The New York herald., 1874-08-15

likely ! should 90 into Journalism; IL would be
more natural to me than any thlng else ~ that
conversation have some recollection Of In April.
and that was when MIR. Moulton had a plan
'on foot TO buy the rrGous Golden age Of Iilton
came IN and talked 10 me about It;
recollect verv distinctly that conversation my
eyes were beginning to be enlightened; nv educa-
tion was beginning to tell on me IA little, and |
said 10 Mr. Carpenter. distinctly. "Mr. Carpenter,
with; | DON'T know but that il Triton wishes to
90 10 Europe with his family and live there Tor
some some time mat ms friends would be willing to
raise tina. amount OF money: but that is matter
you must talk about with somebody else and not
With me-"
CARPENTER WEAK MAN.
Did you say that II Titon printed his docu-
men's you would never ascend tnat pulpit again ?
A. never said that, and should never talk about
the tning with such weak man as he.
q. Who introduced the subject OF going TO
Europe when Carpenter came TO see your A. He
q. In the statement which YOU nave made and
the Ietters you have published you express great
agitation, sorrow and suffering. even to anguish
HOW DO you reconcile that with the tone Of your
public ministrations ana with the declarations Of
peace and trust winch have fallen from you from
IL precisely In the same way as do the words OF
Paul, VINO said that he died deaths daily, that
s ne was s m iie onsoouIing OF the earth-hayng the
den on his mnd he described himself as living IN
the most transcendent religious peace aud JOY that
stands on record In human literature; .'Godly
sorrow workeLh joy:" the first effect OF these
troubles TO me was most anguishu and depress.
ing and oitentimes lay In them even as a ship
heaves on the sea in times OF calm, when she can
make no progress and yet cannot lie still; bat
after little came The reaction, and by the power
OF the Holy Ghost my mind was lifted above
these things. and said to myself, "It Is nv pusi-
ness as q man and minister to live the
doctrines have been preaching;'' | have always
been telling people how TO manage sorrow. and
telling men now to bear up under their troubles;
determined that would not nincn. whine or sit
down; would stand up. and / did not care how
mucn the Lord piled on me; believed He would
not put on me more than could bear II rose TO
IL, and took work whenever Il offered, and
went through the work and grew strong under IL,
and at intervals had experiences OF peace and OF
resignation and OF divine comfort which had
never known before In all my life; and, 10 the
retrospect Of all this trouble can say truly that
am better capable OF interpreting the comfort OF
the Word OF God 70 the sorrowmg heart than ever
should have been II / had not passed through
this discipline; have lost children; have lost
brothers; have had many friends who We died
and some who would not die, and yet under all
this have never been more sustained than have
In this.
q. Notwithstanding your great suffering during
the last four years do you feel that your health
powers Tor labor and usefulness are impaired A.
work because ike to work; l worked because
my whole soul was saying to me, $50 forward and
preacn;' never measured how long the shadow
was oil my life; i never put question to myself
Christian ministers; to be called the first
preacher in America or the world is only throwing
d shadow at me; have but one feeling about this,
and that is, Just as long as live every particle
OF strength and imagination and feeling and rea-
son and body and soul give to my country
and to my kind, and that Is all the ambition
have; l never had better health tnan have to-
day; / do not think the machinery Is worn out
yet and do not propose to DE idle, and shall do
again what did in the beginning OF my lie; l
never asked anybody Ior permission to work;
working In may now mere or there, but I propose
to work fifteen years yet.