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Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
.SXERIFE'.S SHE.

DY VIRTUE OF AN EXECUTION, directed
- to me from the Clerk of the District Court
of Tama county, Iowa. on a judgment obtained
in said Court on the 5Oth day Of September,
1868, in favor of the State of Iowa, as plains
tiff, and against N. +. Thorn, and John II
Thedc and William Ferris, his surety in stay
us defendants, for the sum Of fifty dollars, and
costs taxed at $50, and accruing costs,
have levied upon the following real estate ia.
ken as. She property of said defendant, to sat-
isfy said execution to-wit: Commencing 49,
feet east Of the nortl>west corner OF Madison
street, in Toledo, Iowa, running thence east
along said street 62l feet; thence north nine
rods; thence west G24 feet; thence south nine
rods TO place Of beginning, and will offer the
same for sale, to the highest bidder, for cash
in hand, on the 18th day March, A. d. 1870,
in from. of the Court House, in Toledo, lama
county, Iowa, at the hour of IL o'clock of SAID
day, when and where due attendance win be
given by the undersigned.
Dated at my office, in Toledo. Tama county,
Iowa, January 20, 1870.
KNIGHT DEXTER,
Sheriff of said County.
Gw21 $3.50.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17

The forests of Maine are
twenty-five thousand miles or
more in extent.
The Maine Farmer recon-
mends giving pigs good rock
salt twice a week.
Shade trees should not be
planted close to dwelling
houses. Let in the sunlight.
Over 100 students are attend
inc the Kansas Agricultural
College the present term.
If the combs and legs of hens
arc rough, they are old; i.
smooth and timber, they are
young.
Mr.. Medill, of Chicago, a
member Of the Constitutional
Convention, desires a clause
put into the Constitution of IL.
linois, requiring trees to be
planted along the highways tc
be paid for by the State.
The poor farmer-his hens
roost in trees during the storms
of winter, and he complains that
they lay no eggs; his cows shiv'
CT by the side Of the fence, and
he complains that the children
eat too much butter; he goes to
the grocery with a jug in one
end of the sack and a Stone in
the other; and he wipes his nose
on his cOat-sleeye.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
SHERIEE"N & IL 4

Di VIRTUE OF AN EXECUTION. directed
ID to me from the Clerk of the Circuit Court
OF Tama County, Iowa, on a judgment OBJ.
tanned in said Court, on the 18th day OF Jan
uary, 1859, in favor of Jacob d. Merritt, as
plaintiff, and against {. l.. McGlung, Nj.
Batchclder, ana c. Il. Barnard aud Henry
Hamburg, their surety on stay, as defendants,
for tile sum Of five hundred and ninc.y,one
dollars and forty-two cents, and costs taxed
at 500, and accrnLg costs, have levied up
on the following real estate, taken as the
property of said defendant, to satisfy said ex-
ecution, to,wit: Commencing - rods south
of the north west corner of Henry Hamburg s
land adjoining Tama City; south 10 rods. east
> rods; north 10 rods, west ) rods to ace of
beginning, and will offer the same for sale TO
tie highest bidder, for cash in hand, on the
18th day Of March, A. b. 1870, in front of the
Court House, in Toledo. lama county, Iowa,
at the hour of one o'clock Of said day, when
and where due attendance will be given by the
undersigned.
Dated at my Office. in Toledo, Tama County,
Iowa, January %, 1870.
KNIGHT DEXTER,
Sheriff Of said County.
Gw2 S325.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17

The length OF the shore line of Maine
is not less than three thousand niles.
Rio 10 Tugawa is Japanese stu
dent at Hope College, Mich. When
Jap meets Soph then comes the Tug.
ava
An editor having had a strike among
his typos, comes out with the follow
ing in his next issue:
Tue printers aRe on a Strike yor
hiShor MaGeS, Me II = We > onoluded
TO sel our oMntYpes in tutUac! It.g
Easy cNouSV.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
ORDER
Fixing General Term for Year
1870.

