The Lincoln County herald., 1869-10-07

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Play q ths passions, and III diastcaSies 81
S1prsssioi would have made iless On.
tissly 4aliks. Hsssy Parkhitl used 10
ny NJ Asss D ~ lef1 fsataen held ~
Whole ssaes Of human feeling. and-hs
S6alG Sld 'Sith 9flausEL ELSould change
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have changed h vs. 6'a6JthiSs SlsS,, wv
vi NNM q. Bot WIN tAes@ go Npliitsd
sySaJ .lsaks3 a Hsaly Paskhill. and I
lighted ehsn. tAsn' Ittrhsd sway Attaohg,
,HSlua1 Ss foresV d. AAfAsi myself, %
aSpsivN myself '1ato thinking thhi I asvsE
cared for, him. q There :, seemed 70 b.. q
valve ID NJ heart that closed dNwa and
smothsrsd the love instantly: And I
vsat 'oA.mt Wy, asEise, talkiSg, smiling
igst - thsush ~, coal wees ,net Sone ovt
Of ~. and ] was net a. empty hail.. I
vas then devote hospital visitor, and
many wondered that I could bear The con.
staat rack o. which my sympsthy waS
stretched how ! could ealnly watch the
sgonies Of the dying, and quietly hear the
hotribiS ory for marcy. when the torments
Of The soadsmnsd had already begun, and
the dsad despair efthe last groan, "Too
late too Ian 1" Ali blessed 10 the hose
pitsl visitor without 4 heart ! va gen.
tie and soothing in my manner-a habit
contracted In the days when . suffering
worm was pain to ue--but 10 syopstby;
90 blessed human feeling was 10 mso. al
In The meantime, Evslsen was 70 ,ha
married 70 Henry Parkhill. The night
Of tAs wedding, just before the esremchy,
L vas leaving Rvsissn's room, whore, /
bad been quieting and calming her,
whom I met Henry Parkhill on tho stairs,
I had my most cordial smile ready for
The occasion, and wat passing him With .
merry word, when his wistfal look stopped
NO. y Ell .i3t1 t.}fF i1. lG n,l.l
"Anpstts," he said, coming up close to
me and laying bis hand on my head,
"God bless Jon and forgive me."
! looked up 10 bic face, and my lips
"fslt for SMILE" but could not 6ud i.
He looked as me With wandering case
and turned away. ! walked into dark
room just bshisd me, closing the door, sat
down, with ny head against it, upon the
dosr.. i cat IN . blind, dead, vacant wAy,
without fssiiug or thinking, agood vhils,
apd thsa getting up, ! erept down stairs
Just 10 time TO, take ny plaoe - bIidsa'
maid. 80, .l.... .r', '..',,
The time passed heavily enough, but
still Il passed. Il vas comfort to me,
and che only one had, to sss that ths
months were ogoiagi and that "hoErible
appetite for dsath, that unexprsssed and
inexprsssible longing for the grave tho
grave, the quiet and the darkness-took
firm hold upon me. Il" : 'Eh...'
And yet who 10 constantly cheerful %
I? Whose bright and aetivef i think
I received more admiration than I ever
remember to hsys had before. Ny face
lort III dark shadows, and became lighter
and brightsr-s surface sxprsssiou-
though tie old eyes would look tsrriHcally
at mo from the depths Of the mirror.
They had 1smishsd look, but Why vas
III I felt nothing-how then could I
need snythingf
One night ws were sitting around the
Ore In this very room, about year after
Evslsen'S marriage. She was sitting o.
that ottoman, sewing before the 6re,
which Frightened tho tint Of her blue
dress, that, contrasting with tho light
eurls and peach blossom complexion,
made % effective picture. I wss over
there in the shadow BY the mantle, telling
them long story that I wss improvising.
's Il wss . common habit for me 10 i'm.
proviss IN that way for their amusement.
Henry ~ standing opposite, lsAning on
the mantle, and looking down st mo. : Al
some point In ny narrative he said:
"Thats like Houthsy's 74ala5a." ,'It
NJ have never read t." I said. r. a.,
"Not anything In 1T" hs asked, In .
strange, unSatural voice. '.F.s'oo .
mo. The elssp ID . little dlllcnlt 10
uufastsp, aud I never opened Il. You
remember I said once thasI had, but Il
VA . ab." ~ .al o4.s g.. III ;. e,.a.
thelisht fsu o. his issS I wondered I had
ssysP nstissA ,befoss hew old qaAa Ve.p
/ asishsd u ssi1sa 81 S:.i. liz; iSot.a ca q q
mo hsfplssaly /, aud ggaspsd "xatss r. ~;
Eyslssn rushed a him, but putting
her 81 With one hand and taking the
Rlasa Of vatAP I hAld. h drank Il ana