Vermont watchman and State journal. [volume] (Montpelier, Vt.) 1836-1883, 1872-02-21

dinner looking like a-man who had received ,
mortal blow. DIR. Willis had purposely given
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s great danger. So il was, but not from the
o cough AT first Johns vehement purpose
I was to 90 with them. But she was prensred
Tor this. His business aud official relations
were such that it was next TO imposs;ble eor
0 him to do il, and would at best involve a fro.
l"euuous pecunlary sacrifice She overruled
: ana demonstrated, and was so firm in her OBJ
Jocuons to every suggestion Of his Of accom-.
: psny,ng or following her, that finally, in spite
ol an his anxiety, John seemed almost piaued
at her preference for going alone. In eyerv
conversation on the subject | saw more and
more clearly that Ellen was right. He did
love her-loye her warmly, devotedly.
Two weeks from the day Of my converse.
ton with her they sailed for Liyerpool The
summer was to be spent in England, and the
winter in Nice or Mentone.
Alice, the eldest daughter, loving. mn.
rllny grl Of twelve, was installed In her
no,ners room. This was Ellen's especial
"lsn. She knew that in this yay John
roulu DC urawn to the room constantly. All
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has given me, all for my own, her lovely toi-
lette set, and all the Bohemian glass on the
bureau, and her ivory brushes ? She says
when she comes home she shall refurnish her
room and papas too :"
Oh, my wise Ellen. Could Emma Long
have done more subtyl
Early on the first evening after John re-
turned from New York, having seen them of,
missed him. | said bitterly to myself.
At Mrs. Longs, | suppose" aud went up
stairs to find Alice. As | drew near her
room heard his voice, reading aloud.
went in. lie and Alice were lying together
on broad chintz-covered lounge as had 20
often seen him and Ellen.
"Oh, Auntie, come here" said Alice,
hear mammals letter to me She gave it
to papa in New York She says it is like
the sealed orders they give to captains some-
times, not to be opened till they are out at
sea. 1t is all about how | am to fill her
place to papa. And there are ever so many
little notes inside, more orders, which even
papa himself is not to see only suppose
he'll recognize the things when | do them !"
Al that moment, as watched John Gray's
face, with Alices nestled close, and his arms
clasped tight around her, while they bad FL.
lens letter, great load rolled off my heart.
| went through many dark days afterwards,
but | never could quite despair when | re-
membered the fatherhood aud the husband.
hood which were in his eyes and his voice
that night.
The story Of the next twelve months could
be told in few words, so far as its external
incidents are concerned. 1t could not be told
in thousand volumes, if | attempted to re-
produce the subtle undercurrents of John
Gray's life and mine. Each of u. was iv.
ing double life he more or less uncon-
sciousy; | with such sharpened senses, such
overwrought emotions, that | only wonder
that my health did not give away. | en-
dured vicariously all the suspense and tor
ment of the deepest jealousy, with sense Of
more than vicarious responsibility added,
which was almost more than human nature
could bear. Ellen little knew how heavy
would be the burden she laid upon me- Her
most express and explicit direction was that
the familiar intimacy between our family and
Mrs. Longs was to be preserved unaltered.
This it would have been impossible for me to
De he f NJ; ~.c had not herself recognized
of John's socie, e. IT. for her own full enjoyment
nv aunt, the ostensibe head Of our house,
was quiet woman, who had nothing what
,ver to do with society, and who felt in the
t outset u sreat shrinking from the brilliant
Mrs Long, had never been on intimate
terms with her, SO that John and Alice were
I really the only members of the household who
could keep up precisely the old relation
And so it gradually came about that 10 most
of our meetings under each others roofs,
strangers were asked to fill up the vacant pa-
ces, and in spite Of all Emma Longs efforts
and mine, there was a change in the atmos-
phere Of our intercourse. But there was
enough of intimacy to produce the effect for
which Ellen was most anxious, 1. C., to extend
the shelter Of our recognition to the friend
, ship between John and Emma, and to remove
from them 10th all temptation to anything
clandestine or secret. They still saw each
other almost daily they still shared most
of each others interests and pleasures they
still showed most undisguised delight in each
others presence. Again and again | went
with them to the opera, to the theater, and
f sat through the long hours, watching, with a
pain which seemed to me hardly less than El-
lens would have been, their constant sympa-
, thy with each other in every point Of enjoy
ment their constant forgetfuness Of every
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