Alexandria gazette. [volume] (Alexandria, D.C.) 1834-1974, 1874-08-14

suspected, Wltnnu' regard 10 NY lh'' ''st', "u'
on further accumulated with me, 81 undclto"k
and promised Ia serve his friend without DONG
wrnn" to ne. He sad he sa" clearly how Ibis
was to b.. !uur "a a. restore peace and bar
mur,v "a riItnn'< home, and bring i;;ppy rnu
of all MISUNDERSTANDING.
Many things which he c0unSt:i1d absolutely
refused, but | neyer doubted his prui,sscd
| friendship for me after friendship had prOwD
| nm between us, aud whatever lie wished me to
| do did unless ii secmel to me wrong. My CON
| 6dcnce in him was the ouly element that >ccm
| ed SECURE in that confusion OF tormentlng per
p!rxitleS To him wrote freely Ill Ills iruuhl
Gus time, in which fell that secret u,achina-
tons were going on around me, and echoes OF
| the yilrst SANDERS cnuccrning ne We're heard
in unexpected quarters.
| When some Of my near relatives were get
against me, and the tatc OF i crowd ut NAH
| cinus women, hostile 10 me on other grounds,
Was borne to my cars, wheu L had lost The last
remnant Of filih in Theodore ar hope for rim,
when heard with upspcakablc rcln"r.e That
everything | had dpne to stay his d. ,ruction
| had made matters worse AMI worse, That any
attempt to keep him lr0in pubic trlai inv~!v.
ing such Hyw Of scandal a. has now tcru 1T
loose had been used ky him 70 bring MP new
troubles, that bis unhappy wifi was uraer ms
dlctalioa signing papers aud recaniatluu> and L
know not what, hat, III short, everything vas
breaking up aud The destruction from which l
had sought to save the family was likely to be
eup,ieG on Other families the church, aud The,
community with infiuitc horrors ri woe for lne,
that NV own iunucence vas buried uutlcr heaps
and hca LIS ui rubbish, and uUligdy but my pro-
trss.d lriuud if even h could s,ve us;. to his
assurance thai he could d. 50 ! gave al least
SO much faith as to maualn uudcr these ter
ribIe trials tbs silence Itch he euj1ined Not
i uu,il Tton, having attempted through Frank
Carpentcr to riisr money from my friends,
openly assaulted me i'll a letter to DIR. Bacon,
did break that silence save hya simple denial
of the sandeIous rumors against me yea: be-
tore. .... .-...
On the appearance of the first open attack
from Mr.. 1ilton Immediately without con
suIting Mr. Moul,on, called for "a thorough in
vcstigation with the committee OF my church
am not responsible for the delay, the publ
CITY, or details of that investigation. All tie
har1i whicl. have 50 long dreaded aud have
so earnestly strivcn to avoid Ia, c,mcsto pass
could MT further prevent IL without full
surrender Of houor and truth. ,..t
The time has arrived when ran speak freely
in viudicatlon of myself. labor uuGcr grra.
disadvantages in making Il statclucDt. My
memory of the status Ut the MUD Is clear and
Tenacious, better than my memory VI riat.S aud
details during the four troubled Years, ia ali Of
which have been singulary turIcncd with
hubble labor, hayi.g established and conducted
the Christian Union, Delivered courses Of lee
lures, preaching before the theological semi
1 nary of Yale College, written the Lille Of
Christ" delivered each winter lyccum LED urrs
in all the North and West. All these duties
with the care Of IL great church and It's outlying
schools and chapcl-, and miscellaneous !busl
ness, which falls upon ccrgymcu more than
upon any other pubic nen, have kept III re-
gard, ami now, with the necessity Of cXEaiD!ng
actions and letters resulting from complex III
Hucoccs apparent at the Tine, fad myself 10
Il positiou where know my INNOCENCE without
being able to prove it with detailed cXplaIa
lions am Que upon whom trouble works lii
wardly. making ME outwartly >llrut, but re-
vrr}erntiuy IN the chambers Of my sould; and
whcu at length do speak II Is Il pcrt-up food
and poura without measure or moderation. L
inherit tendency to sadness the remains III
me Of positive hypochoulria iii my father aud
grandfather, and III CERTAIN moods Of reaction
the world becomes black aud see very dcs
pairingly.
If we're 10 such moods. to speak as feel,
should rive false coiOls aud cXaSG Grated propO-
>i,ious TO every tEiog This manifestation is
in such contrast 10 the hopciuine:s and courage
which experienced IN Ordinary times that noiIe
hut those ultimate with me would suspect NC,
50 full of uvclh rwiug spirit and eager gatis me
ness, to have within M care OF gloom. Some
ri my letters to Mr.. MouItun reflect this NOR
bid feeling. H. uul rstood ii, anI at times
earnestly removed me for INDUCING 1t. With
this preliminary review proceed to my MARIA
tive:
Mr: Tilton was first known to me as rcpor-
ter ot nv sermons. He was then youth list
from school, and working on the New ! Urk Oh
server, and from this paper he passed to the
! Iudepeudent, aOd became great avorltc with
Mr.. Boweu and when, about 1851, DrS. B!c0n
Storrs and Thompson Resigned their places,
bccamr editor of the Independent, to which
had been from It's start contributor. One o! Tue
inducements held out TO me was that Alr. Ill
ton should be my assistant and relieve Inc Who'll
" from the routine OF office w'rk.
Ia this relation became very much attached
to him. We used to stroll TO galleries aud
printshops and dine often together. Ills MUD
yrs Opening freshly aud with enthusiasm upon
all questions | used to pour out my ideas OF
civil Affairs, public policy, religion and phlan
thrupy. or this lie has ten spoken with crate
full appreciation, and mourued at later day
| over its ccSSatlOn., !. .......
columns Of the papers that published it entire,
and concludes as tOfinws: =; <
gentlemen Of the Conuiiftcc: IL the uotc
Crequestiug your appointment | asked that
you should make full investigation Of oil
sources of information. You are withc>st.
that | have 10 no way influenced or inter
ferred with your proceedings or duties
/ have wished the investigation to be SO search
ing that nothing could uusettlc It's results
have nothing to gain BY any policy of suppress.
sion or compromise.
For four years l have borne and suffered
enough, and will not go a step further. |
! will be free; l will not walk under a rod or yoke.
| If any man would do me favor let him tell all
! hesknows. Now it is not usual 10 lay down the
law of honor in regard to the use of other per
sous confidential communications, but 10 so far
as my own writings are concerned mere Is snot
letter or document which am afraid to have
| uL;l;tod ,pd 7 AMI hOrjze any and call upOu