The Kenosha telegraph. [volume] (Kenosha, Wis.) 1860-1888, 1874-08-20

that humbled myself before Tilton as be-
fore God, except in the sense that both to.
God and to the manI thought 1 had deep.
~ injured, | humbled myself, as l certainly
did. But it is useless to analyze paper
prepared as this was. The remainder of my
plain statement concerning it will be it's best
comment. This document was written upon
three separate halt-sheets of large letter
paper. After 1t was finished Mr.. Moulton
asked me il would sign it. said "No it
was not my letteT.'' He replied that it
would have more weight if I would in some
way indicate that he was authorized to ex.
plain my sentiments. took my pen, and.
a6 some distance below the writing, and
upon the lower margin, indicated. that L
| had committed the document in trust to
Mr.. Moulton, and I signed the line th as
written by me. ~ @3#8 oi g
THE FURTHER FATE OF THE DOCUMENT. u
A few words now as to its further fate.
Mr.. Moulton, of his own accord, said that
after using it he would, in two or three days
bring the memorandum back to me, and he
cautioned me about disclosing in any way
that there was difficulty between Mr.. Til
ton and me, as it would be injurious to TIL
| ton to have it known that l had quarreled
with INN, as well as to me to have rumors
set afoat. did not trouble myself about it
until more than year afterward, when Til
ton began to write up his case, (of which
hereafter,) and was looking up documents.
| wondered what Was in this old mem0ran~
dunn, and desired to see it for greater GER
tainty SO one day 1 suddenly asked Moulton
for thai memorandum, and said, "You
promised to return it to me-" He seemed
confused for moment. and said, Ibid I?'
I"CertainIy," answered He replied that
4 the paper had been destroyed. On my pun
ting the question again, he replied, That
paper Was burned up long ago - and during
the nexttwo years, in various conversations
of his own accord, he spoke OF it as destroy
ed. l had never asked for, nor authorized
the destruction OF this paper. But was
not allowed to know that the document was
in existence until distinguished. editor il
New York, within few weeks past, assured
me that Mr., Moulton had shown him tn,
original, and that he had examined my sig
nature to be sure of its genuinoness. know
there was copy of it since this Statement
was in preparation
4 FURTHER EXPLANATIONS OF THE Apology.
4 While elected this memorandum as mI
/ |
statements, it does, I'm toubtedly, correctly
represent that 1 was in profound sorrow
and that blamed myself with great sever
ICY for the disasters of, the Tilton family
[ had not the light that now have. There
was much then that weighed heavily uDor
my heart and conscience which now weighs
only on my heart. l. have not the ligh
which anaiyzes and discriminates things
4 By one blow there opened before me reye
lation full of anguish ian agonized family
whose inmates had been my fIIenus4 greatly
beloved the husband ruined In worldly
prospects, the household crumbling to pieces
/ the woman, by long sickness and suffering
either corrupted to deceit rs her husband
1 alleged, or so broken in mind as to be IRE.
sponsible, and either way it was her entEu.
siasm for her Pastor, as [ was made to be-
lieve, that was the germ and beginning
OF the trouble. 1t was for me to have fore
sailed and prevented that mischief Ny
age and experience in the world should have
i put me more on my guard. could not, al
that time, tell whatwas true, and what. not
true, of all the considerations urged upon me
! by MIR. TIlton and Mr.. Moulton. There was
a gulf before me, in which lay those who bad
been warm friends, and they alleged that ]
had helped to plunge them therein. That
seemed enough to fill my soul with sorrow
and anguish No mother who has lost a
child hut will understand the wild Sc f-accu-
sation that grief produced. Against all rear
son., blaming herself for what things she did
do and for what she neglected to do, and
charging upon herself, her neglect or need :
llessness, the death of the child, while, ordi-
narily, every one knows that she had Worn
herself out with her assiduities. Hf
1 tsn THE ACCUSED. AND THE AcCUsER 80
Soon after this met Mr.. Tllton at Moul-
TOMS house. Either Moulton was sick or
was very late rising, for he was IN bed.
The subject of my feelings and conduct
toward Tilton was introduced. l made q
statement of the motives under which | had
acted in counseling Eowep, of my feelings
in regard to Mr.. Tilton's family, disclaiming
with horror the thought of wrong, and ex-
pressing desire to do whatever lay in human
power to remedy any evil had occasioned,
and to reunite his family. Tilton was silent
and slllen. He played the part of ali injured
man, but Moulton said to Mr.. Tilton, with
intense emphasis /: ~ "at
| S"That is all that a gentleman can say, and
you ought to accept it as an honorable basis
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