Civilian & telegraph. [volume] (Cumberland, Md.) 1859-1875, 1865-09-14

you keep that oatn, ana Oil Will De Well
Sacrifice self euelythiHHy, and you will have
your reward
l need not tell you how hard it was to keep
back bitter words, smile instead Of frowning.
Habit is powerful thing, and not to be thrown
off at will; yet Ibid, with Gods Ihelp snd my
friends. Still this see med to effect no Change
in my husband. 1 often sacrificed self for
pleasure. yet, when did he would smile sar-
tastically, or say something that would irritate
ms Aore than he could know, for outwardly
was very calm.
One day when Vas more than usually sar-
castle, went into abe little parlor where my
friend was sitting, and throwing myself wear
lily in a chair. said, "It's of no use to try.
He doesr't love me-"
Yes he docs,' she said, with smile. He
thinks now that you are aSting part because
l am here. 1t will be all right when ain
gone
Put my strsHgth will fail me then re-
turned.
No, it won't. You will ask for Gods
help daily, and I will write to you every
week
She @eilt away the next day, aRd we were
lonely, for she was one of those gentle, unob-
trusive beings, who win all hearts to love
them.
We'll, Ada said my husband. thai evening,
you acted your part we'll. She thought you
Christian, no doubt
How sarcastically ho spoke, and what Bit
ter @ords came to me then But remem-
bered my oath, and did not speak them,
merely answered, She knows am Chris
tian. If the part acted is Worthy one,
pray God that may act 50 always.' g.,
He looked very serious then, but said NO
more, The next day my next door neighbor,
who had five children, between the ages of -four
and eleven called to BEE me, the school was
so far of, she said if could teach the children
four hours each day, she would give me five
dollars per mo nth. Iagreed to do SO, for, by
rising little earlier, could etsiy spars the
time.
"A month passed, and still my husband
was as Indifferent as ever True, whsh l did
any little act of kindness for him. he gave me
smile and thank you, but that did not
satisfy the longings of my heart. wanted
to be loved. One night my husband Inform
cd me that he had to sit up with d SICK ffiehd.
4 wish, said lie tretfully that had pair
of slippers. Boots are horrid things to Keep
on ones feet all night
My heart smote me. AHay in my trunk
lay pair which 1 hid commenced year be-
fore. After he had gone got them ard went
to work, determined to finish them that night.
My father was shoemaker. and am a pas
sable one myself. can do light work very
well. All night I worked. just as day was
breaking l drew his arm chair to the fire, and
placed His slippers before it. He came soon
and pulling off his boots, put on tic slippers.
For q moment he seemed pleased.
Why did you not give them to me last
night?, he asked, willie lie glanced front one to
the other.
They were not finished I replied:
Hc glatSsd at nIS weary eyes and fro*hed:
You have sat up all night. Ada, you
scarcely think of my comfort; tnlcss am
cross: then you sit up all night, ot do some-
thing that you MAJ get sick and keep me at
homc.'
He kicked the slippers off and threw him
self on the lounge, while rushed from the
room ehd First into tears.
Must never be understood by him? The
little ones when told to do anything would
pause for kiss, and then hurry away. The
five l taught said they loved me because l
was good. The cat would purr on my lap,
and my dog world look at me with great ihi-
telligent eyes, and seem overjSyed when l
gave him caress Or kind word. think
I should have failed that day, Fad not let
ter Come from Mary, Witch clossa tf'us Don't
Be discouraged, Ada; you will yet win his
owe No heart can withstand kindness al
ways. The memory of old times is yet fresh
IN his mind but your little acts and words of
kindhess will eventually btt it out and,
believe me. the joy, when it does come, will
pc the sweeter for tarrying so long,
put, as l thought, this letter in my trunk
,ut when l went at hour afterward to read it
gain, nothing was there but an envelope. I
lad dropped the letter. and my husband had
,icked it up, SO afterward found.
That hight my husband seemed in better
pirits than had known him to be in for many
ears. The hext morning was Sunday, and
e proposed that we should 90 to church
: My pants" he said " sre hardly Dip to trim.
ut cannot afford any other ones this fall.
fy old Sunday clothes must do this wintef."
Monday morning I got my five dollars fos
gaching Mrs. Wilton's children: Self wh7s-
cred then, SECT that new fophn you ad
hired SO much" 1 said "No," and the he2t
unday my husband had q new pair Of pants.
Ie seemed quite pleased with them, and
stfe dspfessed ct nre for not telling him about
~ teacki4,p but when told him he said no