The home journal. (Winchester, Tenn.) 1858-188?, 1860-04-12

it would kill mo to hear them. Oh!I|
never thought this would happen, after
all | have said; all have felt for you.
Richard, you revealed some horrible
things to me. Oh! were you so wicked
in that foreign country Did you love
and deceive that poor Spanish girl =?
0, God help you, poor Richard! God
help you ifyou did
q sat stnpidcd; pale with horror. She
looked once in my face, and shuddercd
as sho said brokenly:
Il could forgive all but that
Il felt like u condemned criminal.
For while sat there struggling for
voice, and then ! told her that, how
ever wicked had been, | had never do
ccived woman.
'Oh, lam so glad.' she said, sinking
from my arm to the pillow of the
lounge. But Richard how can I forget
last night? Don't got down TO me in
that way. | know now; l knew then
you We're not yourself; and for that rea-
son, because you will not conquer that
fatal habit, we must part Don't say
another word, my dear; weak and yield
ing as | seem, can be firm, Rcmom-
Der that your own hand has thrown
the cup from your lips. l havo tried
to believe her voice grew broken and
sobbing; Il have tried so hard to be-
licvc that you were everything good
and worthy. You don't know how l
have idolized you, looking on you as
the saviour ofmy life. That is what
have said so often when they reason
ed with me; Father he saved the life of
your child. !IIow can help loving him?'
o yes, they know it, everybody knew
how loved you, lncver took pains
TO conccalit; but now, now / must
Il walked that floor in anguish of
body and spirit. Then went to her
and said
annette, you love that canting
George llcrricll better than you do me.
Don't dissemblc; | know it all know
what he thinks of you, the hypocritc !!
Il had lashed mysclfinto flrcy that
was not, TO be calmcd by her gentle rep
etton of my name; her pleading looks
yes, it must be so. If you loved me,
you would overlook what happened
when was not myself Little things
like that would not cause you to dis
miss me.
Little things" sho repeated, with
rcproachiul look Richard, if you knew
what you said last night, how you in
suited me, you would never look me in
the tacea gain
Farewell then, forever Ia almost
howlcd and seized my hat to go knew
not whore
Richard, just one word more
III death had been the penalty, l
could not have resisted that plaintive
appeal.
, 'Sho held forth her arms, pulled inc
, down again beside her, and sobbcd up
on my neck as if her heart would burst.
Again and again she essayed to speak,
and again fresh tears and choking sobs
, followed. | was almost dying with
shame, and the no, tears pressed to my
burning cycballs, but bit my lips and
, kept them back. My whole frame was
shaken, but not alono with anguish.
f There was scene held up before my
soul black, disgraccful scene.
I 'Only to say, dear Dick she gaspod
@ forth at last, that i'll live, shall never
), never marry anybody else; and if any
!. time know that you have thoroughly
. reformed, oh. then fyou will take me
G and love me still, will be yours, your.
# through all time, through all eternity.
4 Il kissed her many times, and dcspe
c rate, maddcncd, hating myself and
cursing mankind L lett her, for what?'
His manners startled me, his voice was
@ hoarsc and fierce.
$ TO come to be beggar and pau
$ per, at the age Of twenty-nine, thro
/, love of rumv
Another moment, and | was alone. A
= fearful page in the book Of mans histo
. ry had been untolded to me. shud
dcrcd rs left the arbor. Ic who talk,
, ed with mc was nowhere to be seen.
y
I Three years after that, was travel
in stage coach, when an accident hap,
!, pcncd OF Il somewhat serious nature
n The coachman was dragged from his
5 scat and tramplcd upon by the horses
t till his body was in a shocking condi
ton. He was carried to the neares
house. | was somewhat injured, am
t not thinking it advisableto to- 60 on, ar
piled for shelter at a pretty cottag
' pointed out to me. The doorwas open
!, cd by the same young man who ha'
;, told me the dismal story in the N
}, poor-house. AT first sight we recog
3 nizcd each other. He led me in saying
!, joyfully:-
! Il have conquered.
foroot NV nain in the Joy of hear