The Wheeling daily intelligencer. [volume] (Wheeling, W. Va.) 1865-1903, 1874-08-15

AiSlt 1uSn utVueI lucy would nave OtTA
and brake out, but chung under advice
Just given, and Going my own duiy
have had no difficulty In my church.
The letter from Beccher TO Moul,op
referred 10 10 the beginning Of the cross.
examination, Is as follows,
MONDAY, Feb, Q, 1872.
MY DEAR FRIRND-I leave town 10
day and expect to pass through from
Philadelphia 10 New Haven, ! shall no
DO here until Friday. About three week
ago | met fillnn IN the cars going L
u. He was kind and We talked much, ht
told me 10 60 on with my work withou
the least anxiety, SO far as his feelings snt
actions were tho occasion Of apprehen
sion. On returning home from NewHaven
where | am three days in the week, de-
liYeriDg course oil lectures TO the Theo
logical Students" found a nolo from
E saying that T. felt hard toward me
and was going 10 see or write to mo be-
lore leaving Tor the West. She kindly
added. "Be not cast down, I bear this
almost always, but the God in whom We
trust, will deliver US all safely" know
you do, and are willing a6undantly tC
help him, and ! also know your embsr'
rassments. There were added words oil
warning, but also Of consolation, Tor be
lieve L. Ia beloved OF God, aud that her
prayers are for me, and are sooner heard
than mine, for myself or for her. But It
seems that change has come
TO Tilton since saw him In
the cars; indeed, ever since he has felt
more intensely the force oil feeling IN 30
ciety, and the humillations which environ
bis enterprise. He has growingly felt
that | had power TO help which | did
not develops, and l believe that you have
participated In this feeling. 1t Is natural
that you should. Tilton is dearer to you
than can DO. Ho Is with you; all his
trials lie open 10 you daily, but see you
but seldom, and my personal relations,
environments, necessities, Limitations,
dangers and perplexities you cannot see
nor imagine. II l had not gone through
this great year OF sorrow, would not
have believed that anyone could pass
through my experience and be alive or
sane. l have been the centre OIL three
distinct circles, each Of which required
clear.mindednesa and peculiarly inventive
or originating power, VIZ first, the great
church; second, the newspapers; third, the
book. The first could neither get out Of
nor slight. The sensltiveness OF so many
Of my people would have made any ap-
pearance Of trouble or any remission Of
Iorce an occasion Of alarm and notice,
and would have excited where It was
important that rumora should die and
everything be quieted. The newspaper,
| did the roll Of doing but little except to
give general directions, and IN so doing !
was continually spurred and exhorted by
those in its interest. II could not be
helped. The lille Of Christ" long de-
layed, had locked up the capital Of the
1rm and was likely to sink them. Fin
shed, 1t must be. Was ever book born
Of such sorrow as that; was the interior
history Of 1t never 10 be wrilten2 Dur
ing all this time you literally were all
my stay and comfort. ! should have
fallen on the way but Tor the courage
which you inspired and the hope which
you breathed.
by vacation was profitable. ! came
back, hoping that the bitterness Of death
was past. But Tilton's troubles brought
back the cloud with even seYerer suffer.
ngs; for all this fall and winter l have
relt that you did not feel satisfied with
ne, and seemed 10 both you and Tilton
as ContenliDg myself with a cautious or
sluggish policy, wishing 10 save myself,
but not TO risk everything for Tilton. !
have again and again probed my heart to
see whether was truly liable 10 such
feeling, and the response Is unequivocal
that l am not. No man can see the diff.
culties, then, environing me unless he
stands where do. You say that have
3 church on my hands. That Is simple
enough; but 10 have hundreds and thou
sands Of men pressing me, each one with
his keen suspicion, or anxiety, or zeal-to
see the tendencies which, II not stopped,
would break out into ruinous defense Of
me; 10 stop them without seeming 10 do
i; 10 prevent any one from questioning
me; 10 meet and sllay the prejudices
against Tilton, which had their beginning
years before ihis; to keep serene, as If l
was not alarmed or disturbed; 10 be
cheerful at home and among friends
when l was suffering the torments Of the
damned; TO pass sleepless nights often,
yet to come up fresh Tor Sunday-all this
may be talked about, but the real thing
cannot be understood from the outside,
nor It's wearing and grinding on the ner-
vous system. God knows that have put
more thought and judgment and earnest.
mesa into my efforts TO prepare a way for
TIltou and Elizabeth than ever did for
myself, hundred fold. AS to the outside
public, have never lost an opportunity
10 soften prejudices, 10 refute ialsehOodS,
aud 10 excite kindly feeling among all
whom / met. lam known among clergy.
men public men, and generally among
The makers oil public opinion, and l have
lsed every rational endeavor 10 repair the
evils which have been visited upon Mr.
Tilton, and with increasing success; but
The roots OF this prejudice arc long. The
catastrophe which precipitated him from
his place only disclosed feelings that had
existed long. Neither he DOR you can be
aware Of the feelings Of certain classes in
society on other grounds than the late ri.
nors. l mention this to explain why l
know with absolute certainty that no
mere statement or affirmation will reach
he root OF tho Gfiairs and reinstate them.
Time and work will; but chronic evils re.
luire chronic remedies. II my destruc-
lion would place him all right, that shall
not stand in the way. l am willing to
step down and out; no one can offer more
than that, That l do offer. Sacrifice me
without hesitation If you can clearly
sec your way 10 his happiness
and safety thereby. l do not think
anything would DO gained by 1t. l
should DO destroyed, but he would be
saved, and the children would have their
future clouded. In one point Of view l
could desire the sacrifice on my part,
can possibly DO 60 bad IS the
horror Of great darkness, 10 which /
spend much Of my time. look upon
death as sweeteriaced than any friend l
have In the world. Lie would DO pleas.
ant n nnnlh ana that Fnhnilk which Ia