Spirit of the age. [volume] (Raleigh, N.C.) 1849-1865, 1860-02-29

ming shore. SUSIE
For the Spirit of the Age.
A Few Leaves from the Journal of al
Belle BY AIRIEcnArsKA,
BATRoosT HOUSE, Monday, Z O'Clock, p. II.
Sat reading in the parlor; door bell rang; !
ushered in my old playmate and friend, Harry
Lorton; he was accompanied by an interest
ing stranger, whom he introduced as Edwin
Merton. We chatted for some time on indif-I
ferent subjects until we finally lit upon that
Of love; uuon this the stranger grew very
eloquent; he related a great many anecdotes
and spoke of his own experience said it was
a very sad thing to be in love, unless one
knew they were loved in return he spoke
touchingly and beautifully about withered
hearts and blasted hopes, and expressed bis
belief Of dying an old Bachelor, and grew sad
over the horrors Of a lonely life. (Quere-A :
Worder if he really felt what be said y Thus
we continued in conversation until 10 o'clock,
when they took leave.
l noticed that Harry Lorton was very de-
Jected and morose kept unusually silent and
sometimes looked strangely sad. (Quere I'd
Wonder what was the cause ofitD
TUESDAY, 10 e'cloek r. ~
Roland Danvifie has just Departed. My
brow is 6asnsa2 nd 5R1hing, my beart wild
fEHhuls eously a%sve kEer wave II feeling
sweeps over my proud, hayward heart. It
is ~lovc-deep, wild, boundless I0v~e-agitating
my bosom. Yes 4, even I, who six months
ago vowed never to love, never to yield up
my proud heart to any man, am now as
madly in love as it is possible for a girl of
eighteen to be. But who can wonder at it
Who could help loving Roland? He is
grandly handsome; and that is not half, he
is noble; noble in form and perfect in fea.
ture and more than all, noble, and great,
and good in nature. Roland loves me! His
heart, with all its greatness, goodness and no.
bleness, he gives to me! Wholly, purely,
mine own! He places his destiny in my
hands. / can make him happy or miserable,
as / choose! Oh, Roland beloved Roland
if my love will make you happy, you shall
have it all. am yours yours alone; my
heart is undoubtedly your own. Roland, love
me forever. cannot live without your love
to sustain me.
Such were my thoughts after Roland lief
me. l do love him; fondly, truly, almos
madly. But | did not tell him so. No, in
deed | have boosted so much of the insus
ceptibility of my heart in his presence, tina
| will not tell him how | love. [ told hin
that he was not Indifferent to me, and-wil
you believe it I allowed him to place a rim
on my finger; an engagement ring, it is toe
Two months ago he put it there. Yes, l ar
engaged to Roland | know he loves m
dearly, devotedly, faithfully. 1 respect an
esteem; nay, more I lo0e ham, and yet, pc
haps | shall never be his wife.
WEDNESDAY NIGHT.
Edwin Merton called in this evening. Z
came alone and remained till ten o'clock
When | asked him of Harry Lorton, /
laughingly replied that he Harry was qui
crest-fallen, but had said that he would n
complain, as he had furnished the stick wit
which his own head was broken. | did n
understand.
FRIDAY NIGHT.
Edwin came again his evening. He W
not very conversational almost painfully
lent. lie seemed very much irritated at t
presence of Mrs. Mounfront. | guessed WI
was to pay, Edwin. is in leSs! fos; tr lUy
md (O6S.-If gentlemen do not wish [
ladies to know when they are in love, I'll
should wear leather goggles to conceal tn
t~ell-tale eyes)
MONDAY NIGHT
: Edwin Merton again; the poor fellow is
: trally in love; he told me so; he says
loved me at FIRST sight, and pressed me
give him hope that his love was or wo
be reciprocated. i thought of Roland {
sighed. Hove Roland; l pity Edwin. | t
. him that | would give him an answer at
= other time. He complained Of the bittern
~ | IF cncpanca . t0nE nv cnnowhat poc:cf
, hand into his own ard pressed it to his Ii
a In the midst of the love declaration, Roll
Danville was announced, and Of course
affair, for the time being, was broken uF
u Edwin was the first to leave. Roland raj
me considerably about young Merton:
will wager a dozen Of French gloves" he S
4, that Merton makes love to you" "Got
" replied, striving to appear unconcerneC
ot lie looked at me intently for a momen
n smiled lightly; he turned the conversation
a on other subjects, and Edwin Merton was
:, parently forgotten.
WEDNESDAY EvENIN
Edwin here again he came for an ans
We | gave it truly. ] told him | respected
sh esteemed him highly, but l could not, d
n not love him His cheek paled at this,
he asked in faltering accents the reason
| could not love him. l told him that
long before | had seen him, | had giver
for heart and pledged my hand to another. |
all or saw a countenance so CHASTITY as WI
u when he received this intelligence. rs
oH no h0pe?" he cried. Gan you not civ
the some hope, however slight, to live on
m Perhaps" | replied, II should never 4
90 the gentleman to whom | was betroth'
that l was contemplating the prospe,
leaving this country for Europe. /
remain there and if / did not marry hi
D. fore | left Roland | MEANT certainly
would for | would not give him any eI
agement to follow me. In fact [ would
moss him know that it would be entirely u
blue for him to do So" 'Then," said I
dian may not follow you? VIII YOU no
nv me an opportunity 81 swimming your 10,
!, an of proving mine? will follow you
ding worlds end-only say yes" And /,
yon could l do? What could l say? bl
the sighed and smiled alternately. If"
the II do not marry the gentleman to W
e to am betrothed, and you continue to
and my estimation-yesl" Oh! how de-
the he seemed even at this he kissed m,
plant passlonateiy his cheeks flushed, n
rth," sparkled (oeautliul eyes he has) mol
1t he ever jest then Roland was announc'
GER" Edwin was again forced to retreat
that Roland nao been seated outa few III
from when the sound of carriage wheels was
a it drove up to the door, and some one
me ed, and who should be ushered in b,
cntu- rice Kelly. There was a procession
ms to /. O. o. F., to-day, and a grand ball
d the the -- Hall tonight, and Maui
driven down to accompany me thith