Alpena weekly argus. [volume] (Alpena, Mich.) 1871-1893, 1874-08-26
BEECIIER-TILTON.
MIR. Bcccher's Statement.
CONTINUED.

CONTINUED.
were set against me, and the tattle
of a crowd Of malicious women,
hostile to me on other grounds, was
borne to my ears, when / had lost
the last remnant of faith in Tbeo-
dore, or hope for him, when heard
with unspeakable remorse that ev-
erything | had done to stay his de-
stIuction had made matters worse
and worse, and that my attempt to
keep him from n public trial in
volving such flow of scandal as
has now been let loose had been
used by him to bring up new
troubles ; that his unhappy wife
was under his dictation signing pa
pers and recantations and know
not what that III short everything
was breaking up and the destruc-
ton from which l had sought to
save his fnmily was likely to be
emptied on other families-the
church, the COMMUNICATIVE in
finite horrors of woe for me that
nv own innocence was buried un
der heaps and heaps of rubbish,
and nobody but my professcd
friend-if even he-could save us,
to his assurances that he could still
do so | gave at least so much faith
as TO maintain under these terrible
trials the silence which ne enjoined
Not until Mr.. Tilton, having at
tempted through Frank Carpenter
to raise money from my friends
openly assailed me in q letter tc
DR.. Bacon did / break that silence
save by simple denial of the sland
erous rumors against me of n yeal
before, when on the appearance o
the first open attack from Mr.. Til
ton | Immediately, without consult
ing Moulton, called for thorough
investigation with a committee o
my church. ! am not responsible
for delay. The publicity of th'
details of that investigation, all tn
harm which l have so long dreaded
and have so long striven to avoi'
has come to pass. | could no
further prevent it without a fuI
surrender of power and truth
The time has arrived when | ca
freely speak in vindication OF my
self.
| labor under great disadvar
. tages in making statement. Nj
memory of status of mind is clea
and tenacious, better than m
memory of dates and details. Dui
ing four troubled years, in all
which have been singularly bul
dened with public labor, havin
established and conducted tn
Christian Union, delivered course
of lectures, preaching before tn
Theological Seminary of Yale Go
lege. written the "Life of Christ
delivered each winter lyceum le'
tures in all the North and West
all these duties, with the care of
great church and it outlayin
Schools and chapels and miscellan'
ous business, which falls upon
clergyman more than upon an
other public mani have kept
, regard. and now with the necessit
. of explaining actions and lettel
resulting from complex influence
apparent at the time, / find myse
, in n position where / know my Il
b nocence, without being able
prove it with detailed explanation
am one upon whom trouble worl
inwardly, making me outward
Il silent, but reverberating in u
chambers of my soul, and when
length | do speak it is q pent |
food, and pours without measu
100 or moderation. ! inherit a tie
'CC dency to sadness, the remains
700 700 me Of positive hypochondria in n
100 father and grandfather, and in &C
tain moods Of reaction the wol
,.o becomes black and see very G
~ spairingly. If were in such
mood to speak as | feel | shor
BOO Give false colors and cxaggerat
900 proportions to everything. ~
manifestation is in such contrast