The Middlebury register. [volume] (Middlebury, Vt.) 1850-1882, 1867-07-30

For one year | performed the work of
the ministry as faithfully as Ikncw how,
and AT the same time devoted my energies
and Influence To aid the war committees
in sustaining p I)lic meeting. and securing
volunteers for the army.
In 1862 | went with my regiment, the
177th New York, to the field of contc It.
| stayed as long as coull, AMI did my
duty as well as knew how. | had left
wife with seven helpless children to care
for that lmiglt DO something for my
country in her hour of trial and danger.
This service 50 increased my financial
cmbarrassments that it seemed | must
sink AMI 20 distracted. At this time !
made several attempts TO ct into business
to relieve myself an pay my debts. those
who trusted me. felt hard because did
not pay them. | walked my house or
the open streets day after day not know
ing what to do. preached as well as
| could under such trials | many tim =
even contemplated suicide. But from
this my whole moral nature rcroiIel with
horror When those whom owed asked
me for money, | woul give them all |
/ had and promised them more as soon as
could get 1t ought to have laid
aNi 'e all pride and appealed 10 tht gcner-
onS pnnhc to help me. But | thought
my family wonll feel disgraced and look
at thenS've, as plupcrs. So hoped for
better days AMI suffered on My con
science meanwhile began to grow more
ana mere Indliitr mt to duty. sought
temporary relet IN travel and society. |
sought the more joyous an worldly per-
sons Ior company. In 1851 | was sta
'Io"cu at Norm Adams. Here | found
generous "nd good people. tried to
serve ihem faithfully and well inleed
WORKED "'yon my strength. IN por-
| trartcl meeting which ! hcll there I
was eng yea one inbred AMI twenty.
'nFee h'@Hts IN succession. My nervous
DN'ni o'c'the weak hnt Over-cXclted.
wy "eo'9 perfectly overwhelmed me at
''m'@' sought the society Of the young
i''ii where most freedom and galety cJull
D. iouhd thcre ! visited most freely. This
gave occasion tor talk. Some scandal
,oon started IN connection with my Name.
'"t Us ''ol Is tFur, ! only sought tbs
society IN preference to the more sober to
uro"h my trouble OF mind / was proud
anu WI '','i ANA woni not listen to the
,''''''''' VI '''''i'''' Up TO thl' Time my
! P',r''''i Us Il munster hat not m1terial
y ''''''''' As me last year drew TO IA
.'''' NY ''Pu''''ou was suffering more
.''"' was at 'he lime aware OF. / was
,''''.I'''.. :, c'Hcd at the house Of the
''t''y VIII" """'h my name has been 50
S'oiy aSS'c'a'ei more frequently than !
oIS'' ~ nave uone' dll not only my
Ie'' ~ -" INJURY, oat the family also. Bat
No' N"oNS di1 not intend to lninrc any
o"'' "o or 'ir'e OF the fimily were
'"''''''',r ,,, VI 'h' c"oir anl excellent sin
MS Te'V'i 10 furnish relici from
Wv S''o'' "'n n,'kn rs which had settle /
r,"" upon Us always appeared cheer
''' -" II was al PIT on was m'era-
Wv '"'''v' "en on my way West, /
NV. '''' ''''y whose name had been 50
",''o''"'''''y ", associated with my own in
'''y' anu "'complned her to Albany,
r, 'i'o'' c'f'irS' ana lmprudrnt step.
I. l.' I''' occasion Tor that awtnl article
" ""''.' appeared In The Times, charging
VS. WIN "'l einpement. When that article
was Puo"'hed we were more than two