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The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1870-01-13

"The editor Of the STANDARD will be
remembered by our citizens as the tlu-
ly rural individual who, at the editorial
banquet, couldn't speak his piece be.
cause the tobacco smoke made his legs
dizzy. And, although we do not in
tend to do anything so ridiculous as to
champion Putnam's claim to good
looks, still, in mere justice to him, and
out of regard for the reputation of the
great Scioto Valley, we Indignantly de-
ny that there is man within its limits
50 ferociously ugly as the editor of the
STANDARD.
Let it be recorded"
We find the above in the ChilIicothe
Register We would like to ask the ed
itor of that paper, who invited him to
mix in? While all admit that Bond
and Putnam are ugly, the editor of the
Register is so much uglier, that while
the editors of the Advertiser and Gazette
received over one thousand votes, the
editor of the Register only received
about one hundred.
And then we thought we had a kind
of tacit understanding with our Chilli
cothe friend that if we would say no
more about that affair at the Emmitt
House, that ho, would say no more
about our dizzy condition at the Ban
quct. Would it not have been a good
thing for certain potion of a certain
editors person, if the legs Of a certain
landlord had been dizzy, when that ed
itor was cutting up ned, and = but we
will not be too specific. Knaube, as a
kickist, was a success. No dizziness
about his legs that night no matter
what was the condition of another in
dividuaPs head,
Let the above be recorded.
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We would not believe Joe. Eylar, Of
the West Union Defender, under oath;
but as he and Capt. Putnam, of the
Chillicothe Adeertser, are both
Democrats, we publish the following,
from Eylar's paper, and let it go for
what it is worth:
CAT fair held in Chillicotho recent
ly Capt. Putnam, OF the Adrertiser, was
voted "the handsomest editor in town"
His good looks consist in being red
headed, spindle-shanked, knock -kneed, +,
slab-sided, and blind of one eye.n
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LORILLARD'S "EUREKAn

Smoking Tobacco Is an excellent article Of gran
ulNted Virginia.
Wherever introduced it Is universally ad.
mircd.
1t il put up In handsome muslin bags, In
which orders for MeerschOum Pipes are daily
packed.
LORILLARD'S "YACHT CLUB"
Smoking Tobacco has no SUPERIOR being denic-
otinlZed, ltCNnnot lnjure neryeess cOnsl llutlOns
or people of sedontary habits
1t Is produced from selections Of the finest
stock, and prepared by pateStcd and original
manner
1t Is very aromatic, m i'd, and light In weight
thence II will lust much longer than others;
nor does II burn or sting tho tongue, or leave a
disngpeablc Oltcr-aste.
-Ordors for genuine, elegantly carved Nicer
schaum Pipes, silver mounted, and packed In
neat leather pocket cases, nrU placed In the
Yacht Club brand daily
LORILLARDS CENTURY
hewng Tobacco.
This brand of Fine cut Chewing Tobacco
has no superior anywhere.
II h. without doubt, the best chewing tobac.
60 In the country.
LORILLARD SNUFFS
Have been IN general use In the United States
over, ITO years, aud still acknowledged the
best" wherever used
II your stOlckeeper does not have these ar
tlcles for sale atk him to get them.
They are sold by respectable jobbers almost
everywhere,
--6lrculurs mailed on application.
y. LOrilIard ~ Co., New York.
Dec 16I-12w
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The New York Independent.

We are receiving quitea number of subscribers
to the NY Independent, under our arrangement
for clubbing.
We send the Independent, and fac engraving
of President Gran t, and one Of Vice President
Coliax and also the Jackson SrANDARD one
offer ever made to those who W ant two of the
best papers, and two of the finest cngrayngs.
The cash must invariably DO paid in advance,
under this arrangement. If.
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WANTED.-AOe1etS fOT the
PEOPLES LAW BOOK

By Hon. Franklin Chamberlln, of the United
States Bar late Law Partner the Chief-Justice
of Massachusetts, Entirely new, full, complete
and reliable Recommended by Supreme Court
and other Judges, Chief-Justices, Chancellors,
Attorney Generals, Presidents OF Law Colleges.
and eminent Lawyers and Business Men, as the
best and most comprehensive and useful work
ever prepared for popular use.
1t explains and illustrates the principles un-
derly ing the business transactions of everyday
life; furnishes plain and practical directions how
TO proceed in actual business, and embodies o
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shows the best way Of managing in almost ev-
cry business emergency points out the rocks on
which so many good business has made ship
wreck, and how to avoid them; tells what af-
fairs may be safely attended TO without law
yer, and, when counsel must be had, makes II
easy TO present the case to him in the best man :
ner In short, II Is an absolutely safe and reli
able guide for the correct transaction of
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IINIYBRSALISM. THH FHHsT4HgF WEgf'

