The workingman's advocate. [volume] (Chicago [Ill.]) 1864-1877, 1868-12-26

cd. Have yon not accomplished all YOU
70 foudty purp sed--reslized even Your
earmest wsspesf And this, too, In early
Iifs. Your most saiguine hopes point4d bai
70 name, which yoa Yourself perhaps was
never 10 hear, bat which was % dwell 90
mea's tongus when the grave had closed
ever you. And nov the name Is gained,
aud you hve 20 enjoy il. see the Hria9
part Of your lot, and II seems instinct wIth
happiueas, bot Ia what does the dead, the
1 stony part, consfsty"
He shook his head, and looked ~ mourn
fully III my face there was panse OF q few
seconds "You, Mr.. Liudssy,r he az length
replied, "you who are OF an efasble steady
temperament, can know little, from expert
ence, Of the unhapprness u the man wno
lives only IN extrenes, who u either madiy
gay or mieerably depressed. Try and real
he the feelings ofnpne whose mind Is like a
brof % hafp-alI The medium tones gone,
and only the higher and lower left; OF one,
600, whose Circumstances seem Of piece
nth his mind. who can enjoy The exrreise
Qf his better powers, aud yet can only 1--we
" the monos onous druigery Of copying
cage after page IN clerks office of one
who 10 confinually either cropping bis WY
amid chill melancholy fog Of nervous de-
precision, or carried heading, by Wild
gaiefy, to Oh which bis better judgment
sOuld instruct bin TO avoid OF one who,
when he iadulges most in the pride Of su-
perior intellect, cannot away with the
thought that that intellect is on the eve Of
oreaking up, And that he must ye, rate IN
6nitely lower in the scale OF nationality than
any Of the nslaeless thousands who carry on
the ordinary concspns of hf- around him"
was grieyel AMI asiotished. and knew
not what TO answer "Yuu are 10 a gloomy
mood To-day" / at length said "you are
immersed in one Of the fogs you describe !;
and all the surrounding obi cts take tinge
a darkness from the medium through which
you survey them. Come, now, you must
make an exertion, and shake of your mel
aDcholy. | have told you ali my story, as
| best could, and you must tell me all yours
in return"
"Wen," he replie', 81 shall, though il
rnayn't be the best way in the world or dis
sipating my melancholy. think | must
have told you, when at college, that had
maternal uacle oil considerable wealth, and,
% the world goes, responsibility, who resii-
ed IN Aberdeenskire. lie was placed on
What one may term the lsbls-land Of society,
and my pour mother, whose recollec ions OF
him were limited 10 . period when there is
warmth 10 the feelings OF the most ordinary
minds, hae hop,d that he would willingly
exert his infussce in my behalf. Much,
doubtless, depende on ones setting out in
life and is would have been something 70
have been ena bled TO step into u from levrl
Ike that occupied by my relative pail
him visit shortly after leaving college, ami
met with apparent kindness. But ! Can see
beyond the surface, Mr.. Lindsay, and soon
saw tha. my uncle was entirely q different
man frJm the brother whom nv mother re-
menbered. He had risen, by n course OF
slow industry, from comparative poverty,
and mis- feeling had worn out in the pro-
cess. The character was case hardened ali
over and the polish ii boFe--far | have
rarely met smoother man-seemed no im-
proyement. he was, in brief. one Of the
class content to dwell for ever in mere de-
csncies, with consciences made up OF the
moraiities, who think By pre-
tcde1t, bow to public opinion as their got.
and estimate merit by its weight in guiseas -
"And 80 your VISIT" said, was a very
brief one?"
"fou distress me-" be replied. at should
have been 50 bat il was not. But what
could 90? Ever since my fathers death
had been taught to consider this man as
my natural guardian, and was nox un~iI-
ling to part with INV last hope But lhls ID
not all. Undermuch apparent activity, my
friend, there is suhstrstum Of apstheticsl
ia my disposition | move rapid
" when in motion, but when Mt rest there
IS dull inertness in the chaI acter, which
The will, when unassisted BY passion, il too
feeble to overcome. Poor, weak creature
that am had sitten down by my uncle's
6resi ie, and ielt IN nwiEiing 10 rise Pity me,
my friend-I deserve your pity--but, on, DO
not despise mel I"
'T,rgve me, Mr.. Ferguson" said II
have gwen you pain-but surely most ul-
willingly"
"I am ever q fool" he continued; "but
my story lags and. surely, there 10 lIttle 10
il on which It were pleasant to dwell. sat
It this mans t.sie for six months, and saw,
day after day, his manner towards me be.
coming more constrained and his politeDess
mlre cold /. and yet staid on, ill at last
my clothes were worn threadbare, aud he
began to feel that the sbabblBess Of the
nephew affected the respectabihly tf the m
Gle. His friend the soap boiler, and his
friend the oil INT. chant, aud has friend the
manager OF the hemp manufaciqry, with
their wives and daughters-ali p=opie OF
high standing~in the world-occ isionally
houorcd his table with their presence, and
how cou'd he BE- other than ashamed 81
miner Ii vexrs me that | cAanot even yet
be cool on the subject--it yexss me thai
creature 80 sordid should have 50 much the
power TO move me-but caanot, canuot
master my feelings. He---he told me- and
with whom should the blame rest, bus with
the weak, spiritless thing who lsgeFed Oh
IN mean, bitter dependence, ~ bear what he
had TO tefis-he t.la ne that all his friends
we're Respectable, and chat my appearances
was no longer that Of person whom be
could wish 10 see at his table, or introdacs
70 eoy one - his nephew. And Lad slaid
10 hear all this
~ can hardly tell you how got home. 4
frkxelled, stage sfter stage, sleng che rough
dusty roasls, with weak and ftverish body,
snd almost despairing mind. On meeting
With my mstber, could have lid my bead
an Der bosom aud cried ike child took
to my bed IN 4 hish lever, and trusted thar
all my troubles ~ere soon to terminate but
when the die VA cast, II turned up Eite
resumed my old miserable employ ments--
for What could | else i--and, that might BE-
less uabappy in the prosecution Of them, my
cd Amrssments too. ! copied during the
day IN clerks otEles thai fmight live, and
wrots during the night that 1 might b.
known. And q have 10 park perhaps, IT.
tanned my objsct. have pursn.d AID
eaazht hold sf the shsGow on which my
heart hsd been % long set and if n prove
er6ptY, and untAngible, aad unsatisfactory,
lie every Other shadow, the blzme surely
mr 4 rest with che pursuer, NOS with the
tking pursued. wssIy you, Nh LIDdsay !;
hat one word more. There srs hours thea
shs mind, weakened b. exsftion, Of ~ ths
teszteg nanosony u - enipIeyment which
kssks Nithout exercising 4, car no longer
exert fspogefe, etid vhen; 5e6Ii6k fkkt a.
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