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Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02
POLITICAL.
4 THORN IN THE HEART

-. cbo;,od ambition fills the couch with thorns,
4 buried hope grows fever in the brain;
Cold poverty will dim a fry eye.
Ani rob the vigor Of a manly frame;
Bu, loss Of hope, ambition, and of gold
Is gem and Jewel, or u broken dart
To those Of feeling and Of fcrvld soul,
Who ever feel starvation Of the heart.
To have one breast on which to shed our tears
\ mellow eye to look a fount OF love,
4 willm. ear to learn our JOY and fears
\ gentle voice to raise our thoughts above
THIS Is the bliss I pine iur, day b: day;
lis angels guarding 10 a noble goal,
The thrne of princes and OF midnight OIL
Gods greatest blessing 10 the human soul
To sigh, Yet hear no signing IL return;
To weep, yet see no sorrow IN ttle eye
To idolize where passion once d'a ouln'
And see me second when another y!
THIS is the horror that intcctS my a'ca'''
Ana locks devotion i'll its prison cell
That makes me ,arry ut the nlases St'''"e,
w.. ,:,o' sid, may not forsaAen dwell.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02
TUESDAY,, FEBRUARY -, lsGn.

The Chair laid before the Senate = commute.
uicution from the Secretary Of State, made IN
obedience to law. transmitting statements
showing The number and designation Of pas>cn-
gers arriving in the United States during the
year 1879; which was read and laid Oh the
table. The total number lea"!ng foreign ports
for the United States during The year. was
l5JJ.5ng. Of whom 211 died on the voyage.
leaving the total number OF arrivals lJI,3U2.
Also Il communication fr"tn The SECRETARY Of
the Treasury in answer 10 tie resolution ot the
Senate Of the DIST inst, inq!iring whether the
sum Of $50. 500 appropriated for repairing the
w"rks and piers Tor securing thu light house At
Chicago. ILL.,, or any part Of it. has been eX-
pended. &c. The Secretary transmits a copy,
of the report Of the light horse board, from
which it appears that the department has
directed the expenditure Of SO much "l the
appropriation L, was ncccsSaT? for the p7ptec'
ton Of the light house. The communications
was read and laid OIL the table.
On motion By Mr.. Mason. Il resolution was
adopted, requesting the President Of tho lnitsc
States. II in his opinion aot Incompatible with
the public interest, to communicate 10 the Sen,
ate j copy Of any report which may have been
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02
W~srSasnAY, February -, ls6o.
SESA2E.

