The Kenosha telegraph. [volume] (Kenosha, Wis.) 1860-1888, 1865-04-27
Loves MartyrdOm.
From "OuGe Week."
CONCLUDED FROM LAST WEEK.

III.
81 lay for hours that night sTeepless on
my bed bordering over the words which
my father had spoken to me, and the won
dertul Transitions of the day | reviewed
again and again its events the avowal of
my passion; my acceptance by Beatrice, the
terrible revelation i'll the library. Once a
thought flashed through my mind, that it
might not, after all, be so bad as had been
represented to me; that the worst view of
the case had been hastily taken But a
moments rejection scattered all hope. Reg
maid Middleton was my Informant
pledged me his wDTd-iusuperable barrier
to all my hopes.
Il Was compelled to accept the statement
The question then arose, what course
should pursue Oh the morrow. How should
l meet Beatrice What must | say to her!
On the one hand, there was the heavy dis
pleasure OF my father; OH the other, mas
tering all feeling else, my love, my deep and
passionate love for Beatrice Norman. 1t
was utterly impossible for that, should
give her up; no earthly consideration could
ever Induce me to blot out from INV heart
the image OF her who had already exerted
so powerful All Influence over me. More
wooed her. Could |, then, even if NV O yn
heart had been unscathed, could | draw
back, aud leave to her only the bitter mem
DRY OF my base desertion When | had
vowed my love, and had SO induced her To
reveal the imrermost secrets of her heart.
was IL possible that, on the very day after
my confesslnn, should seek ler with u
treacherous face, aud tell her that circum
stances had caused me to repent of my offer,
that found cause 10 change my mind !?
What plea even had wished it, could |
have found My conscience smote ire. and
voice within me told me that | should
never have spoken to her till had thor
onghly resolved to run all risks, and to
make any sacrifice for the sake of the love
which sought. If had meant to submit
my conduct to wishes of my father why
had not made sure of his consent before
broaching the matter to Beatrice Why
had acted III this manner, and exposed her
to so unmerited Il trial ?
The real cause of my perplexity, it was
utterly out Of the question that should re
veal to her. ! knew well that she would
feel as strongly on the point as my father.
What excuse, then, could have found for
abruptly terminating our engagement, had
most eagerly wished it
''BCt did rot wish it for a moment Ter
rible as was the secret which had beeu iul-
parted TO me much as respected my faith
ers feehngs, highly as priced the unsulli ID
hohor OF tue Mildietous. Jue determination
re'lllhei hNed ami imnovabIe in my ammo
i would never surrender the love of Beat
rice Norman.
Il resolved on compromise. Often have
l cursed the hour in which came tn thi,
resolution, and wondered at my temporizin.
conduct but | could not SEE at the tim,
what fearful consequences would eusue. ANY
course would have been better than tbo,
which | adopted. Better far to have re-
nounced her love boldly and forever, or I,
have dehed the anger even of REGINALD
Middleton, than tn have carried ont The lin
of conduct from which such fatal conse
quences resulted. But could not forese,
the fatality of my decision. acted as