The Indiana State sentinel. [volume] (Indianapolis) 1868-1895, 1874-08-18

troubles and had honorably exculpated her. and
very magnanimOusly, had blamed herself and
declared that was blameless and he closed his
remarks with increasing hope and cheer; SAYING
know but that IL would work out in the future
more cheerful home than he
the absnrdity of the thing, well content to have
IL evapOrate so, and even thinking that he was
generous In his way: WITH sensitive and non
complish, il would have been the burial of difi-
Guilty. supposed Tilton had given up the idea
S5 e % plain
ly understand now what did not then suspect,
that my trouble OF mind was TO be kept alive
and uourished so that IL might De used to act on
my friends in securing from Bowen the money
which Tilton claimed due as a compensation
for his expulsion from the two newspapers.
Mr.. Moulton and Mr.. Triton both strove to
obIiterate from my mind all belief in The ,s, ru-
There was much going on in silencing, explain
ing, arranging. ETC., that did not understand
as Well then as nS Ts B1t OF 6 one ihlD S,a
sense'of marital purity, and that he had never
strayed from
THE PATH OF VIRTUE,
which preservation he owed as he told me in a
narrative OF his life, to a very solemn scene
with his father, who, on the eve of his leaving
home, pointed TO him the nature of amorous
temptations, snares and evils to be dreaded
from unlawful practices. He declared that
he had always been kept spotless
by the memory of that scene. | was glad to be-
lieve It true and felt how hard IL was thet he
should be made 10 suffer by evil and
slanderous foes. / could not explain some
testimony which had been laid be-
fore me, but said that there was un-
dOubtedly some misunderstanding, and
and If knew the whole 1 should find Theodore,
though with obvious faults, at heart sound and
good. These views often expressed 10 intimate
friends in spite of their manifest incred-
ulty, and what in ihe, light of facts facts
deserved ridicuIe. Moulton lost no occasion of
presenting to the kindest view of Triton 5
complained that Mrs. Tilton did not trust
her husband or him and did not
Rnew than she in his Mouon and felt Bit
terly hurt by the treatment OF her husband.
was urged TO use my influence with her to inspire
kinder view of Theodore. Accordingly, at the
instance of MOultOn, three letters were written
on the same day. February H. Sll, on one one
Mr.. TTlton and to reconcile her
TO her husband, and my letter to her of that
date was designed to effect the further or CO..
MouIton. This will be obvious from The read
ing of the letters. The following is the full text
copy Verified by enc of your committee, for. 1
have not TO this hour been permitted to see the
which 1 had deposited with Moulton Tor
letters already pn0lishS Sa haze Ssari mo-
read letter of Mr.. Tilton's of the same date.
In NV letter to Mrs. TiltOn alluded 10 the TACT
that did dot expect when Isaw her last
TO BE ALIVE MANY DAYS.
That statement stands connected with series
of symptoms which first experienced i'm 1855.
| went through the Fremont campaign,
speaking in the open air three hours at time,
three days in the week. On renewing my liter
airy labors felt that must have given way. /
was going to have apOpleXy or paraly Sis
or something of the kind. On two or three
occasions while preaching should have fallen in
the pulpit If had not held on to the table. Very
often came near falling in the streets During
the last fifteen years have gone into the pulpit,
sup ose hundred times, with a
very strong impression that L should
never come out of it alive.
/ have preached more sertouSthan any human be
ing would believe when teeilaI the whIie ia at
say it then or / ne er would have another
chance TO use IL. If ! had consulted a physician
stop work." but 1 was in such a situation that
could not stop work. | read the best medical
books on the symptoms of nervous prostIatl0n
formed my own judgment of my
Tae baV 9re GOOD P digestion good sep
and must go on working. These three thin IS
were to be recOneiled and in regard to my diet
/ made a most thorough and searching
trial, and as a result managed my body so that
word about this TO my family, 1T would
have brought such distress apd
bear i have for many years so steadily taxed
my mind TO the utmost that there have been
periods when could not afford
pathy with me. To have my wife or
friends anxious about 1t, and showing it to me
would be just the drop too much. In 1863 came
again into the same condition, just before going
10 England, and IL was one of these reasons why
I was wishing to 90. The war was al its hight.
T. carried my country in my heart.
had the independents in charge, aud was work
ing, preaching and recurring continually.
knew 1 was likely To be Frustrated again. In
December. $780, the sudden shock of these
troubles brought on again these symptoms
in more vio'ent form. L was very
much depressed in mind, and all the more be-
cause 1t was one of those things that could not
say anything about. l was silent with every
body. My friends will bear witness that in the
pulpit / nave frequently alluded TO my
expectation of Sudden death. feel that have
would have killed or paralyz ed me, and carry
with me now, as have so
often carried in wears before this trouble
But his wife still attended church and hoped
for his restoration. recollect having with him
a conversation in which he intimated that he
thought it not unlikely that he might
get back into his old position. lie
seemed to be in mood to regret the past, and
so when was urged by the examining COM
without hopes that by patience anp kindness
Tilton would come back again to his old
church work and be one of us again. therefore
delayed a decision upon this point for a long
time Many of our members were anxious and
impatient, and there were many takers sOf
no1ble from this quarter Meanwhile one wing wing
of the story in a distorted and
exaggerated form, such as had never been. Du-
ring the whole of the year 1871, was Kept in
future OF the family, for the reunion
ami happiness of which had
THE FLEEr-FOOTED MAID.