National opinion. [volume] (Bradford, Vt.) 1865-1874, 1873-06-27
pray to her as il she were my hope, my

icy fingers are feeling about my heart
as II 70 grasp aud stu 1t. lie calmly
quietly, and ! think my hour is u
hand and through the gloom, ant
through the mists and films that gathe
over my vision. l see her afar of, still
the same angel in the distant heaven
ana i reach ont my arms to her, and
cry. aloud on God to let me 60 find her
and on her to come TO me, and thei
thick darkness settles on me.
The doctor calls this apoplexy, ant
says | shall some day die in fit of it
What do doctors know OF the tremend
Gus influences that are working on ou
sonls lie, IN his scientific stupidity
calls 1t disease, and warns me agains
VINE ana nien iiVihg, az II ana not uh
"eie'ahu "h"' ~ ~ "io why my 'isioi
u. such times reaches 10 very lar ihtt
'he deeP UNKNOWN
nave spoken OF ION Lewis, mel
cousin; huhior saiu ne vas tne oio
1iah heir III eq''ni Propo' on "i,n 'ht
a"ugher ior he had been Drought NJ
III tile iahiiy, ana hao Always neei
.rra'eu M soh' ne was So0d ieiiow'
II lie wac romgh, ior he han the goou'
ness, Una. al VINO came WITHIN her III
hue,,ce must i",0' -,
nave seen her iooh 'ne ue'ii o"'
.h ol MN @ ol'tn' ! , reihenioe once wheil
'no ioi 'eo ''"i oe"",ru III way ho' "
SUIT hiin' ana he had let an oath or two
escape ms iipt preparatory 10 putting
on 'iie "hip. we were riuihg togsthef
uowi ", Tue avenue anu ne Ia'Se" tle iash. t'
At the moment ne caught her eye oh'
was waking up from tne louge, where
sne had peen 10 see SICK chlld. she
saw the raised whlp, ana her eye caught
MS. lie ana not strlKe. Inc hor'es es'
capped FOR that time. lie drove them
quietly through the gate, and three
miles and back without word OF anger.
Did I tell you I was her cousin
also? A second cousin on her mothers
ide, not on the Generals. We lived
not far off, and l lived much OF ny time
at his house. Tom and myself had
been inseparable, and we did not con-
ceal onr rivalry from each other.
Tom, SAID one morning, why
cant YOU he content with half the Gen
erals fortune, and let me have the other
half
Bah ! Jerry, said he, as II that
would he any more even, when you
want Sarah with it. In Heavens name
take the half of the money, If that's all
you want.
80 Can't We fix 1t so as to make an
even division. Tom? Take all the for
tune, and let me have her, and I'll call
1t square.
Just what l was going to propose
TO you. De reasonable now, Jerry, and
get out OF the way. You must see she
ioesh care copper loI you.
twiried rosebud IN my nngers
nat she had given me 'ha' morning.
'hu rep'ied|
foOr leiio" uiu not ,nlhh you
'ould be SO infatuated. why, Iom,
mere is no chance ior you under the
un. put go ahead ma IL out as you
VII. I'm sorry Tor you.
Z" A hundred such talks we used to
AVE, and she never gave either of us
ne particle more of encouragement than
he other. She was like sister to us both,
nd neither dared to break the spell of
ur perfect happiness by asking her to
Ne more.
And so time passed on.
"One summer afternoon we were off
ogether on horseback, all three of us,
ver the mountain and down the valley.
We were returning, toward sunset,
along the road down the side
+ the hill. ,., m
80 Philip, stir the tire little. That
ottle OF ciaret Is rather Geld, 1t seems |
, me, or l am little chilly myself.
'erhnps 1t IS the recollection OF that
ny that chilis me.
i had made up my mind, II oppor-
imfy occurred, to tell her that day
hat had thought Tor years. l. was
etermined to know, once for all, II she
ould love me or no
" If not, l would go, l cared not
here; the world was broad enough,
nd it should be to some place where l
lould never see her face again, never
ear her voice again, never bow down
I'd worship her magnificent beauty
gain. l would go to Russia and offer
yseif to the Gar or to Syria and join
10 Druses, or to India, China, any
here to fight. All my notions were
ilitary, l remember, and all my ideas
ere of war and death on the field.
II rode by her side, and looked up
her occasionally, and thought she
rs looking splendidly. l had never
en- her more SO. Every attitude was
ace, every look was life and spirit.
"Tom clunr close to her. One would
we Thought he was watching the very
rode few PAGES forward. and as I
rs catching nv breath to saw Sarah
would rein mn and fall back to his
ace and 7 wonld make some Aat re.
,rt that moda mo seem ike a fool 70 ,
vself if not TO her
+" whats the matter with Won. Jerrvy .