Cincinnati o., is the old-establlshod Western
Uniyersallst newspaper. 1t gives current rellg-
ious end secular news and is bright aud cheer
full homo visitor Eight large pages reading
matter, lgiylng something for everybody No
other paper needed In the family. Send $3.50,
and getit one year. Specimens free. Prem iums
to new subscribers. Clubs wanted. Address
WILLIAMSON q CANTWELL, Cincinnati O..
Jan. 49, '60--4W
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SHERIFF AND SPECIAL MASTER COM
- MISSI0NER'S SALE.
State of Ohio, Jackson county, SIS.
vs. On 1st order of sale.

State of Ohio, Jackson county, SIS.
Henry G, Bnnn
vs. On lst order OF sale.
John NJ. Smith ct ais.
Pursuant to the command of an order of sale
issued in the above STYLED cause, and TO me d.
rected as special master, / will offer at public
auction, at the door of the Court House in
Jackson. IN the said county of jackson, on
Saturday, January 10Th, A. d. 1870, at o'clock
p. m. Of said day, the following described Mott.
gagged premises, situated In the county Of jackson
and State Of Ohio, ,to-wit beginning Mt the No th
East corner of lot No. one hundred and thirteen
Q13), Township No. Z, Range No. IS, in the
Seiot0 Salt reservation. Thence West ten
pole-chains and thirty two links at pest in
the road, thence south, 3415o east II chain, and
Al links to post In the road, Honey Locust IS
inches s. 30 W. 1O2 links, thence north II
chains II links to the place of beginning, Per-
slmmon inches N. 29o f. 32 links Tame cher
ry inches South 2So +. IL links Excepting 2
rods square near the North west corner ofsaid
tract, containing one old pit. tree In centre.
Containing Seven aud 28-10O acres more or less
Valued at $1,000 co.
To be sold as the property Of John NJ Smith
to satisfy Judgment rendered by the court of
common Pleas OF jackson county, Ohio, In favor
of Henry Q. Bum and decree in favor of Iaey
Bum. Terms OF Sale cash on day of Sale.
Given under my hand this 9Th day of Deeem-
A. d. 1860 JOHNSON WADE.
Sheriff jackson County o.
And Special Master Commissioner G, q, Pleas
of said county.
W. X. Hastings, Att'y y.for PIN.
Dec ,16, 9.5w.-pf$l3 40
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A THIEF.

lie has been travelling about humbugglng
druggists and private parties, mixing up and
inc remedies have white outside wrapper (,oih
signature LHge) Look out for counterfeits.
Six Pmts OF WOLOOTT'S ANNIlIILATOR for
Catarrh and Colds in the head, or one Pint Of
Pain Paint for Ulcers or Pain, sent free Of ex-
press charges, on receipt Of the moasy at 18l
Chatham Square N Y, or one Cabin Of Pain
Paint double strength) for $40, Small BOTTLES
sold by all Druggists. r. L. WOLUOTT.
Jan 13, T0--4w
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DR.. Baker sends us another commu-
nication, in which he says he thinks we
are mistaken in saying that our readers
would not be interested in discussion
between him aud Dr. !, T. Monahan,
and he insists upon the use of our col
umns for such discussion.
Now we must be the judge of what
goes into the Standard, and no one has
any right to insist upon the use of our
columns, unless he is attacked therein.
The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1870-01-13

"The light from Vinton Furnace, five
miles distant, may be seen plainly in
Macarthur on dark or cloudy nights"
- ViRtoa Record.
We have often, of a dark, cloudy
night, seen the light of Jackson Fur
mace, fifteen miles distant,
The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1870-01-13
EVERY KIND OF BUSINESS

Agents are meeting with unexampled success.
The high character of the work, It's practical
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For circulars unparalleled array of testimonials,
aud part iculars Of Agency, address, e, HANNA
FORD q CO., Publishers, Ia West Fourth
Street, Cincinnati.
P. S.-Also, wanted Agents for Greeley
American Conflict the best Home Physician
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NEW ADVERTISEMENTS

l was cured of Deafness and Catarr by sim
pie remedy and will send the receipt free.
MRS. NJ. G. LEGGET, Hoboken, N. j.
Jan ID '70&4W
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1886 OC