STATE OF IOWA, JOHNSON COUNTY, SIS
In pursuance Of an act Of the General As.
sembly of the State of Iowa. entitled an aci
establishing Circuit and General term Courts
and to define the powers and jurisdiction
thereof, approved April 6, A. b. 1868 it is
hereby ordered that the terms Of the General
Term of the Eighth Judicial District of Iowa
for the year 1870, be held at the times and
places following, viz: One term Of said
court, at Marion, in the county of Linn, in
said District, on the ID Monday of March, A,
d. 1870; and one term Of said Court, at Iowa
City, in johnson county, in said District, on
the 4th Monday Of September, A. D. 1870.
Given under our hands this 18th day of Jan.
uary, A, ID. 1870.
JAS. II ROTHROCK,
Judge, 8th Judicial District;
WILLIAM L. MILLER.
Judge lst Circuit, said District;
SYLvANUs YATES,
Judge, I'd Circuit, said District.
Oval
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
SXERIFE'S SALE.

GTATE OF IOWA, TAMA COUNTY. SIS.
NJ. C. Murdough VS.. Samuel Da;r ct al. In
the Circuit Court of Tama County.
By virtue of q special execution, dated the
oath Of January: A. D. 1870, TO me directed, is
sued out of the office Of the Clerk Of the Circuit
Court Of Tama County, State Of Iowa, in favor
Of NJ. G. Murdough and against Samuel Bair,
- Bair and }. II. Walters, on q judgment
rendered by said Court at the January term
thereof, A. ,. 1870 against the said Samuel
Bair, and decree Of foreclosure against said
defendants, and judgment against Samuel
Bair for the sum of five hundred fifty one and
thirty-two one-hundrcdth dollars, wherein il
was ordered, adjudged and decreed that the
following described real estate, TO wit: Lots
number thirteen, Q3,) and fourteef, a. in
block number five, ID in Browns addition
to Tama City, formcly Iuka; and lot number
eight, 81 in block number three, 49, in Hol-
lens addition TO Tama City, formerly luka,
reference being had to the recorded plats of
said addition. in the Recorders Office Of said
county, Iowa, be sold, or so much thereof as is
necessary to satisfy said judgment, interest
and cost: Now, therefore, public notice is
hereby given, that | have levied upon, and
shall. on the 10Th day of March, A. d. 1870,
between the hours of 8 o'clock A. NJ. and
clock 7. NJ Of said day, sale to commence at
the hour 10 o'clock A. NJ, at the front door of
the Court House, in Toledo, Iowa, in the coun-
ty of Tama, offer and sell, at public cutlery, to
the highest and best bidder, that bids two
thirds or over Of the appraised value for cash,
all the right title and interest of the above
named defendant, in and to the above de>
scribed property, or so much thereof as is nee.
essary to satisfy said judgment for the above
named sum, togather with costs and all ac>
cruing costs, unless the same shall be sooner
satisfied. KNIGHT DEXTER,
Sheriff Of Tama County, Iowa.
STIvERs & SArLEY, ANys ror plaintiff.
January %, 1870. S7.35 [6w2
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Pile E@]

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rid Of thu most troublesome disease flesh is
heir to- If you suffer with Constipation or
Dyspepsia which always aggravae and is
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Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17

MIXTURE
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Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
MEDICAL,
SHA~ TO YOUNG MEN.

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Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
ORIGINAL NOTICE.
NTATE OF IOWA, TAMA COUNTY. IS.

To Cyrenus Milestone:
You are hereby notified that there is now
on file in the Office of the Clerk of the Circuit
Court Of Tama County, Iowa, petition OF
Amarila Mcclellan claiming of you the parti.
ton of the following described real estate,
situate in Tama county, Iowa, towt: The
southeast quarter Of section No. tween .y-three,
(23, township No. eighiy:wo, 49, north of
range No. fourteen, l4.) west of 9Th p. NJ,
and that unless you appear thereto and de-
fcnd, on or before noon of the second day of
the next term of said Court, being the April
term Of said Court for the year A. d. 1870,
commencing on the third Monday of April A.
D., 1870, at the Court House, in Toledo in
said county, default will be entered against
you and judgment rendered thereon.
APPRECIATE & kINNE,
Owl Attys for plaintiff.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17

Why is lady putting on her cor
sets like a man who drinks to drown
his grief? Because in So lacing herself
she is getting tight
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
EMMEMAGNANE,

Ladies, ask your Druggist for DR.. Mller's
Emmenagogue, the only safe, sure and reliable
remedy for female Irregularities, and a posi-
tive cure for the Whites. For sale, in Toledo,
by s. c. Rogers, and by Druggists every
where. Price, one dollar Prepared hy j p,
Miller s Co., $40 State ST., Chicago 8 As
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SPRING PoRr. JACKSON Co.. Men, |
August l, 1859. I
DIR. c.. w. kOBACN:

