Litchfield enquirer., 1860-03-22

5AuaSS CdrTy--What or her! and l told my friend decidedly I would not go to anl
 more parties, they unsettle the mind, I shal mot be myself again. for aweek.p !" All tho
 better" was his consoling9 reply, ,5tswe shal
 make e a new man of you, Mnggins; cheer
 fnl. social fellow, instead of a misanthropist.''
 Thus ended the discussion, 1 My youthful days had not. been without their boyish eancies. A coy glance from some merry maiden, or stolen kiss from her rosy cheek, was enough to repay all my gallantry. 6 But with departing youth, van- ishedlm dreams of angels. Gagged in law lyer's office, busted in the dusty love of the Ipost and striving for that celebrity, which won, would cause the world to thrill at the very mention of JosAua Muggins, I saw la dies but seldom and then, as gay butterflies whose joys were, sa }o aaa +, laai aaa e9t "---- placed in trihes, fashions, follies, toys
 Few thoughts were devoted to them, save, how best to avoid .heln. Nor in doing this this did Iaseek my own sex, for purposes of reVelry: rB Books were my meat and drink, my profession my idol, in the worship of which llt l was spurred on, by lnsatiate ambi- ton Mankind strange medley, and with asuspIcious eye, I kept aloof But I was not to pursue my way unperplexed. A skiilll hand was playing against nc. We battied long, until my ranks grew thin, at
 last l was checkmated Health failed, the cough which had so steadily, bafled every aappeaslag remedy, racked my poor frame fearfully. As a last resort l put to sea, with little hope of recovery. Of that yoy- age l remember scarcely anything save the understandable agony of sea-sio kness and the wish thatl might go, overboard and end a life so fraught with disappointment and wretchedness. At last l landed beneath sunny skies, and breathed the genial atmos- phere Of the tropics. One years absence so restored health, that began to think of return to home and business, Home! did say? had none Left in infancy without a mother, in early boyhood fatherless,, and heir to a comfortable estate, home influence and happiness went to all alike unknown.
 Reason came to my rescue, I was fast nearing middle life. Fame if acquired could give no lasting satisfaction, besides there were none to rejoice with mo. Thus solilo- qulzng hlecided to remain another and yet another year. until older by five years, with ambition curbed, and heart as free from human loVeor sympathy, as4tAe breast of a marble statue, sought by circuitous route my native city. There again and en- seonced in my bachelor lodgings, you found me, reader, and it was there sat one even. ing months after the memorable party, pre- viously alluded to- I had struck the old attitude externally, but within was a new state of affairs. Without were temptations, yes, even as the Scripture hath it, fight tugs, and within were fears" Despite my supposed inability to bs interested in those around me and my power to resist the fasci- nations of mere humanity, I was conquered. MInging with mankind, convinced me | was but one of thcm.r A feeling of Kindness usurped the place of cold selfishncss so lonp a ruling element in my character. Deep ii, my heart, yes even my heart, once better adapted to the sculptor's chiseI, than the shafts of the willy archer, was. pictured a face, young and lovely, refecting the gentle ness and strength, of fine womans' nature. To this picture my ~thoughts were directed, revolving the possibilities and the much stronger probabilities that suit from me would meet decided refusal This thought staggered me, but already the old man was so thoroughly. regenerated, that I bade the lll-omened visions begone.
 ~, ' ou must not become inpertineut, reader, there are some things of too fine nature to 'blazon before every curious eye. Adieu for Q few years, then shall welcome call from you once more. l. haa sf '.aliI a4 :. es i. s ..s'gi*5 aei * eg*i sa*5 5o sv* 5qg* satt
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