The Hillsborough recorder. [volume] (Hillsborough, N.C.) 1820-1879, 1861-08-14

Ing over Just such things without notice, ana
they did not seem to lose anything by it.
Every one liked them, favored them in bu-
siness, and spoke kindly and respectfully Of
them. But attributed their way to obtuse-
ness Of perception. and believed that they
were SO constituted as not to feel the annoy
ance that stung me so keenly.
And so it went on for years. In every
business transaction Of any extent my in
| fiexibiity was a source Of constant animosi-
\ ty on the part OF some one interested. and
Of trouble to myself. II taught school, as
according to the custom OF this country,
did while studying law, the whole two years
was one prolonged fight between me and my
pupils. The slightest infraction. OF good or
der was an offence, and on principle must
be punished. | did not reflect that many
offences are the result Of thuughtlessness or
impulse, and must not be treated as deliber.
ate badness. Their occurrence may be
checked without punishment. was deter
mined, however, TO suppress all disorder by
the strong hand, and would make no com
promise with the leyity Of childhood. The
consequence was spirit of resistance and
revolt far more turbulent and dlsorderiy
than the original levity.
/ would differ with a man as to the settle
ment Of business. III he insisted on his
views, could not but believe that il was in
bad faith. made no allowance for the
binding influence of anger, eupdily, or
any other passion. He differed with me il
il was enough; he must be rascal, and |
generally gave him to understand that !
thought so.
As you may imagine, the number uf my
enemies steadily increased. had. indeed
many warm friends, for apart from my un-
compromising spirit when opposed would
make any concession, if people would onl'
take lower tone than thar Of open contest.
But men will not submit to such terms for
ever, and by degrees found the number oil
those ranged against me getting greater and
greater.
One morning was sitting alone in my
! office. plunged in a rather bitter train ol
thought. Nv friends we're leaving me, ms
social relations were becoming very disa-
greeable, and what brought the subject {,
! my attention still more forcibly was that m,
business was suffering materially from thi
state Of things. Was il my faults ha,
! done no wrong that | knew Of. coul,
+ see that my course was rendering me un
4 popular, but was man to finch from as
( asserting what he knew to be his rights iron
r such a motive as thats How far would
4 go. Where would it end, this Welding I
the whims Of others, for the sake Of c0ncil
ating their favor: became indignant. an
:. springing from my chair, paced the roor
in a spirit Of bitter determination to pla
;. the game through at all hazards aud what
: ever the consequences might be be.
Court was in session. took my hat an
|. rushed over to the courthouse. | entere
. with kind Of independent desperation
!. and in so doing happened to make a litl
,e unnecessary noise with the chairs.
d " Mr.. Clerk, put down fine Of five do
I lars against Mr. Watson" exclaimed Ii
n Judge in a tone OF severity. lie was
IN harsh, stern man. very disagreeable 10 Il
re bar in general, and especially pointed in Il
,e usual hostility TO myself
of Nav ask said |, if your Honor
of order referred TO me: Z"
4 Yes, sir. have but this moment fiji
r. ishcd warning to all persons pn the impr,
N per disorder which i habitual here, aud "a
:, drown the very echo Of my words with yol
a. noise
ID Il was not present when your Hon
4. spoke"
4. !. II makes no difference. SIR. Yoa knn
the rule, and am determined 10 enforce
" rigidly. | cannot repeat my expo.tulaiie
he to every separate citizen Of this county"
A "Oh'! I'd rather pay the f,e dollars Ih
y. to have heard the lecture replied.
III Twenty-Five dollars more, Mr. Clerk
4 shouted the Judge, his eyes fairly BLAIR
a with personal animosiiy TO msscli. Th, j
ne blood mounted TO ms head with that sudd
bound which upset reason for the moment
,w 81 will not pay il" exclaimed. s'riki
n the table violently with nv clenchcd h,n,
take the man to Jail. Mr. Sheriff,
10 cnntumacy and continued contempt eoaf
at said the judge, pointing his long -hony 10
finger at me.
ly. The shades Of evening were gradHa
ae darkcning objects around me, as sat III
lly prison roDm, III the very same position il
a. which had sunk when the KEY turned
,r me in the morning. will not undertake
describe 10 you the perfect chaos Of fceli
on that had IN the meantime reigned within q
he The stupOr a. Of one Just stunned BIZ -
great catastrophe which he hardly yet co
we prehends--shame that had At last come
in. this ass-self-condemnatio for having
lie weakly given an enemy the advantage OF
m. rage, with its thousand frantic schemes
bitter revenge, by turns had possession
n. all INV faculties. Nv friends callcd-nn !
/ mission. Nv servants brought dinner
, admission. The iailor fumblcd al the d'
lch as though intending to come in aud ia'
the me with unwrlcome condolencc-no adm
ou. sion. Hour after hour passed. AZ len
Al. passion grew somewhat weary from its !
ne. ience. and reason began to lift it. head
nut gain above the troubled water. And n,
ed. AZ I SAT there, the darkness Of night Gre
pn. inr over me, a calm interior light seemed
ds. dawn. aud strange thoughts tonk possess
,me II my mind. Ihad been wrenged, but
Al / not often unintentOnalIy wrongrd otl
al. IN the same way; The Judge had fined
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