St. Johnsbury Caledonian. [volume] (St. Johnsbury, Vt.) 1867-1919, 1871-07-14

| think that her ultimate destiny, as
somebody's wife is one of the earliest i'm
presSi0ns received by the feminine soul
Is not "nr tender infancy one prolonged
S"rIes oi bridal proccs~ion-. where dolls
IN white satin and wells marry dolls in
drr>S-coat- and boots today, and are not
those same boots and coats mated alrc~h
with other sltinS and wells To morrow
And from these early antilyprS OF di~in-
tcrestcd maternal diplomacy we pass ca
SLY 10 speculation upon our own posi-
bile future. | distinctly remember that
at siX years of AGE had firmly resolved
that nothing should induce me To- marry
Tommy, the son of our next door neigh
hor; for Tommy WIS greedy, and refused
to share with me = beautiful cocoahut
cake with a red centre, for IL taste OF
which my mouth watcrcd and when
sad with fears i'll my voice, "Plcasc,
Tommy, Just Il little bite Tommy made
Il icrleivc gesture (known to boys) with
his nose and thumb. and holding the
tempting mor@cl Just out OF my reach,
asked in wilhcrin@ accents. "WiIl you
have 1t now or wait till You oct it,
No, | never woud marry Greedy.
| still meant To marry somebody, how
ever; but my -omcbody was a long time
III growing up 10 mans estate. He pass .
cd through many STAGES; migrated into
as many forms as a lIindoo's soul and
in proportion 10 the amount OF incense
poured at each shrine, was the l0aihing
which cnSncd when the smoke blew away
and | saw "t what cheap material my
idol was made At fourteen | went to
dancing school with George. George
was head taller and three years older
than myself, so looked up to him rs Il
man; he knew Latin, so | rcvcrcnced
him as Il sage. George always danced
with me, and lent him my seal ring TO
wear. | declined dancing with the small
boys, and pinched my feet almost numb
that hc might compliment me on my
beautiful little bronze boots. But one
day George gave me back my ring saying
hr was afraid he might lose it. ''Oh,
80 matter if you do" replied, feeling it
would he happiness {" have my ring even
lost by George. But no ; he said. Il
think won't keep it any LONGER, Ellie. ="
He did not ak me to dance again that
day, and hc danced four times with Dai-
y Jones, a new girl and Il very pretty
one. turned my back hair TO them,
and hummed Il second to the iiddles very
loud when they passed me but my heart
sank down into my little bronze boots till
they or it or both-it was all SO dreadful
didn't remember which-achcd to burst
ing. staid out the lesson; George
should never know cared whether he
danced with Daisy Jones all night but
gradually George came down off the
shrine, and got bit Of celibacy, which
lasted, with occasional intervals, for sew
eral years. | should never marry Men
were frivolous; easily bcguilcd by mere
triciOus appearances. No one worthy of
the priceless treasure Of my affections
would he likely TO discover their exist
cmcc. | was ''thc violet by the messy
stone" Some day all these men who
thought me severe, sedate, SLOW, would
he crushed into longing admiration, and
completely overwhelmed by Il revelation
OF my manifold unappreclated virtues
i'ut my fit Of celibary passed off like
the others it thawcd, if must confess
1t, under the sunshine of young mans
smile and l went as girls So often 60
from one extreme To another, and from
being cold, digniiied, and reserved, be
came, through the mysterious alchemy
of this sunshine, little volatile, perhaps
gay and light hearted. No radical
change of nature. l found my world
liked me better when | evinccd some III
tcrc>t in lis affairs, and some apprccia-
tlon of It's attractions. SO | turned
over new leaf, and life became Il more
interesting volume TO me, albeit 1t lost