The Manchester journal. [volume] (Manchester, Vt.) 1861-current, 1874-02-12


,he ola gentleman. Niue Is lueulg-aHe.
Tweuty.alaa might have been. woa'3
haYr bca, so uHlgeky ruubcr for
mr. 1H I dgut kn8w "a, both we're
paIn,eI iu b.aek letters on white oval
Twenly-auc-lwonty.uiue, Not much
difference, yoa scg--gl, .as very Ahe, iu-
deed, aud yei because chose the nuu-
ber without a flourish apd q long leg. !
arm here to-day, and have bad long and
happy ur. should have been the oc-
cupant Of suicide. grave ever so many
years ago had J chosen twenty }-uIue.
really can't understand said l. Was
( it s. lottery or dralt, Is eou,egip,ion, OF
whatg Was ita game--was IT,
( II was The number ou q door, said the
old gentleman Wait a moment; I'il tel
you all about il.
was very much in love; everybody is
sc some time lu bis lie. At twenty-five
wa, desperate, Talk about Romeo, -
lie was nothing lo be compared with
mc.
I'm uot ashamed OF it, She WAS q
worthy object Not only because She
was beautiful, bat because -be Wa, good
and amiablc, and such a singer she
sang .oprauo in the church choir. And
I've heard stranger. whisper to each 9th
er, /, there really an angel up there
When she sang her part alone, clear and
sweet, aud 0aie-lke her voice was. /
never heard its equal.
Well, loved her, and / thought She
. liked ne; but wasn't sure. | courled
her q good while, but she was as shy a.
auy Bird and couldn't satisfy myself as
] 10 her feelings, So made up my mind
to ask aud know for certain. Some poet
says;
lie either fears his tate too much,
Or his deserts are small,
Who fears to put it to the touch,
And win or lose il all.
agreed with him; and one evening as
walked home from little party where
T we had met, with her on my arm, stop
/ ped under great willow tree, and took
her hand in mine, aud said:
Jessie, love you better than my life ::
/ willyon marry me:
waited an answer.
/ She gave none.
Jessie. | said won't vou please speak
1 TO mcf
Then she did speak.
! MOO dear, no,
offered her my arm again, and took
her home, without a word. She did not
speak either. She had told me before
that she should start with the dawn to
visit an aunt in New York, but did not
even say goodbye at the door, bowed
that was all Then when she was out Of
sight, and | stood alone in the village
streets, l felt desperate enough to kin
myself
What have | done to have so cold q re-
fusal? Why should she scoru me so? .
dear, nor | grew furious as repeated
the words
Yet il stung me all the same. tossed
from side to side of my bed all highland
thought | could endure it no longer -
But would not pain and disgrace my
respectable relatives by committing sui.
eide in the place wherein they dwelt and
aud were well known and thought of.
would 90 to New York--eyen then q
very large city--and, seeking some hotel
register an assumed name, and retiring
at night with bottle Of laudnum aud 2
brace Of pistols, awake no more, and so
be rid Of my misery. arranged my af
fairs TO the best Of my ability, and re
eeived an imaginary letter from friend
in New York, requesting my presence
on matter of business ! burdeneC
myself with 10 unnecessary Inggagc.-
What did an unknown suicide want o
another coat mud change OF linen:
kissed my mother aud sister, startled
my grandfather by an embrace, and
started upon what ! mentally called my
last Journey with determined spirit.
There was "a certain hotel to whcl
many Of the people OF our village wcr,
ia The habit OF going. This avoided -
Another chosen at hazard, seemed {,
be better Thitber | walked, determiu
ed TO leave no trace Of my destination tC
those who knew me--Ho c,ew 10 m,
identity to those who should iud mc
dead.
had to mark upon nay clothing, nc
card, paper or letter with ne. / haC
torn the haticr's mark from my beaver
As / asceuded The hotel step. lelt, 50
, TO speak, like person going to his owt
funeral
4 grinuiug waiter bowed before me
a pert clerk llfted up his head and star
ed. was an ordinary traveller TO them
that was evident.
!, was late iu the evening; lhe plac
wore am sir Of ra3ose. laughter and
fsiut chink Of glasses ia au inner apart
mout told Of some couyiviality. One OLD
. uan read his newspaper before the Gse
' Nothing else was sstr.
. asked i9r room. The esnrk nod
ded
pagou slre what l3or: ae ashCd.
shook ay head
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