The St. Cloud journal. [volume] (St. Cloud, Minn.) 1866-1876, 1871-04-27
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Why did he LOOK % p Hos had been 81
happy Ind bright.e5ed and t eager I. when
we last net why did he neither
'odt IL nor SPEAK tto tmsy he had
'Eis.ed me me then. - aa1 ;9@s1o
81 asked: these questions of myself .
thousand times, but found 20 answer.
He never gave me one. Week after
week: raised and. he did not come Gear |
our house. Time after time I sang in; |
the choir andshe never even looked st |
me; and the troubled look nas ever on |
his face, and he had grown older in this |
short space Of time: ,l.s- 3,--.~,e,.,
*, Al last I could bear it no more. !; !
TO love him aud be 60 utterly sepats;
ted from him, even while I could have
touched Lin With ny hand. To feel |
e e ny hearts core the coldness of his
look and tone when he was forced speak
to me: .,, q, ny heart 's'rt:' >rat vrnDs in
It aehed as only young hearts can
ache, and tho worst Of it w.a, I. could
share with no one. So, finding there !
was no explanation coming. I left the
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choir. I had cold, and my voice was
weak. There was a. real reason to give.
and gave it. Emily Otis took ny
place, and I sat on the Sabbath be.
tween grand-papa and grandma 10 the
Iold church below. I, could hear him
there, butt need aot see HIM.
Es:I think grandma guessed something
vas wrong. But she thought me such
. child that she. could hardly think Of
:'ny serious swooiog for me yet. X y:
+ A=Week after / had left the choir
the organ;aw.s again dumb. Andrew
Hudson's engagement had expired, and
he refused to renew it.; ':ss,:s- s7E !. -ss:s5.
1a"'H He at1t New Rochelle without Z, even. CO.
Ebiddingame good @bye.@ I never knew
how nush' hope W. left in :. ny. "a; hear,
until l heard he was gone. -: : es-s-zr
That day T stayed 10 my own m > room room
And, H.. enough Isreally was. Heaven
Eknows. @.4s:tC ~ = ::t>-a-f ~ -: =
:sE oj $yaun:a y. - II ,.,s.4a,a '-.i,s,i !
The next day. L dressed myself and
went down 70 breakfast. As r .stooo
before, the glass / said o,myke!t:. $50
Fphy Norro~.y, the time has come wte,
you must play the WOMAN. The onl,
man you have ever loved; Or ever cab
love, has no love for ycu, thatis certain
and though you were not 70 blame a,
drst, for he gave you cause to think he
vas fond Of you, you would be to bl.mc;
now to keep that love in Your heart
Crush it, Or, if you dcn' crush it, hide
it: Look a, wen and be as merry ss
Z you can, and let nobody hav, cause to
point At you and say, 'sophy Norraw.':,
was dieappointedA,n IN love, and that. IS
Why she1u never married. when you q, are I:
the lonely old maid You must live to ], be." :"
For, you 50 see, T hsd no thought Of Ii
king any one else..' I knew that cou'a
never happen: IL ''s :. ''.' a. a.
|o, woll,f1' fought with n; 1nl,y;sel II '.&fte,
that. I battled down the tears. /
forced myself to pay visits and to havs'.:
my friends about me. ! wopfd not CRY
even when alone. Bot do al would,
.here was the heart-ache still; the fox
gnawiDg at ny bosom, though KEEP,
the mantle over, it. Sometimes I thin!
it is almost pity that woman shoul.
ever love. For We can be- sure Of
nothing! in this earth, and life is worth
less to enc Of usit the man she lo7es
(diss or .tortakes her, H.: ~.
"A mau. can love twenty women Bot
a woman never truly loves more th,n
one man. T used to wish often and
often tba;t 'l;. had never: p me. Andrew
Hudson: z1sz=ss, : ssf:ss :s.z't q !ls4T
r. Fighting down the love it was nov
wrong to cherish, and trying to do my
duty, and l humbly hope, doing it iu
some measure, I lived through the Ions
years. At the end Of the tenth grand.
pa died, and grandma followed him 10
:; i few months: :assfsssF@ ea1f 7zia4 Sa:is *
~ couldn't live without him." she
said !; you zee we'd been; together 6ftyi
! years. husband, aud And those
were the lastswords i ever heard her
speak; forin an hour after she died,
With her ssheeklying softly in her hand
hike that Of u asloeping babe '''s+:<' De
j. J:eooaIdnot g+iieve ii ior them, seemed d
50 sel6sh:s1 Iy1ived alone oane,s ii tho old
khousesbut for ny one 'lis servant, and s.t
s;one IN the pew with grandma's name
upon the back, where It, had, been for
fifty years, 1aheard the new osgaoiaa,
|: =. =, l.dy-piay, and the choir sine, and
thoaght, despite :myself, Of tho hands
which had once touched the Keys.
There we're many change, ia the
church: Old Mr.: Daobury had beef
gsthered 10 his fathers. The girl. VIZ
bad sung With me we're mostly married
q I might have been; if I had chosen !;
but I would give no man =. heart with
antther's craven on; it, and said one /
to more than one who. would have mad>
my, lonely life pleasanter.ft If l. Was nearl,
thirty, and the young folks aealled II:
an sold maid" .
I knew, but I was veil content, for
none had ever found my secret out.
Ny thirtieth birthday fell On the first
Sunday Of October-s 1t was eleven
years since the FIRST Sabbath aAndfev