Ashtabula weekly telegraph. [volume] (Ashtabula, Ohio) 1853-1873, 1873-03-22

ASHTABULA, OHIO, SATURDAY, MARCH %, 1873.
q 1)on,t he afraid ,he continued. viii

should not have come If II had been.
have been nearly starved once or twice,
not daring TO leave my room. ] can
conquer my madness now the question
is, how long can continue to do 30. ]
feel that tits growing upon me. feel
my power Of resistance becoming weak.
er aud weaker-the craving for blood
getting stronger and stronger am
like man who has slipped over preci-
pice, and feels the earth and shrubs TO
which he clings, slowly, slowly, surely,
surely, giving way with him. / have
brought wreiched ours out of the street
must have human life'
"'Auy human life7' inquired, 'or
some one IL particular p
"Wby do you ask me this, Doctors?
he cried, getting suddenly excited.
"'No matter; go oB.'-
Sometimes he resumed, 'it seems
that any life would do and sometimes
Doctor, four days before saw you met,
upon New jersey ferry-boat, a syoung
girl. So pretty, SO refined, and nicel /
followed her to her home-the devil,
that has taken possession of me led me.
She went in, and soon came out again
into herilittle garden, aud tended her
flowers +%poof ehlldl Doctor, If had
had pistol with me | should have shot
her. You may smile but some day soon
! shall takeaspistol OF pnIpose, and shoot
her. ,Heo77ua. - - .II-Fso- q 80 ~ ID
at was clearly no use arguing with
him. The bes: way with such people is
to admit their facts and try to work
round them" tla .i1ail
= "'Then,' said l, 'the only thing that
you eau do is to submit to the restriction
of an asylam, till this feeling is passed
1T will not pass. If were 10 go TO
madhouse should sham sane. Soon
er or later their vigilence over me would
be relaxed. Then | should murder my
keeper, and go straight for that innocent
girl a.h
"sThen leave the country
I" SWELL, that would save her, but
Doctor, one life is as dear TO its holder as
another. If don't kill her,I shall kill
some one else .--
e" My dear fellow,'I replied, in as
light tone as l could assume, these
fancies are cureable. Put yourselfunder
skilled medical treatment. You are all
to bits, physically. Get sound in body
and you'll get all right in your mind
| "'On the contrary, / am all to bits as
you say, mentally, aud my. body suffers
through my mind Medical treatment
have consulted every practitioner o.
note here and in Europe. Some think
Pm fooling them, some look wise, aud
talk as you do about "treatment." All
have failed. Doctors are of no use Ia
me-
"'Then may ask why you have come
here ~ ,.-s ',' t'..'
"'To ask your advice as a friend,' he
ans cred, drawing his chair nearer tc
me 'and,' lowering his voice, 'to ash
! YOU one question as friend and God
fearing man, and to which | pray yor
to give me a plain yes or no.
"'Go on
"'Feeling as feel, shall be justified
before God in taking my own liie? Viii
it be deadly sin for me to do for mysc!
what I would do for "A mad dog9'
II repeat his words almost as hi
spoke them. cannot give you tho
faintest idea of the solemn deliberatiol
with which he put this awful question
For some moments could not say ;
word. Then started up and told hin
that would not answer him yeS or NO
that it was not fair to ask me TO tax
such responsibility. Then he rose, toe
aud said that he must resolve it for him
self, and saw plainly which way
would go. 'Give re till tomorrow 4
think it out I said, OBTAINING him.
"To.morrow may be too late,' he re
piled. The fit may come upon me to
night for all l know i
"'Come home with me Pm not afraid
lYou won't hurt me- said.
"T would try very hard not to do s.
-but-Iknow myself cannot trus
myself. DON'T you trust me-
'''I aoiR trust you but I'll do more
You are not armed, L suppose !!
"'No,' he replied with a shudder, nc
now.' alt'r 40 TFIW5 Ffrt o.
"PlI Itake care that you shall not By
and I'll carry my Derrenger in my pocl
et, On the first indication OF homicids
mania ! give you my word I'll shoot
| and I'll shoot strait" ! said this TO sa
5 isfy him, poor fellow lin his weak state
, could have laid him down like chllt
. II did satisfy him, and we went hon
: together. led him to talk of our ol
= soldering days, and gradually got hi
0 back TO his wound. made him d
!, scribe the first sensations OF pain IN d
!, head and repeat all that his dife
s ent medical advisers had said.
n happened TO have strong preparatio
). | ocka aht,aotA I.t, ~ l'N II fYaya him a Iaa