At IL \. VI. Lieutenant Governor MoSTAGrE
called the Senate 10 order.
\ communication was received from the
House hv their Clerk. that they had passed Il
nuubcr Of Senate bills.
The PRESIDENT presented the proceedings Of
Il public meeting Of all parties. in Pittsylvania
county, Eincrn: Witrhcr in the chair, III favor
If Il Southern Conference.
On motion Of Mr.. TnwNEs. in view of the
fact that TIE proceedings mad appeared in the
public papers, they were respectfully laid on
the table.
HILLS IEpOETEn rs LEAVE.
Bv Ifr. W,rguAM, Il hill 10 incorporate the
Richmond. Williamsburg and Central Turn
pike Company. IN the county of Hrnrico; also,
Il Til to incorporate the Osborne Turnpike
COMPANY, in the county Of ~llcnricc.
Ry Mr.. CAEHAwAf, i bill authorizing a spc.
rial license for the sale Of "LosSing's l~ilustra-
ted Life of Washington" and the BATTLES OF
America OH Sea and Land" by DIR. Robert
Tones.
BY Mr.. ArGrsr. II hill I" incorporate the Cen
trail Agriculture! Society of Virginia.
By Mr. LArSnx, lfnr Mr.. lSnrLI.) n bill TO in.
corporate the Virginia and Maryland EaiIroad
Company.
EXTENSION OF HE SESSION.
Mr.. stuart called up tile joint resolution,
already adopted by the House. extending the
session TO Tuesday. Marc!, 18th. The roll was
called, and the resolutions was also agreed to by
the Senate. ny the following vote:
Yg,.-Mc.sr-. James u. Armstrong. Thnina, 7. Au'
gust, John Brannon, Charles Truce, AlfFr! Caldwell. JAMES
H. CarSun.. William ". Carraway. Jry, John ! Garter, Jo'
.,ul Ca7i.iian. John II Claiborne, William II. p,y, John
nicsiu.uu. William l.. Early, Oswald Il. finnry, NaloIron
Il French, Hiram 4. iireevrr, Wiiiiim c. knight, Charles
II. LyncN, Jmm-. X. Sinr.h.ii, Charles Ma.:ir, "illiara y.
McKennry. Daniel l., Neal, William W. Newman, William
d. Pate, lanes Il. Paxton, Jonathan Richmond William
Smith, Alexander II. II. Stuart, lanes NJ. rAiaftrrn. Henry
W. Thomas. Christopher Y. Thomas, 0eUrse Town.s, WIN.
c. WicshdIa-:sj.
S,rS- Richard l.. 7. Erai-, Wright Lakewood. Char:rs
VI. Hubbard, James S-,spu, Charles W. Scalo'l-J.
M. TlIuMAs of II. waS requested to notify
the House.
4 message was received from the HOUSE hv
Mr.. KEEN, that they had passed Senate bill
Incorporating the pittSylrania Railroad Com
pany, with All amendment striking out the ap-
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PAY ur the Richmond Soldiers, Ike.

We annex from the ~Dispatchl THE following statement,
showing the amount Of pay allowed each Of the Richmond
c mpunie. who served ut lIarp-r's Ferry The amount SET
down 10 each company includes not only regular. but extra
DAY: Young. Guard, - mel, Uwice in service strre'i2i
days, 81 .i2G -: Company +. ~ men, |! days IN service.
~. l49 ~: Company y. ,tir"ysl % ii"n, "a days "a >rr'cr:
!. alt ii; Comj,aiy C., tN"nigomrty Guard ~ iHrn, -
duys in service, 81 So IT,; Company 4. Iii.nrs, ST men, ~
days in ser. icr, !".uIS Il: Company Il, Virginia i;inesj"I
men. - DAYS in scr, lee, = .Sij 81, llowiizcis, - iLri. IL
DAYS IL service, SIS: II.
The fullowin. amounts were appropriated to railroads Tor
TRANSFORMATION, viz .hleNandria and Washington, *iu: w;
Richmond, Fred rick-lgrc and Potomac, 1906 ~; kicN-
mond mud Petersburg, $!ai %; lUiiin"sc and Ohio
slS.&iS rs.
To Field and STAFF Officers the Auditing BOARD allowed
she sum OF $5,il4 ~.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02
Total amount audited and report.

d....... SiSJ.ObI u3
1.-THE whole amount reported 10 the LegiSla-
turc he allowed. then the ascertained cost incl
dent to this invasion, as far rs the same has
been presented, will Gc as stated. What the
entire cost will be. the Board are not able yet
to ~forrScc. But the nuister-rulis now presented,
and which have not been audited. because not
vet correctly stated, will much more than alb
Snrb the balance Of $4,000 unexpended. We
fear another appropriation of $4,000 will be
necessary.
The Hoard is only authorized TO expend
$ijn.O Uo. tl:c amount appropriated. They are
prohibited from paying General, Field or Staff
Officers. or Railroad Companies. We have,
therefore, considered these last claims rs cNclu.
s:vc Of the appropriation, and have acted &C
corllneiy.
The Board say that the Cadets Of the Virgil
MA Military Institute do not charge anything
for services rendered; their subsistence and
transportation alone have been allowed. The
Iioard recommend that the Governor be author
ized 10 cause appropriate silver medals to be
made, lc0s,ing in the aggregate $500 and to
direct tie Superintendent OF the Institute 10
ic>tow one OF such medals upon each Cadet in
service 1T Char!r>towr.
Oh notion Of Mr.. BRANNON. the report
was referred 10 the Committee Of Finance.
Mr.. KNIGHT called up l bill to increase
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02

