New-York tribune., 1874-08-14
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OF the slanderous rumors against me- a year before.
HIS OWN ACTIVE IFT.
When on The appearance Of the iir.' open attack
from Mr. Til on / Immediately without consulting
llr. Moulton called for a thorough investigation
with committee of my Church. | am not respon-
shle for the delay, the publicity, tie details It
that Investigation. All the harm which have 50
long dreaded anl have 50 earn. 5tly striyen
to avoid has come 40 pass. could not
have further prevented il without fall sur
render Of honor and truth TIE time has arrived
when can freely speak in yiHdicaion Of myself I
labor under great disadvantages in ma,lnga state
meut Ny memory of states OF the mind is clear ani
tenacious. better than my memory OF dates AMI
details. During four troubled year, in all Of which
have been singularly buri"ucd With prhlic Labor,
having established and conducted The Christsi
Union, delivered of lectures. preaching b.
fore thc Theological Seminary of Yale College witt
ten the Life Of Christ, delivered each Wntr yccuf1
lectures in all the North and West-all these Guti.s
with the Of the great church and it, wing
schools and chayes. and the miscellaneous lusiG'
which falls upon clergyman more than unon aLy
other public man. | have kept in regard. and nov
with the necessity Of explaining actions arl cttcrs
resulting from complex influences apparent 10 to
! time. | find myself in position who're k.ow ~
innocence without being able 10 prove it with de-
! tailed explanation. | am one upon Waon trouble
verberatng in the chambers of my sorl and wh,l
at length do speak, it pent up food and pou.,
without measure ormoderation. inherit tendency
to sadness the remains in of positive hy ypOchou-
dria in my father and grandfather, and in certain
moods of reaction the world becomes black and sos
| very despairngly.
If were in such moods to speak as feel. should
| give false colors and exaggerated proportions e
| everything. This manifestation is in such contra
| to the hopefuness and courage which experienced
in ordinary times that none but those intimate VIII
me would suspect one so full of OVERLOOKING splrt
and eager gladsomeness to have within him a caro-
of gloom and dependency. Some of my letters g.,
Mr.. MOulton reflect this morbid feeling. lie UNDER
stood IT. and az times earnestly reDToyed me Tor II-
| dulging it. With this preliminary review, proceed
to my narrative.
| FIRST ACQCAINTANCE WITH Mr.. THroN.
| Mr. 1iltOn was first known to as a reporter -
my sermons He was then youth just from school
and working on The Netc- York Obsarer From III
paper he passed to The Independent. aud became 4
| great fayoritc with Mr. Bowen. When about Isl
Drs. Bacon, Storrs, and Thompson resigned thcr
| places became editor of Ghe IUdep1dea. 10 which
had been from its start a contributor. One of tia
inducements held out to me was that Mr. Tltoi
should be my assistant and relieve wholly from
routine Office work. In this relation l be-
came very much attached to him. We usei
to stroll to galleries and print-shops and dine often
| together. His mind opening freshly and with
enthusiasm upon all questions. | used to pour ono
my ideas of civil affairs. public policy, religion. aui
philanthropy. OF this he often spoke with SIateiuI
appreciation and mourned al later day over Ito
satIOn.
August was my vacation month. but my family
repaired 10 my farm in June aud July, and remained
there during September and October My abCs
t,fl tho oft, in
families of friends, and from year to year | became
! so familiar with their children and homes that
went in and ont daily almost in my house.
MIR TtOn often alluded 10 this habit, and urged ma
70 90 the same by his house. lie used often ospca<
in extIayagant terms of his wIfcs esteem and
affection fOT me. After | began 10 visit his hou-s
| he sought 10 make it attractive Hc urged me -
bring my papers down there and G5e ms study
to do my writing in, as II was not pleasant
| to write at the Office of Tie Htprlde %.
When went to England in 1858 Nh Ii,.ou to,k
temporary charge of Tie independent Oa my re-
tnnI paved the way for him to take sole CHARGE
| of it, my name remaining for year ald then 10
becoming the responsible editor. EHr.ly relations
continued until 1896, when the violent assault, maae
upon me by lr. Tltou in The hisO' le1L "a ac-
count of my Cleveland letter and the temporary
discrimination OF the publication olmy .mOas "A
| that paper. broke of nv connection With De-.
Although ylr. Tilton and | remained persona IS on
good terms yet there was a cOolaess between us N
| all matters OF politics. Our social relation, were
very kindly, and as late j. % at Dis re-
quest | sat TO PJgo some fifty tame, Tor
port.ait Ii was here that / first M; a.d talSt
with Noulton whose wife was memb, % Plymouth
| Church though he was not member hor even
regular attendant. During this wnol, PERIOD never
received from M Tilton or any member OF h.s itm-
ily the slightest hint that there was any ;;.stt;
ton with my familiar relations % his no eaoid. -
late think, as the Winter OF 1882 when going upon
an extended lecturint tour. he said: wish You
would look in after and see that Libby Is not lone-
some or does not want anything" or words TO thtt
effect. Never sign or word did sIr. 1.ltaa COM
pin Of my visits in his family until after ne began
! TO fear that Tie independent would be taken
| from him, nor aid he break ont into
violence until on the eve of di,possession
from both the papers-7be IEdepcpd,at and lie
| RrooEIm Uai9n-owned by Mr.. Bowen. During
| these years Of intimacy in Mr. Tlton's family was
treated as father or elder brother; chid.en wero
| born-children died They learned to love me and
a. trolic with me a. | was of themselves.
| loved them and had for Mrs. hlton - trEe aud
! honest regard.
HIS RELATIONS WITH MRS. IHIDN.
| She seemed To- me AN ailcctonatc mother and de-
| voted wife looking up TO her husband a. one lar
above the common race of men, and tuning 70 no
with artless familiarity aud with entirc confidence.
Childish il appearance, she childAoe .u nature,
and would as soon have miscouceiycd ~, confidence
of her little girls a. the unStEdicd alcc ion which
size showed me. Delicate in Eeal,h. with a sell-
cheerful air. she bouudless IN her symIathy for
those in trouble and labored beyond her strength
for the poor. She had the charge time of ia,