Sioux City register. [volume] (Sioux City, Iowa) 1858-1871, 1859-09-01

Wh1cn ChariOtteB own conscience could
approve. Her heart condemned her, ant
bitterly yllh she mourn over the fatal speI
which - had not the power to break.
You wondered how I learned all this
it was merely surmise, none Of it was
told; but loving her as did, and being
90 much in her company, no phase Of he'
varying countenance was unnoti61B ht
lightest word or simplest act passed IN
needed. II was not long Until she OBJ
served that she vas being read, and I saw
that she observed It. Finally she arrived
at the perfect consciousness thas bel
whole heart was bare before n D1|
knew that she kxs conscious Of Z 1I!
no open confidence had been asked OF
given. On every other subject We were al
free as sisters; this one, by tacit consent
was avoided. .-.-...
At this time, my own spirit groancd un.
der an unsatis6ed longing, My cousin
secret attachment interested me its mys
terry gave me mental occupation. Instead
OF dislIkins my rival, as otherwise should
l took from him my ideal: the navy, witt
all its wild and dangerous glory, because
invested with charm; the sea eve,
sparkIed before my imagination, and 9
blue jacket was interviewer with all my
dreams Of romance.
1t was while my mind was in this NOR
bid state, discontented with the blessing,
Of favored lot, and yielding to the lido
latrous wishes Of perverted nature, thai
my gay friends arranged . party for o
water-excnrsion. l would have been de-
lighted if my beloved cousin could have
shared in this pleasure but from the So
ciety Of the world, by her fathers strict
laws, she was prohibited. In fashionable Il
life ! had never enjoyed her dear compa-
niunsbip her atte endance it would, there.
fore, have been in vain to solicit.
What need that | should describe the
party the scenes or occurrances Of that
day? ! cannot they swim before my
memory as an indistinct vision, the only
clearly defined portion Of which is lordly
form, dark, proud, Intellectual eye, and
a voice whose flexible chords thrilled thro
every chamber Of my brain. To explain
some OF the officers of man.of war, the n
anchored in the bay, were of our compa.
ny. in one Of whom I recognized the deal
Of my dreams. Ny heart ,hrobbed, my
nerves became painfully agitated, as
found myself the object Of his gallan, at.
.entions and, on that gorgeous summer
day, while floating over the blue tide OF
the beautiful Chesapeake, drank my
first deep draught Of love.
Aad, now, without thought, reflection
or concern, ! gave myself up to his swee,
enthralment. Mr.. K:nlock had not long
to stay in Baltimore, his ship being under
sailing orders; how, then, could I refuse
myself toe pleasure OF seeing him every
available opportunity? Swiftly the days
fled happiness intense. almost insuppor-
table, was mine, for had the blessed as
surance that was loyed--loved to the
full measure of my yearning he who had
won my heart delighted to open his own
and show me the place occupied as frs,
and sole sovereign there. II was enough
dazzled, intoxicated, enraptured, earth
shone as il Illuminated by a thousand
suns my pathway gli,tered ss though
paved with gems. Nor was one care for
the endless future mingled with my pres
ent JOY. What signifed it to me that my
lover knew not Lny father God, that be
bowed at no shrine, wor.bipped no dei.yl
my own heart was equally carnal, and my
soul, with oil its bright intelligence, was
PROSTATE before an earthly idol.
Love knows not the measure of time.-
When skies are fair, the winds are propit
ioas, the bark Of Cupid glides swiftly on,
and days become as years in the progres ..
the happy voyagers make in heart -intima
cy. 1t was SO with Us, and, during the
few weeks from our first meeting to the
day on which bis gallant shir left her an
chor, Mr.. Kinlock and had lived whole
age Of bliss.
He was now gone, and returned again
to the ordinary social routine; but how
changed the aspect Of my life, how tame
and dull and commonplace the world ap-
pearod without himl How had I lived
before knew his lover How should
live sgain il deprived Of it7 But this
impossibility was not to be thought of
and | Tus away the dread query unan-
swered. w
/ Ny visits to Charlotte we're resumed -.
Few and hasty they had been of late /; bu
she devined the cause, and her loving
heart sympsthized in my new found hap
piness. Yet no word of confidence pass
ed between Ms. l could not tell my tale
Of Joy to her whose spirit groaned under
the burden of q secret betroihal, and whose
lonely way was seldom cheered by tbs
sight Of him who Was herai What 9
strong bond Of union must have existed
between our spirits-thst gentle girls and
mine-tbat without any outwar! c,mmu-
n'cstion, our experiences we're known t.
each other. te OF the state Of her heart
had long been aware; aud when shs
strsipA me to her bosom, food of tear,
gushing from her eyes. felt that she hsC
been reading the, happy story of mine
and no word MAS necessarv In assn.a ~, =