ALANSON ROBBINS, see'y.
Sworn to by said Alanson Robbins, and signed
ly him in my presence, this 9TH day ofJenuary,
A. ID. 1870. ID. MACKLEY,
(NorAwAL sEAL,) Notary Public.
Jan 49, 1870
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Statement

or Financial Cond ltion of Star Furnace Co.,
Jan. 5, 1870.
Real Estate at Cost $40 ,710 Sc
Personal Property over Liabilities. 6s,625 A
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Delinquent Land Sale, jackson County-Jan, 1870

m Lands Lots and parts of Lots returned Delinquent by the Treasurer
Jackson County, Ohio together with the
ageby to Law, contained and described following List
The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1870-01-13

AndnoCe hereby given concerned that the whole said several Tracts
LOTS Lots much thereofa will necessary the Taxes
and penalty charged thereon will sold County Treasurer of Jackson
County Ohio the Court House, said county the third Tuesday of
January d. 1870 that being the 18th day said month"; unless said Taxes
and penalty be paid before that m and that said will be continued from
day until the said several Tracts Lots and parts Of Lots shall have been
sold or offered for sale SAMUEL BAKER,
Jan.6y69-2t Auditor of ]. O.. o.
The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1870-01-13

WnlrrEN ny HlMsElF. In one Large Octave
Volume Nearly 800 Poges--Ppinted IN Engli
and German, 30 Elegant Fun Page Engluvlngs.
1t embraces Forty Years Recollections of his
Busy Life, as Merchant Manager, Banker,
Lecturer, aud Snowman. No book publlsho d
so acceptable to all classes. Every one wants 1t.
Agents average from 90 10 100 subscribers
week. We offer extra terms and pay freight
West. Illustrated Catalogue and Terms to
Agents FREQ, j, b. BURR & CO., Pubs,
Jan. 49, T0--8w Hartford, Conn.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15
Vt. Central & Sullivan Railroads
GUNNER ARRANGEMENT, -Commer
ID MnnhnY MnN 50 lS1N

GUNNER NT,-Commencinl
- Monday, May 50, 1870.
Mail Train leaves ST. Albans at 6:20 A. NJ for Bel
lows Falls Boston, Worcester, Springfield New York
&c.
Night Express leaves 0gdensburgh at 100 P NJ
Montreal at S;i5 7 NJ, St;Johns at 505 NJ, St. AL
bans 40 p. M. arriving in Boston at S.40 NJ con
Meeting at Bellows Falls with Cheshire Railroad for
Boston and Worcester, and the Vermont Valley
Railroad for Springfield, &c., and arriving IN New
y ork at 1880 = N.
TRAINS GOING NORTH AND WEST.
Leave Bellows Falls at IL Is, A,M.545P l0l5 pm.
Day Express leaves Boston via Lowell at 500
A NJ, for Burlington, st. Abans. Montreal, Sc. ar
irving at Montreal at 9;00PM, Ogdensburgh at 1910
a, NJ, making close connections with trains for the
West.
Mail trains leaves Boston via Lowell at 100 NJ,
via Lawrence and Htchburg at 80 a. NJ. Springfield
at l;45, A.. NJ, for Burlington, and st. Adams
Trains leaving Boston via Fitehburg at 80 A. NJ.
and Springfield at 3.4o 4. NJ, connect at White Ry
er Junction with Day Express Train,
Accommodation Train leaves Mortified at 7,45 A.
~, for Burlington, Rutland, st Adams. 0gdens-
burgh. &e.
Night Express leaves Bellows Falls at I0l5P P. NJ.
receiving passengers from Vt. Valley Railroad leav-
ing New York az II Is NJ, and from Cheshire Rail
road, leaving Boston at so P. NJ. connecting at
White River junction with train leaving Boston AT
600 7 Nv for Burlington, Montreal and Ogdens-
burgh, connecting with Steamers and the Grand
Trunk Railway for the West
SLEErING CARS are attached to the Night
Express Trains running between Montreal and Bos-
ton, and st. Adams and Springfield, and St. Adams
and Troy, and Drawing room cars between Montre-
al and Boston on Day Express Trains.
Through Tickets for Chicago and the West for sale
at the principal stations.
St. Adams, VT, May 80. 1870.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

