Montgomery County sentinel. [volume] (Rockville, Md.) 1855-1974, 1859-11-18
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From the Diary of Coquette.


JANUARY 18th, 18-.-This is nv
Iridal night! A few moments since /
stole from the scene of wild mirth, to
the quiet Of my chamber, where the
heartless laugh cannot intrude, and where
| can lay aside the "mask of smiles,"
have worn for SO many years, and let the
soothing tears gush from their hidden
founts, and calm the fierce storm within.
Flow on, sweet comforter ye bring
peace once more to my aching heart.
twenty-five to-day Tho years, as
they have sped onward, have not robbed
my form of its graceful outline, nor my
face of its loneliness speak not with
vanity; l am strangely lovely and It's
that beauty which has won me the hon.
age of hundreds, and has given me pow
er to sway them to my bidding. Yes,
beauty looked forth from my large dreamy
eyes, and the proud curve of my lips
tells truly of the naughty spirit which
neither time nor sorrow has had power to
crush. And yet would barter all this
beauty, which so many have envied, all
this wealth, which weighs upon me like
shroud for lis love.
But just now | came from the crowded
hall, laden with the perfume Of countless
flowers, and blazing with food of daz.
cling light, with the unshed tears filling
my eyes, and seated myself by this cheer
full fire, where can weep to my hearts
content
To night, the first time for seven long
weary years, | gazed upon his face that
face which ! have gazed upon SO many,
many hours, and thought to interpret
the glorious thoughts stamped upon that
lofty brow, and beaming forth from those
brilliant eyes
And yet my voice trembled not, my
face wore the same calm bright smile,
and | greeted him in tones as though our
parting was but Of yesterday. l felt a
wild thrill of delight, of gratifed vanity
rush over my soul as met his wonder
ing gaze fastened upon me /; and-a hall
smothered exclamation Of joyous surprise
fell from his lips
All he little thought, that night,
when, in passionate tones of cntreaty
babe him think of the past, and not
| lightly break the VOWS he had uttered,
that the pale, sensitive, dreaming girl Of
eighteen would ripen into the fine, daz-
cling, self-poascssed and naughty woman,
who now carelessly met his admiring
glance, though her heart at this moment
seemed ready to break.
lie offered me his arm, on which !
have leaued so many times, and led me
to recess, where VIC could converse
freely.
"You are wonderfully changed, Miss
Weston he whispered, in low tones
Change is common to US all, /" | laugh
ingly replied.
1T is; and you, | find, are not unlike
the rest" was his quiet response.
II must plead guilty to thei charge -
answered, resolved never, by word or
look of mine, TO reveal the hopeless love
have SO long cherished for him.
a few light jests passed between US,
and again we joined the merry group,
as gay and careless as they.
And thus for years has my life been
one deception. Men Of intellect, of
wealth and renown, have bent the knee
to me, and have poured out their tales of
love, asking mine in return. l have
listened to their pleadings; but one voice
alone has rung in my ears; one form alone
has been ever present to my vision and
folding that vain dream still closer to my
heart | have turned aside from their fond
affections, and prayed earnestly for the
hour when l can sleep in the quiet grave,
where heart-aches never come
JANUARY Dist. lie has been with me
through the long forenoon. Together
we sung those simple ballads we were
wont to in the happy oldon time, which
can never come again
Oh, that were loved by him Hush,
my fond heart, these wishes are wrongs
done another! am an afiancod bride.
In one short month | shall become the
wife Of one who has for two long years
sought my hand one who bias proved
himself every way worthy Of love which
De must never hope to win; aud when