The Elk County advocate. [volume] (Ridgway, Pa.) 1868-1883, 1868-12-04


for a few mihttcs e}en his efforts failed, un-
til at last he began to ask me questions; and !
| to answer until The tears wef6 driven
back, and | was cHlh again. lie seemedi u
it could be possible; even more shocked ara
sottowful than ! was, But he tried to hide 1t
in order to socthe me. J was quiet and stlll,
at length, Under his gentle and patient ell |
forts, end sat there quietly talking until
ihev called ME from within; ahd then, know
ING that | could have no more leisure told
him SO, and, bidding him goodnight, went
ill.,,
Iya8 to share the nights watch with our
young servant, Mary; and in accordance with
TINS arrangement, sat ut the bedside unll
midnight, attending to the many wants OF
Horace, who was suffering feariully, ana
needed constant attention. He was easier,
however before Mary came TO take NY place,
and felt that need have no anxiety, ard
that it would be much better for me, in the
prospect of the morrow's trial. if | quietly
slept the remainder of tie night. | lag
down in my room with my face towards the
window, through which the moonlight was
pouring, and outside of which ! could see
tile waving branches bf trees, determined
td g6 Immediately to slcer. But | failed
utteil". The events Cf the day passed IN
array before my excited brain, and forbade
all rest o. body or mind.
! had lain about an hotr, trying i'll vain to
sleep. when suddenly, just os | was begin
ming to lose myself, the thought Of the Cali
! fdrnia letter, and what it involved. came
over ne, with the sudden fear that | could
rot 60 either now cr any time. Our family
were very comfortably placed-indeed we're
EcsiJa mvsnIf yyh6 WAS strong enough to car
ry, On rho duties or n Ioron firm and The mill.
| / know that NV brothnr would be, must be, Il
an;,,,,Ia rn lir! ,r,I Ia.o ! Ii5l hrpu nl;npirr q
ta IIiavo my, mother oGr NV brother 10 the
tordet hercjos of strance,s. Tho thought
Of ov Wv u Tar1d J'H1 he If ~ 81 sod al homc-my
oronv onJ tLa doom sorrow Of the heart
,yhicb / hn.w g,as oli mine. was almost over
yyhaIining EonId ryer Jcar it9 And VT
,ras IT. nof my, In.,.9 Tha sir,;~ole almost
kiIIod me- Iovrd Gtnrr.. with ailpiv heart,
nrd how could hnor tl;r thought Cr' letting
him ro owov to that distfnt lard with No
hope of ever seeine him again. Ny head
throbbed and heat with the tumult Of my
Loart ".rtY nntil T If bognn to - GROW rrht in the
ooSt and tbon / Throw mysnlr ON nv knees.
and snnnt tho nevt two honrs sn struggle
. and ,irover How the decision would have
Lron II had mt ,,onn tc God shall uet
er know bnt He shaved me then so clearly,
= n II M
t no rood | conld do in that lar.off land coulj
nyor "y otono for boyinr NV left NV ,oothcr anc
brother thus that | oove up at last, an,
buried nv head in NV pillow in an agony o
grjpc must remain at home. Ne.
| Tins was n wretchpd berinninr for such
iay as | knew was before me. and was in
yrrv noor state 70 bear ANYTHING, as | s!owl,
4 descea!led the stairs. and made my way t,
: my brothers room. Mary exclaimed Il
NV looks A I came in. butH checked he
\ midway and came lnp 10 tha bedside. =
d ! Horace was better, and opened his eyes an
= smoke.
Are you well?" he said, fearful for m
d amid Ms own suffering.
. Ireplied. that Il was quite well and re;
p" dy to nurse him." wondering at the sam
, time, how he would bear to be told Of til
u coming trouble. But he onticiTatcd me-,
=, "the operation is to lie performed to-da!
% is il not !! heas ked nuietly
started, and replied. breathiesSly' tH'
H. 81 believed so.' ,. :. :,
r. - ou need not fear for me- MlI'le'
= continued; eve been thinking 1T over al
r. l know II God sees hit to spare my me
ii must he ior sNme Good' even Iho"Sn u
'a limbs are gone. Who am that l shon
to aiap",e iiis WIN, can Dear 'ne lt',
- WIN itI I''I"Ho' Oh.iN' N''"'"o WV
~ near to support me.
~. l was leaning on the pack OF cNaIr' III
il it was well for me- Tor could not nave slV I;C
he otherwise, ne hA' a'lnoSV 9Nen W. -
ny could | rot give up happiness? Dared
a. doub! any more than he the haou 'hat se
rs the blow on. o., I'D Il,
1t stilled my heart utterly so Ntleriy' u
me when Harry came IN after breakfast. l ,} Nl
he leIt lalht Tor one snort moment "nu :"
me IuIotl 5''ln ra,'n t'J t G}udrccl lin, ~
a"% rS I know T6s MIA MS + laid mv hand
ad Iii' M'o" ,,I .,;J i,;,It i,4,ito 3,Snassor
al, m,, Lnort for his sorrow
his '"Unrrv, I've something to tell YOU"
-. ..Notbinr sorrowful, l hope. " he return
u smiling down upon me, aud then added, 81
pit I'l,y,'r hntg n5Ie Tbaso cheeks are They must
, brirbter, for you have long journey ber
n.y.. yon NV love-"
H. IT, ..,,o - t,,.1or,oss almost liIlod mis-