Clearfield Republican. [volume] (Clearfield, Pa.) 1851-1937, 1860-11-07

i''ie ana cared less about the rclioion |
Iad been taught TO reverence, and which
! thought once that possessed. But vet,
atter all, L cannot see that it was such a
terrible sin, do not see why should be
thus afflicted"
ana yet the world envies YOU. Nav
u not be, dear, TO call you back to the
Master you have left, and to make Won
IKE Him in his forgiving gentleness, in his
patience under trial 7"
THAT | shall never learn. How can 7
be patient and gentle? Here this morn.
ing Mr.. wharton comes to nv room be.
lore have had my breakfast tells me he
haa delayed going down town an hour Ia
ter than usual to speak to me; that he
thinks 1t would do me good to have the
chii9ren with me little to day; that he
thlnks Lucille unfaithful; and suggests
that tomorrow l ride out with you to make
some purchases for them. To be sure. I
know that their winter wardrobe ought to
be attended to, but the iIeo of
having those three childr en- even a half
hour in the room with me sets me Wild
the reality would nearly kill me-"
81 think not goodshumored noise
your own children's too. would hardly
produce SO alarming results. Indeed /
think that Edward is right; you need
something to stir you from this lethargy.
l am sure he means it kindly for you, as
wcil as Tor the children. They ought not
to be left too much with Lucille. You
know | am no friend to French nurses.
but dislike and distrus. this one as mach
as your husband does"
" Bus he has such disagreeable way of
saying these things my spirit always re-
oels. Lucille was highly recommended
and always seemed to behave well enough,
and don't see why am 10 give her up
to humor the dislike of my husband mere
ly not that care so much for her either,
but | will not be dictated to in this cold
way"
" Because it it is too hard upon your
pride. q Carrie, when will you Law this
proud spirit down at the foot of the cross
You have not learned that there is q spir-
1t OF greatness, in the noLleness in the
virtues of patience and submission the
highest, truest greatness, because in .he
exercise OF these we are more like our Di-
vine Exemplar. Is it less ennobling 10
perform all the duties of your lot with
cheerful patience than to lie here and
iret against them, leaving all undone
A life OF self-will is but q life of sin. and
Therefore must be life of misery. You
admire patient, gentle spirit in Others
you admire one who exhibits great pow
ers of endurance, who triumphs over the
petty, but constantly recurring obstacles
In her way, bringing out of the deep, cool
well of her heart, sweetness to life for
herself and Others disarming unkind>
ness 10y her patient love, her gentlo for.
bearance."
This is fancy picture, Mar l can
not make real. "
Have you then not discovered whose
fair image was in my mind? Was it not
like our mother"
Yes, indeed, like her; dear blessed
mother. But my trials are so different.-|
Hers were open to the eyes of the world;
she was called upon 20 endure. But me
every one thinks that must be perfectly
happy, andyet know mono more wretch
ed than myself. You cannot iudge, your
life has been 50 happy your Husband
well nigh worships you; lie always gives
you your own way. To be sure, you new
er take it as | would lut it only proves
as l said, that you cannjt understand my
trials, having had Sc much happiness.
"And yet Carrie dear, there was a time
once, when you said, that rather than
submit TO my daily annoyances, you
would run away and leave husband and
children.
go / remember that was when Georges
mother and sisters lived with you. But
the old lady almost adOred YOU before she
died, and the sisters ditto, for they SEEM
ed to take you for a pattern in their own
families.
"And should | thus have won their
love if had returned anger for their sus.
picion, recrimination for their fault find
ingY 1t is hard,to be patient when the
blood is stirred but surely it is better,
than by strife to keep up unholy feelings
that gentleness might conquer. The in
fuence which people are least able to re-
sist is gentle, lorbearing temper. / am
satisfied that we win more victories i'm
life by what we forbear TO do than by what
we do. :"
"Still | say that / think you would
find yourself at loss what to do in my
position. Such trials as mine are harder to
bear. "
" But the same rules may fit, dear"
"How?"
MAY Ispeak very plainly?"
"Say all that is in your heart"
well, then, begin by looking your
troubles in the face set them in array,
count them, and estimate your capabili-
ties for overcoming them"
I" But cannot endure. "
"Then overcome.
"That is impossible" /"
"Let us see. You have a husband
whom you have once loved devotedly 81
Thought.
"Well, thought you loved the same
reality or delusion, as you will, existed
in his mind toward you. Ten years .expe-
rience bas shows you both, many incom-
patibilities of temper which you have
never dreamed of. You are both proud,
both unyielding. He thinks it is your du-
ty to conform to his views you will not
submit TO oe controlled He is wrapped