Vermont watchman and State journal. [volume] (Montpelier, Vt.) 1836-1883, 1872-02-21
MiSellanentts.
wf frlbners Monthly TOR February.
now ON wMN KEPT HER HUSBAND.

:" No, dor, at all very sane and yer
determined. lave been for six month
coming to thRery resolve. | began
think Of it in 'ery few hours aftor fir,
saw him look ANNA as If he loved her
have thought 0 day and night since, and
know | am It. If l stay, | shall los
his love. If o, shall keep it, regal
It, compel It," le spoke here more hurried
ly. =" | have be now all can bear with
out betraying pain to him. am jealou
Of Emma. Utmost kills me to see hin
look at her, spdo hor."
my poor, darling" l exclaimed
/" and have b thinking you did not fee
itw
She smileddly, and tossed back ia,
sleeve Of her VIPER SO as to show her arm
to the shoulder started 1t was almost
emaciated. / d again and again in the
course Of the ster asked her why she did
not wear Quad ,iyle Of evening dress.
and she Sp'fd Ait it was on accoun, oI
''.' sEsu tia, av fac. doc. no. ~.
loss 81 fosS llielsiy as the rest or NY tssy
does" !" she'd quietly. :" have lost thirty
FIVE pound flesh in four months, and no.
body has eryed it Yes, dear" she went
on, {" l ho felt it, More than that, have
felt il incsingy every hour, and | can bear
no more. p to this time | have never by
look or shown to John that | knew it,
He woud, every hour what it means that |
do not have never by so much as the
slightest watched him. | have seen notes
10 Emmaiandwriting lying on his desk, and
| have lehe house lest might be tempted
to read th | know that be has as yet
done no odestne thing, but at any moment
| should We led them both into it by show.
ing one sptom of Jealousy. And | should
have roh in his heart feeling Of irrta-
tion and 1patience with me, which would
have DOM one hour more to intensity hi.
love for +, and to change its nature from a
pure, inmntary sentiment into an acknowl-
edged an guilty one, than years and years
Of free ercourse could do. But | have
reached / limit Of my physical endurance
My ners are giving way, | am really ILL.,
but notbg is out of order in my body aside
from theffects Of this anguish. A month
more oihis would make me hopelessly
broken.wn woman. A months absence
from tn sight of it will almost make me
WELL"
| cou not refrain from interrupting her.
Ellie you are mad you are mad You
mean to away and leave him to see her
constant alone, unrestrained by your pres
ence ? has almost killed you TO see it,
How caEou bear imagining it, knowing it ?''
Bett than can bear seeing it, far better
Because have still undiminished confidence
in the rd lastingness of the bond between
John anme Emma Long would have been
no doubn good, a very good wife for him
But a, his wife, and am the mother oi
MS cbilden, and just 50 surely as right is
right, an wrong is wrong, he will return tc
ne and them. All wrong things are like
diseases, ,elf-limited. 1t is wrong for a mar
o love ally woman better than he loves hi'
wife; i On't deny that, DEAR" she said, hal
milling trough her tears at my indignant
ice TT man may seem to do it when
e Is Falb very far from it. He may really
10 il fo- days, for months-for years, per
APPS but if he be true man, and his wifi
try wife, he will return. John is tru
Iuf osi, a a still truer father, John i
. ms am his : and = shell E-c -:
y "a you tn5l. these things, Sally ai'er '''"
was alr ost dumb WIN 49,
stounded. To me it seemed that neii We, wa
las simply suicidal. told her 10 the strong
81 words could use of the scene Of the nigh
efore.
could tell you of still more tryin
Genes than that, Sally. l know far NOR
han you But if l knew ten times as much
should still believe that my plan is the onl
ne. OF course may fail. 1t is all i
iod's hands. We none of us know how muc
discipline we need. But know one thing
do not regain John in this way, canno
n any. If | stay / shall annoy, vex, dis
urb, torture him Once the barriers Of m,
Hence aud concealment are broken down,
hall do Just what all other jealous wome,
ave done since the world began. There ar
10 tormenis on earth like those which jealou
Fomau infiets except those which she bears
will die sooner than infict them on John
even if the result proves me mistaken,
hall never regret my course, for | know tha
he worst is certain if | remain. But hay
bsolute faith, and her face was transfg
red with it as she spoke, " John is mine. l
could stay by his side through it all an
reserve the same relation with him which
ave al winter, all would sooner or later b
Iell. | wish | were strong enough. NJ
cart ia, but my body is not, and must go.
When she told me the details of her plan
was more astounded than ever. She ha,
AIKEN DR., Willis into her full confidence
He had been to us father aud physician botl
yer since our fathers death.) He entirel
pproved OF her course. He was to say
Ihich indeed he could conscientiously do
hat her health imperatively required an en-
ire change Of climate, and that he had ad
ised her to spend at least one year abroad
thad always been one of Johns and Ellen
ir.castles to take all the children to Englan'
md 10 Germany for some years of study
ihe proposed to take the youngest four, leay
ng the eldest girl, who was her fathers es
ecial pet and companion to stay with him
maiden aunt of ours was to come and kee
he house, and was to stay with the family
his was the hardest of ALL
ELLEN, | cannot Do not--oh, do no
rust me. shall never have strength.
hall betray all some day and ruin all you
'opes.'
" You cannot, you dare not, Sally, when
ell you that my lifes whole happiness lies j
our simple silence. John is unobservan
md also unsuspicious. lie has never had in
innate relation with you. You will have n
But you mast be here,-because
lear, there is another reason" and here he
-oice grew very unsteady and tears ran dow
Ter cheeks.
In spite of all my faith, do not disguis
rom myself the possibility Of the worst.
annot believe my husband would ever do I
thing | do not believe tina
emma Long would. And yet, when | re
member what ruin has overtaken many mel
nd women whom we believed upright, dar
lot be wholly sure. And must know tina
ONE one is here who would see and under
tand if time were approaching at which i
Voud be needful for me to make one last ef
ort with and for my husband face to face
nth him. Unless that comes, do not wish
ou TO allude TO the subject in your letters
think | know just how all things will go
believe that in one year, or less, all will b