The Hancock Jeffersonian. [volume] (Findlay, Ohio) 1857-1870, 1867-04-26

thought of those words 1t was wei
: | had them to remember, or my owl
resolution might have been shaken L
its fall H7..ra ..t r..
Itwas only five weeks after that thai
she died, and as Aunt Hetty went tC
live with half brother in q distant
part of the State, 1 was left entirely
alone, for | had much to think Of
The world was before me. | must
work, for our funds had long been
running low. l must leave the old
house, and my mothers grave, the
only places in the world that seemed
to have any claim upon me. "I can't
do it," | said to myself. "there is
nothing now | cannot do, except to
borrow trouble !" | found a place in
a neighboring town, where / could
do little more than board and clothe
myself by teaching and sewing. ]
speut the last night at the old place
When my fire in the desolate kitchen
burned low, / took up the light and
went up the echoing stairs, through
The long entry into my mothers cham.
Der. The cold moonbeams fell upon
its bare floor, and almost mocbin2ly
lighted up the empty room. l re-
called the scenes of that rooni--the
slow decline, the hopes, aud fears,
the last words, the last kiss, the last
look, the hush of death, and now the
emptiness knelt and proved in
mercy to hel p me never to murmur,
however Thine hand may press
Then | went out. ..e
i found my new home in many re.
spects pleasant one. / liked the
family, and 1 believed they liked me.
Circumstances, however, combined
to decide them against continuing a
private teacher for their children, af-
the first year, and / was adrift
Friends, had none to whom would
apply. 1t wasuia time of darkness.
l sought in vain for employment
for work of any kind--only q mere
niche where | might stand only a
footing where ] might wait, in vain.
My motto Istlll kept. "Nevcr Dor.
row trouble" and l added, or tried
to-nevcr despair Still no place.
Lord keep me patient in this trial!'
plead. My money diminished
slowly-soon it was gone, and no
opening yeti "Now there is no help
but in Thee" / cried. l turned my
footsteps toward the old home. 1t
chanced to be untenanted for few
days. "Here Mt last | can wait," |
said. 1t was almost evening when
reached it worn and exhausted, with
ONT food or without the wherewith to
purchase "When morning comes" :"
| thought, Il will go to the neigh
bors. 1t cannot be the Lords will
that | should starve so long as they
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Isought my mothers room. Once
there, and memories thronged over
me in one wild rush, and / gave my
self up, not attempting to restrain
them. could not weep; it seemed
! to me my days of weeping were past;
that | stood on Il new and strange
ground but that still, though scarce
, ly my own will, my hand was in the
nightier Hand thst had so long led
me. l remember feeling drowsy, and
then came q long, long blank. Time,
and place, and people were confused.
Day after day lay in delicious
stupor-only conscious that l was
resting after long toll. Truly it
was II blessed rest, for when l awoke
at last, and turned my head toward
the window, through which l could
see the red light streaming up the
east, | was refreshed. The night it
seemed to me was past, aud ready
tor the day. | had found kind
friends, or rather kind fliands had
found me, wild with fever on
the morning following that night
Of desolation, and tenderly as
my own mother could, had they nurs-
ed me back to life. Their kindness
was not remitted when was able
once more to 60 about; but though
their exertiOns | was provided with
q pleasant situation, where | remain.
ed till your grandfather provided d
DictSuII MI
There have been sorrows since
then the Lord knew that l should
be I, mpted to forget, else; but Lie
has led me very gently. That was
indeed the night of my life. Goo
, tried me almost as much as | could
/ endure, but not more; as He never
does. 1t was all Of His grace that
was enabled to hold on my determin
, alton not to despair, however darl
it may be.
Grandmother" said little Ruth
" is all that true?'
"Yes, dear" said grandmother
, "our Father wanted to make m,
grateful for the pleasant land of Ca
naan, so he led me through the will
; derness first"
But didn't He know how badly
; you would feel, grandmother p
T " Yes, Ruth, and so did papa know
, how bitterly that medicine woul,
, taste the other day, but he wante,
you to take it,"
, "And it made you well, grandma
|, you know
so Gods medicine, If we take
| rightly, will always make us well
> little Ruth" said grandmother.
: The most reluctant slave to vic
we ever saw was poor fellow VIII
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