The Wyandot pioneer. (Upper Sandusky, Ohio) 1853-1868, 1865-03-22
"Now, Ada, pray daily that He may

well.-- Sacrifice self for everything, and
you will have your reward"
I need not tell you how hard it was to
keep back bitter words, or smile instead
OF frowning. Habit is powerful thing
and not to be thrown off at will; yet
did, with Gods help and my friends.
Still this seemed to effect no change in
my husband. l often sacrificed self for
his pleasure, yet, when l did he would
smile sarcastically, or say something that
would irritate me more than he could
know, for outwardly I was very calm.
One day when was more than usu-
ally sarcastic, went into the little par
lor where my friend was sittisg, and
throwing myself wearily in a chair, !
said, "It's Of no use to try. He doesn' t
love me-"
ayes he doos," she said, with smi E,
"He thinks now that you are acting a
part because l am here. It will be all
right when I am gone"
"But my strength will fail me then
I returned.
"No, it won't. You will ask for Gods
help daily, and will write to you every
week"
She went away the next day, and we
we're very lonely, for she was one OF those
gentle, unobtrusive beings, who win all
hearts to love them. -
''Well, Ada" said my husband that
evening, "you acted your part well. She
thought you Christian, no doubt" a
How sarcastically he spoke. and what
bitter words came to me then! But |
remembered my oath, and did not speak
them; 1 merely answered, "She knows /
am Christian. If the part | acted is a
worthy one, / pray God that may act
SO always"
He looked very serious then, but said
no more. The next day my next door
neighbor, who had FIVE children, between
the ages of four and eleven, called to see
me, the school was SO far off, she said
if | would teach the children four hours
each day, she would give me five dollars
per month. l agreed to do SO, for, by
rising little earlier, I could easily spare
the time.
A month passed, and still my husband
was as Indifferent as ever. True, when |
did any little act Of kindness for him, he
gave me smile and "thank you," but
that did not satisfy the longings of my
heart. 7 wanted to be loved. One
night my husband informed me that he
had to sit up with sick friend.
81 wish," said he fretfully, "that l
had a pair of slippers. Boots are horrid
things to keep on ones feet all night"
Ny heart smote me. Away in my
trunk lay pair which I had commenced
a year before. After he had gone l got
them and went to work, determined to
finish them that night. t.aa
Ny father was Shoemaker, and I am
psssable ono myself. l can do light
work very well. All night I worked.
Just as day was breaking I drew his arm
chair to the fire, and. placed his slippers
before it. He came soon, and pulling of
his boots, put on the slippers. For
moment he seemed pleased.
"Why did you not give them to me
last night?" he asked, while he glanced
from one to the other.
"They were not finished" l replied.
He glanced at my weary eyes and
frowned.
"You have sat up all night. Ada.
you scarcely think of my comfort. unless
am cross; then you situp all night, or
do something that you may get sick and
keep me at home"
He kicked the slippers off. and threw
himself on the lounge, while I rushed
from the room and burst into tears.
Must eyer,be misunderstood by him?
The little ones, when told to do anything
would pause fora kiss, and then hurry
away. The FIVE l taught said they loved
ne because was good. The cat would
purr on my lap. and my dog would look
1t me with great intelligent eyes, and
seem overjoyed when ! gave him caress
OF kind word. l think l should have
failed that day. had nota letter come
from Mary. which closed thus: "Don't
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