Raftsman's journal. [volume] (Clearfield, Pa.) 1854-1948, 1870-01-26

been thus deluded How could she have
believed herself personally attractive, least
of all to a man like Charles Clifford?
| No love was not for her-at least not the
/ love she sought. But she would not yield
to repinngs; she would interest herself in
! the dear ones around her; she would take
up her life work strongly and hopefully, not
! doubling but that she would, in the erd,
/ find peace.
But with all her self condemnation, Hetty
could not acquit Mr.. Clifford Of blame. She
recalled words, and looks, ard tones that
conveyed more meaning than any words
could, and which convinced her that he had
wilfully msled and triAcd with her.
Il have been toolish,'' she thought, but
he has been worse than foolish He must
have been inwardly much amused at my
simplicity and crelulous vanity but he will
, have to seek some other recreation for the
future.
They were to have little social gathering
/ in the evening, 10 which IIetty had looked
forwa with pleasure, but fiom which, now,
she would gladly have absented herself. But
a course so unexpected would be sure to call
forth unpleasant remarks and inquiries SO
she determined to appear.
But, instead of wearing the dress she had
intended, and wtich-she blushed now as
she recalled it--she had thought would make
her pleasing in bis eyes, she chose one of
dark, grave color, attiring her elf as plainly
| II &, :,
CONTRARY to her usual custom, Hetty did
not make her appearance below until nearly
all the guests had assembled. Mr. Clifford
was present, which Hetty felt rather than
saw.
The same su tie magnetism warned Mr..
Clifford OF Hetty' entrance, but he was en-
gagged in lively conversation with Miss Jane
and was too well bred to make any public
demonstration Of his feelings. y single
glance suficed to show him whittier she had
retreated, and lie soon contrired to make his
way to that end of the room, and even to
secure a seat by her side.
How near We can be TO people, and yet
how far apart Mr. Clifford felt this, espc-
cially when he looked into Hetty's cold face
and avepted eyes. How different from the
smile and blush with which she had former
ly greeted him.
Are you well tonight, Hetty?"
That look and t5rc of tender interest would
once have called forth very different feelings
II am quite well, Mr.. Clifford
''Mr Chffoldi" Could it be that she haC
taken offence at his calling her by her Chris
tan name? He had often done SO of late
and she had evinced no tispleasurr.
Il feared you might not be well, because
you seem so strange-so different from wha
t [ have ever known you.
9 Few of US are what we seem to be- Fo
Y instance, you are not speaking to me as yot
5 fee, or as you would speak OF me to Others. ,
Here, unable to conceal her Indignation a
what she considered to be the part he wa
acting, Hetty arose and took herself to an
o other part of the room, leaving Dir. ClifFor,
astonished and bewildered at her unace0unt
= able words and manner.
He had no further opportunity of speak
e ing to her during the evening, bat the NOR
! he pondered on it, the more he was cen
Y vlnced that some one had been saying some
thing to his discredit, and he determine
to seek an early explanation.
With this object in view, he calel at Mrs
t Grey's the next morning.
1t being quite early for visiters, he foun
Hetty quite BY herself.
I She arose at Mr.. Clifford entrance
e g | will speak to my sisters, sac said
= tuning to the door.
r = But it is not your sisters, but yon, tha
d have come to see. Please resume you
seat and listen to me. y
= "Mr. Clifford does not discover his usu;
: good taste in seeking the society of one per
4 sonaliy so unattractive. -
! g Unattractiye! my dear Miss Hetty
e to me you are the sweetest, the most charm
ing -
Hetty's checks flushed indignantly
> Stay, Mr. Clifford That you should cor
slider me, what l, myself, heard you call me
> l have no right to complain.
j. You, doubtless, spoke truly and as yo
thought But that you should continu
. to act so false and deceitful part is what
cannot. will not endure. .
Ito what do you refer?'
. [ refer to what you said TO Mr.. Gay
lard, yesterday morning, in this very room
and which, by the nerest chance, | over
heard. y
4 sudden light flashed on Mr. Clifford
mind.
5 rs that all? True; l called you homely
that term so wrongly applied and construe
e perhaps homelke would have better ex
{ pressed my meaning Dear Hetty, could 20
e have looked into nv heart, when [ spok
n thus, you would not so strangely have mis-
understood me you would have know
e that what | said sprang from my faith /
: your ability to make home the dearest an
brightest place on earth. All if you woul
: only consent TO be the JOY and sunshine {
y my homer
= We all know what beautiier love is e
l. peciaIy when it is recognized and returne
n and certainly Elettys fairer sisters nevt
a looked more lovely than she, as she yielde