The Kenosha telegraph. [volume] (Kenosha, Wis.) 1860-1888, 1874-08-20

my simple WORD or denial to interpOse
against 1T. In my then morbid condition of
mind, L thought that this charge, although
entirely untrue, might result In great disaster
4 If Tot in absolute ruin. The great interests
which were entirely dependent on me, the
church which ] had built up, the book which
| was writing, my own immediate family,
my brothers. name, now engaged in the mino
istry. my sisters, the name which I had
hoped might live after me, and be in some
slight degree source OF strength and en-
couragement to those who should succeed
me, and. above all, the cause for which
had devoted my life,, seemed imperied.
1t seemed 20 me that my life-work was to
end abruptly and in disaster MY earnest
desire to avoid public accusation and the
evils which must necessarily flow from It..
and which now have resulted from it. has
been one Of the leading motives that must
explain my action during those four years
with reference to this matter.
MR.. MOULToN ON HIS THIRD vIsIT-THE CIR.
IN CUMsTANCES ATTENDING THE FAMOUS
s#F ttfn CONFESSION. .+ 4
1t was in such a sore and distressing con.
dition that Mr.. Moulton found me, His man.
ner was kind and conciiatory. He seemed
however, to be convinced that I had been
seeking Tilton's downfall that had leagus
ed with Mr.. Bowen against him, and that I
had by my advice come near destroying his
family. did not need any argument or
persuasion to induce me to do and say any-
thing which would remedy the injury oil
which then believed had certainly been
the occasion, if not the active cause Mr.
Moulton assured me of his own knowledge
that the stories which had heard of Mr.
/ Tilton's impurities oflfe, and which had
believed and repeated to Mr.. Bowen, were
all false, and that Mr.. Tilton had always
been faithful to his wife. was persuaded
into the belief of what he said, and felt con.
victed Of SANDER in it's meanest form. HI
drew the picture of Mr.. Tilton wronged IL
reputation, in position. Wronged in purse
shattered In his family, where he would
otherwise have found a refuge. and at th
same time looking upon me, out of his dee,
distress, while Astounding in friends, mos
popular and with ample means-he drew
that pictute--my prosperity overlooking art
Astounding, and Tilton's utter degradation
l was most intensely excited, indeed; fell
that my mind was in danger Of giving way
| walked up and down the room pouring
forth my heart In the most unrestrainet
grlefand bitterness of self-aecusation, telling
what my ideas were of the Obligation O
friendship and Of the sacredness of the house
hold denying, however. an intentiona
wrong, seeing that ii / had been the cause
however remotely, of that which then be-
held, never could forgive myself, ant
heaping all the blame on my own head The
case, as il then appeared to my eyes wat
strongly against me; my old and fellow
| worker had been dienessassed of his emir EN-
pace and influence and had counselled it
His family had well-nigh been broken up
and had advised it /; his wife had been long
sick and broken in health and body, and
as fully believed 1t, had been the cause o
all this wreck, by continuing that blind
heedlessness and friendship which had be
guiled her heart and had rolsed her husband
into fury Of jealousy, although not causel
by any Intentional act of mine. And should
Iicoldly defend myself? Should I pour
/ indignation upon this lady? Should I hold
her up to contempt as having thrust her af.
lection upon me unsought? Should tread
upon the man aud his household In THEN
great adversely gave vent to my feelings
without measure. dsclaimed with The
lgrratest earnestuess any attempt to harm
Theodore in his home or his business, and
! with inexplicahle sorrow I both blamed and
| defended Mrs. Tilton IN one breath. d
THE LITTER OF APOLOGY.
| Mr.. Moulton was apparently affected by
my solloquy, for it was that rather than
a conversation. He said that If Mr.. Tilton
could really be persuaded of the friendli-
ness OF my feelings toward him, he was. sure
that there would be no trouble III procuring
| q reconciliation. gave him leave to state
to Theodore my feelings. He proposed thai
should write a letter. declined. but said
that he could report our interview. He then
prepared to make q memorandum Of the
talk, and sat down at my table, and took
down, as supposed, q condensed report OF
| my talk, tol went on still pouring out my
wounded feelings over this great desolation
in Mr.. Tllton's family. 1t was not a dicta-
ton Of sentence after sentence. he a mere
amanuesis, andI composing for him.. Mr..
Moulton was putting into his own shape
parts of that which was saying in my own
manner, with profuse explanations.
WHAT MR.. BEECHER EXPLAINS TIE APOLOGY
| tIaI3& G0@$ TO BE. #.&uT asgC
| This paper OF Mr.. Moulton's was mere
memorandum of points to be used by him
in setting forth my FEELINGS. That it con-
| tains matter and points derived from me