The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1870-05-26

! DlF. Nlcf uIIuiiu nAQ represented 10 me that lac
was doing exceedingly well in business, and had
made large trades for real estate to the amount
OF many thousand dollars. one Of these pieces
of Improperly wasin Greenwich,st, and was mort.
gagged to Trinity Church for $4,000, ,andafteTYard
s0ld TO recover judgment against him for Sl0S00
| The other property was in East Fourteenth-st.
4eir The river, q block of tenement housesw which
am inclined to believe We're mortgaged pretty
nearly up to their whole value,t At all events,
| nVed AT my fathers during this year, which he
describes as the "year Of hisplosperityD and did
not share in IT. Part Of this time, for the first
ana only Tine In my Blarredllife, paid very
small sum for my DOard, which was all / ever
PAD IN my long and repeated visits TO my IA
tIheGs mouse, ! mention this because Mr.. Nc
failand claims TO have supported Inc while at
my home. Two Of my children were born at
home, and the expenses came principally on NV
father, although at the birth of my youngest
child paid my physicians bill myself With the
results of public reading which gave for that
In 1860, after returned to Mr.. Mcfarland a
suit was brought against him by somo one in
Wisconsin for some money WHICH was, as be-
lieVc, the borrowed capital WlthWhich his Wes-
tern lands had been purchased. This suit was
decided against him by Judge Leonard Of New
York city. Whileit was pending Mr. Mcfarland
ordered me TO pack up my trunks and be ready
to leave the city, as he might at any time be ar
restedand prevented from leaving the state. SO
again in December 1850, Twas sent back to my
fathers with my baby now six months old MI
Mcfarland soon followed me there and he stay
cd till February when he told me again to get
reqdyand go away with him. He had at this
time 81, 2O0 which was the largest amount Of
money ! eyer knew him TO haze at any time
and which he said he had got from the sale Of
Y piece OF property, put out Of his hands at the
time Judgment was obtained against him. With
this ne started with myself and Percy for Phila-
delphia, where he left me saying lie was going
on TO Washington to seek Office under Iincolnis s
Incoming administration. In few weeks he
returned and told me he was going West again,
as he was diSappOintcd In bis political eXpecta-
tion. SO we went West in the Spring Of 1861 just
as the Southern guns were opened on Fort Sum
ter. We went back TO -MadisoB.yyhere we had
lived previously, took n small house and went
to housekeeping. We lived here year and two
months, and this was tho happlest time Of my
life with him, although l did my own house,
work most of the timeand took care ofmy baby.
Bat was so thoroughly weary of the terrible
Vagabondish life had always lived with this
man, that under almost any condition home |
could call mine seemed delightful to me- Mr.
Mcfarland never did any work while In Madi-
son, or earned any money. lived with eX-
tremc economy and he had $500 or 5000 left when
we reached Madlsonf which with theAdditiOn of
$500 or $500 more which he received from the
sale Of tract Of land which lie owned some
where bought the furniture for our little house
and supported US for the II months we lived
there. At the expiration of this time Mr.. Me-
Farland began to grow more and more morose
and ill-tcmpered, and told me finally he was
getting out'of money ana had no way of getting
any. He cndcavored to get public Office of
some kind in Madison but was not supported
event those onwhom he counted as his friends.
had attracted some attention In private circles
for tie behefit Of a soldiers hospital. On this
Mr.. Mcfarland proposed to merthat he should
take me to New-York and have me fitted forthe
stage in the profession of an actress. He also
announced thai he should himself adopt the
profession of an actor in case my success became
assured. He had been at some time teacher of
eocution in military school in Maryland and
he began training me in the reading of stage
parts. a 2. 3 t1 u8..4tp -y.TIr. or
In june 1862, he sold ali our little furniture in
Madison and brought me East, first going to my
Others I1 N Sew-ha1n9pshiTegt9 ieavs my little
stage He mado no secTet,oftlIis tony parents
who did not approve of this step on his part but
did not inteIpose, on the conservative Puritan
ground that even the parents have no right to
int ;rfCre in the affairs of husband and wife, We
went to New-YOrk, boarding first on Beach-st.,
and aftcrward with Mrs Oliver, at 5S VariclS-st.,
in the same vicinity AS soon as we were settled
in the first of the places, Mr. Mcfarland began
drilling me for the stage, which, may say here,
was the first and only instruction of any kind
whatsoever lie ever gave me; and he also sent
me to take lessons of Mr.. and Mrs. Geo. NandCn-
hof, to be fitted for the stage ] also began to
give readings this Fall, and paid our board dur
ing the Fall and winter with my own earnings.
