The Cairo bulletin. [volume] (Cairo, Ill.) 1872-1878, 1874-08-18

Shall tell you tho main points the world
mskes against you 2"
"Yes,H be said, III could be out in the
world and look in upon myself, ] might
mako myself better understood to tho
world. You may ask me anything you
like! Do not be delicate7 don't think
thore remains anything for people to
write agains, me which they have not
said
USED TO BE THEODORE TIL-oE,
thought Now / find that l Am pol
troon, q blsck.mailei, q fellow jealous OF
another mans fame and my wife, whose
ietters 90 me, unless 1 sm blind and can
not read show an appreciation Of the e1-
aegerated and even passionate, tells the
world that / was as bad as they cay. You
may ask me anything, down to the mar
row"
.sThsn, sail l ,a.begrossess o6snse you
have committed, In the estimation of
your own sex, was continuing relations
with your wife after you knew her 10
have been impure TO you." -
"Perhsps," said Mr. Tilton, "msny men
who say that never came to the opport-
unity Of showing what their conduct
might be.
WHEN A THUSDEBBoLT STRIKES vEssEL
it makes an immediate catastrophe, SO
that ono must do what he had never pre-
pared himself for. The story Of Eliza
be,h's guilt vas relate to me Voluntarily.
1 never accused her. She had been out
in the country staying awhile, and was In
a poor state OF health. That fevsrish, re-
ligious nature she had probably urged her
on to make her bslf-copscious belief that
she had emily perpesrAted = spiritual love
by q cnrnAl act, complete, by Kidding II OF
tho element Of deceit. She, therefore,
resolved to open the story Of her own vo-
litisn, hoping that might understand u,
or, II could not understand IL, she would
take the worst.
TWAS IN THIS VERY ROOM.
She was sitting there whore you are.
came in aud stood yondor. She addressed
me al once, and In o minute my heart was
pierced through and through. i stood
there transit led, and Q hundred things
csne TO my mind, that ANGLE scene
am ongst them. She used the words Of her
religious emotion to express the con fession
OF adultery. She passed out, leaving me
III ere ss il standing neither upon nor un-
der any words whatever, perfectly empty
emotions, Just blasted. AZ III to mako
ofer acknowledgement perfectaud her con.
hsssion absolute, she sent up to me that
fSritten stasment, and then, ~ If she had
done all, her spirit gave way. Both OF
Us spent that night alone.
| IN THE MIDST or THIS SIGHTAMARE.
In the morning Invent early to my office
in the Brooklyn Union building, and l
could not write. folt that l must come
to some determination on this thing. /
thought IL over In all its relations my
children, my home, his children, himself,
my good name 70 be hereafter tAiiled
down the years, the peculiar nature OF the
victim and her religious Intensity. AT
last l said "ThAt man Is growing old.
He hiss but few years to live. l will
punish him only TO this sxtent. Eliza
beth shall go and tell him that l know
from her own lips what pattern OF godli-
ess he ia, and that am q living, suffer-
Ing sacrifice tor his children a. we'll as
my own" l said, yes, will be In my
secret self conqueror.'
| TWILL BIZ LIKE CHRIST"
Mr.. Til.on was now standing up. The
reputsd rssemb lance no has borne to the
head of the Christian sect seemed to me
| no fiction, as with his pure features, long,
| aaxen, curling hair, ana large, unimpas-
sioned eyes, no looked at me. He con.
tinued:
| FOR two wesks lived
| KIND OF kcsTAcY.
1 walked the stree. As IL l scarcely
touched the ground. The grestnsss Of the
emptation had put away, the magns-
nimity Of the life ! was leading, the sscri-
| dee, made NE radiant. | wrote without
labor. Ny occupation WAS moro tasteful
TO me than it had ever been. If i had
killed my wronger, or tauntsd him,or con-
spired to disrobe him, 1 could not have
folt So"
What revived the quarrel then, Mr.
Tilton ?"
"Oh No man could keep up TO tha. un.
natural height. There must have
come relapse. Domestic publisher
. hundred indictments, brought me
back to the world. There was the
torture OF tho secret itself. Isaw besides,
that confession had brought no true peace
to my wife.
THE SPELL HAD BEEN BROKEN
which attached her to me.
"One day Bowen came to me and said
Il want you to be more careful to praise
| Plymouth church in the Union. 1t is a
great power bore to build up your
paper on. You don't pay any attention
TO It,.
II broke out psssionstely. Said /; Il
will never mention Plymouth church In
any line write, I never cross its
threshold, and never prai'e Mr.
"why 10 this y exclaimed Bowen. (You
must know never permitted him in the
Independent to give me any policy, nor
to alter or omit anything / wrote.) Why,
sir 4 said TO Bowen, Mr.. Beechsr has At
tempted to commit an infamous insult on
me and my family
"At this Bowen walked up and down
the floor, and Oliver johnson, who was
present, heard him, but now hnds 1t con-
venieut IN forget, and Bowen bitterly de-
nounosd Besoher as o man who has done
such things in mems families for. years.
Yet the next day, he threatened to cashier
me II ever mentioned what he had
said"
WHY TILToN LEFT THE "IsDEPEsDEsT."
"what did you leave Mr.. Bowen's pa
per for, Mr. Tilton?'
"Why, because he wanted 10 be more of
Z man, more the reputed editor than he
could be with me. He had been FESTIVE
for long time over the complete indenti-
fcation of the Independent with my
| name. This thing at homo, too, was
gnawing me, snd Bowon believed that
some day il would burst, and that would
then be an inconvenisnt fellow"
ado you know. Mr. Tilton, that you are
accused Of having been
JEALOUS OF NH BREcHxKs HIGH RXPU-
TATIoS2"
eyes; / am accused Of being so jealous
| of Mr. Beecher's fame that TO remove him
as a rival 1 would charge adultery upon