The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1870-05-26
JACKSON c5 5H., OHIO, THURSDAY, MAY g, $50.

He would sometimes keep un this cDnddcf ard
tliis abuse for hours, without a syllable or mo
ton being made on my part, and would tiIer
burst into tears, beg my pardon, say was th'
best woman who ever lived, and then Ot0sleeI
exhausted. never told him after this Wiutel
That could forgive or could love him. although
ne sometimes ifnpl0Ted me TO do 10, becatIss
could not say so With truth Generally Etold
him pitied him, which was tue Sometimes
he said, "1our did silence irfffites me more
than II you talEed?' but I was sure my course
was the best. ''tgH. .Fh HI rHE
AT the time lie struck me this severe blow In
l5O2 told MiS John.F. Cleveland IA sister0f Mr.
Greeley, Who had been very kind to me IN INV
dramatic readlngs) about tile blow and some
thing Of Mr.. McFarland's y conduct TO me / did
not tell her all, nor the worst, but told her how
ne had struck me, principally because was en-
gagged 10 read at the houseOf some friends Of
hers an evening on two after, and feared SHE
would notice the mark on my face She was the
only person to whom ! ever spoke Of Mr.. Me.
Farland otherwise than IN q manner becoming
for wife TO speak OF husbanO til the Winter
of 1867 And / devoted oil my woman's skill
and tact In hiding his conduct from casual Oh.
servers at our boarding-houses or elsewhere.
In the Spring OF 1868, Mr.. Mcfarland got ap-
pointed to a position In the Office of one Of the
ProIoSt-S -Siarshals under the enrolment act.
went to see Mr. Greeley in company with his
sister, Mrs. Cleveland, and also to see several
other persons, TO get Influence for Mr. McFar-
land. In dOlngSO Iacted under Mr.. McFarland's
orders, and against my own feelings WhiPh al
ways Teyolted at the idea OF seeking Office for
AS soon as he got this office / epased my read ing
IN public ana my preparations for the stage and
IN the Spring after lie was appointed went home
tony fathers and remained Il short time Then
Mcfarland. summoned me to NeW-York with
Percy, who was III at the time and hardly able
TO travel. objected 10 leaving home. when ne
sent peremptoiily, saying "Ie would burn my
fathers house over my hcad' If | did not come.
arrived IN NeW-Nofk IN August, and was there
a few weeks when the Physician said Percy
would die IL lie were not sent back to the coun.
rTNE
ed Till November. In November, 1863, ! came
back to shcw-GOrk. We took room for q few
weeks on Naiick-st, but soon removed, early in
ty-ninth-st. .i. ~. T. ID 1... arp,
During tile Winter of 1862 and 1863 had met
Mrs. Sinclair often at her Cousins, Mrs Glove
lands, and she had shown me many and great
lindnesscs. She had given me her parlors for
one Of my readings and had sold the tickets
among my friends At the time Mr. Mcfarland
received his appointment in the Provost-NIar-
shals Office she used her influence TO get him
appointed. No person living hHs Il stronger
claim on the gratitude of this isunhappy man than
the noble woman whose charity he has so abused.
In this Winter of 1868 and 1884, while we lived
In Lamartine-place, we were Mr.. SinClair's
neighbOrS. One night while there Mr. McFar-
land came home so bruised and bleeding from
some street brOil-a not uncommon occurrence
on his part--that was Obliged TO call ON Mr..
Sinclair for aid In getting him in bed. 1t aIyaS
only three Oriour weeks before the birth of my
youngest child orI should not have done 80.
MI. Ills room IOf more
than a week, carrying his mealsto him myself,
that his disgrace might not be seen and COM
mentod on by the household where we boarded.
