The Wheeling daily register. [volume] (Wheeling, W. Va.) 1864-1878, 1874-08-14

! whom trouble works inwardly, making
me outwardly silent but reverberating in
/ the chambers of my soul, and when at
length I do speak its pent up food pours
! without measure or moderation.
| IInherita Tendency 10 Sadness,
the remains in me of positive hypo-
chandria in my father and grandfather,
and in certain moods of reaction the
world becomes black, and see very des-
psrtingly. III were in in such mood TO
speak as feel should give false colors
and exaggerated proportions to every
! thing. This manifestation is in such con-
trast to the hopefulness and courage
which | experience in ordinary times,
| none but those intimate with me would
suspect me so full of overhQwing spirit
and eager gladsomeneSs, TO have within
me a score Of gloom. Some of my let
tiers to Mr.. Moulton reflect this morbid
feeling. He understood il, and at times
earnestly reproached me for indulging il
With this preliminary review l proceed
to my narrative:
Mr. Tnton was First known TO Me ~
Reporter Of MY Sermons
He was then youth just from school,
and working on the New York Observer,
and from this paper he passed TO the
independent, and became great fsvorite
of Mr.. Bowen. When about 1861 Drs.
Bacon, Storrs and Thompson resigned
their places became editor of the hHdc-
pcndcnt, to which | had been from its
start contributor. One of the induce
ments held out to me was that Mr. Tilton
should be my assistant and relieve me
from the routine of Office work. In this
relation became very much attached TO
him.
Tilton and Beecher went TO Private
shops Together.
We used to stroll to the galleries and
private shops, and dine often together,
His mind was opening freshly, and with
enthusiasm npon all questions. | used
to pour out my ideas Of civil affairs, pub
lie policy, religion and philanthropy. OF
this he has often spoken with grateful
appreciation, and mourned at a later day
over lis cessation. August was my va
cation month, and my family repaired to
my farm in June and July and remained
there during September and October, my
labors contining me 10 the city. | took
my meals in the family of friends, and
from year to year | became so familiar
with their children and houses that |
went in and out daily almost aS in my
own house.
TiItOn Urges Him Ia Come often.
Mr.. Tilton often alluded Ia this habit,
and urged me to do the same by hs
house He would often speak in cXtray
agant terms Of his wife's esteem and aficc-
tion for me. After had began to visit
his house he sought TO make it at
tractivc He urged mc to bring my
papers down there and use the study 10
do my writing in, as it WAS not pleasant
IL write at the office Of the independent
When ] went to England in 1863, Mr..
Tilton took temporary charge uf tho H'-
pcndeHt. On my return ! paved way
for him to take sole charge oft, my name
remaining one year and then he bceom-
ing responsible for it.
TiIton's First Assault.
Friendly relations continued until 1863,
when violent assaults were mndc
on me by Tilton in the hdcprN-
dcm on account Of my Cleveland
letter, and temporary discrimination Of
the publication Of my sermons IN that
paper. ] broke oil my connection with
it, although Mr.. Tilton and ] remained
personally on good terms, yet there was
II GOODNESS between Us. In all matters at
politics our social relations were very
kindly, and as late as 1863. At his
request | set to Page some fifty times
for portrait.
II was there that first met and talk.
cd with Nr. MouIton,
whose wife was "A member Of my church,
though he WAS not member, nor even
regular attendant. During this whole
period ] never received from Mr.. Tilton
or any member of his family Che slightest
hint that there was any dissatisfaction
with my familiar relations with his hOu"s
mold. As late, ] think, as the winter oI
1869. when going on mn extended lect-
uring tour, he saiG: 81 wish that you
would look in often and see that LizZy
j. not lonesome, or does not want any
thing. or words g. that effect Never by
sign or word did Mr. Tilton complain Of
NV visits 10 his family, until after he
began 10 fear that the IndspCHdSHt would
be taken from him, nor did he break out
into violence until on the eve Of the dis
possession from both the IHd,peHdemt and
the Brookly tniOnL owned
bv Bowen during these years.
Of intimacy in Tilton's family was
treated as father or elder brother
children were born, children died, they
learned to love me and frolick with me
as if / was one one Of themselves; / love
them and had for
Mrs. TIIton q True and Honest Re-
gard,
she seemed 10 me an aiectionate mother.
devoted wife looking up TO her husband
A. one far above the common race Of men,
turning tO me with artlcss familiarity and
with entire confidence; childish in APP
pearance, she was childlike in nature, and
| would a. soon have misconceiyed the
confidence Of the little girls as the un-
studied affection which she showed me;
delicate in health, with self-chcerful air,
she was boundless in her sympathy for
these in trouble. and labored beyond her
strength for the poor. She had .he
charge one time Of the married wOmcn's
class at the Bethel Mission School and
they perfectly worshipped her there.
leave Mrs. TIIton Copies Of my Books
when published; / sometimes sent down
| from my farm flowers 20 b. distributed
among a dozen or more families, and she
occasionally shared the only present of
value ever gave her was on my return
from Europe in 1863, when distributed
.ome sOuveniers Of my journey
- some ffty or more PersOns,
I and % her gave a single