The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1860-08-13

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not be exercised whether God INTENDED II should be
ssreesoswno could contemplate picture nos = N On
all delights requirements Of nature and not SUBJECTS
of deep concern. In Mr. Taylor found such . He
but with him 1t not matter which cost him ques.
tioning. He knew it all without thousht, and
without educ on Is they call it, he lived In the ntui.
In the Interchange OF kindred thoughts sbou, these
we rsra cay py 1sS Ss Ri.
sence, which took back TO the Of my ancestral
PRIDE necessity Of my life, and at last, felt myself
The night that followed this discovery, when knelt
by my bedside his image stood between and the
far OF height on which my subjected brain had placed
And when saw him there, struggled. Is ad been
stood q. once in the way Of my human vow. and in the
uery OF the stern, methodca God Of their edu
cation.
Yes dear L sss, loved him almost before knew It.
and he felt moreover, loved me, though not word
spoken between II not his TO speak, and would
concealed from my very Utmost self the fact Of this
love-
Of superiority. where none existed became At last an
impossibty. We loved aud the expression OF II fore
could longer be controlled By either and so IL
came Hrst from my lips He wac riding beside me- and
hsaveos: God has given mo TOO great joy. Then he
soo loved you rsosS.s W "S dss
tiny otheshsn this know not WHY only know loved
Dear Es4@ he was 20 beautiful, noble thsn the
expression Of that love long concealed The earth
whed around mo- and his arm caught me falling uncon
eciously. When came 70 myself was resting on his
BOSOM conhdsnt Of it, strength Of breastpAte Of ron
though l saw his eyes dim with tears.
the very stones beneath feet The waysde lowers
had odof 700 exquisite 10 the The air and sky
happy this have in
me, had been content-faithful TO my duty, as had
been taught-to have lived ever So But my heart was
craving constantly the repetition OF that mo men
could not be satisfied but in his presence. Hitherto pa
tient only under sense OF wrong now began to be
agitated BY passion in which every feeling oil my lie
II rs not necessary TO recount all the conflicts which II
brought me- 70 the way in which my poblsr
nature gradually before the threatened penalty OF
social destruction; Il 10 enough 10 say that was borne
vsed 70 sat the law for the last time because had
not vet TO that point at which woman driven to
the very of death by the pressure OF false
how 10 shape her course, should tho remaining
wreck Of her life be dashed TO destruction.
| PROGRESS LAsoS.
Ihave brought you to me, said, because can see you
no longer-I am dying
My God, it seemed TO me then as IL my heart would
break-as II should go mad.
| moan Of agony came to his lips.
He looked up me; the intelligence of his was
gone; his eyes dim; the despair that was in me
| changed his face TO stone.
looked on him immovably; could say To him.-we
must part could repeat again the phrases Of
social c-There can be no honorable recognition of
ove-is open avowal will bring disgrace to my husband
And how did he reply to me- Shall confess, even
there. in that hour Of my strength utter weakness9
l Ionsed for pleading word One look Of tenderness,
and shond have fallen at his feet ruined being but
ruined in the acknowledgment and utter abandon Of my
love.
himself and to me- and when he ceased speaking was
again strong My head, my heart, every instinct Of my
He had saved me He, q knew him in that hour,
was my strength through him conquered myself
the OF ae
stands steadfLs himself and to her 10 the bitter end
He said Even in this hour when every hope and Joy Of
life have sunk away into eternal despair beneath your
words, can be true to my Of right believe life
requires sacrdce believe self sacrifice wrongs not
only her who bndy in It's belief right accepts but
those the more for whom accepted. II, with your
OF duty you were TO sever the relation which binds
you TO them could bring you no happiness, It's ssye
your happiness is mine There rule duty n lfe
but the Of happiness; Nine cam alone Be
We must part, then, forever
The utter despair Of these words never leave my
There were many things he said in this last interview
which recall but matters not should be repeat
He spoke Of the fase relation which he had gradually
been led 10 and into the continuance Of which
passion had held him day by day.
knew WELL he said, It should long ago have been ter
minated, but knew not then, now, the controlling
power that has KEEP, me by you until this hour ossev
main forever unconscious OF my love. Aud so lived till
this i'm possible And then my life became eer
nal delay OF hope enduring all TO this last measure OF
despair II coulf not be otherwise. believed from day
10 day that you would clearlv, saw the right,
and II might at last end. II is over nov Ny life is
Ny lot is hopeless, endless misery accept for
your sake-for the memory OF our love.
Then my fe very SOUL mot his In one long kiss Of
agony and we parted as believed, forever.
its triumph.
when my husband reached home was strong 10 do the
last duty which my position imposed upon me. | knew
well that cost what II would this must also be done
IL \
TO him and told him OF love- Of resolution and OF
separation Much passed between at this horrible
words william OF the rest, and OF what followed
have no clear remembrance
DECISION.
After a long struggle las she says), Mrs. Quincy
solved to separate herself from her husband, TO which
step she alludes follows
Ny soul was clear from hypocrisy-there was not any
lie upon it bad confessed all. Ny very life
laid oper 10 my hearts core. Ny love gone well
by bis will az my eSn, forever
What bad Accomplished had preserved the chaste
OF WIFE had preserved the honor OF my husband
and the reputation Of his children Aud to do u, was
beneath bis roof and about to submit myself to his
embraces without love.
For these considerations Of honor and reputation
about to lead voluntary life OF prostitution dssing
ed from only by the social fiction OF NAME and felt
myself degraded for all this honorable hire than she
who accepts her paltry dole in the streets.
was moreover about 10 fulfil functions from which
every fibre OF my body shrunk with adherence. was
there TO give life TO offspring crested in my own dsgra.
datiop, In violation of my will aud nature, the ede,e
offspring OF blood kin, children 10 die feebly before
their time, perhaps 10 into the world they,
their children, deformed dumb. blind, mbe ae
I, who perfect myself, and formed aud
transmit the sacred Of life. 70 become
voluntarily To sar,de OF the perfect conceptions
which should be mine
Better n the agony OF that thought ssd better death
than this-beter self immclaon Of body and soul; IL
far less q crime.
And then, shuddering with horror upon the brink to
which duty had led me, duplicated cow impIorngIy
for light as asked myself the great questohOoes any
law OF God sanction shall any law OF have the power
10 continue the bond OF marriage where exists
And answered IL, my children II they inherit auyht
Of nature shall at last approve, the world shau at
last To understand.
Thus once and forever severed from all former
relations and left alone In the world.
write these last words quietly, here NJ my writing
desk; bat that nqnison OF my brain, IL terrible
more terrible than the death hal accepted in part
ing from him.
But my decision made, ana vas calm then.
knew IN that moment the OF fear fdl struggle OF
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