Sun-stroke may take place in the
shade as well as in the sunlight, and de-
ponds not entirely on the elevation of
temperature as marked upon the ther-
mometer, but upon the heat ofthe blood
as compared with that of the whole body.
Consequently it is most apt to occur with
persons who are enfeebled by intoxica-
ton, disease, or lack of food, and whose
nervous tone at the moment is low. The
great preventives are to keep healthy
and sober, to cool the head and hands
often with water and to drink moderate
ly cold fluids
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

LET YOUR WIFE KNow.-It is Gus
tom too common with the men of the
world to keep .heir families in utter ig-
norance of the situation of their business.
The wife knows nothing-has not even q
idea Of the amount Of her husbands for
tune, whether it is to be counted by hun
dreds or thousands. She spends as a
matter of course, all he gives her to
spend, with full confidence that when that
is gone and she asks for it, he will give
her more.
Husband and wife have mutual in
terest. Every woman should know the
exact state of her husbands finances,
understand his plans, and aid him if
possible with her counsels, and then the
terrible money catastrophes would not
SO often happen. Many wife who is
plunging her husband deeper into debt,
from ignorance, would, if she knew his
embarrassment, be the first to rench,
the first to save, and with womanly SYM
pathy and generosity, help him to rein
state his fallen fortunes.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

A Busy ExECUTIoNER.-A letter
from Athens, speaking of the execution
of the brigands concerned in the MUIR
Ger of English travellers, says their de-
capitation was delayed in consequence OF
the absence Of the public executioner on
professional tour The following list
of his performances are given.
Last Friday week he beheaded three
brigands at Stylida, on Saturday two at
Lamia, on Monday two at Hypate he
was then at Levadies, where he was to
execute notorious criminal. He was
then to 60 to Chaleis and to Athens tc
behead, afterward, the seven under sen
tence of death.
"His next destination is Corinth, where
he is to execute FIVE brigands who have
been forsome time awaiting the execution
Of their sentence. One Of the brigands
beheaded at Stylida had been condemned
to death FIVE times.
These executions, it might be mag
ined, would be heavy blow and a great
encouragement to brigandage, but it is
not so. Either the system or the sym
pathy with it seems. rooted among the
mass of the Greek people, and by no
means the people of the lower orders
exclusively"
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

BAULKY HoRsEs.-A Maine man
gives his method of treating baulky
hores as follows; =" Let me inform hu.
name men and hostlers, and all who
hold the rein, that the way to cure baul-
ky horses is take them from the carriage
and nhirl them rapidly round till they
are giddy. 1t requires two men to do
this, one at the horses tail. Don't let
him step out. Hold him in the smallest
possible circle. One dose will often cure
him; two doses are final with the worst
horse that ever refused to STIR"
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15
Recipes.

INDIAN HUcKLEBERRY PUDDING.-
Take quart of boiling milk and water
stir into it Indian meal enough to make
a stiff batter. Add little salt, small
cup of chopped suet, little molasses,
pint of huckleberries Boil one hour
and half in a bag, leaving room to swell,
Eat with sweet liquid sauce.
Two eggs and a half teaspoonfnl of
soda may be used instead of suet, and
the batter in that case, made little
thinner. This makes a more delicate
pudding.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

Do NOT Use CRACKED DISHES
There is trouble often attendant upon
badly cracked dishes such dishes abb
sorb oils fats from the different kinds Of
food placed upon them. These fats soon
decompose in the pores of the dish, and
no amount of cleansing can remove the
nauseating and poisonous deposit. Such
dishes are filthy and unfit for use. The
peculiarly unpleasant taste sometimes no.
tieed upon the crust is caused by their
being baked upon old, cracked dishes,
from which the rancid fat from previous
baking has been absorbed.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

A New Hampshire editor went trout.
ing. the other day, and was ENCOURAGED
by one OF the natives Crossing a
bridge, saw large trout standing nm.
on his tail in the river. Did you speak.
Dir. trout, said l. l did, sir said he
Amt their any other route to Biel.
lords Mills? Guess not said / ur.
less you go by land. Why do you ask ?
Because the river is so full of these
fsh hooks that can never get up this
way -"
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15
5isrellanu.
Mrs. Henry Ward Beecher contributes

