Delaware inquirer. (Wilmington, Del.) 1859-18??, 1860-02-25


sat, with his moyeless gael could not breathe
without his noting every respiration.
AS the cold, horrible numbness and drowsi-
ness crept gradually over me, and something
like the presence of death came, feeling of
fear and dislike to the grave awoke. Life sud-
denly seemed warm, bright and delightful +;
innumerable happy scenes, which had recent
ly been planning, appeared to come into very
existence around me with a most tempting brill
liancy, which thrilled all the powers of griet
and despair within me; for had known so
little Of happiness yet in life, reasoned and
now at last, when might be capable of glad
dening Others and m, self, just now to die.
"Fool--fool, do youyet choose dying? Will
you not swallow this? You will have money
enough remaining after you give me my share
you will have a number OF thousands still,
and you are young, and made for enjoying
happiness"
Though knew Savall must have uttered
the words, yet even now, as rccolect them,
il seemed as if invisible spirits around me had
spoken them, dvining my thoughts, and coun-
selling me accordingly.
Next recollect there was deep, frightful
silence heard no one single sound--no clock
striking-no voice speaking or cslling-not
one intimation that was in the midst of many
peopled, noisy city; Icould not believe that
was in London. thought had been carried
away to some deep abyss, down, below the
surface of the living world, in the centre of the
cold, voiceless earth, away far from all human
soceity, with only one of .hc blacs spirits OF
evil guarding me. For some moments fan
cied was condemned forever TO that terrible
fate, with the eyes of Sayall alone to look upon
me without ceasing throughout all duration.
Afterwards a widely-diferent imagination
possessed me with even stronger power I
thought beheld most wildly all the scenery
connected with the solitary country place in
the north of ireland where was born the
narrow river, the rocks and trees hanging over
it the very boat in which had so often row.
ed with the well-remembered oar the rough.
uncultivated mountain, rising abruptly from
the water, with the rich, luxuriant, yellow furz,
and the goats browsing, just as they used to do
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leading a literary life in London-eyen the
glass in the window of my fathers house shone
and sparkled exactly as italwaysdid in the beau
tful summer sunsets. would have sworn
that the whole scene was before me but was
not gazing on it with the human feelings had
when there last-it was with such emotions as
the disembodied may be supposed to expert
ence that now looked.
miserable fool idiot You still persist
in choosing death in preference to life. Com
it is not even yet too late for wisdom one
drought and you are safe and better than yos
were before-here."
| My intellects had become so confused that
was barely conscious of the presence of Savall
and aware that he had come close to me, that
he was standing over me, and holding tumb-
Ter almost to my lips.
Again the strong feeling of immediate death
came overpoweringly upon me, mingled with 9
vision of all those whom loved my relations
and friends in another country, they came tC
my very side, / thought, with anxious, fearful
looks, for they seemed aware thatI was dying
| anu thcrc ciOocy NciJ OiOSct was NY nhothe'
pale face and her sobs were loud and convul
sive and there was my old and attached un
Gle, from whom l had been named, and VIII
had always been so deeply interested in mt
and so anxious to hear Of my making nois
in the world--he was hanging over my shonl
der, and he was weeping quietly without say
ing one word; but there was such deep agon
in his eyes that would have given worlds
comfort him-but, more striking to me tina
any even of the forms Of my nearest kindret
was fair, soft, young girls fice-the face {
one loved. She came close, very close to mi
| thought, and laid her hand on my brow, an
, the pressure of that hand was so warm an
life-like, that death became still more fearful
ly dark and repulsive.
At this period think had no rcmaing cor
sciousness, in the way of reasoning; all nj
faculties were existing merely in the life
dreams. cannot, therefore, state with an
certainty what passed for many hours aftel
, wards, but have a kind of recollection of
f; glass being held to my lips, it must have bee
9 Savall, and drank with no reluctance, butwii
] delight, cool, delicious draught, and then fe
f back on the sofa much happier than hs
been.
At last awake to perfect consciousness.
started up, wondering at first why was the
e in darkened room, with broad daylig
: streaming in through the shutters. II took n
u some moments to remember the scenes of Il
: preceding night. Ny first thought was