Connecticut western news., 1874-11-06
A SCHOOL GIRLS JOURNAL.

am older than any of the girls. Twenty years old And what is to be- come of me? Lewis Jenkins was there this evening. Miss Hartman lets him come because he is Lucy's first cousin, and his brother is engaged to Sophie. Sophie is to be married in 8 year. wish I were Lewis is SO handsome Such lovely blue eyes and auburn hair, and @ complexion like wax, and the dearest little mustache ! I can never help looking at him whenever he is in the room. Tonight I sat down behind the piano and did nothing else but look. By-and-bye he came over and sat down by me. I was so glad
 "Are you glad to leave school 2'' Lewis said.
 "Yes, think I am," I reioined.
 You only tbi'ak. Don't you k,aoa0 ?'' said he, laughing, and showing his beautiful teeth.
 "No, really don't know" said for remembered that Weston is a long way from Carlton, and that I might never see Lewis again. When I thought of that the tears rushed into my eyes, and then began to blush, and my face and neck became crimson. And then I seemed to see my own face. I don't look pretty when blush. I don't turn shell-pink like Lucy and Sophie, or blush only in my cheeks as Belle and Marion do. Belle is always beau tiful, but Marion looks pretty when she bushes and only then. Generally she is too pale and cold. I remembered all this suddenly. Indeed, I seemed to see the whole graduating class blushing and looking pretty, and myself turning dark purple, as I always do. It seemed too cruel, and burst into sudden passion of tears.
 "Why, Miss Maggiel" said Lewis. "What have I done? Come out on the piazza, won't you ?"
 Just then Belle and Marion came up. "Leave her to us, please, MT. Jenkins, 5 said Marion, with cold dignity. ' Miss Maggie has not been we'll"
 "Yes," added Belle, trying to draw my arm away, "come with us, darling. The heat has been too much for you. ''
 But I snatched my arm away, and looked them both proudly in the face. "No, thank you, ladies'" I said, coldly. "Mr. Jenkins asked mae to come out on the piazza, not yOa4, and I aOiU go. '' And then took Lew's arm, and swept out on the piazza. We left them both transfxed. Marion opened her big gray eyes and laughed, but Belle flushed up, and looked hurt and astonished. As for me, leaned against the balus- trade of the piazza, and cried, and cried, as if my heart would break. To think of those girls wanting to get my little bit of happiness away from me Lew was SO kind! He found 8 big shawl somewhere, and wrapped it round me, and then he brought me glass of water and smelling bottle. At last he began to stroke my hair-oh, SC gently! How angry Miss Hartman ] would have been! And not one of the other girls would have permitted it, know. But don't care. Perhaps Lew doesn't want to stroke tbear hair.
 Pretty soft hair p he whispered, gently, in my ear. By that time I began to feel quite soothed. l looked up al him.
 "Oh, how kind you are!" panted out. ''I am so unhappy r'
 "Why, dear ?" said Lew. I felt as if had known him thousand years, though beyond mere commonplaces we never exchanged one single word until | VSA AAO"OvOAS A SOuAAA 1Ao " OA HIS question. "Why are you unhappy, dear little Maggie?" said he, bending his beautiful head toward me.
 "Oh, I do wish I were pretty-as pretty as Belle, or Lucy, or Sophie; O, clever, like Marion and Fife; or''- :" Endowed, in short, with all the charms and virtues of the graduating class" interrupted Lew, laughing, The-aw-the fact is, Miss Maggie not one of the young ladies you have mentioned is attractive to me-" He said it so grandly, as if it made those girls just of no consequence at all in the world. And so I felt it. I don't see what is the use of being pretty or clever except to please Lew. However I said, -- ..:.; ..
 "Oh, but surely Belle and Sophie anc Lucy"-
 "Are very pretty, no doubt," said Lew, and Miss Marion and Miss Fife very clever; but those are not the qualities to make home. Beauty ane cleverness-no, not at all. Affection, { soft clinging nature "-