The new era., 1860-04-26

81 To vi. i--iue 20 - sge ta
1t were needless to narrate the love-
adventures of my youth. i could scar
cely do so, even were l thus inclined ;
for have neither the energy. the indus
nor the cacoeihes scribendi to fill volums
Just at present ] only wish to unburden
my late defeats and disasters :-oyer
the early one hear solemny and rever-
emily pronunce my "requiescat III
pace"
Mrs. Hemans says-no, | think it
was not her, but the sweet. unfortunate
poetess, L. 4. L., though am not GER
tain which of the two it was-but it was
one ofthem who said -
There are times when the charged heart must speak
Fen in the deserts to pour itsef-or bre'k.
feel the truth Of this in such hours
Of gloom as the present. am weighed
down in spirits TO the very dust. Yea,
have even laid my forehead there, as
if could cool the burning shame thai
consumes me. Useless endeavor Il
rises up before me, more terrifcalIy
clothed than the ghosts of midnight--fol
they come only in darkness, and glide
noiselessly from view-but the haunting
memory of the adventures through
which l have recently passed, seem to
have worn deep channels in my brain
and threaten to overflow my reason
How often in my agony, do exclaim,
after the manner Of one of old-O three
times, four times happy should have
been, had it been, given me to have
died with. my lamented grandmother,
the pious guardian of my infancy, who,
alas, was called away ere l was prepar-
ed to tread alone the thorny paths of
life Had she lived, how different,
how happy might have been my fate !!
She it was who infused into my young
being the love Of woman-that grew
with nv growth What wonder that it
became the uppermost passion of my
heart ? And yet, how has this heart,
so full of love, Of admiration, of enthu-
siasm, of high, and lofty and generous
devotion for the whole gentle sex, for
whom would have poured out its life
Eaood like water-how has it been abus-
ed, wronged, trampled upon, how pier
eed with slight, insult and deception ?
And yet loye woman still
The very sound of her little foot on
fhe pavement is like music-what then
is her voice. All, had she but known
;,ow devoted really was to her, am
confident the natural goodness OF her
heart could not so often have led her to
slight and misuse me. 1t was owing al
trgether to her ignorance Of me. She
did not understand me. How should
she or course l could not carry my
heart on the outside Of me And so
still love pretty woman-and shall, till
the race of Finnatiffa2y goes out with
nay last breath. What finnatiffany
My father was the Youngest of seven
brothers, and the only one who ever
married. am his only offspring--the
only heir to six bachelor FinnatifTanys
"A bachelor Finnatiffany now myself
Their fate,-for they too made efforts
extraordinary to change it-sho2ld have
been to me vaticination of my own.
But disregarded it, Notwithstanding !
inherited from them all their peculiari-
ties.
Why should fre-red hair ever have
been given to mortal men +? Resolve
this question ye. who are so afflicted.
admire long noses-the longer the bet
ter-for have none-worse than none,
mere piece Of putty uncomely and
unsightly, seemingly slightly dyed in OF
ter, is plastered between my eyes, that
unfortunately, naturally squint towards
it--thus eternally reminding me Of my
irremediable misfortune. am bad to
be sure but to make up for these de-
forlnities, have on elegant hand-ele-
giant, and adorned with sparkling bril-
liants- Notwithstanding I choose
every occasion for displaying it to oad-
vantage, it attracts for me no notice
no praise. 1t is white as lady's anc
so delicately formed All! how insen.
sible must be a lady's heart-how unre.
fined and unappreciating her taste no
to admire il. o, ifshe could see it now
As it grasps this pen--this golden PEN