Council Bluffs bugle. [volume] (Council Bluffs, Iowa) 1860-1868, 1862-05-21

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command me to give my whole attention
for the next two hours, on pain Of his dis
pleasure.
His kindness 10 ne knsw no bounds
He ordered Dominique and the bog Jsal
10 treat me with as mach respect as him
self. He took me with hiEa 70 the 0Tisn.
tai Lectures Of the Bibilioshsqaa da Roi
BE procured for me tho esaErse 30 the dis.
eusaions Of several literary and scianGiii,
bodies, and ofsEed ma every impFoFesna
OF my mind and dsvalopmeat Of my pow.
era. He introduced me to all khas VA
nobleat and best In the great arissoerasJ
OF intellect, and constantly spoks of M
- yoaSg man Of promise, who wpald
one day be heard of Ia the world.
He used to rally me on my atudioua
habits and often expressed surprise that
. young man Of ny years should not seak
the society Of bis eompeers, and especial.
~ OF thai Other ser, 10 which the heart ot
yaath usually turns With an irresistible,
magnet-hka attEecsion. Little did hs
dream thas the person be addressed be.
longed to that very sex of which be spoke.
One day he startled me by saying =.
"Whas pretty haaT yota have, Eagsne ii
u as soft and dns as allas Of young girl. y
The eoneioua blash gushsd to uy face,
for | thought be had surely discovered ny
secret; but one glance at his calm coua-
tenanee Treasured Inc. In his large,
open, honest heart, thers never entered q
suspicion of the Fshase deeeption'' that
had been practieed upon him. zs..
be did not notice my emotion, and /
answered, in Is calm a voice as | could
command: "Ay mother had fine soft hair
have inherited it from her.n
Thus passed year. the happiest had
ever known. My master became kinder
and more affeetionaba every day. He
would often address me as nson fila, asd
seemed Indeed to regard ms with feelings
as those Of . father TO son.
And what were my sentiments TO-
wards this coed and noble mAn who was
so kind 10 me? l worshiped him he was
| eFarythang to me. To loys him. though
With love that eoa-d never be known,
never be returned, was enough for nae.
have said that Twas happy; bat thars
was one drawback to mY happiness. 1t
lay in the self-reproAch fel& for the de-
seption praetieed on my beuafaotor.-
Many timss ] resolved to resume nay wo-
mans garments, 10 suit which always
kept b. me safe under lock and Key fall
at his feet and colsfess all But the fear
that he would spurn me, that he would
drive me from his presence, restrained
me. | eould not exist under this displsas-
aEe; could not endure life away from
him.
Although he was. Of eourses unconscious
Of the intensity of the feeling wath which
/ regarded him, be knew, for did not
| conceal it-that | was much attached 70
him; and / was aK&ks that |, OF rather
Eugine, Was vgy dsRE to him. On one
| occasion, as We sat together, in the study,
be said to me, abruptly;
Glow old are you, EagiRe ?"
'ETwenty- two, - | answered.
He sat silent for some moments and
then said =
! "If had married in my early veaFs,
| might have had son as old as you. Take
my advice, Eugine, marry, early; form
family ties; then your old age will not
be lonely as mine Is"
so, my dear master p' cried |, safe
under my disguise, Efno son could love
you as do. 4 son would leave you to
win place for himself in the world; but
your faithful Eugine would cling 10 You
through life; be only asks to remain with
you always, always"
'EMy good Eugeney' said my master,
graaping my hand warmly ''yonr words
make me happy. lam lonely man, and
the affection which you, a stranger youth,
entertain for me, Ais me With profound
and heartfelt joy"
Ah! then my trem mbling heart asked it.
self the question: 'fwhat would he thinR
if he knew that it Was young girl wht
| felt for him this pure and tender afFectionI
Something whispered that he would bt
rather pleased than otherwise, and wild
temptation seized me to tell him all--but
could not-I could not.
As my labors approached their compile.
tiou, gloomy feeling Of dread approach
cd me. feared thai when the FedaI
were flashed my master would no lougei
require my services. But he relieved M
of my fears by engaging me Is his sec.
retary until became too famous and toe
proud to fill the othee contentedly.
Scarcely wasthis cause OF dread remov.
ed, when another, Inora terrible still, oval
took nae.
One evening be took me with him to q
literary rea4aios at which every beI-espriI
Of the capital was to bs present. Athrst
refused to 60, for | feared that the eye,
Of some of my own sex might penetrat.
my disguise but be seemed 90 much hurt
ut my refusal thas | was forced to witl
draw it. The soires was very brilliant
one. But very little notice was taken ol
the shy, awkward, silent youth, who ghd.
cd from rooR TO room, lowering ever neat
the spot wheEe his beloved master ztood
or sat, in eonpeEsation with the gifted oi
both sexes. How | enVfed the iadiei
whose hands he touched, and to whom hi
attentions were addressed For, as hav'
said, my master was man Of the world
wealthy and distinguished and, notwith,
standing bis advanced years, ladies still
leeaFssd his attention.
/ Could but hare entered the lists wisl
| her upon equal ground; could | but hayt
| appeared before hiaI in my own propet
person, arrayed in appropriate aad maid
enly eossams, felt sure Of gaining th
victory, for had youth on my side; ha,
already an interest IA his heart but aiaa
4 could not do this without frst announc
ing myself as an inpostar, IA liar AM
Edeceivery to the man whose opinion psis
ed above all sarshly thiagH.
i dreadful Thoughts nov rested On IA
, mind day and night. What II this womal
should acconplish htir designs2 7 What
} my master sboald marry her ? Wha
w1nad shea become of met E 4
II But | was spared this trial. .ss
t There Was only one lady In particulai
. who spared no pains 70 attract him {
= herself. She was the widow Of the cell
hratad lisesaseas, and was heFself kasw
I as brilliant bat shallow writer. Oh
! was not young, but ahe was well presery