SPRING OkT, a ACkSOS 10. NJ ISn.,
August l, 1859.
DIR. c.. w. R0BACN:
Dear Sir My boy
about eight years old
was very mucsi fro,i-
bIed with st. Antllo-
ny's Dance, SO that at
times he was unable
to feed himself, frc-
quently falling OF, tho
floor or ground i'll a
fit; and three Of my
family had the fever
and aguc. | bought
some of your Scan
dinaYlan Blood Fills
and Purifier Of your
agent here, Mr.. Cal
kins, and to our great
Joy they not only
cured the fever and
aguc, but my boy OF
the st. Anthony's
dance, for which we
shall ever feel CRATE
ful. Yours truly,
G.. III. BAUM.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
RuRAl, 8 DOMESTIC.
The Horse to His Driver.


Up the hill, whip me not:
Down the hill, hurry me not;
In the stable, forget me not;
OF hay and corn, rob me not,
OF clean water, stint me not:
With sponge and brush, neglect me not:
OF soft, dry bed, deprive me not;
II sick or cold, chill me not;
With bit or reins, jerk me not:
And when yor are angry, strike me
not.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
Agents Wanted For
RO.ID NOTICE

ROAD NOTICE.
sTATE OF IOWA, TAMA COUNTY, SIS
Notice is hereby given that road petition
has been presented to the Auditor of said
county, praying for the alteration Of n coun-
ty read to be called the Isaac Brown Road
in section, township 50, north Of Rang
IL, west of the 9TH p. NJ, and that the 2lsi
day of March, A. b. 1870, is fixed for fnal
hearing before sand Auditor. and all persons
interested therein can appear and show cause
why said petition should not be granted.
THOMAS S. FREE, Auditor.
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
T0NS0RlAL SALOON.

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n,. aef 'he Foster House. Shaving, Hair
.u'l,ng and shampooing done neatly at rea-
i1'es' [n43tf
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ROID IDTL( 4
RO4D NOTICE.

TATE OF IOWA, TAMA COUNTY, SIS,
- -
Notice IL hereby given that Road Petition
u.s. boon presented to the Auditor Of said
49, y praying for the establishment Of n
'"o ~ read, to be called the J Wuetf road in
/ 'tan ----, townshipS6, North of Range l6.
t'r' Of The 9TH p, W., and that the odd dav of
N.oel,, \. u. 1870, is fixed for final hearing
'e'"re said Auditor, and all persons inter
:. - herein can appear and show cause why
tnd petition should not be granted.
TJInNI\cS
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Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
DYSPEPSIA!

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pared expressly Tor Dyspepia. or Indigestion,
Nervousness and Debility, loss Of Appetite,
and those afflicted with habitual costivcness.
Its properties are t.nic, laxative, and gently
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Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17

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BLOOMINGTON, ILL, NURSERY.

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Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
THOMAS S. FREE. Auditor
RO4D NOTICE,
A,ThrE OF IOWA, TAMA COUNTY, SIS.

~ 7" = OF IOWA, TAMA COUNTY, SIS.
Notice is hereby given that n Road Petition
t"s been presented to the Auditor of said
e" ~ praying for the establishment of a
county road, to be called the Thomas A. Gra>
lam road, in Section -, township So,
>mfh IF Range IS, west of the 18th Z. NJ, and
II ne I'D day of March, A. u. 1870 is fixed
l., hl'rl hearing before said Auditor, and all
sous interested therein can appear and
''ow cause why said petition should not be
itar'"i, THOMAS s. FREE. auditor
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17
Feed DEPARTMENT.

speciality, and is prepared to accommodate,
farmers ana travellers, at short notice, n
low rates and satisfactorily.
lie also has Il
Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1870-02-17

The above Flows received the FIRST Pre-
MUM at the Iowa State Fair, at Clinton, Oc>
tober ID, 1868, over all other plows, being
FIFTY POUNDS LESS DRAFT
than any other pillow doing the same work.
The Fremont weekly journal. [volume] (Fremont, Sandusky County, Ohio) 1867-1877, 1870-09-30
A Phvsioian on the Stand.

