Clearfield Republican. [volume] (Clearfield, Pa.) 1851-1937, 1860-11-07

and OF your persuasions, one who thought
little and cared less about the religion
had been taught to reverence, and which
! thought once that possessed But vet,
after all, | cannot see that it was such a
terrible sin, do not see Why should be
thus afflicted"
"And yet the world envies YOU. Nav
it not be, dear, TO call you back to the
Master you have left, and TO make YOU
like Him in his forgiving gentleness, in his
patience under trial I"
THAT shall never learn. How can |
be patient and gentle? Hero this morn.
ing Mr.. Wharton comes to nv room he.
lore have had my breakfast tells me he
had delayed going down town an hour Ia
ter than usual to speak to me; that he
thinks 1t would do me good to have the
children with me little to day; that he
thinks Lucille unfaithful; and suggests
that Tomorrow ride out with you to max e
some purchases for them. To be sure, |
know that their winter wardrobe ought to
be attended TO, but the idea of
having those three childr en- even half
hour In the room with me sets me wild !;
the reality would nearly kill me-"
II think not goodshumored noise,
your own children's too, would hardly
produce so alarming results. Indeed,
think that Edward is right you need
something to stir you from this lethargy.
am sure he means it kindly for YOU, as
well rs TOR the children. They ought not
to be left too much with Lucille. You
know | am no friend to French nurses,
but l dislike and distrust this one as mach
as your husband does"
" Bu, he has such a disagreeable way of
saying these things +: my spirit always re-
bells. Lucille was highly recommended
and always seemed to behave well enough.
and don't see why am TO give her up
to humor the dislike of my husband mere.
ly: not that care so much for her either,
but | will not be dictated to in this cold
way"
Z" Because it il is too hard upon your
pride. y Carrie, when will you lay this
proud spirit down at the foot of the cross
You have not learned that there is a spir-
1t OF greatness, in the noLleness in the
virtues of patience and submission; the
highest, truest greatness, because in .he
exercise of these we are more like our Di
vine EXemplar. Is il less ennobling TO
perform all the duties of your lot with
cheerful patience than to lie here and
fret against them. leaving all undone
A life of self.will is but life of sin, and
therefore must be life of misery. You
admire patient, gentle spirit in others :;
Sou admire one who exhibits great DOW.
ers of endurance, who triumphs over the
petty, but constantly recurring obstacles
in her way, bringing out Of the deep, cool
well OF her heart, sweetness to life for
herself and others disarming unkind>
ness by her patient love, her gentle for.
bearance."
This is fancy picture, Mar; can.
not make it real. "
Have you then not discovered whose
fair image was in my mind? Was it not
like our mother"
"Yes, indeed, like her dear blessed
mother. But my trials are so different.-
Hers were open to the eyes of the world;
sne was called upon to endure. But me
every one thinks that must he perfectly
happy, and yet know none more wretch
ed than myself. You cannot Judge, your
life has been 50 happy your husband
we'll nigh worships you; lie always gives
you your own way. To be sure, you new
er take it as would lut it only proves
as said, that you canu 1t understand my
trials, having had SO much happiness. "
and yet, Carrie dear, there was time
once, when you said, that rather than
submit 10 my daily annoyances, YOU
would run away and leave husband and
children.
40 i remember that was when Georges
mother and sisters lived with you. But
the old lady ALMOST adored YOU before she
died, and the sisters ditto, for they SEEM
ed 10 take you for a pattern in their own
families,
"And should / thus have won their
love if had returned anger for their sus-
picion, recrimination for their fault find
ing! 1t is hard,to be patient when the
blood is stirred but surely it is better,
than by strife TO keep up unholy feelings
that gentleness might conquer. The in
huence which people are least able to re.
sist is gentle, forbearing temper. | am
satisfied that we win more victories in
life by what we forbear to do, than by what
we do.
"Still | say that think you would
find yourself at loss what to do in my
position. Such trials as mine are harder to
bear
e But the same rules may fit, dear"
"IIow?"
MAY | speak very plainly?"
Say all that is in your heart"
"Well, then, begin by looking your
troubles in the face set them in array,
count them, and estimate your capabili-
ties for overcoming them."
:" But cannot endure. {"
linen overcome.
That is impossible. /" s. r.- &
Let US see. You have a husband
whom you have once loved dcvotedly 3
Thought. -
"Well, thought you loved the same
reality or delusion, as you will, existed
in his mind toward you. Ten years .expe-
rience has shows you both, many incom-
patibilities of temper which you have
never dreamed of. You are both proud,
both unyieldinS. He thinks it is your du-
ty to conform TO his views: you will not
submit to oe controlled. He is wrapped
up IN his chillranl apI ,,tsk.s ,,a,, 20 a s.