The Rutland daily globe. [volume] (Rutland, Vt.) 1873-1877, 1874-08-17

My Dear Filend--l leave town to-day and OK
pect TO pass through from Philadelphia to New
ilavcn. shall not be here until Friday. About
three weeks ago met 7, in the cars going to b.
We talked much. lie told me to go ON with my
work, without the least anxiety IN so lar as his
feelings and actions We're the occasion OF ap-
prehoaslon. ON returning home from New
Haven, where am three days in the week de.
llycrng a course Of lectures to the theological
students, found Il note from E saying that L.
felt hard toward me, or was going to see or
write 10 Inc before leaving for the west. She
Kindly added "Be not cast down. ] bear this
viii deliver Us hlp stfGIv" 'EnGk v0n do AIT
are willing abundantly TO help him, and / also
know your embaIrassInents.' There were added
words OF warning, but also OF consolation for
believe Il. Is beloved OF God, and that her pray
eTs lorlne are sooner heard imam mine for my
self or fOrher. But It seems that a change has
come TO r. since saw him in the cars. Indeed
ever since he has felt more intensely the force
OF feeling in society ana the humiliatiOns which
environ his enterprise, he has growingly felt
that had power TO help which did not de-
in this feeling. IL IS natural you should. r. IS
dearer to you than can be. He is with yOn.
All his trials lie opcn to your eye daily, but |
see YOU but seldom, ana my personal relations,
environments, necessities, limitations, dangers
and perplcXitieS you cannot see on Imagine. II
mad not gone through this great year OF sor-
row, | would not have believed that any one
could pass through my experience and be alive
or sane.
clca, each Of which required clear mindedness
and peculiarly inventive or Originative power,
VIZ: First-Thc great church: SecOnd-The
newspaper; Third-The book. The first could
neither get out OF nor slight the sen sitiveness
OF 50 many OF my people would have made any
appearance OF trouble or any remission Of force
an occasion Of alarm and notice and have eX-
cited where IL was intended that rumOrS should
die and everything be quiet. The newspaper
did roll Off my mind, did but little except give
general directions, ana in so doing | was con-
tiuuQlly spurrcd and eNhOrtcu by those in in
terest. Ii could not be helped.
The Life OF Christ" long delayed, had locked
J M Ina, a al AT IrflK m
| sink them Finished 1t must be. Was ever
book born OF such sorrow as that was? The in
terror history OF 1t VIII never be written. Du-
ring all this time you literally were all my stay
and comfort. / should have Jailed on the way
but Tor the courage which you Inspired and the
| hope which you Drcathed. My Vacation was
| profitable. / came back hoping that the bitter
| ness OF death was passed, but Us troubles
brought back the cloud with even severe sur
ferlngs. For all this fall and winter have telt
| that you did not feel satisfied with mc, and
| that seemed both to you and T. as contentlng
myself with a cautious or sluggish policy, VILE
| ing to save myself, but not TO risk anything for
| Il. have again and again prObed my heart to
| see whether l was truly liable to such feeling
and the response is uhequivocal that am not
No man can see the difficulties then environ
! ing me, unless lie stands where do. To say /
! have Il church on my hands, is simply enough.
| but TO nave the hundreds ana thousands OF
| men present cNeihg me, each OneiWlth his keen
suspicion or anxiety, or zeal % see tendencies
| which, II not stopped, would break out in a
! rulnoGs defence OF me to stop them without
! seeming to do IL ; TO prevent any one question:
| Ing me; to meet and allay prejudices against
| r., which had their beginning years before
! tits; to keep serene, as II | was not alarmed
| ordlsturDed; TO be cheerful at home and among
| friends. when was suffering the tOrmtntS OF
| the damned; topasS sleepless nights after, and
yet to come up fresh and full tor Sunday-all
! This may be talked about, but the real thing
| cannot be understood from the outside, nor its
! wearing and grinding ON the nervous system
God Knows that have put more thought ana
| iudment and earnest desire into my efforts to
prepare a way for \, ana H. than ever did for
| myself a hundred 14ld---As TO the outside pub
lie, have never lost an opportunity to soften
prejudces, to refute falsehoods, and to excite a
| kindly FEELING among all whom | met. | am
| thrown among clergymen, public men and gen
| orally the makers OF public opinion, and have
| used every rational endeaVOr TO repair the evils
| which have been visited upon r., and with In
creasing success DuL the roots OF THIS prejudice
The Catastrophe WHICH procipitated him from
his place only disclosed feelings that had eX-
| listed long. Neither he nor you can be aware
| OF the feelings OF classes In society ON other
grounds than later rumors. ] mention this. to
that no mere statement, letter, testimony or
l affirmation Will reach the root OF affairs and
reinstate them. Time and work Will. but
| chronic evils require chronic remedies.
Ifmy destruction would place him all right
that shall not stand IN the way. ! am willing
| to step down and out. No one can offer more
| than That. That do oi1er. sacrifice me with
| out hesitation il you can clearly see your way
to his happiness and safety thereby. l do not
think anything would be gained by it, | should
| Elizabeth ana the children would have their
future clOudod. In one point OF view | could
| desire the sacrifice on my part Nothing can
| possibly be so bad as the horror OF the great
| darkness IN which spend much OF my time
look upOn death MS sWoetcr1aced than any
| friend | have In the world. Life would be
| pleasant II could see that rebuilt which is
shattered but to live on the sharp, ragged
edges OF anxiety, remorse, fear. despair, and
yet 10 to put on all appearances OF serenity and
| happiness. cannot be endured much longer.
am wen nigh discouraged,
II you, too, cease TO trust me, to love me,
am alone. | have not another person In the
world to whom could so. Well TO God com.
nit all; whatever II may be here 1t shall be
well there with sincere gratitude Tor your
heroic friendship and with sincere affection,
even though you love me not, | am yours
| though unknown TO you. H. W. u.
BEECuER TO MoULToS.
SUNDAY MORNING, June /, 1873.
My Dear Frank The whole world Is tran.
| uull and the heaven IL serene, as Deilts one who
has about finished this world life. | could dc
| nothing on Sunday. My head was confused
but good sleep has made 1t like crystal.
| have determined to make no resistance. Theo
dore'a temperament Is such that the future
| even If temporarily earned, would he absolute
ly worthless flled with abrupt changes and
rendering me liable at any hour or day TO b.
obliged TO stultify all the devices by which We
saved ourselves. 1t Is only fair tlat he SHOULD