The Xenia sentinel. [volume] (Xenia [Ohio]) 1863-186?, 1863-09-08

Z was but meet compensation iDF neFa- Sne came
i 70 ne breathlsss and eErnest and nervous
i beyond lahzt she would have liked ne to per.
/ caiFe and asked, IN vehement manner, when
Il speaking Of what shs loved, sOh, isn't be noble
i and handsome and good5@l OF course vas
Il becoming 90 Wellsbredsia the worlds schooling
Il that replied, 'Csrtainly5" but 7 Had my mis-
4 eivines. /. He Hss shsndsome, p certainly He
I was q thorough man Of the world, and vet he
! had his pew II some fashionable church. Mt
I Asburv was q man Of the world, and an infdel
y Il used 70 Brighten me 70 think 50; buf drew s
J mental COMPARISON Of what 7 supposed the lives
t-of either % be- and felt that 1ly friendls vas
] the least blamabls touching al considerations
! I always drew hasty conclusions respecting
character and qualities in FIRST interview, and
I those impressions were somehow lasting with
me even In the face Of Ofcontradictions.
They were not going home at olna. ME.
/ Brown said they would 60 out of their way, for
/ the purpose Of lettering week or tEO At Cape
/ Nav. aE Emma wished 10 meet her mother
4 there. and he Thought Clara would euioF being
there part Of a season hIr. AEbury cane 70
greet bis old friend, and Miss Pardoe seized a
moment to look In upon us al, pale and digni-
! fed, witH lock Of holy sOFEoW IN her fase.- I
[ hung uuon eEaHT Wand she spoke, and the in
tersst Of her ether listeners EIs intense. Then
the driver sent IN i11patient messages and theE
we're hurried of Ms AsburT and Issto0d,
waving our handkeEchislE untl the caIriage be
! cane Guae1e speck in the distance, and with =
Z sense Of utter loneliness, / rushed into ske
house for ny b0nst, and 10 say 'sgood-by' to
nv acduaintaHcesa among thB-beTiss Of girls
gathssdd fn groups in, eEary nook 1fcths1 old
Seminary, and felt Gm6ng tlIe numbers quite
alone, because Of Clara absence and lEas glad
to quit the house. i - a..o1 ElAza1rcl
Host sight Of my grief ~ our OER pnePaTas
h :,
We visited an old friend Of ny fathers in New
York city, and enjoyed such an uninterrupted
season of pleasure thar did not for q momsnt
have the most remote suspicion that ny moth
ers first object was q business transaction, 50
well did she conceal from NE any indication Of
the disappointment or excited interest she suf
fered. We we're detained on account Of this
secret acbisTsmeat q week after she re-0psning
Of school, SO that when Ee-snterei I foun1
Clara impatient for NY EstuTns and Marion de-
Iiphted with her experience in her new Office.
We had not much time 70 sacrifice 20 any idle
pursuit Of pleasure during our next three yesTs
at school; they passed in tha old menoBny that
became less observable to rs IS " plunged into
our studies with viii and relish that over
came all obstacles The succeeding year had
been q particularly busy one to me- as formed
the plan Of graduating with Clara. Miss Par.
doe with her usual prompt kindness granted me-
several especial examinations and uncommon
assistance in my studies, 50 Wtth the additional
help Of Mr.. Asbury, whose indehtigable pa
tience nerved me for the contest and my own.
ezerti0n, ] was enabled at the Christmas exam
inaticn 70 enter Clara's1 classes II was great
surprise to ny mother; we cried over Il togeth-
or, aud never felt less fatigusd in my Life. 1
was competent TO 60 backward and return over
the same ground. I felt very much like aiming
to be up with the graduating class about the
summer vacation, and imagined myself accom-
plshing unheard OF things. / had burst into
her room glowing and. radiant with this news on
Christmas eve, and she called it my gift. The
next morning received hers, and the mystery
Of he's journey to New J Ork was solved. On
her little HOrk-stand drawn beside my bed,
among other presents, i f0uRd neatly bound
volume Of poems, and upon the fy leaf was
written in her beautiful handwriting, f'to my
daughter from the author" could zee "the
author5 had been. written with many.a playful
flourish, but knew the exact depth Of under
feeling. Among the collection Of gifts on the
little stand was a dalicats diamond ring--MF. I
Asbury's offeringj and diamond ring is an era
in school girls life, but even neglected tOi
try it on, vas 90 0Tsgjoysd with my bOOk--its
pages are teaF-W0m now but they we're born OF /
Joy thst fell upon il then, How ] kissed the 7
slender white hand that had -toilsd over its !