The standard legal dictionaries in
use may be searched in vain for a
more accurate definition of legal
terms than those recently given by
a physician in Bulaski, Tennessee,
as reported to us by a leading mem
Der of the bar in that place. Mr.. B.
and Mr.. L., opposing counsel in a
pending case, were engaged taking
dispositions to be used on the trial
of a cause. The question as to a
certain woman's soundness of mind
being in controversy, a physician
was called as a medical expert, and
during his examination the following
dialogue took place:
@. Do you think this lady IS Of
sound mind?
A. No, sir; do not.
Q. Does she know the difference
between a "power Of attorney and
"an absolute conveymce?'
A. No, sir; of course she don't
and there are very few women who
do.
Q. Do you know the difference?
A. Yes, sir; of course 1 do. Do
you suppose 1 am an ignoramus?
@. Well, sir, will you be kind
enough to tell US the difference?
A. Well-well, "a power of attor-
ney" is the strength of mind of any
particular lawyer; and an absolute
conveyance" is a hack, or omnibus,
or railroad car, or something of the
sort.
The Fremont weekly journal. [volume] (Fremont, Sandusky County, Ohio) 1867-1877, 1870-09-30
Notes on India.

Miss H. G.. Britain, writing from
Calcutta, India, says:
1t is very difficult to get hold of
names here. A girl, from some su-
perstitiOn, must never mention her
own name, and except in her father S
house she is never called by it. At
her husbands house she is always
called Bo, and according to which
sons wife she is, she is called Ma
.jor Bo, NinoF Bo, Shadia Bo, etc.
A woman may never mention her
father-in-law's, husbands mother
in-law's, or elected DrOther-in-law' S
names, or if sic sees those names
in book she must not read them.
1t is not considered respectful. Is
not this slavery?
To-day and tomorrow a festival
is held in honor of the goddess of
Wisdom, and consequently on these
days, they must not touch a book or
a pen. We took magic lantern to
show them, with which they are
much pleased.
Each person of a Hindoo house
hold generally has chosen one par
ticular God as his or her special
protector. A small clay image of
this God, after being blessed by the
priest, is placed over the bed; this
is called the TGbOo, or household
god. But at the time of the annual
festival or Poojah of any one God,
a great celebration is made in the
house of all the respectable Baboos
A very large image, life-size, OF
sometimes colossal, is made of the
GodEor Goddess. 1t is made Of clay,
painted, and then placed in the idols
house, dressed up in a great deal OF
tinsel and often much of the family
Jewels. On the day q large crowd
assemblies in the court-particularly
all the poor of the neighborhood,
who cannot afford to make an image
for themselves. The Brahmin priests
decorate the figure with flowers
make offerings of fruit and sweet
meats, and repeat over a multitude
of prayers, accompanied with many
ceremonies, bowings, kneelings and
prostrations, and even with ringing
of bells by little boys. No one that
has seen the idolatrous service OF
the Mass and the Kali Poojah, but
must be struck with the strong sim
iIarity, and feel certain that the one
must have been borrowed from the
other. I forgot also the sprinkling
with the holy water. This is a most
important part of the process. Every
flower must be sprinkled with holy
water before it is offered to The
Goddess. At a.certain point of the
ceremony when the priests have
said the right number of prayer
the divinity comes down from heav
en- and takes up her abode for
time, in that clay image, AS sool
The Fremont weekly journal. [volume] (Fremont, Sandusky County, Ohio) 1867-1877, 1870-09-30
QORtm
THE GOLDEN SIDE.

There is manv a rose in the road of life
If we would but stop to take it;
And many tone from the better land,
If the querulous heart would make it.
To the sunny soul that is full of hope,
And whose beautiful trust ne'er faileth,
The grass is green and the flowers are bright
Though tt winter storm prevalent.
Better hope though clouds hang low,
Ana keep the eye still lifted,
For the sweet blue sky will still peep through
When the ominous clouds are rifted.
There never was night without day,
Or an evening without morning;
And the darkest-so the prOverb goes
Is the hour before the dawning.
There is many gem in the path of life,
Which we pass in our idle pleasure,
That is richer far than the jeweled crown
Or the miser's boarded treasure,
1t ray be the love of a little child,
Or a mothers prayer to heaven,
Or only beggar's grateful thanks
For a cup of water given.
Better TO weave the web OF life
A bright and golden filing;
And do Gods work with a ready heart
And hands that are prompt and willing,
Than to sDap the delicate minute threads
Ofourcurioas lives assunder,
And then blame heaven for the tangled ends
And sit and grieve and wonder.