Mrs. Henry Ward Beecher contributes
the following recipe to the Christian I'm
ion, "The Household Department" OF
which paper is under her care
COOKING GREEN PEAs.-The first
rule is to use peas fresh from the vines,
every hours delay in cooking after they
are gathered destroys something of their
finest flavor. Wash them before she'll
ing never after. Shell and pick over
nicely. First put in the fresh pods
Press them down, leaving water enough
10 cover them. Let them boil fifteen
minutes, then skim out, and put in the
peas. If there is more than enough wa
ter to cover the peas after the pods have
been removed, pour out. Let them boil
fifteen or twenty minutes. Peas that re-
quire more than twenty minutes, or need
soda to make them tender, are only fit
for soup. When done put what butter
is needed into the dish, and pour the
peas on it, adding little pepper. Some
prefer them dry, and drain through
strainer, but we think some of the water
in which they were boiled is very great
Improvement. The amount of butter
needed must be decided by the quantity
of peas and the taste. Boiling the pods
adds greatly TO the sweetness and rich
ness of the peas.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

PREVENT PoTAToEs BIossMrNc- A
distinguished Frenchman, Gillidots. has
been testing the influence of Towering up-
on the yield of potatoes, and the results
have been SO marked and conclusive that
ne recommends the suppression of
the floral organs of the potatoe that
Inc buds be removed as soon as possible
AFTER they appear, in order to prevent the
nxing OF the nourishing principles nee
essary to the complete formation of the
floral organs that the removal should
be done by hand rather with anv sickle
or other sharp instrument, since the tons
OF the potatoes would be liable to be in.
jured thereby.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15
WHAT THEY THINK OF VERMONT

WHAT THEY THINK OF VERMONT.
The New England Farmer says:
There is certainly something wonder.
ful IN the climate and soil of Vermont.
"A Massachusetts horse is taken to that
State, and the Morgans, the Black
Hawks, &c, are the result. Massachu.
sets horses 60 to other States and are
heard of no more.
A few Aocks of spanish sheep find
their way to the pastures of the Green
Mountains, and the Improved Amer.
lean Merino Sheep" crosses the Allan.
tic and takes premiums in competition
with the Imperial focks of the moth.
er country"
a few potatoes are dropped into Yer.
mont soil, and a single tuber SAYS for a
good COW, and potatoe fever RACES
throughout the land.
A single oat springs up in some Yer.
monter's field, and he reaps and sheaves
IN comparison with which good sized
man appears-in the adyertisement--as
pigmy.
The Agricultural Department at
Washington sends out, year after wear,
parcels of seeds by the miIlion-or to be
a little more definite, the number sent
out for the 1861 was stated by the Com.
mlssioners at 274,3S0-most of which
undoubtedly, fell by the wayside, into
stony ground, thin soil, or weedy fields
and the Department looks in vain for
the promised reports of the result of their
cultivation. But few of these little
papers Of seed find their way into Yer.
mont soils, and beets come that beat all
other beets-and hence the "Improved
American Sugar Beet"
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

Josh Billings says: I would az soon
De stuffed rooster, set up in show window
or a TIN weather cock on the ridgepole
oil a female seminary, as a lonesum
bachelor, jeered at by awl the virginity
ov the land.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

A new minister at Des Moines tool, a
stroll before breakfast on the first Sun.
day be was there, and after walking a
dozen blocks, was accosted by shabby
Looking citizen, who had been watching
MIN, with, you needn't look any fur.
ther there amt nary saloon OPEN"
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

Narrow.minded men, who have not a
thought beyond the sphere of their own
outlook remind one of the Hindoo max
Inn " The snail sees nothing but its own
shell, and thinksit in the greatest palace
in the universe"
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

A Sunday school teacher Minnesota
upon lnquiring of one of his juvenile pu-
piis what he had learned during the week
was electrified by the answer that he had
" learned not to trump his partners
ace"
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

"A youthful candidate for epistolatory
honors wrote the following to a little
friend f: Dear Jennie-I thought I
would write yon letter--so answer this
letter."
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

A Mrs, Hannah Jones piously raised
tablet to the memory of the departed
Jones, who had been a hosier, the in.
scription on which, after record his many
virtues, wound up with the. following
couplet:
. He left his hose hi. Hannah .,shs.
To go and sing hosannah in the resII, 49,.
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

The fence of a graveyard n Pennsyl-
vania bears ar inscription in large white
letters 4" Use Jones bottled ale if You
would keep out of here
Bellows Falls times. [volume] (Bellows Falls, Vt.) 1856-1965, 1870-07-15

A lady describing an ill-tempered
man, said He never smiles but he feels
ashamed of il.