, 1859-01-06

Tue H1Du EAlrEA ~ n I'LL i AIdEA4[A HAl1
minglirg strangely with The rong Of the wa
trr.. the dying man told unc Of himself.
Ills moist, almost xpulstless band was
cla=ped in mine, his breath came in gushes on
my cheek, his speech was broken and low,
and his uspect already tlnt Of the grave, but
felt nothing like terror; the grief in my
heart forbade such feelings, they were too
weak and pureile for an hour Ike that.
or bis carly life already knew something.
His father vas an Englizlman, but his
mother Il native ot Italy. In tLat beautiful
cline his carly years had been passed,
then they went for a short time to Eog-
land, but his father died, and the wunnan's-
heart ]ongcd for her purple skies again.
She went hack to italy with ler child, and
spent years in educating him, but just as he
reached manhood she died. On her deatl-bed
she made him promise that he would enter
the church, would dcvotc his wealth to its
nggrandizement, and in the agony Of the mo-
ment lie consented. This know already, but
that alone could not have caused such lasting
suffering in mind SO disciplined, and i
heart so schoo1ed as his. In that hour I
learned all
tIwiEh to fell you something Of myself,y yet
even nowI scarcely know where to begin.
Thoughts rush upon me like the whirl Of swol-
len waters, and in this hour all shonld be
calm. feel nc shame IN barring ny heart TO
you, it will soon be searcc1, Leaf by Leaf, by 4
higher Judge, and whatever my errors may
have been, l fesl that my remorse las out
weighed the sin.
Il have told you M way ward boyhool, at
once peted ard tyranIzed over by ny mother
whose character was full OF strange incoEsiss-
e,ciez, and Lave no time to dwell upon its
details.
II spent my Seventeenth summer upon IN
estate which We owned, not far from Lucca,
and ! was entirely without society, Us my
mother VAS visiting relative in Geuoa. That
was the last real summer have ever known,
eiuce then there has been no Eun warm enough
to rouse the chilled pulses OF my heart, no
light clear enough to dispel the darkncss
which had enrelopcl my soul.
The estate next ours was owned by . rich
widow, with IN only daughter, md she had
been sent down tLtre with her goycrness.
There we were, two young creatures. thrown
into daily intercourse with one another, for
our families wer,. friends, ard Ta* permit
ted 10 visit ut the villa as much as pleaeeu,
for Gcnevra's g3rcrilcss was an English NO.
MAN ami paid little attention To the arbitrary
rule: which restricted tic yuung everywhere
upon the continent.
We used IT, spend days in tue old library.
at tue back Of tie house, with its store Of old
books, ur We would take some tayo-lte vol
uine down into the gar.len, and while the
gorrrnes: sat upon the terrace watching us
with her placid smile, read together under it4e
shadow u the Urllye trees, VI walk slowly up
aad down tho broad walks, repeating passages
from passionate poesics, which We Under
stood rather with tbs heart than the intel
lcct.
sGnncvra was Two years younger than I,
AMI she had retained childish simplicity ri
character 10. ger than is usual with Italian
girls. canuot lescrirc her to you, it wss
not 50 much lcr loviurss which rendered her
50 irresistible, for she looked too trail and
s.rad5wy for healthy beauty, lut thrre was
an invS2rcgsiblc charm in ]ier MANNER Il spell
III her lpw vpce, which had its power over all
who approached her.
s'What was she to NE l did not I"u=: TO
think was too young aud too happy to al,a-
]yze my OVID feelings. lncver spoke Of love
to her, nut my looks and manner must have
betrayed the secret which dill not thlnk Of
couceAllDr, tUr was only ulmtV CONSCIOUS
nlyscl: Of liz realty.
i lad grown vi, unlike other young men
had bad few companions, knew nothing "i
lie world while books and solitude had made
me 4 dreamy enthusiast, Us they are sure to
do the young and ilnag ginativc.
sWe had been Two months in that lulct
smut aod in tlvSe fcli weeks ccltcrcd NY
Whole existence, I'LL that has cnnlc since
seems only 4 icycrlsh dream full of pain and
unres..
i remember 50 well the last time VIC sat
together in that garden! The st1nsct WIS
,lrawin. MI. an,l We lad seated ourselves
upon 4 rustic bench out Of siglt Of The llou-e
aud unrcmarkcl hy tue gotcrncss, WHO WAS
d. er}v cn.ro-setl Iy her buck
aye haze only ar"tllcr month to remain
hnro.' Genryra said softly.
..Only an,tiscr nunth! = repeated. had
i,,ru.utcu that it was not to last iuTcyer.'
But nc shall sue y,;l as..il-you will IL
in FloIeur.. This viutcr...
...Al, hut il will j. like yisi.in. you ina
prisoa-uo mere liberty, notin. hut restraint
and ceremony.
M, no yuu s!.all come when you like-1
will hare it So,
.'Bu, yon will not care to sec nc snun
vou viii 20 into tie wurld-you will forget
aw.
she nichel Il handful Of the white flowers
at our feet ard fun. 1llrm ut No III sport,
and then We furpot r,.,,1;uct in Il childish
game throwing tic blossoms at each other
a,rl !alsliu. like children in our ylcc.
'::tullcnly hcaid my uanlc called loudly,
aul in moment Il s.ryaut came ,lp with iet-
tcr-uv mv1lrr h:!I reached Flurcncc, an,l If
wished to So ler alive must depart IN the
instant,
What | said cannot tall I claspe'l Gen
cyra to my heart, and sllc wept upon my ho=-
,,m with lie freedom, If s;ster-iu another
moment nj, @ M had rushed from her sight and wa-
st,ou fir away, leaving behind me the life
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