Evansville daily journal. (Evansville, Ind.) 1863-1866, 1865-10-05

VERY sHoRT sToar.
In my ill-health \ have had dreassl
or vision, and mean 10 tell il. PRIV
lude, there iB none required; no shall
begin. dreanat that my wife and !
were sitting alone IN the breakfast room.
Of the wide house we inha5it Marian.
had given me my cup of coffee not I'M
the most gracious % moods; u waa
not hardly her fault, fconfess, for had
been hard 10 please thisparsicular morn
ing. We went 20 a party last evening
we went because awaamere asked-~not
because we wish ed 10 90 Marian
thought we ought hot 10 refuse, 90 4 con-
scented, 10 hnmor her. hhe doea moi like
10 give Up me society 70 which INT. has
been accustomed, and / can not force
her 10 do sa ~ -
We vent; and we came back IN bad
temper. Soraehow or other we have had
more differanees--Tw will not say squad.
bIes--of late thant ! ever have known
before. And yet cannot accuse Marian
of being generally. lf.natured, or even
passionate And fer myself, there used
TO ba people with whom I could agree
perfeetIy--peThaps there are now some.
where. II. seems tthA my wife and |
don't get on togethar az well an wife aud
husband shouid. What can be the
cause7
Alasl there liz not much difficulty in
assigning cause. The reason 10 not
far TO seek. i am confeasing TO myself
that which III dare not tell my nearest
friends Marian was never meant for
me, and was never meant for Marian.
Men do not cake advice too nften--that
10 not the way Of the world--but think
took adgic6 on one occasion, tbs most
important o. all my life, when | ought
10 have decided for myself.
was not very rich, and perhaps not
very wise, aud friends Of mine consid-
cred that a. Marian was both, could
obtain no more suitable wife. They
thought that she and ware exactly fts
ted each for the other She rich, / with
q very moderate. fortune; not very
vice. she certainly not foolish / suppose
both Of as knew something of tho m0ffd,
Marian at any rate knew quite as much
Of IL IA | wished nag wife 10 knowrR III
There was somebody else for whom /
had prefefenkes soudebudys alse whnp .
merest word FLIED my heart with JOY,
Whenever 1 was lucky enongh to hear H.
whose lighteat touch thrilled through my
frame. knsW her perfectly we'll; / rar
cognized each tome of her varying voice.
Over that face OF hers no expression tlIAt
was new 20 me could pass. knew them
all 90 we'll that each expression was but
as another page Of a well-loved, veil.
remembered book---a book that could
not open but know the plaza. 81
The girls name was Ethel aud she
was the only girl had over loved
When her grey ayes--pure. deepr aArans
fell upon my very soul, 4 thought
would have given my life, with all tht
years chat lay before me- give all my
prospects and hopes--snch NJ they wAr'
Ito know that this giri was milne. 70
her sake 4 thought / could have me
death willingly Ishoaght 20 then; bas
my God, Thou knowest that deceiveE
myaelf---that my strength failed me II
the trial hour passed through Thou
knowest that | struck, conquered.
wanted to have Ethel for nv own, and
said so. II was opposed. spoke rnors
strongly, but the opposition bseama
stronger too. Anxiety did its work. Ill
health came upon me. Aud In an evi
momemt~-that curse (ipwardlya 4 10
member) to thie hoar--I yielded. y
month or two afterward Marian was m,
wife, | resolved to do By her Aswell q
| could; l should have been brute Il
think Of doing otherwise. She shoul
have no cause to complain, II I c0ull
help it Henoeferths she and veFet
live together, each for the Other
HencefQrth Ethel was nothing g me
Was that possible2
1 thought il possible then, secure O.
the victory which mind might gain ovsi
the heart TheFeG were good FrAsqps--
plausible reasons, mt laast for my lar
rying Marian; and HI had made th
bargain would keep Il L had perfec
condolences that myE~ifa would do he
part She had always commanded M
respect; but mys,loga---that in qnis
another affair. For as the poet, th
greatest poet of our day, says:
aHcw isit under our control
To love or net 30 love1"
But we got along pretty well togethe
Marian and /. Our life, looked ut
itself, was not so very miserable; b.
compared wi h the life that might hav
been mine with Ethel. il was NOS ll4e !
all Still il vent on, and kept its eve
tenor. The passing days brought vii
them what are considered pleasures
for me, hardly found them pleasures ]
all. The passing days Brought &it
them no acute pain; there was only
duh aching at my heare--a void tbs
nothing was likely TO ill / supposed
had fnrvnttan Ethai A3sEG
But / found that l had not; and
found that out on shesraorniug we saa q
breakfast together Marian and las
said al thes beginning of thsae word
that am writing. a'@ e iataassM ~
Marian knew nothing about her; al
had scarcely heard her name and ff b
chaace abe should. hear il abs knew.
no reason for kseping IL from me- N
wife reads the Mornfng Post daily
breakfast time; and she tells me some
its contents, as / dawdle over my COTE
On the morning / am speaking of, Oh
read two or three paragraphs to N
The last she read hapnAnea to ha Cd
6rst that caught my gtaenfionsds lksw
the followine u is~ ,.s 80 - J -
1--WE understand that 4 ID arriage u
been arraBged between Capt Cecil
the 1l0th Regiment, son Of Berna
Cecil, Esq, Of Roddington Park, Bacl
and Miss Ethel Wehhe, only daughter
Algernon Wehhs, Esq, of Inverne
Terrace, Hyde Park. = FsEs
The sudden mention of her name, o.
the intelligence that accompanied
made my heart atop haasing af Ersk d