SLAVERY ABOLISHED ~ TIE Dr1ii EAs'
lNpIIS.-Thc Dutch Government has swci:
away the las, vc.tig': Of slavery from rs Ia;
India possessions. On the Goth Of ScrtcImhc:
last lie institution ceased To exist. The hGT.
ernmcnt offered IN assessed valuation in Mo-
hey To the nwtrrS, many Of whom, however.
refused 10 take it, while others took it. an!
made il, over to the cmancipatcd slaves '!'en'
solves
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02
Northern Markets.

Blir!m";r. Feb. "?.-F!"Ir l. quiet: sales o! Ho~a';
Street aai Ohio at 81 80. Wheat is quiet; red n sJll y
Whit 81 ,;oai 81. Corn t., steady; white isa,s, yr!los ~
3. Pork IS firm; mess !i>. prime II: 80. Lard i, active
1t II cents. Whi.scy L. firm at .ii!a2j
NV i"Ks. Feb. g. -Cnttoa i heavy and unchanged
Flour i, firm. sales OF southern "a; F. ijIJ -. Wheat )
firm. T. IN l., Grm, yellow ~, white >Ua>2. Pork /, h~aNr
new mes, fs b, old III 81. Sugar IS heavy: stock ";ysF
coffee i. firm At l:i4al!l.r. Turpcu'iur i;aI-. HaiI'
firm at G5aG;:. Rice l. quiet.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02

douglas Z She rwool o. New YORK, The ploh'ets Y, ~
l!oor Skirts business. have just ir"nsh. ont a new Styie 81
skirt, called the Belle Of the south, which is saiu 10 II e ,He
mo,i cl-s al: uad perfect made. a peculiar feature "i MS
Skirt Is tia; II l., nade without clasps, AID = no., I'cIei"'e,
liable to get on; Of order.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02
,g.I,r EfIIibustrrs in Texas To be truSHc0
Out-Ehc Mexican Treaty..


WMsIIIXGToN, Fell. 4I.-tIiIibuStcr STOCK has
been badly set back by reports IN a wellln-
formed quarter. that Col. Lee, who has some
GOO men between Fort Clark and Fort Brown,
in Texas, has been ordered TO crush out Cor.
tjuas and his band Of outlaws, even It Obliged
to follow them into Mexico. This action re-
suits from an application of Gen. Houston ior
protection OF American citizens upon the no
iirande. which region is represented by Scna'
tor Wigiall TO have been dcSolatcd by ire
and sword. 1t is also confidently asserted that
the Governor Of chihuahua. having applied ~
our Government for troops to protect that pro-
vince from the ravagcs Of organized bands OF
marauicrs. our troops are t" intervene there
also.
The points OF the Mexican treaty now before
the Senate are as already published. As 1t
does not s~tipuIate that former concessions OF
the Mexican Government to American citizens
for transit routes are to be- enforced, opposition
to the treaty is made for that callSe, 10 say no.
thing Of the perilouS position Of the Juarez
party in Mexico. There will ne Il long DISCUS
sion in the Senate upon the subject, hit the
impression IS general that the treaty will be
defeated.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02

The Texas Legislature adjourned OIL thr
18th instant. without action on the South "a
roiina resolutions.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02
BROWNING. MORSE & Gu

a~ucTiUSEERS FOR fiiE SALE or SEGRoLs,. :.
WILL give ,heis undivided attention TO ne
w groes. vsl. e.;
Offce on Franklin street. u Few doors he.o"
uont. 49,, "a, c,-.s
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02

Va Wednesday morning last a difficulty oc-
currc'l at Emory and Henry College, IA, be-
tween Il student FROM Georgia, named Rrect,
and John T.. BIowulow7 of Knoxville, Tenn,
son Of ". G.. Brownlow, in which the
latter struck the former on the head with .
stick. Reece died the same night.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02

