The St. Cloud journal. [volume] (St. Cloud, Minn.) 1866-1876, 1869-01-07

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all tho pros and cons Of the argument mt
>roso The question Of her own sanity.
She felt her own pulse ; brought all her
little storo Of medical knowledge u
1'bear Upon Her" own case; wished t4e
mustard 9!I Ia would burn, burn, aod lr4x
the blood from her brain =; p,esctibed
quiet and no thinking; but Ike o,l.e,:
physicians, found it diificalt to enforce
obedience to orders.
She was not able to 60 down to din
ner, and the afternoon brought. MIS-
Walters to see her. She told her she
had severe headache, and wanted to
be quiet. All that afternoon and ali
the next day she crowded her mind with
thoughts or every available subject, to
Danish the sense of insult and the de-
sire to kill her insulte1. As Pharaoh
set his discontented bondmen to max
ing brick without straw, SO she strug-
gled to bind her spirit to its task of en-.
l.! durance, BY loading:i it With. unusual la
boz, Il was some time before she
{ coald pray, and when she did, it was
al q mockeFy-;.omething outside her
se'f': like all the tasks Of thinking which
she imposed upon herself: The old
Scotch noble held his place Within
The pibroch, the battle. axe and clay
,l'!'!t.ta more rang through all. the chambers of
her l' soul @ in answer q s to its. Wild .cry of
! vengeance "a and with a fierce delight,
l. chg q >saw he herseE crushing, mapging; s,
tfanplliang IL the craven wretch , Wakio;s; :;
!rem e!l..l st!o ttroabled u :dozc, op the second
morning, ''1al there lay npon Aer soul Ike
dew on long parched grass. these words !:
Thou thoughst that 4.xas like thysels -
And did approve thy sn."-Psalms l., 2l
f@iwhy'hsd che not chou ght Of i ? The
wicked claim God as an actomd,Ip,lice-
mske the Most Holy, III their 6iwn iu-
sge=-aad': he does not 1'hfilS yth4filke them
dead sE:Mr% Twin1J stbo5d tbo5dgt she va.
| lbe5hiaiselgand did approve lis sin,
He hsa thought:the same Of Him who
stitch" id 'he;hea1eSs,: and wheH lie
bore With him.; might 'nios d She? lie
bad believed she Understood and enter
ed into his plan: Perhaps, she had
given him reason: God never gave
the wicked reason to think He approy.
ed them, yet they thought 50. The
insult was gone; aud from that hour
Mr. T"lnzy was to her simply one step
l9 . stairway by. which she rose to a
hlghef plain Of action, broader view
.of life. T.: -. .... :: !: 49,.
She thought Of leaving the house,
but should she permit him to interfere
with her; plans ?: She was never al
any morent afraid of him. m..;'It:.y Il: would
not :. tronb1o n hef 70 meet him. She
dreaded change, had recently taken a
second music pstal, and ii three weeks
would have money enough to pay 70,
her lots: ffhhat important step towarj
indepeidehees maalySt alyt -i not Be be- .parevcntfd as
fby ME r1fd6zy. He; victory e; c.,ne on
Sabbath morning, the alternate Sab:
bath @ (which her pastor, the Rev.
John Duncan, preached. to his li,tls
city congregation: Her scat had not
been vacant, and she had great need Of
christian communion now so, weak as
she was, she went: 1T was a beautiful
autuma day, and on her way lay a prct.
ty cottage in a yard numbered viii
flowers. It had been vacant all the
time sho knew it; and as. she passed
!y!, now, she stopped and leaned ou:the
rall to rest ard look. at the late. roses
nlpped; With FROST: She plueked a bud
which u i j hung temptlngy near, aud while
she 4 examined it a carriage stopped
The driver: driver: got. down and opened the
door, when a: lady; alighted, followed
by an old :eolored woman with a satch.
81. travelling: e If &,:.ba basket apd shawls. : .
Margaret recognized Mrs. Howard
instantly, .apd was evidently recognized
IS .She. telt i!l az impulse to apologize for the
flower she had broken of, lookedinten.ly
ipto the white e. sad face Of. that, temple
where VI e. sin $ h., ,apd shame had found IS,
strange a. lodging. Her look was: re
turned with an expression OF yearnipt
aud inquiry; and without further sigr
Of recognition, she passed on to lay tha,
tcaea, A. tho feot Of the cross:s. q
i AS she -!returned> the old ;wonhll
stood BY the cato in holiday.attire; thai
iias;s n bright print dress land white
apron. .witA >. latgeI raa Bandauua ,ker;
a chief eaEpountiag;, her dusky head
She held. . bunch of :iaqxers, and "a.
Margaret approached, she acc@ted he,
With something, et tho freedom Of al
old acquaintance aud. ready smile OF
. face whose; fixed: lines. were ALI those
81, sorrow. Extending the bouquet
she inquired :.sy>; i.-;;:::::
h.. "Will Missuss have d posey "" =.
), Margaret took it, thanked her, made
some remark about the beauty of the
flowers and passed on: asking herself