The daily dispatch. [volume] (Richmond [Va.]) 1850-1884, 1874-08-15

4 But suspicious were rapidly allayed ny DIS
own behavior towards me in other moods,
land by assurances Of MIR. Moulton, who
aScrihed the circumstances to 4 mssunder-
standing or to malice on the part OF others.
II is plain to me now that 1t was not until
Mr.. Triton had fa!ten into disgrace and lost
his salary that he thought It necessary to
iaSsail nue. with charges which he pretended
10 have had IN mind for six months. Tie
domestic oifenSc which he alleged was very
I quickly and easily put aside, hut yetin such
a way as to keep my feelings stirred up i'll
order that / might, through my friends, be
used to extract from Mr.. Bowen 5000. the
amount Of claim in dispute between them.
With the check for that sum in hand, Mr.
TiI.on signed an agreement Of peace and
concord, not drawn by me, but accepted by
ne As sincere.
The Golden Age had been started. He had
capital TO carry 1t on for while. He was
sure that be was to. bead a great social revolu-
ton. With returning prosperity he had APP
parently no griets which could not be COW
cred by his signature 10 the articles Of peace,
yet the charges in that covenant made by
him before signing it, and represented TO me
as necessary merely TO relieve him from the
imputaiion Of having originated and circu.
lated certain old and shameless ISLANDERS
|
peas. TO leave him free for future opera-
,ouS upon me and against me.
So long as he was, or thought I've was, on
| the road TO new Success his conduct toward
me was As friendly a he knew how 10 make
it. His assumption of superiority and mag
nanimity, and his pstrouiZing manner, were
| tribes ut which | could afford to smile, and
which here With greater humility since |
still retained the profound impression made
upon me, ~ explained in the following mar
ratiye, that had been the cause OF an over
whclming disaster to him, and that his com.
plete restoration 10 puoic standing and
| household happiness was 4 reparatlon justly
| required Of me and the only one which |
could make; but, with a peculiar genius for
blunderS, he fell almost at every step into
new complications and difficulties, and in
every such instance il was his policy 10 bring
coercion to bear upon my honor, my con-
science, and my affections Tor the purpose of
procuring his eX,rication at my expense.
Theodore TiIton knew me well. He has
said again and again to his friends that if
they wished TO gam any influence over me
they must work upon the sympathetic side
of my nature. To this end he has addressed
himself steadily for years, using as lever,
without scruple, my attachment TO my
friends, to my family, to his own household,
and even my old affection for himself.
Not blind to his faults, but resolved to
look on hlm as favora5y and hopefully as
possible, and ignorant of his deeper nslice,
laborcd earnestly, even desperately. for his
salvation. For tour yesls | have been try
iuy 10 feed the Unsuitable egotism; to make
tie man as great as he conceived himself to
be; to restore to prosperity and public con-
tiGence one who, in the midst Of my efforts
in his behalf, patronized di>reputabe people
and doctrines, refused when / besought him
to separate himself from them, and ascribed
70 my agency the increasing ruin which he
was persi-tently bringing upon himself, and
which l was doing my utmost to avert.
1t was hard TO do anything for such man.
| might as well have tried to fill a sieve with
water. In the latter stages of the history
he actually melted and created difficulties,
apparently for 10 other purpose than to
| drive me to fresh eXertiop. | refused to en-.
dorse his Wild views and associates. The
best could do was TO speak we'll Of him,
mention those good qualities and abilities
which l still believe him TO possess in his
higher moods, aud keeping silence concern
iny the evil things which was assured and
believed had been greatly exaggerated by
public report.
would not think him so bad as my friends
did. trusted 10 the germs Of good whlc1
| thought still lived in him, TO Mr.. Mouton's
apparent power over him, and to the power
Of my persistent selt.sacrtiCe. Dir. Moulton
came to me at first as schoomae and friend
of Mr.. TIltop, determined to rtlnstate him, l
always suspected, without regard TO my in
tercst> but on further acquaintance with
me be undertook and promised to serve his
m q SaiH
he saw clearly how this was to lie done so as
to restore peace and harmony to Tilton'S
home, and bring to happy end all misunder-
standings.
Many things which he counSelcd abSo-
luteiy refused, but EeYer doubted his pro-
feSSed friendship for me after friendship
bad grown up between us, and whatever he
wished me to do did unless it seemed 10
me wrong. Ny confidence in him was the
ONLY clement that seemed secure in that con-
fusion of tormeuting perpleNi'ies. To him
wrote freely in this troublouS time, in
| which | felt that secret Vaccinations we're
going on around me, and echoes Of the v;lcst
SANDERS concerning ME were heard III uneX-
rected quaterS.
When some Of my near relatives were set
against me, and the tat!le OF crowd OF mali
cious women, hostile to Inc on other grounds,
was borne to my ears, when l bad lost the
last remnant of faith in Theodore or hope for
him, when heard with unspeakable remorSe
that everything | had done to stay his de-
struction had made matters worse and worse,
that any attempt to keep him from pubic
trial involving such flow of scandal as bias
now been let loose had been used by him 10
bring upnew troubles, that his unhappy wife
was, under his dictatioD, signing papers
and rccantstions and l know not what !;
that, in short, everything was breaking
up, and the destruction from which | had
sought TO save the family, was likely 10 be
emptied on other families, the church, and
the community, with intuite horrors OF woe
for NE that my own innocence was buried
under heaps and heaps OF rubbish, and no.
body but my profeSscd friend, il even he
could save us, to his assurance that be could
still do so gave at least SO much faith as to
maintain under these terrible trials the ST.
lence which be enjoined. Not until Tilton,
having attempted through Frank Carpen-
ter to raise money from my friends, openly
assailed me in letter TO DR.. Bacon, did
| break that silence save by a simple denial Of
the slanderous rumors against me year De-
| fore.
On the appearance of the first open attack
from Dir. Triton / Immediately, without
consulting Mr. MoultoD, called for tho
rough investigation with the committee of
my church. am not responsible for the
delay, the publicity, or details of that inves-
,igation. All the harm which have so long