The interior journal., 1874-08-21

Gated that had committed the document In
trust 10 Moultcn, and sigsed the line thus
written by rie
\ nw words niore - u y. fut,h,r fate.
Mr. Moulton, Of his own accord, said that,
after using H. he would, IN two or three days.
bring the memorandum back 10 me, aud he
cautioned me about disclosing, In any wav,
that there was n difficulty between Mr.. Tiltcn
and me, as II would be in furious 10 Mr.. Tilton
10 have II known that ! had quarrcled
with him, as we'll as 10 me 10 have the ~.
mors set ahoat
did not trouble myself about II until
more than yrar aftrrwar,l, when flion bs.
gun 10 write up his casr lof which here.
aftcr) and was looking up documents.
wondered what was In the old memorandum,
and desired 20 see ", for greater certainty ,
so one day suddenly asked Mr. Moulton Tor
that memorandum, and said, "you promised
TO return II TO me-"
lie SEEMED confused for moment, and
said, "bid ~
Certainly I answered.
lie replied that the paper had been de.
stroyed. On my putting the question again
he said; That paper was burned up long
ago, aud during the next two years, In va.
rious conversations, OF his own accord, he
spoke Of il as destroyed.
I had never asked for nor authorized the
uts'Iuttlon " 'nls laptt. but ] was not
allowed to know that the docsment was in
existence, until distinguished editor in
New York, within few weeks past, assured
me that Mr.. Moulton had shown him the
original, and that he had examined my sig.
nature. to he sure of its gcnuincncss. !
knew that there was copy Of IL since this
statement was in preparation. While ] re-
jected this memorandum as my work, or an
accurate condensation Of my statement, "
does undoubtedly correctly represent that
was in profound sorrow, and that blamed
myself with great severity for the disasters
Of the Tilton family.
had not then the light that now have.
There was much then that weighed heavily
upon my heart aud conscience which now
weighs only on my heart.
| had not the light which analyzes aud
disscminates things. By one blow there
opened before me revelation full Of an.
guish. An agonised family, whose inmates
had been my friends, greatly beloved, the
husband ruined in worldly prospects, the
household crumhling to pieces. the woman
by long sickness and suffering either corrupt.
ed by deceit as her husband alleged. or so
broken in mind rs to be irresponsible, and
either way, il was her enthusiasm for her
pastor, as was made to believe. that was the
germ and beginning OF the trouble IL
was for me 70 have forcstalled and
prevented that mischief. My age and ex-
pericnce in the world should have put me
on my guard. ! could not at that time. tell
what was true aud what not true OF all the
considerations urged upon me by Tilton aud
Moulton. There was grief before me in which
lay those who had been warm friends, aud
they alleged that ! had helped to plunge
them therein. That seemed enough to fll
my soul with sorrow and anguish. No
mother who has lost n child hut will under
stand the wild self-accusation that grief pro-
duced, against all reason blaming herself for
what she neglected to do, charging upon her
self by her neglect or heedlessness the death
Of the child, while, ordinarily, every one
knows that she had worn herself out with
her assiduities.
Soon after this | met Mr.. Tilton at Mr..
Moulton's house; either Mr. Moulton was
sick, or was very late in rising for he was in
bed. The subject Of my feelings and con
duet toward Tilton was introduced. made
q statement of the motives under which I
had acted in counseling Bowen, Of my feel
ing in regard TO 1ilton's family, disclaiming
with horror the thought Of wrong, and ex-
pressing the desire TO do whatever Law in hu.
man power to remedy any evil had occa.
stoned, and to rcunite his family.
Tilton was silent and sullcn. He PLAYED
the part Of an injured man, but Moulton
said to Tilton with intense earucstnrSs:
THAT is all that a gentleman can say, and
you ought To accept IL. a. an honorable basis
Of reconciliation" lie repeated this two or
three times, and Mr.. rilton's countcnance
chccred up under Moultons strong talk.
We shook hands and parted in friendly
way. Not very long aftcrward Tilton asked
me to his house and said that he should be
glad to have the good old times renewed
Moulton lost no occasion Of presenting To-
me the kindest view Of Tilton's character
and conduct. On the other hand, he COM
planned that Mrs. Tilion did not trust her
husband or him, and did not assist him Ia
his efforts to assist Theodore. knew that
she disirusteI Moulton, and felt bitterly
hurt by the treatment of her husband
was urged to use my influence with her to
inspire confidence in Moulton, and TO lead
her to take kinder view Of Theodore.
