The weekly pioneer and Democrat. [volume] (Saint Paul, Minn. Territory) 1855-1865, 1864-12-23
First Love.

Mr.. YATES, the novelist, in his new
work, "Broken to Harness." thus dis
courses on the character Of first love.
He regards it, it will be seen, as species
OF love we never feel again in our lives:
Marvellous, marvellous time! so short
in its duration, but leaving such an indeli-
BILE impress on my memory! A charmed
period, (hashish dreamy impossible ever
to be renewed, a prolonged intoxication
scarcely capable Of realization in ones
sober moments A thing of once, which,
gone, never comes again, but leaves be-
hind it remembrances which, while they
cause the lips to curl at their past folly,
yet give the heart twingle in the refec-
ton that the earnestness which Outbal-
anced the folly, the power Of entering into
and swayed by them, the youth-that is
it, after all; confess it!-the youth is
vanished forever and aye. What and
where was the glamour, the power
of which you dimly remember but can
not recall? Put aside the claret jug,
and with your feet on the fender, as
you sit alone, analyze that by-gone time.
The form comes clearly out of the mist
earnest eyes; the slight, lithsome figure
and delicate hands; and with them the
floating reminiscence of violet perfume,
a subtle, delicate essence, which made
your heart beat with extra vigor, ever be-
fore your eyes rested on what they longed
for Kisses and hand clasps and ardent
chances were the current coin of those
days; one of either of the former missed,
say at parting for the night, for instance,
made you wretched; one of the latter
shot in different direction sent You to toss
sleepless all night on your bed, and to
rise with the face of murderer, with
something not very different from the
mind Of one. There were heartaches in
those days, real, dead, dull pains, sicken-
ing longings, spasms of hope and fear !;
dim dread of missing the prize on the
attainment of which the whole life was
set a physical state which would be
| as impossible to your mind now as
would the early infantile freshness
| to your lined cheek or tho curling
locks of bOyhood to their grizz ed pate. It
is gone, clean gone. Perhaps it snapped
off short with wrench, leaving its victim
with Gaping wound which the soaring
iron of time has completely cicatrized !;
perhaps it mellowed down into calm,
peacefel conjugal, and subsequently pater-
nal affection But tall me not, 0, hard
hearted snd wordly-minded batchelcr.
intent on the sumblimatiOn of self, and
and cynically enough disposed to all that
is innocent and tender-tell me not, o,
husband however devoted to your wife,
however proud of your offspring me
not that regret for that banished time
does not sometimes cross your mind
that the sense of having lost the power
of enjoing such two-penny happiness,
ay, and such petty misery, does not
cost you an occasional pang. 1t still goes
on, that tragi-comedy, the same as ever,
though the actors be different, though our
places are now in the cushioned gallery
among the spectators, instead of on the
stage, and we witness the performance,
not with envy, not with admiration, but
with strange feeling Of bewilderment
that such things were once with us-that
the dalliance of the puppets, and the liquid
jargon which they speak, once were our
delight, and that we once had the pass
key to that blissful world whose pleasures
and whose sorrows now alike fail to inter-
est Us. IT,.
B. Gratz Brown, Senator from Mis-
souri,, is not altogether fanatic. From
the sutoined extract, we think he is only
q monomaniao He is sane at least on the
tax question, and probably only insane on
the :" American citizen of African de-
scent" question. He said in the Senate
on Wednesday: - 49,.
Twill add but one more word, and say this |:
that think gentlemen are perhaps mistaken
in regard to the extent TO which taxation can
be carried and that we gre perhaps nearer to
the point at which it can be borne than many
persons imagine. Mr.. Brown continued his
remarks, advocating reduction of expendi.
lures In the conduct of the government