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times, becomes insipid or Indifferent the
state, should think, in which converts to
Methodlsm usually are, when smitten by
their first conviction of sim In this frame
of mind it occurred to me to put the ques-
ton directly 10 myself, Suppose that all
your objects in life were realized that all
the changes in institutions and opinions
which you are looking forward 10, could
be completely effected at tins very instant,
would this be great JOY and happiness to
you and an irfepressible self conscious
ness distinctly answered, mol" At this
my heart sank within me the whole foun-
datiUn on which my life was constructed
fell down. All my happiness was to have
been found in the continued pursuit of this
end. The end mad ceased to charm, and
how could there ever again be any inter-
est in the means? | seemed to have moth
ing left to live for.
At first | hoped that the cloud would
pass away of itself but it did not. A
nights sleep, the sovereign remedy for the
smaller yeXatOns of lite, had no effect
upon it,. | awOke to a renewed conscious
ness of the wutu fact. | carried ii with
me into all companies, into all occupa-
tions. Hardly anything had power to
cause even a few minutes oblivion of it.
In vain | sought relief from my favorlc
books those memorials of past nobleness
and greatness from which | had always
drawn strength and animation. | read
them now without feeling, or with the &C
customed feeling minus all its charms
and | became persuaded, that all my love
of mankind and Of excellence for its own
sake. had worn itself out. sough, no
COZ fort by speaking TO others of what
felt Ii had loved any one sufficiently to
make C0niiding my gricfs a necessity. |
should not have been in the condition I
was Ny father, 10 whom Il would have
been natural. 10 me to have recourse n
any practical difficulties. was tine last rr-
son TO whom, in such "a case as this.
looked for help Everything con, iucedlne
thai he had no huoWiedgc OF any such
mental states Us ! Was suffering from, and
that even j. lie could be made 10 under
stand K. hc Wa not ,hc physician to- he.'
il. NV education. which was wholly MS
work, had been conducted without any re-
gard to the HOSTILITY Of it, ending N .his
result: and ! saw no use in giving hini the
pain of thinking that his plans had ia ed.
| when the failure was probably iiren.,D.-
able. aud at ali events, beyond the pow,
of his remedies
/ Now ask, is it impossible for Us to coz
ccivp of state of mind more utterly
wrrIched and hopeless than this! Vel
| this was the natural and inevitable result Of
/ ms curly training and of the sl.cptlcal
/ views which had been forced upon him
/ Hi7 education had been one-sidcd, and his
emotional nature, which had been s.unted
and dWarfed, was low after the lapse OF
wears rc-asser.igr itself His spiritual
/ faculties. which had been left without
culture. were now calling loudly for recog-
milton. and the tendrils of his heart were
| reaching out after some object around
when tney couid tWlueanu nnli sustenance
and support.
-Four years after this, Mr.. Mill became
acquainted with Mrs. laylGr, VINO at
forwards became his wife, aud in her
he found an object bolh to love and
worship. In TACT, she became to nm
u kind of deity. And here 1t Is to be re-
GREETED that Mr.. Mill, upright and honor
able in other respects, should have set an
| example so destructive TO good morals, and
lent his influence to lead others into path
which could only end lnsdlssrace and rum.
1t is true that Mr.. Mill did not consider
the ordinances of society as binding upon
him, and prohablet that his soclalestic ter
denotes led him TO look upon Mrs. Taylor
as his rightful property.
He says: SAT this period she lived mostly
with one young daughter, in quiet part Of
the country, and only occasionally in town
with Mr. Taylor. visited her equally in
both places; and was greatly indebted to
the strength of character which enabled
her to disregard the false interpretations Ii
able TO be put on the frequency Of my Wis
its to her while living generally apart from
Mr. Taylor, and on our occasionally travel
ing together; though in all other respects
our conduct during those years gave not
the slightest ground for any other suppose
ton than the true one--that our relation t.
each other at that time was one of strong
affection and confidential intimacy only"
Now think that most men Will judge
Mr. Mill criminalIy selfish in thus disregard
inc the feelings Of most worthy man and
faithful husband, and uamping upon the
rights Of innocent children. Saying nothing
of religious standards, which of course Mr..
Mill did not recognize, yet, as a gentleman,
he had no right to secure for himself the
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