Accordingly, at the instance of Mr.. Moul
ton, three letters were written on the same
day February Il, 1871, on one common
purpose to be shown to Mrs Tilton, and to
reconcile her to her husband aud my letter
TO her Of that date was designed To- effect
the further or collateral purpose Of gaining
her confidence in Mr.. Moulton. This will
be obvious from the reading Of the letters.
The following is the full text Of my letters
oi that date, from copy verified by one Of
your Committee, and have not to this hour
been permitted to see the originals of either
OF them, or of any other papers which | had
deposited with Moulton for safe keeping,
"BEooNLHS, February :, l,7I.
M bE,R fniENp-lu several conversations with
Beecher, aud YESTERDAY YOU aid the time had come
when you would like 10 receive from ne an cxprr-.-
checrfully, that notviiL-tanding the grtat sn.rng
which h. has cau-rd To- Elizabeth and my-,lG tear
him no malice shall de- him no wtonR shall di..
cuunienanCe every project. by Nhnmsoayer proposed
for my exposure q HE secret 10 the public aud 4
Be-chrr as l would have him, IN similar circum-
stance, get toward me ought 10 add that your
moral fssling than might have otherwise reached
"t'er You're ahectionatsb. -
N, psAa Far,p Morrro> am an sis Il, to Sud
NAM, many friend. has God raised ur 10 me. but
10 no one Of them has lie ever given the opHartuniS
aud the Wisdom to serve me a. ou have You have
al-9 proved Theodorc- iri'nd and NJ Elilaleih, Doe-
Tod look dawn from heaven on thrvc uuhE ppier
creatures that morr need fTend than thr-sf T. IL
not an lntlnai,on Of Gods intent Of mrrr{ 10 all,
frrndf hat onl, in YOU We thus united. Would 10
eration Theoiorr. flisai1ih and / could /" HSde
friends again Theodore will have thr hardest tack
"f tSe nSbls.t tbinrsf w"nJ.r II rlaIb tnn.
how GENEROUSLY b. has carried himself toward nee.
hsr p@rmi..i"h ani H. adt tnsr ' ib,t sI' ,a i@
"BnookLrN frrHr,u, :. III.
MY biAR MR-s lilruN w hon I YOU lHrt.
I did not expect ever 90 soe Nuu again. or o.
b" alive many days. God was Kinder tn ne than
NY own thoughts The friend " hum God -ant a. ne.
Muultun. has proved, altNr all friends that I ever
had able aud willing 10 help IN thi- terrible rurT-
R"ncy Of my lite. Il- hand II was that tied ~ the
storm that wa- ready g. burst urnn our h"ads. You
have friend, Theodore rNoeptod who has II Ia hi
power 10 serve you Nitsly, and Who i do II with
such delicacN and honor. II dos- heart gnssl o.
-se In Moulton an untogued Tr-I"rt and honor fT
you. II would hill me- II I thought utherWi-r. IT,
viii he a. true friend 20 your honor aud hHpnnes-
Ne brother could b. q sister aud Ia him Nr have
common ground. iu and ! may meHt iu him.
The past y Indeed tut therc ~ futurr, ~ i.er
higher holisr futuref MHy not this friend stani
priest In the new suuctuar ~ reconciliation, and
mediate and bless Theodore aud my must unhappy
-ff Do not let ny eafne-tur-s fail IT it. tui You
aud gladly iu Mouluns hand. and there must ui-ct
you. This u sent with Theuslurrs consent. but he
has not read u. VIII YOU rvturu n 10 me ~ his own
handf I am very earnest In thls wish Tor all our
sake- a. such bitter ought not 10 b" sul 10 even
n chance ui q misrgTrige
Your unharp, irI,ai,, .,
III ". BEEcnEn.'
have norecollection of seeing or hearing read the
letter Of Mr. lilton OF the same date. la my lrtter
tn MIR Tilton alluded 10 the fact tha did not ex-
pect, when | saw her last to he alive many days
That statement stands connected with a series Of
symptoms which last expcrirncJd IA lsj6, went
through the Fremont campaign, gelking Ia the
open air three hour at ume, three DAYS In the
week. on reviewing my literary lalors, fet must
have given way. | very seriously thought that was
going To have ap0pexy paraly N, or something Of
the Kind On two or three occasal, Whilr prrae hing
| should have fallen IN the pulpit Ii had not held
on To the table. Ncy often | came near falling In
the streets.