Juliet signal. [volume] (Juliet [i.e. Joliet], Ill.) 1844-1???, 1862-06-03

whole lie.
Gradually fell into the routine of the
quiet homo life whose domestic nature was
SO new to me. had few young acouain-
tances, but my guardian brought his own
to me, and found he knew the best people.
But had more acquaintance than friends
i knew many and loved few. For nv
guardian spoiled the rest to me by contrast.
read what he told mel did as he wish
ed; was growing a truer and better wo-
man. And thought liked him only as
wise friend
1t was some six months after nv return
home that the tranquil course Of nv DAYS
had an interruption mOst unexpected 10 me.
Among the gentlemen of my acquaintance
Was one oil whom, when thought at all. it
was that he was honest and good. Willard
Harvey had scarcely shown me more atten.
ton than had others. but that little was
delicate and respectful. Still was great
ly surprised when, escortiong me from q
party one night, he offered himself.
tr'edts tell hsasof my surprise, how had
never thought of him in that way, and all
the rest that women say when they mean
to refuse a man kindly.
| Il know you have not thought of me so,
but have of you since first knew you
| - 10 oiuSC JOu UBCttne SO tDuCn TO me
that no one else was anything. l never
showed you before. but YOU are all the
world to me, Eleanor Warrenne. | shall
not care for any other woman az have for
you. shall never marry, if cannot mar
~ ycu."
His simple earnestness touched, I be-
lieved every word the man said, and aske
for time to answer him. / asked nv
guardian, the next time | saw him, what to
do. l was not prepared for the effect on
him.
Eleanor! Eleanor you do not love him,
or you would not have asked me that If
you had you would have felt at his first
word that you must be his wife and no
others, And if, not loving him like that,
you marry him, it will be sin. But you
do not love him-dJ you, Eleanor?"
There was passion in his voice, there was
a strange light in his eyes as he leaned for.
ward there was a culver of depressed
strength in his hands that grasped mine.
And IL was blind
"No, think | do not love him. have
for him only respect and esteem that might
rlpen into love. | know HIN to be worthy
in every respect"
That is not enough, be sure oft. New
er trust to mere regard for happiness. 1t is
starving. But | am not giving you the
ca'm advice you asked for. am forget
ting myself"
Guardian, shall not marry him."
"Do not let me go away thinking that
my selfish influence has kept you from " hat
might have made you happy. said what
did believing you did not love him, and
knowing that then you would be misera-
bic"
But had resolved what to do. So Viii.
lard Harry had his answer. 1t is long ago
that all this happened. He never married,
and think all that he said that night was
true. But his trouble made him gentle
instead of hardening him, and he was al
ways tender and chivalrOus to women, per-
ha?s for the sake of one of them.
After time, 1t seemed to me nv guar
dian changed. He was never less true and
geGtle, but he was often grave unto sad.
ness; and one night, looking up suddenly
at him in one Of these moods, l caught hi
eyes iulI f tender sadness.
Ca! what is it?" | cried. TELL me
if you can, or if it is something NAV not
know, then be sure Of my sympathy, the
same as If | knew what | gave it for"
" cannut tell you now; but you mus
know 1t al too soon. You must have
known there wac something that wa
| changing me so ?"
"Ah ! yes have seen it all the while
1t has troubled me ia troubling YOU, 1t i.
not any thing | have done pr
"You! God bless Won, no. Tits because
you are so true aud good to me, that THU
}, is the harder TO bear. No wonder You d,
y not understand me how should you p
, Eleanor, don't look at me so, or | shall
q forget myself and what | have TO do
" When you recall this night afterward, ttiinl
', Of me at my BEST not as Of late
y felt that he was going from me, tina
u great trouble was hanging over me.
Stay with me only stay with ME B.
:. indeed my guardian, as you always hav
Il been !"
: Guardian What guardian / hav
been to you! | know you will not sooi
l. forget me; but think Of me as lcnien,ly a
d you can. And-Gud in heaven bles
: you dearest Eleanor"
J One moment | was drawn to him, on
u kiss was on my mouth, then he put N
down very tenderly and was gore. Gone
y The thought was so bitter, that could nc
70 at first acceptit. | said over and over i
e dreary repetition "Ie has gone he ha
e gone"
y Early next morning came letter fr0r
him. 1t was dated at midnight Of the nigh
," before, and said:
"Since left you, Eleanor l have bee
= trying to frame the words that will tell Vt
!, what you must know. l could not bay
y greater punishment than to write you no,
= these lines. have ruined you! speculi
} ted away all your father left you in my car,
-, in the vain hope of increasing it. Yet
= mean it for the best; try to believe tina
70 1t is weak to leave you now, but canuC
y stay and see you whom have So wronseC
shall never come back unless can max
70 you full reparation. In happier days
!. had hoped for the blessing of telling 20
10 how dearly loved you. But when til
u trouble came, said you should never knO
~ it from my lips. Pity me, who might ha'
j. been so happy.
=, 81 have directed friend to help yo
u settle your affairs. He is an honest, MAJ
y and will do all he can for you"
% Farewell, Eleanor"
is And was this the end Of it all? WI
as | only to know his love with his loss
10 | never knew how much suffering cou
" endure, till then. But was young ar
u strong, and the first shock over, began
~ think of what to do. My aunt bore Il
70 announcement ofou losses better than
oi had expected. With the help of Mr.. Ra,
mond-the friend my guardian had appoi
- ted-we obtained clear statement of OF
III affairs. There was nothing TO expe
from the lost property. We sold our Gei
old house, took quiet lodgings, and CON
menced giving lessons in music and draw
ing.
10 write now of time three years aft
my guardian left US. To those years v
~ had done well. My scholars had increase
~ so as to support US comfortably; mar
ne people had been kind to us, foremost amor
81 them Mr.. Raymond. If often and ofte
my heart sank as thought of him who W,
60 away. tried to be as he would have wisI
Il I'd % havana