At Christmas Of 1867 was SO anxious to have
Percy with me, and felt so hopeful of doing
well during the Winter with the dramatic read
ings which had begun, that sent Mr.. McFar-
land on TO New-HampshiTe TO get Percy, who
had been all this time at myfather's. ON this
occasion Mr.. Mcfarland took with him all the
little stock of Jewels / pOSSeSsed-my rings,
brooches, watch and Chain (which had by this
time been so frequently pawned and rcpawned
that did not care for them, and sold thOm all
in Boston. These were the last Jewels ever
possessed, except plain gold ring, which is the
wedding ring placed on my hand by my dead
MIR. Mcfarland was unspenliably cruel to me
this Fall and Winter Of 1862 and 1863 while we
boarded at No. 5S Varick-st We occupied the
only sleeping apartment on the parlor floor, and
he could give full scope TO his fuTiGS without fear
ofbeing overheard. was all the time working
hard to. study for the profession for which he
had designed me, and to make success in dTa-
matte readings, by which was supporting both
him and myself l was still very youug, and
very proud and rCticent, I'had most unusual
cheoTfulness and elasticity of temper or ! never
should have lived through so heavy trials. He
would lock himself into the room with me, and
give way TO such terrible fufies that only the eX
tremest pride, and self-control prevented me
from making my misery known. Tie brought
home what he plDtessed was prusSc acid, and
threatened TO take II and to force me TO take II.
He would snatch my scissors from my work.
basket, and, tearing open his breast, he would
brUndish them about swearing he would "lct
out his heart's blood" before me. lie told me
(then " shrinking girl that lac kept loaded pis-
tolls, with which at any moment he would shoot
me. He left me one evenings g,declaring he should
shoot gentleman because he had Invited inc TO
Join himself and wife and another lady in 4
party to some public piclure-gallely, although
had the most general acquaintance with the
party and refused the invitation rs soon as made.
lie rarely professod TO bo jealous of me,howover.
My conduct gave him no shadow OF cause. l
01veit to nIyselfto say that in my long and PAIN
full life have seen many happy women, shielded
by home, by loving and good husbands, and all
that protects and guards womaps honor and
thai never have seen one thus guarded and
cherished who was more fnithiul TO her welded
vows than Iwas to the unhuppy marriage rela-
ton in which lived, under the protection of
drunken and brutal master, and obliged again
and again to leave the ho9rding-houscs | called
homes to earn tile means TO pay for their shelter
SO much | shall say, even at the risk of seeming
oyer-boldl IN saying SO; Ahain an my Journeys IIp
to read in public, my PRUDENCE protected me
even from gallaIItry or compliment and made
my successes among the best and most conscrVa-
Onemorning during this Winter which am
How describing, after Mr.. Mcfarland had been
out nearly all might ina drunken orgle and had
risen from bed in one of his worst tempcrS, Ap-
proached him as he stood by ythemiTor1n 1nisl1ing
his toilet and began tOsay something soothing to
prevent The outbuTSt OF ill-tetnpcr which feared
was soon coming lie turned around ana struck
me blow across my face when made me reel
backward Although he had often pfnchcd and
bit me in some of his fits of drunkenness h9 had
never before struck me so cruel ana cold-DloOdeu
q blow. ] felt as 12sliau never forget. thlnk
an American woman does not easily forgive q
blow like that. At all events remember SAID
to him without raising my voice" shall never
be able TO forgive yOu for such an Outrage" and
think never could forgive 1t. b From than time
|, took an, entirely different course with him
when in one Of these furies ! had shed great
many tears under his cruelty, had tried TO roa-
son with him, had tried entreaties and persua-
Sfons. Aftor this, Whdn0verhe was III one OF his
paroxysIns4-as he himself called them--l never
moved or spoke, but, Keeping perfectly sclG
controlled as fur as could, sat quiet, always
keeping nay eye on him because always i4ncled
as longas looked steadilyat him he would not
do inc any mortal violence. And believe now
as believed then, that my life has been saved
by this silence and self-eontrol. He has some-
times approached me with his handseXtended,
iHe fingers bent like claws, us IL he were aboutto
clutch my throat and cried, "llow should like
like to strangle you" Or "Xour life Is bound
will be on your own head" and has, as think,
been restrained because simply looked at him
tuithnut saving word, .| HuIN