Delaware inquirer. (Wilmington, Del.) 1859-18??, 1859-07-09


for self-command, and that he was deter
mined to be calm, and he succeeded in ar
pearing so. Madam" said he, you kno'
your fathers wish; he says that can an
ought to 60, and leavethis home, where NOR
than life has been restored to me, where
feel so well, so happy, so RATIONAL" Oh
said the last word in a tone that touched m
hearth Do you think this very prudent |
not this exposing me to relapse! Here
near you, with your attentions, nothing fats
can happen to me. II is you who have cure
mo; you are my good an gel, the guardia
angel of my in6rm reason. Far from yo
there is only trouble and sorrow. Your fathe
is SO kind why has he changed towards me
does he wish to destroy me OH! l feel as
sured that he will succeed. "Do not spea
thus, . answered have not often said til
same TO your You have never been out Q
your mind-my father had no cure to effect
we have dissipated your melancholy fances
you have been with friends who love you
and that has removed your distrust and over
come your exaggerations. II is your charac
ter and mind that want disciple. Is not thi
true You must not take delight in maxim
your self unhappy. Promise me not to d
so-premise me, your nurse and your friend
| You must often come to see us ! shall scol
1 ) y
" Yes will come often, every day; but tina
is not the same thing as living under the sam
roof, and seeing each other every hour in tn
day. If sad thought occurred to me, if Iva
attacked by fit OF melancholy, 1immediatel,
went to you; your aspect, your looks the sount
Of your voice, diffused calm and consolation
Now shall sink into my gloomy reflection
they will prey on my heart, as formerly; the,
will be stronger than my will or my reason
All security is at an end; | shall tremble fo
myself, and this fear will alone suffice Il
| throw me back into my former state" Blu
you cannot remain all your life in this house
You must be no longer our patient, but oul
friend-an esteemed friend, who will have {
distinguished course to pursue, regular occu
pations, and a solid mind to cultivate. What
has hitherto injured you is idleness and in
dolent solitude. Exert yourself; no longer
allow yourself to be tormented by groundless
imaginations and melancholy, which pro-
ceeds only from eunai. Always rational al
ways kind always what sufices to reassure
and cure me Yes, lie said, rising, 81 am
utterly unworthy, | only deserve the con
tempt Of the indifferent, and the pity of the
compassionate. | am despicable being
The world regards me as awretched mailman.
Who can | ask for esteem and affection |
will escape from my shameful condition.
will deserve happiness Who would now
have anything to do with met who would
connect themselves with the fate Of an I'M
happy lunatici Yes, have still sense enough
to know that can pretend to nothing but
compassion. Adieu go-you wish it, as
well as your father, and nothing can be more
reasonable. 1t must be SOL took his hand,
made him sit down by me, he grew calm !;
and when he was better, let him go, with
out saying word.
:" had understood for some time what was
passing in his mind. did not like to dwell
on it. Did know what | felt my myself
All my feelings were confused had given
myself up to them without examination
reflection had not enlightened me. On the
morrow he was no longer with us the house
appeared to me deserted, and the day very
long My hourly interest was gone; tedious
vacuum succeeded to constant excitement.
Perhaps it was not happiness that regretted
but found my mind unimployed; did not
know what to do with my time and thoughts
He came to see us. My father had named an
hour in the day in which, being unusually at
liberty, he could be with us. His presence
did not embarrass me; had nothing that
wished to hide, and yet | felt constrained.
Our friend was much more SO: | saw that he
was distressed and struggling with some great
inward neasiness-agitated by thoughts that
he wished to conceal and conquer. We would
not keep up the conversation his counte-
nance resumed its sad and alarming express
sion; could no longer divert him, or relax
the springs of his distempered imagination
My father said to me one day, "These
visits do him more harm than good. II we
do not take care, he will have relapse. will
tell him not to come here for some time. -
: think that you will wound him deeply"
8 Do you not fear that this emo
ton will iniure him ~" We must for this
reason, seek some excuse for forbidding him.
Yon shall go and pass some weeks at my sis
ters in the country on your return, we shall
see what is to be done"
My father went in the evening to tell him
his unwecome news. The following day,
letter was brought to me; the address was in
his handwriting; opened it, and read-.sThe
resolution that you have taken-a resolution
so cruel and xpected-overthrow al my
wise determinations, and percipitates me into
measures which will, know, endanger my
life. summon all the resolutions Of which /
am capable today open to you heart which
onght to remain closed to every human being
CLOSED to you, see plainly. Twill only say
what is needful: my words must be circum-
spect and prudent. If do not show calm
ness and reason; If do not appear like
others, all is at an end with me. Margaret,
owe You everything, and do not dare remind
you OF it. Your kindness, your care, are per-
haps connected in your mind with ideas Of
alarm and repugnance. The moment when |
saw you for the first time the time that
nave passed with you those hours Of a hap |
pness so new, so improbable-I must chase
hem from my remembrance What | was
hen must never be recalled by us; forget tile
past, it alarms me; ! have horror of think !
ng OF it. Let us, then, be ignorant of how
knew You, why love you more than any
,erson in the world could love. Still you have |
'iten told me, that was only unhappy yes.
you alone have oonsoled me. And why |
'hould there be repugnance to him whose /
ears you have dried ITO him whom you have |
'ayed from despair Ought it not, on the
contrary, to be a tic between two beings-to
ave understood and sympathized with each
'therf AS to me, feelit, ] cannot live with
nut you; without you, there is no peace or
happiness for me. ! was going to say, reason;
nut such word, pronounced by me, has too
nghttul meaning. No, Margaret, am sane
master of myself; shall always be so.
nave strength to support the trials of life
mere IS however, one not to be risked
mplore you, do not injure me more than Won
AVE benefited me. 1t is impossible for you
lot to have some regard for me; pity alone
ould not be so charming, so tender. The
Vretched are taken care Of, but not cured. If
hey are not loved. Your sympathy saved
ne from an abyss; do not plunge me into it
gain. Love me-after the good that Won
ave done me, you have no right TO abandon
le: 1t would be a refinement Of, cruelty, of
'hich you are not capable. Iconclude ; nv
read burns mo Margaret, that is a mistake;
am cool and tranquil it is with deliberation
ma ! with all the calculation of prudence, with
ne khowiedge of the present, and the exami-
lation OF the future that beg to consecrate