Perrysburg journal. (Perrysburg, Wood Co., O. [Ohio]) 186?-1965, 1874-08-21

while ordinarily every one knows she had worn
II,met Mr.. Tilton at Mouitons house Either
he was IL bed. The subject Of my ieeings and
statement OF motives under which had acted in
counseling Bowen Of my feelings toward Tilton's
wrong, and expressed desire to do whatever lay
IN human power 70 remedy any evil 4 had occa
stoned and toreunite HIS family. Titon was
injured man, but Moulton said 90 TiIton with
intense earnestness, "That is all that gentleman
able basis s S se an
two or three. times, and Tilton's countenanco
cheered under Moulton's. strong talk, We
Not very long afterward Tilton asked me TO
his house, and said that he should be glad to
1 do not remember whether / ever took a meal
after that under his roof but certainly was in-
never resumed my intimacy with the family, but
once or twice went there soon after my recon-
ciliation with Tilton, and at his request. par
ticuarly remember the scene which took place
at his house when he talked about his wife and
me In a very gracious mood. He began by
,sH mourning cli his sorrows He was very desolate
us with his great patience he grew generous
praised me 70 his wife le,saying that Ihad taken upon
honorably exeulpated her, and telling me that
his wife likewise had behaved very mapnani-
mously had blamed herself and declared that I
was blameless, and he closed his homiy with in.
creasing hope and cheer, saying that, deep as
was his misery, he hoped that he would come
out in the future more cheerful than he had
before.
restrained my smiles at the absurdity Of the
thing, well content to have IL evaporate So and
even thinking M ne was generous % IN this way This
sensitive and honorable man, who had no ulte-
rior designs to accomplish, 1t would have been
the burial OF the difficulty. / supposed Tilton
had given up the idea Of Intentional wrong on my
part, and forgiven my unintentional wrong.
plainly understand now, what did not then sus-
m nj m nd Nraa IN hn EnnN
alive and nourished, so that might be used to
act on my friend In securing from Bowen
the money which Tilton claimed to be due
two newspapers. Mr.. Moulton and Mr.. Tilton
in the rumors that had been circulated about
Tilton. There was much going on in silencing,
explaining, arranging, ETC., that did not under
convinced, viz: that Tilton had the highest
sense of marital purity, and that he had never
strayed from the path of virtue, which preserva-
ton he owed as he told me in narrative of a
life, to very solemn scene with his father, who,
on the eve OF his leaving home, pointed out TO
snares and evils to be dreaded from unlawful
practices He declared that he had always been
as gpI 10 Seeve r. rue ond St ha Sard q
was that he should be made to suffer by evil and
slanderous foes. could not explain some test-
mony which had been laid before me, but said
there is undoubtedly some Misunderstanding,
and II knew the whole should find Theodore,
though with obvious faults at heart, sound and
good. These views often expressed to intimate
friends in spite of their manifest increduity, and
what in the light of facts must call their we'll
deserved ridicule.
Mouton lost no occasion of presenting TO me
the kindest view Of Tilton's character, and, on
the other hand, he complained that Mrs. Tilton
did not trust her husband or him, and did not
assist him in his effort to help Theodore. know
that she distrusted Moulton, and felt bitterlyhurt
by the treatment Of her husband. was urged to
my influence with her to inspire confdenUe
in Moulton and to lead her to take kinder View
OF Theodore. Accordingly, at the instance Of Mr..
hFnn lot for fInn Nhsau
day, Feb. q 1871, on one common purpose, TO be
shown to Mrs. Tilton and to reconcile her to her
husband and my letter to her Of that date was de-
signed to effect the further or collateral purpose
of giving her confidence in Mr.. Moulton. This
viii be obvious from the reading of the letters
The following is the full text OF my letters of tha
date from q copy verified by one of your Com
mittee, for have not to this hour been permitted
TO see the originals either of them of any other
papers which had deposited with Moulton 70
"FEBRuARY Z, 1871.
