was an Indifferent actor.
Was she duped, that landlady, I won.
Han? PERKINS,. Mystomach was not,
Tknov. There was no deceiying that,
IAasWlnt comfort was letb me Olly my
nine and nv love for Frederick. And
presently nv pine had TO go-round
| tic corner nv love, NOT being ilego.
tiAble. alone remained.
III, tried 10 paint-something, any.
thing. a5sketch, afstudy, that would
bring money to buy food with. Ny
English friend set mp m easel for mo II
bis studio. He had modelsi coming to
him sufSly / could'do something with
tbemp Here was 4 AIulatto, Of superb
contour, muscular, sinewy, nobly pro.
p6ftioned "a Hercules in bronze. Hero
q lovely English Lgirl, o bouquet Of
bright cotors, roses and lilies, yiolcts
and golds Here o. Spanish gypsy, with
blue.black hair, hashing eyes, ivory
teeth, and cheeks like fusset apples,
flushed With sunset : Il
? IT was in vain. N.Y. heavy heart
weighed down myfhand. IL was dullef,
more awkward, and inert than ever. |
could do nothing.
I retreated To- my garrett. l flung
myself upon. my truckle bed; NOT to
sleep, but TO torture myself with fears,
memories; dreams, my head burning,
my brain disorderedK = nJ nvk
Dusk came, and theniinight. Ihc
moon!raysS flooded the room, to fadeE
gradually into the yellow twilight Of
the morning Another day was dawn, |
ing 10 find me more wretched ana iGf,
lorn and destitute than ever 4 could
not rise. I lay upon my bed, dressed
as / was, thinking thinkipg- in CON
fused, fesered way; not ot the y future
I did not dare do that-but' OF the past
and the miserable, most miSerablepfes,