The democrat. [volume] (Weston, W. Va.) 1868-1874, 1873-06-30
pray to her as il she we're my hope, my


over my vision, I see her Rfar of, still
the same angel in the distant heaven,
and l reach ont my arms to her, aud I
cry aloud on God to let me go find her,
and on her TO come TO me, and then
thick darkness settles on me.
"The doctor calls this apoplexy, and
says shall some day die in fit Of 1t,
What do doctors know Of the tremend.
Gus influences that are working on our
souls2 He, in his scientific stupidity,
calls It disease, and warns me against
wine and high living, as il | did not un.
derstand what it is, and why my vision
at such times reaches so very fur into
the deep unknown.
"Ihave spoken of Tom Lewis, her
cousin. Rnmor said he was the old
mans heir in equal proportion with the
daugher for he had been brought up
in the family, and had always been
treated rs son. He was good fellow,
il lie was rough, for he had the good
ness, that all who came within her in.
fluenco must have.
"I have seen her look the devil ont
of him often. l remember once when
the horses had behaved in q why not to
suit him, and he had let nm oath or two
escape his lips preparatory to putting
on the whip. We were riding together
down the avenue, and he raisea tho lasIl.
AT the moment he caught her eye. She
was walking up from the lodge, where
she had been to see sick child. She
saw the raised whip, and her eye caught
his. He did not strike. The hOrs en- es-
capped for TINT time. Ho drove them
quietly through the gate, and three
miles and back without word of anger.
"Did l tell you I was her cousin
also? A second cousin on her mothers
gido, not on the Generals. We lived
not far of, and lived much OF my time
at hia house. Tom and myself had
been inseparnble, and We did not con-
ceal our rivalry from each other.
"'rom, said I one morning, why
can't you be content with nalf the Cen
erals fortune, and let me have the other
halfT
"'Bah | Jerry, said he, 'as II that
wonld be any more even, when you
want Sarah with it. In Heavens name
take the half of the money, II That's all
you want
"'Can't We Tx it 80 ms to make mn
even division, Temp Take all the for.
tune, and let me- have her, and I'll call
it square
"'Just what I was going to propose
to Won. BE- reasonable now, Jerry, and
get out of the way. YOU must see she
doesn't care n copper for you.'
az twirled rosebud in my fingers
that she had given me that morning,
and replied
"'Poor fcllowl Idid.n think you
could be so infatuated. Why, Tom,
there ispo chance for you under the
sun. But go ahead find it out us you
will. Tn sorry for YOU.
"a. hundred such talks We used to
have. and she never gave either Of us
one particle Of encouragement than
the other. She waslike II sister to rs both,
a1ftl neither dared to break the spell of
our parfect happiness by asking her to
be more.
Autl bu tlLle plbSeu oA'
"OnN summer afternoon we were on
togethsr on horseback, all three OF us,
over the mountain and down the valley.
We we're returning, toward sunset,
saunLering along the road down the side
Of the hill.
Philip, stir the FIRE little. That
bottle Of claret is rather Geld, it seems
to me, or I am q little chilly myself.
Perhaps it is the recollection Of that
day tlat chills me.
III had made up my mind, il oppor-
tunify occurred, to tell her that day
what I had thought for years. ] was
determined to know, once for all, IL she
would love me or no
"If not, I'would go, cared not
where; the world was broad enough,
and It should be to some place where l
should never see her face again, never
hear her voice again, never bow down
and worship her magnificent beauty
again. I would 60 TO Russia and offer
myself to the Csar or TO Syria and join
the Druses, or to India, China, any
where to fight. All my notions were
military, remember, and all my ideas
were oi war and death on the field.
"I rode by her side, and looked mp
at her occasionally, and thought she
was looking splendidly. 1 had never
seen her more 80. Every attitude was
grace, every look was life and spirit.
"Tom clung close to her. One would
have Thought he was watching tue very
opportunity 1 was after myself. Now
he rode few PAGES forward, and as ]
was catching my breath to say Sarah,
he would rein up and fall back TO his
place, and would make some fiat, re.
mark that nAdo me seem like fool to
myself, il not to her. -,
"tWhat's the matter withyou, jerry?
said she at length.
"'Jerry's in love, said Tom.
II could have thrashed him on the
p%;1n Lowell Jerry in Lowell and she
turned her large brown eyes toward me.
"In vain sought to tathom them,
and arrive at some conclusion whether
or no the subject interested her with
special force. .r,,,,
cred out the old saw, Tom judges
others by himself.
"Ther the eyes turned to Tom. and
he pleaded guilty by his awkward looks,
and half blushes, aud ayerted eyes, aud
forced laugh. ,,
"'By Heayenr thought !, 'yhatwould ,1,aI.!,