From the time he got his place In the ENROLL
ment Office In '6S, until the Fall of '0i, Mr. Me-
Farland sent me home three times, and moved
me to eight different boarding-houses If, for
ono moment, l was peaceful in the possession OF
a shelter, his habits or his dissatisfied temper
drove him to change. Atlast in the Fall of 1854,
MIR. Sinclair offered us, rent free, his unoceupied
on the Hudson River, and we moved
there for the winter 'Gi. During this year my
youngest boy DANNY had been born on one OF
my visits to my fathers house. stayed at Gro
ton, in Mr.. Sinclairs house, all Winter, and dur
ing the Summer in asInall tenement, which we
rented there and which furnished very cheap
lyi with 500, borrowed by Mr.. Mcfarland from
my father Here Mr. McFaTland's Is conduct was
more endurabbn, for he was away nearly all day,
and the quiet and pleaSantness Of the country
when he came there, j fancied had good effect
on him. In the Summer OF '65, however, he lost
his place under Government, aud seemed to
make no further attempt to do anything. He
Informed me one day that he was out of place,
and had no money Then told him supposed
| should have TO give public readings again. As
usual, when made such suggestions, he swore
Mt me in his terrible way, but made no other an
sWer l went OH and made my arrangements 10
give dramatic readings; gave several before
leaving CrOton, and then, with some Of the
money had raised went to my fathers, who
had now moved to Massachusetts, and from his
house Went away 10 give several other readings
i'll Ncw-England leaving the children with
mother. at this time paid the bill to the ply
sician who attended me at Danny's birth, now
Is months old, which had been all this time un-
paid. / also arranged with Messrs. Hurd q
1IOughton this Fall TO print n little book for
called "Percy's Year OF Rhymes
which had written during the Summer. From
Boston | went back to New York, TO occupy
some small rooms over stable i'm Thirty y-eightlI-
ST., which Mr.. Mcfarland had hired. This Win
ter made desperate struggle for life. ! had my
two babies-the youngest just weaned; | had
this man half of the time coming home intoXi-
Gated, and had nothing but my woman's heart
and hands to look to for support. gave all the
readings | could | did all my own hOusewOrk
when ut home. | took faithful care of my chill
dren, but Oftcn sank into such utter despond-
cncy of heart az only God knows and can pity,
when he sees the poor human soul sinking un-
der it. ...t
ON one ofthese days Mrs. Sinclair came in.
had never said a word to her about my troubles,
and she had been too delicate to broach the sub
ject to me. When she went away she putt little
piece of paper in my hand, and after she was
gone fOundi II was aS6O bank note. Next morn
ing came letter from her inclosing another so
note, which she said was Il present rom some
other friends of mine j confess could not en-
dure such wound to my pride. had been rear
cd in comfort and plenty, and in my veins ran
some of the porudeSt blood i'll Massachusetts, !
knew not one of my kin had ever taken aims
had to use some Of the money sent me, for we
were absolutely pinehed With want at that mo-
ment, but the next weelSl sold all our furniture,
which was bought with money borrowed OF my
which had been sent to me from my home, and
with the proCeGds of the sales was able TO send
back the money to Mrs. Sinclair, telling her !
COuld not YET receive aims from my friends, But
her indeiatgablc friendship did not cease here,
and she sentme back much of ii in clothes and
other neccssaries. Then in April, 1866 she and
some other friends arranged q reading at Stein
way s Rooms, on FQurtcenth7st,, of which the
Were moro than Sl5O. a, . r.. L .0.F
Mr.. Mcfarland abused me in his usual violent
way for giving this public reading ~ SteinWayh
al hat I Ntlptn1 n Ind hptfpu
go out of town to do so, that 1t disgraced him rs
n gentleman in the eyes ofthe public Tor his wife
to read in city where he had acquaintanceS. lie
made this an excuse forgetting grossly intoNica-
ted on the evening of the reading, and of this
collected the whole receipts OF the evening" and
gave me so out the whole amount 10 pay nay
1lre ana me cihldrehS 10 ny HltuCt 'io,Sc III
Massachusetts, Teserying the Tcst for his own
~ In n May, 1866, Mi Mcfarland came on to my
fathers, bringing with him $1,000 in money. He
had got this money from wealthy owners Of oil
lands in PENNSYLVANIA, Residing In New York
City (whosc name do not like TO, mentionh by
to expose hinhfor some iiTegularity
in paying his income tax and Mr+ Mcfarlanq
i6id me this man Ind given him the1noney he
"wQuld not trouble hlw amy nrther.f He aiso
told me that heifad several other mon under
i AishGT9 thu u hs S9@s S{ IhG sB3SH ssBB53eHt
10 me, and Itold him 50, pnd then told nun that
/ Should try and make Arrangements to 90 on
the stage in the Fall, That could not try anoth-
er Winter Of public reading, q Profession 50 pre-
carious and 50 wearing, nid advised him, Since
he had some money (which thoughtdishonoTt
ably ohtained-he should go into business at
once belotg he spent ID. He answered IN his
usual brutal manner, and said no more about
Il. 1T was agreed, however, that should go to
small farpI-houso in the White, Mountains,
where knew Mrs. Oliver Johnson was going TO
spend the Summer, and that he 0sholtld pay my
board there--whieli was, tobe very cheap indeed
for myself and the children. In June, 1866,
went fromny fathers witlrthe children 10 Shell
burne, N. H., among the mountains. remain
ed there till September. Duifng this Summer he
sent me SlGOin check, signed by Mr. Sinelalr,
and had $50 on arriving, which he had given
me- making I'M all $40, with which 1 paid 10y
board and washing bills for myself and the chill
dren, duringny four months stay in ShelDulne'
In fjeptomber Mr.. Mcfarland cainB up TO Shei-
n IA splf iusfnod of whiting for me Mt