The Portage County Democrat. [volume] (Ravenna, Ohio) 1854-1868, 1860-03-07

anu VIII, 4 nope never give Us cause 10 regrS
zli ss JIG. am about to introduee you to tb
world as my heiress; take care that your eli
-. cumspection equals my watcbfulness.
-.a= s-so IS zsa1 asls lsiaea EvEsHAN'
II read this strange cold letter several time:
before could quite gather ali the sense of il
. At last understood that inherited curse
and that my joyless childhood had been 10 ex
Fl plaiion thereof What q price had the wretch
75f- ed woman who bore me paid for her unIawfu
love! My share in my fathers love was par
s-7f oft. The remembralces of his marifest dis
- 20 like came croWding to my mind; nor could
wonder that he should have hated me. hell
It no injustice that he should have done so
sI now understood our relative positions Coulc
rr lever by earnest perseverance, hope to gain tbt
love of heart SO cruelty outraged? A hear
SO little disposed to be aff: :ctionate towards me
...., But to go to Paris I To leave Montague who
.a had begun to be rather Indifferent to me, and
therefore had more power over me than ever;
for latterly the boat had not always been wait
ing for me at the time appointed Sometimes
81 IS Montague had been half an hour or an hoar
$50 beyond the time, sometimes he had not come
- at all: and after weary watching and waiting
once said he liked to see my countenance when
1e ta had been pining over bis absence It bore
signs of his power, aud he loved power like a
demon. Had possessed family circle. or
"a other interests. think perhaps his influence
over me might have been less absorbing; az it
sa-sph was. he Wasm one object in life and clung
2 '- to him with passionate devotion even while
as,4 mourning [sometimes be ,sas cruell his cru
2 lelty. #.5e E. st-
81 aGAfter having read and re read nv letter. 4
left poor Miss Mac Nab. struggling with phys
icai languor and mental confusion, writing or
f4as ders for dress makers and millners to put mg
sa n wardrobe in travelling order, while 1 went to
the river side. hoping, praying that Montague
might come. thought. perhaps that be wo'd
follow US to Paris, and there ask my hand of
r, n my father. Surely Lord Eveshan could not
--As1 object to such son in law Yet,I felt my.
self such poor, foolish, ignorant girl, com
pared with the object of my worship, that
almost doubted whether human condescension
=, could reach SO low. Many thoughts chased
each other through my mind as walked nm
i and down by the bank. The alders stirred
be was coming-no, it was bird. fain.
7fi= q
s.s haste and traced the widening circle left bv a
ya77a leaping fish. My secret burned nv heart. T
longed to tell Montague how dishouored felt
by my mothers fall, how alone in the world |
Hzs and dependent on his love- Yes, that idea
was paramount to every other. was alone.
- e and dependent on his love. How long nae.
ed the river bank cannot tell He came not
s.rs that day, nor the next; nor the next The
s5l9sa long weary week passed away. was but a
5saf Young girl and for the first time in my life INV
dress was made matter of expense and con
-. slderation;> but the exchange of nv simple
ri o.. garments for such beftted my age and sta
sa tion, diverted me not. cared for nothing but
to please Montague; and he had loved me in
my rustic simplicity. o, could but see him
.-sz ere We left England I --s-. .f,.s faEy as
o Miss Mac Nab. under the influence of nv
fathers summons and the absolute necessity
- for action, had somewhat revived her former
watchfnlness. and it became more difficult for
me to get to the trysting place. The days
g. drew on; must see Montague before left: i
wrote him few burning words of mingled
love and reproach, to transmit which occa-E
ae-. stoned me much trouble. / received no an
an. swer, but the information that Mr. Montague
nee had suddenly left Audiey End, and was not
ION expected to return at present. Cruel i
sue L pass over the few days we staid in Londop.
- during which my fathers sister presented me
o' at Court. pass over the journey and poor
~ Miss Mac Nab's heroic struggle with real suf
81 81 feriug. We arrived in Paris. Lord Evesham
:" received me with grave courtesy, which crate
.y fully accepted He had always assumed great
~ superiority over me; he had treated me either
as iond parent treats little child or as the |
.n' angel lovers may have treated the dauebtersI
.-o OF men, My father deferred to nv wishes,
le which he had some trouble to get me to ex.l
-" press. and stnded my welfare in everything.
ne had not been in Paris week wien he frank |
w. y told me he was surprised and delighted with
me; that my manners which fine instinct |
must have taught me. were so very far beyond
- my rustic oreedingi and that my modest re-
serve heightened beauty which must soon
~. learn that all the world acknowledged. He
20 told me that my position would be one peril
.11 ous, almost certainly fatal to weak minded I
= 20 woman, but that he was rejoced to perceive
sps he might place confidence in nv understanding
=. and principles. Had he known that the des.
a plsed girl at Deansdale was growing into such
D,' woman, he said, he should have seen me long
- before Whatever doubt rested, on my birth,
'ef :, was the daughter of his heart. Then he EN-.
az braced me foudly, and sobbed out nv flial
''' love upon bis breast. Only one memory gave
1n sting to that moment-the memory of my
=" ~ concealed friendship for Montague. For
''e' very few weeks in the world had show wn me
how imprudently and unwariIy had acted in
ler cuitivating the acquaintance of person who
ne' had made no overtures 10 my natural euard
es- ans But while blamed myself aud thought
ed that perhaps the easiness wherewith he had
ed won my heart, led him to despise and abandon
m me- / loved him STILL and hoped he would yet
an. deign to seek me out again. lived in state
la of tremuous hope aud fear. Any day might
ne be the day of my masters retnrn-any day
I'm might give the tame cup Of fashionable life i
TO that quick sharp zest of intellect and passion
to which had marked all my intercourse with
ed Mautawna