The Lyrchhurs "Virglnialr' says: we
were shown. on yesterday, a beautiful cane.
gotten up by a gentleman Of Bedford, TO be
presented 10 the Hon. II. 4. Eiruund>on, as All
appreciation Of his conduct. in switching
John Hickman, in the streets Of Washington,
the other day. The cane has a heavy silver
head, upon which is engraved, To Hon. II. \.
Edmund>on, the man who whipped one Of the
eighteen millior.
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02

Sinr. the foregoing report was prepared, we have received,
and here, insert, the following correspondence bctwcrn Co
vernon Hicks, Of Maryland, aud the Governor Of South Caro-
lima; from which II will he seen that the views OF Your com.
miurr are fully sustained Ia reference to the preamble ana
resolutions OF South Carolina.
This correspondence. between; The Governor -! Maryland
and South Carolina, has already lcen published IN The PHI
ruirrr -
Richmond enquirer. [volume] (Richmond, Va.) 1815-1867, 1860-03-02

The following is the report o! the Minority oil
the Join, Committee, made by Mr.. August TO
the Senate, and b. Mr.. Collier TO the House, a
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30

Eszy Here is something somebody
says about the '.nigger.' AS it hap
pens to be a national topic just now,
it may not be at all out Of place: ~
niger is happy not only at dance, but
in every other position beside. A Mig
ger may be poor, but he Is never lew
spirited. Whatever he earns, he in
vests Forthwith in fun and deviltry--
Give him a dollar, and in less than
an hour he vii! lay out seven shillings Of
it in yellow ncck-ties or a cracked
violin. THERE'S something in the Afti-
can race, that sheds trouble as a duck
will water. Who ever knew "cullud
pussen" to commit suicide? The ne
gro is given strongly to love and jeal-
ousy, but he has 10 taste at all for
arsenic. He may lose his all by bet
ting against a roulette, but he don't
find relief for his despair as white folks
do, by resorting to charcoal fumes or
q bed cord, bat by visiting de fair
sex" and participating in the May in
auence Of "de occlputal commissions of
der clarinett -
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30

CURIOUS ELATIoNsHIP.-Not long
since, a man in Sank county, Wis ,
married for his sec"nd wife his own
stepmother, who singular enough, was
a sister to his first wife. The lady is,
therefore, not only stepmother and aunt
to her husbands children, but also
their grandmother, while the father is
stepfather to his stepsis:ers. Her issue
by this marriage will not only be own
cousins to their stepmother, but uncles
and aunts also ; ard the lady herself,
being grandmother to her children and
nephews, may be regarded as mother
to herself, and therefore her own grand
mother.
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30
The DECADENCE OF TRUE WOMAN

The DEcADENCE OF TRUE WOMAN
1t happens, says the Chicago OH. }
Journal, that we have a great many
NOR, ladies and not nearly as many
women as we once had j; those who grace
frame more than they do family !;
good to write poetry to, and sing Meet
me by moonlight alone to, and make
Books Of Beauty about, but neither
Rachels or Ruths. A classic nose is a
happy accident, and so is a lip, fash
Toned after Apollo's bow the neither
one as If some bee had stung it newly;
but sweet spirit and a graceful life
are not accidents; they are born of pa
tience and self-denial, and womanly
faith.
It is the nonsense Of the thing called
gallantry, that has robbed the world Of
many woman, only to make lady of
her; the stuff about angels in dis,
guise,'' and ''kneeling at their feet, !"
and "paying homage to beauty" is as
absurd to-day as the scens in the yard
Of the inn where Sancho Panza watched
the first night of his errantry. AS if
it were possible to be anything better on
earth than woman woman in its
true sense, like the Mary of old, is
last at every scene of suffering, and
first at every resurrection of a nope.
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30

