New-York daily tribune., 1863-11-21
,.r,. end TINS her own sense OF humiliation was but
half explained. IL, ,., .u A. ..,, ,-oe

vain and ignorant man, though wc-meanng. il is ne,
right to hold prejudice against any one hut ao ..1
telling tLce that my feeling toward lm cones te,!
near being that. Thee never could be happy, HulI',
with husband whom thee dd not respect; my,
mean something mOTe-whOm thee oid DVb ieoi ""'
wiser and stronger than thysclf. ,., .oo !
but she made 10 reply. ,;,.E |
"Thee has rift know" the widow conlih9eu'
"an1 thce has learned mach There is kncwieoec.
though, that comes with experience OF g ara 80, ,fv
I feel my ignorance in many ways cvnliocv 20 70 ~ &
learning there are some things wheh az,
clearly than thoo. 1T requires ~ % -, a.
81 rend tie heart and there Is less amer ne IL
hearts Of women than thee may suppose. - ~,
be wholly Independent Of the men; We nveu 80 49, - I
snl com nauiunsh him We acknowledge ih,if po"'F 80"
vhilc No rcs.t H. There are defects in Us whch We
Ord supplied in them, as We supply Nls,ls 80 III,
,isre - nerfect and holy But cannot hho" 'Hi',
axreDt tfroneh our own experience. L nave "e.oeu
viii hce In most OF thy views about tho rths OF uu'
oct so long as thee remains single 10 insit"a - d
n.n't think hard Of me for saying ~ put "ro 80 80
of,i orirly wished that thee had not get "! neat
,,,rs, r,nrrlncc Tho Lord seems 10 have mte,1e"
80 for cvcry one 80 that none Of Ills SLu"Ieh
should be 'cii alone ana ana . tHee s'0'u NV
eyes agains: tie sisn' lie s"e''
rs~en whe u;tcrinc this exclamation. into which ale
was startled by the unexpected ~oiSs OF er Ter ,or
! "CbilfI clidl thy fathers Cycs-thco hhs bis .ci.
llookl 1 am concerned ON tly account Hannah. Tei'
haps have been mistaken IN ihce rs WIS I
him Oh II could have known hin IN t.inei snsIi
not he much longer with thee. NY daughter; hnu
tell thee how failed in my duty il ma! ie.p tn,s 20
porfo1m thine. ff my prayers fos Thy sake sHoaa 'e
IN. widow paused, sFita;ea by the rccolectlors
which her own words evoked The tears ilcEieG uoN"
her pale cheeks bat she quietly ped tae
councnancc thus changed ron lis usual pacid f.P9'p
Hannah was shocked TO sce how weak ana "nsicu y
| Ind grown during the Winter. Tie parting, "nich
she did dare to contemplate might DO nearer 'nA"
DO not say anything that nigh, giyo thee PAIN she
said. IN, n.,u ,,,,c n. ~.
lief hnro often fet moved TO tell thee. bus there
seemed 10 be no fitting tire before now.
"Is it about my iatheri' Hannah asked r,., long
! "Yes. Unpnah | with he could have h'eo i,ne
enough TO leave his face In thy mcnoi! but ~ was nor
ltob be- Thee often reminds me OF HIM e'pe,'nl! S'n
feel that there is something In thy nature yvhu
reach was past thy 0ge when ae weie inhiEeS am
| ie wa. no longer Young man We had known each
oth,r for some years. but nothing passed between US
,l~, vounger pr.rsons would have called love was
spc-olv drawn tow ard him. aud Il seemed rglt that
nv lie should become part Of lis. IL came - nc rs
natural change. Richard wac not "a man o nsH! "oIusi
he nas considc cred grave and sein ana Nlth ~ W.
looked on ne with only gchiie emile on MS i,er
/ Kew that his heart bad medc choice OF me- iIyin
that time although " vas long before 10 s',Ae ~
mind 4 accustomed myself 10 tbink o' hn a. II! Au'
! band This may seem stranre 10 thee nnd. ihHteu
never confessed II to him When we came 10 Nv ''
gef or and found. from eycfy circumstance oi our
day life how GOOD and Just he was Low airour ara ny
ricit and rigid IA the ways that seemed ieli 10 hn
eeued uroI lin as helper and looked up to him -
ruiae There yas In my heart quite es much io'eT-
once as love. An unhlnd word never pcssee oc'N'r'
lus Men / hnppcued to he wrong IN Ally ihing' hs
krcw how 10 turI my mind ~ gently and kindly 'hN
Was set richt without knowing how. ne was n''cl
wrong. Our married lie was season OF Pl.eos P'.,.
