The Portland daily press., 1874-08-14

would not talk about it. l made Moulton for
long time my confident and my only channel of
were aroused in me, by indications that Mr..
Tilton was acting the part OF an enemy, but
the suspicious were Rapidly alayed by his own
behavior towards me in other moods and by
the assurances of MI. Moulton, who ascribed
the circumstances to misunderstanding or to
malice on the part of others.
1t is plain to me now that it was not until
Mr. Tilton had fallen into disgrace and lost his
salary that he thought it necessary to assail
me with charges which he pretended to have
had in mind for six months.
The domestic offence which he alleged was
very quickly and easily put aside, but in such
away as to keep my feelings stirred up in order
that might, through my friends, be used to
extract from Mr.. Bowen $1,000, the amount of
a claim between them. The check for that
sum in hand. Mr.. Tilton signed an agreement
Of peace and concord, not drawn by ME, but &C
cepted by me as sincere. The Golden Age had
been started. He had the capital to carry it on
for while He was sure he was to head
great social revolution. With returning pros
perity, he had apparently 30 griefs which could
not be covered by his signature to the articles
of peace.
Yet the change in that covenant made by him
before signing it and represented to me as nee
essary merely to relieve him from imputation
of having originated and circulated certain old
and shameless ISLANDERS about me, were really
ture operations upon me and against me.
So long as he was, or thought he was on the
road to new success, his conduct toward me
was as frank as he knew how to make 1t. His
assumption OF superiority and magnanimity
and his patronizing manner were trifles at
which / could afford to smile, and which
bore with the greatest humility, since still re
tanned the profound impression of the truth of
the narrative that had been cause of over
whelming disaster to him, and that his COM
Ioto rQGtn tn rnnh 1ia
hold happiness was reparation justly required
of me, and the only one which l could make.
But with peculiar genius for blunders he fell
almost at every step into new complications
and difficulties, and in every such instance his
policy was 10 bring coercion to bear upon my
honor, my conscience and my affections for
the purpose OF percevng his extrcaton at any
expense.
Theodore Tilton knew me well. He said
again and again to his friends that if they
wished to gain any influence over me they
must work upon the sympathetic sense of my
nature. 10 this he has addressed himself
steadily for four years, using as lever without
scruple, my attachment to my friends and to
my family to his own household, to renew my
old affection for himself
Not blind to his faults, but resolved to look
on him as favorably and hopefully as possible,
and ignorant OF his deeper malice, l labOred
earnestly, even desperately for his salvation for
four years. have been trying to feed the
SatlaOie egotlSin 10 make the man great as he
conceived himself to be, to restore a prosperity
and public confidence to one, who, in the
midst of my efforts in his behalf, patronized
disreputable people and doctrines, refused
when besought him to separate himself from
them and ascribed to my agency the increasing
ruin which he was persistently bringing upon
himself and which l was doing my utmost to
avert
1t was hard to do anything for such man. l
might as well have tried to fill a sieve with
water. In the latter stage of the history he
actually melted and created difficulties appar-
emily for no other purpose than to drive me to
fresh exertions l refused to indorse his wild
views and associates. The best could do was
to speak well of him and the ability which 1
still believe him to possess in his higher moods