The Indiana State sentinel. [volume] (Indianapolis) 1868-1895, 1874-08-18

had heard of Mr.. TiIton's impurities of life
and which had believed and repeated 10 Bowen
were all false. and that Tiiton had always been
ef Of TO % n,s wsi Said and & Of the
SANDER in its meanest form. lie drew the
picture OF TIlton. wronged In renutatlon' In po-
i his family. wS S0'e other%i hss't found
refuge, and at the same time Io9klng
upon me out Of his deep distress, while was
ample means. He drew that picture, my Pros,-
perity OVERLOOKING and Astounding and Illtons
utter DEGRADATION. Twas most intensely excited.
felt that my mind was in danger of giving way.
/ walked up and down the room pouring forth
restrained griefand bitterness Of self-aecnsauon,
telling ghst my idea Of the OF ahs OF
denying an Intentional wrong. seeing
if I had been the cause, however re-
never could forgive myself and heaping all the
blame on my head the case, as it then appeared
10 my eye, was strongly against me. MY old anu
fellow worker had been disposed OF MS place
and influence. had Cancelled IL. his FANNY
had well RICH been broken mp, ana nau ,, so-
vised Il. His wife had been long sick ana pro,
ken in health and body, and as
this py Continuing that blind heedlessness,
and friendship, which had beguiled her heart,
and had reused her husband into a
any Intentional act and should cololy defend
myself. should l pour indignation on TINS
lady should bold her up TO contempt, as hay;
ing thrust her affections on nae unsought should
| tread on the man and his household in their
great adversely, L gave vent to my ceilings
without measure. disclaimed with great earn
estneSs any intent 10 harm Theodore In MS
home or business and with lneNpllCaDle soIIOM
I both blamed and defended Mrs. Tilton IN one
Mr. MouIior was apparently ahectedIby my
SatiOn. He said that if TiltOn could really be
persuaded of the friendIiness OF my feelings
iIeS'" would Id be no trouble in procuring
reconciliation. gave him leave 10 STATE 10
sbo9fa write ie tern deciined' but said That
he could report our interview. lie tnen pre-,
pared omake memorandum OF the talk' ana
sat down at my table and ,ook down, as L sup
tax, for went on, pouring out
my wounded feelings for the great desolatlon IN
Tiltons family. 1t was not dictation of sen,
tence after sentence; he an amanuensis 81, ana
composing for him. MIR Mouiton was putung
into his own shape the parts OF that when
was saying IN my own manner, E lon1,PP pro
was mere memorandum of points to be used
by him in set ing forth my feelings. Ihat IL con-
Iains HSIe and oIS but they Mere
put with sentences by him, anu
expressed as he understood them, not as my
be used BY him in conversing with Tilton; He
did not read the paper to me, nor did
o Gsad hedfd pPF rs ndve that eyer ns
until the publication of Tilton's recent docu-
thoughts that point 70 the matter
of my discourse, but 10 is not my
correct report of what said. 1t is a mere
string OF hints, hastily made by an unpractlced
writer as helps to his memory In Tepresenuiing
to Tlton how felt toward his family.
II more than this be claimed, IL IL be
set forth as in any proper. sense
my letter, 1 then disown 1T and
denounce II. Some of its sentences, and partic-
ulariy that in which am made to say that l
had obtained Mrs. Tilton's forgiveness, never
could have said, even in substance.
had not obtained nor asked any forgive
had done So Neither could 1 ever have said
that BUNDLED myself before Triton as Dhlore
God, except in the sense that both 10 Goa, ana
humbled myself, as / certainly did. But IL is
useless 10 analyze paper prepared as this was
The remainder OF my plain statement concern
ing II viii be its best comment. This
DOCUMENT WAS WRITTEN
upon three separate half shee.s of large letter
paper. After was finished, Moulton
asked me If 1 would sign it. ! said no,
it was not my letter. He replied that IL
would have more weight if L would
in some way indicate that he was aU-
thorized 10 explain my sentiments.
I took my pen, and at some distance bee W the
writing, and upon the lower margin, indicated
Mr.. MOultOn, and signed the line thus written
by me. few words more as TO its further fate.
using IL he would in two or
three days bring the memorandum
back 10 me, and he cautioned me about disclos'
tween Mr.. TIlton and me, as it would be inJuri-
quareled with him, as well as TO me to have
rumors set ahoat L did not trouble myself
S 1srd nne @n' i90 0re be eRan to write
his case, of which hereafter and was looking
NJ. documents; l wondered what was In the
greater certainty. So one day suddenly asked
Moulton for that memorandum and said, "lOu
eoDfnsed f t0 moment. and said Ibid II?
Certainly" answered. BE replied that the
paper had been destroyed; on my putting the
question
long ago. and during the Eext two years In va
rious Conversations of his own accord, he spoke
of il as destroyed had never
asked for nor authorized the destruction OF this
PopeT, ont vs. not a4 pt 20 ntI dis
tinguished editor in New York within few
weeks past assured me That Mr.. Moulton
amined my signature TO be sure of its genuine
ness. know that there was a copy OF II since
iected this memorandum my VOL x, an ac- |
curate condensation OF my statement, it does un-
in profound sorrow and that blamed
myself with great severity for the diasters OF
.Tilton's family. had not then the light now |
heavily upon my heart and conscience, which |
now weighs only on my heart. nave not the
light which analyzes and Disseminate
Things By one blow there opened
anguish, an agonized family whose inmates
had been my friends greatly beloved; the
household erumbling to pieces; the woman, by |
long sickness and suffering, either corrupted TO
deceit, as her husband alleged, so i
broken in mind to be irresponsible, /
and either way it her enthusiasm /
for her pastor, as was led to believe, that was /
the germ and beginning of the trouble. 1t was /
for me To have orestalled and prevented that /
mischief. My age and experience in the world |
should have putme more on my guard. Icould |
not at that time tell what true andwhat |
not true Of all the considerations urged upon me
me in which lay those who had been warm |
friends, and they alleged that had helped 10
PLUNGE THEM THEREIN.