The star of the north. [volume] (Bloomsburg, Pa.) 1849-1866, 1861-03-20
A Leaf From the Journal of Agatha Holmes.
BY WILLIE wARE.

bf WILLIE nAhh.
If ever woman loved man, loved Clar-
ence 81. Mar.
As sat, one bRlmy evening" thinking Of
the many times we had danced, rode and
snng together, my mind wandered. 10 the
distant and uncertain future. imagined
my self The wife OF Clarence, surrounded by
sunlight of his smiles il was pleasant TO
'dream thus, for loved Clarence, and be-
lieved from my heart thai | would become
his wife
While sat there dreaming, heard foot
steps approaching, and moment more,
and | was III the arms of Clarence, his heart
beating close lc my own, his breath upon
my cheek, his eyes gazing down into the
depths of my own; and was happy, yes,
most happy for | knew he loved me; he
had oftea told me so, but had never spoken
OF marriage.
For hours we sat there, balhed in a soft
food of si!very moonlight many words of
endearment he breathed in my ear, and the
stars smiled upon Us as we SAT there in the
mystical shades of night. Al length, taking
my hand in his, be asked me TO be his
bride
"Clarence are you sure you love me
with the devotion of lovera is il not the
gentle milder love that brother gives to
sister ? Is i, not mistaken faucy which
prompts you to offer me your hand 2"
agatha can you doubt the sincerity OF
my love-ihe depth of my attachment for
you? Oh, darling be TO me through life,
loving, gentle companion; have you not
told me thousand umes that you loved
me ln
There was winning tenderness in his tone
Il know not what made me reply as did !;
perhaps it was 20 Try how far could go in
trlfling with his feelings; perhaps it was
in hopes OF hearing him plead and suppli-
cate; at all events, the motives were un-
holy. looked up into his handsome,
manly face, upon which the chastened
moonbeams fell, and replied:
Clarence, lhave always esteemed you
| highly--have loved you as a sister would a
dear broiher | have never asked my heart
if ii owned your image TO :he exclusion OF
all Others. | will alSays.love you as sis
| ter, be assured OF This, dear Clarence ;" and
! looked up, expecting nay, firmly believ-
ing that he would throw himself al my feet,
but imagine my surprise when be rose
| from his seat, and standing before me, said:
"Miss Holmes, you, have deceived me,
trified with my hottest feelings; farewell,
may you be happy and he was gone, gone
/ never 10 return. An, would that | could
have recalled the words had uttered bot
| alas it was too late had sent the man
loved from me, spurned his love when II
was dearer TO me than life itslf The ago
ny endured that night words eau never
express. Anxionsly watched for him day
af,er day but he returned not.
Three years passed away-tEree years
freighled with Joy aud sunshine 10 some,
bul 10 me, sorrow, remorse and anguish
During those three years, had not heard a
word from Clarence; but one day, as ! sal
reading, a servant entered the apartment
and handed me note il was from Car.
ence l-he was sick-dying-an wished
me to come to him | fastened to his sick
room but alas when arrived, he was in
the arms OF death Sadly returned 10 my
home Years have passed since then, and
am now an old maid +; silvery threads
streak the jeuy locks of my hair, grieG.marks
| are on my brow, ard am Fastening 10 thai
land where will meet Clarence, meet to
be with him forever
have written my bitter experience rc
night in the hope that ii may be lesson
to some young and giddy girl; therefore
grant his ieaf rom my journal may be The
means OF preventing shadows from falling
upon The life of some bright and happy
maiden