The Kenosha telegraph. [volume] (Kenosha, Wis.) 1860-1888, 1865-05-25

TIL am sure she IS the real Beatrice.
Don't desplse us for the confession, but
most of us meet a good many Rosalines be-
fore we discover Juliet"
; Whether it was conveyed to Willie by the
instinct "a sleeper generally has of his
being the subject of the conversation, or
what, | can't say; but at this point he woke
and the talk ran on the cricket match till
bedtime
After that, Walter came often; l need
not pretend that | did not learn ere long to
see he came for me. And then rose in my
heart great struggle This must not be !;
yet how prevent it ~
inexperienced as | was in the ways Of the
world, | should hardly have understood
how to signify-as some women can by a
hundred little nameless Indications without
giving otfeuse-to lover cared not for
that his pursuit was a vain one. How
then assume an Indifference | did not feel
4 How keep the boundary line knew he
would soon seek to overstep when my heart
rose up to welcome him over it g?
/ Think what my life was, and what his
coming made it Think of the long, solita
Try days which, whatever did, left me
more or less free to think Of him. How his
image became ass ciated with everything
taround me, every occupation Nothing to
\ take me out of myself and him, no change
iof scene to divert my thoughts, no society to
divide my interest He was coming, and
Ionged FIR and dreaded it he was gone,
and left me world of thoughts and recol
iectlons, to tnrn over aud fill and feed my
helrt with, o.that hardly missed him ere
he returned. r
! And all this was vain, idle, hopeless
must be kept down and put away. But
how All, how .as n ti
One day, early in the afternoon, was ii
the garden, and started to hear horses
footsteps on the gravel of the drive. Coulc
i Willie have come home thus soon for some
unexpected reason Visitors, especially OF
horseback, were so rare, that l hardly
thought of them, unless it might be MIR
:, Heath. So turned down my sleeves, took
off my gardening gloves audcame forward
to peep through the hedge. 1t was Walte
Ray. alone. Oh, what should do Wha
should | say for knew, seeing him thus
what he had come for.
, Whether he saw me, or knew by some
} sound that | as there, | can't tell, bu
he stopped his horse, and before | coulC
glide away, which was tempted to do, h,
t called my name. So had 10 come forward
to the gate close by, and meet him.
"Are you angry with me ?" ne said, wher
: he had dismounted and taken my hand; fo
: was so flushed and trembling could no
speak intelligibly, and half turned from hin
to hide my confusion.
Forgive me if have thus come upor
F, Iyou by surprise. ButI must speak to vol
alone and when | come with Willie it is al
most impossible. Let Inc go and put my
horse in the stable, and come and speak t
you here may p s.ssG tEs &
: Had dared to follow my impulse
g should have said, 500 / may not listen t,
you; come no more, forget me, make IN,
task of forgetting you possibie-if it be pos
sble still-try me not above my strength
But murmured something, and in minut
A more he was again beside me, and hat
drawn Inc, | know not how, by the mer
force Of his will, into one of the shadiest O
4 the dark walks. l remember now, though
hardly heard them at the time, how th
black birds screamed and scolded as we en-
tered it. jst t,- H
| 81 am going to to Australia in tw,
months" he said Then he wanted me +
e speak, but was still dumb.
do you remember, | wonder somethins
. said to you, the first time l ever saw you
about Beatrice ?''
''Yes, remember"
'.You do ?" he said, smiling. as if pleasec
! and encouraged. ''Need | tell you, Bessie
7 that have found the real Beatrice that
: have come to ask her if she will take Bene
! dict, with all his imperfections on hi
! head ~
t struggled for word but instead cam
! a passion Of tears, so violent that he stoot
panied and startled. ntaf4T
f mo, no y | sobbed sit cannot be i
, must not be! Don't talk to me of this
. leave me. All you can do for ME is to leav,
me ]" t.a lg 3D. a
} ''Bessie darling why is this Wha
have ! said to pain or anger you? tell me y
q Il cannot tell you. am not angry,
, is not you. 1.ult But you must leave me
indeed you must !"
And turned from him, and walked
slowly in the direction of home. | was flu
rious with myself, so furious that fear
; was almost rough to him. He remained
! looking after me some moments in ute
bewilderment; then he suddenly ioinet
inc. M~st ID"
Bessie he said taking both my hand
so that | could not advance, Il cannot leav
you without further explanation. You di,
not lead me to expect this, and you Civ
nee no reason for it. Tell me 9rby you re
fuse to listen to me. You owe me this -
You know the reason subbed ':You
know told you from tie first never mean
to leave Willie /" 4aaa7aIIla .
But Willie will leave you; tell you Ii,
will Oh, Bessie, if you care for me, if tbj
| is your only reason for refusing me, don't
bsseech you-dont sacrifice yourself in thi
way tor an imaginary duty Listen
(, have taken you, perhaps, with surprise.
t will go to Australia alone if you will sa,
! that if come back i'll year, you will mar
/ ry me- nay two years if you prefer it. Wi
, you say So. Bessie ~ za9aIsr uo s='
Il cannot cannot! ia 'f.}G 3:
e '"This is your last word ~ i "aa
+ Eyes" agH. q
! Then good. bye will trouble you n
f more
/ He wrung my hand till the pain mad
" me Vince and was gone. 1l li.t
= | never told Willie what had passed, {
N even Of his visit; it was impossible for n
lie to speak of it; and oh, the anguish of try
ii ing to Keep calni and cheerful, and to a.
,e pear interested in What Willie was tellir
TO me of the Rockininster news, and of IL
nr grand public ball that was to be give
ne there All me TO smile through the Ii
that had become suddenly Que long, val
is empty yearning for what could never be.
In two months Walter Ray sailed f
Victoria. He wrote me line first. w
or the last word had spoken to him fna
1 could but say yes, and the next / hea
Of was that he was gone. had to list
calmly and make something like excus
for him when Willie told me how he h
urged him to come and spend at least
40 with us before he went and how Walt
: had constantly refused him on some prete
on or another, wounding his feelings as col
DIV see, by his imaginary unfriendiness.
Dw A year went by. was now much ale
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