The weekly Panola star. [volume] (Panola, Miss.) 1857-1881, 1870-07-09

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What was the good Of struggling with
MYSELF My love for Nellie was absurd,
but gigantic; hopeless, yet a painful joy
TO myself The once or twice u week that
| went TO Spa.r0ad were white days in the
calendar of my life. | was no longer bluff
In speech, honest Ia purpose. Love had
enticed me into a state OF deoeitfulncss of
which | was thoroughly ashamed; and
many an hour was passed In finding pre-
texts or connecting purely imaginary rea-
sons for calling on the Listers, The only
salye | had to my reproachful conscience
was the sight OF the Invalid fathers gen.
uine enjoyment of the dollhouse grapes
and other comestibles that | invariably
carried with me to insure my presence
being acceptable; for, In spite of the earn.
est cordiality with which / was ever wei.
coined, PASSIONS timidIty dispersed all
the little self reliance ! had and made INT
doubly dlstrusttul Of my own explanations.
One afternoon, on entering the little sit.
ting.room, | was surprised TO find u visit,
or whom | had never met boforo-a tai
young man whose proportions were
more strapping than elegant in my eyes
} but the dawn of jealousy probably mad,
me survey him through q sort OF yellow
7 glass,
"Mr, Fleming, Mr.. urling," in Mrs
Listers gentle tones, and | and my riya
Y for an instructive feeling told me he wa
\ Nellie's lover-were formally introduce,
n TO each other and then | sat myself dow
with an "all overishness" about me (
analyze his defects, | did not like tn
:, young giants looks; there was q decide
. holdness about his countenance which wa
positively ropulsive to me. Physically h
N was n fine animal, but with no thorough
II bred points about him. There was q r,
Ie pellant familiarity In bis address, too, tn,
ia lrTitated me, and made me pugnaciousl
nc inclined towards the cane with a show
=. knob which heaggravatingly "~twiddled
70 round and round in his broad red han,
was either de trop or else | hal the mi
r. fortune TO be q wet blanket for convers
Il. ton Jagged terribly, and after q few mir
he utes the gentleman made his adieux, q,
IS c%ompanied to the door by my hostess
at | remained sole monarch of all | SUI
In voyed for a while, hoping that Nell
would put In an appearance; hut not
bit Of it," hope" had only "told a ilatte,
a, ing tale" and when the door reopened
~ was to admit Mrs. Lister.
i Nellie is out, MIR. Fleming, Yer
ct provoking, for she knew Mr.. urling miel
call, as It's Saturday, and the city office
nc close early, What do you think OF him
And the good lady folded her hands quic
ny ~ in her lap, and looked me full Ia III
tsce, rs she placidly asked the question
a And there | was, conscious that | was, /.
IRE fiye'andthirty years of age, blushing liz
We a great awkward scnoolboy who was b,
ny ing catechised before n roomlul of peopl
I'm 80 Nellie had something In common wit
Is this handsome Goliath, or else her pre-
ence or absence on that particular ate
as noon would scarcely have been a subie,
re- OF pleasure or regret to her mother.
bic iels MAT | hated the fellow with a fer,
me heathenish hatred. But | had to repre-
the feelings that kept hubbling up wor
sti. than any eruption Of u volcanic mountai
in and to say calmly" think he is a vel
I Of tine young man, ma'am.n
Yes she answered, mildly, and a !
~ lie dlsoonneotedly, "a very fine you
-, man-so good looking, and in love wi
'ala Nellie Tor two years. He is q son OF U
'ith ing Il Coat least Of Urling himself
Get, the great jewellers il Oxford street. Y
and know retired, of course. And q lat
iere fortune; keep their own carriage in a n
me place OF Staines. Alfred is the cid,
n Of and is in an oil" business, likely to
como a partner in a few years. But n
heir lie, though am her mother, and should
l say it. Is a very good girl, but so stro
ton headed"
the Strong-headedl What on earth
that mean' Had Nellie determined
for or against the match with the oily yo'
had many
"If Miss Lister likes him, and b
sub. eligible, why doesa't she marry him Z
mat That's 1t If she likes him but
eAlde doesn't seem 10 know more than the |
out unborn her own feelings. You see,
, ex- Fleming, my husbands health Is not
Ahcy good, and l Am 10 strong. II would
'oms- comfort TO US both to know Nellie b
" my good, kind husband, who would take
mo- Of her II we were taken away. She
90 an great respects and liking for YOU"