St. Charles City Republican intelligencer. [volume] (St. Charles City [Charles City], Iowa) 1857-1861, 1859-09-08

y man of God.
t Alb, we'll suppose my emotio,
y did look very like the tender passion
h which speaks usually only 10y tears
bushes, trembling, and kisses. NJ,
( upward glance caught sight of per
| picked and panied look, and saw i
melt into an expression of sorrowfu
. rcproof.
Ills thought came to like a stab. Fo,
! moment | was indignant, and turned
angrlly away. That action too might
De naturally misunderstood. 1t looked
like quick, girlish shame. There is
. but One who can read hearts Alright.
How shall | undcccivc him was
: my absorbing thought for a week af.
terward and then | came TO the dc.
termination never to take means to
convince him of his error. To be con.
WINGED 10y my direct act would cruelty
mortify him. | would carefully con
ccal my knowledge of his suspicion
and the truth must surely manifest
itself in time. | would not abatc one
expression of my loving reverence.
lie should learn to recognize it for
what 1t really was. | could safely
smile at him, and yet honor him.
And so the next time | met him, it
was with the same impulsivc abandon
to the only feeling had for him, which
| knc" to be a good and worthy one.
never set watch upon my words
or actions. Truth will out" said,
and the sooner, if act naturally as
my feelings dictate"
forgot that prcconccved opinion
may throw glamour over the wisest
eyes.
Believing as he did of me, how gent
~ did he deal with me! He would
have me cured by my own inward
sense of right, and not by his harsh,
outward act. So his manner to me
was guarded and patcrnal, but tender
y consldcratc mine to him was ever
atfcctionately, zcaIousl Y respectful, and
utterly Ignored his secret suspicion
This was wrong on both sides He
thought, She is trembling on the
brink Of cul pability but so long as |
steady her there, and she does not fall,
| am blamclcss."
He should have led his sheep back
to safe pastures, even by shame and
terror.
said, smiling inwardly, He be-
lcvcs that he fills my hcart--but he is
self ltdcccivcd--l am blamclcss.'
should not have compromised my
woman's dignity, nor laid my purity
open to suspicion to spare his feelings.
Our friendship was undermined by
tins mutual talscncss. wish he had
bravcly taken me to task, and | had |
roundIy replied to him. Instead of
that he simply tried by studied tone,
and guarded word, and little chilling
ways to ward oil my affection, and |
laughed at his taking these pains for
nothing, and then mourned the last
pleasure OF confidence and frank In
tcrcn"rSc.
:. otntr e'ils followed. The same re-
nance nance ~ o'herS ",'ich once led me to
oooot ~ all nanN'hd against my better
H'l''r. no" pc@ah To make me HiS-
u 7 t'"S'lu' >, h'ySei. lie Is wiser than
> my Ie''S Sa'" perhaps he reads
me more clearly 'nah 90 myself
'I'I 50 ne9ah 10 be conscious and
q" h"'ru III t'e presence OF our min
'''ei' VINO was a''hoSta da'ly guest,
HOW '''a1 my la'ncf was III again.
Cc"'u no ioilSer lccl indifferent about
MS SuSP'cioh' nor amused at 1T. 1t
"c'S..eu upon my i'!na, ana ihaue my
cyc,las prone 70 talI' ana my color
SWrat 10 rise IN his presence.
= l9ei, came pahSS OF remorSc Tor
'"'c'cd SIN ana seasons when my
reason Indignantly repeilcd the
t"""S!lI oA any "foh? III snort, such
d hoaale OF iI'aS that was almost
u!Sutac'eu; 1 hao neeh careless OF my
olSh'y' l anew. hau oeeh careless
ol my fccti'"uc lhis torlnehtinG
question SO pursued me That had no
peace nor rest. -.
haa oeeh III tlc haoit Oh walking
past inc states Irison every morning
since my rel'ifh from Europe, but now
1 @eSah 70 iear 4 iiaa no flSht TO give
hyseli thc Indulgence OF tins sad
pleasure. vas Sooo enough 1or the
Q -,
wearing out ms oest days there This
tnouShl caused my oittcrcst tears.
nat a strange haiiucinatlon l was
unuer Not itom a sense OF general
1nwottn'hess' ior ."a1 'ec' TO TINS
uay; out Oh "or'h'hcss IN thc par
'lc",ar oi not loving Albert with my
"',"'e hSaft;
ohc aay l lo"hu, upon my return
non'c i'o''' ln'' "a,h' '''a' Mr; rh'1'ips
'''o come III d 'a'''aSe 10 take me 10
some man VINO was cyihS' ana wished
10 see me MY 'a'her was well
enough To accompany u.s. ana as en-
| 'efeo 'he m'seranic ooarding-house
cnamoer OF tie SICK man leaning upon
ms arm ne at once recognized IN the
lnValid the coniiaehtlai clerk OF the
urn Albert had once belonged to.