Vermont daily transcript. [volume] (St. Albans, Vt.) 1868-1870, 1868-07-01
Letter from NJ. BeldinD.

The troubles of Mr.. Bedding, the Lon
don banker who lately committed sui
eide i'm New York, seemed to have
thoroughly unbalanced his mind, so
that he could hardly be held responsible
for his actions. The following sad and
almost incoherent letter, was written to
his brother ID. $. Bedding, of Keene, n.
H., few days before his death:
No. 20 LUDLOW STREET, NEW YORK.
My DEAR BRoTIIER--I learn from
Mr.. Churchill that you have written
him as to my affairs | am truly glad
that you are in n position toask-I would
to God had been in a position to keep
them in trim, when | was in my right
mind, or that they had been so | could !;
/ but they were not, and then there COM
mcnced course of dealing. which was
owing to Mr. Keiths failures, and has
ended in my ruin. Now the creditors
cry for blood, and | expect nothing but
damnation. Mr. Kcith's friends, who
never did anything for him, are now
loud mouthed in his praise, and my ex-
ccration. God alone knows what awaits
me, but | see nothing as the present
browning stone to all my efforts to do
and effect good, but for time perhaps
even the felon's cell. | am resigned,
because | have done for Tor at least as
I NPll ITS hIcW HOW, loT) INC DcSt. lcll
there last year because nearly dead, and
after raising funds, and, as | hoped,
enough to 90 on, | went back to find
more had been lost in one stroke than |
had raised, but there was nailed, and
Mr.. Keith came here to raise funds, but
sent me not Il penny. | went on in such
a way that ! was quite beside myself,
and literally unable to do anything 4;
and at last knowing AZ little what or
how | was doing as child. | did as
advised and left. When came to my
self so | could, | wrote to my creditors
an explanation of matters as well as |
could and said / was coming to New
York, where / should do the same. and
then all | asked was an opportunity to
go to work and pay Off the debts. To
this end, and to let them know | was
not running away myself, telegraphed
to principal creditor in Boston that
| was coming, and he uses my infOrma-
ton, not to give me a chance to explain
but to come on there and arrest me,
which enabled others to follow and
here | am and have no idea as to when
| can get out, or how or what | may do.
1t is not the slightest use for you or any
of my friends to come here. The
amount is so large that only very heavy
men can swing my bail. hope / may
nave SUCH u one, Out may llOU nave, III Il
friend in Boston but do not place much
hope upon it. If not, there is no hope,
only to stay for some time in limbo
For you, for uncle and aunt, for all,
would to God had been able to avert
such sad, sad intelligence. In trying tc
serve and save others, have lost, thus
myself. What more is in store for me
He alone knows. Act well your part
my dear brother, and may you now
more than compensate for my loss tC
father, mother, uncle and aunt, do all
you can, which | trust you can do fol
all. Save my poor wife and children
whom l trust in God His mercy will
not allow to suffer. 1t will be of no use
for you to come here, but write, anG
with love to uncle and aunt. Believe
me, greatly deceived, but not intention
ally deceiving or dishonest, your affec
tiOnate brother. c. w. BELDING.