Spirit of the age. [volume] (Raleigh, N.C.) 1849-1865, 1860-03-07
For the Spirit of the Age.
A Few Leaves from the. Journal Of a
BeIIe.-BY AI~RIEcHAUsKA.
(coNT1NUED.)
TUESDAY NIGHT. J past 10 O'Clock.

(coNT1NUED.)
TUESDAY NIGHT J past 10 O'Clock.
Edwin Merton called; appeared very cheer
conversation very interesting, mecca ne
speaks eIoquently upon every subject. like
Edwin Merton very much he has seen a
great deal of the world, one would Juage IRON .
bis manner of conversing. tie alluded, with
great delicacy, to the tender passion Wnlcn
he said was consuming his heart; ne caught
NV hand within his own and ere [ could with
draw it, or show my dipleasure, he had press
ed it to his lips and passionately exclaimed,
II wander if shall ever, ever claim this as
mine !? He spoke and looked so earnestly!
I did not answer. | felt the hot blood rush
to nv very temples. just then some one
stepped up ON the porch the ringing when
ensued assured me there was a visitor.
arose from my chair and met-Roland Dan
vile. What can he mean? Ifelt really fret
ted. an almost fit to think that ne comes
on purpose. lust when he knows Edwin is
here. It diSpleases me very much. Poor
Edwin was again forced to retreat; he did
not leave as early as he did before, TOR this
time he remained till 10 o'clock.
1t was very late when Roland LETT lie
apologised for keeping me up SO long SAD
he would hotxhave done so had not young
Merton been IN the way. To this replied,
{inaudibly to him and almost inaudibly to
myself, for / W as fretted, tired and sleepy
IF Roland persists in acting so foolishly, !
| shall give him al few gentle hints on the sub
ject. If | was a great lord of creation, | would
not make a fool of myself, just because hap
pened to be a little in love. | would just let
the ladies see that | had more claims to being
a mar than that of wearing a hat. | would
convince them that was a man in spirit, and
an independent one at that. Talk about wo-
mans weakness I why, twenty men are Wea-
ker than one woman, to take them on the
weak side. The res no end to the weak, silly
and positively foolish things that men will do
when they are in love. just take one man
for instance, a big stout fellow, six feet out O
his boots, a ste el-sinewed, iron-nerved Her
cules, who has plunged recklessly heels over
: head into the now fair and calm, now darl
and stormy sea of Life of the Heart, Tin love
I mean) and I will wager a pair of gloves tina
that man is as h helpless as a baby six weeks
old. TO5s.-LoVe is the strongest of a.
things, and vet the strength thereof lies il
its weakness:l
Dec. 18Th, 49,.
/ Mrs. Lans ing called around this morning
I There was a concert last night Roland di
t not ask me to- 60, although | declined seVers
invitations that j might be free to accept hi
5 when it came, put it came not. Mrs. Lar
sing attended the concert said that Rolan
: came in with Della Harrington. Very mic
of Roland; he. dined there Friday !; | see ho'
: it is; he is zeal Gus of Edwin Merton an
: thinks to force mse into terms by flirting wit
Della. Very god,d! if he can be more after
J tive to her, or play the game of flirting NOR
= skilfully than I, [ will give him credit for b.
ing an extraordi nary man. I wonder if h
q really cares ANYTHING for her? Roland, con,
I give YOU up You have never, never see
the depth of love / have for you; you ha'
9 never suspe cted the earnestness, the sinceri
of that love. Yet, if | thought he had til
slightest pr, sfere nee for her, | would instan
ly withdraw. fshe should have the field
to herself, vVitho at a vestige of a rival for N
Why should he love her? Why should
not? She is certainly beautiful she has
queenly form an d the brow Of the lily b
her beauty is !. e n ntiEg 1y,r pghhggSSlfSas3F rt there |; Size Is
u like O besuItiful statue, to behold at a d
lance, but appro zach, and the charm vanish'
Not that she bt eomes less beautiful, but S
has no charm of manner to detain you;
powers of conv ersation to enthral you.
en- to ~intellec tual endowments, she is CONNIE
place in the extreme. She is doubtless
OF good enough girl, for all that | would l
detracta mite fl 'om her real value. No dol
she will, in her way, make a very good wi
10, She unde rstand S house keeping, and emb1
ais derry, and all tn at but when it comes to
finer feeli ngs Of our nature, the lofty SCI
ments anti poe try of our hearts-the
: knows no more about it than a cat does
VA moral science. She may plead not gull
'ly to any such charge, for her mind never ri
ID above the pudding pan. / wonder if Rola
ever thought eriously of loving her?
:, ought not to firt with her, for she is sim
TN enough to take his attentions seriously.
he thinks to n lake me jealous, he is vas
mistaken ; I can tell him he is very far fr
the mark indeed l thought he knew
better; if he do es not, l will give him an
sight into my cl ~laracter. I will let the 2
We tleman see what sort of a person he is deal
len with, in double quick time.
TUESDAY EVENING, De-
Dressed in my handsomest and went dc
ss town. Saw Rola nd standing on the gor
md of e street. l did not look at him, so
not know how ne Looked bad enough, IS
pose. Didmy sho piping and then went ro'
on: to Hartford's pictu re gallery. Hartford
oh. literary man, as W ell as an artist of dist
ton he is also Sc ,mething of a critic,
diff. had kindly promise d to pick to pieces 81
as of my best productit ons. He was not so v
unmerciful, howeve r, but actually prai
some of my articles as did Mrs. Hartfi
sed who was present | forgot to mention
Clara Bright was will me; she is such a
as lent little scrap of mt ,rtality that | forget
we is along half Of the lime. There were
strangers present, for eigners they were, ,
his ~scrutinized me very closely. (Wonder W
they thought of me p l was so pleasal
hat engaged that l took no note of time and
on not get home till tea W. IS ready.
FRIDAY Men
nc Roland has explained ali to my entire