Sioux City register. [volume] (Sioux City, Iowa) 1858-1871, 1859-09-01

suOmlt6U 70 D0r embrace. 0e recent
parting. Of which she was instinctivel,
aware, accounted to her for my agitation
and caprice ssd aten I hurriedly said
that I Ieosld 80 NOV. but would com.
agais ~ = ssked no question
bat psssssd 1 sooi sips sgain to mine
which barot Mo live ernbers, and, with a
whispered blessing, let me go.
l fed home, her soft caresses, clinging
to my lips, her s~set voice Ginning in nv
ear. while within me WAS sn insane tumut
l reached my own room, snatched pen
Gil and sscrap Of papsr, and wrote:
"Come to ne I nust see you for a
moment. Do not lsa~e wishout coming to
me, or you never see me again" -
This ] committed to an old sad trusted
servant, and, ere thought he had time to
deliver il. Mr.. kinlock vas announced.
In the same room that had witnessed
our tender parting Of IN hour ago now
confronted the traitor. He saw the Wild
fire in my eye, and became pale and un-
nerved. l stood. and in naughty aud
trigid tones demanded if he had ever loved
before he knew me. As if aware he was
discovered, be commenced in depre catin g
strain: .... ..-
| "At first did adore twlnklinz star
| But nov l vorship-'
"Silence !" exclaimed; I" how dare you
mock me with such bombast ?" And then
the food gates of ,ny wrath and love gave
way, and | poured upon him the full tide
Of my indignation and despair.
With agony depicted on my countenance
he sunk a. my feet; but spurned him
away. tore from my finger the ring it
had 80 short time worn, and cas-. it be-
fore him and then. with fierce determine.
ton, commanded him from my presence,
never, never to appear in it again.
He entreated me TO be heard, but | re
fused. Pleaded to be permitted one word,
but | would have none. l told him | had
never loved him, knew it by my present
feelings. Had loved him, ! should hate
him now, whereas. only experienced in
difference and contempt. ! scorned his
DISSEMINATION, loathed his perfdy, and de
sired to be rid Of his presence. Oh how
he writhed and WINGED under those bitter
words saw the pain / was intlicllny,
and exulted in it. At length | pu, an end
to the scene by ordering him from my
sight; and Autographed upon my memory
now is the las, fond, frenzied glance which
he turned upon me as be rushed from the
house.
Oh! that could close my story here
that l could say the scathing misery Of
tha, hour was the severest was to under
go; but alas l had only felt the rod, the
sword was to pierce me yet.
did not learn it Immediately. for the
morning papers were carefully put out of
my way; but this fact, in connection with
a peculiar tenderness toward me ia the
manners Of both my mother and step ia.
ther, raised vague suspicious of unknown
evil. /"
After breakfast my mother took me to
her room, seated me beside her, and then
it was told me-toId gently and cautious
ly, the worst KEEP, for the last but it was
| ni told me. Mr.. kinlock was dead, had
died by his own hand. The previous eve
ming he went on board the Norfolk boat
just before she was ready to start. He
was observed to be in state of feverish
excitement. In few minutes the report
of pistol issued from the cabin, where
he was alone, the other passengers being
on deck. They FASTENED to ascertain the
cause of the sound. The lieutenant lay
on the floor, his right hand grasping the
weapon the bullet was in bis heart.
My mothers kind preface and after
soothing were unheard this alone reach
ed my excited brain-HE WAS A SUICIDE
He had gone to judgment with his own
blood upon his head, and had driven him
to it. Midnight darkness was around me.
le"thsome, creeping things were over me.
felt their cold slime upon my skin. while
fends were rending my yitals. l would
have sought relief in shrieking, but had
not sufficient strength. would have ia
ken refuge in swoon, hut was not weak
enough. My strength and my weak ness
com mbatted, my will overcome them both.
lrose to my feet, said ! would 60 to Char
loue, and, seizing the first bonnet came
| to, left the house.
don't know how ! got to my Uncles
! only remember the scene that await. d
me there. On the floor Of the break fast
room lay my cousin in a pool Of blood, the
servants rushing wildly around my uncle
in state Of distraction. +" He,aorrage o,
the lungs said the Doctor but wha.
caused it? ! could have told. She had
received the dread intelligence, not from
soft and loving lips, while warm arm
enfolded her, but had read it, without pre-
face, coldy detailed by a hackncyed par
agrapbisI Nor had her gentle spirit bsen
prepared by any previous shock but in
the midst VI love. confidence, and hope,
the blow had como and she sunk. bleeding
aud insensibls, beneath its weight.
BY CharIotle's bed WAS now my post
Her danger diverted my mind from its
great woe, and kept my reason on it.
throne. She and had loved as sisters
and now tended her with an energy tina