my DEAR FRIEND MoULToN-I am glad TO
send you hook, etc. Many, many
friends has God raised up to me, but to one Of
them has He ever given the opportunity and the
wisdom to serve me you have. You have also
proved Theodore's friend and Eizabeth's Does
God look down from Heaven on three unhappier
creatures that more need friend than thesef Is
II not an intimation of Gods intent of mercy to
all that each one Of these has in you tried and
proven friend' But only in you are we thus unit
ed. Would to God, who orders all hearts, that by
His mediation Theodore, Elizabeth, and l could
be made friends again. Theodore will have the
u
himself capable of the noblest thingsf won
der If Elizabeth knows how generously he has
carried himself toward me. or course l can
sion and do not know that even then it would be
"BRooKLYN, Feb. z, 1871.
amy DEAR Mrs. TMToN: When 1 saw you
last did not expect ever to see you again, or to
be alive many days. God wa was kinder to me than han
sent to me Moulton) has proved above all friends
that ever had able and willing to help me In
was that tied up the storm that was ready to burst
on our heads. You have no friend, Theodore ex-
cepted, who has il in his power to help you SO
vitality, and who will doit with such delicacy and
| honor. 1t does my sore heart good to see in
| Moulton an unfeigned respect and honor for you.
| 1t would kill me il thought otherwise. He will
be as true friend to your honor and happiness
as a brother could be to a sister. In him we have
| a common ground. You and may meet in him.
wiser, higher, holier future May not
| this friend stand as priest In the new
sanctuary IN OF reconciliation and mediate;
| and bless Theodore and my most unhappy self
Do not let my earnestness fail of its end You
believe in my judgment. ! have put myself
| wholly and gladly in Moulton's hands, and there
l must meet you. This is sent with Theodore's
| consent, but he has not read it. viii you return
| It to me by his own HANDY am very earnest in
this wish for all our sakes, as such letter ought
| not to be subject to even the chance OF miscaH
"H. W. BEECHER."
| nave no reCOlleCtOn OF seeing or nearing rea0
the letter of Mr.. Tilton of the same date. In my
letter to Mrs. Tilton / alluded to the fact that
| did not expect when saw her last to be alive
| many days. That statement stands connected
| with series of symptoms which / first expe.
| rienced in 1856. l went through the Fremont
campaign, speaking in the open air three hours
| at time three days in the week. In re-
newing my literary work felt that must have
given way. very seriously thought that wac
| going to have apoplexy or paralysis or something
| of the kind. On two or three occasions, while
preaching, should have fallen in the pulpit If
had not held on to the table; yery. often came
| years have gone into the pulpit suppose 100
times with very strong impression that should
| never come out of it alive. Have preached more
sermons than any human being would believe
| when felt all the while that whatever had got
to say to my people must say it then, or never
| would have another chance to use 1t. If had
consulted physician, his first advice wou d have
been, " You must stop work." but was in such
that SSd not s0P wT sSd hs
prostratiOn, and overwork, and paralysis,
and formed my own Judgment of my
case The three points marked were: l must
have good digestion, good sleep, and ! must go
on working. These three things were to be rec
oncied, and in regard to my diet, and stimulants,
and medicines l made the most thorough and
searching trial. and, as result, managed my
body so that l could get the most work out Of It
word about this to my family it would have
brought such distress and anxiety on the part of
my wife as could not bear. / have for many
years so steadily taxed my mind to the utmost
that there have been periods when l could not
afford to have people express even sympathy
with me, To have my wife friends anxious
about il, and showing it to me, would be just the
drop too much.
In 1868 l came again into the same condition
just before going to England, and IL was one OF
those reasons why was wishing to go. The war
was at its height. carried my country in my
heart; had the Independentin charge, and was
working, preaching and lecturing continually.
knew was likely to be prostrated again. In De-
cember 1870 the sudden shock of these troubles
brought on again these symptoms in mere yio-
lent form. was very much depressed In mind
add all the more because IL was one of those
things that could not say anything about. l was
silent with everybody. During the last -four
years these symptoms have been repeatedly
brought on by my intense work, carried forward
! on an underlying basis OF so much sorrow and
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