BAIL think, wife, that you have great
many ways of calling me q fool" IL think,
husband, that you have great many ways
of being one"
ca George WashingtoL's "forte" accord
ing to Artemus Ward, was mot to hev any
public man of the present day resemble
him to any alarlnin extent"
~ A barber having a very incorporate
man to shave on Sunday, begged him to keep
his mouth shut, lit was apunishable offence
to open rum hole on Sunday.
~" Father went to the BARRIERS and had
his whiskers taken off Upon returning home
to tea, lie was met by his little daughter
(three years old,) who running up to him,
said, "Why, papa, you don't look alike!"
DB~sl'll teach you to play pitch and toss
IN t1og You for an hour, | WILL" Father
instantly replied the incorrigible, as he bal
anced penny on bis thumb and finger, "I'll
toss you 10 make it TWO hours or nothing"
W-"I will and bequeath,' said an Irish
man in his will, ''to my beloved wife all my
property without reserve, and to my Oldest
son Patrick, one half of the remainder, ard
20 Dennis, my youngest son the rest. Ii
anything is left, it may go to Torrance Nc
Carly, ia sweet Ireland"
Boy fellow on the race-c course was stag
gering about with more liquor than he could
carry.
| "Hello! what is the matter ~ said q
chap, whom the inebriated individual had
/ just ran against.
why hio-why, the fact is, lot of my
tIlends have been betting liquor on the race
to-day. and they have got me to hold the
| stakes"
Bog Quite recently an Irishman met s
brother Pathfinder who had, bus day or two
pr, v!Cus, entered the matrimonial state, anC
accosted HIM with
"Well, Patrick, and is it thrue that ye've
bin and gone an got married."
"Av course it is, Dennis"
IAN, who, III the blessed land of freedom
did ye get married TOP"
why, to me wife, to be sure. Bad luck
to ye! do you think I'd lie afther marryil
anybody el>e's wife, an make piggyko
tamst Of MYSELF
GB'A sheriff's officer was sent to execut,
writ against Quaker. On arriving at til,
house he saw the y laker's wife, who in re
ply TO the inquiry whether her husband wa
at home, answered in the affirmative, at TIT
same time requesting him to be seated, ant
her husband would speedily see him. Tn
tticer oil ed patiently fer some time, bu
The tar Q1akeress coming into the room, b.
reminded her OF her promise that he shoult
see her husband. NAY, friend, promised
that he should zee thee. He has seen thee
lie dit not like thy looks, Their, fore he avoid
ed thee, and has left the house by anothe
path"
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30
ATTACHMENTS AND Communicable

ATTACHMENTS AND Counting. -The
following excellent little story was ex-
tensively in the newspapers about six
teen years ago. 1t is good enough to
be brought forward again. We do not
know who wrote it, nor what country
furnished the face described:
We have heard good story, of which
an Alabama sheriff vas the HERO
Court was in session, and amid tie
multiplicity Of business which crowded
upon him at the term time, he stopped
at the door of beautiful widow, of the
sunny side of thirty, who by the way
had often bestowed melting side glances
upon the aforesaid sheriff. He was ad-
mitted, and the widow appeared; the
confusion and fright which the arrival
Of the visitor occasioned set off to great
er advantage than usual the captivating
charms Of the widow NJ. Her cheeks
bore the beautiful tints Of the apple
blossom her lips resembled the rose
buds with which they were filled, her
eyes resembled arrows that only invited
a beau (pardon the pun to do full exc
cution. After a few commonplace
remarks:
"Madame," said the matter Of fact
sheriff, 81 have an attachment for
you"
A deeper blush than usual mantle l
the cheeks Of the fair widow; the
downcast eyes, whose glances were CEN
tered upon her beautiful foot, which,
half concealed by her flowing drapery,
partly patted the floor. She with an
equal candor replied:
"Sir, the attachment is reciprocal. :"
For some time the sheriff maintained
an astonished silence, at length he said:
"Madam, will you proceed to cours?'
"Proceed to court 2" replied the lady
with a merry laugh, then shaking her
head, she said:
''No, sir; though this is leap year,
I will not take advantage of the license
therein granted FOR my sex and, there
fore, greatly prefer that you should
proceed to court !"
"But, madam, the justice is waiting. -
''Let him wait l am not disposed to
hurry matters IN so unbecoming a
manner and, besides, sir, when the
ceremony is performed, l wish you to
understand that l greatly prefer min
lister to a justice of the peace"
| A light dawned upon the sheriff
brain.
"Aladam," said he, rising from his
chair with solemn dignity, ''there is a
great mistake here /; my language has
been misunderstood. TIE attachment
of which l spesk was issued from the
office of Squire c., and commands me
TO bring you instantly before him, to
ans yer a contempt Of court, in DISC
beying subpoena in the case of Smith
VS.. Jones.
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30

