The weekly Oskaloosa herald. [volume] (Oskaloosa, Iowa) 1855-1885, 1874-08-20
recently awakened. Entappled in

recently awakened. Entangled in
the wilderness of complications, 1
followed, until lately, false theory
and delusive hope, believing my
friend who assured me of his deter
mination and ability to control the
passionate vagaries of MIR. Tilton, to
restore his household, to rebuild his
fortunes, and to vindicate me, would
be equal to that promise. Tilton's
self confessed failure was made
clear to him (Beecher).
his narration represents only his
standpoint in regard to Ttilton, be.
ginning with their early intimacy,
and showing his hopeful affection
tor Tilton, even while he wandered
from truth and virtue, it describes
his repentance over the evils that
befel his friend, of which he was
made to believe himself the cause.
"My efforts to save his family and
himself by self sacrafce, and the
growing conviction that his follies
rendered that impossible. He has
been from the first selfish schemer,
hating me and weaving about me a
network of plots and lies. My limo.
cent acts of kindness contributed to
this end. That my course has been
blind 80 long as to the real motives
OF the intrigues going on around me
was due to my overwhelming public
duties and to my surrender Of the af-
fairs to Moullon's hands, whose
confidence of being able to manage
it successfully was great. Moulton
reported in general way Tilton's
condolences, and his comment on the
situation seemed at the time COM
plete. Immersed as l was in inues.
SAINT cares and duties and only too
glad to be relieved from considering
the details of the wretched compli-
cation, the origin and fact of which
remain, in spite of all friendly inter
vention, a perpetual burden to my
soul, / would not read in the papers
about it; l would not talk about it.
L made Moulton for q long period
my confident, and my only channel
of information. From time to time
suspicion was aroused in me by the
indication that Tilton was acting the
part of an enemy, but my suspicious
were READILY allayed by his own be
havior toward me. 1t Is plain to me
that until Tilton fell into disgrace
and lost his salary, he never thought
necessary to assail me with the
charges he pretended were in his
mind six months. The alleged do.
mestio offence was quickly and easily
put aside, but yet in way to keep
my feeling stirred up, that 1 might,
through my friends, be used to ex-
tract from Mr.. Bowen $1,000, the
amount claimed in their dispute.
The check for that sum is in the
hands of Mr.. Tilton, signed. The
agreement of peace and concord was
not drawn by me but was accepted
by me as sincere. The Golden Age
had been started he had capital to
carry it on for while. Was sure
that he was to head a great social
revolution with returning prosperity.
He had apparently no grieis which
could not be covered by this sigma
ture to the articles of peace. Yet the
changes in that covenant made by
him before signing it, were repre-.
sented TO me as necessary, merely to
relieve him from the imputation of
having originated it. He circulated
certain old slanders about me, but
when he thought he was on the road
to success, his conduct toward me
was friendly and I could afford to
laugh at his assumption of superior.
ity since | retained the profound i'm.
preston made upon me as explained
in the following narrative: AT al
most every step | fell into new COM
pllcations and difficulties and Tilton
even tried to ooerce my honor and
conscience for the purpose of pro-
curing extrication at my expense.
Tilton knew me we'll enough to work
on the sympathetic side of my ma
ture, to which he addressed himself
for four years, using unscrupulously
my attachment to his friends, his
own household, and himself. was
not blind to bis fault, but resolved to
look on him as favorably and hope
fully as possible, and in ignorance
of his deeper malice, 1 labored earn
estly, even desperately, for his sal
vation for four years. | have been
trying to feed Unsuitable egotism, to
make the man as great as he con-
oaivad him aIf 70 ha lo,1L.
him to separate from his disreputa-
BILE associates, and ascribe to my
own agency the ruin he constantly
was bringing On himself and which I
was endeavoring to avert. At the lat
ter stage he created difficulties appar-
emily to drive me to fresh exertions.
l discountensnced his wild asso-
oiates, only speaking we'll of his good
qualities and abilities still believed
him possessed of. / couldn't be-
lieve him bad as my friends did, and
trusted to the germs Of good 1 still
believed were in him.
Moulton came to me as the school
mate and friend ofTilton, who would
serve him without wronging me, and
said he saw clearly how this was to
be done so as to restore peace and
harmony to Mr.. Tilton's home, and
happily end all MISUNDERSTANDING.
l never doubted his friendship for
me. Whatever he wished me to do
did, unless it 'eemed wrong. My
confidence in him was my only Sc
curity in this confusion of tormenting
perplexities. During this troublous
time / felt that secret macbiuations
were going on around me, and the
vilest ISLANDERS concerning me were
in circulation, when soon my near
relations were set against me, and
the tattle of a crowd of malicious
women, hostile on other grounds,
was borne to my ears, when | had
lost the last remnant of faith in The
odore or hope for him, when heard
with unspeakable remorse that every
thing had done had made matters
worse, and all attempts to avert his
public trial only brought scandal on
me his unhappy wife was under his
dictation, signing the papers and re-
carnations and the destruction from
which l tried to save his family was
poured on other families; the church
and community believed me buried
under heaps of rubbish, from which
only my professional friend could
extrioate me. Believing that he
| IIa maintained the silauce