Connecticut western news., 1873-07-04

GulCK QarKnoSS SottloS on me.
 "The doctor calls this apoplexy, an, says I shall some day die in fit of it
 What do doctors know of the tremend ous influences that are working on ou souls? He, in his scientific stupidity calls it disease, and warns me agains wine and high living, as if did not un derstand what it is, and why my visiol at such times reaches so very far int the deep unknown.
 "I have spoken of Tom Lewis, he cousin. Rumor said he was the olt mans heir in equal proportion with tn, daugher for he had been brought III in the family, and had always beer treated as son. He was good fellow If he was rough, for he had the good ness, that all who came within her in t1uence must have.
 "I have seen her look the devil out of him often. I remember once wher the horses had behaved in way not tc suit him, and he had let an oath or two escape his lips preparatory to putting on the whip. We were riding together down the avenue, and he raised the lash At the moment he caught her eye. Sht was walking up from the lodge, where she had been to see sick child. She saw the raised whip, and her eye caught his. He did not strike. The horses es. capped for that time. He drove them quietly through the gate, and three miles and back without word of anger.
 "Did I tell you I was her cousin also? A second cousin on her mothers side, not on the Generals. We lived not far off, and I lived much of my time at his house. Tom and myself had been inseparable, and we did not con- ceal our rivalry from each other.
 Tom, said I one morning, 'why can't you be content with half the Gen. erals fortune, and let me have the other half ?
 "'Bah Jerry,' said he, 'as if that would be any more even, when you want Sarah with it. In Heavens name take the half of the money, if that's all you want
 Can't we fix it so as to make an even division, Tom Take all the for tune, and let me have her, and I'll call 1t square,.
 "'Just what I was going to propose to you. Be reasonable now, Jerry, and get out of the way. You must see she doesn't care a copper for you.'
 "I twirled rosebud in my fingers that she had given me that morning, and replied
 "'Poor fellow! I did not think you could be so infatuated. Why, Tom, there is no chance for you under the sun. But go ahead find it out as you will. I'm sorry for you
 "A hundred such talks we used to have, and she never gave either of us one particle more of encouragement than the other. She waslike sister to us both, and neither dared to break the spell of our perfect happiness by asking her to be more.
 And so time passed on.
 "One summer afternoon we were off together on horseback, all three of us, over the mountain and down the valley. We were returning, toward sunset, sauntering along the road down the side of the hill.
 Philip, stir the fire 8 little. That bottle of claret is rather cold, it seems to me, or I am little chilly myself. Perhaps it is the recollection of that day that chills me.
 " l had made up my mind, if oppor- tunity occurred, to tell her that day what I had thought for years. I was determined to know, once for all, if she would love me or no
 If not, would go, I cared not where; the world was broad enough, and it should be to some place where I should never see her face again, never hear her voice again, never bow down and worship her magnificent beauty again. would go to Russia and offer myself to the Czar or to Syria and join the Druses, OF to India, China, any where to fight. All my notions were military, remember, and all my ideas were of war and death on the field.
 ''I rode by her side, and looked up at her occasionally, and thought she was looking splendidly. I had never seen her more so. Every attitude was grace, every look was life and spirit.
 'Tom chung close to her. One would have thought he was watching the very opportunity I was after myself. Now he rode few paces forward, and as I was catching my breath to say Sarah he would rein up and fall back to his place, and would make some fiat re- mark that made me seem like a fool to myself, if not to her.
 "'What's the matter with you, Jerry?' said she atlength.
 'Jerry's 1n love- said Tom.
 ''I could have thrashed him on the spot.
 In love! Jerry in love!' and she turned her large brown eyes toward me-
 ''In vain I sought to fathom them, and arrive at some conclusion whether or no the subject interested her with special force.
 '"The eyes remained fixed, till I blund- cred out the old saw, Tom judges others by himself
 ''Then the eyes turned to Tom, and he pleaded guilty by his awkward looks, and half blushes, and averted eyes, and forced laugh.
 "'By Heavenr thought, 'whatwould l not give for Toms awkwardness now! The scoundrel is winning his way by it.
 "'Jerry, is Tom in love ?
 "She naiSete of the question, the correctness of it, the very simplicity of the thing was irresistible, and could not repress smile that grew into a broad laugh. Tom joined in it, and we made the woods ring with our mer- riment.
 "'I say, Tom isn't that your whip lying back yonder in the road ?
 "'Confound it, yes; the cord has broken from my wrist; and he rode back for it.
 Jerry, whom does Tom love 9 said she, quickly, turning to me.
 " You, said I, bluntly.
 "'Why, of course but who is he in love with, I mean? ?
 "It was curious way to get at it. Could be justified? ? It was not ask ing what I had intended, but it was getting at it in another way, and just as well, perhaps. It was, at all events, asking Tom's question for him, and it saved me the embarrassment of putting it as my own. determined this in an instant.
 '''sarah, could you love Tom we'll enough to marry him?'
 "'I, Jerry! what do you mean?'