The weekly pioneer and Democrat. [volume] (Saint Paul, Minn. Territory) 1855-1865, 1859-08-04


frequent companionship in her lonely dwell.
ing yet no hint Of another or dearer friend,
no allusion to him who had superseded Inc
in her gentle heart her secret was toe
precious to be handled even by me- But my
intuition was strong and acute, especially
where loved; and now that was con-
stantly in her company-my uncle's house
being only few blocks from ours--l dis.
covered, in trflles the most minute, an insight
Of the whole affair.
My uncle was professor OF religion, and
member of the same church as my father
but of more stern and rigid views and prin-
ciples he required his family to walk in a
certain line, and forbade that the taint Of
the world should come upon his household
A naval officer Of gay tastes and associa-
tions was he who had the first place in
Charlotte's heart. The brother Of q school
mate, she had become acquainted with him
in early girlhood and ere the down had
gathered on his cheek, or her understanding
was formed, their troth had been given TO
each other.
Poor Charlotte She had seen her hap
piest days henceforth her lite was to b.
made up Of concealmrnt, anxiety, aud sell
reproach. The pious father, into whose
sober presence the gay young sailor dare not
enter, was not TO hear the story OF his
daughters love, and lest through any chan
mel it should reach his ears, the secret was
TO bc carefully locked within her own bosom.
She continued to visit the sister OF her aili
anced, through whom the correspondence Of
the lovers was maintained. Their interviews
we're few and short, and conducted with the
utmost caution they met in fear and parted
in doubt. Educated as she had cen, this
was not course which Charlott's own
conscience could approve. Her heart con
demned her, and bitterly did she mourn over
the fatal spell which she had not the power
TO break.
You wondered how learned all this; il
was merely surmisc none Of il was told
but loving her as did, and being so much
in her company, no phase OF her varying
countcnancc was unnoticcd, no lightest word
or simples, act passed UNDECIDED 1t was
not long until she observed that she was
being read, and saw that she observed it.
Finally she arrived at the perfect conscious
ness that her whole heart was bare beior,
me. and knew she was conscious OF il
Still no open confidence was asked or given
On every other subject we were ns free as
sisters this one, by tacit consent, was
avoided.
All this time, my own spirit groaned IN
der an unsa,isfed longing. Ny cousin,
secret attachment interested me its mys
terry gave me mental occupation. Instead o
dslkiDg my rival, as otherwise should,
took from him my IDEAL the navy with nj
its wild and dangerous glory, became invest
cd with the charm, the sea ever sparkled be
fore my Imagination, and blue Jacket wa
interviewer with all my dreams OF romance
IL was while my mind was in this uorbit
state, dinontentcd with the blessings Of {
favored lot, and yielding TO the iddAtrou'
wishes OF perverted nature, that my gay
friends arranged party for water excur
sion. ] would have been delighted ii IN,
beloved cousin would have shared in th
pleasure but from the society OF the world
by her fathers strict laws, she was prohib
tied. In fashionable life ! had never cnjoycc
her dear companonship; her attendance i
would, Therefore. have been IN vain b. soil
cit
What need that | shoul describe 'h,
party. the scenes or occurrences OF that day
i cannot They swim before my memory
az an iDlisiinct vision th" only clearly-d,
fned portion 0i which is q lordly form, :
dark, proud, intel, c'nal eye, aud q v0ic'
who.r ilexiblr chords thrilled through every
chamber OF my brain. 10 explain soin'
ol the officer Ot "A maE-0t war. thou anchorc'
10 the bay. were Of our company, IN one o
whom | recngniz d the id.al n my dtenms
Nv heart throbe,d my nerves bc,me pain
fully agi;a,ed ~ ! found myself the otjec
of b.s gallant attentions sHl on tha
gorgeou. summer day. while floating oyel
the bup tide of the besutiiul Chesapeake,
drank my frat deep draugh' Of love
And Bow. wi,hglt thought, reflection, n
concern. gave myself mp to this sw"e
eu,hrallment. Mr. kiulock had not long u
stay in Baltmorc, his ship being ubder
saiii " orders ho.. then could ] refus'
myself the pleasure Of seeing him ever
available opportunity! swiftly the day
fed happiness inteu-', almost insupporta
be, was nine, 'or ! had The blessed assuf
arc, that ! was ioyed loved 10 the inl
MEASURES OF ny yearning BE- who had wo'
my heart delighted 10 open h. o1n and sho1
M the place ! occupied as hrsi and .o'
.oyer sign there II was enough dszzl.'l
intoxicated. eurap,ured. earth -h0ne - !
Illuminated by ,hou.abd sun. my pa'bsa,
yill,fed a. inough paved With gems No
vas On. thpggh, tor The eDdi's. future mn
sIei with ny preSen, JOY, Wha, signiii'1i
% m tha, nv lover knew no, my father
TOD tha, b. paWsd ., 30 -hriSe, ~OrshipJ,
DO d'1iy my 0su heart ~as equally cana
ADD my sogl. x,h al ~ brighi lbielligebo.
"a. strait tsioTe 40 e,fihly DO.
Love knows b0i 10 mea-ufc Of ,ims
WIEN ,kir- are far AID V,n,l. p'op.'iJu'
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