The Ottawa free trader. [volume] (Ottawa, Ill.) 1843-1916, 1863-12-26


We were talking of you, said Esther
. When we passed you Mr. Farquhar woult
have it that you were Rochester and Jane
Eyre only that Rochester should have beer
on the fence and Jane was not pretty. Ii
was an effective tableau, however
| 'poAe! said Paul, with perfect gravity
"A coincidence Insmy heart ! have of.
ten likened Miss Maud to little Janet
There must exist resemblance in charac
ter
Esther bridled.
Don't thank him, Maud 1t is litel
Jane Eyre was most unwomanly'
Pauis eyes began to sparkle.
Your reason, Miss Varian
The book itself AS an example, the
scene I'D the garden where she confessed
her love to Mr.. Rochester Till a man
contessss himself, think it unfeminine
even to have questioned ones self about
h i'm; but to love while vet unasked Is, to
th6ugh, of course, ] don't speak ercathe-
drd
1t is, then an exchange, in which the
lady is specially cautious of being cheat
ed
deny 1t, broke in Maud There is
no Law that says a woman shall not dare
to reverence, to admire, to love, wiiatev
Is pure and noble spontaneously. involun-
tarily. is does man. Pride, dslicacy, in
| stinct, will indeed control and mask its
expr'fsicn, les, the thought Of her should
| be prt,aned in the heart of some man who
| knows not properi5 how TO reverence her;
but 70 sit cowardly down, and when
heart and hand are offered, affect surprise
and ta;e it, as Of gratitude or expedency,
| CT bec;use convinced by reasoning IS n
womaillness, but. hypocrisy yorseIfdeception
! For it's scarcely possible that man should
| love, s.d woman should be unconscious
| Even too weak to dare ask the verdict
| Of our'Ieart. If we find thing lovab!e we
| loYe; # strength, or rest or knowledge
| that W. crave, we take it Ill yi-iure of the
very necessity Of our nature We drink
| in light ana air without reasoning; and
| nvoluntarily our moral nature alse stakes
It's light and life. Right, honor, possibili,
ty, external circumstances determine its
expression but its receiving or its reiec-
tion is not ef ourseiyes or within our prov
inc-, o. subject to any law but that of
Gcd
Brave. said Paul.
Maud thinks best to defend her pos.-
tio-.' returned Esther, with q world o.
scogufui meauing
By way Of contrast, retortcd Paul
Esther .colored 10 the temples Marx
came aad sat down Nv Maud
Have ! offended? You have scarcely
looked toward nae to day'
1t must have been that you were no!
within u.y range of vision.
b. it 80 You src in arrears, then for
whole mornings kindly notice Wit thou
come AID play chess?
Maud rose, aud in so doing dropped her
gloves Paui picked lEeaI up and placed
them IN lis lre&st
! will keep :he;-. a. 10 tase., he sad
significantly.
Then came new tiins of much self
questioning and seli-coEmuniuG with
Maud for certain il was that, do or speak
what or y5.ta whom she would the con
sciousae.- CT Paul attended nsr; not IL
aAIs 81 Ieft; Ss.ssc!tii,s her in lie morn;ns
and gong with her Though the day; and
tnus submitting - y stronger Will and
fixed purpose, ma-krl under AN aits1-,
wouauish gentlehess she stood atfrigh ted
iancyIEr this new frame OF IA. nj q moral
mocstrOsty, aH9 blamed he.seli: aaa
when >hr detected in herself relish 'pr
this submission, che despised herself sri
rebeiled. only to be conquered anew -
wise vas she in theory, 50 simple N rrac-
tice
and Just as the two weeks came 10 ansnG
one Of her headaches seized upon her
Now Maud headaches were rot affairs q
ecu is cologne and = few hours so finding
Ia one at haud she AT once reliuquished
all thought of the mountain party, so long
discussed, and sat quietly down 10 suffer
Paul came to her III the library, where she
had eusConced herself as the coolest and
most quiet spot, and seeing her face white
and drawn with suffering, was moved with
compassion.
Poor child LEI ne stay with YOU he
said earnestly. y ou look as if you need
ed nursing
But she Inotioned him away.
By no means. You can do nothing !;
and | am better alone
He s,ad moment, looking obstinate,
and as if about to contest the point.
Go, please, 20, she urged
| lie went al that and her colntenance
| fell for all the while she wished him 10
/ stay, as lie nai -ht have known lie could
be iufexible enough vheH he chose What
made him on u sudden so yielding? IL
| had chatted much with Esther Narian OF
late Perhaps she coupled the facts to-
| eether and fretted over it, be that as It
may her headache grew upon her.
|
| against pillows and her hands pressed
hard over her temples, some one opeaed
the door quietly and coming to her side
laid palm cool as ice upon her forehead
At that she opened her eyes. Mr. Dryden
I thought you had gone = And then the
sudden start and speaking cost her such a
throb of pain that IN spite OF herself, sac
cried out. Paul went for cologne aud ice
water, brushed back the sof; hair. ard
bathed her temples, saying 1t seems you
are not better aIone after ALL
1T i. disagreeatle to deprive you o..your
Ple--~-e'
i give you no thanks for such consid
| Grafton l did not choose to Le de
prived and SO remained at b 1me in spite
of you
Maud was silent
! Are you better Does your head pain
you less?
Yes, she whisper ed, trying to remove
his hands, for it had occurred 10 her that
Paul might rot be the most fitting nurse
and that she should have suffered martyr
dom in the name Of propriety rather tLan
| attentions. ...t
What is 1t? am ! awkward don't
help you? asked Paul affecting stolidiry
'On no; but
Hush. then, you are talking yourself
! into a fever Your checks are flushing
already. tT
She was quiet little longer: then made
| another move.
Il am better now thank you
w ell enough to hear me talk :?
oh quite
Have you remembered that to-day ]
am to tell you of what l was thinking un
der the old walnut tree?
Yes very family, and turning her
head quite away. till only the tip of lit
tie ear was visible
Snail tell you? -
you choose
'Thel you are no loager curious.
No