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violsut rupture, and determined 70 thrsw ~
ny engagement, rather than carry IL out In
conjunction with such man. There was no
avoiding the quarrel. Was | TO be tutorsd
day by day, and the wine bottle removed ost
Of my reach2 He dared TO tell me that when
| was COOL clear-nysclf, in short-there was
no man nv master in eur profession; but that
when had drank freely, was unmsnagcsbls
ss lunatie. A lie, u course; but unsorupulous
prosecutors are difficult to circumvent. Anne's
malice pursues me even here When WAS out
Yesterday, nay footsteps were aogged pertina-
;iously wherever went, and perhaps an &C.
eount Of my doings will precede me home; bot
II they do, defy them all to do their worst.
AsHESDELI, Ausust 8, 1889.
This old book turned up today, among some
traps that have lain by In London all the years
that have spent, first In Spain, and after ward
in Russia. What fools talk il Is; but suppess
1t was true at the time. I know I was In q
wretchsd condition while was in Mexico and
In the States, but have been sane enough and
sound enough ever since the illness l had at
Baltimore. Te prove how little hold on me nv
ancient horrors have retained, find myself At
Ashendell In the very season Of the year whom
Honor Livingston destroyed herself-tomorrow
10 tho anniversary Of her death. SO take my
snemy by tho throat, and crush him. These
iantastical maladies will not stand against a
determined will. At Moscow, at Chersou, At
Archangel, the tenth Of August has come and
gene unmarked. Honor failed Of her threat
everywhere except at Lisbon. I saw her there
twice, )ust eefore we sailed. saw ber when
We were on thst coast, where We 80 nearly es-
eaped wreck, rising and falling upon the waves,
saw her in London that day l appointed to
'ee Anne. But l know what It means, II means
that mast put myself IN umpieby's hands fos
Few weeks, and tnat the shadows will forth
with vanish. Shadows they are ont OF my sws
Drain, ana they take the shapeo OF Honor because
have let her become fixed idea In my mine
let II Is very strange that the last time sh
sppeHcd TO me heard her speak. 1 fancied
she said that II was almost time; and then load
tr III hasnt yos james, until you come 70
the Asheniah, where an gong now! And
with that shc vanished. rancy plays strange
tricks WITH us, ana makes eoWards OF Us almost
as cleveriy as conscience.
august io.
have had q very unpleasant impression on
ne all day. wish had resisted Linchleys
>ersuasioDs more steadily. l ought never TO
have come down here again. Tho excitement
Of its miserable recollections Is too much for
me. The man at tho inn called mo BY my
,ame this morning, and said he recollected me
Damn him All day l seem to have been act
mg against my will. What should possess me
to 20 there this afternocni Round about among
tho graves until came to tho grassy hillock
on the north side OF the church, where they bu.
ried Honor that night without prayer. ! sal
down on the low wall, shd locked across 70 the
hills beyond the river listening TO the monoto
nous sing song oil tho fail. would give all
possess to-day, to he able TO tread back erto -
tread score OF the years OF my iife; IL seems
mch q plank; OF all planned ana scnemed, now
htie nave accompisneo. watchinG Dy lion.
Es grave, fell to thinking OF her. What bad
lither OF US done that we should be so wretchsdf
Is 1t part and parcel OF the great injustice Of
hfe that some must suffer 30 signaily whiis
others eseapep The coarse grass Is never cut
at the north side OF tho church, nettles and
branbles grow about tho grave. Honor wn
mad, poor soul; they might have given her
prayer for rest II they were forbidden to believe
'he died In hope. prayed for her today.
more need, perhaps, TO pray Ter myselt-and
hen there came a cra.ed whiri In my brain, and
set OF to find Linchley. As ! camo down
near the water, the fall sounded very tumultu.
'us; 1t was sultry hot, and should have Liked
10 tSrn down by tho river, but l said, mo,
V the tenth Of August. II l am to meet Homo
Livingston to-day, III not meet her by Asian
hat I;ncblev had gone over In warts ana hsS
loft a MESSAGE that he should not return uptl
tomorrow. have tho nirht before u,e alons.
I, 4; a. ,;l. a.. r. ,,ii.h n;s,L, a. .iI, 4, 4. I;I
~ 10 ~. ~ " Ss, -
me nisn'S l rehehiser ~ CauiI, WnGh nwsy
hcralded tremendous storm. Ana think "
Tbo.a we're the last words ,James Iavrencs
- 80 s,.n,ia,na, Enr,bar ,h.n ,h;. ~
oNo' 49,, - 4. - -
mah can SPEAK oi MS ueatn; hb pam 70 mo
that one oil his mad hts was coming on before
loft Lisbon: that 1t grew and increased until hs
.ano saa sa ne i,, t 80 a d.. d.a,t hsI;s - ~
Anu ureeu nm, W us uee.i. pche,o ~ u.s
ghosts james Lawrence saw, as peiieve In N
power OF any great misdeed that has
iriyen fellow creature into deadly sin.
When David Polreath had finished, the chair.