The Kenosha telegraph. [volume] (Kenosha, Wis.) 1860-1888, 1874-08-20

the midst of efforts in his behalf, pa
tronNedGisreputable people and doctrines,
refused when besought him to separate
himself from them, end ascribed TO my
agency the increasing ruin which he was
persissently bringing upon himself, and
which | was doing any utmost to avert. It
was hard to do anything for such q. man.
/ might as well have tried TO ELL q sieve
with water, In the latter stage of the
history he actually melted ana created
difficulties, apparently for no other pur.
pose thar to drive me TO fresh exertions.
q refused to indorse his wild views and
associates. The best could do was to
speak we'll of him, mention those good
sgualities and abilities whichL still believe
him to possess in his higher moods, and
keep silence concerning the evil things
exaggerated by public report. I could
not think him so bad as naT friends did.
1 trusted to the germs Of GOOD WHICH |
thought still Lived in hiM, to Mr. Meal-
tons apparent power over him and to the
power of my persistent selt-sacrIfce.
MIR MoULToSG APPEARANCE ON THE
Mr.. Moulten came to ne at first as the
schoolmate and friend of Mr.. Tilton, de-
termined to reinstate hiG, IslWaysssus
pected, without regard to my interests,
but on further acquaintance with nae an
dertook and promised to serve his friend
without doing wrong to 4me. He said he
saw clearly hew this was to be done, go
as to restore peace and harmony co Mr.
Tiltons homeg end bring happy enc of
all misunderstanding. Many things which
he counseled + absolutely refused, bat
never doubted his professed friendship
for me after friendship had grown up be-
tween us, andywhateyer he wished me to
do did, unless it seemed to me wrone
My confidence in him was the only ele-
ment that seeMed secure in that confu-
sion OF toImenting psrplexities. To him
L Felt that secret machInations were gohng
on around me, and echoes of the vilest
SANDER concerning me were heard of in
quarters, when some of nay
near relatives were set against me, and
the tattle of a crowd of malicious women,
hostile to me on ether grounds, was borne
to my ears; when ] had lost the last rem
rant of faith in Theodoreor hopefor him,
when | heard with unspeakable remorse
that everything had done to stay lis
destruction had made matters worse and
verse; that MY attempt to keep hun from
"a public trial Involving such fooG of
scandal as has now been let loose) had
been used by him to bring up new
troubles; that his unhappy wife was un-
1er his dictation, signing papers and re-
carnations, and know not what; that, in
Short everything was breaking up, aud
the destruction from whlcA had sought
to save the family was likely to be empti-
led on other families, the church, the COM
nunity, with infinite horrors of woe for
lna; that my own innocence was buried
l1nder heaps and heaps of rubbish
land Robody but my protested friend
Eif even he) could save us. To his assur-
knces that he could still DO so I gave at
least so much faith as to maintain, under
phese terrible trials, the silence which he
enjoined. Not until Mr.. Tilton-having
attempted through Frank Carpenter to
raise money from my friends-openly as
sailed me, in letter to DR.. Bacon did
break that silence, (save by simple de-
NAL of the slanderous rumors against me
o year before.)
THE FIRST OPEN ATTAcK-THE 1NvEsTI-
eating &C -clti1-ETTEE.
Then, ON the appearance of the first
openattack from Mr.. Tilton, I immedi-
ately without consulting Mr.. Moulton,
callet for thorough Investigation with a
committee Of my church. I am not respon
sible pr the delay, the publicity, or the
detail of that Investigation. All the
harm which I have SO long dreaded, and
SO earnestly striven to avoid, has come to !
pass I could not further prevent it
withat full surrender of honor and II
truth The time has arrived when can b
freellspeak in vlndication of myself. I
labornder great disadvantages in making Q