Tama County Republican. (Toledo, Tama County, Iowa) 1867-1872, 1867-02-15

out doing so but oh! | could not say my
prayers and leave Milly swithout the kiss l
had always given her before slept.
So went up TO the bed, and drawing back
tie curtain looked down upon what had been
for years my sole earthly treasurer. The child
hair was tossed wildly back from her face o nd
covered the pillow; and while / stood and
gazed, my madness dying away, my old self
coming back, she stirred in her sleep. two
and, with heavy sob, she mnrmured Hes
ierg' -
Then knclt down in the gray dawning,
and thanked God tha. my madness was passed
and prayed that Is lie had given me strength
to make The sacrifice, so He would help me
never to regrctit.
did not see Mark Sutherland again but
the next time that Milly wen. up to the Hol.
lies, she told me, on her return. shat lie had
left the Holiics, gone away to tha, dreadful
India, ard was never coming back again" =
My heart echoed the words, bat drew Milly
| 10 me and kissed her. and tried 10 be patieut
aud forget.
| could not forget; my nature was tenacious
Of what had once taken hold upon it, and the
course OF our lives was too uniform and mo
nofonous to permit change and yaristy having
their usual influence. scarcely knew, afte,
Mark went away. how tile days and years
| glided away, their course was SO marked and
everything seemed SO unchanged. At FIRST
used to shrink and shiver al the chance men :
| ton o. Mark Sutherlan nd g name att the Holles
that passed, and pined 10 hear OF hiia with q
weary, anxious longing, seldom satisfied
They ceased to speak OF him after while, as
people do after q long absent friend, and By
| degrees it seemed as If he was only remon-
bered in one poor womans heart. who almos,
came to think Of linn as if he kad bscn re.
moved hy death. So that one day Miliy came
back from The Hollies, and said, as she united
who in Tie world 10 YOU think came 10 the
Hollies last nigh, ?. Not even my thought:
suggested the right person.
"No, no, sail Milly, as named one or two
''no; who but cousin Mark, who went away
to India years agoi I was mere child 6,
that time, but remembered hin, Instantly
/ compliment he did not return, by the tv
though, when he founfl who was, he asked
after YOU
| Years ago, was it since Mark went away
All as Miiy spoke ii seemed only yesterday
the JOY, the sorrow, the old plans, SO frest
now, were tlirobbing wildly once more in my
heart. He had not quite forgottea me, then
but did lie rembcr me as remembered him.
Il dc not believe you have forgotten q Il about
him, Milly went on; "and, let me tell you,
wonder a. that fer remember he used 10 be
SO fond Of talking TO you, Hetty and he is the
kind of 4 man that wemen may be proud
OF attracting none the ie.s because he cares
very little, should say, for women in gen.
eral"
"Really, Milly, YOU seem TO have studied
/ Mr.. Sutherland very closely, considering this
| may he your FIRST acquaintance with him.
! She laughed, blushed aud threw back her
beautiful golden hair.
"No, don, kAow MS l have; he devoted
himself to me a good deal this evening, and
couldn't help forming my opinion you know.
There is = be cro1nct party to-morrow At
The liolies and Mr. Sutherland made me
promise to come up and bring you, if You
would come; bu. told him beforehand that
Iknew you would MT, knowing your dislike
to that delectsble means for the p~omotica Of
flirting
And. after this, it happened that Milly eth
or went or was sent for nearly every day up
to tie Iiollies--whcre, indeed. she was very
much in the habit of going. while l. who had
long ago ceasei TO care for any companion
ship beside my sisters, sat at home, longing
with feyerish desire TO see Mark Sutherland
once more, and yet fearing, with sickening
dread, to meet the careless. estranged glance
of the dar: eyes that had looked once into
mina full Of love.
1t seemed that Mark not unfrequently ac>
companied Milly part Of the way home; but
lie never came near enough to our cottage for
me TO catch even the most distant glimpse Of
him, and my little sister had somehow ceased
to tn,k Of him after the first. So, although
still knew that he stayed q. the Ilollies he
might almost have been across the wide ocean
so far as was concerned. And yet--oh, no!
the sense Of his presence seemed borne to me
upon every breath Of the sweet summer mir
that hoated into my room. could not sleep at
night, nor rest calmly by day; and often,
while Milly sat with her friends, l used to
wan lcr out, scarce needing where went, i'm
Ia,icnt only Of rest.
One day, when this terrible yearning was
strong upon me, took my sketchng ma
tcrials, from force Of habit. and set out to
walk to pretty wood at some distance
The ceol, green fragrance Of the leafy sla-
dows was grateful after the glaring sunshine
and sat down to rest where they felt cool
est. But sudden sound of laughter and
merry voices close at hand startled me, and
not being willing TO see who the speakers
were. got up and lied swiftly down the
darkest and most tangled Of the paths that
branched away into the heart OF the wood
/ soon left the merry voices far behind me,
and, .slackening my walk, I wandered, dreamy