Oxford Democrat. [volume] (Paris, Me.) 1833-1933, 1872-03-05

arm To the should i started. III WAS
almost emaciated. | had again and again
in the course of the winter asked her why
she did not wear her usual style OF even
ing dress. aud she had replied that IL was
on account of her cough.
at is we'll that my lace does not show
loss OF flesh as quic'.i, u, ia" rest at my
body does" she said quirlh Il have
lost thirty five pounds oi ilcsh III tour
months, and nubodh has observed IL!
Yes, DEAR" she weul on. II haze lrIt ii.
More than that. have lttI II Increasingly
every hour, and eau bear nu more Up
10 this time have never hy hook or tome
shown TO John that Srtn il. lie wun-
ders every hour what ii arc ,u+ that IL"
not. have neve~ by 80 much - the
slightest act watched him. have seen
notes in EInma's handwriting lying on
his desI, and have lett the house lest
might bc tempted to read them! know
that he has - yet done NO cl,ndtsiine
thing. but at any moment should
hav, led them both into il by showing
one symptom OF jealousy. And should
have reused in his hear, a feeling oi irri,
ty,tlpu and impaiience with me. which
W"uil have done in one hour more 10 IN
iru .,iN his love for her. aud to change i.s
na,urr from u pure. Involuntary >enti.
mcnt iuto All acknowledged and guilty
one, than year, and Years of Tree inter
the limit OF my physical endurance. Nh
nerves are giving way. Am really
mY body aside from the rifrct, oi This
anguish. A month more of This would
make me u hopelcssly broken down -.
man. 4 months absence from ,he sigh
OF it will almost make me well"
could not refrain from interrupting
/ her.
ELLEN, you are mad you are mad
You mean 10 90 away and leave him to
see her constantly alone. unrestraiued by
your presence 1t has almost killed
you To- zee it, How can you bear imag
inins ii. Knowing it ?"
Better than ] can bear seeing it, lar
better Because have still undiminish-
ed confidence in the real lsstingneSs OF
the bond bctw cen Joha aud me. Emm,
Long would have been no doubt a good,
very good wife ioi him. But aDI his
wife, and am the mother OF his chill.
dren. and just So sure as right Is tight,
and wrong i wrong. he will return TO
ME and TO them. 4 wrong things are
like diseases, seIt-limited. II Is wrong
for man TO love any woman better than
ne does his wife don't deny that, dear,"
she said. half smiling through her iears
al my indignant face; "but man may
seen, TO do il when he is really very lar
from it, lie may really 10 it tor days,
for months. fot years. perhaps; but ii ho
be true man, and his wife = true wile,
he will return. John Is a true husband
and still truer father. John is mine
and am his; and shall live TO remind
You Of all these things, Sally, after time
has proved them true"
was almost dumb with surprise.
was astounded. 10 me il seemed that
her plan was simply suicidal. ] told her
in the strongest words could use of the
scene of the night before.
81 could tell you OF still more trying
| than sou. But ii knew ten times as
much. | should still believe that my plan
/ j. the only one. OF course | may fail.
Ii i, all IN Gods hands. We none OF us
know how much discipline We need. But
know one thing; it do not regain
John in this way, cannot in any. II
/ siay shall annoy, yeN, disturb, torture
him Once the barriers of my silence
and conce lment are broken down,
shall do just what all other jealous wo-
men have done since the world began.
There are no tormcnts on earth like those
| which \ Jealous woman inflicts, except
! those which she bears will die soon.
Ell tn innict them on John. Even il
the result proves me mistaken, shall
never regret my course, fo- | know that
| the worst is certain If remain. But
/ have absolute faith, and her face was
transhgured with it as she spoke, John
is mine. If | could stay by his side
through ii all and pre'e the same ie.
lation with him which have all winter,
all would sooner OF later DC well. l wish
were strong enough. My heart is, but
my body is not, and must GO"
When she told me the details oi her
plan, | was more astounded than ever.
She had taken Dr. Willis into her full
confidence. (He had been 10 us father
and physician both ever since our fathers
death) He entirely approved of her
course. He was to say-which indeed
he could oonsclentiously do--.that her
health imperatively required an entire
change OF climate, and that he had adj
vised her 10 spend at lepst one year
abroad. 1t had always been one of Johns
and Ellons air-castles TO take all the
children TO England and TO Germany for
some years of study. She proposed to
take the youngest four, leaving the eldest
girl, who WAS her fathers pet and com.
panion, to stay with him. A maiden
aunt of ours was to como and keep tho
house. and | was TO stay with the