The Union and journal. [volume] (Biddeford, Me.) 1858-1882, 1868-11-06

"Because ] loved her"
sArs you quito sure z" said bis friend
with provoking calsnncss.
"Take care. beware |! shall get an
gy." to
veil poised fos that. Answer my question
Are you quite sure 2" %
"As sure a. death.
slts my opinion that you were msniot
because you loved yourself moro than 20,
did Marcy"
.Now this goes beyond an cndunses 7
exclaimed Williston. "h there conspira
cy against moi"
.Gsnily, gen,ly, my friend. Tho mint
b never clear when disturbed. You loved
Marry. There b no donbt in tho world ol
that. Loved her, and do love her dearly
But ID your love unsel6sh2 . That 10 the
great question now at issue. A boy loves
q ripe pesoh, and climbs after il that h<
may enjoy its favor. In what did you love
Of Marcy differ from this boys love ol
the peach7 Was il TO blcs tho swee,
maiden-to give her yourself-ihst you
sought her with lovers ardor7 Or. wa,
Il to bles yourself3 Did you think how
much she would enjoy your love-how
much happiness you would give herr Or
did you think chiefly Of your own Joy
Doat frown soa Putaway that injured look
Go down hkc man into your conscious
ness. and see how il really IS. If you find
all right, then you stand firm in serene self.
approval ifsll Is not right, then you will
know what to do. Love seeks to bless its
Objects ali tho while endeavoring to min.
ister delights perpetual giver."
The hot flushes began to die out Of VIII
istou's lace. He was looking down into
his hear, and getting some new revelation
Of himself; and they weru not satisfactory.
How had he loved my Margyf What had
been the quality ofhis love Never before
had such questions introduced themselves
never before had ho found queries 90 diff
cult TO answer. A deep sigh attcsted his
disappointment in his selfinvertiga,ion.
II don't know whether to be angry or
grateful" he said, knitting his brow. "Is
Il q true or false mirror you arc holding
up before mop II the spectrum, growing
moro aud more distant, an Image OF my
self! lam in doubt and confusion"
Glove isa giver," answered his friend,
.1,ioas not think Of iiself-tlesires only to
bless. lfyou have 80 loved Marcy, then
she has wronged you. Hut if you have
thought mainly OF yourself, Of your own
delight, then. trow, the dear little woman
WAS not % Ear wrong, when she called you
sel6sh."
"rhe thing d certain" said WilIisson,
speaking sobcrly, 81 take pleasure In Civ
ing her pleasure. Any want that she
might express, would crafty if In my
power. could not deny her anything"
"Except tho denial Of yourself" " remark.
ell the friend.
Their eyes met, AMI they looked at each
other for some moments.
"I am not suro that understand you,
said Williston.
sifMargy wanted a set OF Amoor sables,
costing q thousand dollars, and you had
the money with which to buy them, her
desire would be grati6ed."
"Undoubtedly. would find pleasure in
meeting her wishes" was promptly an.
swered.
"lrshe had fancy for diamonds, or
India shawls-for elegant iurs and pictures
and you had the means to crafty her
tastes, you would find delight in giving her
the possession Of tbese things. You would
let her have her own sweet will in every
thing"
"You have said It, my friend. Nothing
pleascs me 20 much rs to see her galihed."
mo great selfdeuial in all this. however.
In tho case supposed, you are entirely able
to give what Marry asks ior, ,and no special
love Of money comes in to chill your ardor.
Il is the easiest thing in the world to meet
her wishes. Hut let us take some other
case. There is to be a musical party at our
friend Watsous. You care hut little Tor
music, and les for musical people. Tho
case 10 different with Marcy. With music
and musical people she is in her element.
You come with new book from iavorite
author, promising yourself an evening
enjoyment in reading aloud to your vile:
She meets you with face all aglow, AMI
in her hand note Of invitation from the
watsons. 1T will be such delightful
time ?" she exrlains, in her enthusiasm.
Now comes the test Of your loye-now its.
quality ,nnst stand revealed. lf she had
known about the new book and the pleas
urc you had promised yourself In reading
aloud to her through the evening, l am
snrc she would have sent note Of excuse
to tho Waisons. and cheeriully denied her.
self, far your sake the delights Of a musi.
cal evening. But, knowing nothing Of this
she lets fancy rcvel in anticipated enjoy.
ment, and does not think, perhaps, Of your
musical taste. Thus stands the case. my
friend, and now will you meet III In the
other case, IL was the generous hand that
gave Of is abundance. Now IL Is self.de.
cial."
WilIiston drew heavy sigh, moved him
sell rcs,lessly, and looked down upon tho
floor.
"This love that we talk 90 much about"
resumed his friend, ''is subtitle thing. and
very ap, TO hide from Us It's true quality. II
is much ofleucr love Of self. than love oi
the object sought. Hence, we have 20
much unhappiness in the state OF marriage,
which, on the theory Of mutual love, ought
to be full Of bliss. but. I am using time
that cannot we'll be spared to day. % good
morning. lfMsrgy has done you wrong,
help her to SEC Il. and shell not only apol-
ogize for calling you selfish, but cover your
lips with pcnitcnt ki.ses."
The case supposed touched the difficulty
at i,s very cors. Since williston's marriage
he had shown himself gifted with feeble
spirit Of self denial He enjoyed his homo
and his wife. but not in q generous spirit.
She was moro social and her tastes had
received better cultivation. She enjoyed
music and an intensely. Her soul respond.
ed lovingly 10 oil things beautiful. Alter
his friend left him, williston, in tho new
light which penetrated his mind, began to
see tho relation Of existing aspects Ono
little incident after another was called up
from memory, and he saw In them ss In
mirror, an Image Of himself, % different
ifnm any boloro presented, that he VA
filed with pain and surprise. Such q
thing % sell denial had scarcely come with.
In the range oi bic virturs. Self denial he
bad sxscied often. d hal becu no unusual
thing for Marry to defer her tastes and
wishes 20 his, and he could think OF many
cases in which she must have done % q,
considerable sacrifice Of feeling.
A new sentiment beg.n to pcrvals the
mind OF Wiliisson; deeper and tendereI
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