Spirit of the age. [volume] (Raleigh, N.C.) 1849-1865, 1860-03-14
For the Spirit of the Age.
a Few Leaves from the Journal of a
Belle -ny AIRIRcHAusKA.
(ooScLrDEp.)
MAY, 49,.

49, - ~ :
l am residing with my cousin Rudolph y
lis wife is the most charming woman in the :
world the most accomplished, and dresses :
With more taste than any lady in Paris-the :
not excepted. She says to me, in i
ner sweet way, that l must not think of mar i
rying an American | must have a French
She says she has given me away {,
10 Count something, who is her third cousin, ,
the richest man in France. 1 have not
seen him yet Ninette says he is sublimely
handsome.
| have been much into society. Have been
to balls, routs and a masquerade, which last
/ like prodigiously. Have been presented at
and introduced to all the noblesse. I
must leave you, dear old journal | fear we
shall become strangers after a while. Not
often have l an opportunity to sit down with
you, owing to my many engagements. A
long farewell dear journal tomorrow | de-
part for Naples.
AUGUST, PARIS.
Dear old journal, / wish / could sit down
and enter into a full detail of all I have seen
and done but that is impossible. I have
just fifteen minutes to give you, then / must
arrange my head gear and don my diamonds,
for in half a n hour / go with Rudolph and
Ninette to an imperial banquet. l feel quite
as much at ease with the imperial pair as I
would with q sturdy American farmer and his
good wife. / acted somewhat different from
most of the strangers at Court Instead of
making a toady of myself, | assumed the EN-
preSs for the occasion, which was a source of
no small, though well concealed, amusement,
to the mobiles present. / was quite willing to
be laughed at, however, for my independence,
knowing that a certain sort of respect for me
was mingled with their mirth, which l sus-
pected was created more at the thought of
how the Emperor would take it, than at me.
If the Empress was surprised, she gave no
sign of it but on the Emperor's face l detect
ed a very slight shade of disappointment
and surprise though it was but for an in
slant; he gave me a most profound bow and
passed on, thinking, | heartily believe, all the
more of me for my dignified and independent
manner. I felt it incumbent upon me to act
as | did, being the representative of an indie
pendent nation. Ninette desires my pres
ence adieu, then, journal.
OcT. 1S-.
: / have become acquainted with Ninette's
, third cousin he is a charming person a rare
and beautiful specimen of manhood Ninette
r says she is determined to have us married.
, Ger. 90, 49,.
have come away to be alone, and to think.
= What a life I am Leading a life Of gaiety and
| dissipation. What a charming woman Nj
!. nette is, and what a noble fellow Rudolph -
How handsome the Count de Rosenberg,
Ninette's third cousin but not so handsome
|" as Roland. Or! Roland, Roland! | have
torn you from your pedestal within my heart,
Sc where you were worshipped with relentless
hands have torn You down and cast you out
but a remembrance of you remains. Upon
that pedestal is sprinkled great drops Of blood
which tears will not wash away nor time erase
~ Nor viii another ever be placed upon it, deal
Roland. I shall never love again. l viii
:" wed; but my head, not my heart, will dictate
Ut the union. Not ing heart, NOT MY HEART J.
n The voice of my heart will be raised to sin;
e. the 0 of love no more Jorerer. Oh, Ro
70 land, when / felt that / must leave you, whel
that despite my aching heart rouh leay
}" you, I did not know that | was ambitious
go When I asked what power is it that impel
I me / did not know that it was the demo-
ambition squirting me on. When told yo
not to follow me to Europe, | thought tina
Fate demanded our separation but no,
IN. was ambition ; all ambition! Yes, | am a
= ambitious woman. Fame is the husband
7 am striving to win, and when a woman make
ne Fame her liege lord, she sounds the deaf
ne knell to her happiness.
90 DEc. 1S, 49,.
fe, I have become widely known, and / kno
n, everybody in France worth knowing. Ina,
ID seen all the sights and lions of the day.
- may be said of me that | am blase, if natul
like mine can become 6lase. l go forth spar
ling in rich apparel, laughing, jesting, enjo
ere ing, with a great void in my heart, and Il
70 adulation of the world ringing in my head:
a confused mass of Earring sounds, whic
ow- strange to say, grati6es my i~nsatiate pride
pre- / tread a brilliant way. am numbered wi
the Eterati Of France. l press on to ga
fresh laurels with which to deck my bro
reat and if my weary feet bleed the while, W
ord will perceive it?
If JAN. 49,.
If a Count Rosenberge has proposed for I
A. hand, and | have bestowed it upon him. We
~ little was said of love during our courtshi
it is not the fashion in France to marry
,fni- love; such a piece of folly here would exc
ent. ridicule, contempt, or sympathy, as the Ct
might be. Rudolph is pleased with my.
ture prospects Ninette is delighted. P
-. ~paration is being made for my ~nuptials,
perintended by Nintt.e. Iyrything is to b.
oole' rich and costly as possible.
e ex-
The
=. This is the last day of my maidenhood
cr- Tomorrow / will be a bride. To-morl
cease Wnen the sun sets, i VIII De tne C0UNTESs
RosENBERGE! Hal so at last l will wea
,varn rITLEl and dearly have / paid for it. But
matter my laurels are fresh and green
over gold is true and bright-my husband, tbs
/ the to be, is fair of form and honorable; my
in an sition is Observation-Disclosures more car
-. ambitious woman ask?
loiess Tomorrow I will be the wife of the ricl
e sea- man in France The envied, the adored
n the of Count R~osenberge. How brilliant my
will will be. Surely fortune has emptied
- cornucopia on my head. My path is str
Oh lhe with flowers, and gold, aye, shining G
y eve and great sheets of beaten gold will cove
from bloodspotted pedestalaway down in my h
earth and great heaps ofbroad round pieces wi
- piled upon it, until there will be no v
i oeeo and l will smile and be happy-inte,
ltinue happy! Ambition, will reward me for
nd af- hearts | have broken and the anguish T
endured. Roland is dead; my devoted
nurse is no more; two hearts that thro
, for. me are still forever; others have be-
estranged Id but avaunt !! avaun
gloomy phantoms of the past! Ayaun
black ROBBED spectres! Tomorrow is m.
dial day.
labor To you, dear journal, I bid a long fare
Welsh for VIC must part. You must be laid
-.Al oklo. c.o.1o o.I fo-l ooroa,.o ,