The daily Argus. (Rock Island, Ill.) 1873-1877, 1874-08-14

IN mass. The time has however arrived
when / can sneak in vindication OF myeeiL
7 isho. undsr The disadvantage Of ppok
nsnorv ~ dates and details, Qnff18
.hs.s rsst four years my life has bsst III
~ e III . multiplicity Of labors and duties
~h;ch fall upon q clergyman more than on
snv other public man. This is my posi-,
TON I know my innocence without being
able to prove it with detailed explanation.
am one upon whom trouble works in
wardly, making me ouwardly silent, rever,
brating in the chambers Of my soul, and
when at length ! do speak it is a pent up
food that pours without measure or mod
Grafton. l inherit q tendency to sadness
the remains in me Of positive hypochon-
dfia In my father and grandfather. IN
certain moods the world become
black, and / see very despairingly. y I
were to speak in such a mood ieei !
should give false colors and exaggeresed
proportions to everything. This msnlies-
tstion is in such contrast to the hopefui-
ness and courage which experience at
ordinary times that none but those intimate
with me would suspect me, SO full. of over
flowing spirits and eager gladsomness, to
have within me the care Of gloom. Some
of my letters to Mr.. Moulton reflect this
morbid feeling. He understood and at
times earnestly reproved me for IN
dulping it. With this preliminary re-
view l proceed to the narrative
L first knew Mr.. Tilton as a reporter OF
my sermons. He was a youth Working on
the Observer. Thence he passed TO me
Independent and became a tavorite WIN
Bowen. In 1861 | became editor OF Tue
| Independent. One inducement hcld OUT
To me was that Tilton should assist me
and relieve me from the routine OF ONCE
worE. In this way | became much at
tached 70 him and we became the most
~con6dental Of friends. While my family
enioyed their summer vacation my dutles
kent me in the city. ] took my meals 10
the families Of friends and became SO lar.
miliar with their children and houses ina
[ went in their houses daily, much az II a
home. Tilton often urged me to make
his house my home, telling in extraVlgan'
terms OF his wife's affection for me. Fin
| ally [ began to visit his house, which hi
sought to make attractive. He urged m!
to bring my books and papers there and
do my writing in his study. In 1863, dur
ing my absence in England, he became
responsible editor of the Independent and
later editor in chief. In 1865, on account
of nv Cleveland letter, he made violent
assaults on me through the Independent
and my connection with the paper was
severed, though we remained friendly
Yet there was q GOODNESS between US in po'
litical matters. X was then l first met
Moultcn. During all this time | never re-
ceiyed the slightest attention from Tilton
or any member Of his family. There was
dissatisfaction with my familiar relations
in his household. Mr.. Tilton never com
planned of my visits until after he begant t
fear that the Independent would be takeT
from him. nor did he break into any VIC
lence until on the eve of his dispossasslor
from both papers,t the Independent or Brook
lyn Enioa, owned by Mr.. Bowen. During
these years of intimacy in Iilton's famil!
was trusted as a father or elder brother
Children were born; children died. The,
learned to love me and trolic with me a
if / was one of themselves. ! loved then
and / had for Mrs. Tilton a true and hon
est regard. She seemed to me an affoc
tomato mother and devoted wife, lookin
up to her husband as one far above tn
common race of men and turning to IN
with artless familiarity and with entir
confidence. Childish in appearance, sh
was naturally childlike in nature, and
would as soon have misconcepted the con
fidence of little girls in the studied aztec
ton she showed me. Delicate in health
, with cheerful air, h was unule l
her sympathy iori those in trouble an
! labored beyond her strength for the pool
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