The Cadiz Democratic sentinel. [volume] (Cadiz, Ohio) 1854-1864, 1863-12-23

all lies ills, my ambition TO stand in par
ent's as web as husbands place TO her, sb
! put her uDtried heart into my keeping, CAV
me her true, pure gratitude, thinking 1t Low
! never blamed ber:I DO nor now, my Meta
! my owl, precious child. ...,,.,q ~.
| 'OAll winter she lived with Alle in the lit
tie cottage, sowing, and teaching the child
/ and dailyI drew ber, cicse, to- my heart {,
renew my yow-to love and protect her 10
all life.. i''"72 n'5o SAl orr no Lgyul
In the spring ] was to make her my bride
She. had made her supple preparations, ant
we were to travel FOR months before she en-
tered my house as its mistfess. z9d7;f ri.
/, Early in January, Edgar came home
lie had grown from a merry hearted boy
into genial, VIII ole souled man. "A mar
fall OF noble impulses, warm, true purpose,
and generous re olives. man to I'LL with
a glsd pride the heart that loved him, as
mine did d,-, How his hearty Foice and merry
laugh made lbe lonely Louise echo, ard my
heart glad ,cGn only be told BY 2,he contrast
il made in the quiet OF the years OF absence.
! did not tell HIN OF my ereoeement, fearing
it might pfejhdice bin against Meta; but
rnadegmy will leaving him hall, my properly
AS had ever intended 10 do-aId | trust
ed to iirite and Meta's char msito7 reconcile
him to an aunt and half heirshIp. ! watch
ed bis spsakirg face telling its admiration
when l ,ock him 10 the cottsge.- The
grace 6gdigare iDi,s deep mourning dress
with the fair noble face crowned by its cor
net Of dark hair, was worthy OF the courie.
Gus bow, the gentlemanly greeting he gave,
and my heart thrilled proudly over the hom.
age my darling received. ~ ''-''.' .''G
Three months passed, blind to the fate
that was be bie me; en-, with q shock,
awakened irem ny dreem OF love and hope
1Sneyer blatied lher--nsvtr HE spring
that was torhaye brought ME such joy was
just loprning the tender green buds jus!
breaking the brown covering that had sbel
tired Ibein from the winters frost, tie sun
giving rays promised future walm!h- all Ma
lure opening and expanding in the toming O
sunshine v hon the sun .oi my lie sapk. ]
had started to take Meta 10 waik--it was
early evening and moonlieh h'- and as went
up the steps to the cottsge dcor, i pictured
myself forcing from willing lips time or
cur wedding, ny hand touchtd the knob,
paused. 7ShsIteted by the porch, 4 could,
unseen myself, look into the little parlor.
hear through the open window, every spoken
word. And the words ithst raIal,zed my
hand On ,bs door were, Eigar's voice.
Meta. my love, hear me" "a 'sS
What worder stood rooted TO tie spo, ?
What wonderl cCnld not move; as be poured
forth, in the bot. hasty words OF youth, the
s. ory OF bis passion, pleading Tor a word OF
hope, prayirg Tor le,k Of love? .-. ...
IN In, no In NC 5.ath che cinod .,s
before hlm, till, exhAus!ed with the :oiee OF
his own elcquence, he waited her abswer in
silercer lier d,y lifs moved twice before
she spoke; then in an icy, constrained tone,
she tail:L si7n "gI relaa .r
Did your uncle reyer tell you Lave
promised TO lie his wiie?' .'t4 IL.
n reehd hack MS if she had struck him,
My untIe's wife! You, SO young, so
be suti'ul. welded to him =
Tho noblest, truest heart on eartE!' said
she, wainly: 'ihirk v la ! owe him! My
mothers prolonged lite, her comfort for
years, my own happy htme, Allies health
ard joyous chi|dh6od--all, all that am
owe your4pncle. God helping me, will be
TO him true and faithful wier 'faf'H .oaf
But norp loving one. You did not know
your own htart y hen you promised. Does
your Heart thrtb for him as it does for me?
D es your cheek flush at his step as at mine?
does your eye Light ior him as FOR me?-I am
a coxcomb--a fool, il you will to urge this,
but you love me- Meta. As my heart tells
my it's own lale. it tells yohrs--you dare not
be ialse to it. You love me, Meta? '
Oh, the yearnirg agony OF the question
cytu my leart thiiled to it. What wonder
then, that she trembled- sh whose pure
beart was an unconscious traitor to its vows.
Yet strong ard tIue, faithful eve. in that
hour she put back the temptation, and fpoke
clearly: You forget yourself strangly; 60,
Would be alone ,...s.. g.
Yet once again he urged bis suit, kneel
to her, pressing his burning lirsto her hands
peading--prayipg out his great love-, but,
,he stood firm through all, sli1 ana White,
With those steady dark.c locking replooi
into his deiSirg berovn lealt to rebel, till
naddened by her cool fiIinness, he suddenly
1asted from The room, past me, into The air,
rushing Ior"aId, blindlg, recklessly. She
stood for moment where he left her; then
With q wailing cry OF 'Edgai!--Edgar!' she
hrew herself on The the floor. sobbirg out
he whole weight OF that hours rgbny.
AID |? Slowly, heavily, with laggafd
ootsteps ard sick heart,uI went lonely
way, hcmewaId. All night | lay heavily,
wearing out tie hours 10 btterest agony Of
nean with no ray oiacomtcrt,l no lgleam Of
aope :, Morning, lcuud me again looking for
ward. This was but D Boys lCv. o. Edgar's
fha.could be cotquered by time, mine was
be boarded passion of a lcrg life--his was
he transient 1--we Of three months growth,
mine the we'll founded attachmentof wears.
would send him away again 10 forget,
while she, would return again 10 me were he
be absent. A ioolS dream, but | was
owing fool. 4. III XIII
So when pale and haggard, my handsome
boy presented himself to ask permission to
return to Europe, i gave it gladly and
and drapped no comment on his
plans or altered looks. II lie took sadly aE
leave oi me, lett with sick emile
his farewell ior his Aunt Meia,' an left
ne. 5H-' ltlt cl swa.} Baa 15g-..a
Isaid no word to Meta Of our ruptials. l
Jaw by her pale face and ao2ed tenderness OF
manner how she suffered and how she b!am-
sdiher own heart, but lioDly sought. by re-
pew ed kindness and love, TO win her back ia.
The old eaceful happiness, and link her
heart with her hand TO mine. cAll the long
summer moths, ! saw her crew paler, but
marked TOO how she battled her own love.
| knew she would be, as she had said, my
true aithiul wife, but never my loving onee
Such love as child gives It's parent, as
ward her guardian, she gave me freely; such
love as women owes her husband, ,s gave
her, she could never return to me. 'iV.'S7
Slowly, reluctantly, Iadmitted this truth
to my heart, striving against it every inch OF
TIE, way, Was it not enough thal once be-
fore, in The oheyday of my youth, i had
crushed my own'heartgto make way for an :
Q her, lexiled myself from the sunshn ne OF
my Tie, that another might find lie in it's
bea n,s, iaitnow. when my old age was Green