sWset1esst and wealth of genius, and lsarnings
Of SORROW were wrecked there. So it was toll
ing in tins way my frail mother increased cur
moderate means in order to keen me in school /
Perhaps stood IN need Of this lzaOWledge 10 IN |
vest me with a necessary stamina for uHhineh- I
ing industry; and when / read those touching /
songs, whose fame have since gone abroad 4
through the land, as ] did over and yeti
over again, with q heart throbbing with new en- I
eEgv, gathered COurags for all coming yearss
About this time Mr.. Asbury left for Europs1
The complete sense Of desOlatiOR with which /
watched his departure from cur window, IS -as \
indelibls to-day as then. We had talked Of his 4
going frequently but ] had never been fully
prepared for it, He had taken my fSthsriB 1
place in my heart, and as}l never had a bEothert
he had filled the place of both Ny father was
become an ideal to me, clothed with al the rich I
attributes Of perfect nature, and in time Mr.. I
AsburY seemed the reality Of this ideal. The I
bitter grief, knew, had been increased BY an
unaGCOmtable estrangsmeut during the last two
weeks Of bis stay BE avoided meeting ms.=-t
His gaze Was always aVsrt6d and when be spoke
to me il MAS with marked. .constraint. / was ig- I
norant Of having offended him in even fhs mosr
trivial manner. I vas always t8fmentiEg my (
self considering some means to trample my
pride; and for the sake Of the strength Of my /
enduring love for him, altReugh thorougly inno- /
cent of all -intents and purposes to anger or /
wound, TO go to him and seek forgiveness. II
was guilty of vague imaginatiOns IN study
hour, as ridiculous. as wild, Sometimes thought I
Of him as a disinherited Robleman, and myself
princess clothed with power 10 place mm in /
his rightful sphere; or again as a poor sick
stranger and / grand, wealthy lady who open |
ed her house to him, and nursed him, and read
to him and made him nexpressibly happy.
Well, they were my first dreams-silly but inno-
cent reveries that knew no evil results 10 other
than myself There had been no opportunity
Of an interview In our casual meetings iB the
last week Of his stay, and / could plainly see be
desired none. Clara had come home with me
on the last Friday
In the twilight had rap back to the parlor
for a book she dropped, and encountered Mr..
Asbury. He spoke no welcome 70 me, but his
eyes lost their tar of gaEs and dWelt kindly upon
my face. My first impulse was to run away, for
had a Woman's heart even then, and ! felt that
be had Wronged me in his thought, and that it
was bis place 70 seek an explanation. he pre-
vented my retreat by throwing his arm about
me with a sudden motion. An instant he looked
down into my eyes, then kissed me upen my
forehead and released me. ] was frightened,
and ran Of TO my room witfa speed that did not
admit of the least graceful motion. Clara and
my mother were astonished at my impetuOus
nLdLnFf AM lLH LUSH elD4A lg AaSel aAtu PeLsisS-
ed ia questioning me as to what could have hap
pened, but kept my secret 70 myself, remind
ing my mother Of the publishing Of her book
and Clara sof a certain mystery Jhat was gnraT..
eled 20 me, and was sensible Of'my error an
alluding to the drug store affair, when she
blughed painfully, and turned to the proIpect
without to hide her confusion. In the crowded
psrior in the evening We met Mr.. Asbury, but
be was surrounded by admiring fFiends5 and, ]
thought; aFoided us altogether Clara was IL
dignant, but saw my mother was well pleased,
and they Exchanged glaRces--a strange, ques-
tinninn look on lie Dart. q nrOud. apprOFing one