, 1859-01-07

! aoul which be could not 1ealst, when The
! passing weakness which followed that Gpasm
Of pain had paa.sa, he raissd hinsslf upon
the pillows and sent on With bis history.
Another year dragged BY, and I was in a
city Of France. How these twelve months
passed I did not know, it Was one, struggle
i'against the bondage os my VOWS. think
calmly here That mime, Geueyra, rang in
my ears as if some unseen lips took delight in
| repeating it i; turn where might that tacs
haunted me. At mass or prayer, in my lone
| ly room and in the crowded Etreets, those fea-
! lures rose before me and blotted out all con-
sciousness Of the reality. could find no re-
| lief, dared not eeek confession, for knew
that could find no absolation for sin like
mine.
AT length vas taken III, but with no
physical malady; inceasant struggles had
worn out al strength, and lay upon my bed
consumed with fever which had no name,
but which seemed burning my very heart to
a-hea. Death waa near me, bnt he brought
neither healing nor resignation; prayed
madIy for release, any torture would have
been preferable to that which had so long
endured But youth and suffering we're too
strong for death ; once more rose from my
couch aud went forth to ths solemn duties
Hhch 1o..haJ an5 .hh.-ro5 bscon~so 49, +1,a1 ~
| made ne q slave.
Ind hen sent tbi,brr to dcc;de so1na accfos;.
| a,tjca] fif1icn,tv for hvnocr;tr thatI was
| thav believed ~ f.;thfx1 snr ~ ~ ~,
clurch, and was fast going on toward lofty
station among ia chosen disciples.
*0ne evening q Fr.est Of the chapel con-
| neeted with the monastry at which l was
| eonfegsIona1 being called thence i5y hn.;n .s.
eennrcted vitI, ia profession r.nsontsd
- was nat in mv nnwer to refnsa-hnt h..
I ehrunk from myself and tie sacrilece I va.
committing How coull I grant .ai;solntion
to The noor sinner /. Who gas snnt in i3a.th
Of ouilt. from which tie most hardened wori1
have rccollcd with terror!
tI tonE nv seat in Tho confessional ,r,;,h
Wa senarated from The cbnrch hy >. w;do
gloomy corridor Uwas already mn at end
the room was dim With lladogs Of the co,niuo
night. At intervals broken strains from the
organ broke in from the church. mourrfuI
and faint as funeral hymn. diving aVay
among tue arches with a culver Of nain nd
anguish like that of q human yoice.
Zone after smother. came sin.laden mani.
ftcnts, kuceliu2 in tbcir humility 10 rpc-;vc
consolation and benedictions from me. How
sbuddered at the contrast between the net
ty failing., for which they sought to make re-
paration, and the great sin nhich Law lika Z
cloud upon nv soul. Each in his turn went
away relieved and quieted, leaving mc in The
glootn of tho chamber.
Suddenly stcp drew ncar-it thril1od
along every nerve az il it Ind fallen unon nv
heart. With the first sound Of that voice +
knew the speakcr-oh, God forrivc Tho
-
The words Of her confession fell I;stinctlv
on nv car, could repeat them. Int cvrn
ROW dare not trust myselC She told M hnr
sufferings, her remorse, she loved where lire
was forbidden, aud I, I was the Object, I
heard it, from ler own lips, l heard tie ayon..
al which proved her mine. Oh, | Was mad.
help me to believe it! 1 uttered a cry:at
the sound Of nv voice l heard moan. a
heavy fall, and knew that she had faint
ed,
i burst opcn the door and saw Gene,ra
living motlonless upon the ground. orcrnou.
cred BIZ anguish and surprise, caught her
in NV arms in the frenzy of the moment
clasped ler to my heart, utscring her name in
wild entrcaty. She revived. she knew mr.,
Her head saak unou nv bosom. nv lisses ie1l
bot and fevered upon her lip.. Mudly I
spoke, revealing ali, and sho listened sileuc.
Cd and entranced by my voice. Whittier
PASSIONS whirl might have hurried me will
not think, but Gods angels sared us both
Even as clasptd her in q closer eml,racn n
peal Of thunder shook the building to its yc.
~ foundations. and sudden sterm hcat il,
its ft,ry against the easement, The licbtniu~
streamel in Illuminating the apartments wjt,
its iurll flame. and seemed 10 cucircle us Win
il. iiery tongue. That fearful scene brourht
ro,cap h,.t- Cnrnr,, pueh,,1 w., F,,,, T..
tsr the most hardened lcart would have tre,n.
h1el n,njd tle strance strife ff the ,.1omnntz
and there W. stood humbled. vretchcd Int
penjtcu1,
4Each fed anxioua on1v IN cscano from ,ha
sight oftkc otbtfI an thirty.tiyc nov,
and since that tjua we have nevr1 mot 1,m
t]vinr. Int That fova viii outlivc life It VII
20 with me into e1ernity : but throu@1 su1t1r.
inc and rcpcutance It has hcco1uo nur;fc1
and holy,
Once, since came to America. only ,ear
ago. saw a man connected Win Grneyro:s
family. 50 kuor that she is near. Nv snir;t
will seek hers, Tor feel that she is still liyinr
at leas. may learn Thy ,7c have been Tins.
sore1v tried.
h fiji hack on The hea flint drinc If
strength bud onlv bceu given 10 finish thai
mourntul ta1e. Ills hreatb came in nuicl-
na1nf1l % strua"1es ~ ~ ~'' 0"'s - d'l@A'
PRAY. pray.' he murmurc1 ~,
seized The book Of dcyotions. and Inv thu
nirlt iamp bcran to read. ria dawn xoS
stTnorlinr III, la;nt and cror. It ncrrc1 IN
tilronsh tue curtains. aud Itll round that
wasted form like the folds of n sbrouil.
Suddenly there was step in the hall tho
sufferer raised hinse1f: 1irbt enmo tn his erc
color to his cheek.
tuer step-heayen is marclful.'
4 woman entered eoilly as i shadow. and
sauk uuon her knees by thc he'd.
7 hid M STRENGTH to resist . md nm he,e
Sneak to ne-on]y oucc-itis ali ask!
Ills eyes were ixel On lers-that voice
might have reused tue dead. uc threw IN
bis ,rn,s Win = n,,t;on hor bo,rt v,s ,,,;as.