The Cadiz Democratic sentinel. [volume] (Cadiz, Ohio) 1854-1864, 1863-12-02
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fseene in the garden where She eonissSed her
love to Mr.. Rochester. Till man con 'esSo!
himself, thibklit mast uneminihe even tc
, have qpsstioasd one,s'self about him; but tC
, 1--we While yet masked is, to ny thinking
inpoSslbls, for a true woman. though, o
course don't speak ez c1thsdrd.'
1t 's, then an 4 Xchange, in which the lady
is specially cautious or being ehestsd.'
. Il dens~E, broke in Maud. There-is nC
law that rays woman shall not dare to rev
erencs. to admire 10 love, whateyeris pure
tand noble, spontsneouSly, inyOhntn lily, as
does man. Pndc. deicacy, instinct, will
indeed control and Iissk lis expression, lest
the thought OF her should be rofained il
the heart of some man who knows not prop
erly how to reverence her; But TO sit cow
ardiy down, and when heart and hand are
offered, affect surprise'an take it, as OF graf
itudps or -expediency, OF, because convinced
by reasoning is not wolGaliness, bu by
poesiSS or sslfdecsption.l For it is scarcely
possible that man should love, and woman
should be unconscious. Even iroo weak tc
dare ask the verdict of our heart, ii we find
a thing loveabe we love; il strength, or rest
Ior knowledge tha: we crave We take it Ii
virtue oftle very necessity Of our nature -
We drink in light and air without reasoning
and inyountally cur moral nature alsC
takes us light and lte. Right, honor, posi-
u bjlity, external, circumstances determine its
eXpreSsion; butits receiving or its rejection
is not of ourselves or within our province
or SUBJECT to any law but, that o! God
Bravo, said Paul, r.. .4r,.Yg
Maud thinks best to define her position,
returned Esther with world Of Scornlul
meaning. s2T
i .By way Of contrast re.orted Paul. q q /"
/ \ Esther colored to, the templss. Mark
cams and sat down, by Maud. IL. 77s, rl.s.
j rttfIave l. olfsndid? You have scarcely
hooked toward me4o day. s'ss oa 70 7T'7 =
,,.It must have been that you were not
within my. range Of Vision, ',ar;I 3 .gi-f
AZ sfl'egit so. Y on are in arrears, then ior 0
whole mornings kindly notice. Wilt thou
i'cothe and play chess?. .'-. -. ,'.ni'i. sonic
|, Maud rose, and in 50. doing dropped hei
IgloySs. Paul picked Them np and placed
Ithemin bis breast. ,... ,ra1},s!rg rr..ses
4 will5kcep them as hostages, he said sig
/ nj hcanAy. ..s-... ..',tn.' .f.gv"f
THEN came now time Of much selfohes
tioning ard sell emm1ning With Maud; sior
certaih it was that, do or speak what or
*ith whom she would the consciousness 3
Pahr ATTENDED her; not always Strictly ex
pressed 10 her thought, but always felt; be-
settings her in the morning and going with
her through the da,-; and thus Submitting to
a stronger will and affixed purpose, masked
under an almost womanish gentleness, she
'stoodiatifighted, laucying this new Fame ,oi
mind a moral monstrosty, and blamed. her>
selffa felIgh for this submission She 'despised
herself and rebolled, only to be conquered
anew. SowiSe was she initheory, So. sirnl
| pie in practice! Tss!it hEf Geo
@s All this fighting in secret wore on her, and
Just as the 1.-TWO weeks came to an end one
tof her 'headachs seized upon her. Nov
Mand's head &C es were not affairs Of eaN de
cologne and few hohrs;s SO finding, one at
hand she at once relinquished all thought Of
the mountain yarty So long discussed, and
sat quietly down to suffer. Paul came to
her in the library. where she had ensconsed
herself as the coolest and most quiet spot,
and seeing her face white and drawn with
suffering, was moved with compassion! p
| 1Poor child! let me stay with youp he
said earnestly. aYou look as if YOU needed
n1rsing.''
But she motioned him away.
"By no means. You can do nothing; and
| am better alone"
lie stood moment, looking obstinate,
and as if about to contest the point.
.+@Gos please, CO." she urged.-- "a r-a re
He'went t that and her countenance fell
for all the while She wished him to stay, as
he might have known. He could be -infex
| la yrrhA ha IL
him on sudden SO. yielding? He had chat
ted much with Esther Varian of late. Per
haps she coupled the facts together and fret>
ted over il; be that as it may, her headache
grew upon her. M 81
About noon, as she sat there, propped
against pillows and her hands pressed hard
over her temples some one opened the door
quietly and coming to her side laid palm
cool as ice upon her forehead. At that she
opened her eyes. "Mr. Drysdale! I thought
you had gone!" And then the sudden, start
and speak, Rg. cost her such @throb of pain
that in spite Of herself, she cried out. Paul
went for Cologne and ice water, brushed
back the soft hair, and bathed her temples,
saying, at seems you are not better alone
after all."s a., Z vi @-.,E E.>
SIT is very dsagreeable to deprive you OF
your pleasure"
II give you no thanks for such considera>
tion. did no. choose. to be so deprived
and so remained a. home in spite of you."
Maud was silent.
a'Are you better? Does your head pain
le $50" u, ...Jr
"Yes," she whispered trying to remove
his hands, for it had oc'urred to her that
Paul might not be the most fitting s-nurse,
and that she should have suffered mart yrdom
in the name ofpropriety rather than his at
tentions.
"T,What is it? am awkward?- don't
help you?' asked Paul affecting stolidity.
"Oh no; but" ,it ,rto. .s.-D.st'7A
,"iush, then, you are talking yourself in>
to a fever. N-Youri cheeks are flushing al
re ady."
She was quiet little longer, then made
another move.
z II am batter now. .thauk you2 2TIGZ
"Well enough to hear me talk?"
"Oh!-aaite!p ~ rTz
Have you remembered that to dayI am
to tell, you Of what l. was thinking under the
odlwalnut treePaeA J. J 3 n / L ~
Eyes" very family, and turning her head
quite aEaytil only'the tip Of liale ear
was visible. bs BsEk i#E $stEF
s SHALL ,slg .yaRass s.5s8EaSu
"Ihen you are no longer curious?"
ei''Ao} 80 , EnsaiFiR +" y 10 G7a ANT
h"I eoncladsp then, that you hove diyinsd
il; is it sop = a'rta Ts'i S0i~oNa eas7'nG
She was Silent. '"" e,,a. e 'lciln l. Il ;.,F,' s'
Tell me- ho said, bending over her and
speaking earnestly, have you thought that,
lookipgsatgourhats day, yIplsnow that the
liking flhad alwsysielt iof youhad fipsaed
into love, so that as you trembled when
hsldiyoaf'hand, that l,was Bowing, to- my