YES 10 me because ny osu conieHiineL' haes nc
careless bind
II something's noticed that lis eyes rested on re VIII
n singular expression, and wondered what was m ne
r,,d There vas something uasatished IN LIS face.
lo,s that kcd for knew not what bri more thah we
world contains. Once, whom ! sad; is anything ue
matter Richard be turned quickly away ard answered
slo-rir Amer that | said Doihng. and rDaly g,i
occusornod 70 the look rocoiec. when ny hroil-i
vas born. he seemed lie another uau. though the.e
WAS 10 outwnrd change. When he tTOke 10 ne ia
voiec VS. trcrab'y ard rounded srenre % ny etia,
In. nv own WeGNnoss ] thongit might tccouh' JOY
that He would takc tho babe % The w.ndc" before -
e,os old bear tie lghi; would pei ~ wl"n al T.
and hod r 90 tightly Ls 90 Male Tire ppff t,iAS 81
then be would pri il down qalel nlg Wat on. 81 l.e
Ioon without saying word hoiieee ~ ~ W. - ~!
it Il Cave concern: knc" MOI ubs RAT "a il 70
,ou1G their frt Children strange nld curious 70
woman her first babe seems more AAo tji tiih' i r
lar mat j. brought back - hcf tAal something eAI !
nsF that - added 20 Ler life.
II scar.ey kaow now 70 make clear 70 Thy mind 80
other change ial over tA9 niAef ie or li.'
Richard siiA iycd never could Dc cti.F'y c@.''i'
lud-sd vlcu II commenced tcchrsc fafced q trrr
thres wcfe pl'snc moocs connected WI - ''4ll.
trol "hfs-fe vns Hi7n rsc- sIt. u i' ~. ~
] ttt tuf dream ilit tlfy concerned N.ffL VIVID
our 0ufrf orl,rod .fe WGs Inf4HitrAf. Dte d. Tt
lac ago'leI. 1rd We h,ih ffk, too ilTf' he iAf
were tlo.i nquif.Ar whether our iio"l-iE' o '"tt
d a y
would have been better lllrnal-G storm wlch Hnl-4
have fiown ~ tie wall tAa bad grown ~ between t
/ by shaking il dovu Rns thee "a Gee thai ron t-s
icadticr vl, see &C.. without 10y tenn ticr hl'NiH
seemed rrrycl aud steiner. tAouglt BIT Ae was rNc
occupied Wlth business matters 20 ,li i'ne Ai.'f our
lci.d vas taken lrom us began 20 nce Tat ie "as
growing thinner and paicr and oiicn iet very 1Ao ~
.loft lin. Ills manner toward ne iHdc no hAf tt1 y
'ie alaG t,ouTh could rck out no "ord ~ aci iha'
was noi hind ana ,eader Hhen 70 . h'e ,- ~
! what the mr{ter. 20 on' artNeicei Hy,-E 'l't
can be heYed' knew. Gitcr thlt, that al was nos
i!glt bat ~ eyes were not Opcncd~o nc flth.
I IlCGc Friend ILuIa'on paused. as u 70 summon
strength 10 continue her narrative Her v4icfti
hands were TREMBLING and sic clnsped them together IN
her lap with energy when dd hnt .tcAie ht
ll4u4htI5 eyc The tteT I'd listened With trcat LIE
attention wriug With mingled cfcc4les ana dread i'F
tie d6louemcnt which che felt must be more or '''
tragic Although hcr mothers agitation iohc.' Lsr
own heqrt with fympatbcio' pam, ihe iieN INK we
story had now gone TOO laf 10 be- lct Unfinished Sie
rose. lronrbt rass q water, ord silently paocd li on
the little table hcsido her no'heT' char. NAcA fL'
] had rcsumcd boz cent, the hitter continued;
within ye1r aftcr cur boys Death q ee we bffn
II was great cous a;.on 10 nc thcn. mhon8h u Lat
been n much creator ono rilc-. hoped. TO tAnt ]"
would hive made Richard little more cAc.Tn, tu' ha
wrs n nIytiiGg. quic'rr than ever .oint t4hfi
thought Nina Indifferent both Ia ne ana tie hnpe.
longed ln nv w,ekncfs and ny comfort 10 y ni henn
upon bis breast and rest Wilo there. IL seemed
voinary fancy % mine. but oh, Hannah. u haa Lhl
the courage to say that much once be cAeH tLeo w
arms then gave thee back TO me ana went os o' t.e
room without SAYING "a word ~ bosom Of g.! ltLe
loct wac Damp. and know now iAa' he musi nave
cried over tlce.
II lad not recovered nv fnll strength when saw
fiat ic ras really nilng. Dcgnn 10 10 anxious and
uneasy. though scarcely Llew Why, ior he sil weAl
a.o.. .f i.slucfs o. nsG4 Bnt ore Moonlight was
te ui,ceelth Of c f.lth month Ien enDcr. and on
scvsnth deye started 10 90 10 The sage. and came
back % ne house ia Aaf IN hour hoAing iearsnAJ
cfarr.a His voice. though was IS stcndy ever.
believe NOT vel. bUlleim1.' ho said 10 ne
'peflaps I'd better iio down While. Dont trouble
II .seit " Il soon De over inado h.n uudFeos and
80 10 bed. or ny ea,ieiy gave ine nreAet'. amen