The weekly standard., 1869-09-08
ne. over and over again-aHelp, Lord,


come, over and over again" Help, Lord,
help"
Vaguely Joseph Hannaford comprehend
ed that she was passing through the crisis
of an agony such as he, in all his placid lie,
had never experienced or witnessed. Some
| intuition withheld him from trying to com
| fort her-made him feel how idle would be
any consolation which he could offer; but
when at last she left thereon, he arose and
stole after her. Adeep, yearning tenderness
| for her filled his soul full He thought he
had never loved her half so well in his life
and what this trouble was which was break
| ing her heart he must know.
| Down stairs she went, and into the dim
room where Hugh Waring waited for her;
| and her husband stood just outside the
| open door, and listened breathlessly for her
| word She spoke at first with certain fe
| verish eagerness, as if she doubted her own
strength, and must hurry through with what
she had to say before It failed her; but, as
| she went on, a deeper and calmer earnest
ness grew into her words
| "Your tenderness" she said, has made
| life very sweet to me. Inever knew what 1t
| was before to have friend who cared for
the same things l cared for; and no one else
was ever so gentle to me as you have been.
| l did not know how much you were to me
r,oro tbon 7 wont onv other earthly thing.
n,t do NOT ,h;nE hat tbis ;s love which
we feel for each other. You pitied me be-
cause Won saw that nv life wasa djsappoint.
ment.tbat was lonely and unreconciled
70 INV fato. hrt 7 do NOT believe Won wonld
have chosen me ont of a world full of
women If Won had found me free and
bannT As for what feel for Won but
7 viii NOT tall. abont that have nv duty
r. "lr' dn "A And T tben 7 did love NV husband
frst IF bn had loved me in the way 7 once
f,nc;ed tbat he did 7 shonld have GONE on
fnaI;Do. tha sau,a for lin, forever And 7
know could love him even now if he cared
70 bo oaain INV lovnr Tn anv case will be
trro - h;n, viii NOT make myself unfit
~ n,aot NV deod father and mother aoain in
heaven | do believe that Won would be
f,;tbf,i ond tender bnt vour hest tenderness
o,,id -. oonsola mo If bad Lost for vour
sato NV own soul and sbonld GROW old
81, 81 - ~ ha . hrrden to ron nresentIv y
az think not think neyerf' Waring
cr;ed mas. nassionatelv ooh Carrie could
moLe Ton bonnv'
.sNot in dei,ife of God she said slowly.
ond tba, sbo fI,rnod o1yay
S+and;nn S+iIl in her shadow her husband
watched her oo nm stairs and then he stole
no;selessly ont of doors for he was wise
enongh not to oo TO her ...
what in him was really true and noble,
| and worthy of a woman,s LOVING came out
nov, &c never bofora He looked STRAIGHT
into b;S own heart With ewes that tried TO
he os i,St os +ba instice of heaven
He did not sion to blame HUGH Waring,
os a hotter te,,nnred man MIGHT have done
He understood inst how Carries sad sweet
f,ca and lonely seening life had touched
tbn mems heart and 90 foroove him even
for tba rasbnnss which woIId have made
had worse
As for Carrie herself he seemed to have
| onIv now begnn to love her at all He
oncnod his ewes and saw what he had been
dpinn when he tool INTO his keenino tbis
+b;s orao+,,ro whose Io+nraI
oIimeSt was love and then deliberately
starved ber~eynected her to be as self.con-
| tanned and indenendent as his mother had
! been How recklesslv he had been throw
inc. o,ror bis naorl of Greet nrica Rut
what if # were NOT altopefher too late for
him to recover it2 She had loved him once
she had said that she could love him
oven now ifbe cared AGAIN to he her lover
Md be not caroa His n9lses began to tbrob
verv much &c if he were not an old younG
man IF love tenderand notient couid win
her bact sbe should yot he more his own
tban over nIoose besyen
He wonld d never main her he resolved Inv
TELLING her what he had heard If ever she
| felt near pnougb to him ogain to confide in
him bar confdonce should come nnforced
and unsongbt Rnt he wonld use every
mower which God had Given him TO make
bor bannr He 1voI,IJ not he foo nrond IN
InocI M Pps agaip at at ber % hearts door 90 wanId anv
tender voice hid him enter
! Atlast he saw from tbe covert where he
stood With ewes crown used TO tbe dark
ness Huob Warin1 come ont and walk
ranidlv down the nath as if trving TO escaDe
from himself Then he went into the bouse
III a liobt and looked at tbe clock, If was
midniSbt. now at last he would 90 IN stairs
TO his wife He found her lvino with white
| still face unon the scarcely w6iter inflow
He knew fiat she was NOT asIeep. but he
| saw that she wished him to think her so
and resnectino her wish he GOT TO bed
silently.
The next day MAKING some excuse of inst
received letters, Hugh went away. For one
moment inst before he left he MANAGED TO
see Mrs Hannaford alone tbougb she had
carefully avoided him all tbe morning
"Do bid Won oood-bye foreveryn he
| asked. looking into those sad. entreating
eyes of hers. Which had wrought his woe
aI think that is bcst.n she said gently.
s.unless YOU can come back as much nv
husbands rs minen
He bent over hand and left on If the
kiss he had never dared TO nress mon brr
Inns
aI want TO fell Won that Won have done
ripht. You have refused me tbe only
thing l cared for in life. You have sent
me out into the world a wavfarer with
ont hone or an interest bnt Won have
| done rieht. We shall he thankful both of
us. when we come TO death and INDICTMENT
God bless YOU, and forgive me-
He was gone before She could answer him
and she heard him saving good bve TO her
husband in the yard Was She never to see
that handsome, loving face again in all time2
never to hear again that voice which had
spoken to her such words OF loving tender.
ness? Was it her destiny to 90 on in the
old, cold life, till was an old, old woman 2
Why. she might live to be eipbty-people
did sometimes, and she was only EIGHTEEN
now. The late july was warm and Rrioht
out of doors, but She was strangely cold.
She got shawl and wrapped herself in it,
and then some idle tears, of which she was
hardly conscious, fell till they had somehow
eased by little her woe.
Mr.. Hannaford was wise enough to stay
away from her all the afternoon. Before
tea she tried to make herself fresh and
bright for him. She would not half do her