, 1873-11-09

lelt auro that wo1nan's tr1o attraction doea
pot depend upon tho false attitude in which she
~ placed by mon THIS nun has aoon mo as
am, Ald hhye drawn him to mo, =,
| DEo. lit Baoms scarcely possible that it IA
Dlit ono wook nlnco wroto those vorla above,
Yot she nato ataron mo III tho faco aud tolls me
t',as 1nt soyon days and sovon nights have
pastsea a ance nee thon: @ u seons to mo II all ny
OF 1lp1n9, taan this oua waok and what al,gO.
lute, u,'comproanihlng pnlu It ins ali beo,, II
aeo'ns 20 Ino ~ IL had boon through evory h. ne
Gt =, s'.l1erug IN ,nt steeossoni YET t9 what ,lo"
| raokot mo with al thoso various gradations oi
torture7 lust this Binoo that night, that tri.
umpEant. happy night, hayo ,,eithor hcaid from
nor soon MIR. Lawroncc.. silencc, unbrolton
but oh how badly mot calmly or with quios
solf-oontrol mud strength; but I havo borne 4
with passionate outory and restloss atruggles. j
havo aobbed mysolf to sloocp at night 1 have
OF . lounge, book in hand, pretending to roNd,
but In reality listening, waiting, longing. to heal
some slgn, como to mo from lin. Tllon il
laH soo1aed to mo as Il there was but ono other
hnmn9 creature in tho world, and that Was he
as II all tho manifold needs anlwants loaaes and
gums, Of humanity had no longer tho slightest
meaning for INC. have no Henao Of amy atn-
bitlon, any aim, any obligation pressing upon
but fow palo memories Of him, and my wlolo
future seoms concentrated in his oxistonce. 40
not think eau bear to live as I am now. It is
oil profoundly dark to mo. Why docs ho not
comof eau think Of no possible explanation
and thon act 1t is this pasHYeneBs which ia kill
ing INC.
am resolved; will write, and will ask hin
to como to me, and when ho oomcB will yay
what I; fool. ,somo mistaken hesitation is koop-
ing him away. I will say, "Wo love one ai,-
othcr; lot us unto our lives and live tLom to-
gethor, yokcd In all exercise Of noble end"
LETTER FROM HENRY LAWnEHor TO GEORGE MAN.
MING.
DEAR dEoRoE: will begin by telling tic
tralth. aud here 1t Ia am in Bcrape.. know
you won't think much Of tho simple fact but tho
aoiaro is worry different from my Of my former
onos, and don't aoe how can got out Of It hon
end, hear you Say with an inorodulous smile,
:. Why, Harry, have heard you rfdicule honor /
Thousand tinos whore women nro concerned.
and Of courao this acrapo involves . womap.'
has involved me, aud there ltos tho scrape. Ia
Tor honor, laugh at 1noat Of tho things be-
lioyo in, Just because 1t ia tho fashion Of tito
day-nnd belong to the day live in-not to
somoIimes one finds Tint logically one thinks )
thing, an idea, a feeling absurd, and yet when
one's 1ilo comes Into collision with It,
aomehow .'D,L 10Y, up springs :; something within
soa tnstnat w4eh Ia a4fRpoae might 6o called
clerieh and uphold tho very feeling or idoa
Which you have already rEdton1ed.
We'll, III toll you my etory, and then perhaps
you'll tell me whit to do. About-let me aee-a
month ago i Wout with come mon ono evening,
men who spoko wore all stupid, aud roared aud
mouthed stur 'sfuIl Of sounli aud fury. si,nifv-
lug nothing" aud WAS thinking how could
g. away aud havo game Of cards at the club,
whom suddenly voice like music smoto upon
ny astonialed cars. 1 looked up, aud there On
tho platform atood . woman, speaking,
by Jove! and doing 1t we'll, too. liz.
toned and looked, and should have on
joyotl 1t It 1t had not disgustod me 10 in
being thore, there was notbiug objectionable
about hor. She was handsome, and had o nnr-
nitleont voice; she talked hundred per cont
better than the men rho preceded her; and It
was well for tic meeting That it was over when
made terrible anti-climax. Tho two fellows
with mo proposed our being introduced to hcr,
and half from curiosity, half-I snoro to speak
tho trush-haH: George, faom attraction (hcar
ing and very handsoms)-I vent forward
aud was preHontod.. sho Interested and IT.
tracted me-, tho more SO perhaps that from
t!ie. the momeut t; our eyes met ! was conscious
natural affinity, Intent. but capable Of being do.
veloped. I called on lor the ncxt day, aud made
my cousin Clara inyito her to a party, Ciara.
who ia thoroughly unconventional, and would do
aa,nything to please me, did 10 without second
thought. But imagine my tiHtlcaa whom, as
entered the drawlng-room littlo late, I saw my
fair Amazon standing in doorway, not ouly
alone, but alono in The midAt ct curious and
scornful glanccs. Ny courtesy was at stake, my
chivalry was aroused, and sho looked very hand
como aud vory like any other woman brought
to bay. bhe had the most charming expression,
Of bewildermcnt aud doilance.
on her lace when my oyos fell On hor, aud 1t
(which won't doscribe) Wien our ,'e eyes % mot.
she ia strong-mindad" sho must be ropulsiyo
aud immodest. But there ia o charming iucon-
a1stency about female human nature.
iko champion, assure you. for, after all, il |
Waa shabby Of tho women to give her tho cold |
shoulder, and cowardly OF tGe men to stand !
aioof 90 devoted mysolt to hor. mud asked |
Alice Wilton to DO presented 10 her. Miss Lin !
:on Inns not particle Of usage du monde, nor
y she what would be called higl-brod but
Tho is se1f-poBsoAsod and gentlo III her mapnur.
md makes good enough figure in tho company
u ladies' anu gantemen. Here confoss my
Yeakness. dld think her Tory attractive. aud
which l did not forbear to exercise. The result
II this was TINT when no parted she had every
oason to expect to SOC me very Ro0n again, aud
had lnWardly resolved nover to seo her again.
~~A4A AoAF AIA AuGlI away a1a tl0u
uok would have it that I mot her taking walk
'ne snowy afternoon. 1suspootod she had como /
ut to got away from tho remembrance Of me. as
had to got away from the desire to 500 her
nd she was 30 moved by eoeing me TINT could
'ot help showing her that cared Tor lor.
nd porhnps aeemed to caro- more than did. Il
Vas . sore temptation and I yielded to il,
Vrong7 Do you think I don't know that il
rus wrong,7 But the worst 10 to come. walked
aok With ler, and an accident 1ed'to our having
nc Of those conversations that people laye
'hon they aro under tho influence OF emotion
nd eannot give it vent in It's natural wav, but
1uHt do something or talk. II I could have nut
y srn,s about hor and kisaed hor We could bayo
now what, and ene, being very much in oarnegt
~ very unaophistioated, showed me how much
he cared for mo. vow, Georgo, IL l had Ind q
loment to think, to gnther my Belf-coptrol- But
lad not. and SO we ended By my finding her
lth hardly word, and Walked and walked, and
1ought aud thought. The noxt comes q noto
ON hor-what one would cali manly, straight
'rward acknowledgment tEat she lid lod mo i
ito position that was All unfair QUO. aud TINT |
10 regretted it. Nothing frantor or moro gen
GUS could have boon conceived, but somehow