MIND Your LETTERs.-A singular
warning to your fashionable exquisites
so large number of whom consider
a defective pronunciation Of the letter
''r'' the best ''pwoof of awistocwatlc
bweedlng"-has recently been afforded
by an action brought against one of
the species for libelnng a highly
respectable medical practitioner res
iding in a country town. Wishing to
recommend the doctor in question, and
employing the elegant style Of slang
so much in vogue amongst his class,
he said that MIR. So and-so was the
crack doctor of the place" Unfor-
tunately, however, his peculiar distin-
gaze pronunciation Ct the ''r'' made the
speech sound so very like ":he quach
doctor Of the place. that an action
for damages was the only course left
open to the doctor by which to vindi-
cate his professional reputation.
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30

CONE IT }FILL.-Manhooa will come,
and old age will come, and the dying
bed will come, and the very last look
you shall cast On your acquaintance
will come, and the agony Of the parting
breath will come, and the time when
you are stretched lifeless corpse be-
fore the eyes Of weeping relatives will
come, and the coffin that is to enclose
you will come, and the hour when the
company assemble to carry you to the
church yard will come, and that minute
when you are put down in the grave
will come, and the throwing in Of loose
dirt into the narrow house where you
are laid, and the spreading Of green
sod over tall, all will come On every
living creature who now hears me and
in q few little years, the minister who
now speakS, and the people who now
listen, will be carried to their long
homes, and make room for another
generation. Yes, the dayof final reck-
oning will come, and the appearance
of the Son Of God IN heaven, aud His
mighty angels around Linn, will come,
and the solemn passing Of that sentenc
which is to fix you for eternity will
come.-Lr. Chalmers.
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30

A MODEL Communicable Choc-
taw nation would seem to be a model
community, and one furnishing an ex-
ample which should excite all emulation.
All lands, it is said, are held in com
mon, and each Indian, or those con-
nectad with him by affinity or consan-
guinlty, settles down, and nobody is
allowed to come nearer than a quarter
Of mile Of this enclosure that is his
claim, and he is protected in his pos
session by the laws of the nation, as
though it were his in fee simple. Mer-
chants, mechanics, professional men,
machinists, &C., are allowed to live
there by permit of the Council, but no
one is allowed to produce anything
more than is necessary for the use of
himself and his family outside Of his
trade or profession. Not drcp of
spirituous liquors is allowed to be CIV
en- away, Or transported through the
Nation, and all that is found by the
officer is poured out, and if found il
any wagon, water craft or on horse
back, the whole establishment is coDGs.
Gated to the use of the Nation.
Muscatine weekly journal. [volume] (Muscatine, Iowa) 185?-1890, 1860-11-30

HATE N3T.-Iate not. It is not
worth while. Your life is not long
enough to make it pay to cherish
Ill will or hard thoughts toward any
one. What if this friend has forsaken
you in your time Of need, or that one
having now your utmost confidence,
your warmcst love, has orcluded that
he prefers to consider aud treat YOU as
stranger? Let it all pass. " hat
difference will it make to you in few
years, when you go hence to the t'un-
discovered country ?" All who ILL.,
treat you nov will be more sorry for it
then, than you, even in your deepest
disappointment and grief, can be.