Edgefield advertiser. [volume] (Edgefield, S.C.) 1836-current, 1872-08-22

feel this defect. and in order to per-
feet mvself..T wished. after leaving
school, to teach bnt SO bitterly did
nv narents opnose this that I yielded
TO their wishes. and returned home
7 rlnnged into round of gavetv
and amusement and from this whirl
of excitement T EMERGED the bride OF
one whom nv friends. did not look
upon with favor. The vonng man
was an employee in wholesale honse
in the City of N. He was poor. but
possessed well-cultivated mind.
Unfortunately, however. he had no
chosen trade or avocation. Idleness
hal made me dreamy visionary be-
ing. and there was sort of charm
about beginnino life in poverty. In
would be so dnl;rhtfn! TO toll with
and for him I loved 50 fondlv. This
is all very beautiful in theory, and
in practice also. where there are fo,ir
s'rong hands tn perform the labor ::
but ciose application To the deak, and
hroathing the unwhc!asnme oitv air.
had seriously imnairAd nv husbands :
health. We had married at time
when neither was strong enough to
hattie with the stern realities Of life.
Dependence upon he salary of .
clerk or bookkeeper in large city Is
very precarious for family 1t was
year of unprecedented hard times,
necessitating great economy in buS'-
ness. Hundreds lost their situations.
and my husband among the rest. All !
then began that vain search for en-
ployment. For every vacancy there
were scores of applicants, and you
invariably received the answer, "per-
sons of experience wanted" Oh ! [
can never forget that weary tramp,
'p and down the streets, jostled bv
a crowd as cold and hearthss as the
;erv stones under ones feet. I ELI
We'd even the servant girls but.
alas! the mysteries of the cuisine
were as Greek to me, and l dared not
apply for so menial situation as
theirs. My poor husband was in
wretched health, and almost frenzied
at the thought of the misery and deg
radiation he had brought upon him.
For his sake hid my aching heart
behind u smiling face. One night
after he had retired, in hanging up
his coat, a vial dropped from the
pocket. Picking it up, found 1t
labeled Laudanum, and then I knew
that he was beset with the terrible
temptation to take his own life. Fling
ing the vile drug into the street, Il
sank down on my k ees, and % my
| God ! lead him not into temptation,
but deliver him from evil, was the
prayer that went up from my agonized
neart. How desolate l felt. In the
midst OF a great city, friendless, we'll
nigh peuuliess, and, worst Of all,
haunted with the dreadful fear thai
my husband would commit suicide.
From the time We would separate i'll
The morning until we met again at
night I lived in Il state Of absolute
torture. AT length, despairing o.
finding anything in the city to do.
We turned our faces countryward,
feeling that ourslender stock Of money
would last longer ihan i'll town. After
:lsny weeks OF painful anxiety, my
rsband found situation in a small
.liage, with jusg saiiry enough to
Keep the wolf from tie door. How
I longed TO 10 agmelling to better
oqr condition; iut alas what could
| do? laight have had IA fine music
class in the village but while lplayea
and sang very well, was not prof.
gent enough in liuslc lo teach it s';c
c, ssfuiiy. Oh, how | wished | iial
given the time 10 II | had .le;' OIL
French and Latin. a;any .;n ho'~
Vi hard study had l. gwen tAesr
branches. and what practical advan
age had tliey been to me? | new.
met any French people with whom
could converse, and had never bevD
,Dle 90 secure class In either Ian
suage, while all the whlle my knowl
t, ~. was becoming rusty by non use
il is painful to recur 10 Tins perlou
ol my HE | W4s so unhappy, i
cAretJ,d every day - be i..e iast'h4,
..aso,.n,, ..vuid uc auie 10 attend "
ousiuess Finally. driven IL dsspe!., !.
.on Oy our miNIortunes, l resolved 10
da so4.stl1ng or die in the attelnp'.
.lllacled l.. the mouse We occupied
vas Il large lot ior gardening pur.
poses, and | made up my mind tha'
out Of thai bit OF earth would dig
our fortunes or, sL least, q living with
my own hands. l made horticulture
d for'culture u study, and brushed
i.a,,.i,Ir, of nho,nictrIy