, 1873-11-03


ward grow into tho Globe and Trauellcr, by tho
purchase Rnd incorporation OF Tho qtobe) wnH
thon the property Of tho well.lnown political
economist, Col. Torrone Col. Torronh himself
and had at tllta time made an attack upon aomo
opinion Of Ricardo and my fathor, to which, nt
my fathor's inatigation, I attempted au answer,
ana Coulsou, out Of confederation for nv
was reply by Torrona. to whioh again rojoinod.
soon after attempted something considerably
more ambitious. Tho proBocutionh of Richard
carliio and hls wife and aihler for publications
ottsn,n naasG to ohriaianl wore then 3. exciting mitch
people l. froluontod. Freedom Of discussion
even In politics, much moro in religion, was at
that timo fur from being, oven In theory, tho
conceded point which 1t at least aeomB to be now;
always ready to argue and roarguo fer tho libor-
" OF oxpronaing thotI,. wrote y Horios Of five
lottors under tho Bgnuluro Of WiolIif1e, going
over tue whole length and breadth Of tho q,1cs-
lon, and offorol thom to tho Morning Ohro,,ai-
and February, 1925"
HIS MENTAL DETECTION. AND now IT WAS CURED.
In 1926 q crisis occurred In his monta1 HISTORY,
1t was tn tho autumn. His nervos were ,l1-
strung. His object in life WAS to reform tho
world. 1lo thus doscribes his condition
" IN ttla frame Of mind 1t occurred to mo to
Put the question directly to mypelf: Suppose
all the changes in institutions and opinions which
yon are looking forward to could 10 completelv
effected at this very lnst>u, would this bo grcat
Joy and happineBs to your Aud au irrepressiblo
holf-conHclouAnesH distinctly anewerod, mol
At this my heart sank within mo tho whole
toundation Oh which MY lifo wAg constructed foil
down. All my happiness was to havo boon fo,hd
III tho continual pursuit Of tllls end. Tho end
has ceased to charm, aud how could thero evor
again ho any interost in the means seemed
to havo nothing lett to live for. At first hopod
tho cloud would pass away of itself but It did
not. nights sioep, tho sovereign romudy for
tue smaller voxations Of life, had no effect on it.
l awoke to removed consciousness Of tho
woful fact. carried 1t with nfo into all COM
panies, into all occupations. Hardly nnythiug
Anu power to causo mo oyon n fow minutes'
OBLIVION Of 1t. For Rome months tho cloud
sooinod to grow thicker aud thicker. The huos
In Colcrago's Dojectlon II was not then l'as. ac
quanted with thonl-c1actly describe my case
Agrief without pang, void, dark, anil drcar
Msh SrSwsy syas ass n.t1n' sgssood 5tdt Ssis
III word, or aigh, or tear.
!" In vain sought roiet from my favorto
books; those memorials of past nob1onesu aud
groat1loss from which I had always hithorto
M drawn strength and animation. I read them
I became persuaded that nv love.
OF mankind, aud Of excellence for its own
sako 1 h9d worn itsolf out, sought no comfort
loved any ono anflloient1y to mako confling NV
grioig necessity. should not have been ii Tic,
condition WAS. folt, too, that mine was not,
90 interesting, or in my way respectable, dis
tfess. There was nothing III it to attract SYM,
pathy. Advice, if had known who're to sook it,
would have been most precious. The words Of
Macbeth to tho physician often occurred to my
thoughts. but there was no one on whom
as.is'snao so~ld build tho faintest @ hope Of snch
1dgo, in whom alone ~" Of nnp ali VI WritoTs 1S'oI
have found q true description of what.
felt, were ofton III my thoughts, not at this
time (for Ind mover road them), but in later
period OF the Same mental malady:
Work without hopo draws nectar In stoyc.
And hope without an object cannot ve.'
In all probability my case WIS by no means 90
peculiar as I taneiod it, and doubt not that
many others have passed. through ainilar
state but the idosyucrasies OF my cducation
CHARACTER. vhc mado E aeo jo nasa spSea
effect Of Causes that 1t was hardly noBsi-
bio for time to remove. frequently asked
myself, Il | could. or if I Was bound
manner ! generally answered to myself, that
I did not think could possibly bear II beyond a.
year. Wien, however, not moro than hnlf that
duration q of time had elapsed, q small ray of
accidentally, aarmonots % semors sa' and ueas, eans
to tho passage which relates his fathor's death,
the distressed position Of the family, and tho
sudden inspiration BY which l1o, then q mere
boy, folt and made them feel TINT he would DO
Of all thai they Ind lost. A vivid conception
OF the scenc and it's feelings came.
over me, and was moved to tcars. From this,
moment my burden grew lighter. Tho opprcs-
within mo was gone. was no longer hopeless;
was not rock or D stone. had Htil it.
seemed some Of tho material ont Of whicl, ali
worth OF character and all capacity for -happi-
ness aro made. followed from my ever prcsont
aonse Of 1rromet'iablo ,Nrotchedness, gradually
found that the ordinary incidents OF life
could again give me aomo pleasure; that
could again find enjoyment, not i'll
tonse: but sufficient for chcerlulness in
ton, III public affairs +; and that there was, once
more, oxcitoment, though Of moderate kind, III
exerting myself for my opinions, and for tue
public good. Thus tho cloud gradually drew of,
aId 1 again enjoyed i!fo and though had SOW
mover again was as miserable Ms had bocu.
ii now bogan to find meaning in tho tb'ippn /
which Ind read or heard about the Importance
ture. But it was somo timo louger before I bo- I
gan to know this by personal experience. Tho
only ono OF the imaginative arts In which had |
from childhood taken groat pleasure was music;
tho best effect Of which (and IN this It surpasses
perhaps evety other art) consists III exciting On
feolings OF elevated kind whicl1 arc already IN
the character, but to which this e1citenlont
gives glow and feryor, which, though tran
STORY at its utmost height, is precious for yus-
tanning them at other times. This effect OF
music had often experienced but, like all my
plcasnrable susceptibilities, ii was suspended
during the gloomy period. I had sought relief
again, and again from this quartor, but
found none. After tho tide had turn
cd, and was i'll process Of ro-
coyery,, l had. been helped forward by
music, but in much less elevated manner. I
at this time first became acquainted with Web +
t1row from it's do1icions melodies did mo good.
by showing mo a source Of pleasure to which /
was was as susceptible as ever: Tho good, however,
pleasure Of music (aa ia quite trno Of such
pleasure as this was, that Of moro t,lno) fades
with familiarity, and requires oithor to be ro-
viyed by intermittence, Or fed BY continual
'lnyolty. And it 10 very characteristic both Of
my then state, and Of tho general tone of my \
mind at this period Of MY life, that was
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