St. Johnsbury Caledonian. [volume] (St. Johnsbury, Vt.) 1867-1919, 1871-07-14

lie here very comfortably all day, will
your profile AGAINST the clear blue yon
der 10 look at, and the tinkla of the wa
ter t" drive dull care away"
"WIlat does that water say to you
Philip - | asked, with Just Il ~Ii4It, mn
usual STIR "i uncaSincs'.
lie m"rmured gayly:
So li' well to b. merry mi glad
'Iis w"ll II lie honcst and trHc"
The monotunnus murnur Of that hronl
had put me sadly ont of tune, for
shook of ih" arm he had passed roun,
my waist, with the first stim@ of woman
ly pain had almost ever felt, aud re-
pratrd the remaining cnuplct:
Iii well TO be- oil with the old low.
'Rct"r' You with the new"
l'hillp looked at me II little curlnusly
and did not attempt 10 replace his arm
As we crossed the lawn Il carriage drove
rapidly mp the street. CIcopatra's rali,
ant face bcamr'l upon us through Ill,
window. We reached Tia. hons, Inst a-
she alig ghlrd
''lild me welcome, Chatclainr." sh,
sad. II have come To storm ynur cas-
tie"
Day succeeded day in II round OF
plcasurahlc engagements. \ house full
III guests created Il succession ut enjoy
mrnts, but for me the cloud lay over
the sunshine. The shadow of approach
ing trouhlr filled me with "A m;,mrleSs ap-
prrhrn>IUn. Since the muruiII" of Cleo
patra's sudden itd,cnt Philip and be-
came slightly c~tran@cI, and Vet no >ign.
or word, "r act "avc either of u a rra
son for explanation or complaint 1t
wa~ tltr intangible influence oi that wo-
man. | watched daily the subtle li"a-
mcntS 10y which she was hindinm him 10
herself, yet felt that was ppwcrlc~S
y sort "t numhnr>= came over all my sen
scs but that "i perception. 1t seemed
I" me, hnwrver loss they spoke together,
| always heard what they said; what
ever chances passed hrtwrrn them passed
through ",q ryclall~, every touch of her
hand on his arm thrilled me. And vet
our outward relations were unchanged
lie was, :" Tar ~ other people saw, the
same %cntlc, considerable lover. who
SpranG To fulfil my <prc>Scl wishes
and distinguished me- 10y his graceful
HOMAGE brtnr,. The world IL the woman
of his choice. 1t WAS as yet only what
Il w"man'$ quick iniuitinnS can feel, not
what her friends can pity her for; and
with my newly sharpcnrd perceptions,
which did not analyle 10 separate in
them love and pride, | sharply resolved
that before the second point could bc
reached would save myself the blow
But | conld only follow circumstances,
not force them. Fortunately for me,
my position a. hostess required constant
rNerlioa and >"li-tnrgctfulnc-s, and left
me little time t. brood over my troubles.
~ | entered a lrawin. room one af-
tcrno"n, an opposite door closed upon
some rctrrating figure, who's. did not
see, hut the lingering >onj",,n of ic@saminc
would have told me lad | needed other
evidence than that of my cousins face
as he stood hy the window. \ Stra@-
slin@ sunbeam lit it up, and | thought it
had never worn such depth ol expression.
| lie looked rs if Inc hal been moved To
the bottom of his soul.
"Alunr!' | asked a. passed linn.
| was curiou. To- know what he wnuld
-ay.
'You leave mr very much alone Of
late, hrlli~~mr," lac said, not turning
his face from the window.
II can scarcely think you suffer from
NEGLECT" | rcj"incd somewhat grimly /:
II hope you comtrivc to amusr yourself,
and would have passed ON, but Philip
turned suddenly, and Selling both my
hands in his @Iarcd down into my eyes
with Il look OF suppressed emotion
which almost Scorchrd me, while lac ask
ed with irvcri>h intensity of tone
''Tcll me, cousin, do You love me trrt-
y2 Do ynm love me with all your
heart ;"
His grasp tightcnrd to Il gripc on my
wrists with little cry of pain ! shook
myself free As did 81 my eye fell on
4 yellow rose at my feet. remembered
That Cleopatra had worn it in her hair
III hour before. silently picked it np
md presented it 10 my cousin rs silent
y and with passive hand hc received
il, and left the room.
shut myself into my own room and
determined to look the crisis in the face
No man should ask me twice in that
tone whether loved him rather let him
ask at once the question that lurked be
meath, "Would it break your heart TO
rive me up :" looked into my own
heart and discovered something which
me, not being much given 10
The result was of course
a forcgonc conclusion, but the examina-
tion Of those past years of my life was a
revelation of myself to my self. found
a very bitter, vengeful hatred toward
the woman who had broken down my
paradise. The intensity of my hate to-
ward her frightened me. My pride,
which had never been disciplined, was
OUTRAGED to such a point, that for hours
| paced the room unable to control my
self, and it was long before | began TO
my position and 70 ask my
self the question, Have | really loved
Philip had never loved any one else,
so | had nothing with which 10 compare
this sentiment that had been accepted as
love. But sitting thinking in. the dark,
| was little by little forced 10 the conclu
sion that at was not Il broken heart |
had to mourn Over, but Il broken dream"
| had infinite tenderness for my cousin,
but many vague apprehension of times
past, which had been cast out as unwor-
thy. came back and took shape and as
serted itself and bitterer and more poig