Vermont watchman and State journal. [volume] (Montpelier, Vt.) 1836-1883, 1871-03-08

Scheme after scheme revolyed in my mind,
all more or less absurd. new spirit was
aroused within me. Laying all my unhappi-
ness to Freds charge, | was seized with a
longing to 20 far out of his sight and do some
great thing that would make me so inde-
pendent Of him that could set up for my
self, and if possible have mother with me
also. At first | thought | would 90 home at
once, the better 20 set about it then thought
it would BE- such q grand thing to secure some-
thing beforehand so as to let him see when |
reached home, that / had already cut loose
from his guardianship. To do this, aud after
some further consultation with Nellie, | sent
three advertisements to city papers, and wait
ed returns. One was for 4 situation as a teach
er in public school 4 second, as a COVER.
ness in private family. A third, as a COM
panion to lady invalid, or a family about
to travel. Either Of these would take me
me from home, and might not be rery disa-
greeabe Another thing, they would remove /
me perhaps from the chance of feeling that
by my usual associates / might not be as
highly esteemed while making my living /
As all these advertisements must be paid for
in advance, it made quite hole in my
finances; but what Of that, if they proved |
successful?
Having dispatched them, feeling Of cz-
citement, first taste Of sell-feliance buoyed
up my spirits for several days. | waited a
week but hearing nothing from them | went
home. Surely, | thought, mother could not
say | had not tried to help myself
Nothing ever came of my advertising how
ever. After | had been at home few days
/ | to ...l a l,~
very willing to assist me all she could in my
efforts to get a situation. She encouraged me
much, and praised beyond my deserts, for
spirit which she admired in young women, the
desire to be useful But day after day slip
ped by and nothing came to me. | felt i'll
at ease. | could not again settle down un-
conscious of the necessity for effort Yet |
sbrank so from launching out vigorously to
search for employment. lay awake nights,
and as one thing after another suggested it.
self, put it aside with
" Yes, girls are employed in stores to some
extent, but | could not do that here. What
, would the girls thiuk2 And John2 He
, might not like to have me do such a thing
, 1t might change my prospects entirely" But
, | blushed to think that after all it might not
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unrest should make me at last almost Ill, and
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health never robust became SO poor that my
u anxious mother thought no more OF my dolnt
anything ior myself at present. and l tried t'
o be at peace on that SUBJECT;
o 1t was nearly spring. when one day | nae
letter from Nellie hidgeway had hae
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